THE
VNBVRTHEning
of
a
loaden
Conscience
.
WHosoeuer
you
are
that
shall
purpose
to
read
or
heare
any
part
of
this
booke
,
I
beseech
you
that
of
your
charitie
,
you
will
grant
vnto
me
these
two
requests
:
First
,
to
beleeue
that
I
in
making
,
and
putting
foorth
this
booke
,
intended
the
glorie
of
my
Sauiour
,
the
good
of
Christened
people
,
and
the
hurt
of
no
creature
.
Secondly
,
to
shew
such
fauour
,
compassion
,
and
patience
,
towards
mee
,
as
you
your selfe
towards
your selfe
expect
from
the
Lord
Iesus
.
Now
I
beginne
.
IT
pleased
the
good
Lord
God
to
vnburthen
my
conscience
by
repentance
,
and
beleefe
in
Iesus
Christ
;
whereunto
with
verie
much
adoe
I
was
brought
by
the
knowledge
of
Gods
word
,
and
the
consideration
of
mine
owne
verie
miserable
,
and
most
dangerous
state
.
Among
those
parts
of
the
holy
Bible
,
which
God
made
me
in
some
measure
to
vnderstand
,
I
had
speciall
vse
of
his
tenne
Commandements
,
and
therewith
also
of
the
first
verse
of
the
20.
chap.
of
Exodus
,
as
here
it
followeth
.
And
,
&c.
This
first
word
hath
respect
vnto
some
things
mentioned
in
the
chapter
next
before
,
specially
the
Lords
comming
downe
from
heauen
vnto
the
top
of
mount
Sinai
in
fire
,
and
the
comming
of
the
Israelites
out
of
their
campe
,
beeing
brought
forth
by
Moses
,
to
meet
with
God
.
Touching
the
comming
forth
of
the
people
,
I
find
that
they
were
first
prepared
by
cleansing
themselues
,
and
washing
their
clothes
;
secondly
,
limited
,
that
they
should
not
come
too
neere
vnto
the
hill
:
thirdly
,
presented
and
set
before
the
face
of
God
by
Moses
.
Hereby
I
learne
,
that
whensoeuer
I
am
to
reade
or
heare
Gods
word
,
to
pray
,
or
to
sing
vnto
him
,
I
must
first
prepare
my selfe
,
by
putting
away
all
euill
thoughts
,
and
naughty
affections
;
secondly
,
I
must
be
very
humble
,
auoiding
all
presumption
;
thirdly
,
I
must
present
my selfe
before
the
maiestie
of
God
,
in
the
name
of
Iesus
Christ
,
euen
as
if
hee
tooke
mee
by
the
hand
,
and
brought
me
into
the
presence
of
his
Father
,
The
neglecting
of
these
three
necessarie
points
,
I
know
by
mine
owne
experience
,
is
verie
dangerous
:
for
the
doing
of
holy
seruices
with
an
vnreuerent
heart
,
is
a
readie
way
to
make
a
partie
most
vncapable
of
Gods
grace
;
because
the
custome
of
abusing
the
meanes
of
saluation
,
doth
not
onely
prouoke
the
Lord
vnto
great
indignation
,
but
also
hardeneth
the
heart
,
and
bringeth
it
to
that
passe
,
that
without
some
extraordinarie
meanes
,
it
cannot
be
effectually
wrought
vpon
.
And
God
,
&c.
]
God
is
the
first
beginning
,
as
of
all
good
,
so
specially
of
religion
:
therefore
he
that
will
be
religious
,
must
first
and
foremost
,
steadfastly
beleeue
that
there
is
a
God
,
Heb.
11.6
.
And
God
spake
,
&c.
]
The
second
ground
,
or
beginning
of
religion
,
is
the
word
,
and
speech
of
God
,
which
holy
men
by
his
direction
,
and
appointment
,
did
write
in
the
books
of
the
olde
and
new
Testament
.
It
is
a
speciall
fauour
of
God
to
make
his
word
knowne
vnto
any
man
,
woman
,
or
child
;
because
the
propertie
of
it
is
to
make
vs
wise
,
and
holy
,
fit
for
euerlasting
blisse
in
heauen
.
2.
Tim.
3.15.16
.
Whereas
our
Sauiour
Christ
made
his
Apostles
Ministers
of
his
word
,
and
gaue
them
commission
to
ordaine
others
,
and
those
also
to
ordaine
others
from
time
to
time
,
vntill
the
worlds
ende
,
is
a
question
how
the
Ministers
of
the
now
publikely
allowed
Church
of
England
,
can
prooue
their
calling
from
Christ
by
the
Apostles
,
&c.
seeing
that
the
now
church
of
Rome
,
is
between
them
and
the
Apostles
time
?
I
will
breifly
declare
my
setled
beleefe
in
this
point
by
way
of
comparison
.
A
certaine
noble
man
did
by
his
will
appoint
,
that
a
great
part
of
his
goods
should
be
employed
to
such
,
and
such
good
vses
,
so
and
so
,
vntill
the
worlds
end
:
for
the
performance
of
this
,
he
did
chuse
certaine
feoffers
of
trust
,
giuing
order
that
they
should
choose
others
,
and
those
others
from
age
to
age
.
The
first
feoffers
had
in
their
time
,
very
much
adoe
to
keepe
the
noble
mans
will
from
beeing
wronged
.
Many
hundred
yeares
after
that
,
it
came
to
passe
that
some
beeing
orderly
chosen
feoffers
,
were
fully
perswaded
that
in
many
things
the
wil
was
wronged
.
Hereupon
,
they
claimed
reformation
,
but
others
resisted
them
,
yea
,
and
pursued
them
to
the
death
,
killing
diuerse
of
them
.
Those
which
escaped
the
hands
of
their
aduersaries
,
continued
their
claime
of
reformation
,
and
made
choise
of
others
to
succeede
them
in
their
office
.
These
be
the
ministers
of
the
Church
of
England
.
If
an
honest
man
were
asked
what
is
in
this
case
to
be
done
?
he
would
say
,
the
written
will
is
to
be
stood
vpon
,
and
to
be
made
knowne
.
The
Bible
is
that
wil
;
which
the
Romane
feoffers
haue
no
mind
to
make
known
,
nor
can
endure
the
publishing
thereof
in
vulgar
languages
,
that
all
people
might
heare
it
read
in
their
Churches
:
alleadging
this
reason
,
that
as
they
iudge
,
if
common
people
had
Gods
word
in
their
owne
tongue
,
they
would
rather
take
hurt
,
then
good
by
it
.
To
my
silly
vnderstanding
,
this
is
a
very
strange
reason
:
Of
all
other
books
is
Gods
booke
so
dangerous
?
Then
why
did
the
Lord
giue
his
word
,
the
old
Testament
,
vnto
his
beloued
nation
the
Israelites
,
in
their
owne
tongue
?
yea
,
and
lay
such
charge
vpon
them
to
read
it
,
and
to
heare
it
?
What
was
the
reason
that
when
a
woman
said
vnto
Christ
,
Blessed
is
the
wombe
that
bare
thee
,
and
the
pappes
which
thou
hast
sucked
:
I
say
,
what
was
the
reason
that
our
Lord
made
her
this
answer
;
Yea
rather
blessed
are
they
that
heare
the
word
of
God
and
keepe
it
?
I
say
againe
,
why
did
he
say
so
,
if
it
be
better
for
people
not
to
heare
,
then
to
heare
Gods
word
?
By
the
way
,
bee
it
remembred
,
that
the
Sonne
of
God
saith
,
It
is
a
blessednes
to
heare
Gods
word
,
and
the
Pope
who
taketh
vpon
him
to
be
the
deputie
of
the
sonne
of
God
,
he
saith
,
it
is
not
a
blessednes
,
he
forbiddeth
it
.
If
any
vnderstanding
conscionable
Romane
catholike
,
were
betweene
God
,
and
his
owne
soule
,
to
tell
what
he
thinketh
to
be
the
maine
cause
,
why
the
Pope
doth
not
allow
Gods
word
to
be
commonly
bought
and
sold
in
Italie
,
Spaine
,
&c.
and
so
to
bee
read
in
churches
:
my
conscience
giueth
me
,
that
he
would
say
thus
;
It
is
very
likely
,
that
thereby
many
would
bee
drawne
from
his
obedience
,
and
many
things
which
are
nowe
in
great
request
among
the
people
,
should
then
bee
despised
.
As
surely
as
the
Lord
God
liueth
,
I
take
this
to
be
the
main
cause
.
A
great
number
of
things
in
that
religion
could
by
no
means
stand
,
if
the
book
of
God
were
commonly
to
bee
had
in
the
peoples
owne
language
:
Therefore
they
are
not
suffered
to
heare
God
speake
.
I
appeale
to
the
conscience
of
euery
man
,
whether
it
be
likly
that
those
things
which
are
of
God
,
shall
bee
put
out
of
request
by
the
word
of
God
?
It
is
not
likely
,
it
is
quite
contrary
.
I
doe
most
humblie
intreat
all
English
men
and
women
,
I
entreat
them
in
the
sight
of
our
Lord
Iesus
Christ
,
that
they
will
forbeare
to
beleeue
the
Romane
religion
,
vntill
it
haue
Gods
word
,
and
church-seruice
read
,
and
said
in
peoples
owne
languages
.
When
you
come
to
publike
seruice
,
call
it
masse
,
or
what
you
will
,
are
you
not
of
the
company
that
there
ought
to
ioine
in
praier
vnto
God
?
why
then
is
not
your
prayer
in
your
owne
tongue
?
why
is
it
in
Latine
?
Let
any
man
answer
,
as
I
aske
the
question
in
the
feare
of
God
:
what
reason
is
there
that
people
should
pray
,
or
ioine
with
any
,
praying
in
a
language
which
they
vnderstand
not
?
Is
it
not
much
to
be
feared
,
that
Satan
the
Prince
of
darkenes
hath
a
strong
hand
in
this
,
to
keep
poore
people
in
blindnesse
,
and
ignorance
?
I
haue
vpon
my
conscience
,
and
in
charity
,
without
any
thought
of
personall
reproch
vnto
any
one
,
made
bold
to
say
thus
much
.
If
any
in
zeale
of
that
religion
haue
a
minde
to
say
so
much
,
yea
tenne
times
so
much
to
mee
,
let
him
speake
in
the
feare
of
God
,
and
in
charitie
,
and
spare
not
.
Or
if
he
list
to
flie
vpon
me
with
words
of
choller
,
I
will
ioyne
with
him
,
to
say
much
more
against
my selfe
then
he
can
;
and
yet
leaue
him
to
iudge
himselfe
without
me
.
When
I
am
minded
to
reade
any
part
of
Gods
booke
,
I
must
kneele
downe
before
the
face
of
God
,
and
pray
thus
;
O
most
gracious
and
merciful
Lord
God
,
thou
hast
of
thy
great
goodnesse
vouchsafed
to
giue
vnto
me
thine
holy
Bible
,
which
is
able
to
make
me
wise
vnto
saluation
:
I
do
humbly
thanke
thee
for
it
,
and
heartily
I
beseech
thy
blessed
Maiestie
to
giue
me
the
grace
that
I
may
feruently
reade
it
,
rightly
vnderstand
it
,
and
diligenty
marke
it
,
thorough
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
Besides
the
meanes
and
helpes
to
vnderstand
the
Scriptures
,
as
the
proportion
of
Religion
contained
in
the
creed
,
and
commandements
,
the
circumstances
of
each
seueral
place
,
and
the
comparing
of
one
place
with
other
places
,
reading
of
expositions
,
and
hearing
other
mens
iudgements
;
our
Sauiour
giueth
a
very
notable
direction
for
the
attainement
of
speciall
aide
from
the
spirit
of
God
,
and
it
is
a
ready
way
for
a
man
to
come
to
the
knowledge
of
the
truth
touching
any
necessarie
point
in
controuersie
.
And
this
it
is
,
To
the
Iewes
doubting
whether
Christs
doctrin
were
of
God
,
yea
or
no
:
hee
said
,
If
any
man
will
doe
the
will
of
God
,
he
shall
knowe
of
the
doctrine
whether
it
bee
of
God
,
or
whether
I
speake
of
my selfe
,
Ioh.
7.17
.
The
conscionable
practise
of
those
duties
which
are
very
plainely
set
downe
in
Gods
word
will
,
in
,
and
through
Iesus
Christ
,
be
a
meanes
to
procure
vnto
vs
a
gracious
,
and
comfortable
inlightning
of
our
minds
,
to
vnderstand
the
minde
,
and
meaning
of
God
in
his
word
daily
more
&
more
:
for
the
secret
of
the
Lord
is
with
them
that
feare
him
,
and
he
will
shew
them
his
couenant
,
Psal.
25.14
.
If
I
come
to
a
place
of
Scripture
hard
to
bee
vnderstood
,
I
will
marke
it
,
and
so
stay
my selfe
,
in
hope
of
grace
from
God
at
his
good
pleasure
.
Reading
any
part
of
Scripture
very
leasurely
,
and
heedfully
,
I
must
endeauour
to
take
speciall
knowledge
of
some
principall
notable
points
,
and
then
commend
them
vnto
the
blessing
of
God
,
thus
.
O
most
mightie
,
and
mercifull
Lord
God
,
I
do
most
humbly
,
and
heartily
thanke
thee
,
for
that
thou
hast
made
me
in
reading
this
part
of
thy
Bible
,
to
vnderstand
,
and
mark
this
&
this
,
&c.
I
beseech
thee
,
that
if
I
haue
mistaken
any
thing
,
I
may
haue
grace
to
see
mine
error
,
and
to
leaue
it
:
I
beseech
thee
that
those
things
which
I
haue
rightly
vnderstood
,
I
may
well
remember
,
and
as
neede
shall
require
,
profitably
vse
,
to
thy
good
pleasure
,
and
glory
in
benefiting
my selfe
and
others
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thy
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
;
To
whome
with
thee
O
Father
,
and
with
the
holy
Ghost
,
three
persons
,
and
one
onely
good
Lord
God
be
all
praise
,
honour
,
and
glorie
,
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
Thus
much
of
Gods
word
.
And
God
spake
all
these
words
,
saying
.
]
Hee
that
made
one
commaundement
,
made
all
the
rest
;
therefore
I
must
not
presume
to
breake
any
one
of
them
,
but
,
if
I
will
not
bee
confounded
,
I
must
vprightly
intend
,
and
carefully
endeauour
to
bee
obedient
vnto
all
the
commandements
of
God
,
Psal.
119.6
.
Exod.
20.2
.
I
am
the
Lord
,
&c.
]
This
word
Lord
,
in
the
Iewes
language
is
called
Iehouah
,
and
signifieth
such
a
one
as
is
of
himselfe
,
and
giueth
beeing
vnto
all
things
else
,
specially
vnto
his
own
promises
,
which
hee
most
faithfully
,
and
powerfully
performeth
in
due
time
.
This
wonderfull
Lord
is
thoroughly
knowne
of
none
but
himselfe
;
yet
vnder
his
gracious
correction
,
I
do
thus
conceiue
of
him
:
The
Lord
Iehouah
is
a
spirit
,
single
,
durable
,
vnmeasurable
,
mightie
,
wise
,
holy
,
blessed
,
and
glorious
.
God
is
a
spirit
,
Ioh.
4.24
.
A
spirit
hath
not
flesh
and
bones
,
Luk.
24.39
.
Then
how
is
man
saide
to
hee
like
vnto
God
?
In
the
nature
,
and
properties
of
the
soule
.
Why
doth
the
Bible
sometimes
speake
of
God
,
as
if
he
had
eies
,
eares
,
hands
?
&c.
It
speaketh
according
to
our
capacitie
,
because
God
would
haue
vs
to
be
plainely
and
fully
perswaded
,
that
he
hath
sight
,
hearing
,
knowledge
,
power
,
&c.
God
is
a
single
spirit
,
farre
excelling
the
singlenes
of
any
Angel
:
for
an
Angel
,
as
also
the
soule
of
man
or
woman
,
hath
three
wants
of
perfect
singlenesse
.
First
,
in
euery
angel
there
is
a
beeing
,
for
it
is
a
certain
seuerall
thing
.
There
is
also
in
the
same
angel
a
possibilitie
to
bee
changed
into
some
other
thing
,
yea
into
nothing
:
because
the
angel
is
vnder
God
,
and
God
can
doe
vnto
it
whatsoeuer
hee
will
.
But
there
is
no
possibilitie
of
change
in
God
;
because
hee
is
vnder
none
.
Secondly
,
euery
angel
is
that
which
it
is
in
seuerall
,
and
thereby
he
differeth
and
is
knowne
from
all
other
angels
:
And
yet
the
same
kinde
of
nature
whereby
hee
is
that
which
he
is
,
is
also
in
other
angels
.
But
the
nature
of
God
,
whereby
hee
is
that
which
he
is
,
is
wholly
,
and
onely
in
himselfe
,
and
therefore
it
is
altogether
one
,
and
the
same
with
that
which
he
is
.
Thirdly
,
in
an
Angell
vnto
his
spirituall
nature
,
diuerse
things
are
added
and
ioyned
,
which
may
also
be
taken
or
put
away
,
as
wisedome
,
holynesse
;
power
,
&c.
But
all
perfections
are
in
God
,
as
in
the
fountaine
,
and
though
they
seeme
diuerse
vnto
vs
,
yea
.
some
appeare
to
be
quite
contrary
one
to
the
other
,
as
most
seuere
iustice
,
and
most
pitifull
mercie
,
yet
all
these
things
in
God
are
but
only
one
thing
,
and
that
is
his
most
single
nature
,
essence
,
and
beeing
.
The
truth
of
this
,
we
may
in
some
sort
perceiue
by
the
shining
sun
:
for
it
appeareth
vnto
our
eies
,
to
bee
a
very
single
,
pure
thing
;
all
that
we
can
see
in
it
,
is
nothing
els
but
light
,
most
exceeding
pure
,
cleare
,
and
peircing
light
:
yet
many
sundry
vertues
are
in
this
light
:
It
shineth
,
it
heateth
,
it
quickneth
man
,
beast
,
foule
,
fish
,
fruit
;
yea
it
seemeth
to
worke
contraries
,
as
softning
wax
,
hardening
clay
.
These
,
and
many
other
things
,
worketh
the
single
light
of
the
shining
sunne
.
Much
more
excellent
is
the
God
that
made
the
Sunne
.
In
his
most
single
nature
is
all
vertue
,
abilitie
,
and
efficacie
.
His
name
be
blessed
,
Amen
.
God
is
a
durable
spirit
:
not
onely
without
ending
;
for
so
hath
he
made
Angels
,
and
soules
,
yea
and
so
he
will
make
the
bodies
of
men
,
women
,
and
children
,
to
be
after
the
resurrection
;
but
also
the
Lord
God
is
without
beginning
.
Therefore
Dauid
saith
vnto
him
;
Psalm
.
19.2
.
From
euerlasting
to
euerlasting
thou
art
God
.
God
is
vnmeasurable
,
that
is
,
of
such
an
exceeding
infinitenes
that
he
filleth
,
yea
,
&
surpasseth
the
whole
compasse
of
heauen
and
earth
,
Ier.
23.24
.
2.
King
.
8.27
.
Yet
not
so
,
that
one
part
of
him
is
one
where
,
and
an
other
els
where
;
but
God
is
wholly
in
all
the
whole
world
,
and
wholly
in
euery
part
and
place
of
the
world
.
Then
why
is
it
said
,
that
God
is
in
heauen
?
And
why
are
we
willed
to
lift
vp
our
hearts
towards
heauen
,
when
we
pray
vnto
him
?
Because
his
pleasure
is
to
manifest
himselfe
in
glory
cheifely
in
heauen
,
and
from
heauen
.
Why
doth
the
Bible
say
,
that
God
is
with
good
folke
,
and
not
with
bad
?
Because
he
doth
graciously
acquaint
himselfe
with
those
that
serue
him
;
but
he
will
not
be
knowne
that
he
is
in
the
company
of
naughty
people
,
because
he
hateth
their
behauiour
.
Yet
he
is
where
they
are
,
&
heedfully
marketh
all
that
they
thinke
,
say
,
or
doe
;
purposing
to
call
them
to
an
account
,
and
to
give
iudgement
vpon
them
,
accordding
to
the
practise
of
their
liues
.
God
is
mightie
,
most
mighty
,
almightie
.
He
is
well
able
to
doe
any
worke
of
power
,
either
by
himselfe
without
meanes
,
as
hee
made
the
world
;
or
by
means
,
as
he
drownd
the
world
with
water
.
Sometime
his
pleasure
is
to
worke
by
meanes
,
but
aboue
the
nature
,
&
power
of
the
meanes
:
as
when
he
clensed
a
man
from
the
leprosie
by
the
water
of
the
riuer
Iordan
.
God
can
work
in
what
measure
of
power
he
will
.
The
least
measure
of
his
power
,
is
stronger
then
all
the
power
of
man
:
1.
Cor.
1.25
.
Hee
is
able
to
make
the
least
bit
of
bread
,
to
giue
so
much
nourishment
as
a
whole
loafe
.
It
pleaseth
him
sometime
to
work
more
by
one
man
then
by
another
;
yea
more
by
some
one
then
by
many
other
:
1.
Cor.
15.10
.
The
power
of
God
is
endlesse
,
limited
onely
by
his
owne
will
:
for
whatsoeuer
his
pleasure
is
to
doe
,
that
he
doth
,
Psal.
135.6
.
This
the
poore
leperous
man
beleeued
,
when
hee
said
vnto
the
sonne
of
God
,
Matth.
8.2
.
Lord
,
if
thou
wilt
thou
canst
make
me
cleane
:
whereunto
he
graciously
answered
,
saying
,
I
will
,
be
thou
clean
:
and
presently
the
Lord
touching
him
with
his
hand
the
foule
disease
was
cleane
gone
.
God
is
wise
:
he
onely
is
wise
,
Rom.
16.27
.
The
wisedome
of
Angels
and
men
is
his
gift
.
It
is
hee
that
giueth
wisedome
to
the
wise
,
and
knowledge
vnto
them
that
know
vnderstanding
,
Dan.
2.21
.
There
is
no
number
of
his
vnderstanding
,
it
is
endles
,
Psal.
147.5
.
From
the
beginning
of
the
world
he
foreknew
all
things
which
should
come
to
passe
,
euen
vntill
the
ende
,
&c.
Act.
15.18
.
He
knew
what
was
the
very
best
way
to
be
taken
in
making
,
continuing
,
altering
,
doing
,
or
suffering
any
thing
,
Psal.
104.24
.
Though
he
may
doe
what
he
will
,
because
he
is
the
most
high
Soueraigne
Lord
of
all
things
,
yet
he
doth
nothing
,
hee
suffereth
nothing
,
without
most
excellent
good
reason
:
and
yet
I
must
not
thereupon
presume
to
sinne
;
for
as
hee
hath
reason
to
suffer
a
man
to
sinne
,
so
hee
hath
reason
moouing
him
to
punish
the
partie
that
sinneth
;
yea
,
such
reason
,
that
S.
Peter
saith
,
the
righteous
be
scarcely
saued
,
1.
Pet.
4.18
.
God
will
beat
sinne
out
of
them
before
they
die
.
God
is
holy
,
most
holy
,
altogether
holy
,
pure
,
cleane
,
and
free
from
any
staine
of
euill
:
He
cannot
be
tempted
with
euill
,
Iam.
13.
Then
how
came
it
to
passe
that
so
many
angels
sinned
,
and
turned
to
be
deuils
?
Also
how
came
man
to
be
a
sinner
?
God
made
the
Angels
,
and
the
first
man
,
and
woman
,
very
holy
,
and
well
able
to
haue
kept
themselues
so
,
if
they
would
.
Yea
,
but
why
did
he
suffer
them
to
sinne
,
seeing
that
sinne
is
most
contrarie
vnto
his
holy
nature
?
Because
he
thereupon
took
occasion
to
shew
his
dreadfull
iustice
in
punishing
some
,
and
the
most
wonderfull
ioyning
of
mercy
and
iustice
in
sauing
others
.
The
iustice
of
God
requireth
that
euery
Angel
,
man
,
woman
,
and
child
be
tried
and
iudged
by
that
which
is
in
them
,
whether
it
be
righteousnesse
or
sinne
;
The
ioyning
of
Gods
mercy
and
iustice
together
,
is
thus
;
First
,
it
pleased
him
to
be
mercifull
vnto
such
,
and
such
,
Exod.
33.19
.
Secondly
,
he
appointed
,
that
they
vnto
whom
he
purposed
to
shew
mercy
,
should
be
ioyned
by
the
holy
Ghost
vnto
his
onely
Son
,
who
for
that
purpose
was
at
such
a
time
to
take
vnto
him
a
body
,
and
a
soule
,
and
so
being
both
God
and
man
,
after
a
most
holy
and
guiltlesse
life
,
to
suffer
a
cruell
death
,
to
purchase
for
them
the
forgiuenesse
of
sinnes
,
and
cleansement
from
their
wicked
inclination
,
Tit.
2.14
.
God
is
blessed
,
fully
blessed
,
exceedingly
blessed
.
He
that
is
fully
blessed
,
hath
freedom
from
all
manner
of
things
which
may
giue
him
any
discontent
:
and
not
onely
so
,
but
also
wanteth
nothing
that
may
content
or
delight
him
.
Such
is
the
blessednesse
of
Gods
chosen
seruants
,
not
in
this
world
,
but
in
heauen
:
for
the
Bible
saith
,
they
are
blessed
which
die
in
the
faith
,
and
fauour
of
the
Lord
,
that
so
they
may
rest
from
their
labours
,
and
their
works
follow
them
,
Reu.
14.13
.
Their
resting
from
labours
,
is
their
freedome
from
all
causes
of
discontent
;
Their
works
following
them
,
is
the
crown
of
euerlasting
contentment
,
giuen
vnto
them
in
regard
of
their
workes
,
and
farre
surpassing
all
possible
merit
in
them
.
This
blessednes
God
giueth
vnto
his
Saints
.
The
blessednes
which
he
hath
in
himselfe
differeth
from
this
,
not
onely
as
the
cause
from
the
effect
,
but
also
in
two
other
speciall
points
.
First
,
God
hath
his
blisse
of
himselfe
,
and
therefore
it
is
said
of
him
,
that
he
onely
hath
immortalitie
,
that
is
,
absolute
,
and
necessarie
freedome
from
death
,
1.
Tim.
6.16
.
Also
of
him
it
is
said
,
that
he
hath
the
well
of
life
,
Psal.
36.9
.
that
is
to
say
,
hee
is
the
very
first
cause
of
life
,
and
of
all
perfection
.
Secondly
,
the
blessednes
of
God
is
beyond
all
measure
,
most
exceedingly
exceeding
:
for
as
his
vnderstanding
is
infinit
,
that
is
,
endlesse
,
so
are
all
his
perfections
.
If
God
be
most
exceedingly
blessed
,
why
doe
we
oftentimes
say
,
Blessed
be
God
,
as
though
wee
wished
blessednesse
vnto
him
?
We
doe
praise
and
magnifie
his
blessednes
in
minde
,
and
in
word
,
by
acknowledging
and
publishing
the
same
;
yea
and
the
party
that
heartily
loueth
God
,
is
so
full
of
good
will
towards
him
,
that
he
cannot
but
wish
,
that
if
it
were
possible
,
God
might
bee
a
thousand
thousand
times
more
happie
and
blessed
then
he
is
.
And
such
is
the
most
honourable
,
and
gracious
kindnes
of
God
,
that
he
taketh
this
wish
in
verie
good
part
:
So
the
great
men
of
this
world
accept
the
good
will
of
their
poore
friends
.
God
is
glorious
.
Glorie
is
properly
the
goodly
shewe
,
seeming
,
sight
,
or
appearance
of
any
thing
.
It
also
many
times
signifieth
the
famous
report
of
some
notable
goodnesse
:
In
both
these
meanings
,
glorie
is
a
title
most
proper
vnto
God
.
Touching
goodly
shew
,
the
glorie
of
God
appeareth
two
wayes
,
in
himselfe
,
and
in
his
workes
.
In
God
himselfe
there
is
such
a
shining
excellent
maiestie
,
that
the
very
angels
are
not
able
to
endure
the
full
appearance
thereof
;
as
we
may
perceiue
by
the
vision
of
the
Prophet
Esay
,
who
did
see
certaine
verie
glorious
angels
before
the
face
of
God
couering
their
faces
,
Esa.
6.2
.
In
all
,
and
euery
of
Gods
workes
,
appeareth
a
shew
of
some
one
or
more
of
his
excellent
properties
,
as
of
wisedome
,
power
,
iustice
,
mercy
,
&c.
Esa.
6.3
.
The
whole
earth
is
full
of
his
glorie
.
Therefore
S.
Paul
saith
,
the
very
heathen
people
knewe
God
by
his
works
,
because
his
eternall
power
,
and
diuine
properties
do
in
his
works
by
the
creation
of
the
world
,
euidently
appeare
,
Rom.
1.
ver.
20.
Hee
whose
port
is
truely
glorious
,
is
worthy
of
a
glorious
report
;
and
that
principally
is
our
Lord
God
,
of
whose
most
stately
port
,
and
royall
behauiour
there
is
a
notable
report
,
Psal.
104.1
.
Blesse
thee
Lord
,
O
my
soule
:
O
Lord
my
God
,
thou
art
verie
great
,
thou
art
cloathed
with
honour
,
and
maiestie
,
&c.
God
appearing
in
his
works
so
gloriously
,
our
dutie
is
to
take
knowledge
of
his
glorie
,
and
to
do
what
we
can
to
make
the
same
knowne
vnto
others
.
One
great
cause
of
vndeuotion
,
and
coldnes
in
religion
,
is
the
not
considering
of
Gods
works
,
specially
that
most
admirable
worke
of
redemption
,
manifested
in
the
Gospel
:
Psal.
107.43
.
Whosoeuer
is
wise
,
and
will
marke
these
things
,
euen
they
shall
vnderstand
the
louing
kindnes
of
the
Lord
.
2.
Cor.
3.18
.
But
we
all
with
open
face
beholding
as
in
a
glasse
the
glorie
of
the
Lord
,
are
changed
into
the
same
likenes
,
from
glory
to
glorie
,
euen
as
by
the
spirit
of
the
Lord
.
2.
Cor.
4.6
.
For
God
who
commanded
the
light
to
shine
out
of
darkenes
,
hath
shined
in
our
hearts
,
to
giue
the
light
of
the
knowledge
of
the
glorie
of
God
in
the
face
of
Iesus
Christ
.
How
shall
wee
make
the
glorie
of
God
knowne
vnto
others
?
Two
waies
:
First
,
by
the
holynesse
of
our
life
,
that
so
others
may
see
the
glorious
working
of
Gods
grace
in
vs
,
Matth.
5.16
.
Secondly
,
by
the
due
praising
of
God
,
that
others
may
heare
the
report
of
his
glorious
acts
and
doings
:
Psas
.
145.12
.
To
make
knowne
vnto
the
sonnes
of
men
his
mightie
acts
,
and
the
glorious
maiestie
of
his
kingdome
.
It
is
a
question
,
whether
such
professed
Christians
,
and
specially
Church-ministers
,
as
haue
by
open
prophanenes
,
or
any
vnholy
behauiour
,
blemished
the
glory
of
God
,
be
not
bound
to
make
open
confession
,
that
so
,
what
in
them
is
,
they
may
salue
,
and
remedie
the
wide
wounds
which
they
haue
giuen
vnto
the
doctrine
,
and
religion
of
God
and
Christ
?
My
iudgement
in
this
point
,
shall
(
I
trust
in
God
)
appeare
by
my
practise
,
both
in
this
booke
,
and
also
in
the
residue
of
my
life
.
In
the
meane
time
this
I
professe
,
my
poore
soule
doth
vehemently
desire
to
giue
glorie
vnto
God
,
in
the
reuengefull
abasing
of
my selfe
,
for
the
greiuous
displeasure
,
&
great
dishonour
which
I
haue
all
my
life
long
caused
,
and
done
vnto
his
most
holy
maiestie
.
Thus
much
of
the
name
Iehouah
,
the
Lord
.
Thy
God
,
&c.
]
The
language
wherein
God
spake
these
words
,
readeth
thus
,
thy
Gods
,
as
speaking
of
more
then
one
.
This
,
whatsoeuer
the
poore
Iewes
say
to
the
contrary
,
sheweth
,
that
in
God
there
are
more
persons
then
one
:
which
persons
how
many
,
and
who
they
are
,
the
good
Lord
Iesus
beeing
one
of
them
,
doth
plainly
shew
,
in
saying
vnto
his
disciples
,
Matth.
28.19
.
—
teach
all
nations
,
baptizing
them
in
the
name
of
the
Father
,
and
of
the
Sonne
,
and
of
the
holy
Ghost
.
The
first
person
is
the
Father
,
who
begetteth
the
Sonne
,
O
most
marueilous
begetting
!
the
Sonne
is
as
olde
as
the
Father
:
the
Sonne
hath
the
very
selfe-same
nature
,
and
substance
with
his
Father
;
yea
,
The
second
person
in
the
godhead
,
is
the
Sonne
,
who
is
begotten
of
the
Father
,
as
a
word
is
begotten
of
a
mans
mind
,
and
therfore
he
is
sometime
called
the
Word
;
as
also
because
he
maketh
the
Father
,
and
the
Fathers
will
knowne
vnto
men
,
and
is
that
partie
concerning
whom
the
Father
gaue
his
word
that
he
would
send
him
into
the
world
to
saue
sinners
.
The
third
person
in
the
godhead
,
is
the
holy
Ghost
,
who
proceedeth
from
the
Father
,
and
from
the
Sonne
,
and
therefore
is
the
Spirit
of
them
both
,
and
he
is
in
either
of
them
both
:
also
both
the
Father
,
and
the
Sonne
are
in
him
.
Hee
is
called
the
Spirit
,
not
so
much
to
signifie
his
nature
,
as
to
shew
his
proceeding
;
because
he
is
spired
that
is
,
as
it
were
breathed
from
the
Father
,
and
from
the
Sonne
.
He
is
called
holy
,
not
onely
because
of
the
holines
of
his
nature
,
which
is
all
one
with
the
Father
,
and
with
the
Sonne
;
but
because
he
doth
sanctifie
,
that
is
,
maketh
holy
all
those
which
shall
be
saued
,
Rom.
1.4
.
All
and
euery
outward
worke
of
God
commeth
from
the
Father
,
thorough
the
Sonne
,
and
by
the
holy
Ghost
.
The
Father
beginneth
euery
worke
of
himselfe
,
working
in
,
and
through
the
Sonne
,
also
in
,
and
by
the
holy
Ghost
.
Therefore
the
making
and
beginning
of
heauen
and
earth
,
is
intitled
vnto
him
.
The
Sonne
worketh
in
,
and
from
the
Father
,
in
and
by
the
holy
Ghost
,
Therefore
the
redemption
and
Sauiour-ship
goeth
in
his
name
:
because
he
tooke
vnto
him
a
bodie
,
and
a
soule
,
and
so
being
both
God
&
man
,
purchased
our
saluation
,
and
saueth
vs
,
in
,
and
from
his
Father
,
in
and
by
the
holy
Ghost
;
Ioh.
4.19
.
The
Son
can
doe
nothing
of
himselfe
.
Mat.
12.28
.
But
if
I
cast
out
deuills
by
the
spirit
of
God
,
&c.
The
holy
Ghost
worketh
in
,
and
from
the
Father
,
in
and
from
the
Sonne
,
and
so
by
himselfe
finisheth
euery
worke
of
God
;
specially
the
sanctifying
,
and
cleansing
of
them
which
shall
bee
saued
:
and
therefore
he
is
called
the
sanctifier
,
or
the
cleanser
.
Thus
much
of
the
three
persons
in
one
God
.
Now
whereas
the
Lord
saith
,
[
I
am
thy
God
]
the
meaning
is
,
I
saue
thee
from
all
euill
,
and
bring
thee
to
euerlasting
blisse
,
Gen.
15.1
.
But
what
proofe
haue
I
that
the
Lord
is
my
God
?
He
further
saith
,
Which
haue
brought
thee
out
of
the
land
of
Egypt
,
out
of
the
house
of
bondage
.
These
words
were
indeed
first
spoken
,
&
written
vnto
the
children
of
Israel
,
whome
God
deliuered
out
of
the
slauish
bondage
,
and
great
miserie
,
which
they
had
long
endured
vnder
King
Pharaoh
in
Egypt
.
Now
I
ought
to
take
the
same
words
as
spoken
of
God
vnto
me
:
for
as
God
made
the
Isralites
to
passe
through
the
red
sea
,
and
therein
drowned
the
Egyptians
;
so
he
caused
me
to
be
baptized
,
and
sprinkled
with
water
in
his
name
,
euen
in
the
name
of
the
Father
,
and
of
the
Son
,
&
of
the
holy
Ghost
:
&
so
by
an
holy
sacramentall
signification
,
made
me
passe
through
the
red
sea
of
Christs
blood
,
wherein
all
the
enemies
of
my
saluation
are
(
as
if
they
were
drowned
)
so
disabled
,
that
vnlesse
I
foolishly
yeelde
vnto
them
,
they
cannot
preuaile
against
me
,
Rom.
6.3
.
Neither
did
God
onely
giue
vnto
me
that
outward
signe
,
and
seale
of
saluation
,
but
also
when
I
was
able
to
vnderstand
,
caused
mee
to
heare
,
yea
and
to
read
,
yea
,
and
in
some
good
measure
,
to
perceiue
the
gospel
of
his
grace
,
wherein
hee
proffered
vnto
me
his
gracious
loue
,
and
therewithall
such
a
portion
of
his
heauenvly
blessings
in
Iesus
Christ
,
as
should
make
me
to
be
louely
and
pleasing
in
his
sight
.
But
vpon
what
condition
did
God
proffer
this
grace
vnto
me
?
Vpon
this
condition
,
Exod.
20.3
.
Thou
shalt
haue
none
other
God
before
my
face
.
These
words
being
considered
together
with
the
verse
next
before
,
doe
containe
a
double
condition
.
First
,
that
I
shall
take
the
Lord
to
be
my
God
.
Secondly
,
that
I
shall
haue
none
other
to
be
my
God
beside
him
.
How
should
I
take
the
Lord
to
bee
my
God
?
By
performing
these
foure
duties
:
First
,
to
be
continually
mindefull
that
I
am
before
his
face
,
Gen.
17.1
.
Secondly
,
to
esteem
his
fauour
to
be
my
only
felicity
,
and
therefore
aboue
all
things
to
loue
him
,
and
desire
to
enioy
his
fauourable
kindnesse
,
Luk.
14.26
.
Thirdly
,
to
be
alwaies
verie
fearefull
of
displeasing
him
,
Prou.
28.14
.
Fourthly
,
to
settle
all
my
trust
,
and
confidence
in
him
,
Ier.
17.5.6.7
.
How
haue
I
performed
these
duties
?
First
,
I
haue
not
been
mindfull
of
Gods
presence
:
for
both
being
alone
,
and
in
companie
,
my
minde
hath
been
so
far
from
that
dutie
,
as
if
there
had
been
in
my
beleefe
,
no
God
at
all
.
Secondly
,
I
haue
all
my
life
long
more
esteemed
,
loued
,
and
desired
worldly
pleasures
and
profits
,
yea
vain
toies
and
trifles
,
then
the
fauour
of
God
.
I
haue
a
farre
off
thought
vpon
God
,
as
of
a
thing
at
the
furthermost
ende
of
all
the
world
,
and
therefore
mine
affection
was
alwaies
wedded
vnto
things
which
seemed
to
be
nearer
vnto
me
;
though
indeed
nothing
can
bee
so
neere
vnto
me
as
he
is
:
for
in
him
I
liue
,
and
mooue
,
and
haue
my
beeing
.
Thirdly
,
I
had
now
and
then
,
some
small
feare
of
God
;
but
it
suddenly
vanished
away
,
and
therefore
I
plunged
my selfe
into
a
sea
of
sinne
,
not
making
conscience
of
one
thought
,
word
,
or
deed
among
a
thousand
.
Fourthly
,
I
had
no
right
trust
in
God
:
for
that
can
not
bee
without
the
feare
of
God
.
I
oftentimes
vsed
vnwarrantable
meanes
to
helpe
my selfe
:
And
so
doe
none
that
rightly
trust
in
God
.
This
hath
been
the
inside
of
my
life
,
not
only
before
,
but
also
euer
since
I
entred
into
the
Ministerie
.
And
withall
mine
heart
,
I
wish
that
I
had
no
fellowes
;
for
I
am
afraid
that
I
haue
very
many
.
If
such
there
be
,
I
humbly
intreate
them
to
take
true
knowledge
in
how
dangerous
a
state
they
are
.
I
trust
that
God
hath
pardoned
my
parents
and
bringers
vp
.
The
ground
of
all
my
miserie
,
next
after
the
euill
inclination
which
I
brought
with
mee
into
this
world
,
was
the
euill
seasoning
of
mine
heart
in
my
tender
yeares
.
Beeing
a
little
boy
,
I
was
trained
to
delight
in
a
dogge
,
&
a
cat
;
therfore
I
remember
the
dogges
name
yet
,
and
haue
loued
dogges
,
and
cattes
euer
since
.
Those
,
and
other
vaine
things
I
was
enured
to
loue
,
when
mine
heart
should
haue
been
taken
vp
,
and
filled
with
the
loue
of
God
.
I
was
feared
with
bugg-beares
,
and
sprits
,
when
I
should
haue
been
framed
to
feare
God
.
Also
I
was
accustomed
to
take
a
pride
in
this
,
and
that
,
to
be
angrie
and
reuengefull
against
some
one
thing
or
other
,
to
mocke
,
scorn
,
misse-call
,
and
speake
naughtie
words
vnto
such
,
or
such
an
one
.
Thus
commonly
,
for
ought
that
I
know
,
are
the
hearts
of
children
seasoned
,
and
thus
their
soules
are
died
in
the
blacke
colour
of
hell
.
Beeing
inwardly
thus
behaued
,
I
was
a
little
taught
outward
religion
.
That
is
,
to
say
the
Lords
Prayer
,
and
the
Creede
by
rote
,
to
goe
to
Church
vpon
Sabbath
dayes
,
and
heare
seruice
,
yea
&
after
that
I
could
read
,
to
answer
the
Minister
in
the
saying
of
Psalmes
,
&c.
Hauing
done
thus
,
what
?
heard
seruice
,
yea
helped
to
say
seruice
,
said
the
Lords
Prayer
and
the
Creede
,
and
so
forth
?
Oh!
I
thought
I
had
done
enough
,
and
enough
,
my
heart
being
farre
from
God
,
and
not
once
assaying
to
come
neere
vnto
him
.
Here
I
would
aske
a
question
of
the
common
sort
of
people
,
young
and
old
,
I
would
aske
you
for
no
harme
.
Is
not
this
your
religion
?
I
meane
,
to
say
your
praiers
,
to
heare
seruice
,
(
I
will
not
put
in
,
to
say
seruice
)
without
any
special
stirring
of
your
heart
;
not
actually
minding
that
you
are
in
talke
with
God
,
nor
so
affected
as
they
who
perceiue
themselues
to
be
so
neere
vnto
,
euen
before
the
face
of
that
Almightie
King
,
who
is
terrible
vnto
the
Kings
of
the
earth
:
they
are
his
seruiters
?
I
take
that
blessed
God
to
witnesse
against
my
soule
,
if
I
speake
vncharitably
or
idlely
;
I
am
perswaded
that
I
haue
good
reason
to
feare
that
a
great
many
of
you
haue
little
religion
in
your
hearts
,
but
content
your selues
with
saying
and
hearing
,
and
some
outward
ceremonies
.
Then
I
can
tell
you
what
religion
is
the
fittest
for
you
.
Euen
that
which
you
call
the
old
religion
:
for
that
wil
so
furnish
you
with
outward
workes
,
and
ceremonies
,
that
you
shall
not
dreame
of
medling
with
your
heart
.
You
see
the
deuoutest
of
them
can
swallowe
downe
into
their
soules
,
lying
,
forswearing
,
murther
,
and
treason
.
They
make
no
bones
of
such
matters
.
And
why
?
Because
the
ceremonie-law
of
Rome
serueth
their
turne
.
I
speake
vpon
my
conscience
for
the
glorie
of
my
Lord
God
,
and
for
the
good
of
my
countrey
.
It
pleased
God
,
that
specially
by
the
meanes
of
M.
William
Olney
of
Tachbrooke
neere
Warwicke
,
who
tooke
me
from
my
poore
parents
,
I
was
in
some
sort
continued
at
schoole
.
About
foureteene
or
fifteene
yeares
of
age
,
I
fell
into
acquaintance
with
diuerse
that
fauoured
the
Popes
religion
,
among
whom
one
lent
me
a
booke
thus
intituled
,
A
defence
of
the
censure
giuen
vpon
two
bookes
of
William
Charke
,
and
Meredith
Hanmer
ministers
,
which
they
wrote
against
M.
Edmund
Campian
priest
of
the
societie
of
Iesus
,
and
against
his
offer
of
disputation
.
This
little
booke
beeing
one
of
the
most
dangerous
bookes
that
euer
I
read
(
for
they
bee
little
ones
that
either
doe
good
or
harme
vnto
the
greatest
number
of
people
)
did
thoroughly
distast
me
with
the
Protestant-religion
,
before
religion
was
in
mine
heart
.
A
principall
case
of
my
distast
,
was
the
many
euill
reports
,
which
with
great
pretence
of
truth
,
it
signifieth
touching
the
liues
of
Luther
,
Caluin
,
and
Beza
,
bringing
in
this
reason
withall
,
that
the
authors
and
beginners
of
an
extraordinary
reformation
in
the
Church
of
God
,
should
at
the
least
be
ordinarie
,
honest
men
in
life
and
conuersation
;
which
those
men
were
not
,
if
that
booke
be
true
.
Here
I
humbly
entreat
all
people
to
take
knowledge
of
two
things
,
which
I
haue
found
true
by
experience
.
First
,
it
is
not
safe
for
a
man
to
betake
himselfe
to
this
or
that
side
in
controuersie
of
religion
,
vntill
his
heart
and
life
bee
setled
in
some
vprightnesse
of
obedience
vnto
God
.
Can
a
man
iudge
of
colours
before
he
bee
borne
?
No.
Then
how
can
a
man
rightly
discerne
the
truth
in
questions
touching
the
mysterie
or
secret
of
godlines
,
he
not
beeing
renewed
by
the
spirit
of
God
?
Although
he
haue
great
learning
,
or
depend
vpon
the
iudgement
of
great
learned
men
,
yet
Sathan
the
deuill
will
haue
an
hand
in
him
,
because
they
which
doe
not
conscionably
obey
God
,
are
subiect
to
be
wrought
vpon
by
him
,
Eph.
2.2
.
The
second
thing
that
I
would
desire
you
to
take
knowledge
of
,
is
this
:
When
a
man
is
well
assured
,
that
he
is
entred
into
a
conscionable
course
of
obeying
the
commandements
of
God
,
which
is
the
practise
of
repentance
,
to
settle
his
iudgement
touching
this
or
that
controuersie
in
religion
:
hee
must
not
bee
lead
by
the
sermons
,
or
books
,
or
liues
of
men
,
but
principally
hee
must
apply
himselfe
vnto
the
grounds
of
his
faith
:
which
are
two
,
God
,
and
Gods
word
.
How
shall
he
apply
himselfe
vnto
God
?
By
verie
often
,
humble
,
and
earnest
prayer
,
that
he
will
vouchsafe
for
Iesus
Christs
sake
to
giue
him
the
spirit
of
reuelation
,
the
inlightening
of
minde
to
perceiue
the
holy
truth
.
S.
Paul
telleth
vs
plainly
,
that
the
secrets
of
God
cannot
be
rightly
known
,
but
by
the
spirit
of
God
,
1.
Cor.
2.10.11
.
And
our
Lord
Iesus
hath
giuen
vs
this
assurance
that
if
we
doe
earnestly
pray
vnto
God
for
the
holy
Ghost
,
hee
will
giue
him
vnto
vs
,
Luk.
11.5
,
6
,
7
,
8
,
&c.
How
shall
a
man
apply
himselfe
to
the
word
of
God
?
In
following
the
example
of
the
Iewes
that
dwelt
at
Berea
,
who
when
S.
Paul
preached
vnto
them
,
receiued
the
word
with
all
readinesse
.
But
how
?
They
searched
the
Scriptures
dayly
,
whether
those
things
which
S.
Paul
deliuered
vnto
them
were
so
as
he
said
,
yea
or
no
?
Act.
17.11
.
And
for
your
encouragement
,
see
what
followed
,
Act.
16.12
.
Therefore
many
of
them
beleeued
.
If
any
say
,
hee
cannot
vnderstand
the
word
of
God
:
I
answer
,
he
may
bee
sorrie
,
and
ashamed
to
say
so
:
for
to
what
end
hath
God
giuen
his
word
,
but
to
be
vnderstood
,
euen
of
very
simple
folke
?
for
of
all
the
books
in
the
world
,
there
is
none
that
hath
more
plainenesse
in
it
then
the
booke
of
God
hath
.
Many
fine
schollers
haue
no
minde
to
reade
Gods
word
,
because
it
is
so
plaine
.
It
is
certainely
one
of
the
maine
drifts
of
Sathan
the
deuill
,
to
make
people
beleeue
that
Gods
word
is
hard
to
bee
vnderstood
;
because
he
would
not
haue
them
to
vnderstand
it
;
for
he
knoweth
that
nothing
in
all
the
world
is
so
great
an
hinderance
vnto
him
,
as
Gods
word
beeing
vnderstood
.
Now
I
will
goe
forward
in
my
confession
.
I
went
first
to
Oxford
,
and
then
to
Cambridge
:
At
Oxford
I
was
in
Gloster
Hall
about
foure
yeares
first
and
last
:
at
Cambridge
I
was
in
Emanuel
Colledge
not
so
long
;
but
to
that
Colledge
I
am
singularly
bound
.
Afterward
I
tooke
vpon
me
to
be
a
schoolemaster
,
and
then
entred
into
the
ministerie
in
the
yeare
of
our
Lord
,
one
thousand
,
fiue
hundred
,
nintie
and
sixe
.
The
next
yeare
after
,
vpon
the
commendation
of
diuerse
reuerend
Ministers
in
Kent
,
namely
,
my
fatherly
friend
Doctor
Milborne
of
Seuenoke
,
M.
Bust
of
Penshurst
,
M.
Deiose
of
Chiddingstone
,
M.
Smith
of
Chelfield
,
I
obtained
of
Archbishop
Whitegift
a
generall
licence
to
preach
.
I
haue
beene
a
minister
eighteene
yeares
,
and
so
much
more
as
since
the
sixeteenth
day
of
May
last
;
for
as
vpon
that
day
Doctor
Young
Bishop
of
Rochester
gaue
mee
orders
at
Bromeley
in
Kent
.
All
this
while
vntill
this
verie
yeare
,
one
thousand
,
sixe
hundred
,
and
foureteen
,
my
heart
continued
in
that
inward
behauiour
,
wherwith
it
was
first
possessed
in
my
childhood
.
Now
let
me
goe
backe
againe
,
and
make
report
how
the
Father
of
mercie
hath
striuen
with
me
from
my
youth
,
yea
and
nowe
in
good
and
comfortable
measure
,
blessed
be
his
name
,
vanquished
the
setled
wickednesse
of
mine
heart
.
Euer
since
I
had
any
vnderstanding
of
Gods
will
,
something
hath
been
working
vpon
my
mind
,
perswading
me
very
earnestly
to
forsake
sinne
,
and
wholly
to
submit
my selfe
vnto
God
:
which
from
time
to
time
I
vndertooke
to
doe
;
but
was
alwaies
hindred
,
both
by
the
setlednes
of
mine
owne
wicked
disposition
,
and
also
by
the
common
course
of
this
world
,
which
so
farre
as
I
know
,
will
very
hardly
suffer
a
man
to
keepe
companie
with
God
.
I
appeale
vnto
their
iudgement
,
that
bee
in
awe
of
God
,
and
make
conscience
how
they
behaue
themselues
in
his
sight
.
Yet
it
pleased
the
Lord
first
by
little
and
little
to
stablish
my
wauering
iudgement
,
and
then
to
let
me
runne
my selfe
into
many
outward
dangers
,
and
diuerse
bodily
diseases
,
that
so
at
last
I
might
be
broken
from
sinne
.
In
Queen
Elizabeths
time
I
was
in
great
danger
,
because
I
had
spoken
something
touching
the
party
who
should
succed
her
in
these
kingdomes
,
whom
I
well
knew
to
be
in
all
right
his
Maiestie
that
now
is
:
(
for
being
giuen
to
the
reading
of
Chronicles
,
I
had
drawne
a
pedegree
,
and
Mr.
Doctor
Charles
Chadwicke
my
tutor
in
Emanuel
colledge
shewed
me
another
)
for
something
publikely
spoken
to
that
purpose
in
a
sermon
at
S.
Marie
Cray
in
Kent
,
in
the
yeare
,
as
I
remember
,
nintie
eight
,
I
was
accused
to
Doct.
Barlow
,
then
chapleine
to
Archbishop
Whitegift
,
and
Parson
of
Orpington
,
and
S.
Marie
Craie
.
He
presently
gaue
order
vnto
one
M.
Hamden
a
Iustice
of
peace
,
to
call
me
to
an
account
,
and
examine
both
me
,
and
diuerse
credible
persons
that
heard
me
.
He
ioyning
vnto
him
,
S.
Robert
Bosevile
of
Anisford
,
tooke
mine
examination
in
Sir
Percivall
Hartes
house
at
Lullingstone
.
Those
men
which
were
examined
what
they
heard
me
say
,
namely
M.
Francis
Haddon
,
M.
Richard
Manning
of
Keuingtowne
,
and
,
as
I
thinke
,
Richard
Manning
of
Kippingden-crowch
,
&c.
did
giue
good
testimonie
of
me
,
and
the
minister
that
accused
me
was
by
the
Iustice
found
variable
.
So
by
the
goodnes
of
God
I
escaped
that
danger
,
but
performed
not
vnto
him
my
promise
of
reformation
.
I
passe
by
many
dangers
,
because
I
wil
not
trouble
you
with
hearing
the
seuerall
reports
of
them
:
only
one
I
pray
you
patiently
to
heare
.
Vpon
S.
Steuens
day
in
the
yeare
sixe
hundred
and
eleuen
,
I
preached
a
sermon
in
the
Church
called
Alhallowes
in
Derby
,
where
then
I
was
,
and
now
am
the
vnworthy
Minister
.
In
my
prayer
before
the
Sermon
,
I
made
a
strange
fault
,
and
thus
it
came
about
:
I
in
my
priuate
prayers
,
had
vsed
in
verie
deare
affection
to
my
Soueraigne
Lord
,
(
God
is
witnesse
)
to
name
those
kingdomes
together
whereof
the
Lord
God
hath
giuen
him
possession
,
and
that
by
it selfe
which
yet
hee
doth
not
possesse
:
verie
vndiscreetly
I
in
my
publike
prayer
that
day
,
fell
into
that
forme
of
words
.
My
text
was
S.
Steuens
prayer
for
his
persecutors
,
which
I
vrged
verie
farre
,
I
will
not
say
discreetly
,
but
I
professe
before
the
God
of
heauen
,
that
it
was
without
any
secret
loue
to
Poperie
:
I
vrged
,
that
which
I
shall
euer
hold
to
bee
true
,
that
though
the
Papists
be
our
dangerous
enemies
,
as
beeing
full
of
malice
&
treason
,
yet
we
ought
to
be
rather
angrie
with
our
sins
,
then
with
them
:
for
had
we
grace
to
walke
worthy
of
that
glorious
light
which
God
by
the
Gospel
of
his
Sonne
hath
graciously
giuen
vnto
vs
in
this
land
,
hee
would
not
suffer
that
mysterie
of
iniquity
to
preuaile
against
vs
.
This
is
most
certaine
:
for
hitherto
he
hath
miraculously
defeated
their
hellish
practises
,
though
we
in
our
owne
consciences
knowe
that
we
are
vnworthie
of
such
marueilous
preseruation
.
I
came
to
this
parrish
against
the
will
of
many
.
Some
of
which
companie
tooke
occasion
out
of
my
fault
about
his
Maiesties
style-royall
,
and
out
of
some
things
spoken
both
in
that
and
other
sermons
,
(
how
conscionably
&
charitably
construed
,
it
concerneth
them
to
ponder
,
)
I
say
they
tooke
occasion
to
accuse
me
of
Poperie
,
and
treason
,
and
those
accusations
they
vrged
with
much
pollicy
,
and
great
strength
against
me
:
I
was
twice
at
London
about
it
,
and
in
sore
perplexitie
God
knoweth
.
It
pleased
the
Almightie
though
I
was
most
vnworthy
of
his
aide
,
to
be
entreated
of
me
,
and
therefore
hee
procured
me
many
friends
,
namely
,
many
reuerend
ministers
,
especially
Doct.
Neale
,
then
Bishop
of
Couentrie
and
Lichfielde
,
by
whose
constant
intercession
,
I
obtained
of
my
Soueraigne
Lord
King
Iames
a
gracious
remission
,
and
of
the
Lord
Archbishop
,
vnto
whom
I
was
vehemently
complained
of
,
a
very
grue
and
fatherly
dismission
.
When
the
trouble
came
first
vpon
mee
,
all
the
mouie
which
I
had
in
all
the
world
,
was
betweene
fortie
,
and
fiftie
shillings
.
But
I
was
much
befreinded
by
many
,
specially
by
Mr.
Frauncis
Mundie
of
Marketon
neere
Derbie
,
who
by
his
seruant
sent
mee
a
purse
,
and
in
it
some
fifteene
,
or
sixteene
pounds
,
willing
mee
to
take
either
all
,
or
how
much
I
would
freely
.
Such
a
freind
,
yea
such
freinds
,
God
send
euery
honest
poore
man
in
his
neede
.
And
God
who
is
the
fountain
of
mercies
,
vouchsafe
to
be
euermore
mercifull
vnto
them
&
theirs
,
that
shew
mercie
vnto
poore
distressed
wretches
ouertaken
betweene
the
straites
.
Here
in
all
humblenesse
I
craue
fauourable
leaue
to
speake
a
few
words
vnto
superiours
Ecclesiasticall
,
and
Ciuill
.
Oh
my
Lords
,
and
Masters
,
a
poore
man
pursued
by
mighty
aduersaries
must
needs
be
guiltie
,
whether
hee
be
guiltie
,
or
no
;
vnles
you
follow
his
example
vpon
whom
your
dignities
depend
.
Please
it
you
therefore
to
consider
what
hee
once
said
vnto
Abraham
his
freind
,
Gen.
18.20
.
And
the
Lord
saide
,
Because
the
crie
of
Sodome
,
and
Gomorrah
is
great
,
and
because
their
sinne
is
very
greiuous
:
21.
I
will
goe
downe
now
,
and
see
whether
they
haue
done
altogether
according
to
the
crie
of
it
,
which
is
come
vnto
mee
:
and
if
not
,
I
will
know
.
The
Lord
our
God
vnto
whom
al
things
are
so
manifest
as
possibly
they
may
be
,
needeth
not
to
examine
any
accusation
;
for
hee
knoweth
farre
more
perfectly
then
either
the
accuser
,
or
the
accused
.
But
his
minde
is
,
that
all
men
,
and
specially
you
should
with
all
moderation
,
and
lawfull
indifferencie
take
thorough-knowledge
of
any
,
specially
of
a
poore
mans
cause
,
before
you
giue
sentence
;
yea
,
before
you
speake
any
hard
word
:
for
a
crosse
tearme
,
yea
a
frowne
is
enough
to
astonish
many
a
weake-hearted
man
,
and
make
him
vnable
to
speake
for
himselfe
.
Also
I
humbly
beseech
all
Preachers
,
to
take
these
warnings
by
mee
:
First
,
be
yee
thoroughly
reconciled
vnto
God
,
that
hee
may
vouchsafe
to
ioyne
with
you
in
that
most
weightie
businesse
.
Secondly
,
so
farre
as
possibly
with
a
good
conscience
,
haue
peace
,
and
be
in
freindly
tearmes
with
all
people
least
some
in
bitternesse
of
displeasure
mistake
your
words
to
their
hurt
,
and
your
greefe
.
The
holy
God
is
my
witnesse
,
that
some
speeches
of
mine
were
most
strangely
mistaken
,
by
men
professing
great
precisenesse
of
conscience
:
yea
,
marke
I
pray
you
,
so
strangely
,
that
out
of
a
publike
speech
of
mine
,
zealously
intended
,
and
vttered
against
the
Romane
religion
,
one
peece
of
an
article
was
taken
against
mee
to
prooue
mee
popish
.
Thirdly
,
be
verie
carefull
that
in
no
sort
yee
meddle
with
any
matter
of
Estate
:
for
there
is
no
wisedome
,
nor
safetie
in
so
doing
.
Fourthly
,
though
in
purposing
to
speake
this
or
that
,
your
mind
be
very
vpright
,
yet
make
carefull
choise
of
words
,
and
phrase
:
for
that
which
beeing
vttered
one
way
can
not
be
ill
taken
,
may
in
an
other
sute
of
words
seeme
very
harsh
,
and
be
likely
to
do
more
harme
then
good
.
O
for
a
mortified
minister
!
Hee
will
not
speake
thus
,
and
thus
,
because
hee
will
;
but
so
,
and
so
,
because
hee
is
willed
.
This
,
if
I
mistake
not
,
may
bee
called
the
meekenesse
of
wisedome
:
which
whatsoeuer
any
man
can
say
to
the
contrarie
,
doth
most
befit
a
minister
of
the
Gospel
,
specially
in
these
latter
daies
,
wherein
naturall
corruption
taketh
vpon
it
to
bee
zealous
,
and
precise
for
Gods
glory
.
You
neede
not
aske
mee
,
whether
in
that
my
great
danger
,
I
vowed
vnto
God
a
strict
reformation
of
life
?
I
did
indeed
.
But
when
my
danger
was
ouer
,
I
performed
not
my
vow
.
Now
I
must
fetch
a
compasse
backe
againe
to
speake
of
my
diseases
,
and
of
some
troubles
withall
.
My
bodie
hath
beene
windie
and
rheumatike
from
my
childhood
by
a
naturall
distemper
,
as
I
take
it
,
of
my
liuer
;
the
hotenesse
whereof
hath
caused
much
euill
vnto
mee
.
In
the
winter
,
sixe
hundred
,
and
sixe
,
I
then
beeing
Curate
of
Southfleet
in
Kent
,
after
an
extreame
cough
did
sensibly
perceiue
blindnesse
entred
into
mine
eies
:
for
diuerse
moates
seemed
to
flie
before
mee
,
which
way
soeuer
I
turned
my
sight
;
yea
,
and
specially
before
my
right
eye
,
a
thing
in
fashion
of
a
kind
of
chaine
,
sometime
folded
,
or
turned
diuerse
waies
,
and
sometime
at
length
.
What
infirmitie
in
the
eie
causeth
this
appearance
,
let
learned
Physitians
iudge
.
Thus
it
hath
all
this
while
been
with
mee
,
increasing
more
,
and
more
,
so
that
now
I
haue
much
adoe
to
write
,
or
to
read
,
and
am
forced
to
hold
my
eyes
,
and
the
booke
very
neere
together
.
The
next
winter
after
in
the
great
frost
,
I
was
taken
with
a
windie
disease
in
the
lower
part
of
my
breast
,
which
so
grieuously
vexed
mee
,
that
I
looked
for
nothing
but
death
.
In
the
very
extremitie
of
this
painfulnesse
,
Doctor
Barlow
then
Bishop
of
Rochester
,
who
not
long
before
by
the
death
of
Mr.
Winter
,
came
to
haue
the
Parsonage
of
Southfleet
,
where
I
was
Curat
,
beeing
by
some
,
thorough
mine
owne
vndiscretion
,
incensed
against
mee
,
tooke
an
occasion
to
put
mee
out
of
the
Curatship
.
About
that
time
I
did
set
forth
a
little
booke
,
called
The
burthen
of
a
loaden
conscience
:
Which
hath
occasioned
many
heauie
burthens
to
be
laid
vpon
mee
,
by
those
whose
holinesse
is
knowne
vnto
God
,
and
not
vnto
mee
,
a
many
precise
folke
,
that
know
not
other
mens
hearts
,
howsoeuer
they
know
their
owne
.
Mine
old
kind
Schoole-fellow
Mr.
William
Eyre
fellow
in
Emanuel
Colledge
,
(
who
twise
before
had
beene
my
refuge
vnder
God
)
vnderstanding
that
I
was
without
place
,
did
by
meanes
of
Mr.
Iohn
Cotton
fellow
in
the
same
college
,
help
mee
to
the
Curateship
of
S.
Alkmunds
in
Derby
of
Derbyshier
.
There
I
was
a
yeare
,
and
a
quarter
very
louingly
vsed
.
My
stipend
was
fully
so
much
as
euer
before
.
Also
M.
Robert
Bate
of
little
Chester
gaue
mee
my
dyet
,
and
lodging
all
that
time
,
his
wife
,
a
vertuous
woman
now
in
heauen
,
hauing
a
verie
tender
care
of
me
,
because
of
my
sickenes
.
Vnwisely
I
left
that
place
,
and
put
my selfe
into
a
world
of
trouble
,
by
taking
the
Curateship
of
Alhallowes
in
the
same
towne
.
In
this
great
and
burdenous
charge
,
I
haue
now
beene
almost
fiue
yeares
.
During
this
time
,
my
windie
disease
,
together
with
a
faintnesse
,
grew
so
vpon
me
,
that
I
fell
into
diuerse
deadly
fits
of
the
cholike
,
not
onely
in
cold
weather
,
but
in
the
heate
of
summer
.
Now
I
come
to
tell
you
of
intolerable
torments
.
Grauell
hath
bred
in
me
from
my
youth
,
and
oftentimes
I
was
pained
with
it
:
whereupon
I
vsed
to
take
a
great
deale
of
small
drinke
,
and
so
auoided
it
.
I
remember
that
my
worshipfull
friend
,
M.
Richard
Sedly
of
Southfleete
,
said
once
vnto
me
;
What
will
you
do
when
your
stomacke
cannot
receiue
so
much
drinke
?
Ah
gentle
.
M.
Sedly
!
the
time
is
now
come
,
and
now
I
can
doe
nothing
to
help
my selfe
but
call
vpon
the
name
of
God
.
About
the
end
of
Iuly
,
in
the
yeare
sixteen
hundred
and
twelue
,
I
was
taken
with
many
fits
of
cholike
and
stone
,
one
fit
anon
after
another
:
Then
I
cried
God
mercie
,
and
promised
zealous
amendment
of
life
.
The
fittes
left
me
;
but
I
amended
not
.
The
next
summer
after
,
I
had
some
three
or
foure
seuerall
fits
.
Now
marke
I
pray
you
,
and
beleeue
me
I
beseech
you
.
The
second
of
Nouember
last
,
1613.
at
night
I
going
to
bed
,
felt
a
fit
of
the
cholike
and
stone
comming
vpon
me
.
Wherefore
I
beeing
in
great
anguish
,
praied
earnestly
vnto
God
,
that
for
his
mercies
sake
,
he
would
then
ease
me
of
that
paine
,
with
condition
that
if
I
did
not
presently
enter
into
a
very
reformed
course
of
life
,
the
disease
should
returne
vpon
mee
and
kill
me
.
It
presently
was
gone
,
and
all
that
night
I
had
quiet
rest
.
The
morrowe
I
performed
not
my
promise
.
Towards
night
I
felt
a
threatning
of
it
again
,
and
therefore
according
to
Doct.
Bambrigs
direction
,
I
tooke
purging
pills
to
preuent
it
:
which
kinde
of
Physicke
had
formerly
eased
me
.
The
pills
wrought
:
yet
the
morrowe
morning
a
violent
fit
came
vpon
me
.
How
grieuously
I
was
that
day
tormented
,
some
that
in
kindnesse
came
to
see
me
,
namely
,
M.
Thomas
Stringer
,
and
M.
Iohn
Haughton
do
,
I
am
sure
,
very
well
remember
.
My
breast
quaked
as
a
leafe
shaken
with
the
wind
.
You
may
thinke
,
I
had
then
great
cause
to
feare
that
the
wrath
of
my
Lord
was
kindled
against
me
:
I
humbly
besought
him
to
rebuke
the
disease
yet
once
more
,
and
then
(
vnlesse
I
forced
my selfe
to
enter
in
at
the
strait
doore
of
repentance
)
no
more
:
He
is
a
gracious
Lord
,
his
name
bee
praised
.
At
euen
he
rebuked
the
disease
,
and
it
left
me
:
yet
all
that
night
I
was
glad
to
haue
Mr.
Duxburie
sit
with
me
,
I
was
so
weakened
:
one
while
I
was
vp
,
an
other
while
downe
,
and
O
my
good
Lord
,
what
I
thinke
vpon
thou
knowest
;
my
soule
most
humbly
,
and
lamentably
appealeth
vnto
thine
infinite
mercie
.
After
this
I
purposed
,
as
I
thought
,
very
steadfastly
to
reforme
my selfe
according
to
the
word
of
God
;
yea
so
farre
forth
,
that
I
wrote
vnto
Cantrell
Legge
Printer
in
Cambridg
,
a
note
to
be
set
before
the
fift
impression
of
my
former
little
booke
.
In
that
note
bearing
date
,
Nouemb.
27.
1613.
I
signified
that
my
conscience
was
vnburthened
,
&
that
I
would
shortly
publish
the
manner
thereof
;
whereas
God
knoweth
I
was
farre
short
of
beeing
vnburthened
.
Nowe
yet
marke
I
pray
you
:
All
my
former
fits
were
about
the
right
kidnie
.
In
Ianuarie
and
Februarie
,
I
felt
a
painfull
gathering
of
somewhat
about
my
left
kidnie
,
which
prickingly
continued
,
causing
a
grieuous
torment
in
the
water
passage
out
of
my
bodie
.
Many
times
my
water
came
drop-meale
,
with
burning
paine
.
That
long
practised
religious
Physitian
,
Doct.
Hunton
of
Newarke
vpon
Trent
,
with
whom
I
had
formerly
bin
for
my
windie
disease
,
and
(
by
meanes
of
M.
Iohn
Batte
Vicar
of
Newarke
now
deceased
,
my
old
schoolemaster
)
had
receiued
much
fauour
from
him
;
he
sent
me
word
that
as
he
could
coniecture
by
my
letter
(
for
I
was
not
able
to
ride
vnto
him
)
I
was
in
danger
of
some
deadly
fretting
in
my
kidnies
,
by
reason
of
grauell
stones
,
which
was
not
without
difficulty
to
be
preuented
in
a
setled
course
of
Physicke
.
I
had
little
money
to
bestow
,
and
no
great
minde
to
take
bodily
medicine
,
before
my
soule
were
cured
by
the
physicke
of
Iesus
Christ
crucified
.
The
greiuous
disease
of
my
water
increasing
,
and
mine
olde
splennitiue
windinesse
filling
my
bodie
,
and
head
,
together
with
an
extreame
faintnesse
,
the
19.
day
of
Aprill
I
did
with
very
fearefull
conditions
,
bind
my selfe
vnto
God
,
that
I
would
diligently
endeauour
to
order
my selfe
according
vnto
these
rules
following
.
My
first
rule
.
First
,
I
must
be
alwaies
mindefull
,
that
I
,
the
worst
of
all
sinners
,
am
before
the
face
of
god
,
who
seeth
the
whole
setled
wicked
behauiour
of
mine
heart
,
who
hath
all
my
euill
thoughts
,
words
,
and
deedes
in
perfect
remembrance
,
whose
holines
extreamly
hateth
all
manner
of
sinne
,
whose
righteousnesse
will
not
suffer
any
sinne
to
be
vnpunished
,
whose
prayer
is
able
to
torment
me
euerlastingly
with
most
vnspeakeable
paine
in
body
and
soule
.
Hereupon
I
must
conceiue
,
that
great
is
the
wrath
whereunto
I
haue
prouoked
God
,
and
that
therefore
great
is
the
vengeance
which
iustly
he
may
powre
vpon
me
for
euer
.
I
must
labour
that
this
double
conceit
may
worke
in
my
heart
a
double
affection
,
sorrow
for
the
displeasure
of
God
,
and
feare
of
his
vengeance
.
This
is
the
way
to
breake
mine
heart
,
and
a
broken
heart
is
a
sacrifice
vnto
God
,
Psal.
51.17
.
Inward
humblenesse
cannot
but
outwardly
shew
it selfe
;
and
so
it
will
bee
the
more
easily
setled
,
and
the
more
deepely
rooted
in
mine
heart
and
soule
.
I
must
verie
carefully
reforme
my
vaine
minde
,
vnsad
countenance
,
and
talkatiue
tongue
:
els
I
cannot
be
rightly
humbled
in
the
sight
of
God
.
My
second
rule
.
Secondly
,
I
must
thinke
vpon
the
great
mercie
,
mighty
power
,
and
most
ioyfull
blisse
,
which
God
in
Iesus
Christ
,
proffereth
vnto
all
those
,
that
will
forsake
sinne
,
&
beleeue
the
Gospel
:
mercie
to
forgiue
their
sinnes
,
power
to
free
them
from
the
inclination
of
sinne
,
and
blisse
to
fill
them
full
of
all
delightfull
pleasure
for
euermore
.
Hereupon
I
must
striue
to
haue
a
most
hungry
and
thirsty
desire
of
the
grace
of
God
.
My
third
rule
.
Thirdly
,
I
must
giue
al
diligence
,
that
by
prayer
I
may
obtaine
of
God
the
spirit
of
grace
.
To
this
purpose
I
must
bee
alwaies
prayingly
,
and
crauingly
affected
.
I
must
impart
my
goods
vnto
the
poor
,
that
I
may
haue
the
help
of
their
prayers
.
Luk.
16.9
.
Also
I
must
entreate
all
those
which
seeme
to
be
acquainted
with
God
,
that
they
will
pray
for
me
vnto
him
:
Iam.
5.16
.
Had
I
any
warrant
to
intreate
the
Saints
in
heauen
to
pray
for
me
,
I
would
gladly
doe
it
.
But
I
haue
none
.
My
beleefe
is
,
that
no
glorified
soule
,
no
,
not
the
blessed
virgin-mother
,
intermedleth
with
any
businesse
in
this
world
.
And
I
am
fully
perswaded
,
that
it
is
the
safer
way
so
to
beleeue
.
It
seemeth
vnto
me
that
Romane
catholiks
of
the
Popes
religion
,
vnder
colour
of
in
treating
Saints
to
pray
for
them
,
do
indeed
worship
them
,
call
vpon
them
,
make
vowes
,
and
offer
spirituall
sacrifices
vnto
them
,
as
vnto
so
many
he-gods
and
she-gods
.
I
beseech
the
Lord
God
to
inlighten
their
minds
,
and
rectifie
their
affections
,
according
vnto
true
holines
,
and
pure
deuotion
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
I
must
duely
,
and
deuoutly
pray
vnto
God
at
least
three
times
euery
day
.
I
haue
great
need
to
pray
euery
houre
,
because
of
the
hardnesse
of
mine
heart
,
and
deathfulnesse
of
my
bodie
.
I
must
oftentimes
,
so
farre
as
my
weake
bodie
will
endure
;
pray
fasting
,
and
so
long
as
I
am
able
,
humbly
kneeling
.
I
must
in
prayer
speake
vnto
God
very
leasurely
,
and
reuerently
:
I
must
so
earnestly
mind
that
I
speake
vnto
him
,
as
I
were
face
to
face
with
him
.
When
I
beginne
any
set
prayer
,
I
will
worship
the
Lord
my
God
,
most
humbly
lifting
vp
my
minde
towards
his
glorious
maiestie
in
heauen
,
and
bowing
downe
my
body
towards
the
ground
,
so
rest
vpon
my
knees
.
My
prayer
early
in
the
morning
.
O
Almightie
,
most
blessed
,
and
glorious
Lord
God
,
I
a
most
wicked
sinneful
sinner
,
heartily
acknowledging
that
thou
in
most
wonderfull
goodnesse
,
hast
made
mee
a
liuing
soule
in
thine
own
likenes
,
hast
proffered
eueralasting
saluation
vnto
me
,
hast
long
time
endured
my
rebellious
wickednesse
,
and
hitherto
preserued
me
aliue
,
doe
humbly
beseech
thee
to
giue
grace
that
I
may
henceforth
vntill
the
end
,
and
in
the
ending
of
my
life
,
very
zealously
glorifie
thy
name
in
the
practise
of
true
repentance
.
Graunt
the
same
grace
,
I
heartily
pray
thee
,
vnto
euery
man
,
woman
,
and
child
that
wanteth
it
;
that
all
people
in
all
places
may
ioyfully
praise
thee
,
thorough
thine
onely
Sonne
Iesus
Christ
:
To
whom
with
thee
,
ô
Father
,
and
with
the
holy
Ghost
,
three
persons
,
&
one
only
Lord
God
,
be
all
praise
,
honour
,
glorie
,
worship
,
and
humble
seruice
,
now
,
and
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
About
nine
of
the
clocke
in
the
forenoone
I
must
pray
thus
;
Oh
Almighty
Lord
God
,
who
louest
holines
,
and
hatest
sin
,
and
therefore
hast
prepared
euerlasting
blisse
in
heauen
for
thy
holy
seruants
,
&
endles
torment
in
hel
for
sinners
:
I
the
worst
of
all
sinners
,
doe
humbly
beseech
thee
,
that
for
thy
onely
sonne
Iesus
Christs
sake
,
thou
wilt
giue
me
thy
grace
of
true
repentance
,
&
saith
vnfained
,
that
so
I
may
obtaine
of
thee
forgiuenesse
of
all
my
sinnes
,
and
the
lowest
place
among
all
them
which
shall
be
saued
.
Amen
.
O
Lord
,
innumerable
sinnes
haue
come
out
of
mine
heart
,
I
have
filled
the
world
with
the
cursed
fruits
of
my
wickednesse
.
I
beseech
thee
to
put
al
my
sinnes
quite
away
out
of
thy
sight
,
and
out
of
the
minds
of
all
people
,
that
thou
mayest
be
no
longer
displeased
,
nor
any
man
,
woman
,
or
child
any
more
harmed
by
meanes
of
me
.
O
Lord
,
I
haue
caused
much
euill
vnto
many
folke
,
and
the
good
which
I
should
haue
caused
,
I
haue
wickedly
neglected
.
I
beseech
thee
to
giue
vnto
euery
one
,
which
hath
been
any
way
harmed
or
neglected
of
mee
,
a
large
recompence
,
and
so
farre
as
may
be
to
work
the
same
recompence
vnto
them
by
mee
;
the
residue
by
those
meanes
which
thou
knowest
to
be
fittest
for
that
purpose
.
O
Lord
,
many
people
haue
beene
beneficiall
vnto
mee
;
because
thy
will
was
that
they
should
be
so
,
I
humbly
thanke
thee
for
it
,
beseeching
thy
gracious
goodnesse
to
giue
a
bountifull
reward
vnto
euerie
one
that
hath
benefited
mee
in
deede
,
word
,
or
desire
,
and
to
make
mee
so
thankefull
vnto
them
,
as
a
right
Christian
ought
to
be
.
O
Lord
,
if
any
haue
either
in
way
of
friendship
towards
mee
,
or
in
manner
of
enmitie
against
mee
,
or
by
any
meanes
touching
me
displeased
thee
,
I
beseech
thee
to
pardon
them
:
and
also
to
giue
such
a
measure
of
thy
grace
into
mine
vncharitable
heatt
,
that
I
may
most
freely
forgiue
euery
one
that
either
hath
been
,
or
shall
be
a
trespasser
against
me
.
O
Lord
,
I
haue
displeased
,
and
discontented
many
folke
.
I
beseech
thee
to
pacifie
and
quiet
them
.
O
giue
grace
that
I
may
humbly
seek
for
,
and
they
may
gently
yeeld
vnto
a
Christian
reconcilement
.
O
Lord
,
I
am
of
a
froward
disposition
,
apt
to
displease
and
disquiet
euery
one
.
I
beseech
thee
to
breake
me
from
this
vnkind
vnpeaceable
condition
:
O
keepe
me
from
giuing
cause
of
displeasure
vnto
any
,
and
keep
others
from
taking
displeasure
against
me
,
that
so
farre
as
is
possible
with
a
good
conscience
,
I
may
liue
and
die
in
peace
with
all
thy
creatures
.
O
Lord
,
thou
mightest
iustly
set
all
thy
creatures
to
sight
against
mee
;
because
I
am
most
rebelliously
disobedient
against
thee
.
But
contrariwise
,
thou
dost
most
mercifully
giue
vnto
me
the
comfortable
vse
of
many
things
,
and
the
fauourable
amitie
of
many
people
.
O
gracious
Lord
,
I
humbly
thanke
thee
,
beseeching
thine
Almightie
goodnesse
so
to
sanctifie
thy
blessings
vnto
me
,
that
I
may
blessedly
employ
them
to
the
glory
of
thy
grace
,
the
good
of
all
people
,
and
the
hurt
of
nothing
,
but
onely
of
sinne
.
O
Lord
,
I
owe
a
speciall
dutie
vnto
my
kinred
,
and
acquaintance
.
I
beseech
thee
to
be
gracious
vnto
them
,
and
specially
vnto
those
with
whom
I
stand
charged
as
the
minister
of
their
saluation
.
O
giue
vnto
euerie
one
of
them
,
I
most
humbly
pray
thee
all
those
blessings
which
a
good
minister
of
thy
Gospel
should
be
a
meanes
to
procure
vnto
them
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
O
Lord
,
Christened
people
,
who
of
thy
Sonne
Christs
name
are
named
Christians
,
be
verie
wretchedly
entangled
with
differences
of
beleefe
,
and
wickednesses
of
life
:
I
beseech
thee
to
send
forth
such
a
power
of
thy
Sonnes
grace
,
as
shall
ioyne
them
all
together
in
the
right
Christian
faith
,
and
make
them
to
abound
in
the
fruits
thereof
,
to
thy
glorie
,
and
their
mutuall
benefiting
one
another
.
Specially
,
O
Lord
,
as
dutie
bindeth
mee
,
I
pray
for
those
two
Ilands
,
Brittain
,
and
Ireland
,
beseeching
thee
to
powre
thy
graces
continually
vpon
thine
anointed
seruant
King
Iames
,
and
vpon
his
Queene
,
and
Children
,
and
subiects
,
that
hee
,
and
all
his
may
be
euery
way
pleasing
vnto
thee
,
and
euermore
blessed
of
thee
.
Amen
,
Amen
.
O
Lord
,
many
nations
,
and
people
are
vnchristians
;
they
beleeue
not
in
thy
Sonne
Christ
,
and
therefore
they
are
in
the
way
of
damnation
.
I
beseech
thee
to
be
mercifull
vnto
them
all
,
and
specially
vnto
the
Iewes
,
and
Israelites
the
naturall
children
of
thine
old
faithfull
seruants
Abraham
,
Isaac
,
and
Iacob
.
So
soone
as
it
possibly
may
bee
,
with
thine
owne
good
pleasure
,
I
humbly
pray
thee
to
conuert
them
vnto
the
true
Christian
faith
,
that
they
may
be
saued
,
and
therein
thy
Sonne
Christ
glorified
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
O
Lord
,
some
people
are
diseased
in
bodie
,
some
are
troubled
in
minde
,
and
some
are
cumbred
with
outward
aduersitie
.
I
beseech
thee
to
giue
them
the
grace
that
they
may
forsake
all
manner
of
sinne
,
and
wholly
submit
themselues
vnto
thee
;
O
then
they
shall
be
most
tenderly
cherished
in
all
their
necessities
,
&
verie
timely
remooued
out
of
all
their
miserie
into
perpetuall
blessednes
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
For
these
,
and
for
all
other
mercies
which
I
,
or
any
child
of
my
father
Adam
doe
,
or
shall
need
,
my
desire
is
,
O
Lord
,
I
beseech
thee
,
giue
mee
grace
,
to
pray
acceptably
vnto
thy
glorious
maiestie
in
thine
onely
Sonne
Iesus
Christs
name
,
as
hee
hath
taught
mee
,
saying
,
O
our
Father
which
art
in
heauen
,
hallowed
be
thy
name
,
&c.
Glorie
,
and
honour
,
and
praise
,
and
thankes
,
with
all
diuine
worship
,
and
humble
seruice
be
giuen
vnto
thee
,
O
God
the
Father
,
the
Sonne
,
and
the
holy
Ghost
.
And
vnto
the
poore
children
of
the
man
Adam
be
vouchsafed
from
thee
thorough
the
man
Iesus
,
deliuerance
from
sinne
and
miserie
,
henceforth
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
That
I
might
sing
vnto
my
good
Lord
in
some
tuneablenesse
,
I
bought
the
whole
booke
of
Psalmes
with
tunes
in
foure
parts
.
And
I
bestowed
now
and
then
,
a
little
time
to
learne
the
notes
of
the
tenor
part
.
My
skill
is
verie
small
;
but
yet
I
would
not
forgoe
it
for
a
great
gaine
;
because
it
helpeth
my
dull
deuotion
.
This
,
vnder
correction
,
I
say
of
musicke
,
Vpon
an
holy
affection
,
it
hath
an
heauenly
working
:
but
contrariwise
,
contrarily
.
¶
My
forenoone
Psalme
,
to
the
tune
of
Attend
my
people
,
and
giue
eare
.
O
Vt
of
the
deepes
of
miserie
,
O
blessed
Lord
,
I
cry
to
thee
:
Vouchsafe
for
thy
Sonne
Christ
his
sake
,
to
hearken
graciously
to
me
.
To
me
the
worst
of
all
the
folke
which
here
vpon
thine
earth
doe
dwell
;
A
wretch
most
fit
to
be
cut
off
,
and
cast
downe
headlong
into
hell
.
For
mercie
Lord
to
thee
I
crie
,
for
mercie
and
for
sauing
grace
,
To
pardon
all
my
wickednesse
,
and
my
corruptions
to
deface
.
Good
Lord
giue
me
repentance
,
that
I
may
indeed
vnfainedly
Enforce
my selfe
for
euermore
my
sinnes
to
kill
and
crucifie
.
Lord
guide
and
leade
me
all
this
day
,
in
euery
thought
,
and
word
,
and
deed
,
To
doe
thy
will
,
and
blesse
thou
me
that
I
may
alwaies
haue
good
speed
.
And
when
thou
shalt
most
mightily
haue
freed
me
from
sinnefull
thrall
,
To
praise
thy
blessed
Name
with
me
I
will
entreat
thy
people
all
.
Both
now
,
and
henceforth
I
will
praise
thy
Name
O
God
,
right
thankefully
,
Because
thou
wilt
not
suffer
me
in
gracelesse
state
to
liue
and
die
.
O
Father
,
Sonne
,
and
holy
Ghost
,
one
onely
God
in
persons
three
,
All
glorie
,
honour
,
praise
,
and
thankes
,
be
yeelded
euermore
to
thee
.
Amen
.
My
noone
prayer
.
O
most
holy
,
most
good
,
and
gracious
Lord
God
,
I
the
most
vncleane
,
and
most
defiled
wretch
of
all
the
world
,
doe
humbly
beseech
thy
most
blessed
and
glorious
maiestie
,
that
euen
for
that
right
deare
loue
which
is
betweene
thee
,
and
thine
onely
begotten
Sonn
,
the
Lord
Iesus
Christ
,
God
and
man
crucified
,
thou
wilt
vouchsafe
to
make
knowne
thy
wonderfull
grace
,
in
cleansing
me
from
the
most
abhominable
defilement
of
my
sinnes
.
To
this
ende
I
humbly
pray
thee
to
make
me
alwaies
very
mindefull
of
thy
presence
,
fearefull
of
thy
displeasure
,
and
desirous
of
thy
fauour
.
O
most
mercifull
Lord
,
grant
mee
this
mercy
,
this
exceeding
great
mercie
,
and
then
doe
vnto
mee
euery
way
that
which
shall
bee
most
to
thine
own
good
pleasure
,
and
to
thy
owne
glory
.
Yea
blessed
Lord
God
,
vnto
thee
bee
all
good
pleasure
,
praise
,
honour
,
worshippe
,
and
glory
in
Iesus
Christ
,
now
and
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
¶
My
noone
Psalme
to
a
tune
which
in
Cambridge
was
called
Mr.
Perkins
tune
.
O
Holy
,
holy
,
holy
Lord
,
the
purest
of
all
things
,
the
blessefull
glorious
Maiesty
,
from
whence
all
goodnes
springs
.
Looke
downe
from
thy
most
holy
place
,
behold
good
Lord
and
see
A
sinfull
wofull
wretched
man
most
loathsome
vnto
thee
.
Most
foule
and
filthie
is
my
sinne
,
Ah!
fie
vpon
me
fie
!
O
Father
of
all
holinesse
,
to
thee
for
grace
I
crie
.
For
grace
to
wash
,
and
make
me
cleane
,
from
this
most
vgly
sinne
,
That
I
in
heauen
among
thy
Saints
,
the
lowest
place
may
winne
.
The
last
and
lowest
place
of
all
,
O
Lord
,
of
thee
I
craue
:
Giue
grace
to
wash
,
and
make
me
cleane
,
that
I
that
place
may
haue
.
Forgiue
me
all
my
sinnes
,
though
they
most
grieuous
be
and
great
;
Forgiue
me
all
for
Christ
his
sake
,
I
humbly
thee
intreat
.
Then
I
will
sing
to
thee
with
ioy
,
my
song
it
shall
be
this
,
No
wight
so
wicked
as
I
was
hath
place
in
heauenly
blisse
.
To
Father
,
Sonne
,
and
holy
Ghost
,
All
glorie
be
therefore
,
Yea
honour
,
worship
,
praise
,
and
thanks
henceforth
for
euermore
.
¶
About
three
of
the
clocke
in
the
afternoone
,
I
must
say
the
same
prayer
which
I
said
about
nine
in
the
forenoone
.
O
Almightie
Lord
God
,
who
louest
holinesse
,
&c.
¶
My
afternoone
Psalme
,
to
the
Suffolke
tune
.
O
Blessed
and
most
glorious
God
,
whose
throne
is
set
on
high
,
I
sinnfull
and
most
wretched
man
,
to
thee
for
mercy
crie
.
Confessing
that
thy
great
goodnesse
,
thy
patience
wonderfull
,
And
long
forbearance
doe
me
mooue
my
sinnes
to
disanul
.
But
wo
is
me
!
my
naughtie
heart
to
sinne
is
still
so
bent
,
That
in
my selfe
I
finde
no
meanes
entirely
to
repent
.
This
world
also
wherein
I
liue
with
sinne
doth
ouerflowe
,
And
meetes
me
with
temptations
which
way
soe'er
I
goe
.
Satan
that
mighty
euill
spirit
so
full
of
subtiltie
,
Doth
practise
all
the
meanes
he
can
,
that
I
in
sinne
may
die
.
Therefore
I
crie
to
thee
O
Lord
,
whose
power
is
ouer
all
,
Beseeching
thee
to
free
me
from
this
sinnefull
deadly
thrall
.
With
true
repentance
,
and
right
faith
,
mine
heart
and
soule
fulfill
,
That
I
may
hate
all
wickednesse
,
and
cleane
fast
to
thy
will
.
From
all
this
worlds
temptations
,
and
Satans
practising
,
Keepe
thou
me
safe
,
I
humbly
pray
,
O
gracious
heauenly
King
.
Then
will
I
praise
with
heart
and
voice
,
and
magnifie
thy
name
,
When
thou
hast
saued
my
poore
soule
from
endlesse
paine
and
shame
.
All
glorie
,
honour
,
praise
,
and
thankes
,
be
alwaies
giuen
to
thee
,
O
Father
,
Sonne
,
and
holy
Ghost
,
one
God
in
persons
three
.
My
prayer
at
night
before
I
goe
to
bed
.
O
most
mightie
,
and
most
gracious
Lord
God
,
I
wretched
man
,
the
worst
of
the
world
,
doe
crie
thee
mercie
for
all
the
sinns
which
this
day
,
or
at
any
time
before
,
haue
come
out
of
my
heart
,
by
way
of
deede
,
word
,
or
thought
.
I
heartily
thanke
thee
for
all
the
blessings
which
thou
hast
graciously
,
and
plentifully
giuen
me
.
I
humbly
praise
thine
holy
name
,
for
that
it
hath
pleased
thee
to
preserue
mee
from
many
euills
,
&
to
deliuer
me
out
of
great
dangers
.
I
beseech
thee
to
endue
me
with
such
a
measure
of
thy
grace
,
that
I
may
henceforth
foreuermore
bee
acceptably
thankefull
vnto
thee
,
through
Iesus
Christ
.
Be
mercifull
also
I
humbly
pray
thee
vnto
all
those
for
whom
I
ought
to
pray
:
giue
them
,
and
vnto
me
,
I
beseech
thee
,
all
the
graces
which
thine
only
sonne
hath
taught
vs
to
pray
for
in
his
name
,
saying
,
O
our
father
which
art
in
heaaen
,
hallowed
be
thy
name
,
&c.
When
I
lay
me
downe
in
my
bed
,
I
will
say
,
O
blessed
Lord
God
,
here
I
lie
downe
,
not
knowing
what
shall
come
vnto
me
this
night
:
I
humbly
betake
both
bodie
and
soule
vnto
thee
,
beseeching
thy
most
gracious
goodnesse
to
receiue
me
into
thy
keeping
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Son
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
When
I
settle
my selfe
to
sleepe
,
I
will
say
,
O
good
Lord
God
,
vouchsafe
to
be
mercifull
vnto
this
feeble
bodie
,
that
it
may
haue
a
little
comfortable
rest
,
and
be
thereby
made
the
more
seruiceable
vnto
thee
,
through
thine
onely
Sonne
my
deare
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
If
I
cannot
take
rest
,
I
will
say
thus
,
O
most
gracious
Lord
,
this
body
cannot
take
rest
,
because
I
haue
wickedly
disordered
it
:
I
beseech
thee
therefore
to
pardon
me
all
my
wickednesse
,
and
now
teach
my
poore
soule
,
how
it
shal
find
euerlasting
rest
in
thee
,
thorough
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
Iesus
Christ
.
Amen
.
About
midnight
,
whether
I
haue
slept
or
not
,
I
will
pray
thus
;
O
most
glorious
Lord
God
,
the
Father
of
lights
,
no
darkenes
can
hide
me
from
thee
;
for
thou
seest
so
clearely
at
midnight
,
as
at
mid-day
,
yea
thou
beholdest
all
my
thoughts
:
Therefore
I
humbly
present
my selfe
before
thy
blessed
Maiestie
,
beseeching
thee
to
look
graciously
vpon
me
a
most
vngracious
wretch
,
and
to
saue
me
from
the
workes
of
darkenes
,
that
I
may
haue
the
lowest
place
within
the
kingdome
of
thy
glorie
.
Graunt
this
most
mercifull
Father
,
for
thine
onely
Sonnes
sake
,
in
whose
name
I
pray
further
for
my selfe
,
and
for
all
other
folke
,
as
he
hath
taught
me
,
saying
,
O
our
Father
which
art
in
heauen
,
hallowed
bee
thy
name
,
&c.
So
often
as
I
haue
had
any
sleepe
,
when
I
awake
,
I
will
say
thus
,
O
most
mercifull
Father
,
God
almightie
,
I
humbly
thanke
thee
for
the
rest
which
thou
hast
now
giuen
vnto
this
naughty
bodie
.
I
bequeath
both
it
and
my
soule
into
thine
hands
,
to
bee
disposed
of
according
vnto
thy
will
,
to
the
glorie
of
thy
name
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
:
Amen
.
When
I
arise
in
the
morning
,
I
will
say
;
O
good
Lord
God
,
with
all
mine
heart
I
thanke
thy
blessed
maiestie
,
for
that
it
hath
pleased
thee
mercifully
to
keep
me
all
this
night
;
nowe
I
arise
out
of
this
bed
,
in
thy
name
O
Father
,
in
thy
name
O
Iesus
Christ
,
in
thy
name
O
holy
Ghost
,
O
most
holy
&
vndiuided
,
vnseparable
three
persons
in
one
God
,
one
God
in
three
persons
,
for
thy
glorious
names
sake
,
vouchsafe
to
be
mercifull
vnto
me
a
sinner
.
Amen
.
This
is
my
third
rule
.
My
last
rule
.
Fourthly
,
and
lastly
,
I
must
in
the
sight
of
God
,
conscionably
detest
,
and
resist
my
sinnes
,
faithfully
endeauouring
,
that
I
may
in
very
truth
sa●
with
Dauid
,
Psalm.
18.23
.
I
was
also
vpright
before
him
,
and
I
kept
my selfe
from
mine
iniquitie
.
First
,
therefore
beeing
alwaies
mindfull
of
Gods
presence
,
I
must
carefully
intend
to
know
and
to
doe
his
will
.
Secondly
,
when
any
motion
commeth
vnto
mine
heart
,
quietly
,
vnpartially
,
&
diligently
consider
,
whether
it
be
good
in
the
sight
of
God
,
yea
or
no
?
If
it
be
good
,
I
must
willingly
yeeld
vnto
it
:
But
if
it
be
euill
,
I
must
steadfastly
purpose
to
refuse
it
;
yea
and
remooue
my selfe
so
farre
as
possible
from
all
danger
of
beeing
tempted
vnto
it
.
If
I
be
strongly
tempted
to
yeeld
vnto
any
sinne
,
I
must
earnestly
pray
vnto
God
for
deliuerance
;
thus
:
O
most
holy
and
blessed
Lord
God
,
I
the
worst
of
all
sinners
,
being
now
as
thou
seest
strongly
tempted
to
sinne
against
thee
,
and
not
able
to
resist
the
temptation
,
by
reason
of
the
long
setled
wickednesse
of
my
heart
,
doe
humbly
beseech
thee
to
be
so
mercifull
vnto
me
,
as
to
saue
me
from
this
great
danger
,
thorough
thy
almightie
grace
in
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
,
Amen
.
Hauing
thus
praied
,
yea
,
and
praied
againe
and
againe
,
if
need
require
,
I
must
with
a
good
courage
put
on
the
mind
,
that
I
wil
rather
endure
any
losse
or
dammage
,
then
yeeld
vnto
that
sinne
.
And
I
must
assure
my selfe
,
that
how
stronglie
soeuer
I
am
tempted
,
God
will
most
certainly
enable
me
to
endure
that
temptation
,
vnlesse
I
basely
consent
vnto
it
.
When
by
the
grace
of
God
I
am
freed
from
any
temptation
,
I
must
praise
him
thus
;
O
the
Father
of
mercy
,
and
the
fountaine
of
power
,
I
a
most
weake
wretch
,
not
able
to
resist
the
least
motion
of
sinne
that
may
be
,
do
heartily
thanke
thee
for
this
gracious
deliuerance
,
which
thou
hast
vouchsafed
to
giue
vnto
mee
.
O
good
Lord
,
I
beseech
thee
to
continue
thy
grace
towards
mee
,
that
I
may
alwaies
be
more
and
more
thankfull
vnto
thee
,
thorough
Iesus
Christ
thine
only
Sonne
my
Lord
,
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
If
thorough
want
of
heed
,
or
by
weake
resistance
,
I
fall
into
any
sinne
,
I
must
so
soone
as
I
know
it
,
make
my
confession
,
and
prayer
vnto
God
,
thus
;
O
most
holy
,
and
righteous
Lord
God
,
I
most
damnable
sinner
haue
now
sinned
against
thee
thus
,
and
thus
,
&c.
I
crie
thee
mercy
,
O
most
mercifull
Father
,
beseeching
thee
to
giue
mee
true
repentance
,
pardon
,
and
freedome
from
this
,
and
from
all
my
sinnes
,
thorough
thine
onely
Sonne
Iesus
Christ
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
Moreouer
,
because
I
am
much
giuen
to
sinne
openly
,
that
is
,
in
the
sight
,
or
in
the
hearing
of
some
one
or
many
of
Gods
people
,
which
is
a
great
meanes
to
draw
them
into
sinne
,
or
to
harden
them
in
sinne
,
or
at
least
to
discourage
those
which
make
conscience
of
their
conuersation
;
vnto
euery
one
that
shall
heare
or
see
me
sinning
,
I
must
,
so
soone
as
I
perceiue
my
sinne
,
with
all
possible
conuenient
speed
,
very
plainly
,
and
repentingly
,
confesse
it
thus
;
Such
a
thing
you
saw
me
doe
:
or
,
Such
a
thing
you
heard
me
say
:
I
beseech
you
for
Gods
sake
,
to
take
great
heed
that
it
cause
no
euil
effect
in
you
:
for
it
was
a
sinne
against
God
,
and
therefore
I
cry
God
mercy
for
it
.
Thus
I
must
confesse
any
open
fault
;
yea
if
it
be
commited
in
preaching
,
writing
,
or
howsoeuer
.
A
pulpit
fault
in
the
same
pulpit
,
and
to
the
same
company
,
must
bee
confessed
.
These
be
my
rules
for
the
practise
of
zealous
reformation
,
that
I
may
be
in
very
deed
a
member
,
and
minister
of
the
reformed
Church
.
Now
I
will
declare
vnto
you
,
how
I
endeauoured
to
bring
my selfe
into
those
foure
Rules
,
and
with
what
successe
.
All
the
rest
of
Aprill
I
in
a
manner
lost
,
endeauouring
very
little
or
nothing
:
but
I
could
haue
no
quietnesse
in
minde
longer
then
I
intended
that
busines
.
The
first
of
May
,
died
in
our
parish
a
gentleman
,
one
M.
Villers
,
of
the
same
tormenting
disease
which
I
haue
:
he
had
bin
long
time
very
greiuously
pained
with
it
.
Euery
day
,
specially
in
the
morning
,
it
plagued
me
.
Wherefore
to
ease
the
paine
,
I
dranke
much
small
drinke
:
and
sometime
water
,
yea
now
and
then
,
mine
own
water
;
because
I
was
told
that
so
I
should
be
cased
.
But
though
I
dranke
neuer
so
much
,
after
it
was
passed
thorough
my
bodie
,
the
paine
came
againe
.
Yet
notwithstanding
all
this
,
I
could
not
keep
my selfe
in
the
company
of
God
,
specially
when
I
was
together
with
any
body
:
for
then
I
fell
into
a
deale
of
idle
vnholy
communication
.
The
eight
of
May
,
beeing
Sabbath
day
,
in
the
euening
,
these
foure
were
together
,
M.
Sidney
Zouch
,
M.
Mathew
Bate
,
Philip
Aram
,
Richard
Kilby
:
we
dranke
at
M.
Matth.
Bates
house
,
who
at
the
parting
said
thus
vnto
vs
;
It
is
great
oddes
,
that
not
all
wee
foure
shal
be
aliue
this
day
twelue
moneth
.
I
roundly
took
the
words
to
my self
,
iudging
that
the
first
which
must
be
gone
was
I
,
and
that
god
had
put
into
his
mind
to
say
those
words
for
my
monishment
.
Yet
(
see
the
setled
wickednesse
of
mine
heart
)
after
my
departure
from
them
,
I
met
with
other
company
,
and
so
merily
delighted
my selfe
with
prophane
talke
,
that
when
I
came
into
my
chamber
,
I
was
forced
to
goe
prayer-lesse
to
bedde
,
because
my
soule
was
confounded
,
and
ashamed
to
looke
vp
towards
God
.
The
morrow
morning
,
I
prayed
thus
;
O
blessed
Lord
God
,
most
maruelous
art
thou
in
goodnesse
,
and
patience
.
Is
it
possible
that
thou
canst
forbeare
the
powring
of
thy
iust
,
and
wrathfull
vengeance
vpon
mee
?
O
Lord
,
it
is
exceedingly
enough
that
thou
hast
thus
long
forborne
mee
:
Cut
off
,
I
beseech
thee
,
this
most
cursed
course
of
my
sinne
,
and
doe
vnto
mee
that
which
is
most
pleasing
to
thy
holy
will
.
O
Lord
,
is
there
yet
any
hope
that
I
should
be
saued
?
Yea
,
with
condition
of
repentance
.
Woe
is
mee
!
there
is
no
possibilitie
of
my
repentance
.
I
cannot
steadfastly
continue
in
the
purpose
of
resisting
my
sinnes
:
yea
so
long
as
thy
pleasure
is
to
preserue
me
aliue
,
thou
callest
mee
vnto
thee
;
O
God
,
I
would
come
;
but
I
cannot
:
I
will
assaie
.
O
I
haue
no
faith
.
This
is
that
which
commeth
of
long
liuing
in
sinne
.
Yet
who
can
tell
what
thou
wilt
doe
,
if
I
but
offer
to
assay
?
Without
assaying
,
there
is
no
turning
:
without
turning
,
no
saluation
.
Therefore
I
will
assay
.
Good
Lord
,
I
cannot
.
How
vncouth
?
How
strange
?
How
beyond
all
possibilitie
doth
the
practise
of
a
conscionable
life
seeme
vnto
mee
?
O
Lord
,
besides
mine
owne
inward
vnrepentance
,
the
violent
streame
of
this
world
hindereth
mee
.
Most
folke
further
mee
in
sinne
,
some
one
way
,
some
another
.
But
a
very
few
holp
mee
to
enter
in
at
the
little
doore
of
repentance
.
Men
may
talke
much
,
and
professe
great
matters
;
but
it
is
repentance
that
shall
try
what
kind
of
people
they
be
.
O
how
easie
a
thing
it
is
to
make
an
outward
shewe
,
if
that
would
serue
the
turne
?
The
heart
must
be
vpright
with
thee
,
and
the
spirit
must
cleaue
fast
vnto
thee
;
else
it
is
no
bargaine
,
no
couenant
betweene
thee
,
and
the
party
.
In
the
name
of
Iesus
I
wil
assay
.
O
Iesu
help
me
,
for
thy
most
comfortable
names
sake
.
Amen
.
That
very
same
day
,
I
comming
into
company
,
turned
from
God
.
Tuesday
I
prayed
thus
;
O
Lord
God
,
I
do
plainely
perceiue
,
that
to
pray
vnto
thee
for
the
grace
of
repentance
,
and
not
to
enforce
my selfe
to
practise
the
meanes
,
is
a
kind
of
mockery
,
and
a
fearefull
prouoking
of
thy
displeasure
.
Earnest
praier
,
and
diligent
practise
,
will
mutually
,
thorough
thy
grace
,
strengthen
each
other
.
But
neglect
of
practise
,
sheweth
cold
deuotion
.
Therefore
I
purpose
to
force
my selfe
vnto
this
businesse
.
O
good
Lord
,
be
mercifull
vnto
mee
.
Amen
.
My
intolerable
paine
grew
worse
and
worse
,
yet
I
could
not
frame
my selfe
to
take
any
sure
hold
vpon
the
grace
of
repentance
.
Munday
the
sixteenth
of
May
,
I
prayed
thus
;
O
Lord
God
,
had
I
not
been
a
stony
hearted
sinner
,
this
deadly
windines
might
haue
terrified
mee
from
sinne
aboue
sixe
yeares
a
gone
.
O
how
blessed
should
I
now
haue
beene
,
had
I
but
these
sixe
last
yeares
in
singlenesse
of
heart
serued
thee
!
Now
my
time
is
gone
;
mine
heart
is
dead
within
me
.
And
though
I
should
liue
a
while
,
this
hellish
strangury
quite
disableth
me
:
yet
were
I
turned
vnto
thee
,
thou
wouldest
be
very
gracious
vnto
mee
,
Oh!
mine
heart
is
so
deuillishly
bent
to
sinne
,
that
no
vowes
,
no
oathes
,
nothing
can
turne
it
.
O
Lord
,
what
shall
I
doe
?
I
am
as
a
man
that
hath
most
deadly
wounded
himselfe
,
and
dying
would
not
die
.
But
woe
is
mee
!
There
is
no
remedie
.
He
that
is
wounded
to
death
,
must
die
;
yea
,
but
thou
vouchsafest
to
raise
vp
some
by
the
grace
of
thy
Sonne
.
True
,
Lord
,
true
it
is
.
But
few
of
that
companie
be
such
as
haue
bin
dissembling
hypocrites
.
And
of
all
counterfeits
,
the
most
vncurable
is
a
counterfeit-preacher
of
thy
righteousnes
.
My
soule
can
hardly
thinke
how
such
a
one
should
haue
the
grace
of
repentance
.
Of
all
such
,
if
any
such
there
be
beside
me
,
I
am
the
worst
.
O
good
Lord
be
mercifull
vnto
me
the
worst
of
all
sinners
.
Amen
.
Friday
the
twentieth
of
May
,
I
prayed
thus
;
O
good
Lord
,
though
the
hardnes
of
mine
heart
be
exceedingly
great
,
yet
ought
I
not
to
despaire
:
for
thy
Sonne
likeneth
the
kingdome
of
thy
grace
vnto
a
graine
of
musterd
seede
,
and
vnto
a
little
leauen
.
O
my
soule
,
hast
thou
not
a
little
faith
!
Looke
vp
vnto
heauen
,
and
craue
of
thy
maker
that
the
fulnes
of
grace
which
is
in
Iesus
Christ
may
haue
some
little
influence
,
and
entrance
into
thee
,
by
the
holy
Ghost
.
O
my
good
Lord
,
my
soule
is
full
of
vnbeleefe
.
I
beseech
thee
to
be
mercifull
vnto
mine
vnbeleeuing
soule
.
Amen
.
About
noone
the
same
day
,
hauing
dined
with
two
strangers
(
for
I
lodge
,
and
table
in
a
vitteling-house
)
comming
into
my
chamber
,
I
confessed
,
and
prayed
thus
;
O
Lord
,
what
am
I
that
I
should
vndertake
to
walke
vprightly
before
thy
face
?
I
cannot
,
for
the
company
,
and
presence
of
any
one
draweth
my
minde
downe
from
thee
.
O
why
doest
thou
suffer
the
poore
children
of
Adam
to
be
thus
carried
away
?
Is
it
because
thou
wilt
haue
it
so
?
fie
vpon
mee
sinne-blinded
wretch
!
when
a
seruant
for
his
naughtines
is
turned
out
of
his
seruice
,
hee
should
laie
the
blame
of
his
miserie
vpon
himselfe
,
and
not
vngraciously
exclaime
that
his
lord
had
a
purpose
to
put
him
away
before
euer
hee
offended
.
Yea
,
but
seely
man
thinketh
,
that
thou
who
art
so
renowned
,
and
famous
for
mercie
,
shouldest
be
mercifull
vnto
euery
one
.
Or
if
not
so
,
because
then
iustice
should
not
be
seene
,
nor
the
benefit
of
mercie
so
well
appeare
;
yet
the
greater
number
should
haue
mercie
;
specially
seeing
that
the
God-man
Iesus
hath
paid
so
great
a
ransome
for
mercy
.
We
do
not
consider
that
among
many
traytors
,
it
is
much
if
a
King
pardon
one
.
Sinne
is
treason
against
thee
,
yea
farre
more
haynous
,
then
the
highest
treason
can
be
against
Princes
;
because
thy
Maiestie
is
infinitely
greater
then
theirs
.
Also
thy
hate
of
sinn
is
aboue
our
vnderstanding
,
for
it
is
according
to
the
measure
of
thy
holinesse
,
which
is
vnmeasurable
.
Ah!
my
father
Adam
little
knew
,
how
many
thousand
thousands
of
his
owne
naturall
children
,
hee
did
throwe
into
euerlasting
miserie
,
in
breaking
thy
commandement
.
He
was
well
able
to
haue
obeyed
thy
will
:
So
am
not
I
:
for
from
out
of
him
I
haue
together
with
my
bodie
,
receiued
a
wicked
inclination
,
which
now
is
by
long
custome
in
sinning
,
most
extreamly
hardened
.
O
good
Lord
,
be
mercifull
vnto
mee
.
Amen
.
That
afternoone
I
kept
my selfe
within
;
and
the
morrow
also
.
But
Saturday
at
night
I
by
occasion
of
companie
,
fell
into
vaine
mirth
,
whereunto
I
am
excessiuely
giuen
.
There
is
indeed
a
good
kind
of
merriment
,
if
we
could
hit
vpon
it
:
for
,
according
to
the
last
,
and
in
my
weake
iudgement
,
the
best
translation
of
the
Bible
,
He
that
is
of
a
merry
heart
,
hath
a
continuall
feast
,
Prou.
15.15
.
But
in
the
Iewes
language
,
a
merry
heart
is
a
good
heart
;
and
therefore
there
can
be
no
sound
safe
mirth
without
the
grace
of
repentance
.
Can
a
subiect
,
though
of
high
degree
,
bee
frolike
and
iocand
before
the
face
of
the
King
,
so
long
as
his
Maiestie
is
grieuously
displeased
with
him
?
That
were
a
ready
way
to
discouer
an
vnloyall
heart
,
which
vnto
a
prudent
Prince
is
verie
abhominable
.
But
what
if
the
same
subiect
bee
vpon
humble
submission
receiued
into
his
Soueraignes
fauour
?
will
he
not
be
very
moderate
in
his
mirth
,
so
long
as
hee
is
in
the
presence
of
his
Maiestie
?
will
it
not
be
ioy
sufficient
vnto
him
,
to
be
free
from
giuing
his
Leige
Lord
any
cause
of
distast
,
&
to
minister
vnto
him
all
possible
good
contentment
?
yea
,
else
he
is
not
fit
to
bee
in
the
presence
of
Maiestie
,
for
hee
eclipseth
the
royall
glory
,
which
cannot
but
cause
some
euill
effect
one
way
,
or
another
.
So
it
is
betweene
the
Lord
of
glorie
,
and
those
which
serue
in
his
presence
,
that
is
to
say
,
all
Christians
.
The
22.
of
May
,
beeing
Sabbath
,
I
was
sore
plagued
with
the
strangurie
;
yet
going
to
Church
,
and
after
diuine
seruice
comming
into
the
pulpit
,
I
felt
my selfe
to
be
something
coole
,
and
able
to
speake
.
So
might
I
haue
continued
,
but
that
I
did
as
I
would
wish
no
man
to
do
,
strain
my selfe
with
a
kind
of
furiousnesse
;
the
common
behauiour
of
such
as
are
tumultuously
,
confusedly
and
rawly
prepared
.
The
best
way
for
a
Preachers
selfe
,
and
the
most
likely
to
preuaile
in
perswading
his
hearers
,
is
,
if
I
bee
not
much
deceiued
,
graue
,
milde
,
and
treatable
speech
.
If
a
man
perceiue
it
in
himselfe
,
it
is
a
very
grieuous
sight
to
see
corrupted
nature
play
the
part
of
grace
,
and
with
a
smoakie
flourish
,
make
as
though
it
would
kill
the
deuill
,
beeing
indeed
his
base
slaue
,
so
willing
to
obey
,
as
he
to
commaund
.
What
a
glorie
is
this
to
Sathan
,
what
a
dishonour
to
God
?
After
I
was
come
home
,
I
praysed
God
thus
;
O
most
excellently
gracious
Lord
,
what
shall
I
sinner
doe
?
I
am
neither
worthy
,
nor
able
to
praise
thee
:
yet
exceedingly
bound
to
do
it
.
O
Lord
,
what
mooueth
thee
to
be
so
good
vnto
the
worst
of
all
sinners
?
Onely
thine
owne
goodnesse
:
for
in
mee
there
is
nothing
but
causes
of
prouocation
:
Yea
a
thousand
,
and
a
thousand
thousand
causes
which
crie
vnto
thee
for
vengeance
,
and
continually
vrge
thy
iustice
to
powre
a
whole
sea
of
wrath
vpon
me
.
And
yet
thou
art
gracious
vnto
mee
.
Had
I
the
holiest
soule
,
and
the
strongest
bodie
of
all
that
liue
vpon
the
face
of
the
earth
,
yea
though
I
could
liue
an
hundred
holy
liues
,
&
die
as
many
right
Martyrdomes
in
zeale
of
thee
,
and
of
thy
truth
,
I
should
not
come
neare
vnto
the
making
of
a
sufficient
recompence
for
the
goodnesse
,
patience
,
and
forbearance
which
thou
hast
graciously
shewed
vnto
mee
.
And
yet
,
loe
,
most
vile
wretch
that
I
am
!
I
still
liue
in
sinne
,
and
so
continue
,
displeasing
and
dishonouring
thee
.
O
my
good
Lord
,
giue
me
grace
to
be
once
broken
from
this
deuillish
wickednesse
,
though
it
be
with
condition
that
I
shal
be
the
most
refuse
man
of
all
the
world
.
Lay
vpon
me
whatsoeuer
thou
wilt
,
onely
disburden
my
conscience
of
sinne
,
and
ease
my
body
of
this
vnsupportable
paine
of
the
strangury
.
Amen
.
At
euening
prayer
,
I
read
and
preached
againe
.
Afterward
beeing
very
much
wearied
,
I
had
a
minde
to
goe
and
refresh
my selfe
in
company
,
(
the
bane
of
Sabbath
day
keeping
)
and
went
first
to
one
house
,
then
to
another
,
ending
the
day
very
heathenishly
.
Monday
after
supper
,
my
minde
pretended
reason
to
draw
me
abroad
:
&
therefore
out
I
went
.
To
ease
my
strangurie
I
dranke
at
one
house
much
beere
,
at
an
other
whaie
in
stead
of
beere
.
Thursday
a
great
heate
with
a
deadly
faintnesse
came
vpon
me
:
my
left
kidney
was
sore
pained
,
and
thereupon
I
was
grieuously
tormented
in
the
passage
of
my
water
.
The
29.
of
May
,
beeing
Sabbath
,
I
took
a
course
●ore
easie
for
my selfe
,
and
as
I
verily
beleeue
,
more
profitable
for
the
parish
.
In
the
forenoone
I
preached
a
sermon
,
and
at
euening
prayer
after
the
second
lesson
,
I
asked
a
youth
,
who
was
well
prouided
to
answer
,
three
or
fowre
questions
touching
the
foundation
of
Religion
.
Then
I
made
those
short
answers
plaine
,
and
prooued
them
out
of
the
Bible
in
halfe
an
houres
space
.
I
humbly
aduise
all
young
Preachers
that
they
will
not
imagine
they
can
build
Ierusalem
suddenly
:
for
sudden
buildings
will
soone
fall
downe
.
I
maruell
how
it
commeth
to
passe
,
that
in
some
places
,
euen
where
learned
Preachers
haue
killed
themselues
with
sore
labours
,
the
greater
number
of
people
are
grossely
ignorant
;
yea
,
I
say
it
againe
,
and
can
prooue
it
,
very
grosly
ignorant
.
I
trust
I
am
vnder
protection
,
and
that
maketh
me
the
bolder
to
speak
my
minde
,
in
the
feare
of
God
,
and
loue
of
my
Countrey
.
The
common
sort
is
much
neglected
:
for
neither
matter
of
doctrine
,
nor
manner
of
speach
is
fitted
vnto
their
lowe
and
small
capacitie
.
Most
people
for
some
three
quarters
of
an
houre
,
if
they
vnderstand
the
words
,
and
perceiue
the
matter
concerning
their
saluation
to
be
plainely
prooued
out
of
the
booke
of
God
,
(
which
for
ought
I
know
,
is
of
greater
reuerence
with
them
,
then
with
many
of
higher
degree
,
and
greater
vnderstanding
:
)
I
say
,
if
they
bee
plainely
and
briefly
taught
out
of
Gods
booke
,
they
will
giue
very
diligent
eare
:
But
if
the
Preacher
confound
their
vnderstanding
,
or
be
longer
then
ordinarie
,
they
leaue
all
,
and
thinke
thus
;
When
will
yonder
man
haue
done
;
he
hath
no
reason
to
make
an
ende
.
The
next
Sabbath
the
fift
of
Iune
,
I
did
follow
the
same
order
which
I
tooke
the
Sabbath
before
.
Thursday
following
I
was
drawne
to
a
feast
,
and
so
into
much
sinne
:
for
no
sawce
is
so
common
at
a
feast
as
sinne
.
Sinne
maketh
all
the
company
merrie
:
Sathan
also
hath
his
factors
,
who
beginne
some
one
or
other
vngodly
kind
of
merriment
.
I
am
naturally
such
a
one
,
yea
worse
then
the
worst
of
them
that
are
so
disposed
:
yet
this
I
say
,
While
you
liue
,
blesse
you
from
those
which
are
speciall
ringleaders
in
matter
of
vnholy
pastime
:
for
the
deuil
himselfe
setteth
them
a
worke
.
Friday
I
dined
with
certaine
strangers
,
and
so
fell
into
forgetfulnes
of
God
:
afterward
comming
into
my
chamber
,
I
prayed
thus
;
O
Lord
God
,
how
is
it
possible
for
him
which
seeth
thee
not
,
to
keep
company
with
thee
:
I
beleeue
that
I
am
before
thy
face
,
what
aileth
me
then
,
that
I
do
not
professe
and
shew
foorth
this
my
beleefe
?
because
there
is
no
company
to
be
had
with
most
people
,
if
this
beleefe
be
acted
,
&
put
into
practise
.
I
my selfe
should
take
it
for
an
vncouth
thing
,
if
an
other
in
my
companie
should
appeare
to
present
himselfe
before
thy
face
.
Our
disposition
abhorreth
to
bee
awed
,
our
mindes
are
full
of
vanitie
,
wee
are
like
vnto
foolish
schollers
,
that
loue
not
to
haue
their
schoolmaster
in
their
companie
:
yea
,
we
are
worse
then
they
;
for
when
their
master
is
with
them
,
though
it
be
sore
against
their
wil
,
yet
they
acknowledge
his
presence
:
and
if
he
be
a
wise
man
,
tempering
masterly
grauitie
with
fatherly
gentlenesse
,
he
shall
in
time
winne
those
rude
ones
to
be
glad
of
his
companie
,
and
very
reuerently
to
loue
him
,
as
the
parent
of
their
good
education
:
So
wouldest
thou
graciously
worke
vpon
vs
,
if
we
would
acknowledge
thy
presence
;
but
this
is
quite
contrarie
to
the
bent
of
our
hearts
.
O
good
Lord
,
I
beseech
thee
to
be
mercifull
vnto
vs
.
Amen
.
That
day
in
the
afternoone
,
I
went
to
Church
to
bury
an
olde
man
,
named
Richard
Duke
,
and
thence
I
went
into
the
town
,
where
,
beeing
in
companie
,
I
forgat
God
,
and
what
any
man
perceiued
in
my
behauiour
,
I
knowe
not
.
Thence
I
came
home
,
and
after
some
idle
communication
with
some
which
I
found
in
the
house
,
comming
into
my
chamber
,
my
spirit
was
so
ashamed
to
speake
vnto
God
,
that
I
went
prayerlesse
to
bedde
.
The
morrow
beeing
Whitsunday-eue
,
I
was
so
grieuously
tormented
that
I
dranke
besides
much
beere
,
foure
quarts
of
water
.
Whitsunday
one
preached
in
my
place
both
forenoone
and
afternoone
.
Munday
by
reason
of
ouerfull
diet
taken
the
day
before
,
the
winde
cholike
began
in
my
bowels
,
which
held
mee
all
day
,
and
all
night
in
sore
paine
:
yea
,
though
I
vsed
both
purges
and
clisters
,
it
hung
vpon
me
welnigh
all
the
weeke
following
.
I
must
not
tell
how
vnpatiently
,
how
abominably
I
behaued
my selfe
,
as
I
laie
tormented
with
that
fit
.
O
most
holy
Lord
,
forgiue
mee
I
beseech
thee
,
and
of
thine
exceeding
great
mercy
free
me
from
the
wicked
bondage
of
my
sinnes
Amen
.
Trinitie
Sunday
I
should
haue
preached
a
sermon
at
Kirk-Ireton
,
some
eight
miles
from
Derbie
,
where
one
M.
Storer
sometime
a
baker
in
London
,
hath
giuen
a
sermon
to
be
preached
,
and
certaine
monie
distributed
that
daie
yearely
for
euer
:
whether
,
because
the
towne
of
Derbie
is
bound
to
see
that
worke
performed
,
I
had
beene
sent
,
as
I
remember
,
foure
times
.
But
my
filthie
strangurie
now
so
vexed
me
,
that
I
could
not
ride
:
Wherefore
tarying
at
home
,
I
preached
twise
to
mine
own
charge
.
Were
I
able
,
I
would
giue
so
much
vnto
the
parish
of
Alhallowes
in
Derbie
for
euer
,
as
should
keepe
their
owne
Minister
at
home
among
them
;
for
it
is
a
great
company
of
people
,
and
hath
great
neede
of
continuall
carefull
guidance
in
the
way
of
God
.
The
sixe
and
twentieth
of
Iune
,
beeing
Sabbath
,
though
in
the
morning
I
was
sore
troubled
with
the
strangury
,
yet
God
of
his
mercy
inabled
me
to
preach
in
the
forenoone
,
and
catechize
in
the
afternoone
.
He
that
had
seene
how
I
studied
mondaie
,
and
tuesday
for
matter
of
prayer
,
and
Psalmes
vnto
God
,
in
desire
&
hope
of
deliuerance
out
of
the
bondage
of
sinne
;
and
after
all
that
,
how
quite
contrarily
I
bent
my
course
,
would
verily
be
perswaded
that
he
had
seene
not
one
man
,
but
two
men
in
one
outward
likenesse
,
the
one
with
many
teares
pitifully
crauing
mercie
at
the
hands
of
God
,
and
the
other
turning
his
backe
to
God
,
and
running
away
from
him
.
Tuesday
euening
I
was
at
a
place
in
the
towne
,
prophanely
pleasing
my selfe
.
Beeing
returned
home
,
and
sitting
downe
in
my
chamber
,
my
minde
left
mee
,
and
went
backe
to
the
same
place
againe
.
At
last
with
much
adoe
,
I
started
vp
,
and
falling
downe
vpon
my
knees
before
the
face
of
God
,
prayed
thus
;
O
my
creator
,
thou
seest
how
it
is
with
mee
.
Thy
goodnesse
is
most
wonderfull
,
my
wickednesse
is
most
vncurable
,
and
vnsufferable
.
O
make
a
speedie
end
of
my
sin
which
way
soeuer
it
pleaseth
thee
,
&
blessed
for
euermore
be
thy
Name
.
Amen
.
The
morrow
I
straggled
not
abroad
,
but
mine
affections
were
very
vnruly
;
yea
,
and
that
which
is
strange
,
I
could
not
frame
my
mind
to
take
any
deep
conceit
of
the
wickednesse
of
mine
heart
.
Thus
it
is
when
a
mans
heart
is
setled
in
the
loue
of
any
euill
,
he
is
not
able
to
thinke
so
of
it
as
it
is
.
Friday
the
first
of
Iuly
,
I
dined
with
a
guest
,
a
learned
friend
of
mine
;
who
tooke
occasion
to
speake
somewhat
sharpely
against
Precisians
.
This
,
I
thought
,
he
did
the
rather
,
because
some
informed
him
,
that
I
was
too
familiar
with
such
people
.
Therefore
to
satisfie
both
that
minister
,
&
all
others
whom
it
may
concerne
,
I
most
humbly
craue
the
benefit
of
modest
libertie
,
to
speake
without
offence
,
what
my
poore
soule
in
the
sight
of
God
,
thinketh
touching
this
diuision
.
It
hath
bin
a
meanes
of
great
aduantage
both
to
Poperie
&
prophanenesse
:
yea
,
this
wretchednes
is
caused
by
it
,
Vpon
either
side
diuerse
haue
nothing
else
to
commend
them
,
but
only
this
,
that
they
are
of
that
side
;
yea
,
and
the
side
is
glad
to
make
vse
of
them
.
Is
it
not
a
lamentable
case
,
that
some
appeare
to
haue
almost
no
conscience
but
against
ceremonies
,
others
none
but
for
ceremonies
?
The
Precisian
doth
(
in
my
conscience
not
without
great
cause
)
crie
out
against
ignorant
,
idle
,
and
prophane
ministers
.
But
where
is
the
fault
?
The
coast
had
been
well
cleared
by
this
time
of
the
daie
,
had
not
Satan
caused
church-gouernment
to
be
both
by
way
of
sobernes
,
and
in
the
fashion
of
maddenes
,
verie
fiercely
assailed
.
But
to
what
end
?
to
reforme
the
Church
?
No
,
to
deforme
it
.
This
is
my
beleefe
concerning
Church-gouernment
.
Can
any
man
truely
say
,
Such
a
lord
Bishop
doth
not
seeke
his
own
worldly
commoditie
,
but
the
edifying
of
his
Diocesse
,
and
the
glory
of
Iesus
Christ
?
Doth
it
euidently
appeare
that
his
whole
bent
is
in
the
diligent
discharge
of
his
office
to
approoue
himselfe
vnto
God
,
and
vnto
euery
conscience
of
men
in
the
sight
of
God
?
Then
will
I
conclude
vpon
my
soules
perill
;
There
is
the
Apostolicall
Church-gouernement
of
Iesus
Christ
.
If
any
such
there
be
,
who
cannot
in
some
good
measure
be
truely
so
reported
of
,
the
calamitie
is
great
,
the
iudgement
very
fearfull
.
Yet
because
of
personall
faults
,
to
destroy
a
diuine
ordinance
,
and
bring
in
confusion
,
the
calamitie
would
be
greater
,
the
iudgement
more
fearefull
.
Indeede
,
Church-discipline
is
not
reuerenced
for
want
of
holy
seuerity
.
The
punishment
of
fornication
and
adulterie
,
&c.
is
little
else
but
large
fees
:
A
filthie
gaine
,
fie
vpon
it
!
I
would
intreat
leaue
to
speake
once
more
.
Touching
the
ministerie
,
besides
what
I
haue
by
the
way
signified
already
,
I
humbly
pray
great
Schollers
,
and
all
that
seeke
after
riches
,
and
advancement
in
the
Church
,
to
ponder
these
my
words
;
The
Gospel
of
the
Sonne
of
God
,
must
,
and
will
first
throwe
downe
Pride
,
and
Couetousnes
,
before
it
worke
an
vniuersall
good
in
this
kingdome
.
Those
two
great
sins
cannot
be
vpheld
any
way
,
but
only
by
Popery
:
for
they
must
be
accompanied
with
a
superstitious
conceit
that
pomp
is
religion
:
which
,
when
all
haue
said
what
they
can
say
,
the
Gospel
wil
not
endure
.
So
,
I
haue
done
.
The
same
friday
after
that
I
had
dined
,
it
came
into
my
mind
to
goe
into
the
towne
,
as
formerly
I
had
done
.
But
I
felt
in
mine
heart
no
desire
to
goe
.
Therefore
comming
into
my
chamber
,
I
beganne
to
wonder
at
my selfe
,
what
should
aile
me
,
fearing
least
some
secret
deadlinesse
had
seazed
vpon
mine
heart
.
At
last
,
I
brake
out
into
these
words
,
Whatsoeuer
is
the
cause
,
blessed
be
the
name
of
God
.
O
good
Lord
,
let
whatsoeuer
come
vpon
me
,
so
that
my
spirit
may
be
setled
in
this
disposition
:
And
I
shall
be
bound
to
praise
thee
most
ioyfully
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
That
day
I
kept
my selfe
within
,
and
the
morrow
,
and
the
Sabbath
day
,
hauing
gotten
one
to
supply
my
place
.
All
the
next
weeke
I
continued
so
,
and
the
Sabbath
following
,
my
place
beeing
supplied
by
one
preacher
in
the
forenoone
,
and
an
other
in
the
afternoone
.
Wednesday
the
thirteenth
of
Iuly
,
I
still
keeping
within
,
prayed
thus
;
O
most
holy
,
and
dreadfull
Lord
God
,
with
what
face
can
so
hainous
a
sinner
as
I
am
,
dare
to
speake
vnto
thy
most
glorious
Maiestie
,
or
be
so
bold
to
aske
any
thing
of
thee
?
Thy
most
wonderfull
goodnesse
emboldeneth
me
.
And
yet
still
me
thinkes
I
am
past
grace
,
because
sinne
doth
so
abound
in
me
.
O
Lord
,
my
sinnes
are
as
the
sand
of
the
sea
vnnumberable
,
&
therefore
my
soule
must
needs
be
thorougly
,
and
thoroughly
stained
:
for
euery
sinne
so
often
as
it
is
yeelded
vnto
,
worketh
a
black
blemish
into
my
soule
.
Woe
is
me
!
my
soule
is
wholly
ouerrun
with
a
most
foule
filthy
leprosie
.
This
is
all
my
comfort
,
that
thy
seruant
saith
,
Rom.
5.20
.
Where
sinne
abounded
,
grace
did
much
more
abound
.
The
more
deadly
the
disease
,
the
more
soueraign
the
medicine
,
the
more
excellent
the
Physitian
that
cureth
it
.
O
God
,
thou
art
able
to
doe
whatsoeuer
powerfull
work
thou
wilt
;
yea
thou
canst
do
infinitly
more
then
thou
wilt
.
But
here
is
the
greatest
wonder
,
that
thou
shouldest
vouchsafe
to
worke
a
most
admirable
cure
vpon
him
vnto
whom
thou
mayest
most
iustly
say
,
Away
from
me
thou
most
damnable
sinner
:
Away
out
of
my
light
:
I
will
not
pardon
thee
;
because
thou
hast
most
grieuously
displeased
,
and
vnpardonably
dishonoured
me
,
in
breaking
the
lawes
of
my
kingdome
,
in
refusing
my
proffered
grace
,
in
taking
vpon
thee
to
be
a
preacher
of
my
righteousnes
,
and
denying
the
power
therof
.
Yet
blessed
Lord
,
so
long
as
the
Iudge
doth
not
giue
order
that
the
condemned
prisoner
bee
taken
from
the
barre
,
the
poor
wretch
cries
for
his
precious
life
,
saying
,
Mercie
good
my
Lord
Iudge
,
mercie
for
Iesus
Christs
sake
.
The
name
Iesus
,
with
an
earthly
Christian
Iudge
,
cannot
but
be
of
great
force
,
&
must
needs
mooue
him
very
much
:
for
it
is
the
name
of
his
deare
Sauiour
,
the
onely
name
whereby
he
trusteth
to
be
saued
.
But
of
all
,
and
aboue
all
,
the
name
Iesus
is
most
precious
in
thy
sight
,
beeing
not
superstitiously
parrated
,
but
mournfully
presented
vnto
thee
.
Therefore
though
a
thousand
thousand
seuerall
inditements
be
found
against
me
,
and
though
the
lawes
of
thy
kingdome
do
condemne
me
;
yet
seeing
that
it
is
thy
good
pleasure
,
to
suffer
me
to
stand
in
thy
presence
,
and
not
to
bee
taken
out
of
this
world
,
I
crie
vnto
thee
,
saying
;
Mercie
Lord
God
almighty
,
mercie
for
thine
onely
begotten
Sonnes
sake
,
Iesus
Christ
,
God
&
man
crucified
:
for
the
loue
of
him
,
blessed
Lord
be
mercifull
vnto
me
the
worst
of
all
sinners
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
Towards
euening
I
being
punished
with
the
hotte
passage
of
my
water
,
painfulnesse
about
the
left
kidnie
,
and
burning
of
the
right
foote
,
was
much
afraid
of
a
deadly
fit
of
the
stone
,
and
therefore
prayed
thus
;
O
my
good
Lord
,
it
is
a
most
miserable
state
,
for
a
man
hauing
spent
his
time
in
sin
,
to
die
before
that
he
haue
in
the
way
of
repentance
,
done
any
seruice
vnto
thee
.
This
dolorous
disease
tormenteth
me
sore
,
and
threatneth
to
kill
me
.
O
Lord
,
might
it
please
thee
in
some
measure
to
rebuke
it
,
that
I
may
liue
a
while
,
and
glorifie
thy
grace
in
the
zealous
reformation
of
life
;
O
how
should
I
then
be
bound
to
prayse
thy
blessed
name
!
Me
thinks
I
heare
thee
saying
vnto
mee
;
Thou
vaine
man
,
that
talkest
so
much
,
and
makest
so
many
doubts
,
wouldings
,
and
wishings
,
let
me
see
thee
once
turne
vnto
me
,
and
then
thou
shalt
know
more
of
my
mind
:
vntill
then
,
all
that
thou
sayest
or
doest
is
as
nothing
:
Therefore
make
no
more
words
,
but
turne
speedily
from
sin
whilest
time
serues
,
and
say
thou
hast
faire
warning
.
O
most
gracious
Lord
,
I
haue
long
had
,
and
yet
haue
,
blessed
be
thy
name
,
very
faire
warning
;
I
will
henceforth
endeauour
to
turne
vnto
thee
,
through
Iesus
Christ
.
Amen
.
Thursdaie
I
beganne
to
sing
a
morning
Psalme
,
which
I
purposed
thence-forth
to
sing
euery
morning
,
hauing
also
prepared
an
euening
Psalme
,
to
bee
sung
vnto
the
Lord
God
,
after
that
I
am
once
well
entred
into
the
practise
of
repentance
.
¶
Mine
euening
Psalme
,
to
the
Kentish
tune
.
O
Lord
most
high
,
and
mighty
God
,
I
sinnefull
wretched
man
,
Confesse
to
thee
so
heartily
,
as
possibly
I
can
.
That
marueilous
exceeding
great
thy
goodnes
is
to
me
,
Who
haue
been
alwaies
most
vnkind
,
and
grieuous
vnto
thee
.
These
very
many
yeares
thou
hast
(
a
wonder
it
's
to
tell
)
Preseru'd
my
dying
life
,
els
I
should
now
haue
been
in
hell
.
Euen
hitherto
,
O
gracious
God
,
thou
hast
vpheld
me
still
,
Whom
thou
most
iustly
mightst
long
since
haue
left
to
Sathans
will
.
What
shall
I
therefore
say
,
O
Lord
,
to
thee
for
thy
goodnesse
?
O
that
my
heart
and
tongue
were
fit
thy
goodnesse
to
confesse
!
O
God
my
poore
and
sinnefull
soule
most
humbly
sues
to
thee
:
That
from
this
filthy
wickednesse
,
thou
wilt
once
set
me
free
.
Now
blessed
Lord
,
free
me
I
pray
,
free
me
for
Christ
his
sake
,
That
of
thy
mercies
in
him
I
my
songs
may
euer
make
.
Then
will
I
praise
thine
holy
name
,
for
euer
more
and
more
,
Withall
my
heart
,
soule
,
strength
,
&
might
,
I
will
praise
thee
therefore
.
O
Father
,
Sonne
,
and
holy
Ghost
,
All
glorie
be
to
thee
:
To
thee
three
persons
in
one
God
,
one
God
in
persons
three
.
Thursday
at
dinner
,
I
fell
into
much
vncharitable
speech
concerning
diuerse
folk
:
Therefore
comming
into
my
chamber
,
I
confessed
and
prayed
thus
;
O
Lord
,
I
haue
sinned
against
thee
in
speaking
vncharitably
of
many
people
.
Thou
knowest
that
it
is
a
common
practise
of
most
companies
,
in
talking
to
shoote
at
rouers
,
and
for
lacke
of
other
markes
,
to
spare
neither
the
liuing
,
nor
the
dead
.
A
cruell
sinne
,
and
very
foule
in
any
,
specially
in
a
minister
of
thy
Sonne
Christ
:
for
that
gracious
Lord
was
so
farre
from
speaking
ill
of
others
,
that
he
had
no
minde
to
heare
any
body
ill
spoken
of
.
Yea
,
hee
chose
rather
to
busie
himselfe
in
stooping
downe
,
and
writing
vpon
the
ground
with
his
finger
,
then
to
haue
nothing
else
to
doe
,
but
to
giue
eare
vnto
a
bad
report
;
though
it
were
neuer
so
true
:
Ioh.
8.6
.
O
good
Lord
,
pardon
my
wickednesse
,
and
giue
me
grace
to
leaue
it
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
my
Lord
,
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
That
euening
,
I
hauing
not
been
out
of
doores
a
whole
fortnight
before
,
went
foorth
to
see
Philip
Aram
,
who
was
then
newe
come
home
from
London
,
and
told
me
of
the
good
health
of
my
worshipfull
friend
Mr.
Richard
Sedley
of
Southfleet
in
Kent
;
a
gentleman
endued
with
many
vertues
,
specially
deuotion
towards
God
,
and
charitie
towards
the
poore
.
And
because
I
haue
taken
occasion
to
speake
of
vertues
,
so
rare
in
these
euill
,
yet
good-seeming
daies
,
I
cannot
forbeare
to
commend
vnto
men
of
worth
,
and
worship
,
a
very
notable
patterne
of
right
gentrie
,
Sir
William
Sedley
the
elder
brother
,
whose
equal
in
bountiful
releeuing
of
Gods
poore
I
neuer
knewe
,
and
am
much
afraid
that
I
neuer
shal
know
.
Foolish
pride
,
vnsatiable
couetousnes
,
and
pampering
gluttony
,
haue
banished
hospitalitie
,
and
vtterly
renounced
liberalitie
.
Woe
is
mee
for
them
!
How
vnlike
themselues
doe
many
great
ones
liue
?
Hurtfull
to
how
many
?
good
to
how
fewe
?
The
world
is
too
too
ful
of
petty
tyrants
,
whose
iudgement
lingreth
not
,
but
followeth
so
fast
vpon
them
,
that
it
ouertaketh
some
before
they
die
,
and
many
in
the
next
generation
.
If
any
aske
,
what
reason
I
haue
in
confessing
my
owne
sinnes
,
to
ransack
the
faults
of
others
?
Mine
answer
is
,
I
am
,
though
most
vnworthy
,
a
professed
Preacher
of
righteousnesse
,
&
therefore
bound
in
conscience
to
doe
what
I
possibly
can
against
sinn
.
The
day
of
mine
account
draweth
very
neere
,
I
haue
foolishly
lost
much
precious
time
.
Wherefore
I
am
desirous
to
make
all
the
vse
that
may
be
of
this
small
remnant
.
I
humbly
beseech
all
people
,
that
in
tender
compassion
of
my
great
losse
,
and
fearefull
danger
,
they
will
be
pleased
to
beare
with
mee
,
if
I
seeme
vnto
them
to
speake
of
any
thing
ouer-harshly
,
God
Almightie
knoweth
that
I
heartily
wish
all
good
vnto
all
people
.
Now
I
returne
to
my selfe
:
I
sat
a
while
with
my
louing
friend
Philip
Aram
,
and
certaine
other
,
whether
they
tooke
knowledge
of
any
offence
of
mine
,
I
know
not
.
This
I
knowe
,
when
I
came
home
,
my
conscience
found
much
fault
in
my
behauiour
,
and
therefore
I
was
driuen
to
cry
God
mercy
for
my
forgetfulnesse
of
his
all-seeing
,
all-hearing
presence
.
Fryday
,
by
reason
of
diuerse
which
came
vnto
mee
,
I
lost
a
great
part
of
the
day
.
Therefore
at
night
I
confessed
and
prayed
thus
:
O
most
righteous
Lord
,
I
haue
this
day
not
only
lost
my
time
,
but
also
by
occasion
of
company
,
indangred
my
weake
bodie
in
drinking
much
betweene
meales
.
I
haue
also
bin
a
partaker
of
much
idle
,
and
vncharitable
talke
.
I
beseech
thee
to
giue
me
the
grace
to
be
truely
turned
from
these
and
from
all
my
sinnes
,
that
I
may
be
saued
.
Amen
.
Saturday
about
nine
of
the
clocke
in
the
forenoone
I
prayed
,
as
I
thinke
,
more
deuoutly
,
and
effectually
then
euer
before
.
Among
other
words
of
complaint
touching
my
state
,
I
spake
thus
;
There
is
no
possibilitie
,
no
likelihood
of
repentance
in
me
,
being
within
my selfe
so
accustomed
to
sinne
,
&
without
so
holden
vnto
it
by
the
world
.
How
can
I
haue
any
hope
to
arise
out
of
the
hell
of
sinne
,
seeing
that
I
haue
these
twentie
yeares
and
more
assaied
,
and
assaied
to
arise
,
and
still
alwaies
fallen
down
again
?
Yet
O
Lord
,
there
is
hope
in
thee
,
though
none
in
mee
.
Vouchsafe
to
make
an
ende
of
my
sinning
,
whatsoeuer
become
of
me
.
My
duty
is
to
craue
mercy
of
thee
.
Good
Lord
,
I
craue
it
:
good
Lord
vouchsafe
to
giue
it
for
thy
tender
mercies
sake
:
for
thy
deere
Sonne
Iesus
Christs
sake
,
&c.
At
dinner
,
I
spake
my
minde
touching
a
matter
which
concerned
me
not
.
Also
I
spake
too
farre
.
Therefore
comming
into
my
chamber
,
I
confessed
,
and
prayed
thus
;
O
my
good
Lord
,
I
haue
doubly
offended
,
in
medling
with
other
folkes
busines
,
&
in
speaking
beyond
the
compasse
which
any
whome
it
concerneth
ought
to
haue
kept
himselfe
within
.
Good
Lord
conuert
me
,
and
forgiue
me
,
Amen
.
The
17.
of
Iuly
,
being
Sabbath
,
I
was
in
the
morning
sore
tormented
with
the
strangurie
;
yet
by
the
goodnes
of
God
,
in
the
forenoone
I
preached
.
Also
after
dinner
I
went
and
prayed
with
an
olde
aged
good
woman
,
widow
Milborne
,
the
mother
of
my
faithfull
friend
Raph
Milborne
deceased
.
At
euening
prayer
after
the
second
lesson
,
I
asked
a
youth
three
or
foure
questions
touching
a
foundation-point
of
religion
,
and
briefly
made
plaine
his
answers
.
After
all
this
,
I
was
in
great
danger
of
a
relapse
;
for
I
was
intreated
to
go
thither
,
where
I
should
very
grieuously
haue
displeased
God
,
and
that
through
mine
owne
wickednesse
.
But
by
the
grace
of
God
,
much
against
mine
owne
will
,
I
refused
to
goe
.
Whereas
I
made
mention
of
my
faithfull
freind
Raph
Milborne
,
I
intreat
the
gentle
reader
,
and
hearer
to
take
knowledge
from
me
of
certain
notable
properties
that
were
in
him
very
plainly
to
be
seene
.
He
was
religious
towards
God
,
and
that
not
by
way
of
schisme
,
dissention
I
meane
,
but
in
peace
.
Hee
loued
his
minister
,
yea
he
loued
all
ministers
that
were
for
the
present
state
of
the
Church
,
and
of
conscionable
behauiour
.
Hee
was
dutifully
kind
vnto
his
aged
parents
:
for
he
sustained
them
both
vntill
his
fathers
death
,
then
his
mother
vntill
his
owne
death
,
and
by
his
will
tooke
order
for
her
maintenance
so
long
as
it
should
please
God
to
giue
her
the
continuance
of
life
.
At
his
death
he
gaue
portions
vnto
many
brothers
,
and
sisters
,
&
to
a
many
of
their
children
.
He
was
of
behauiour
very
temperate
,
discreet
,
and
patient
.
He
was
farre
from
the
disposition
to
drinke
,
and
domineere
in
tauernes
,
and
ale-houses
:
he
did
often
chide
me
,
because
I
was
sometimes
forward
to
goe
,
and
other
times
easie
to
be
drawen
vnto
such
places
.
It
were
pittie
that
the
memorie
of
these
vertues
should
haue
bin
buried
with
him
:
for
I
knew
hardly
any
one
of
his
rank
euery
way
for
goodnes
matchable
with
him
.
Some
may
be
ready
enough
to
commend
themselues
,
though
an
indifferent
man
shall
haue
much
adoe
to
find
any
thing
that
is
worthy
of
commendation
in
them
.
Therefore
at
his
buriall
I
took
this
text
,
Prou.
20.6
.
Most
men
will
proclaime
euery
one
his
owne
goodnesse
:
but
a
faithfull
man
who
can
find
?
Wednesday
the
20.
of
Iulie
,
I
was
so
beyond
measure
tormented
in
the
water
passage
,
and
so
burned
in
the
soles
of
my
feet
,
that
I
was
forced
to
stand
barefooted
,
and
barelegged
:
yea
,
hauing
a
vessell
of
new
drinke
standing
by
me
,
with
a
bagg
of
purging
powder
in
it
,
(
for
my
body
could
not
els
be
kept
from
deadly
costiuenes
)
I
drank
glasse
after
glasse
,
kneeling
vpon
my
knees
,
and
calling
very
lamentably
vpon
the
name
of
God
.
They
that
at
any
time
haue
drunke
healths
kneeling
,
had
they
seene
me
vpon
my
knees
,
weeping
and
praying
,
and
drinking
,
would
haue
bin
terrified
from
that
barbarous
fashion
of
theirs
.
Friday
the
22.
of
Iulie
,
I
was
in
the
afternoone
taken
with
a
deadly
paine
vpon
my
left
side
,
and
therewithal
an
extreame
windie
faintnes
oppressed
the
lower
parts
of
my
breast
,
so
that
mine
heart
was
continually
ready
to
faile
.
This
held
me
vntill
it
was
wel
nigh
midnight
,
I
lying
full
of
pain
,
and
calling
vpon
the
name
of
the
Lord
.
Then
had
I
some
rest
vntill
morning
,
and
then
it
beganne
againe
.
This
praier
I
oftentimes
made
vnto
the
Lord
while
I
was
in
torment
;
O
most
gracious
God
,
if
it
be
thy
good
pleasure
,
that
I
shall
in
most
humble
and
zealous
repentance
,
glorifie
thy
name
,
vouchsafe
for
Iesus
Christs
sake
to
rebuke
this
my
disease
.
But
if
it
please
thee
not
to
make
that
vse
of
me
,
because
I
am
most
exceedingly
vnworthy
,
and
vnfit
to
doe
thee
any
acceptable
seruice
;
then
most
blessed
Lord
,
withdraw
thine
hand
from
me
,
and
let
me
die
.
For
why
should
we
liue
any
longer
to
displease
,
and
dishonour
thee
,
and
to
cause
any
more
euill
vnto
my
brother
;
and
sisters
the
children
of
Adam
?
Holy
Lord
,
yet
I
heartily
wish
glory
vnto
thy
name
,
and
all
good
vnto
thy
people
.
So
I
bequeath
my selfe
vnto
thy
pleasure
.
My
sinne
be
destroyed
,
thy
will
be
done
,
and
blessed
for
euer
be
thy
name
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
Towards
night
I
felt
some
ease
in
my
side
,
and
breast
;
but
was
pained
in
my
kidnies
.
The
foure
and
twentieth
of
Iuly
,
beeing
sabbath
,
one
supplyed
my
place
at
Church
,
and
I
kept
at
home
.
That
day
some
came
vnto
me
,
with
whom
I
fell
in
talke
,
and
by
that
meanes
forgat
both
the
presence
of
God
,
and
the
holinesse
of
the
day
.
Monday
morning
I
was
sore
tormented
,
so
that
my
feete
burned
very
painfully
;
specially
the
right
foote
.
I
dranke
great
plenty
of
small
beere
,
and
yet
burned
stil
.
In
this
sore
torment
,
I
praied
thus
;
O
the
fountaine
of
right
goodnes
,
kindnesse
,
and
mercy
,
I
the
most
hainous
of
all
thine
enemies
vpon
earth
,
in
this
my
greiuous
misery
,
haue
none
to
flie
vnto
for
help
but
onely
thee
.
O
holy
Lord
,
I
haue
sinned
against
thee
:
I
haue
sinned
;
O
I
haue
sinned
,
and
most
vnsufferably
prouoked
thine
Almighty
maiesty
,
to
destroy
mee
with
most
wrathfull
vengeance
.
And
doe
I
now
in
my
selfe-wrought
misery
come
a
begging
to
thee
for
ease
?
yea
blessed
Lord
,
for
I
haue
no
whether
else
to
goe
:
&
therefore
I
throw
my selfe
down
before
thy
face
humbly
crying
thee
mercie
,
and
saying
;
O
righteous
Lord
,
here
lieth
thine
enemy
,
a
great
traytor
to
thy
kingdome
,
and
glory
,
crauing
mercy
at
thy
most
mercifull
hands
,
and
beseeching
thee
,
not
onely
to
pardon
me
thine
owne
vengeance
,
but
also
to
releeue
me
in
this
tormenting
misery
,
which
I
in
sinning
against
thee
haue
brought
vpon
my self
,
euen
by
the
wicked
disordering
and
distempering
of
my
bodie
.
Againe
,
me
thinkes
thou
sayest
vnto
me
;
Ah
thou
wretched
man
,
doe
not
I
shewe
thee
great
mercy
in
sustaining
thy
dying
life
,
and
calling
thee
vnto
me
?
Why
doest
not
thou
come
nearer
vnto
me
?
why
doest
thou
not
continually
set
me
before
thy
face
,
and
submit
thy selfe
vnto
my
pleasure
?
Thou
knowest
thou
art
short
of
this
,
and
therefore
if
thou
expectest
grace
from
me
,
come
nearer
vnto
me
;
for
thou
art
yet
too
farre
off
to
receiue
comfort
into
thy
soule
.
O
my
Lord
God
,
I
come
;
drawe
mee
,
and
I
will
come
:
I
will
continually
minde
thee
,
feare
thee
,
and
call
vpon
thee
.
Amen
.
Thursday
the
28.
of
Iuly
,
I
beeing
horribly
tormented
,
prayed
thus
;
O
most
gracious
God
,
thou
seest
that
this
painfull
,
and
loathsome
disease
,
will
greatly
hinder
me
in
thy
seruice
.
O
therefore
that
it
would
please
thee
to
ease
me
of
it
,
and
to
lay
some
other
iudgement
vpon
me
so
great
as
this
,
but
not
so
shameful
,
and
hinderous
.
Me
thinkes
I
heare
thee
say
yet
againe
;
I
tell
thee
thou
sinner
,
when
thy
seruice
pleaseth
me
,
my
grace
shall
be
euery
way
sufficient
for
thee
.
Most
holy
Lord
,
this
I
verily
beleeue
:
therfore
in
the
name
of
Iesus
Christ
hencefoorth
I
will
wholly
endeauour
to
please
thee
.
Amen
.
The
last
day
of
Iulie
,
beeing
Sabbath
,
though
I
was
sore
tormented
,
I
had
no
remedy
,
but
needs
must
preach
my selfe
:
for
neither
was
I
prouided
of
any
supply
,
and
a
Churchwarden
came
to
tell
me
,
the
parish
tooke
it
in
displeasure
that
I
my selfe
performed
not
my
dutie
.
That
day
I
preached
twise
,
to
the
great
hurt
of
my
body
,
which
appeared
by
many
little
shreads
of
skinne
which
came
from
me
in
my
water
.
Monday
the
first
of
August
,
such
a
drousie
windie
weakenes
hung
vpon
me
,
specially
in
my
breast
and
head
,
that
many
times
I
was
ready
to
fall
,
and
had
much
adoe
to
stand
:
a
painfull
sleepines
was
stil
comming
vpon
mee
,
whether
I
did
read
or
write
.
Monday
night
I
beeing
in
bed
,
and
fallen
into
a
slumber
,
I
was
so
strangely
taken
as
neuer
before
:
Some
thing
seemed
to
be
vpon
my
backe
,
&
so
to
presse
me
downe
,
that
my
face
was
held
hard
to
the
pillowe
,
and
much
winde
brake
out
at
the
right
eare
.
Being
very
troublously
waked
,
I
called
vpon
my
good
Lord
for
mercy
.
I
perceiued
a
shiuering
windines
offering
to
arise
out
of
my
thighes
.
I
tooke
this
by
ouerforcing
my selfe
in
preaching
vpon
the
Sabbath
day
,
if
I
be
not
much
deceiued
.
It
pleased
God
,
that
afterward
I
had
some
quiet
rest
:
but
towards
morning
the
cruel
strangury
came
vpon
me
.
Alas
,
that
there
is
no
remedy
for
such
a
filthy
tormenting
disease
!
a
Physitian
writing
vnto
me
,
among
other
words
,
said
thus
;
Know
that
your
disease
is
incurable
.
The
seauenth
of
August
being
Sabbath
,
my
disease
still
tormenting
me
,
I
prayed
,
and
vowed
thus
;
O
most
holy
,
and
righteous
,
good
,
and
gracious
Lord
God
,
I
the
most
foule
and
filthy
sinner
of
all
the
world
,
do
here
make
a
complaint
of
my selfe
vnto
thy
glorious
and
blessed
maiesty
,
that
I
am
not
fit
to
liue
in
thy
sight
,
much
lesse
to
serue
thee
in
the
gospel
of
thy
Sonne
;
because
I
do
not
walk
with
thee
,
nor
keep
my selfe
in
thy
companie
,
as
thy
seruants
doe
.
O
be
mercifull
vnto
me
I
beseech
thee
:
I
haue
heretofore
made
many
vowes
,
that
I
would
enforce
my selfe
to
waite
vpon
thee
.
But
woe
is
me
I
haue
not
kept
them
:
now
I
most
humbly
pray
thee
,
that
all
my
former
vowes
may
be
shut
vp
in
this
which
I
am
minded
to
make
vnto
thee
.
And
this
it
is
;
This
day
two
seuerall
preachers
will
supply
my
place
:
I
beseech
thee
to
blesse
them
with
holy
matter
,
hallowed
affections
,
powerfull
vtterance
,
&
good
successe
.
If
I
do
not
from
this
day
forward
,
very
conscionably
endeauour
to
hold
my selfe
to
the
practise
of
my
foure
Rules
,
I
wil
the
next
Sabbath
day
quite
put
my selfe
out
of
the
ministerie
;
yea
,
and
openly
professe
vnto
the
world
,
that
therefore
I
doe
it
,
because
my
conscience
doth
certainly
iudge
mee
not
to
bee
fit
to
preach
the
Gospell
.
Good
Lord
,
this
is
my
vowe
.
If
I
either
reforme
my selfe
from
this
day
forward
,
or
for
default
thereof
,
leaue
the
ministerie
,
I
breake
not
my
vow
.
If
I
do
neither
the
one
,
nor
the
other
,
let
me
be
euerlastingly
●●rsaken
of
Iesus
Christ
.
If
I
conscionably
reform
my selfe
by
thy
grace
,
and
so
continue
with
thy
fauour
in
the
ministerie
,
O
that
thou
wilt
be
mercifull
vnto
me
touching
this
horrible
disease
.
Then
shall
I
holily
and
wholly
betake
my selfe
to
serue
thee
,
as
mine
hearts
desire
is
to
doe
.
If
I
reforme
not
my selfe
,
and
therefore
,
as
my
vow
requireth
,
leaue
the
ministerie
,
I
aske
no
more
,
but
the
destruction
of
my
sin
to
thy
good
pleasure
and
glorie
.
Now
blessed
Lord
,
I
offer
vp
this
vowe
vnto
thee
for
an
euerlasting
deed
,
and
thereunto
vnchangeably
say
,
Amen
.
Be
it
neuer
changed
,
but
euer
in
force
betweene
thy
blessed
Maiestie
and
me
.
Amen
.
That
day
some
came
vnto
me
,
and
what
with
one
matter
,
what
with
an
other
,
caused
me
to
talke
at
randome
,
as
though
I
had
not
been
in
the
companie
of
God
.
When
they
were
gone
,
I
cryed
God
mercy
,
&
promised
to
be
more
mindefull
of
his
presence
,
and
fearefull
of
his
displeasure
.
At
night
some
came
to
me
againe
,
and
talking
of
many
things
,
mooued
me
to
passe
my
bounds
,
but
not
so
much
as
before
:
yet
all
this
while
I
was
not
entred
into
my
vowed
practise
.
This
I
did
fully
perswade
my selfe
,
that
if
I
could
in
companie
be
mindfull
of
God
,
and
shunne
the
displeasing
of
his
maiestie
,
I
were
in
a
verie
faire
forwardnes
of
reformation
.
Mondaie
the
eight
of
August
,
I
held
my selfe
vnto
my
prayers
and
businesse
carefully
,
thinking
how
I
should
avoid
the
great
danger
of
companie
,
and
talking
:
I
prayed
vnto
the
Lord
thus
;
O
good
Lord
,
thou
seest
that
my
disposition
is
hardened
in
sinne
,
and
most
vntoward
vnto
thy
seruice
:
Thou
seest
also
how
apt
other
folke
are
to
further
mine
vntowardnesse
,
to
hinder
my
repentance
.
I
beseech
thee
,
that
for
thine
only
Sonnes
sake
,
thou
wilt
powerfully
breake
me
from
mine
vntowardnes
,
&
prepare
me
in
thy
feare
to
shunne
the
manifold
wickednesse
which
is
one
way
,
or
another
caused
by
companying
and
talking
.
Blessed
Lord
,
true
it
is
,
as
I
take
harme
by
others
,
so
they
take
harm
by
me
:
for
thy
mercies
sake
be
mercifull
vnto
vs
,
and
keepe
vs
from
causing
any
harme
one
to
another
.
Amen
.
Aman.
Betweene
tenne
and
eleuen
of
the
clock
,
there
came
some
vnto
me
about
a
matter
of
vnkindnes
between
certain
parties
;
which
had
not
then
been
called
into
question
,
if
I
had
concealed
a
report
which
in
writing
was
giuen
vnto
me
,
and
which
I
was
verie
confidently
willed
to
shewe
vnto
whome
I
would
.
It
is
likely
that
many
an
one
would
haue
thought
himselfe
well
warranted
to
shew
it
,
specially
if
it
had
concerned
him
so
neerely
as
it
did
me
.
I
shewed
it
not
,
but
onely
told
a
certaine
part
of
it
,
which
caused
the
comming
of
those
men
vnto
me
.
After
that
we
had
talked
of
the
businesse
,
and
they
were
gone
,
I
confessed
,
and
prayed
thus
vnto
God
;
O
most
gracious
Lord
,
I
did
euill
in
receiuing
that
paper
,
and
worse
in
speaking
of
any
thing
written
in
it
.
I
beseech
thee
to
pardon
me
,
and
to
giue
grace
that
I
may
neuer
hereafter
speake
any
thing
of
that
matter
,
but
onely
my
bounden
thanks
&
praise
vnto
thee
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thy
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
In
the
afternoone
vpon
occasion
I
praied
thus
;
O
most
gracious
Lord
,
thou
seest
that
by
thy
goodnesse
I
goe
not
out
to
seeke
company
:
I
perceiue
it
is
great
folly
so
to
doe
.
If
any
come
vnto
me
,
and
enter
into
friuolous
talke
,
I
cannot
tell
what
I
should
doe
.
Thy
spirit
saith
,
that
in
the
multitude
of
words
,
there
wanteth
not
sinne
,
Pro.
10.19
.
And
what
great
losse
of
precious
time
commeth
vnto
men
by
vaine
idle
communication
,
I
know
by
experience
to
my
great
griefe
.
Most
mercifull
Lord
,
thou
hauing
brought
me
thus
farre
,
and
broken
me
from
seeking
companie
,
from
ioyning
in
emptie
words
,
vouchsafe
to
magnifie
thy
mercy
,
in
making
me
to
preuaile
against
this
impediment
,
and
all
others
,
that
I
may
euerlastingly
praise
thy
name
therefore
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
Tuesdaie
morning
,
the
strangury
pained
me
verie
grieuously
,
and
my
feete
were
in
such
an
extreame
heate
,
that
I
was
forced
to
stand
barefooted
.
In
this
burning
torment
I
prayed
,
O
most
mightie
,
and
most
mercifull
Lord
God
,
my
Maker
,
and
Sauiour
,
of
thy
most
tender
compassion
,
&
most
excellent
mercie
,
vouchsafe
I
beseech
thee
,
to
ease
me
of
this
filthy
tormenting
disease
&
lay
vpon
me
in
stead
thereof
what
crosse
,
what
iudgement
thou
wilt
.
Me
thinks
thou
saiest
;
Thou
foolish
man
,
put
away
thy
folly
,
drawe
neere
vnto
me
,
and
I
will
draw
neere
vnto
thee
.
O
good
Lord
,
blessed
be
thy
name
.
In
the
name
of
Iesus
Christ
I
will
drawe
neere
vnto
thee
:
I
will
henceforth
be
alwaies
verie
mindefull
that
I
am
before
thy
face
:
nothing
in
the
world
,
no
not
any
companie
,
shall
put
me
out
of
that
thought
.
Beeing
in
companie
,
so
often
as
I
perceiue
my
minde
to
turne
it selfe
from
waiting
vpon
thee
,
I
will
presently
breake
out
into
these
words
;
Fie
vpon
me
!
what
a
forgetfull
foole
am
I
?
Good
Lord
forgiue
me
,
and
correct
mee
.
Then
if
any
aske
the
reason
,
why
I
spake
those
words
,
I
will
very
plainly
tell
it
.
Most
gracious
Lord
,
giue
me
grace
thus
to
doe
,
and
blesse
me
in
so
doing
,
through
Iesus
Christ
thine
onely
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
,
Amen
.
The
staires
to
my
chamber
are
the
comming
vp
vnto
three
other
chambers
.
So
oft
as
I
heard
the
noise
of
any
bodies
feet
comming
vp
the
staires
,
I
was
very
fearefull
that
some
or
other
were
comming
vnto
me
,
and
as
glad
if
I
heard
them
goe
by
the
doore
to
any
of
the
other
chambers
.
How
men
may
iudge
of
this
,
I
know
not
;
but
my
conscience
doth
assuredly
certifie
mee
how
the
Lord
God
iudgeth
of
it
.
That
forenoon
some
company
came
to
me
,
&
staied
long
:
wherefore
though
I
in
some
sort
looked
to
my
soule
,
yet
could
I
not
auoide
bodily
hurt
:
for
I
hauing
,
to
ease
my
paine
,
taken
much
drinke
before
the
companie
came
,
being
forced
painfully
to
hold
my
water
,
when
they
were
gone
,
there
came
such
things
from
out
of
my
body
,
as
if
many
skinnes
within
were
pilled
off
.
Wherefore
I
fully
perswaded
my selfe
,
that
I
was
possessed
with
a
windie
fretting
inflammation
,
which
of
necessitie
must
very
shortly
kill
me
;
and
that
,
as
I
thought
most
likely
,
by
the
perishing
of
my
bladder
.
In
the
afternoone
I
praied
thus
:
Most
blessed
Lord
,
very
true
it
is
,
that
the
doore
of
heauen
is
in
comparison
much
lesse
then
the
eie
of
a
needle
.
An
entrance
there
is
:
but
most
hardly
to
be
gotten
.
The
beginning
of
an
vnfained
godly
life
,
is
the
hardest
worke
in
all
the
world
.
Then
what
meaneth
Christ
in
saying
that
his
yoake
is
easie
,
and
his
burden
light
?
His
meaning
is
,
that
true
repentance
,
and
right
faith
,
do
ease
,
and
lighten
a
loaden
conscience
.
There
is
no
remedy
but
sinne
must
needes
be
put
off
;
else
there
is
no
saluation
,
no
heauen
to
be
had
.
Woe
is
me
!
How
can
a
black-moore
put
off
his
blacknesse
?
It
is
vnpossible
.
Yea
;
but
thy
Sonne
hath
told
,
vs
,
that
all
things
are
possible
with
thee
.
True
it
is
,
O
Lord
,
I
beleeue
it
.
But
the
question
is
,
what
thou
wilt
doe
?
Therefore
with
the
poor
leper
I
say
vnto
thee
,
O
Lord
,
if
thou
wilt
,
thou
canst
make
me
cleane
.
The
Spirit
answereth
me
saying
;
To
day
if
thou
wilt
heare
his
voice
,
harden
not
thy
heart
.
I
must
striue
to
vnharden
mine
heart
in
obeying
thy
word
,
which
word
thou
hast
graciously
made
knowne
vnto
mee
,
to
the
end
that
I
should
obey
it
in
putting
off
my
sinne
.
But
if
knowing
thy
will
I
continue
disobedient
to
thee
,
O
what
a
most
dreadfull
measure
of
euerlasting
vengeance
shall
speedily
fall
vpon
me
!
O
Lord
,
none
can
vnharden
mine
heart
,
but
onely
thou
.
Then
how
can
I
vnbarden
it
?
If
thou
euer
vnharden
it
:
thou
wilt
make
mee
to
vnharden
it
;
for
thou
workest
the
will
,
and
the
deede
in
them
that
shall
bee
saued
.
They
must
will
,
and
doe
that
which
is
pleasing
vnto
thee
.
The
power
to
will
,
and
doe
it
,
they
must
haue
from
thee
.
Therefore
thy
seruant
Paul
aduiseth
vs
to
work
out
our
saluation
with
feare
,
and
trembling
;
that
is
,
awfully
,
and
carefully
to
vse
the
meanes
which
thou
hast
appointed
,
that
so
thy
grace
may
work
in
vs
obedience
vnto
thy
will
,
which
is
the
only
way
of
saluation
.
Good
Lord
,
in
thy
Sonnes
name
I
will
striue
to
vse
the
meanes
which
thou
hast
appointed
for
the
breaking
of
mine
hard
heart
.
Blessed
bee
thy
name
:
I
thinke
no
man
,
or
woman
in
all
the
world
can
haue
more
warning
to
deny
himselfe
,
and
hasten
repentance
then
I
haue
.
To
thy
mercie
and
good
pleasure
I
wholly
betake
my selfe
,
thorough
Iesus
Christ
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
Wednesday
morning
I
was
very
tormentingly
pained
in
the
water
passage
,
and
therefore
prayed
thus
;
O
blessed
Lord
God
,
this
soule
disease
tormenteth
me
verie
sore
:
O
that
it
may
be
pleasing
vnto
thy
most
glorious
goodnes
,
euen
in
such
measure
to
ease
me
of
this
disease
,
as
by
thy
grace
I
will
from
this
time
forward
deny
my selfe
,
and
giue
glory
vnto
thy
truth
!
Me
thinkes
thou
sayest
,
Goe
to
then
.
See
that
thou
conscionably
deny
thy selfe
,
putting
thy
whole
trust
in
me
.
And
for
thy
comfort
,
thou
shalt
be
sure
to
finde
these
my
words
true
;
I
am
mercifull
.
My
mercie
is
vpon
them
that
feare
me
.
Most
gracious
Lord
,
blessed
be
thy
name
.
I
beleeue
thy
words
.
And
nowe
thorough
the
grace
of
Iesus
Christ
,
I
will
steadfastly
set
my selfe
to
deny
my selfe
.
O
Lord
,
be
mercifull
vnto
mee
,
that
I
may
thoroughly
doe
it
.
And
then
thy
will
be
done
.
Amem
.
About
an
houre
after
I
had
so
praied
vnto
God
,
my
paine
of
the
spleene
came
vpon
mee
,
in
such
sort
that
mine
eies
were
much
dazled
,
mine
heart
deadly
vexed
,
my
limms
faintly
wearied
.
Beeing
in
this
state
,
I
praied
thus
;
O
good
Lord
,
what
shall
I
doe
?
This
my
deathfull
body
cannot
possibly
hold
out
,
nor
be
seruiceable
vnto
thee
in
any
good
measure
,
according
to
my
calling
.
O
my
good
Lord
,
what
shall
I
doe
?
I
haue
no
warrant
to
expect
any
extraordinary
releeuing
of
my
body
.
And
this
deadlines
putteth
my
poore
soule
out
of
comfort
.
Mee
thinkes
thou
saiest
;
Let
thy
soule
be
steadfastly
,
&
vprightly
bent
to
serue
mee
,
for
so
it
shall
receiue
comfort
from
mee
.
Touching
thy
bodie
,
doe
me
what
seruice
thou
canst
,
and
betake
it
vnto
mee
to
dispose
therof
,
as
I
see
good
.
By
greiuing
at
thy
diseasednes
,
thou
makest
it
to
be
worse
.
Therfore
be
only
zealous
againg
thy
sinnes
,
the
cause
of
all
thy
miserie
.
But
take
heart
of
grace
,
and
sustaine
thy
weake
spirit
hath
assured
confidence
of
my
mercy
towards
thee
.
O
my
good
Lord
,
most
wonderfull
in
mercy
,
and
Almightie
in
power
,
with
all
humble
thankefulnes
I
receiue
these
words
from
thee
.
My
soule
is
certenly
perswaded
that
thy
purpose
towards
mee
is
according
to
those
words
.
Blessed
Lord
,
it
greiueth
me
that
I
hane
so
long
displeased
,
&
dishonoured
thee
,
and
now
am
quite
disabled
,
that
I
can
doe
thee
no
seruice
;
because
my
body
is
full
of
death
.
Yet
according
to
thy
commaundement
,
I
will
thorough
thy
grace
wholly
bend
my
spirit
to
serue
thee
.
And
what
seruice
my
dying
body
can
performe
,
I
will
put
it
vnto
,
betaking
my selfe
euery
way
to
thy
good
pleasure
,
and
most
holy
will
.
Amen
.
That
day
in
the
afternoone
I
was
tormented
,
yet
,
let
me
say
the
truth
,
in
a
manner
,
as
it
were
vnderhand
,
succoured
and
sustained
.
My
back
was
about
,
and
below
the
kidnies
very
sore
:
which
made
mee
fearefull
of
a
fit
of
the
stone
,
which
from
the
last
Nouember
I
had
not
.
It
came
many
times
into
my
mind
,
to
admonish
all
sorts
of
people
,
to
leaue
the
most
common
taking
of
Gods
name
in
vaine
,
in
prating
,
and
swearing
,
and
cursing
.
O
if
any
that
is
giuen
vnto
that
horrible
sinne
,
knew
how
deere
and
precious
vse
I
am
driuen
to
make
of
Gods
name
,
when
in
hellish
torment
,
specially
at
,
and
after
the
making
of
water
;
I
haue
none
other
helpe
in
all
the
world
,
but
to
crie
out
saying
,
O
Lord
,
ô
God
,
ô
Iesu
Christ
,
&c
,
Whosoeuer
you
are
that
shall
read
,
or
heare
this
,
stay
a
little
while
I
pray
you
.
Bethink
your selfe
well
,
whether
the
time
will
not
come
,
you
know
not
how
soon
,
wherein
you
shall
be
forced
to
call
vpon
God
for
present
help
?
yea
,
you
ought
to
call
vpon
him
euery
day
,
euery
houre
:
for
your
life
,
and
all
that
you
haue
,
or
hope
to
haue
,
is
at
his
mercie
.
In
the
turning
of
a
hand
hee
can
take
all
that
is
good
from
you
,
&
turne
you
away
into
all
manner
of
misery
.
Then
if
it
stand
vpon
his
pleasure
,
what
shall
become
of
you
,
and
specially
when
you
are
in
aduersity
,
or
anguish
,
whether
you
shall
be
releeued
yea
,
or
no
?
follow
my
counsell
,
keep
his
name
in
store
,
and
by
no
meanes
endure
to
write
,
or
speake
it
in
any
idle
fashion
,
much
lesse
in
swearing
,
&
tearing
,
and
cursing
,
like
a
limme
of
the
deuil
.
What
man
is
so
madde
,
that
hauing
a
most
pretious
restoratiue
,
able
to
cure
him
of
any
disease
,
will
hurle
it
into
the
dust
,
fling
it
against
the
walls
,
or
tread
it
vnder
his
feete
?
No
,
you
would
lay
it
most
charily
,
as
a
most
speciall
treasure
,
whereby
you
may
in
time
of
need
help
your selfe
,
or
your
freind
.
O
then
consider
,
that
of
all
restoratiues
,
the
name
of
God
passes
,
and
excells
.
For
it
is
a
soueraigne
remedy
against
all
euils
,
both
of
soule
,
and
body
.
Therefore
the
Psalme
saith
,
Psal.
124.8
.
Our
helpe
is
in
the
name
of
the
Lord
,
who
made
heauen
and
earth
.
In
few
words
,
take
this
for
certen
;
If
you
meane
to
haue
helpe
in
the
name
of
God
,
vse
it
like
a
most
pretious
restoratiue
.
Make
not
an
idle
word
of
it
,
take
it
not
in
vaine
,
least
when
you
haue
neede
to
call
vpon
it
;
you
call
in
vaine
,
because
the
Lord
remembers
that
you
made
a
vaine
idle
word
of
his
name
.
That
euening
,
I
did
but
walke
a
little
in
my
chamber
,
&
it
made
my
water
bloody
:
what
a
miserable
state
am
I
in
?
Thursday
morning
,
a
matter
that
I
read
gaue
me
occasion
,
to
consider
of
an
offence
which
many
in
Derbie
lately
tooke
,
by
the
leauing
out
of
the
Crosse
at
the
baptising
of
a
child
.
True
it
is
,
that
I
neuer
left
out
that
signe
,
nor
euer
will
leaue
it
,
vntill
the
Church
giue
warrant
:
Yet
this
I
must
needs
confesse
,
A
many
people
thinke
that
baptisme
is
not
perfect
without
the
signe
of
the
Crosse
.
Yea
more
,
They
thinke
that
there
is
some
holy
vertue
in
it
.
The
iudgement
of
God
is
a
great
deepe
.
But
the
commanding
will
of
God
,
is
in
his
word
very
plaine
.
Hee
would
not
haue
poore
people
to
beleeue
that
holinesse
is
there
to
be
had
,
where
it
is
not
.
They
which
first
deuised
any
ceremony
without
ground
of
Gods
word
,
how
good
soeuer
their
intent
was
,
little
knew
what
inconuenience
would
in
processe
of
time
grow
thereupon
.
Did
you
neuer
see
a
house
so
ful
of
smoke
that
a
man
might
sooner
haue
been
stifled
,
and
blinded
,
then
well
warmed
?
That
is
typhos
superstition
,
that
is
the
religon
of
many
rude
people
.
If
any
say
,
it
is
to
be
required
that
such
people
haue
good
instruction
;
I
say
againe
,
what
instruction
are
they
like
to
haue
,
whose
guides
are
either
vnable
to
instruct
themselues
,
or
suffered
to
be
otherwise
imploied
.
I
once
heard
Bishop
Barlowe
saie
that
,
touching
higher
places
,
which
is
too
,
too
generall
,
and
extendeth
,
in
my
simple
obseruation
,
farre
further
then
hee
intended
it
.
His
speech
in
effect
was
thus
;
The
time
was
,
that
fit
men
were
sought
for
:
But
now
,
there
is
not
such
neede
;
because
many
proffer
themselues
.
How
it
is
in
the
higher
region
,
I
know
not
.
But
in
the
lower
,
it
is
commonly
thus
.
And
so
long
as
it
is
thus
,
a
foole
may
prophecie
that
sound
holinesse
is
not
likely
to
thriue
.
In
the
afternoon
my
strangurie
was
very
keene
,
my
right
foote
burned
with
a
painfull
heat
:
yet
,
see
the
goodnes
of
God
,
still
a
way
is
made
that
I
may
endure
it
;
euen
when
I
am
readie
to
crie
out
,
because
of
deadlie
torment
.
I
am
fully
perswaded
,
that
had
not
this
disease
come
vpon
me
,
yea
and
preuailed
more
and
more
,
euen
to
the
putting
of
me
quite
out
of
all
hope
of
recouery
,
I
should
neuer
haue
beene
diuorced
and
separated
from
the
loue
of
this
world
.
Notwithstanding
all
that
is
yet
done
,
sin
cleaueth
vnto
my
soule
like
birdlime
.
I
haue
a
world
of
trouble
within
my selfe
,
to
master
the
olde
setled
rebellious
thoughts
of
my
heart
,
which
are
so
sturdie
,
and
so
deuillish
,
specially
one
,
my
most
naturall
sinne
,
that
were
it
not
for
the
verie
grace
of
God
in
Iesus
Christ
,
I
should
bee
quite
out
of
all
hope
of
subduing
them
.
Let
me
come
into
company
,
and
there
is
such
an
vprore
in
mine
heart
,
that
whatsoeuer
I
can
doe
,
is
al
too
little
to
keep
it
from
breaking
out
into
open
rebellion
against
God
.
Whosoeuer
beeing
an
old
sinner
,
doth
put
himselfe
into
the
continuall
conscionable
practise
of
repentance
,
he
shall
plainely
perceiue
the
sinnes
of
his
heart
,
to
be
like
vnto
a
company
of
desperate
rebels
besieged
in
a
castle
,
yeeld
they
will
not
,
vntill
they
be
famished
out
.
They
haue
succour
from
the
remembrance
,
and
from
corrupted
imagination
,
from
the
outward
sences
,
specially
the
eies
,
and
the
eares
:
and
who
can
say
how
full
of
temptations
the
world
is
,
temptations
fitted
to
worke
vpon
the
sight
,
and
the
hearing
.
It
is
well
worth
obseruation
,
for
any
man
that
knoweth
white
from
blacke
,
and
sinne
from
grace
,
to
marke
when
he
comes
in
companie
with
any
,
how
soone
the
seuerall
wicked
corruptions
,
which
are
both
in
him
,
and
in
the
other
,
wil
conspire
together
to
betray
them
both
,
&
to
make
them
sinne
against
God
,
at
least
in
a
deale
of
idle
talke
.
I
cannot
call
to
minde
that
euer
I
was
in
company
with
any
,
and
drawne
into
a
familiar
communication
,
but
that
I
was
also
drawne
into
sinne
.
Yea
,
but
some
will
say
,
idle
talke
is
a
veniall
sinne
(
wherein
they
may
pleade
S.
Gregories
authoritie
in
his
dialogues
,
lib.
4.
cap.
39.
and
so
make
a
purgatorie
matter
of
it
)
and
therefore
shall
neuer
be
called
into
question
.
O
how
apt
are
we
to
deceiue
our selues
!
Doth
not
our
Lord
Iesus
very
plainely
say
these
words
?
Matth.
12.36
.
But
I
say
vnto
you
,
that
euery
idle
word
that
men
shall
speake
,
they
shall
giue
an
account
thereof
in
the
day
of
iudgement
:
37.
For
by
thy
words
thou
shalt
be
iustified
,
and
by
thy
words
thou
shalt
be
condemnd
.
If
in
the
day
of
iudgement
we
shall
bee
tried
,
whether
we
be
fit
to
be
saued
or
condemned
euen
by
our
words
,
and
if
euery
idle
world
shal
then
be
brought
in
question
,
it
behooueth
them
that
would
be
saued
,
to
make
more
conscience
of
their
talke
,
then
the
prating
practise
of
this
world
affoardeth
.
Certainly
old
Nicholas
Denuse
said
very
truely
,
Of
much
speaking
,
come
many
euills
,
specially
three
,
the
losse
of
consideration
,
the
dulling
of
deuotion
,
and
the
multiplying
of
sinne
.
I
haue
time
,
and
time
perceiued
the
truth
of
Denuses
words
in
mine
owne
selfe
.
Yea
,
euen
in
preaching
when
I
haue
beene
more
word-full
then
needs
,
(
which
such
shallow
preachers
as
I
am
be
driuen
to
,
for
lacke
of
matter
,
the
more
pitty
,
that
people
should
be
fed
with
winde
)
those
three
euills
haue
come
vpon
me
.
It
may
be
asked
,
what
counsell
I
would
out
of
my
poore
experience
giue
vnto
weake
ministers
?
Vpon
my
conscience
in
the
sight
of
God
this
I
say
;
Some
goe
for
ministers
,
which
are
not
capable
of
that
knowledge
which
a
minister
of
the
Gospel
necessarily
should
haue
.
The
parish
where
such
a
one
is
,
should
wholly
ioyne
together
,
housholders
,
men-seruants
,
women-seruants
,
and
all
that
haue
any
thing
in
the
world
to
giue
,
for
the
allowing
of
him
so
much
yearely
maintenance
to
leaue
the
Ministerie
,
as
he
hath
by
continuing
in
it
;
yea
and
for
the
assuring
of
it
vnto
him
for
the
tearme
of
his
life
.
This
is
much
:
but
the
saluation
of
any
one
soule
in
the
parrish
,
is
much
more
.
And
where
an
vnable
minister
is
,
certenly
many
a
soule
is
in
great
danger
.
If
some
should
in
loue
of
their
saluation
,
put
themselues
to
this
charges
,
he
that
hath
title
to
giue
the
benefice
,
may
put
in
such
an
other
:
for
it
is
too
well
known
that
many
Patrons
(
so
they
are
called
that
giue
benefices
)
are
very
corrupt
,
and
haue
no
feeling
of
conscience
in
that
businesse
.
O
that
they
knew
what
a
huge
measure
of
Gods
vengeance
they
pull
vpon
themselues
,
and
vpon
their
house
?
Sir
,
whosoeuer
you
are
,
know
this
for
a
certain
,
the
Sonne
of
God
hath
a
Nisi
prius
against
you
,
to
be
tried
at
the
great
assizes
of
the
world
.
Then
shall
come
foorth
many
poore
soules
cast
away
by
meanes
of
your
corruption
,
and
they
shall
crie
out
vpon
you
before
the
face
of
God
,
Angels
,
and
men
,
saying
,
O
Lord
,
this
is
he
that
hath
caused
our
damnation
;
for
he
put
vpon
vs
a
man
to
be
our
minister
that
had
not
the
grace
of
ministration
in
him
.
I
vndertake
vpon
mine
vttermost
perill
,
that
if
faithfull
inquirie
be
made
,
diuerse
such
corruptions
shall
be
found
in
Derbieshier
;
yea
gentlemen
sharing
with
the
minister
in
things
dedicated
vnto
the
Gospels
maintenance
.
O
base
!
more
base
,
and
vile
then
to
robbe
by
the
high
way
side
.
Those
Ministers
which
are
capable
of
competent
knowledge
,
but
yet
haue
it
not
,
I
would
humbly
intreat
,
that
aboue
all
other
businesse
whatsoeuer
,
they
will
giue
themselues
in
the
feare
of
God
,
most
hungerly
and
thirstily
to
studie
for
it
.
Though
I
entred
not
into
the
ministerie
vntill
the
third
yeare
after
I
was
batchelour
of
art
,
which
I
confesse
was
too
too
soone
,
and
though
that
learned
Colledge
,
so
I
dare
say
,
Emanuel
in
Cambridge
,
did
in
such
fauourable
manner
approoue
mee
,
that
my
grace
to
commence
Master
of
Arts
was
passed
in
the
house
before
I
knewe
it
,
or
thought
of
it
,
but
I
neuer
went
to
commence
;
yet
was
I
glad
,
God
knowes
,
to
toile
my selfe
night
and
day
;
else
that
lowest
degree
of
sufficiencie
,
which
by
Gods
mercie
I
haue
,
I
should
neuer
haue
had
.
I
haue
been
forced
to
renew
my
knowledge
of
logicke
,
the
Art
of
vnderstanding
againe
,
and
againe
,
and
yet
am
farre
short
of
perfection
.
Hee
that
is
ignorant
of
this
Art
,
I
cannot
deuise
how
hee
may
bee
an
vnderstanding
Minister
.
In
the
Latine
tongue
I
was
not
verie
perfect
,
yet
some-what
readie
.
But
to
get
a
little
smacke
,
in
that
learned
language
the
Greeke
,
mine
eyes
haue
foregone
much
sleepe
,
and
been
made
to
smart
very
often
.
Into
the
language
of
Chanaan
,
the
Hebrew
,
I
haue
so
little
sight
as
may
be
;
yet
it
cost
mee
some
labour
,
and
expence
withall
.
By
these
paines
I
haue
obtained
,
God
beeing
mercifull
vnto
me
,
this
profit
;
I
can
make
a
shift
to
vnderstand
many
learned
Authors
that
haue
written
books
verie
helpefull
for
him
which
studieth
Diuinitie
.
Thus
I
am
only
able
to
abide
the
Churches
triall
,
and
to
passe
for
a
sufferable
minister
;
if
sanctification
be
not
wanting
.
If
any
vnable
minister
,
being
capable
of
knowledge
,
did
but
perceiue
first
his
owne
want
,
and
then
the
comfort
which
my
soule
takes
in
this
lowest
degree
of
abilitie
,
which
thorough
Gods
great
mercie
I
haue
attained
vnto
,
hee
would
enforce
himselfe
night
and
day
,
to
get
knowledge
,
&
so
be
quickly
gone
beyond
me
.
I
would
withall
mine
heart
that
I
beeing
no
lesse
able
then
I
am
,
as
sufferably
I
can
not
bee
,
were
in
abilitie
ministeriall
the
very
lowest
of
all
the
ministers
in
this
Land
.
It
grieues
mee
to
consider
,
that
some
are
not
onely
vnable
,
which
they
shall
find
to
be
miserie
too
much
,
but
also
,
which
is
much
more
miserable
,
confidently
perswaded
of
their
sufficiencie
.
I
kept
my selfe
in
some
small
measure
of
good
order
all
that
weeke
,
much
what
by
shunning
vnnecessarie
companie
.
But
my
terrible
disease
increased
vpon
me
,
and
so
tormented
me
,
that
the
foureteenth
of
August
,
beeing
Sabbath
,
by
drinking
much
new
ale
to
ease
my
paine
,
I
almost
ouerthrewe
my selfe
,
and
was
sore
afraid
least
I
should
haue
failed
in
my
ministration
.
Yet
,
see
thee
admirable
goodnes
of
God!
I
preached
in
the
forenoone
:
and
in
the
afternoone
went
sicke
,
and
sowning
ripe
into
the
pulpit
,
so
that
I
betooke
my selfe
to
the
pleasure
of
God
by
way
of
preparation
for
some
dismall
successe
;
yea
,
before
I
spake
any
word
,
I
secretly
said
thus
vnto
my
Lord
,
Blessed
Lord
God
,
make
way
for
thine
owne
good
pleasure
,
and
glorie
,
and
doe
what
thou
wilt
vnto
mee
;
spare
mee
not
:
Yet
,
I
say
againe
,
see
the
most
wonderfull
goodnesse
of
God!
there
were
diuerse
of
good
iudgement
,
yea
and
a
Preacher
,
who
,
I
verily
beleeue
,
will
say
,
they
neuer
heard
mee
preach
more
effectully
,
nor
with
a
more
constant
voice
;
I
must
,
and
by
Gods
grace
will
,
knowing
mine
owne
exceeding
weakenesse
,
acknowledge
it
to
be
a
gracious
fauour
of
God
.
In
the
morning
I
beeing
so
sore
pained
,
that
I
could
not
endure
either
to
reade
that
which
I
had
prepared
to
preach
,
or
to
thinke
vpon
it
,
did
deuoutly
promise
vnto
the
Lord
,
that
in
zeale
of
his
glory
,
I
would
not
faile
to
put
my selfe
vnto
open
shame
,
for
euery
sinne
which
thenceforth
I
should
openly
commit
in
word
or
deede
.
Yea
,
I
said
thus
much
vnto
him
,
That
open
sinne
which
I
shall
wittingly
let
passe
,
without
open
confession
,
do
thou
neuer
forgiue
.
I
doe
humbly
craue
aide
of
euery
Christian
which
shall
read
,
or
heare
this
.
As
my
disease
is
very
tormenting
,
so
my
state
is
too
too
vncomfortable
.
Eccles.
4.10
.
Woe
to
him
that
is
alone
,
when
he
falleth
:
for
hee
hath
not
another
to
helpe
him
vp
.
I
must
sit
,
and
endure
my
griefe
with
silence
.
For
to
whom
shall
I
complaine
?
Or
what
shall
I
ease
my selfe
by
complaining
?
The
prouerbe
is
not
more
olde
then
true
;
Euery
man
is
for
himselfe
,
and
God
for
all
.
If
the
latter
part
held
not
very
true
,
I
were
woe begone
:
for
the
first
is
too
true
.
But
what
aide
doe
I
craue
of
the
Reader
,
or
hearer
?
I
beseech
you
that
euen
for
the
loue
of
Christ
,
and
Christianitie
,
you
will
very
earnestly
intreat
our
Lord
God
to
bee
mercifull
vnto
me
,
and
if
it
may
possibly
stand
with
his
holy
will
,
to
grant
mee
ease
of
this
irkesome
torment
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
That
Sabbath
day
at
night
,
I
hauing
somewhat
more
conscionably
kept
that
Sabbath
day
then
euer
before
,
praised
God
thus
;
O
most
mercifull
Father
,
with
all
mine
heart
I
humbly
thanke
thee
for
this
verie
little
entracne
into
the
way
of
saluation
.
Good
Lord
,
my
soule
is
yet
wretchedly
tangled
in
sinne
.
Free
me
for
thy
mercies
sake
,
and
humble
mee
to
the
very
vttermost
that
may
be
,
thorough
Iesus
Christ
thine
only
Sonne
,
my
Lord
and
Sauiour
.
Amen
.
Amen
.
Then
also
I
beganne
to
sing
mine
euening
Psalme
:
which
is
not
in
double
meeter
,
as
that
vnto
whose
tune
I
haue
set
it
;
because
I
neither
had
leasure
,
nor
minde
to
be
so
curious
.
¶
Mine
euening
Psalme
,
to
the
tune
of
All
people
that
on
earth
doe
dwell
.
O
God
that
art
most
wonderfull
,
the
fountaine
of
all
blessednesse
,
I
most
vnfit
to
sing
to
thee
,
yet
needes
thy
mercie
must
confesse
.
Needes
must
I
,
for
I
am
most
bound
,
therefore
O
Lord
,
I
thee
intreat
,
For
to
prepare
mine
heart
and
tongue
,
thy
mercies
duely
to
repeat
.
So
soone
as
I
into
this
world
by
birth
was
borne
,
thou
causedst
mee
To
be
baptized
in
thy
Name
In
signe
of
my
deliuery
.
Deliuerie
from
Sathans
thrall
,
and
from
the
house
of
bondage
hell
,
That
with
thee
,
and
with
thy
Christ
,
in
euerlasting
blisse
might
dwell
.
And
when
I
was
of
age
to
learne
,
thou
didst
acquaint
me
with
thy
grace
,
Moouing
mine
heart
to
turne
from
sinne
,
and
thy
saluation
to
embrace
.
But
I
most
foolishly
did
loue
this
world
,
and
gaue
my selfe
to
sinne
,
Deferring
time
from
day
to
day
,
and
to
repent
would
not
beginne
.
Yet
notwithstanding
all
my
sinne
,
and
manifold
iniquitie
,
Yea
such
most
hainous
wickednes
as
alwaies
did
for
vengeance
crie
.
So
great
thy
mercie
was
to
me
,
that
thou
wouldst
not
my
soule
forsake
,
But
patiently
didst
vse
all
meanes
,
to
saue
me
from
the
burning
lake
.
And
now
at
last
with
much
adoe
,
a
little
I
am
turn'd
from
sinne
;
A
little
,
very
small
it
is
,
I
doe
repentance
but
beginne
.
Yet
Lord
my
soule
doth
trust
,
that
thou
wilt
small
beginning
not
despise
,
But
grant
me
grace
turning
to
thee
by
small
degrees
for
to
arise
.
So
be
it
O
most
gracious
God
,
be
it
euen
so
for
Christ
his
sake
,
I
doe
beleeue
,
therefore
I
speake
,
thy
childe
,
I
trust
,
thou
wilt
me
make
.
O
Father
,
Sonne
,
and
holy
Ghost
,
thou
onely
God
,
and
Lord
of
all
,
Thy
name
be
blessed
euermore
of
all
thy
creatures
great
and
small
.
Amen
,
Amen
,
Amen
say
I
,
Gods
name
for
euer
blessed
be
:
O
heauen
,
ô
earth
,
ô
creatures
all
,
say
ye
Amen
,
Amen
with
me
.
I
most
heartily
desire
,
that
euery
one
that
hath
not
more
experience
in
deuotion
then
I
,
will
take
this
my
counsell
,
Accustome
your selfe
to
pray
,
&
to
sing
oftentimes
vnto
God
;
let
your
prayer
,
and
song
,
be
such
matters
as
is
fitting
for
one
in
your
state
to
speake
vnto
God
,
whether
it
be
confession
of
sinnes
,
begging
of
pardon
,
and
cleansement
from
sinne
,
or
thanksgiuing
,
&c.
And
that
which
you
speake
vnto
the
Lord
by
way
of
praying
,
or
singing
,
let
it
not
onely
be
word
of
mouth
,
but
lift
vp
the
thought
of
your
heart
,
and
thinke
euery
word
directly
vnto
God
,
as
you
would
do
,
if
you
did
see
his
glorious
maiesty
with
your
bodily
eyes
.
Be
well
assured
,
and
stedfastly
minded
that
he
lookes
full
vpon
you
,
and
marketh
all
your
behauiour
;
yea
and
aboue
all
things
,
taketh
most
heedful
insight
of
your
thought
,
and
affection
:
for
longer
then
you
steadfastly
thinke
vpon
him
,
your
words
in
prayer
please
him
not
,
and
vnlesse
your
desire
be
very
earnest
,
he
will
not
regard
your
petition
.
Therefore
enforce
your
mind
to
thinke
very
intendingly
vpon
God
,
and
labour
to
haue
an
hungry
and
thirstie
desire
of
that
which
you
pray
for
.
You
see
that
I
haue
often
set
downe
the
word
,
Amen
;
yea
,
and
sometime
doubled
it
:
My
reason
is
,
because
I
would
be
very
earnest
,
and
effectually
feruent
in
my
desire
.
Our
Sauiour
sheweth
vs
,
how
earnest
and
importunate
we
should
be
in
praying
vnto
God
:
I
pray
you
consider
his
words
,
Luk.
11.5
.
—
Which
of
you
hauing
a
friend
,
and
shall
go
vnto
him
at
midnight
,
and
say
vnto
him
,
Friend
,
lend
me
three
loaues
:
6.
For
a
friend
of
mine
in
his
iourney
is
come
vnto
me
,
&
I
haue
nothing
to
set
before
him
.
7.
And
he
from
within
shall
answer
,
and
say
,
Trouble
mee
not
,
the
doore
is
now
shut
,
and
my
children
are
with
me
in
in
bed
:
I
cannot
rise
and
giue
thee
.
8.
I
say
vnto
you
,
though
he
will
not
rise
,
and
giue
him
,
because
he
is
his
friend
;
yet
because
of
his
importunitie
hee
will
rise
,
and
giue
him
so
many
loaues
as
he
needeth
.
Our
Lords
meaning
is
,
that
as
many
a
man
in
his
necessitie
will
haue
no
deniall
,
but
is
so
importunatly
earnest
,
that
the
partie
to
whom
he
maketh
suit
,
hath
no
other
way
to
be
quiet
,
but
onely
by
granting
his
request
;
so
ought
we
to
behaue
our selues
in
prayer
to
God
,
most
vehemently
crying
vnto
him
for
mercie
,
and
euer
and
anone
praying
againe
and
againe
,
as
Christ
himselfe
did
in
the
garden
,
not
ceasing
vntil
he
doe
,
as
certainly
he
wil
,
shew
himselfe
very
mercifull
vnto
vs
.
If
we
ought
to
pray
so
earnestly
,
and
so
often
,
wo
is
my
heart
for
many
a
poor
soule
,
that
seldome
or
neuer
prayeth
,
but
when
he
is
laid
downe
in
his
bed
:
and
then
saith
his
Paternoster
and
Creed
,
between
sleeping
&
waking
;
making
none
other
reckoning
but
this
,
that
the
very
bare
saying
of
those
things
,
serues
the
turne
.
Surely
it
is
Popery
that
hath
brought
the
world
to
this
senceles
state
,
by
teaching
folke
to
pray
in
an
vnknowne
tongue
,
and
to
say
praiers
by
set
number
and
tale
,
as
folke
buy
and
sell
apples
and
peares
.
When
I
was
a
child
,
I
now
and
then
lay
with
some
elder
body
,
who
beeing
in
bed
,
would
beginne
to
say
the
Lords
prayer
,
&
by
and
by
slumber
,
then
awake
and
begin
againe
,
and
presently
fall
asleepe
againe
.
If
this
be
true
,
as
I
take
the
Lord
God
to
witnes
that
very
true
it
is
,
what
doth
it
shew
?
Surely
this
,
that
the
common
sort
of
people
runne
snuggling
all
day
after
their
worldly
busines
,
and
then
at
night
kennell
vp
themselues
like
so
many
bruit
beasts
,
little
or
neuer
a
whit
minding
that
which
they
should
principally
intend
,
their
conuersion
from
sinne
,
and
their
reasonable
vnderstanding
,
seruing
of
God
,
in
all
that
they
thinke
,
say
,
or
doe
.
Whosoeuer
is
in
this
slumbring
state
,
I
beseech
you
that
for
Gods
sake
,
you
will
awaken
your
soule
,
and
doe
as
the
Lord
Iesus
willeth
you
:
Matth.
6.33
.
Seeke
ye
first
the
kingdome
of
God
,
and
his
righteousnesse
,
and
then
all
other
necessaries
shall
bee
added
vnto
you
.
The
things
of
this
world
,
are
like
vnto
the
vantage
which
many
times
is
giuen
into
a
bargaine
.
Therfore
let
your
cheife
care
be
,
to
make
sure
your
saluation
,
and
then
your
good
heauenly
Father
will
not
suffer
you
to
lack
any
thing
that
is
good
for
you
.
O
I
pray
you
beleeue
it
,
and
build
vpon
it
;
for
he
hath
giuen
his
word
and
promise
:
Heare
him
what
he
saith
,
Heb.
13.5
.
—
I
will
not
leaue
thee
,
nor
forsake
thee
.
Accustome
your selues
,
as
I
said
before
,
to
pray
often
and
earnestly
vnto
God
,
and
by
the
grace
of
Iesus
Christ
,
you
shall
finde
that
he
will
most
graciously
and
kindly
acquaint
himselfe
with
your
soule
.
O
then
,
you
will
remember
these
my
words
;
&
say
,
Now
Gods
blessing
light
vpon
that
same
poor
minister
,
which
gaue
me
this
counsel
:
I
would
not
that
I
had
missed
it
for
all
that
this
whole
world
is
worth
:
yea
,
you
will
most
heartily
praise
the
Lord
God
,
that
it
pleased
him
,
by
so
simple
a
man
as
I
am
,
to
set
you
into
the
way
of
vnutterable
blessednesse
.
By
no
meanes
suffer
your
priuate
praiers
to
be
heard
of
others
:
for
then
it
is
a
hundred
to
one
,
that
the
deuill
,
and
the
priuie
pride
of
your
owne
heart
,
will
marre
all
,
and
make
your
deuotions
loathsome
in
the
sight
of
God
.
If
you
be
an
house-keeper
,
and
haue
a
wife
,
or
any
child
,
or
seruant
,
vse
to
pray
together
with
them
daily
,
vnles
you
meane
to
make
them
heathen
people
,
such
as
haue
none
acquaintance
with
God
.
This
matter
is
so
far
out
of
request
,
that
many
will
laugh
them
to
scorne
which
pray
with
their
houshold
:
whereby
a
man
of
any
vnderstanding
,
may
consider
into
what
a
wretched
state
the
world
is
come
.
Now
Christian
soule
whosoeuer
you
are
,
the
grace
&
mercy
of
God
be
with
you
for
euer
.
Thus
much
I
am
exceedingly
desirous
to
haue
printed
before
I
die
.
If
God
vouchsafe
to
giue
any
increase
of
life
and
grace
,
you
may
be
sure
,
that
I
will
doe
what
I
can
to
acquaint
you
with
it
.
The
will
of
God
be
done
,
and
blessed
bee
his
Name
for
euermore
.
Amen
.
FINIS
.