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John
Baptist
E.
S.
John
Crook
We
beholding
,
as
in
a
glass
,
the
glory
of
these
Saints
of
the
Lord
,
are
changed
into
the
same
image
,
from
glory
to
glory
,
Psal.
19.
April
24.
1649.
cap.
1.
de
Renty
de
Renty
for
,
a
boot
of
hay-ropes
,
r.
a
bottle
of
hay
,
for
,
possessing
it
all
,
r.
possessing
it
at
all
.
de
Renty
de
Renty
Charls
de
Renty
John
Baptist
de
Renty
Imitation
of
Christ
de
Renty
Nothing
doubt
,
but
this
alteration
will
bring
with
it
some
affliction
to
you
;
the
first
motions
of
Passion
being
not
in
the
power
of
men
,
and
indeed
nature
also
enclining
us
,
to
bemoan
the
loss
of
what
she
loves
:
But
since
that
there
is
something
of
God
in
this
business
,
I
most
humbly
beseech
you
to
lay
aside
all
passion
out
of
your
soul
,
and
consider
that
in
it
which
is
on
Gods
part
.
Thus
it
is
,
Sir
,
that
after
I
had
combated
two
years
with
my self
,
and
resisted
all
the
enspirations
that
God
had
given
me
during
that
time
,
I
was
at
last
constrained
to
break
off
so
long
a
delay
in
the
quitting
of
the
world
avowing
,
that
I
have
not
strength
enough
to
undertake
the
working
out
my
salvation
,
in
a
place
,
where
is
practised
the
contrary
to
what
I
would
effect
:
this
is
too
perilous
a
matter
for
afceble
person
,
that
hath
a
desire
to
march
on
sure
ground
;
and
therefore
I
have
judged
,
that
it
would
be
more
to
the
purpose
,
to
strangle
the
evil
in
the
birth
,
than
to
stay
till
it
become
greater
and
I
not
able
afterwards
to
master
it
:
For
so
unlike
are
the
maxims
of
the
world
,
to
those
of
Jesus
Christ
,
that
I
cannot
at
all
believe
,
a
soul
that
fears
to
offend
him
,
can
live
long
in
it
,
and
especially
at
the
Court
;
but
that
she
shal
soon
be
forced
to
abandon
it
,
when
she
shall
see
herself
oblig'd
to
comply
with
the
corruptions
of
the
time
;
which
would
not
beseem
me
now
to
talk
of
,
since
for
a
good
while
ago
,
my
design
hath
been
,
rather
to
hide
and
bury
in
oblivion
its
fooleries
,
than
to
recal
them
into
my
memory
.
I
am
minded
therefore
to
unwinde
my self
out
of
this
Labyrinth
,
although
I
know
it
will
be
said
,
that
I
might
well
enough
enjoy
the
world
,
and
and
yet
keep
my self
frow
its
enormities
.
I
confess
it
,
but
let
a
man
consider
what
comes
after
,
a
man
must
resolve
then
to
be
the
table
talk
of
the
Rabble
of
our
Masters
of
the
Mode
,
that
will
give
out
,
that
one
's
a
Bigot
Pecisian
,
a
sour
Fellow
,
not
fit
for
discourse
and
company
,
a
very
burthen
to
the
world
,
with
a
thousand
such
like
sayings
,
whereof
I
have
had
already
but
too
much
experience
.
In
effect
,
a
pleasant
thing
it
would
be
to
see
a
young
man
of
my
inclinations
enter
the
Court
,
and
there
act
the
Reformado
,
should
you
,
Sir
,
but
see
it
,
would
not
you
your self
,
in
good
truth
,
be
the
first
to
laugh
at
me
for
my
labour
.
I
therefore
humbly
beseech
you
,
to
consider
what
a
grief
it
would
be
to
a
Father
,
to
see
his
Son
in
the
Court
and
great
Meetings
,
there
onely
to
be
contemned
,
and
set
at
nought
:
not
but
that
for
all
this
,
a
good
Conscience
counts
it
a
great
honor
to
suffer
all
these
things
for
Gods
sake
:
but
I
believe
it
will
make
more
for
your
contentment
,
that
I
retire
my self
;
for
at
the
Court
a
man
must
live
as
at
the
Court
;
and
being
not
able
to
serve
two
Masters
,
I
conclude
with
the
G●spel
,
that
he
that
serveth
God
,
ought
to
follow
and
attend
on
God
.
I
have
always
seen
this
practis'd
in
the
world
that
when
one
hath
a
quarrel
with
another
,
that
mans
friend
is
so
far
from
offering
his
service
to
his
adversary
,
that
he
even
shuns
his
company
and
convers●tion
;
in
like
manner
,
God
and
the
world
being
in
terms
of
hostility
,
I
should
believe
it
a
great
offence
,
not
to
do
that
for
God
,
which
I
would
be
sure
to
do
for
a
friend
,
which
is
but
a
mortal
man
:
And
seeing
when
we
love
a
thing
,
we
go
not
about
to
search
out
just
the
contrary
to
it
;
so
the
means
to
avoid
sin
,
is
to
fly
the
occasions
of
it
;
and
shall
it
be
said
,
that
for
so
wretched
a
thing
as
to
make
a
little
shew
,
and
to
be
talk'd
of
,
a
man
should
endanger
the
loss
of
his
soul
?
No
,
no
,
and
they
that
think
so
now
,
will
be
of
another
minde
,
when
they
must
give
an
account
to
God
,
for
what
is
past
;
then
it
will
be
,
that
they
will
know
what
it
is
to
live
well
or
ill
,
but
then
it
will
be
too
late
;
and
therefore
leaving
the
dead
,
to
bury
their
dead
,
according
to
the
small
illuminations
we
have
,
let
us
labour
to
reform
our
life
,
and
to
do
something
for
the
love
of
God
,
who
hath
told
us
so
expresly
,
and
so
often
,
that
we
must
deny
our selves
,
for
sake
all
and
follow
him
:
which
thing
,
I
believe
,
you
would
not
be
willing
to
gainsay
.
You
are
the
cause
of
my
demurring
and
retardment
,
and
since
the
time
of
my
dayly
praying
for
this
retirement
,
I
have
had
many
thoughts
of
your
affliction
,
which
yet
for
all
that
,
will
soon
be
mitigated
,
when
you
shall
consider
,
that
God
doth
all
for
the
b●st
,
and
that
it
may
be
,
he
hath
sent
you
this
tribulation
to
produce
out
of
it
some
good
effects
.
I
leave
this
to
his
secret
dispensations
,
and
beseech
you
to
believe
,
that
I
am
able
to
serve
you
,
at
least
,
as
much
in
this
new
Profession
,
as
in
that
which
you
had
design'd
me
to
,
God
give
me
the
grace
to
do
it
.
I
acquaint
you
not
yet
with
the
place
where
I
am
,
fearing
least
now
at
first
,
your
passion
should
cause
you
to
come
hither
,
but
within
a
short
time
,
when
I
shall
know
the
state
of
things
a
little
better
,
I
will
not
fail
to
g●ve
you
notice
.
In
the
mean
while
,
I
shall
uncessantly
pray
him
,
whom
I
am
resolv'd
to
serve
,
to
abide
with
you
,
and
make
you
know
,
how
passionately
I
am
,
de
Renty
Elizabeth
de
Balsac
de
Dunes
de
Renty
de
Renty
de
Renty
de
Renty
de
Renty
de
Condrien
de
Renty
de
Dieu
For
the
Education
of
Infants
,
God
,
having
distinguished
their
conditions
,
seems
to
teach
us
,
that
there
ought
to
be
a
difference
between
the
nurture
of
a
Peasant
,
and
that
of
a
Gentleman
;
who
being
born
to
wear
a
Sword
,
must
not
,
without
doubt
,
be
put
into
a
Cloister
for
the
fitting
of
him
to
it
:
but
so
great
corruption
is
now
among
us
,
that
all
the
principal
Instructions
that
either
we
,
or
any
we
set
over
them
,
do
give
them
,
serve
for
nothing
but
to
kindle
a
fire
infernal
of
vanity
in
their
hearts
,
where
there
is
not
but
too
much
already
,
pushing
youth
on
by
Paganish
examples
,
to
put
up
and
endure
nothing
,
to
aspire
always
to
that
which
is
most
aloft
,
and
for
the
climbing
up
thither
,
to
make
use
of
such
means
as
are
most
approved
by
the
world
,
although
they
be
forbidden
by
God
himself
.
But
if
they
go
not
thus
far
;
yet
at
least
,
do
they
not
quite
choak
in
the
heart
of
a
young
Gentleman
all
Christian
Principles
?
For
example
,
you
know
how
these
Duels
infect
the
mindes
of
our
youth
:
Now
tell
me
,
how
many
are
there
,
who
would
be
content
,
that
their
children
being
grown
up
,
and
challenged
,
should
refuse
to
fight
?
and
much
less
would
be
content
,
were
they
sure
they
should
come
off
without
harm
,
and
get
the
better
?
but
what
will
this
come
to
at
last
,
that
we
never
make
to
them
any
discourse
expresly
tending
to
the
cordemning
of
Duels
,
and
shewing
the
mischievous
effects
of
them
;
which
yet
we
ought
to
do
so
much
the
oftner
,
and
that
to
the
bottom
,
inasmuch
as
their
inclination
,
the
example
,
esteem
and
honour
of
the
world
,
doth
engage
and
incite
them
to
these
quarrels
;
if
perhaps
youth
let
fall
any
spark
of
this
furious
hot
coal
,
which
is
naturally
in
us
,
some
one
will
,
it
may
be
,
in
a
kinde
of
smile
,
and
by
the
by
,
Oh
that
's
not
good
!
God
forbid
such
a
thing
:
yes
,
but
take
notice
,
I
pray
you
,
whether
you
use
no
more
earnestness
than
this
to
prevent
your
sons
having
crooked
legs
,
and
a
mishapen
body
;
you
use
no
more
earnestness
than
this
,
to
have
him
well
taught
to
dance
and
fence
.
I
have
heard
with
grief
,
what
you
have
done
,
and
although
I
cannot
believe
all
the
Circumstances
that
are
told
me
,
yet
I
daily
meet
with
enough
to
make
me
know
that
your
passion
hath
got
the
mastery
;
if
I
look'd
upon
you
onely
for
my self
,
and
proper
interest
,
I
should
desire
you
might
exterminate
all
those
that
would
wrong
me
;
but
so
the
case
stands
,
that
both
you
and
I
must
live
like
Christians
,
or
assuredly
be
damn'd
,
if
we
have
not
this
belief
and
desire
,
le
ts
be
Turks
and
Barbarians
profess'd
.
Knew
you
but
how
much
such
actions
are
displeasing
to
God
,
what
scandals
and
damage
they
bring
to
men
,
your
heart
would
be
changed
forthwith
,
and
God
grant
it
may
:
my
Goods
,
Blood
,
and
Life
,
I
offer
to
him
,
to
obtain
you
this
Grace
,
on
which
depends
your
Salvation
;
but
I
pray
you
as
a
brother
,
and
command
you
as
a
Master
,
to
repair
the
wrong
you
have
done
to
God
,
to
an
Holy
Place
,
and
to
your
Neighbour
;
I
had
rather
my
house
were
ruin'd
(
for
me
)
than
you
should
fall
again
into
such
an
extremity
,
I
must
regulate
my
thoughts
and
desires
of
preserving
my
estate
,
by
my
Conscience
,
and
the
love
of
God
,
who
gave
it
me
.
I
assure
you
,
that
our
guidance
in
this
world
is
difficult
,
considering
the
wickednesses
of
the
times
;
and
though
one
may
sometime
hinder
the
oppression
of
the
we●k
,
&
withstand
injustice
by
courses
extraordinary
;
yet
where
there
is
a
mixture
of
our
own
interest
,
it
behoves
us
to
have
recourse
coordin●ry
ways
;
as
first
,
that
of
mildeness
;
secondly
,
that
of
Justice
and
Law
;
and
if
that
prosper
not
,
to
employ
our
patience
:
Then
is
the
time
,
that
we
ought
to
practice
such
a
vertue
;
I
make
no
great
account
of
certain
Devotions
for
fashion
,
but
I
respect
the
Maxims
of
the
Gospel
,
which
teach
us
no
other
way
than
this
.
de
Condrien
I
have
delaid
some
days
,
after
the
command
I
had
to
set
down
the
employing
of
my
time
,
for
the
better
discovering
of
some
things
therein
;
but
I
finde
nothing
there
of
strict
order
,
or
which
can
well
be
set
down
in
writing
,
because
all
consists
in
a
kinde
of
self
abandoning
,
and
following
after
the
order
of
God
,
which
causeth
in
a
manner
continually
diverse
things
,
but
all
upon
the
same
bottom
For
my
outward
and
more
Corporal
part
of
my
carriage
,
I
usually
rise
at
five
a
Clock
at
my
awakening
,
I
enter
upon
my
bottom
of
Self-Annihilation
,
before
the
Majestic
of
God
;
I
unite
me
to
his
Son
,
and
Spirit
,
to
render
him
my
homages
:
Being
risen
,
I
take
Holy
water
,
I
cast
down
my self
,
and
adore
the
blessing
of
the
Incarnation
,
which
gives
us
access
,
and
reconciles
us
to
God
:
I
deliver
up
my self
to
the
Holy
Infant
Jesus
,
to
be
entred
into
his
Spirit
:
I
salute
sometimes
my
good
Angel
,
St.
with
some
other
Saints
,
and
afterward
I
recite
the
I
cloath
my self
,
which
is
soon
done
,
and
after
pass
to
the
Chappel
,
through
a
little
Parlour
,
where
over
the
Chimney
.
I
have
set
an
Image
of
the
Holy
Virgin
,
holding
her
Son
,
as
the
Lady
of
the
House
;
I
kiss
the
earth
before
her
,
and
say
,
I
devote
my self
to
her
service
entirely
,
with
the
offering
up
of
my
Family
,
Wife
,
Children
,
Domesticks
;
and
I
have
practic'd
this
offering
of
them
to
her
a
long
time
,
that
by
her
means
they
all
may
be
perfected
for
God
;
and
rising
up
,
I
say
to
her
,
After
that
I
enter
into
the
Chappel
,
where
I
cast
my self
down
,
and
adore
God
abasing
me
before
him
,
and
making
me
the
most
little
,
most
naked
,
most
empty
of
my self
,
that
I
can
;
and
I
hold
me
there
by
faith
,
having
recourse
to
his
Son
,
and
to
his
Holy
Spirit
,
that
whatsoever
is
his
pleasure
,
may
be
done
by
me
,
and
so
I
abide
.
If
I
have
any
Penance
to
do
upon
half
an
hour
after
six
,
I
do
it
,
and
then
I
read
two
Chapters
of
the
New
Testament
,
barcheaded
,
and
on
my
knees
.
At
seven
a
clock
,
I
go
up
to
a
Closet
,
where
there
are
three
Stations
,
the
first
to
the
Virgin
,
the
second
to
St.
and
the
third
to
to
all
which
I
render
my
little
Devoirs
;
and
afterwards
,
I
give
place
to
my
affairs
;
but
if
there
be
no
business
urgent
,
I
prostrate
my self
before
God
,
till
the
time
that
I
go
to
Mass
,
staying
at
the
Church
till
half
an
hour
after
eleven
,
except
on
those
days
when
we
dine
some
poor
people
,
for
then
I
return
at
eleven
.
Before
dinner
,
I
make
the
Examen
of
the
morning
,
and
some
Prayers
for
the
Church
,
for
the
Propagation
of
Faith
,
and
the
Souls
in
Purgatory
:
after
that
,
I
say
the
I
dine
at
twelve
,
and
in
that
while
,
have
something
read
;
half
an
hour
after
twelve
,
I
spend
an
hour
with
them
that
have
business
with
me
,
and
that
's
the
time
I
appoint
for
that
purpose
:
Afterwards
,
I
go
forth
,
whither
the
order
of
God
shall
direct
:
Some
days
ore
order'd
and
assign'd
for
certain
Exercises
,
therest
are
reserv'd
and
unlimited
from
one
week
to
another
:
Now
if
it
fall
out
,
that
I
have
nothing
to
do
,
I
pray
in
a
Church
,
but
happen
what
will
,
I
endeavour
not
to
fail
to
visit
every
afternoon
,
the
Holy
Sacrament
,
and
to
spend
about
evening
,
an
hour
in
Devotion
:
About
seven
a
clock
,
when
I
have
made
some
vocal
prayers
,
we
go
to
supper
,
during
which
time
,
one
reads
the
Martyrologie
,
and
the
life
of
the
Saint
for
the
day
following
:
Supper
being
done
,
I
talk
to
my
children
,
and
tell
them
something
for
their
instruction
:
At
nine
a
clock
the
bell
rings
to
Prayer
,
which
all
my
Family
is
to
be
present
at
;
which
done
,
each
one
retires
,
but
I
keep
me
in
the
Chappel
in
Meditation
till
ten
;
and
then
I
go
to
my
Chamber
,
recommending
my self
to
my
God
(
according
to
my
Bottom
of
Self-Annthtlation
)
to
the
Holy
Virgin
,
my
good
Angel
,
and
other
Saints
:
I
take
holy
water
,
and
lay
me
down
in
bed
,
where
I
say
the
for
the
dead
,
and
some
other
little
Prayers
,
and
so
endeavour
to
repose
.
And
so
you
have
in
some
sort
the
order
of
the
day
as
to
my
Exterior
.
But
for
the
order
of
my
Interior
,
I
have
not
,
as
I
may
say
,
any
;
for
since
I
left
(
it
will
be
a
year●
the
Holy
Week
next
)
my
breviary
,
all
my
forms
have
left
me
,
and
now
instead
of
serving
me●●s
means
to
go
to
God
,
they
would
become
hinderance
:
I
bear
in
me
ordinarily
(
but
with
many
infidelities
so
great
in
all
this
,
that
I
am
about
to
speak
of
,
that
I
write
it
not
without
regret
,
because
I
am
nothing
but
vice
and
sin
:
)
I
bear
,
I
say
,
in
me
ordinarily
,
an
experimental
verity
,
and
a
plenitude
of
the
presence
of
the
most
Holy
Trinity
;
or
indeed
,
of
some
Mysterie
,
which
elevates
me
by
a
simple
view
to
God
,
and
with
that
,
I
do
all
that
the
Divine
Providence
enjoyns
me
,
regarding
not
any
things
for
their
greatness
or
littleness
,
but
onely
the
order
of
God
,
and
the
glory
which
they
may
render
him
.
For
the
Examens
;
and
things
done
in
Community
(
which
I
mentioned
before
)
I
often
cannot
rest
my self
there
:
I
perform
indeed
the
Exterior
,
for
the
keeping
of
order
;
but
I
follow
always
my
Interior
,
without
making
any
change
there
;
because
,
when
a
man
hath
God
,
there
's
no
need
to
search
him
elsewhere
,
and
when
he
holds
us
in
one
manner
,
it
is
not
for
us
to
take
hold
of
him
in
another
;
and
the
soul
knows
well
,
what
it
is
which
bottoms
it
more
clearly
,
what
unites
it
,
and
what
multiplies
and
distracts
it
.
For
the
Interior
therefore
,
I
follow
this
Attractive
,
and
for
the
Exterior
,
I
see
the
Divine
Will
,
which
makes
me
to
follow
it
,
and
which
carrieth
me
to
govern
my self
according
to
it
,
with
the
discernment
of
his
Spirit
,
in
all
simplicity
:
and
so
I
possess
,
by
his
grace
,
in
all
things
,
a
great
silence
Interior
,
a
profound
Reverence
,
and
solid
Peace
:
I
confess
me
,
usually
on
Thursdays
,
according
to
the
order
that
hath
been
given
me
,
and
communicate
almost
every
day
,
as
perceiving
my self
drawn
thereto
,
as
also
to
stand
in
great
need
of
it
.
In
a
word
,
the
Bottom
which
hath
been
shewed
me
to
stand
on
,
is
to
render
my self
to
God
through
Jesus
Christ
with
such
a
purity
,
as
hath
in
it
operation
,
to
worship
God
in
Spirit
and
Truth
,
after
a
manner
altogether
stript
and
naked
,
and
of
loving
him
with
all
my
heart
,
with
all
my
soul
,
and
with
all
my
power
,
and
of
seeing
in
all
things
,
and
adoring
the
conduct
of
God
,
and
following
it
.
And
this
onely
abiding
in
my
soul
,
all
other
things
in
me
are
defaced
and
blotted
out
:
I
have
nothing
of
sensible
in
me
,
unless
now
and
then
some
transitory
touches
,
but
(
if
I
may
dare
to
say
it
)
when
I
sound
my
will
,
I
finde
it
sometime
so
quick
and
flaming
,
that
it
would
devour
me
,
if
the
same
Lord
;
who
animates
it
(
though
unworthy
)
did
not
restrain
it
:
I
enter
into
an
heat
,
and
into
a
fire
,
and
even
to
my
fingers
ends
,
feel
that
all
within
me
speaks
for
its
God
,
and
stretcheth
it self
forth
in
length
and
breadth
in
his
Immensity
,
that
it
may
there
dissolve
,
and
there
lose
it self
,
to
glorifie
him
.
I
cannot
express
this
thing
as
it
is
,
I
do
not
make
a
stand
upon
any
thing
that
passeth
in
me
,
but
fall
always
into
my
nothingness
,
where
I
finde
my
act
of
purity
towards
God
,
as
above
.
I
beg
your
pardon
,
my
Reverend
Father
,
if
this
thing
here
be
so
ill
ordered
:
I
have
set
it
down
,
as
it
hath
happened
to
me
,
I
should
be
very
happy
,
if
you
could
know
all
my
miseries
,
for
you
would
have
them
in
great
commiseration
.
de
Condrien
de
Renty
To
speak
to
you
of
my
Interior
,
I
feel
my self
not
to
will
,
but
God
,
and
in
union
with
our
Lord
Jesus
Christ
,
to
yield
him
all
my
homages
:
This
is
the
fulness
of
my
heart
,
and
I
feel
this
well
,
when
I
sound
it
.
I
am
in
great
necessity
of
Jesus
Christ
,
but
I
ought
to
tell
you
by
an
acknowledgement
of
the
Mercy
of
God
,
by
a
certitude
of
this
truth
,
that
I
feel
that
he
is
more
ruling
in
me
,
than
my self
:
I
know
for
all
that
,
that
of
my self
I
am
but
sin
,
but
withal
,
I
experiment
my
Lord
in
me
,
who
is
my
stre●gth
,
my
life
,
my
peace
,
and
my
All
,
I
beseech
him
to
become
our
plenitude
.
I
finde
,
my self
,
said
he
,
much
troubled
what
to
send
you
,
because
all
things
become
raz'd
out
of
my
minde
as
soon
as
passed
,
and
I
cannot
retain
within
me
anything
,
but
God
,
and
this
in
a
kinde
of
a
hoodowink'd
blinded
manner
,
with
a
naked
faith
,
which
faith
making
me
know
the
evil
bottom
which
is
in
my self
,
gives
me
notwithstanding
great
force
and
confidence
by
way
of
abandoning
[
and
Self-Rejection
]
upon
our
Lord
Jesus
Christ
in
God
.
I
haue
found
this
morning
a
possage
in
S.
which
I
believe
our
Lord
hath
put
into
my
hand
to
express
my self
by
,
seeing
it
is
the
very
●ruth
of
what
I
experiment
:
It
is
about
a
fortnight
since
these
words
were
put
upon
my
spirit
,
without
any
contribution
on
my
part
,
or
of
any
thing
that
might
renew
the
Idea's
of
them
,
[
seck
the
vein
of
living
water
]
and
just
as
they
were
exprest
to
me
,
my
spirit
(
like
as
when
one
comes
up
a
River
,
to
its
Spring-head
)
was
to
seek
Jesus
Christ
from
the
beginning
of
his
Pilgrimage
,
to
the
point
of
his
Glory
;
when
set
down
in
his
Throne
at
the
right
hand
of
his
Father
,
whence
he
sends
his
spirit
to
animate
his
Church
,
and
enliven
those
that
are
his
:
I
saw
that
there
indeed
was
the
Source
,
whence
the
springs
of
living
waters
do
flow
to
us
,
and
that
thither
we
were
to
make
our
addresses
.
Let
us
forget
all
,
to
think
of
this
faith
which
makes
alliance
between
God
and
us
through
Jesus
Christ
,
who
is
come
to
publish
this
truth
,
which
he
hath
sealed
with
his
blood
,
and
which
he
will
consummate
in
his
glory
,
at
that
time
when
we
shall
appear
to
have
been
faithful
in
following
his
Spirit
.
Let
us
go
after
,
and
with
Jesus
Christ
to
God
,
for
he
is
our
way
.
'T
is
a
thing
admirable
,
that
it
hath
pleased
God
to
seud
us
his
Son
,
to
the
end
that
we
may
not
look
on
him
any
more
as
our
Creator
onely
;
but
also
through
the
alliance
that
we
have
with
him
,
we
may
call
him
Father
.
He
is
therefore
our
Father
from
this
time
forward
,
and
it
is
certain
,
that
he
considers
us
as
his
children
in
the
person
of
his
Son
Incarnate
:
But
the
thing
of
importance
,
is
a
firm
aniting
of
our selves
to
this
Son
,
contiruing
that
life
of
his
upon
earth
;
within
this
of
ours
,
by
the
direction
of
his
Spirit
.
Let
Jesus
Christ
be
in
each
of
us
our
bond
,
our
soul
,
our
life
as
he
is
our
pattern
:
Le
ts
take
a
nearer
view
of
this
Holy
Original
,
enter
into
his
Principles
,
lay
hold
on
his
desires
,
execute
his
works
,
and
let
men
know
that
we
are
Christians
.
I
adore
and
bless
with
all
my
heart
,
our
Lord
Jesus
Christ
,
for
that
he
opens
you
his
heart
,
to
possess
wholly
yours
:
he
will
make
it
to
dye
,
and
will
reduce
it
to
a
Holy
Poverty
,
which
shall
cause
you
to
taste
the
true
Life
,
and
compleat
Riches
,
and
to
avow
that
it
is
a
great
mercy
to
belong
to
Jesus
Christ
:
I
beseech
him
to
bestow
on
you
his
most
sanctifying
graces
,
and
that
we
may
beth
dye
well
,
and
live
well
,
by
his
Spirit
:
Let
us
enter
into
this
Spirit
,
which
will
give
us
the
Sentiments
,
and
the
Energie
of
the
Children
of
God
:
All
other
presence
and
application
to
the
Divine
Majestie
which
is
not
by
this
union
of
the
Soul
to
Jesus
Christ
is
onely
of
the
creature
towards
the
Creator
,
which
carries
indeed
respect
,
but
gives
not
the
life
and
approaches
of
children
towards
God
their
Father
,
where
being
united
to
the
Interior
operations
of
Jesus
Christ
,
we
finde
there
,
the
affections
of
true
children
;
which
we
can●
not
have
,
but
by
being
united
to
the
true
Son
.
I
avow
that
I
have
no
gust
in
any
thing
,
where
I
finde
not
Jesus
Christ
;
and
for
a
soul
that
speaks
not
of
him
,
or
in
which
we
cannot
taste
any
effect
of
grace
,
flowing
from
his
Spirit
(
which
is
the
principal
of
operations
,
both
inward
and
outward
,
that
are
solidly
Christians
)
speak
not
to
me
at
all
of
such
a
one
:
Could
I
,
as
I
may
so
say
,
behold
both
miracles
and
wonders
there
,
and
yet
not
Jesus
Christ
,
nor
hear
any
talk
of
him
,
I
count
all
but
amusement
of
spirit
,
loss
of
time
,
and
a
very
dangerous
Precipice
.
Let
us
love
Jesus
Christ
,
let
us
unite
our selves
to
his
Spirit
and
Grace
,
miserable
sinner
,
as
I
am
,
who
love
him
not
,
yet
should
I
be
much
joy'd
at
least
,
to
see
my
defects
supplied
by
others
that
love
him
fervently
;
but
I
am
too
unworthy
to
obtain
a
matter
so
great
,
and
wherein
my self
do
bear
so
small
a
part
.
de
Renty
bearing
continually
about
him
the
mortification
of
the
Lord
Jesus
in
his
body
:
That
those
that
are
Christs
,
have
crucified
the
flesh
,
with
the
affections
and
lust
thereof
:
I
know
not
,
said
he
,
why
one
stould
strive
to
keep
in
so
lazy
a
beast
,
that
stands
more
in
need
of
the
spur
than
bridle
.
de
Renty
Blessed
are
the
poor
in
spirit
,
for
theirs
is
the
Kingdom
of
Heaven
I
was
the
other
day
touch'd
in
reading
the
eight
Beatudes
;
and
upon
this
word
I
took
notice
,
that
in
effect
there
were
no
other
Beatitudes
but
these
;
for
if
there
had
,
our
Lord
would
have
taught
them
,
and
therefore
those
ought
to
be
our
whole
study
:
But
what
shall
I
say
?
we
ground
not
our selves
upon
them
,
nor
desire
the
grace
to
do
it
;
but
run
after
the
Beatitudes
of
the
world
,
and
our
own
Concupiscience
,
quitting
that
which
is
clear
,
and
given
us
by
our
head
Christ
Jesus
,
to
be
in
a
state
of
hurley-burley
and
confusion
,
and
consequently
of
trouble
,
danger
,
and
unhappiness
.
Procure
by
your
prayers
,
that
we
may
change
this
form
of
life
,
when
will
you
labour
with
God
,
that
this
may
be
?
this
habit
,
and
this
wealth
,
is
to
me
most
painful
.
de
Renty
Seeing
God
hath
given
me
the
management
of
this
estate
,
I
will
do
to
preserve
it
what
shall
behove
me
,
and
then
it
is
all
one
to
me
,
what
success
shall
follow
.
of
the
Holy
Sacrament
:
my
most
holy
Sister
,
I
have
it
in
my
heart
,
that
the
Holy
Childe
Jesus
would
have
something
of
me
,
which
he
hath
a
desire
I
should
beg
of
him
,
and
dispose
my self
for
the
obtaining
of
it
:
And
I
avow
to
you
,
that
the
more
there
comes
to
me
of
the
riches
of
this
world
,
the
more
do
I
discover
the
malignity
the
eto
affixed
,
and
that
they
produce
nothing
but
garboil
and
trouble
,
and
afford
not
much
means
of
doing
good
:
My
heart
is
most
strongly
carried
to
an
effective
st●ipping
my self
of
all
,
and
to
follow
him
alone
(
seeing
he
is
my
way
)
as
being
the
most
poor
and
depressed
amongst
all
his
followers
.
But
that
I
know
,
that
it
would
be
a
presumption
to
believe
my self
capable
of
this
estate
,
and
a
temptation
to
put
my self
upon
it
,
being
at
present
,
related
as
I
am
,
I
●ould
pant
and
sigh
thither
ward
very
much
:
that
which
I
will
draw
hence
is
this
,
that
being
ignorant
of
the
coursels
of
God
,
I
cannot
tell
how
he
will
dispose
of
me
for
the
future
:
and
I
offer
my self
up
to
whatsoever
it
shall
please
him
,
knowing
,
that
with
him
,
I
can
do
every
th●ng
;
as
without
him
,
I
have
neither
the
power
nor
will
for
any
thing
.
My
most
dear
Sister
,
I
have
great
need
of
doing
penance
,
and
to
be
humbled
,
I
am
greatly
ashamed
of
my
condition
,
and
of
what
I
am
;
I
have
the
commodity
and
abundance
of
all
things
of
this
world
,
but
my
family
,
and
estate
of
things
permits
it
not
to
be
otherwise
:
and
I
see
the
Churches
and
the
poor
upon
whom
I
would
bestow
it
all
,
at
least
,
as
much
as
I
may
in
justice
part
with
,
or
else
to
be
poor
,
as
the
poor
are
,
so
that
I
may
be
no
more
ashamed
of
being
better
provided
than
they
.
I
make
a
resolution
in
the
presence
of
my
God
,
to
have
care
of
Reparations
,
of
Manufactures
,
of
High-ways
and
Causeys
,
with
the
goods
that
he
hath
given
me
to
dispose
of
;
and
this
so
much
the
more
,
as
he
shall
give
me
the
grace
,
to
make
a
total
dismission
and
resignation
to
him
of
my self
,
and
of
what
I
have
,
at
this
next
approaching
Feast
of
his
Nativity
,
and
to
put
my self
into
such
a
condition
,
that
he
shall
be
the
Proprietary
and
owner
,
and
I
the
steward
and
servant
onely
,
to
distribute
the
same
,
in
readiness
to
yeild
it
up
at
the
least
notice
of
his
will
:
By
his
grace
therefore
,
I
acknowledge
this
day
,
that
being
from
hence
forward
in
a
Plebeian
and
underling
condition
among
Christians
,
I
ought
to
apply
my self
to
these
businesses
as
far
as
there
shall
be
need
,
and
occasions
permit
;
namely
,
to
labour
in
them
,
even
in
the
lowest
employments
that
are
,
as
to
remove
rubbish
,
to
play
the
Mason
,
and
the
like
;
since
by
his
grace
I
have
skill
in
some
of
these
Arts
:
And
I
ought
to
make
as
much
account
of
these
employments
,
as
of
those
of
assisting
souls
;
not
looking
upon
the
things
as
they
are
in
themselves
,
but
on
the
will
of
God
,
and
what
he
requires
of
me
:
I
beseech
the
Lord
from
my
heart
to
pardon
me
my
failings
herein
,
to
this
time
:
I
make
this
present
Memorial
,
upon
the
sight
which
he
hath
given
me
of
them
,
this
fifth
of
to
serve
me
as
a
remembrancer
of
my
Obligation
.
Blessed
for
ever
be
our
great
God
,
by
Jesus
Christ
,
and
by
all
the
righteous
,
that
are
filled
with
his
Spirit
.
I
believe
the
order
of
God
requires
of
me
outward
labour
,
among
many
other
workmen
,
seeing
necessity
thereto
obligeth
me
(
as
Father
of
the
Family
)
about
a
house
,
considerable
for
my
children
,
which
was
like
to
fall
,
having
not
been
inhabited
for
a
long
time
.
I
avow
to
you
,
my
heart
doth
much
long
after
another
Edifice
,
than
that
which
is
built
with
materials
of
stone
:
But
I
look
upon
this
my
work
,
as
a
part
of
Gods
justice
,
who
destin'd
the
first
man
after
the
fall
,
and
all
his
children
to
labour
;
and
thereupon
I
revere
it
,
and
apply
my self
thereto
with
a
good
heart
and
courage
,
though
with
some
Mortification
,
from
the
nature
of
this
penance
,
that
relates
so
little
to
the
life
of
the
Spirit
.
We
know
some
of
our
ancient
Popes
,
who
were
great
Saints
,
condemn'd
to
keep
Mules
,
and
I
that
am
a
great
sinner
,
and
deserve
hell
,
and
so
mercifully
dealt
with
,
that
I
am
not
sent
,
but
to
the
stone
Quarries
,
not
into
the
banishment
and
penury
of
our
first
Christians
,
but
into
those
grounds
that
go
for
my
own
.
Oft
in
a
day
I
think
,
that
this
Labour
is
unacceptable
;
and
to
what
purpose
,
say
I
sometimes
,
so
many
houses
,
which
we
must
leave
so
soon
,
and
which
themselves
will
come
at
last
to
nothing
?
I
am
humbled
for
the
work
,
but
not
for
the
application
of
my self
to
it
.
The
time
that
I
live
here
in
this
place
,
I
count
very
dear
,
regarding
it
as
ordered
by
God
,
for
the
doing
of
a
little
part
of
the
penance
due
to
my
great
sins
.
If
grace
did
not
uphold
me
with
this
consideration
,
I
should
be
much
tormented
,
in
a
labour
so
ingrate
,
and
so
limited
,
as
to
build
in
the
house
of
a
secular
,
and
bestow
my
time
upon
this
work
,
which
requires
assiduity
:
But
I
have
a
feeling
,
that
the
order
of
God
is
in
it
,
and
by
his
motions
I
quit
the
state
of
to
take
that
of
accepting
this
humiliation
with
Self-annihilation
,
and
with
contemplation
of
the
Divine
Justice
.
That
which
makes
me
the
more
to
know
that
there
is
of
Gods
order
in
it
,
is
this
,
That
from
time
to
time
,
both
Holidays
and
Sundays
,
the
mercies
of
the
Lord
are
so
great
to
me
,
that
I
resent
more
of
retribution
from
him
in
one
instant
,
than
the
patience
and
humiliation
of
a
sinner
could
merit
in
all
his
life
.
He
opens
himself
so
to
me
,
that
my
hardness
is
mollified
,
and
makes
me
melt
into
tears
;
my
eyes
are
so
full
of
them
,
that
very
often
I
have
much
ado
to
keep
them
in
,
pierced
as
I
am
with
love
,
with
reverence
,
and
with
acknowledgement
of
the
effects
of
his
goodness
,
which
he
renews
in
me
by
his
inlightning
presence
,
and
manifestation
of
his
inexplicable
conduct
,
which
I
cannot
utter
.
I
understand
hereby
,
that
we
are
to
reckon
among
graces
this
,
following
the
order
of
God
,
and
not
that
of
our
own
,
by
a
singular
and
private
spirit
of
pride
,
pretending
the
glory
of
God
,
that
we
may
dispence
with
our selves
(
though
we
perceive
it
not
)
from
labouring
in
things
mean
and
painful
in
our
conditions
,
which
notwithstanding
our
Lord
blesseth
,
not
according
to
the
choice
we
make
,
but
according
to
their
agreement
to
his
order
:
And
our
faithfulness
draws
not
its
worth
from
doing
this
or
that
,
but
from
an
exactness
in
doing
that
which
he
requireth
of
us
,
giving
up
our selves
wholly
to
his
good
pleasure
.
I
see
there
is
need
of
a
great
death
to
our selves
,
and
a
great
depth
of
Self-annihilation
,
to
follow
so
purely
the
conduct
of
grace
,
and
not
to
be
for
own
forms
,
but
those
of
God
.
I
daily
continue
my
toiling
here
,
which
takes
up
much
of
my
time
,
and
almost
all
;
but
I
dare
not
look
aside
,
but
onely
abase
and
submit
my self
to
the
Divine
Ordinance
.
It
was
a
work
very
gross
and
mean
,
for
Jesus
Christ
to
converse
with
men
,
who
had
more
of
rudeness
,
than
these
stones
I
deal
with
,
and
more
of
opposition
to
his
purity
,
than
they
have
to
my
workmens
hands
:
And
yet
he
suffered
all
,
he
bore
all
,
and
in
fine
,
converted
but
a
few
:
I
beseech
you
,
obtain
for
me
a
part
in
his
obedience
,
and
his
patience
to
the
orders
of
God
his
Father
.
I
am
here
in
this
Countrey
,
in
the
midst
of
four
or
five
companies
of
workmen
,
to
repair
a
Mansion
House
on
the
Demesn
of
my
Family
,
which
was
ready
to
fall
:
What
can
our
spirit
act
in
this
work
,
which
following
the
Spirit
of
Faith
,
ought
to
be
a
Pilgrime
and
Stranger
upon
earth
?
without
doubt
it
groans
much
,
not
at
the
order
of
God
,
but
after
its
own
Countrey
,
in
the
midst
of
its
occupations
,
as
things
opposite
to
its
liberty
.
We
must
do
penance
by
labouring
,
it
is
so
decreed
by
God
,
upon
the
first
transgression
.
de
Renty
Have
pitty
on
me
,
I
am
more
unfaithful
than
any
creature
of
the
world
:
Upon
my
knees
,
I
beg
of
you
to
believe
it
:
If
our
Lord
did
not
shew
me
what
I
am
,
would
not
be
a
little
rich
;
but
this
benign
Lord
shews
me
daily
,
through
his
mercy
,
my
Nothingness
,
it
is
thither
his
grace
leads
me
.
All
my
resolution
is
in
these
words
of
David
,
[
I
have
chosen
to
be
little
and
abject
in
the
house
of
God
.
]
I
am
carried
to
demand
of
God
a
life
much
humbled
,
suffering
,
and
unknown
to
men
:
I
finde
a
great
attraction
thither
.
I
give
you
my
Liberty
,
O
my
God
,
and
beg
of
you
that
which
every
Christian
must
arrive
at
,
to
rise
purely
towards
you
.
Our
Lord
Jesus
emptied
himself
to
death
,
even
the
death
of
the
cross
;
wherefore
God
also
hath
exalted
him
.
Humility
;
said
he
,
he
is
the
Basis
which
carries
and
upholds
the
whole
work
of
God
in
us
,
it
makes
the
creature
so
naked
,
and
so
separated
from
it self
,
that
it
leaves
it
not
the
power
to
make
any
cast
of
an
eye
upon
it self
,
but
renders
it
so
taken
up
in
the
greatness
of
God
,
that
it
becomes
lost
,
in
reverence
of
him
,
in
self-abasement
and
annihilation
.
This
is
the
grace
of
Christians
in
their
Pilgrimage
,
who
divested
and
spoiled
of
all
,
esteem
themselves
but
a
and
very
puff
of
being
,
which
haivng
nothing
but
what
it
received
from
God
,
hath
no
instinct
or
inclination
,
but
for
God
:
It
s
a
brave
humility
to
see
nothing
in
ones
self
but
Nothingness
;
and
he
that
sees
not
there
nothing
,
sees
not
there
any
thing
at
all
.
So
the
soul
which
sees
nothing
in
it self
,
findes
nothing
in
it self
to
bottom
on
;
and
by
this
means
,
always
points
towards
God
,
like
a
needle
touched
with
a
Loadstone
,
that
having
been
encombred
with
all
sorts
of
trash
and
trifles
,
and
afterward
disingaged
of
them
,
would
forthwith
turn
towards
her
North
,
and
thitherward
remain
always
fixt
,
although
the
tempest
of
the
sea
and
winds
,
should
turn
upside
down
the
Vessel
.
A
great
Sinner
And
is
there
any
thing
great
,
in
the
presence
of
that
Greatness
?
I
see
my self
there
so
little
,
so
little
,
and
nothing
.
A
mote
in
the
Sun
is
very
little
,
but
yet
I
am
far
less
in
the
presence
of
God
,
for
I
am
not
any
thing
.
Alass
,
I
am
too
much
;
I
am
a
sinner
,
and
Infidel
,
an
Anathema
through
my
crimes
.
Methinks
I
break
my self
in
pieces
before
God
,
as
when
I
stamp
an
egg
in
pieces
with
my
foot
upon
the
ground
,
and
I
be
spoken
of
,
that
I
have
so
much
as
a
name
,
is
a
strange
thing
.
Let
us
live
as
we
are
in
truth
;
what
place
can
we
hold
before
God
and
his
Saints
,
but
that
of
Nothing
?
with
amazement
,
that
we
are
endured
,
being
a
Nothing
of
all
good
,
and
a
compound
of
all
evil
.
It
concerns
me
to
tell
you
one
thing
before
I
end
,
which
keeps
me
in
a
marvellous
disesteem
of
my self
,
and
makes
me
resent
,
how
little
confidence
there
is
to
be
had
in
man
:
it
is
this
,
that
when
S.
and
the
Apostles
make
the
greatest
profession
of
their
fidelity
to
our
Lord
,
our
Lord
then
mindes
them
of
the
infidelity
they
would
commit
,
saying
to
S.
that
he
could
not
follow
him
whether
he
went
.
S.
answers
him
,
Why
cannot
I
follow
you
now
?
I
am
ready
to
give
my
life
for
you
.
Thou
give
thy
life
for
me
(
replies
our
Lord
)
I
tell
you
in
truth
,
the
Cock
shall
not
crow
,
but
thou
shalt
deny
me
thrice
:
S.
not
understanding
these
words
,
continues
in
the
protesting
of
his
fidelity
;
and
upon
occasion
of
the
apprehending
of
our
Lord
,
draws
his
sword
,
and
sheaths
it
not
again
,
till
our
Lord
commands
him
:
He
follows
him
,
and
forsakes
him
not
,
thus
apprehended
;
but
yet
afterward
,
he
denies
him
upon
the
bare
word
of
a
maid
servant
.
The
apprehensions
of
these
weaknesses
,
which
come
to
me
not
by
search
or
study
,
but
by
Divine
enlightning
,
and
by
the
impression
which
they
make
in
me
,
keep
me
wholly
in
annihilation
,
without
any
affiance
in
my self
,
which
I
place
altogether
in
God
and
his
Son
our
Lord
:
This
condition
would
keep
me
in
a
marvellous
littleness
,
if
I
were
faithful
therein
:
I
have
some
instances
,
when
methinks
my
whole
body
is
crush'd
,
bruised
,
annthilated
,
and
my
interior
much
more
.
Pitty
it
is
to
see
man
and
his
infirmity
,
it
is
sometime
important
,
that
he
have
experience
of
what
he
is
,
that
he
may
neither
forget
himself
,
nor
the
place
which
he
ought
to
hold
,
[
That
no
flesh
might
glory
in
his
sight
]
that
being
abased
,
nullified
,
and
rendred
as
a
thing
that
is
not
at
all
,
Jesus
Christ
may
be
in
him
,
the
life
of
grace
and
holiness
,
waiting
for
the
time
of
our
redemption
;
that
is
to
say
,
the
entry
into
his
glory
,
and
as
it
is
written
,
The
state
of
our
poverty
,
and
the
sight
of
our
miseries
,
makes
us
know
the
need
we
have
of
grace
,
and
settles
the
soul
upon
the
Nothingness
of
her self
,
and
the
perswasion
of
her
inability
to
all
good
;
and
in
this
truth
,
that
she
never
hath
been
,
nor
can
be
,
but
retardment
and
diminution
to
the
operations
of
God
in
her
.
I
assure
you
,
I
lack
for
no
matter
to
make
me
humble
,
and
to
labour
in
good
earnest
,
to
correct
my self
,
although
with
patience
;
for
I
experiment
and
see
clearly
,
that
though
we
labour
and
wish
earnestly
to
get
out
of
our
imperfections
,
our
Lord
sometimes
leaves
us
there
a
long
while
,
to
make
us
know
our
weakness
,
and
to
humble
us
.
Believe
me
,
I
pray
you
,
it
is
great
pitty
of
me
,
I
take
again
the
Monsieur
,
which
I
had
rejected
,
my
pride
must
have
these
her
Appendixes
,
rather
than
deceive
your
Candor
,
which
else
perhaps
make
you
mistake
in
me
,
a
piece
of
glittering
glass
for
a
Diamond
.
I
cannot
bear
,
but
with
pain
,
the
account
you
make
of
my
visits
and
society
:
Let
us
look
much
upon
God
,
let
us
binde
our selves
strictly
to
Jesus
Christ
,
that
we
may
learn
of
him
a
profound
annihilation
of
our selves
.
O
my
God
,
when
will
it
be
,
that
we
shall
have
no
more
a
sight
upon
our selves
,
when
we
shall
speak
no
more
of
our selves
,
and
when
all
vanity
shall
be
destroyed
.
I
beseech
you
not
to
regard
in
me
,
save
my
infirmities
,
and
a
depth
of
wickedness
,
and
pride
very
horrible
that
is
in
me
,
that
's
it
,
for
which
I
shall
have
need
that
all
the
world
talk
to
,
and
punish
me
.
The
gifts
of
God
are
sometimes
so
great
,
that
they
put
us
,
as
I
may
so
say
,
beyond
our selves
(
and
if
it
were
possible
we
could
finde
the
means
to
recoil
our selves
further
off
,
than
beyond
Nothingness
)
we
should
do
it
.
You
see
among
men
,
that
when
one
receives
a
gift
that
bears
some
proportion
to
him
,
he
renders
thanks
and
acknowledgement
to
the
giver
for
it
;
but
if
a
Prince
be
Liberal
to
a
poor
man
,
according
to
the
Grandeur
of
his
own
power
,
whether
it
be
a
sum
of
money
,
or
a
place
,
you
shall
see
this
poor
man
recoil
,
and
say
,
Alas
,
my
Lord
,
I
think
you
know
me
not
,
I
must
not
have
so
much
,
I
am
unworthy
of
it
:
In
like
manner
,
there
are
blessings
that
go
beyond
our
expectations
,
capacities
,
and
which
make
us
see
what
we
are
,
without
daring
to
lift
up
our
eyes
towards
them
,
their
brightness
doth
so
much
dazle
,
and
their
greatness
so
much
astonish
.
de
Renty
I
have
at
the
same
time
two
apprehensions
,
quite
contrary
;
the
one
,
to
avow
to
you
,
with
thankful
acknowledgement
to
God
,
that
he
fills
me
with
effects
of
his
goodness
,
and
impressions
of
his
Kingdom
;
and
the
other
,
that
I
am
more
disposed
to
condemn
,
than
to
regard
my self
;
for
upon
the
whole
,
what
I
do
is
pittiful
.
I
rest
not
upon
all
this
;
I
told
you
onely
what
is
past
,
to
render
you
an
account
,
not
making
use
of
my
judgement
,
but
to
condemn
my self
for
vices
,
suspending
it
as
to
other
things
,
and
committing
it
to
God
.
I
know
not
what
will
become
of
our
business
,
one
must
not
speak
a
word
in
sweetness
and
patience
,
but
I
shall
lose
my
credit
somewhat
;
if
this
could
be
throughly
lost
,
it
would
be
great
justice
:
Alas
,
if
no
body
endur'd
me
,
and
all
the
world
condemn'd
me
,
my
pride
perhaps
would
be
humbled
.
If
I
were
to
wish
any
thing
,
it
should
be
,
to
be
much
humbled
and
nullified
,
and
to
be
treated
as
an
off-scouring
by
others
:
This
would
be
my
joy
,
but
I
believe
I
deserve
not
so
great
a
favour
.
I
should
have
great
pleasure
,
if
it
were
permitted
me
,
to
go
naked
in
my
shirt
through
the
streets
of
to
make
my self
disesteemed
,
and
taken
for
a
fool
.
de
Renty
I
am
at
now
,
seeing
God
is
so
pleased
;
where
I
have
learnt
by
the
prejudicate
opinions
,
that
were
entertained
concerning
me
,
what
it
is
that
God
would
draw
from
my
journey
;
which
is
,
that
I
lead
a
life
secret
and
unknown
to
men
in
the
spirit
of
penance
.
The
bruit
which
they
had
spread
concerning
me
was
,
that
I
was
a
Bigot
,
and
had
nothing
but
artifices
and
shews
of
devotion
,
for
the
colouring
of
my
naughtiness
;
that
indeed
I
have
kept
my self
much
private
in
my
closet
,
out
of
fear
to
give
,
by
coming
abroad
,
rather
scandal
,
than
any
example
of
vertue
:
I
have
found
a
generality
that
sollicited
against
me
,
though
such
as
from
whom
I
had
good
cause
methinks
,
for
divers
good
reasons
,
to
hope
for
a
prop
,
than
from
any
other
,
but
have
found
the
quite
contrary
:
But
so
also
,
as
God
hereby
hath
done
me
many
favours
.
I
have
been
to
see
them
,
where
I
have
received
humiliation
,
with
great
joy
:
I
have
been
very
wary
of
opening
my self
in
any
thing
that
might
recommend
me
unto
them
:
I
have
onely
done
in
my
business
what
truth
required
,
and
for
any
thing
else
,
I
made
it
matter
of
confusion
and
humiliation
,
as
I
ought
to
do
:
I
shall
be
here
,
I
believe
,
as
one
excommunicate
,
and
the
Scape-Goat
of
the
old
Law
,
chased
into
the
wilderness
for
my
enormous
sins
,
for
which
I
am
of
opinion
God
would
have
me
do
penance
,
not
by
meer
pain
onely
,
but
by
such
,
as
withal
brings
shame
and
confusion
with
it
:
I
tell
you
this
,
to
render
you
some
account
,
not
dwelling
on
it
any
longer
;
my
sole
scope
being
to
love
God
,
and
to
condemn
my self
.
de
Renty
I
am
,
to
speak
the
truth
,
but
an
Idiot
,
a
poor
Layick
,
and
a
sinner
.
What
do
I
(
an
unclean
one
,
and
a
Plebeian
in
grace
,
and
in
condition
)
in
the
Church
,
who
live
in
a
state
that
Jesus
Christ
refused
for
himself
?
I
speak
to
a
Priest
,
and
to
the
anointed
of
the
Lord
,
my
God
;
if
I
should
make
a
reflection
upon
my self
,
what
should
I
be
before
my
own
eyes
?
What
am
I
then
before
thine
,
and
those
of
thy
servants
?
I
thank
you
for
those
Devoirs
of
Devotion
,
which
you
have
tendred
these
days
last
past
,
for
a
thing
so
base
as
my self
,
who
deserve
no
room
,
but
among
the
children
of
that
deceive
all
the
world
and
who
have
reason
to
fear
the
anger
of
all
the
children
of
God
,
if
the
prayer
of
his
son
upon
the
cross
had
not
implor'd
forgiveness
for
his
persecutors
.
Seeing
I
am
born
with
so
willingly
,
and
that
you
persevere
to
desire
this
of
me
,
I
beseech
my
Lord
,
in
the
hand
and
disposing
of
whom
I
would
be
wholly
,
that
he
make
use
(
if
it
please
him
)
of
this
miserable
Rush
,
for
the
giving
you
some
consolation
,
in
the
life
of
his
children
,
and
the
ways
which
may
lead
you
to
the
inheritance
.
He
did
ill
I
am
no
other
than
a
sinner
,
have
pitty
on
me
,
adoring
for
me
the
goodness
of
God
,
and
of
our
Lord
;
who
,
to
speak
in
the
tearms
of
the
Gospel
,
turns
in
sometimes
among
sinners
:
I
can
tell
some
news
of
that
with
but
I
am
confounded
,
for
not
producing
in
all
my
life
,
that
which
his
love
and
gratitude
made
him
do
in
a
moment
.
I
beseech
our
Lord
to
keep
me
very
low
,
before
him
,
and
before
you
;
for
I
ought
to
bear
the
shame
of
my
crimes
in
all
places
,
seeing
I
am
altogether
miserable
;
yet
so
as
without
ceasing
to
joyn
with
you
in
saying
,
[
I
will
sing
of
the
mercies
of
God
for
ever
.
]
If
I
may
be
so
bold
,
I
pray
you
salute
them
from
me
,
I
esteem
my self
very
happy
to
be
the
last
of
that
company
,
I
am
altogether
uncapable
and
unworthy
of
it
I
shall
be
condemned
by
you
all
,
if
you
have
not
pitty
on
me
,
and
redeem
me
from
my
miseries
.
de
Renty
It
behoves
me
now
,
saith
he
,
that
I
render
you
an
account
of
a
business
that
passed
the
other
day
:
Madam
,
my
Lord
Chancellors
Lady
,
sent
me
a
packet
of
letters
,
wherein
I
found
some
from
the
King
with
all
the
Seals
and
formalities
,
wherein
I
was
made
Councellor
of
State
,
but
my
thoughts
were
not
taken
up
at
all
with
the
business
.
I
sent
her
word
,
that
I
would
assume
the
honour
to
see
her
,
to
thank
her
,
for
that
my
Lord
Chancellor
vouchsafed
to
think
of
me
;
that
I
honoured
more
than
so
,
that
which
had
the
mark
of
the
King
,
and
which
came
from
their
hands
,
than
not
to
receive
it
with
all
respect
:
But
I
most
humbly
begg'd
one
thing
of
her
,
that
living
in
a
kinde
of
plain
and
vulgar
manner
,
as
I
did
,
she
would
be
pleased
to
take
in
good
part
,
if
(
with
all
acknowledgement
premised
of
my
exceeding
obligations
to
them
)
I
did
not
accept
those
letters
,
and
that
the
business
might
sleep
without
noise
:
some
represented
it
to
me
as
a
thing
worth
thinking
on
,
for
that
a
might
be
very
necessary
for
me
,
in
some
sort
of
occurrences
;
and
that
a
pension
of
would
afford
me
ability
for
the
giving
of
more
alms
.
To
the
first
point
I
answered
,
that
by
the
goodness
of
God
,
I
had
no
need
of
it
;
and
that
often
,
the
Committimusses
prove
a
great
vexation
to
those
upon
whom
they
are
executed
:
That
this
should
be
our
work
,
to
bear
our
own
little
ordinary
crosses
,
without
laying
extraordinary
ones
upon
others
.
And
for
the
second
,
that
God
having
given
me
more
of
riches
,
than
I
had
need
of
,
I
thought
I
was
not
obliged
to
augment
them
,
but
to
keep
me
in
my
little
way
of
living
:
you
see
how
we
stand
as
to
this
business
.
Whereupon
let
me
tell
you
,
that
this
thing
cannot
be
affected
so
,
but
that
I
must
take
upon
me
also
the
quality
of
a
Councellor
of
State
,
and
must
have
a
dependence
upon
the
State
,
as
a
Pensioner
of
the
King
.
Now
by
the
paper
that
some
while
ago
I
sent
you
,
you
may
see
that
I
have
given
up
my
worldly
Nobility
to
God
,
and
this
thing
here
,
would
derogate
much
from
it
;
and
moreover
,
it
would
be
a
step
to
an
engaging
of
me
I
know
not
where
,
which
now
I
see
not
,
nor
will
see
,
having
other
things
to
six
my
eyes
on
.
My
disposition
towards
affairs
of
that
nature
,
is
to
have
no
share
at
all
in
them
:
if
per-force
,
and
without
my
seeking
,
they
come
upon
me
,
I
shall
count
it
a
real
cross
,
which
our
Lord
will
in
such
a
case
give
me
strength
to
bear
.
To
conclude
,
So
have
you
the
inclinations
I
finde
in
my self
.
I
have
been
willing
the
business
might
be
concealed
,
for
the
avoiding
of
Ostentation
,
which
is
found
often
in
the
refusal
of
things
that
have
something
of
lustre
,
and
give
occasion
of
talk
.
Walking
one
day
this
thorow
the
streets
of
much
be-dirted
,
and
very
poor
to
look
at
,
I
bore
in
me
the
resentment
of
the
Apostle
,
when
he
saith
I
returned
(
in
my
minde
)
blessing
for
reviling
,
and
the
rest
of
that
passage
,
so
much
as
fell
under
my
passive
obedience
,
both
actually
receiving
illumination
to
understand
it
,
and
strength
to
execute
it
:
I
know
well
how
much
neatness
and
new
things
,
even
to
a
boot
,
even
to
a
glance
,
and
a
look
,
do
hurt
,
if
one
take
not
good
heed
,
the
simplicity
and
dignity
of
this
Christian
self-vilifying
.
And
I
saw
that
it
was
a
great
temptation
for
a
man
to
think
to
preserve
his
estate
of
Grandeur
and
note
,
in
hopes
to
be
thereby
more
exemplary
,
and
have
more
weight
and
authority
for
the
service
of
God
:
This
is
a
pretext
that
our
infirmity
makes
use
of
in
the
beginning
,
but
perfection
draws
off
at
last
to
Jesus
Christ
,
who
was
humbled
upon
the
Cross
,
and
made
the
lowest
of
men
:
What
an
honour
is
it
to
keep
company
with
Jesus
Christ
,
so
lovely
,
and
so
little
followed
,
in
his
ignominies
,
and
his
humiliations
:
it
is
one
of
my
errours
,
that
I
have
not
yet
well
begun
it
.
Let
us
be
little
,
and
very
little
:
Oh
this
holy
littleness
,
it
is
a
great
matter
.
I
am
not
as
other
men
.
God
forbid
,
said
he
,
that
I
should
believe
,
there
is
any
thing
singular
and
extraordinary
in
me
,
although
I
ow
him
extream
acknowledgements
for
his
infinite
mercies
.
I
beseech
you
believe
,
that
although
I
am
most
imperfect
,
and
a
great
sinner
,
if
yet
you
do
me
the
honour
and
favour
to
send
me
a
word
of
what
you
know
to
be
necessary
for
me
,
I
hope
,
with
Gods
help
,
I
shall
profit
thereby
:
I
pant
not
after
any
thing
,
but
to
finde
God
,
and
Jesus
Christ
,
with
as
much
simplicity
,
as
verity
:
I
pretend
to
nothing
in
this
world
,
but
this
,
and
out
of
this
I
desire
nothing
.
It
is
true
,
that
I
have
received
this
morning
a
grand
favour
,
in
the
weditation
on
the
subjection
and
dependency
which
the
son
of
God
was
pleased
to
render
to
S.
to
whom
he
was
subject
and
obedient
in
all
things
as
a
childe
to
his
Father
.
Oh
what
an
honour
and
grace
was
it
to
this
Saint
!
but
Oh
,
what
a
vertue
and
self-annihilation
in
,
Jesus
Christ
!
that
the
Son
of
God
,
being
equal
to
his
Father
,
should
be
subject
to
a
creature
,
and
submit
to
a
poor
Carpenter
,
as
if
he
had
not
known
how
to
demean
himself
?
I
am
given
to
understand
,
how
by
this
example
of
the
Son
of
God
,
we
are
highly
instructed
(
and
after
a
manner
worthy
such
a
Master
)
concerning
the
dependance
which
the
Creatures
ought
to
have
upon
God
,
and
concerning
the
strict
obligation
which
engageth
us
to
submit
to
the
Soveraign
power
which
he
hath
over
us
;
and
to
the
direction
of
men
,
in
such
sort
,
that
our
heart
may
not
have
repose
but
in
this
subjection
,
united
to
that
which
Christ
Jesus
renders
to
a
Creature
:
O
how
profound
is
this
mysterie
,
and
how
it
teacheth
me
!
a
Secret
God
One
time
,
being
in
the
street
,
where
coaches
passed
to
and
fro
,
and
not
knowing
whether
I
ought
or
no
,
look
on
them
that
were
in
them
(
because
it
was
in
a
place
of
my
acquaintance
)
and
whether
this
would
not
give
some
occasion
of
talk
,
to
see
that
I
went
in
that
manner
on
,
not
looking
at
all
aside
;
I
had
on
a
sudden
upon
my
spirit
,
but
after
a
manner
that
I
cannot
doubt
but
it
was
of
God
,
These
two
words
gave
me
so
great
light
and
force
,
that
I
dwelt
more
than
eight
upon
this
Contemplation
,
That
herein
consists
the
greatest
aids
of
the
life
spiritual
,
and
I
have
it
daily
for
a
ground
.
It
is
certain
,
that
since
the
greatest
part
of
our
evils
and
imperfections
come
from
a
desire
to
be
seen
,
and
to
see
,
this
amusement
must
have
in
it
great
venome
against
the
advancement
of
a
soul
,
although
she
often
perceives
not
the
damage
,
nor
feels
the
hurt
that
comes
from
it
.
That
which
defiles
our
actions
of
Piety
,
is
,
that
self-love
makes
one
glad
when
they
are
known
and
observed
;
men
shew
always
the
most
fair
,
and
hide
the
foul
,
and
insid●
;
and
all
the
outside
is
so
composed
,
that
the
minde
is
often
more
taken
up
about
that
,
than
about
God
:
And
very
few
there
are
,
that
have
not
a
great
part
in
this
vain
eying
and
regard
,
passive
and
active
,
of
the
creatures
.
O
how
these
words
wrought
in
me
a
great
separation
from
the
world
!
what
purgation
and
,
and
what
purity
is
it
,
to
be
upon
the
earth
,
and
there
see
nought
but
God!
O
how
(
undoubtedly
)
such
a
one
would
live
,
as
if
he
were
not
known
,
without
caring
what
the
world
says
or
thinks
,
without
desire
of
taking
or
receiving
any
part
there
,
of
knowing
or
being
known
of
any
,
neither
by
name
,
livery
or
visage
,
but
according
as
our
Lord
did
:
How
one
would
march
naked
,
pure
,
and
free
of
spirit
:
I
was
then
in
t
he
midst
of
the
streets
,
and
of
noise
among
crouding
and
justling
,
in
such
tranquillity
,
so
united
to
God
,
and
so
much
taken
up
by
him
,
as
if
I
had
been
in
a
desart
;
and
since
that
time
I
go
thus
through
the
streets
,
yet
with
liberty
to
look
upon
what
I
should
see
,
but
without
being
fixt
to
it
.
And
these
words
are
again
sent
into
my
spirit
in
necessary
occurrences
,
and
they
keep
and
conserve
me
in
God
,
I
am
for
all
that
very
unfaithful
to
this
Grace
,
but
the
centre
and
the
ground
of
it
is
not
blotted
out
of
me
,
and
this
renders
me
more
culpable
,
Let
us
encourage
our selves
,
to
lead
this
life
unknown
,
and
wholy
hid
from
men
,
but
most
known
to
&
intimate
with
God
,
divesting
our selves
,
&
chasing
out
of
our
mind
,
all
those
many
superfluities
,
and
those
many
amusements
,
which
bring
with
them
so
great
a
damage
,
that
they
take
up
our
mindes
,
instead
of
God
:
so
that
when
I
consider
that
,
which
thwarts
and
cuts
into
so
many
pieces
,
this
holy
,
this
sweet
,
and
amiable
union
,
which
we
should
have
continually
with
God
,
it
appears
that
it
is
onely
a
Monsieur
,
a
Madam
,
a
complement
,
and
talking
;
indeed
a
meer
foolery
,
which
notwithstanding
doth
ravish
and
wrest
from
us
the
time
that
is
so
precious
and
the
fellowship
that
is
so
holy
and
so
desireable
:
Let
us
quit
this
,
I
pray
you
,
and
learn
to
court
it
with
our
own
Master
,
let
us
well
understand
our
part
,
our
own
world
(
as
we
here
phrase
it
)
not
that
world
,
I
mean
,
which
we
do
renounce
,
but
that
wherein
the
children
of
God
do
their
duties
to
their
Father
.
Being
,
saith
he
,
in
the
moneth
of
in
a
Chappel
,
richly
Wainscoted
,
and
adorned
with
very
excellent
Sculpture
,
and
with
Imagery
,
I
beheld
it
with
some
attention
,
having
had
some
skill
in
these
things
,
and
saw
the
bundels
of
flowers
diluces
,
and
of
flowers
in
form
of
borders
,
and
of
very
curious
workmanship
;
it
was
on
a
sudden
put
into
my
minde
,
And
I
perceived
,
that
indeed
all
these
,
and
those
flowers
themselves
(
and
not
in
picture
)
would
not
have
taken
me
up
;
and
all
the
ornaments
which
Architecture
and
Art
inventeth
,
are
but
things
most
mean
and
low
,
running
in
a
manner
onely
upon
Flowers
,
Fruits
,
Branches
,
Harpies
,
and
Chymaera's
,
part
whereof
are
in
their
very
being
but
things
common
and
vile
,
and
part
of
them
meerly
imaginary
;
and
yet
man
(
who
croucheth
to
every
thing
)
renders
himself
amorous
,
and
a
slave
of
them
;
no
otherwise
,
than
as
if
a
good
workman
,
should
stand
to
copy
out
,
and
counterfeit
some
trifles
and
sopperies
.
I
considered
by
this
sight
,
how
poor
man
was
,
to
be
cheated
,
amused
,
and
diverted
from
his
Soveraign
good
:
And
since
that
time
,
I
could
make
no
more
stand
to
consider
any
of
these
things
;
and
if
I
did
it
,
I
should
reproach
my self
for
it
;
as
no
sooner
seeing
them
in
Churches
,
or
elsewhere
,
but
this
is
presently
put
upon
my
spirit
,
I
shall
tell
you
,
that
seeing
we
are
not
Christians
,
but
by
the
tie
,
the
dependence
,
and
the
life
,
we
have
of
Jesus
Christ
,
I
wonder
how
it
comes
about
,
that
a
thing
so
little
as
man
,
drawn
out
of
nothing
in
his
first
original
,
infected
with
his
first
Parents
sin
,
and
the
addition
of
his
own
,
raised
to
so
high
a
degree
of
honour
,
as
the
alliance
of
Christianity
gives
him
,
in
being
one
onely
Christ
with
the
Son
of
God
,
in
being
his
brother
,
and
a
co-heir
with
him
in
the
life
to
come
:
I
wonder
,
I
say
,
how
,
after
such
admirable
Prerogatives
,
man
can
esteem
the
world
,
and
make
any
account
of
its
vanities
?
Shall
he
have
his
heart
here
,
and
be
a
man
of
this
world
,
after
these
considerations
?
The
things
of
the
earth
,
whereof
death
also
will
quite
strip
us
,
and
for
ever
,
shall
they
fill
our
hearts
,
in
that
little
time
we
have
to
be
here
,
to
work
out
our
salvation
,
to
obtain
the
treasures
prepared
for
us
,
and
to
render
thanks
to
God
for
his
mercies
?
should
we
not
make
appear
to
God
and
men
,
a
faith
that
is
altogether
lively
,
in
quitting
freely
the
things
of
this
world
,
its
honours
,
false
,
or
at
least
not
profitable
,
its
establishments
perishable
,
its
opinions
extravagant
,
and
all
that
,
which
will
pass
away
like
a
dream
?
even
as
we
see
our
great
Grandfathers
are
gone
,
and
there
is
no
more
memory
of
them
,
their
risings
and
settings
,
their
contentments
and
displeasures
,
which
did
stick
so
close
to
their
hearts
,
and
which
they
had
so
much
pain
to
accommodate
to
the
Law
of
Jesus
Christ
,
and
to
the
genius
of
their
times
,
all
this
is
vanished
away
.
Is
it
not
true
,
that
we
have
cause
to
think
them
to
have
been
out
of
their
wits
,
if
they
considered
any
other
thing
but
God
in
their
ways
?
The
same
thing
will
happen
to
us
,
each
thing
will
pass
away
,
and
God
alone
will
abide
:
O
how
good
it
is
to
be
fastned
to
him
alone
?
Courage
,
all
is
well
,
we
must
dye
to
the
world
,
and
search
out
the
obstacles
,
that
it
brings
to
our
perfections
,
to
condemn
them
;
and
to
live
in
the
world
(
in
the
Apostles
sense
)
as
not
living
there
at
all
;
possessing
it
,
as
not
possessing
it
all
:
Let
us
drive
stoutly
out
of
our
mindes
the
complacence
and
affection
to
our
brave
houses
;
let
us
ruine
the
delights
of
our
gardens
,
let
us
burn
our
Groves
,
let
us
banish
these
vain
images
which
we
have
of
our
children
,
hiding
secretly
in
the
love
of
them
,
that
which
is
but
indeed
our
own
self-love
(
though
we
seem
dead
to
it
)
and
it
makes
us
desire
,
esteem
,
and
approve
in
their
persons
,
that
which
we
condemn
in
our selves
;
to
wit
,
the
luster
and
glittering
of
the
world
.
I
know
there
is
a
difference
of
conditions
,
but
all
ought
to
reject
these
entailments
(
as
men
account
them
)
upon
great
birth
and
noble
blood
:
I
mean
,
these
principles
of
aspiring
to
the
highest
,
and
entertaining
no
sufferings
:
such
principles
as
these
,
our
children
carry
from
that
birth
we
give
them
;
but
it
behoveth
,
that
the
second
birth
,
which
we
procure
them
from
Jesus
Christ
,
do
repair
these
disorders
:
Let
us
take
from
them
this
vanity
of
minde
,
all
these
stately
demeanors
,
and
the
examples
of
these
Grandees
in
story
,
whose
punishments
are
as
eminent
in
hell
,
as
their
presumption
hath
been
glittering
on
the
earth
;
for
otherwise
it
will
be
found
,
we
shall
conduct
them
to
no
better
end
.
My
design
,
said
he
,
was
not
that
you
should
demolish
your
walls
,
and
let
run
into
a
rude
wilderness
your
gardens
,
to
be
more
at
liberty
for
God
:
I
understand
my
speech
,
of
the
disingagements
and
the
ruines
which
must
be
made
in
our
mindes
,
and
not
be
executed
on
things
insensible
,
and
which
have
no
worth
in
them
,
but
in
form
.
When
I
say
,
we
must
set
all
on
fire
,
my
thoughts
were
of
following
that
admirable
spirit
of
the
Apostle
,
who
would
that
we
have
poverty
among
our
riches
,
and
divestment
in
the
midst
of
our
possessions
;
he
means
,
that
our
spirits
be
truly
purified
and
separated
from
the
creatures
,
which
we
really
make
our
solace
;
because
a
Christian
that
tends
to
perfection
,
doth
himself
great
wrong
in
dwelling
upon
these
amusements
,
and
entertaining
in
his
heart
other
inclinations
than
those
of
Jesus
Christ
,
who
saw
all
the
world
without
destroying
it
;
but
withal
,
without
applying
himself
to
it
;
the
business
of
his
Father
,
and
his
glory
,
was
his
life
;
the
windings
of
rivers
,
and
the
ornaments
of
fields
,
were
to
him
but
things
of
feeble
consideration
,
and
not
matters
of
imployment
.
Hither
it
is
that
I
would
have
one
come
,
and
desire
no
more
.
de
Renty
God
hath
his
ends
through
all
these
contrarieties
;
which
is
,
that
those
that
are
his
,
should
be
yet
more
his
,
in
affiance
,
in
recumbency
,
in
life
,
and
in
all
:
The
bruite
of
the
world
,
and
its
turning
upside
down
,
are
advantageous
,
to
make
known
its
spirit
,
its
confusion
,
its
vanity
,
to
them
that
are
not
of
it
;
and
who
being
in
the
spirit
of
death
,
wait
for
nothing
more
there
,
than
for
death
;
bringing
forth
in
the
mean
while
,
the
effects
of
life
eternal
,
which
is
a
kinde
of
advancement
out
of
mortality
,
whilst
we
are
in
it
.
de
Renty
My
pains
are
great
,
even
to
crying
out
,
and
swouning
;
but
although
I
feel
them
in
the
greatest
extremity
,
yet
through
Gods
grace
,
I
yeild
not
up
my self
to
them
,
but
to
him
.
But
by
the
mercy
of
God
,
I
was
no
more
moved
thereat
,
than
you
see
me
now
,
although
the
pains
that
surprized
me
were
very
sharp
.
de
Renty
de
Renty
de
Renty
Praying
to
God
before
the
Holy
Sacrament
(
saith
he
,
in
a
memorial
under
his
own
hand
)
a
poor
man
came
to
me
to
beg
an
Alms
,
at
that
time
I
applied
my self
to
recollection
,
when
men
use
to
receive
such
interruptions
with
some
contradiction
;
and
the
word
it self
implies
as
much
;
for
we
call
it
,
It
was
given
mee
in
this
instant
to
understand
,
that
if
we
were
well
enlightned
,
we
should
not
count
our selves
importuned
,
or
hindred
by
any
person
or
thing
;
because
we
should
regard
the
order
of
God
,
conducting
all
things
to
our
advantage
;
that
as
it
behoves
us
to
suffer
with
patience
the
distractions
interior
,
so
ought
we
to
endure
the
exterior
,
and
that
the
vexation
,
unquietness
,
and
impatience
,
which
these
little
accidents
cause
in
us
,
come
from
our
ignorance
and
immortification
.
It
is
not
for
all
that
though
,
but
we
may
shun
the
occasions
of
trouble
:
but
when
they
come
,
we
must
look
upon
them
as
ordered
by
God
,
receive
and
bear
them
with
all
sweetness
,
humility
and
reverence
;
and
so
though
they
come
and
interrupt
us
,
the
order
of
God
is
not
interrupted
in
us
,
but
we
follow
it
;
and
this
indeed
is
the
treasure
,
and
the
great
secret
of
the
life
spiritual
,
and
(
I
may
so
say
)
a
Paradise
upon
earth
.
True
it
is
,
that
nothing
troubles
us
,
but
through
our
own
fault
,
and
all
the
vexations
which
we
either
resent
within
,
or
vent
outwardly
,
when
any
one
crosses
,
hinders
or
diverts
us
from
doing
any
thing
,
have
no
other
source
,
but
the
disorders
of
our
too
much
engaged
spirits
.
And
for
the
better
stifling
of
these
passionate
risings
,
and
keeping
our
hearts
in
peace
,
we
must
mark
this
well
:
that
if
one
hinders
us
from
doing
one
good
work
,
he
thereby
gives
us
the
means
of
practising
another
.
A
man
(
suppose
)
draws
you
away
from
prayer
,
or
from
reading
,
hinders
you
from
the
executing
of
some
good
design
you
had
for
your
neighbour
:
It
is
true
,
but
he
puts
you
withal
into
a
condition
of
exercising
patience
,
which
in
this
conjuncture
,
will
be
better
,
more
acceptable
to
God
,
and
more
efficacious
to
perfectionate
you
,
than
all
those
other
actions
;
for
in
them
there
was
found
your
own
will
,
but
in
these
,
there
comes
in
a
Self-abnegation
,
wherein
consists
your
perfection
:
for
the
fulness
of
God
is
not
;
but
in
the
emptiness
of
the
creature
.
de
Renty
God
fashions
you
for
himself
,
uniting
you
here
below
to
Jesus
Christs
sufferings
:
Ah!
what
a
great
favour
is
it
!
and
greater
than
we
are
aware
of
.
What
a
blessing
is
it
that
God
makes
you
suffer
?
whilst
the
world
laughs
!
if
those
of
the
contrary
part
had
(
as
you
have
)
their
eyes
open
,
they
would
see
a
ravishing
wonder
;
your self
to
laugh
in
suffering
,
and
themselves
to
weep
for
not
suffering
:
you
have
a
favour
which
they
contemn
,
because
they
understand
it
not
,
and
poor
miserable
men
,
they
count
themselves
happy
,
in
what
is
their
misery
.
either
to
dye
,
or
to
suffer
.
I
see
that
in
a
manner
,
every
thing
is
unprofitable
in
this
life
,
but
to
suffer
;
every
consolation
,
every
sweetness
and
joy
,
is
an
overhasty
scisure
of
the
recompence
which
is
not
due
to
Criminals
,
who
sojourn
not
in
this
world
,
but
to
be
purged
,
and
do
penance
there
;
to
which
business
,
pleasures
and
joys
bring
some
allay
,
and
hinder
,
without
doubt
,
the
penance
from
being
so
full
,
and
the
soul
from
arriving
to
a
higher
degree
of
perfection
:
Not
that
I
deny
,
but
that
these
things
may
sometimes
be
necessary
,
in
regard
of
our
infirmity
;
which
hath
need
to
be
upheld
,
for
the
better
enduring
its
mortifications
.
I
have
always
before
my
eyes
my
feebleness
,
and
that
little
which
I
render
to
God
for
his
favours
,
which
keeps
me
in
abnegation
;
but
yet
with
great
affiance
,
which
carries
me
to
love
,
to
docility
,
and
to
obedience
;
but
love
and
obedience
that
inflames
me
more
to
suffer
with
our
Lord
:
This
is
my
greatest
longing
and
attractive
;
because
in
every
other
thing
we
are
receivers
from
God
;
but
in
this
here
(
although
we
receive
the
grace
to
suffer
)
yet
the
suffering
is
that
which
we
can
properly
give
to
God
,
and
is
the
greatest
gage
and
proof
of
our
love
.
But
it
is
not
for
all
this
reasoning
aforesaid
;
that
I
should
chuse
and
bring
sufferings
upon
me
,
but
I
feel
my self
inwardly
inclined
towards
it
,
and
stay
there
.
It
is
about
a
fortnight
since
that
I
had
such
a
kinde
of
acknowledgement
,
and
such
a
love
to
our
Lord
,
suffering
and
offering
himself
to
God
his
Father
,
and
knitting
us
to
himself
to
be
but
one
and
the
same
sacrifice
,
that
I
felt
my self
in
an
instant
,
and
during
that
instant
,
glued
to
the
Cross
by
such
an
alliance
of
love
,
as
is
inexplicable
,
and
whereof
the
vertve
continues
with
me
to
this
present
.
It
is
come
into
my
minde
,
that
the
way
to
make
me
keep
a
hard
would
be
to
set
me
at
a
good
Table
,
and
oblige
me
to
make
good
chear
,
to
cast
me
among
the
brave
companions
of
the
world
,
to
prattle
and
laugh
,
and
to
lead
me
into
walks
,
and
meetings
of
young
gallantry
;
for
this
would
be
to
me
a
little
hell
;
yea
(
without
speaking
of
the
sin
that
might
be
there
)
the
very
thought
of
it
,
makes
me
tremble
;
for
it
is
true
,
that
Solitude
,
fastings
,
and
other
things
,
which
are
called
Penances
,
are
my
attractives
or
allurements
.
Although
I
have
this
feeling
,
I
cease
not
to
know
what
I
am
,
and
in
all
my
inclinations
and
desires
,
I
take
heed
not
to
beg
to
suffer
the
least
thing
;
and
when
I
happen
to
do
it
of
my self
,
I
revoke
it
afterwards
,
as
having
done
foolishly
:
I
have
too
much
experienc
of
my
weakness
;
I
give
my self
onely
to
my
God
,
for
every
thing
he
desires
of
me
,
from
the
top
of
heaven
,
even
to
the
bottom
of
hell
;
by
his
order
I
will
all
,
with
him
I
can
do
all
,
and
that
which
is
ordered
by
him
,
is
always
accompanied
with
his
grace
.
I
beseech
our
Lord
to
fortifie
you
more
and
more
with
his
graces
;
and
that
the
more
he
imprints
in
you
the
characters
of
his
passion
,
the
more
he
may
make
you
grow
in
the
holy
use
of
your
suffering
to
accomplish
perfectly
in
your
person
,
what
S.
I
assure
you
,
it
is
a
great
shame
to
a
Christian
,
to
pass
his
days
in
this
world
,
more
at
ease
,
than
Jesus
Christ
here
passed
his
.
Ah!
had
we
but
a
little
faith
,
what
repose
could
we
take
out
of
the
Cross
.
But
if
all
have
not
this
grace
,
how
much
ought
they
to
whom
it
is
given
,
to
cherish
it
,
seeing
it
is
a
mark
of
the
high
degree
of
glory
,
that
they
one
day
shall
possess
:
for
who
doubts
,
but
that
in
proportion
,
as
we
shall
be
conformed
to
the
death
of
the
Son
of
God
,
and
to
his
pain
,
we
shall
in
the
same
degree
,
be
to
his
glory
,
and
receive
the
recompence
thereof
in
bliss
.
But
the
beauty
of
suffering
is
in
the
interior
,
in
the
holy
dispositions
of
Jesus
Christ
,
who
is
(
and
it
is
a
thing
to
be
well
marked
,
and
always
studied
)
as
well
the
model
as
the
head
of
all
sufferers
.
It
is
a
great
favour
to
suffer
:
All
the
worlds
deceiv'd
,
supposing
this
a
common
favour
,
it
is
very
rare
:
It
is
true
,
we
may
say
that
many
suffer
,
but
of
them
there
are
very
few
,
that
suffer
in
the
dispositions
of
Jesus
Christ
:
very
few
,
which
suffer
with
a
perfect
resignment
to
what
God
ordains
concerning
them
;
very
few
,
without
some
inquietude
,
and
dwelling
in
their
thoughts
upon
their
pressures
;
few
that
give
up
all
events
to
the
conduct
of
God
,
without
making
reflection
thereupon
,
for
to
employ
themselves
entirely
in
his
praise
,
and
to
give
way
,
by
our
acquiescence
and
submission
,
for
him
to
exercise
all
his
rights
and
power
over
us
.
Few
understand
the
secret
of
Christianity
;
many
call
themselves
Christians
,
and
few
have
the
spirit
thereof
:
many
in
their
prayers
and
ordinary
affairs
,
look
up
to
heaven
;
but
in
their
important
actions
,
they
are
children
of
nature
,
not
looking
,
but
on
the
earth
,
whence
if
they
life
up
their
eyes
to
heaven
,
it
is
but
to
complain
,
and
pray
him
to
condescend
to
their
desires
,
and
not
to
shew
their
acceptance
of
his
:
They
give
some
small
things
to
God
,
but
will
retain
those
which
their
love
ties
them
to
;
and
if
he
separate
them
from
them
,
it
is
a
violence
,
and
a
dismembring
which
he
must
make
,
and
to
which
they
cannot
consent
;
as
though
the
life
of
Christians
were
not
a
life
of
sacrifice
,
and
an
Imitation
of
Jesus
Christ
crucified
.
God
,
who
knows
our
wretchedness
,
takes
from
us
,
for
our
greater
good
,
the
cause
of
our
evil
,
a
Parent
,
a
Childe
,
a
Husband
,
that
he
may
by
another
evil
,
which
is
affliction
,
draw
us
to
himself
,
and
make
us
see
,
that
all
these
alliances
;
and
connexions
to
whatsoever
it
be
,
that
separates
us
from
him
,
are
so
many
obstacles
,
of
so
great
importance
,
that
one
day
,
in
the
face
of
all
the
creatures
,
we
shall
confess
,
that
the
greatest
mercy
that
he
ever
did
us
,
was
to
free
us
of
them
:
It
is
a
wormwood-bitter
onely
to
the
mouth
and
taste
,
but
wholesome
to
the
heart
;
kills
the
old
to
make
alive
in
us
Jesus
Christ
;
it
is
a
great
winter
,
which
is
the
assurance
of
the
beauty
of
the
other
seasons
:
But
we
must
beware
,
that
what
is
given
us
out
of
favour
,
we
take
not
as
a
thing
by
chance
,
or
a
misfortune
;
for
this
would
be
to
turn
the
remedy
into
poyson
,
and
to
receive
the
grace
to
chase
it
away
.
Let
us
enter
into
the
holy
and
adorable
disposition
,
which
was
always
in
Jesus
Christ
,
to
suffer
willingly
,
for
the
honour
of
his
Father
,
and
for
our
salvation
.
Is
not
this
a
strange
thing
,
that
men
knowing
,
that
the
way
which
Jesus
Christ
past
thorow
to
glory
,
was
ignominy
,
pain
,
and
the
cross
,
yet
they
that
call
themselves
his
disciples
and
followers
,
should
expect
,
and
beg
of
him
for
themselves
another
way
to
walk
in
?
Is
the
Disciple
greater
than
the
Master
?
and
if
the
head
willingly
passed
that
way
,
what
remains
for
the
members
?
ought
not
they
to
follow
him
?
Let
us
therefore
go
after
him
,
and
suffer
after
his
model
:
Blessed
be
sickness
,
the
loss
of
honour
,
of
riches
,
of
goods
,
and
of
the
nearest
things
,
and
the
separation
from
all
creatures
,
which
hold
us
bowed
towards
the
earth
,
if
it
set
us
streight
,
and
make
us
lift
up
our
eyes
to
heaven
,
and
to
enter
into
the
designs
that
God
hath
over
us
:
Blessed
be
the
plague
,
the
war
,
and
the
famine
,
and
generally
all
the
scourges
of
God
,
which
produce
these
effects
of
grace
and
salvation
in
us
.
While
we
live
here
,
it
is
our
season
of
patience
,
where
faith
and
hope
would
be
unprofitable
,
if
all
were
clear
,
and
nothing
caused
us
to
suffer
:
It
is
in
the
obscurity
of
this
desertion
,
and
in
all
the
sorts
of
tryals
,
as
well
from
within
as
without
,
that
those
vertues
are
established
in
our
souls
,
and
that
they
make
us
hope
wall
of
our
salvation
.
de
Renty
No
,
because
I
so
much
adore
the
order
of
God
over
me
,
that
I
cannot
be
afflicted
at
that
which
he
permits
to
befal
me
:
I
am
a
great
sinner
,
and
therefore
not
onely
my
mother
,
but
all
the
world
have
just
cause
to
take
part
against
me
.
Te
Demm
It
is
now
the
time
to
say
the
said
he
,
since
you
had
the
goodness
to
promise
it
:
And
may
I
be
so
bold
,
as
to
desire
to
say
it
with
you
?
O
what
a
great
and
wise
God
have
we
!
who
knows
well
how
to
do
all
things
as
they
ought
,
and
when
they
ought
;
not
according
to
our
precipitations
,
but
to
his
order
,
which
is
our
Sanctification
.
It
s
well
,
though
nothing
be
done
,
yet
it
was
very
meet
to
say
the
to
render
thanks
to
God
,
for
that
he
hath
done
his
own
will
,
and
not
that
of
a
finner
,
unworthy
to
be
heard
or
regarded
.
de
Renty
de
Renty
He
that
is
baptized
(
said
he
)
ought
to
be
dead
in
Jesus
Christ
,
and
to
lead
a
life
of
suffering
,
and
in
this
suffering
,
of
application
to
God
,
let
us
march
on
to
our
end
,
which
is
sacrifice
in
each
thing
,
in
the
manner
that
God
will
have
it
,
upon
the
bottom
of
obedience
to
his
orders
,
and
of
the
annthilation
of
our selves
,
in
the
imitation
,
and
by
the
Spirit
of
Jesus
Christ
:
Let
us
be
so
many
Victims
,
entertained
,
and
taken
up
with
these
Interior
dispositions
and
sentiments
,
that
Christ
had
from
his
conception
to
his
death
,
and
to
the
last
period
of
his
offering
up
.
Sacrifice
,
Vnion
Thou
hast
made
us
Kings
and
Priests
,
and
we
shall
reign
upon
the
earth
:
The
Kingdom
of
Heaven
suffers
violence
,
and
the
violent
take
it
by
force
.
O
how
much
to
be
feared
is
it
,
that
we
cheat
our selves
with
the
name
and
the
appearances
of
devotion
,
relying
much
on
our
exercises
of
piety
;
which
,
it
may
be
,
are
barely
performed
,
and
in
speculation
onely
,
never
coming
to
the
practise
,
nor
to
the
conquest
over
our selves
.
In
the
morning
we
worship
Jesus
Christ
,
as
our
Master
and
Director
,
and
yet
our
life
all
the
day
following
,
is
not
directed
by
him
;
we
look
upon
him
as
our
pattern
,
and
imitate
him
not
;
we
take
him
for
our
rule
and
guide
of
our
affections
,
and
yet
we
do
not
sacrifice
to
him
our
appetites
;
we
make
him
the
model
of
our
conversation
,
which
yet
is
never
the
more
holy
;
we
promise
him
to
labour
and
get
above
our selves
,
but
it
s
no
more
than
in
imagination
.
The
truth
is
,
that
if
we
know
not
our
devotion
,
rather
by
the
violence
and
enforcement
we
make
upon
our selves
,
and
the
amendment
of
our
manners
,
than
by
the
multiplication
and
simple
usage
of
spiritual
exercises
,
it
is
to
be
feared
they
will
be
rather
practises
of
Condemnation
,
than
of
Sanctification
.
For
after
all
to
what
purpose
all
this
,
if
the
work
follow
not
?
if
we
change
not
our selves
,
and
destroy
not
that
which
is
vitious
in
our
nature
?
It
is
no
otherwise
,
but
as
if
a
builder
should
pile
together
many
materials
towards
making
of
a
brave
Edifice
,
and
yet
never
begin
it
.
And
yet
we
see
the
work
of
Jesus
Christ
is
almost
reduced
to
this
pass
,
amongst
the
spiritual
persons
of
these
times
.
For
the
person
whom
you
know
,
and
the
visit
I
made
him
,
it
is
God
and
your
direction
that
hath
done
all
:
I
am
so
much
afraid
to
mingle
therein
any
thing
of
mine
,
that
going
to
the
place
where
he
is
,
yet
I
perceive
I
shall
not
visit
him
,
without
a
new
order
from
you
,
or
that
he
much
desire
it
:
I
have
not
since
that
time
,
so
much
as
sent
any
commendations
to
him
,
considering
with
my self
,
that
we
must
keep
the
man
reserved
,
and
in
great
sobriety
:
And
I
thought
it
fit
to
cast
all
this
upon
you
,
as
my
guide
in
the
business
.
Ha
Father
,
the
great
imperfection
of
souls
,
is
the
not
waiting
enough
on
God
,
the
natural
disposition
strugling
,
and
not
brought
into
subjection
,
comes
in
with
fine
pretexts
,
and
thinks
to
do
wonders
;
and
in
the
mean
while
it
is
that
which
sullies
the
purity
of
the
Soul
,
that
which
troubles
its
silence
,
and
turns
aside
its
sight
from
Faith
,
from
Affiance
,
and
from
Love
;
whence
it
hapneth
,
that
the
Father
of
Lights
expresseth
not
in
us
his
Eternall
Word
,
nor
produceth
in
us
his
Spirit
of
Love
.
The
Incarnation
hath
merited
all
,
not
onely
for
the
abolition
of
our
faults
,
but
also
for
all
the
dispositions
of
grace
,
whereunto
Jesus
Christ
is
minded
to
●ssociate
us
;
of
which
this
is
the
principal
(
and
was
in
him
so
far
as
he
was
man
)
to
do
nothing
our selves
,
but
to
speak
and
act
according
as
we
receive
,
knowing
that
we
alone
are
not
to
do
the
work
;
but
that
the
holy
Spirit
,
which
is
the
Spirit
of
Jesus
,
and
which
governed
him
in
all
his
ways
,
is
within
us
;
which
would
stamp
upon
us
his
impressions
,
and
give
us
the
life
,
the
life
real
and
experimental
of
our
faith
,
if
ballasted
and
held
back
by
patience
,
we
would
but
wait
his
operation
.
This
is
it
in
which
I
feel
my
infirmity
,
and
yet
whither
I
finde
a
great
attractive
:
I
see
that
which
I
cannot
utter
,
for
I
possess
that
which
I
cannot
express
:
And
the
cause
(
Father
)
why
I
am
so
brief
,
comes
both
from
the
imperfection
of
my
natural
disposition
,
and
from
ignorance
,
as
also
from
a
great
largeness
of
the
Divine
goodness
,
which
works
in
me
that
which
I
cannot
utter
.
The
effect
of
this
is
,
a
fulness
and
a
satiating
of
the
truth
and
clearness
of
the
magnificence
of
God
,
of
the
greatness
of
Jesus
Christ
,
and
of
the
riches
which
we
have
in
him
;
of
the
most
Holy
Virgin
,
and
of
the
Saints
;
one
sees
here
all
praise
and
adoration
,
and
comtemplates
them
within
.
I
tell
you
here
of
many
things
me
seems
,
and
yet
all
this
is
done
with
one
draught
so
simple
and
so
strong
in
the
superiour
part
of
the
Spirit
,
that
I
am
nothing
diverted
from
it
by
any
exteriour
employments
:
I
see
all
,
I
understand
all
,
and
I
do
(
though
it
be
ill
)
all
,
that
I
have
to
do
.
This
is
that
I
present
you
with
,
to
receive
therein
from
you
instruction
and
correction
.
I
sigh
after
my
Saviour
Jesus
,
desiring
to
imitate
and
follow
him
whither
he
pleaseth
:
I
beseech
you
by
your
prayers
,
obtain
for
me
his
Spirit
,
to
be
my
life
,
my
whole
life
:
sigh
and
groan
for
me
after
my
God
,
that
I
may
be
wholly
for
him
,
in
his
Son
,
that
I
may
follow
him
,
and
not
live
,
but
by
his
Spirit
.
I
have
so
great
a
view
of
the
love
,
and
of
all
the
effects
of
the
love
of
the
most
Holy
Soul
of
our
Lord
,
that
this
Interior
,
so
full
of
clemency
,
bounty
,
and
charity
,
makes
me
conceive
far
otherwise
than
ever
,
how
that
we
ought
to
live
of
this
Divine
love
,
even
in
our
deportment
towards
men
,
and
how
in
effect
,
it
is
in
him
,
that
the
whole
Law
is
accomplished
in
its
perfection
.
Since
God
hath
manifested
himself
to
us
by
his
Son
,
and
hath
admitted
us
,
through
him
,
into
his
grace
,
and
made
us
partakers
of
all
his
actions
,
both
towards
God
and
man
,
how
can
we
ever
quit
this
his
dear
Son
?
He
that
hath
Jesus
Christ
,
hath
a
key
which
opens
many
doors
,
it
discovers
unto
us
large
prospects
,
it
enricheth
us
with
vast
treasures
,
and
breaks
open
the
prison
of
mans
heart
,
as
being
too
strait
for
his
Immensities
.
Ah
,
how
good
is
that
desart
!
when
after
Baptism
we
are
conducted
thither
with
our
Lord
,
by
the
Spirit
of
God
:
Thence
it
was
that
our
Saviour
came
out
to
converse
with
men
,
to
teach
them
,
and
work
their
salvation
:
Since
therefore
we
,
together
with
him
,
make
up
but
one
Jesus
Christ
,
as
having
the
honour
to
be
his
members
,
we
should
live
his
life
,
take
on
us
his
Spirit
,
and
walk
in
his
steps
.
Thy
Commandment
David
,
is
exceeding
broad
primum
mobile
The
words
which
we
ought
chiefly
to
imprint
upon
our
hearts
,
are
those
of
mutual
love
,
which
our
Saviour
bequeathed
us
in
the
close
of
his
Testament
;
this
love
should
inspirit
all
Christians
,
to
perfect
them
in
one
,
and
cause
them
to
live
and
converse
together
as
brethren
and
children
,
yea
,
as
one
sole
childe
of
God
.
Charitas
patiens
est
:
benigna
est
:
Methinks
my
soul
is
all
Charity
,
and
I
am
not
able
to
express
with
what
ardency
and
strange
expansion
I
finde
my
heart
to
be
renewed
in
the
Divine
life
of
my
new
born
Saviour
,
burning
all
in
love
towards
mankinde
.
John
Baptist
Maundy
Thurday
Certainly
these
are
good
Christians
,
who
have
left
all
for
God
,
where
as
we
live
in
plenty
,
whilst
these
content
themselves
with
two
Crowns
a
moneth
,
having
parted
with
thousands
for
their
conscience
,
and
endure
with
patience
such
considerable
losses
:
O
Sir
,
Christianity
consists
not
in
words
or
shews
,
but
in
deeds
.
We
often
get
men
out
of
Prison
,
who
make
use
of
their
liberty
to
the
dishonor
of
God
,
and
their
own
destruction
,
for
whom
it
had
been
better
they
had
remained
in
durance
.
I
went
to
her
and
made
up
the
best
Medicine
I
had
,
yet
such
,
as
I
could
not
imagine
to
have
so
great
a
vertue
,
as
to
cure
that
disease
:
What
then
?
having
no
better
,
I
prayed
to
God
for
his
blessing
upon
that
,
if
it
might
be
for
his
glory
,
and
the
good
of
the
Patient
.
God
did
it
;
for
coming
to
visit
her
again
,
I
found
her
well
recovered
.
Yes
,
when
he
was
desired
it
;
for
these
being
poor
people
,
have
no
other
help
,
neither
have
I
any
better
remedies
:
I
know
my
Saviour
is
not
tyed
to
Medicines
;
we
must
have
faith
in
him
,
where
we
can
do
nothing
our selves
;
and
that
out
of
his
bounty
he
hath
bestowed
on
me
.
And
doth
not
he
work
miracles
for
us
every
day
?
My
Lady
Prioress
calls
that
a
miracle
,
which
our
Lord
hath
wrought
;
for
my
part
,
I
have
no
share
in
it
,
but
onely
by
bestowing
on
the
poor
such
as
I
have
,
make
what
you
please
of
it
;
all
my
reflection
thereupon
is
,
onely
to
return
praise
to
my
Saviour
Christ
when
the
cure
is
done
.
Burgundy
,
Picardy
,
Chartrain
The
M●ssion
was
begun
here
on
Whitsunday
,
a
day
that
bringeth
with
it
an
extraordinary
benediction
:
the
peoples
hearts
are
touched
with
great
sense
of
repentance
,
which
they
manifest
by
abundance
of
tears
:
Many
restitutions
and
reconciliations
are
made
,
common
and
publique
prayers
are
made
in
Families
,
swearing
and
cursing
are
redressed
.
And
this
Reformation
extends
it self
to
three
or
four
leagues
round
about
us
.
Amongst
many
others
,
there
came
a
young
maid
,
whose
life
had
been
very
v●cious
,
who
returned
home
a
real
Co●vert
,
giving
an
ample
testimony
of
her
repentance
,
relinquishing
her
former
acquaintance
:
Whereby
I
finde
,
that
this
was
the
very
end
;
for
which
my
Saviour
brought
me
hither
,
and
ingaged
my
abode
in
this
place
.
I
profess
they
proceed
from
that
excessive
joy
I
take
to
see
so
many
touched
with
remorse
,
evidencing
their
conversion
,
by
making
restitutions
,
by
being
reconciled
to
their
enemies
,
burning
their
idle
and
vain
books
,
●uitting
their
former
occasions
of
sin
,
commencing
a
life
altogether
new
.
I
have
sollicited
soveral
persons
,
to
joyn
in
setting
up
a
Massion
every
year
,
and
I
shall
go
my self
along
with
it
as
oft
as
I
can
,
to
serve
and
obey
your
orders
,
in
visiting
the
sick
,
and
giving
alms
to
the
needy
:
And
for
the
same
design
,
to
assemble
some
companies
of
people
whom
God
hath
wrought
upon
by
your
preaching
:
Since
God
gave
us
a
heart
thereto
,
we
have
brought
others
to
have
a
hand
in
it
;
and
my
Wife
,
with
two
others
,
bear
their
part
in
it
,
imitating
herein
St.
of
whom
St.
saith
,
that
they
followed
our
Saviour
and
his
Disciples
,
ministring
with
their
substance
,
for
the
preaching
of
the
Kingdom
of
God
.
We
shall
endeavour
to
perform
this
without
noise
or
shew
,
taking
a
private
lodging
apart
for
the
purpose
.
Be
pleased
(
my
dear
Father
)
to
be
our
Father
and
Guide
,
and
assist
us
in
if
you
can
,
to
break
the
bread
of
life
to
those
,
who
with
great
humility
desire
it
of
you
.
I
beg
of
your
Reverence
with
tears
,
to
give
ear
to
our
request
,
who
are
touched
with
the
necessities
of
our
poor
brethren
,
and
the
love
of
Christ
,
who
desires
to
unite
us
together
in
one
heart
,
even
his
own
;
that
therein
we
may
live
in
the
presence
of
God
.
My
dear
Father
,
I
commit
this
charge
to
your
care
,
it
being
onely
in
the
power
of
his
holy
Spirit
.
to
render
yours
,
and
the
endeavours
of
other
Fathers
successful
:
I
trust
he
will
hear
us
,
and
that
we
shall
see
abundance
of
his
mercies
.
I
attend
your
sense
,
both
for
the
thing
and
the
time
:
and
in
the
mean
time
,
you
may
,
if
you
please
,
keep
the
thing
secret
between
us
.
I
am
now
returned
from
where
my
journey
hath
been
full
of
imployment
,
in
helping
the
setting
up
of
several
companies
of
men
,
and
women
also
,
who
have
a
great
zeal
for
Gods
service
.
I
was
united
in
Spirit
to
you
on
Sunday
last
,
which
I
conceived
to
be
the
time
of
opening
your
Mission
.
If
you
think
I
may
be
any
way
useful
,
in
forming
some
little
body
of
Gentlemen
,
and
Societies
in
that
City
,
as
we
have
already
performed
in
little
Villages
and
Towns
,
I
most
humbly
intreat
you
to
believe
,
that
I
shall
imploy
my
utmost
in
it
,
though
haply
I
may
do
more
hurt
than
good
.
THe
first
and
most
important
obligation
,
for
the
conduct
of
a
family
,
is
good
example
;
without
which
,
the
blessing
of
God
cannot
be
expected
:
It
is
therefore
meet
,
that
all
the
Domesticks
,
from
the
highest
to
the
lowest
,
give
good
example
of
modesty
,
as
well
in
the
Church
as
in
their
particular
Places
and
Offices
,
that
by
the
excellent
harmony
of
their
outward
behaviour
,
it
may
appear
that
God
is
the
within
them
The
Lord
of
the
Mannor
ought
to
inform
himself
,
Whether
his
Judges
and
other
Subordinate
Officers
belonging
to
his
Courts
,
behave
themselves
well
in
their
places
:
and
he
ought
to
procure
for
this
information
,
and
redress
of
what
is
amiss
,
persons
of
known
ability
and
integrity
.
He
ought
to
examine
with
prudence
and
privacy
,
what
complaints
shall
be
made
by
the
people
,
of
injustice
or
bribery
.
Whether
they
observe
the
Rules
and
Laws
of
his
Court.
Whether
they
frequent
Taverns
on
Sundays
and
Holidays
,
or
in
time
of
Divine
Service
.
Whether
they
observe
the
Precepts
of
the
Church
,
in
forbearing
to
travel
and
work
on
those
days
,
without
real
necessity
.
Whether
they
punish
publique
crimes
;
as
,
Blasphemy
,
Usury
:
&c.
and
whether
the
Laws
be
put
in
execution
against
Drunkards
,
Fornicators
,
and
Oppressors
of
the
poor
:
Whether
they
banish
lewd
women
,
who
procure
manies
ruine
,
and
cause
so
much
mischief
:
Whether
there
be
any
such
Libertines
,
who
scoff
at
Religion
and
Priests
,
or
eat
flesh
on
days
prohibited
.
If
some
notoriously
wicked
person
be
found
in
the
Lordship
,
it
will
be
convenient
to
begin
with
him
,
if
it
may
be
;
that
the
rest
may
understand
,
that
no
quarter
is
to
be
given
to
vice
;
and
that
it
may
appear
to
all
the
world
,
with
what
firm
resolution
you
proceed
,
in
what
opposition
to
Libertines
:
There
is
need
of
zeal
and
severity
,
and
yet
withal
,
sometimes
of
Clemency
,
where
there
is
promise
of
amendment
,
with
appearance
of
repentance
.
A
Chief
Justice
may
upon
good
information
,
without
form
of
Process
,
commit
a
man
to
Prison
for
hours
,
with
bread
and
water
,
for
blasphemy
,
or
any
other
notorious
vice
:
and
afterward
admonish
him
,
that
if
he
continue
,
he
shall
be
proceeded
against
,
according
to
form
of
Law
.
Some
persons
are
reclaimed
sooner
by
a
mulct
of
the
purse
,
than
by
corporal
punishment
;
such
are
to
be
fined
without
rem●ssion
,
when
found
guilty
.
Scandalous
offenders
ought
to
be
deprived
of
the
priviledges
and
favours
of
the
Court
;
yea
,
and
are
to
be
burthened
in
taxes
,
and
other
cases
,
where
they
are
in
a
common
condition
with
their
neighbours
;
that
they
may
understand
thereby
,
that
they
speed
the
worse
for
their
v●cious
life
.
On
the
contrary
,
vertue
is
to
be
cherished
,
and
countenanced
with
priviledges
,
and
publique
favours
,
and
protection
.
Offices
ought
to
be
bestowed
that
thereby
fit
and
able
Officers
may
more
easily
be
chosen
,
and
be
prevented
from
the
least
pretence
of
Bribery
and
Injustice
.
Lords
should
give
good
example
,
by
refusing
presents
from
their
Tenants
(
for
freeing
such
from
common
services
)
or
from
those
who
have
business
depending
before
them
,
or
from
the
poor
;
shewing
themselves
disinterested
,
noble
and
uncorrupted
;
whereby
their
Authority
may
be
preserved
,
and
both
their
Officers
and
Tenants
kept
in
strict
obedience
and
respect
.
They
ought
to
recommend
it
to
the
Gentlemen
their
neighbours
,
and
observe
it
themselves
,
not
to
hunt
or
hawk
unseasonably
,
to
the
prejudice
of
poor
mens
corn
.
They
ought
not
to
introduce
any
such
custom
upon
Countrey
people
,
of
keeping
their
Hounds
.
That
Coney-warrens
be
not
maintained
or
erected
,
to
the
prejudice
of
their
Tenants
,
except
such
as
are
of
ancient
standing
.
They
are
to
take
care
,
that
the
rich
lay
not
the
burthen
upon
the
meaner
sort
.
That
their
Officers
and
Bailiffs
be
not
unnecessarily
multiplied
,
to
the
burthening
of
their
Tenants
.
That
they
set
not
Lands
at
too
high
rents
,
upon
pretence
that
by
their
power
,
they
can
remit
their
taxes
:
A
thing
very
much
to
be
considered
,
by
reason
of
some
priviledges
Lords
have
in
this
kinde
,
whereof
the
excess
tends
to
great
injustice
.
That
the
taxes
be
equally
assessed
,
according
to
mens
abilities
;
it
being
usual
with
Assessors
,
to
receive
money
of
the
meaner
sort
,
to
return
them
insufficient
and
To
prevent
which
,
they
should
give
order
,
that
the
tax
be
laid
so
justly
,
that
what
returns
are
afterward
made
of
insufficiency
in
any
,
be
imposed
upon
the
Assessors
themselves
.
It
were
convenient
for
the
Lords
,
often
to
visit
the
Pastors
,
that
the
people
might
thereby
take
notice
of
the
respect
they
give
him
,
and
learn
thereby
their
own
duty
:
And
likewise
to
know
of
them
,
if
any
abuses
be
committed
,
to
be
remedied
by
the
Civil
power
(
of
which
there
are
some
things
mentioned
in
the
Articles
for
Officers
)
and
in
particular
,
what
reverence
is
observed
in
the
Church
;
whether
the
people
are
attentive
at
the
prone
,
whether
they
send
their
children
to
be
catechized
,
and
come
themselves
;
at
which
also
,
you
and
your
family
shall
be
present
.
Whether
the
Church
stock
be
improved
,
and
the
Church-wardens
quit
themselves
well
in
their
accompts
,
clearing
them
at
the
years
end
;
and
that
the
Churches
stock
be
not
made
use
of
,
for
paying
of
taxes
,
or
other
publique
charges
;
and
in
case
it
be
so
,
to
prevent
such
abuses
,
by
complaint
to
the
Bishop
.
To
review
the
former
accompts
,
and
provide
necessaries
for
the
Church
,
a
Chalice
of
silver
,
a
decent
Tabernacle
for
the
B.
Sacrament
,
with
comely
Ornaments
.
To
learn
of
the
Curate
,
who
are
the
poorest
in
the
Parish
,
to
take
a
note
of
them
,
and
consider
them
in
the
first
place
.
I
would
never
take
place
of
the
Priest
,
especially
in
sight
of
the
people
.
These
are
such
Instructions
as
I
have
collected
rudely
,
and
think
fit
to
be
observed
;
besides
which
,
the
bringing
in
of
Missions
is
most
excellent
,
for
the
planting
of
the
Spirit
of
Christianity
in
the
hearts
of
the
people
,
to
which
every
one
should
contribute
their
best
assistance
.
Moreover
the
Gentlemen
of
the
Countrey
,
shall
do
well
,
to
meet
once
a
moneth
,
to
confer
about
their
duty
,
and
encourage
one
another
in
the
service
of
God
,
who
may
also
settle
in
Villages
,
petty
Societies
of
well
devoted
persons
,
to
take
care
for
preventing
abuses
,
and
the
occasions
of
sin
,
and
to
relieve
and
comfort
poor
people
,
who
are
ashamed
to
beg
.
There
might
be
found
also
a
way
,
to
settle
amongst
good
Women
,
an
association
of
Charity
,
for
instructing
,
comforting
,
and
succouring
the
poor
and
sick
:
But
above
all
,
a
company
of
pious
Clergy
,
who
may
meet
once
a
moneth
,
to
confer
about
the
faithful
discharging
of
their
weighty
function
;
upon
which
depends
the
universal
good
of
the
people
.
THe
way
of
God
is
to
cause
grace
to
superabound
,
where
sin
hath
abounded
:
The
first
woman
brought
death
into
the
world
,
and
the
Virgin
hath
given
the
Church
occasion
to
sing
,
that
it
was
a
happy
fault
,
since
by
it
was
occasioned
,
our
alliance
with
her
Son
,
and
his
union
with
the
Deity
:
But
this
is
not
all
,
for
if
the
first
woman
brought
so
much
evil
into
the
world
,
it
seems
to
have
pleased
God
,
to
make
use
of
women
,
for
the
reparation
thereof
;
having
by
his
wisdom
ordained
,
that
they
should
have
the
education
of
children
,
and
care
of
the
family
;
whilst
men
,
being
of
a
stronger
constitution
,
are
more
employed
abroad
;
they
,
more
sedentarily
disposed
,
attending
within
doors
,
where
they
have
the
knowledge
,
and
oversight
,
and
conduct
of
all
.
From
whence
it
follows
,
since
all
orders
of
Clergy
,
Nobility
,
Magistracy
,
and
people
,
are
raised
out
of
private
Families
,
as
their
common
Nursery
;
that
to
this
Sex
is
deputed
by
God
,
a
business
of
the
greatest
consequence
in
the
world
The
nurturing
of
souls
in
the
spirit
of
their
Baptism
,
preserving
them
unspotted
tables
,
to
receive
the
impressions
of
Gods
will
,
and
holy
vocation
,
to
what
future
estate
he
shall
design
them
,
for
his
glory
,
and
their
own
eternal
good
:
Wherefore
it
highly
concerns
them
to
make
frequent
reflections
upon
this
,
since
the
greatest
good
,
and
most
eminent
evil
of
mankinde
,
in
part
,
depends
on
them
,
for
which
they
must
render
one
day
a
strict
account
.
Wherefore
they
ought
to
take
great
care
of
the
education
of
their
children
in
their
tender
years
,
correcting
by
vertue
and
a
gentle
hand
,
what
nature
discovers
in
them
reprehensible
:
Remembring
that
for
the
most
part
,
vice
grows
up
,
through
their
esteeming
it
to
be
little
,
and
out
of
taking
pleasure
in
whatever
they
see
children
do
;
by
which
compliance
,
their
errours
grow
up
with
them
,
until
heat
of
blood
and
youth
,
render
them
uncapable
of
correction
.
That
they
be
vigilant
in
instructing
their
domesticks
,
shutting
the
door
against
all
blasphemy
,
impurity
,
all
unlawful
games
and
pastimes
,
and
other
vices
.
To
prevent
that
their
Servingmen
haunt
not
Taverns
,
and
oppress
not
others
.
The
Mistris
of
the
house
must
provide
,
that
her
servants
be
carefully
treated
and
tended
in
their
sickness
,
that
she
visit
them
in
her
own
person
,
even
being
as
our
brethren
,
and
fellow-servants
of
the
same
God
and
Father
of
us
all
:
And
at
all
other
times
,
make
provision
for
their
necessaries
,
that
they
be
not
tempted
to
pilfer
or
murmure
.
Let
her
also
endeavour
,
not
onely
in
her
own
house
,
but
also
among
her
neighbours
,
to
bring
in
the
custom
of
common
prayers
at
night
;
and
if
her
husband
be
absent
,
let
her
supply
his
place
,
in
calling
them
together
,
and
praying
with
them
.
Let
her
and
her
children
be
continnally
in
some
imployment
,
that
their
lives
be
not
unprofitable
,
or
their
family
brought
up
in
idleness
;
remembring
the
Apostles
rule
,
that
he
that
will
not
work
,
shall
not
eat
;
which
thing
prudently
ordered
,
will
prevent
many
inconveniences
.
Let
her
often
visit
her
poor
neighbours
,
to
comfort
and
encourage
them
in
vertuous
living
.
Let
her
take
into
her
eare
the
repairing
of
the
Ornaments
and
Linnen
of
the
Church
,
lest
the
holy
mysteries
of
our
faith
be
undervalued
,
where
decency
is
neglected
.
Let
her
shew
great
recverence
to
the
Clergy
,
not
regarding
the
meanness
of
their
birth
,
but
the
dignity
to
which
Jesus
Christ
hath
advanced
them
:
Hereby
,
both
putting
them
in
minde
of
their
honourable
function
,
and
the
people
,
by
her
example
,
of
their
duty
.
Let
her
entertain
Visitants
,
with
the
spirit
of
Hospitality
,
great
Charity
,
and
Christian
Civility
,
taking
opportunity
thereby
to
do
some
good
,
not
losing
precious
time
in
frivolous
discourses
.
Let
her
keep
no
obscene
or
immodest
pictures
in
her
house
,
much
less
permit
her
danghters
or
herself
to
appear
such
,
by
going
naked
.
Avoiding
likewise
all
curious
and
phantasticul
fashions
,
which
are
evident
signs
of
impenitent
hearts
,
and
breed
nothing
else
,
but
the
nourishing
the
soul
in
its
corruption
,
and
the
averting
it
from
God
.
Mary
Magdalen
I
commend
to
your
prayers
,
and
of
the
holy
Family
,
the
Order
of
the
Knights
of
St.
which
is
at
this
present
in
great
danger
,
and
with
them
the
whole
Christian
World
,
What
that
common
Potent
enemy
of
our
faith
will
do
,
I
know
not
one
.
Our
little
Jesus
,
who
is
all
love
and
power
,
knows
how
to
vindicate
his
own
glory
,
please
you
therefore
to
commend
it
to
him
.
I
beseech
the
Omnipotency
of
the
holy
Babe
Jesus
,
to
preserve
his
children
under
the
Cross
,
and
to
purifie
them
for
his
own
work
.
This
is
it
,
which
I
request
for
our
Brethren
of
the
Order
of
St.
That
grain
which
thou
sowest
,
if
it
dye
not
,
remaineth
fruitless
;
but
if
it
dye
,
it
sprouteth
,
and
bringeth
forth
much
fruit
.
I
humbly
thank
you
for
your
pains
in
informing
me
of
what
passed
concerning
the
Missianers
.
Ye
are
all
fellow-servants
of
one
God
,
and
know
how
to
reverence
those
graces
of
God
ye
see
in
one
another
;
neither
are
ignorant
,
how
that
St.
though
an
Apostle
,
and
full
of
graces
,
was
found
culpable
,
as
St.
tells
us
:
We
must
therefore
excuse
the
faults
of
our
neighbour
,
and
lay
them
under
our
feet
.
The
work
of
God
that
acteth
in
the
heart
,
receiveth
its
testimony
from
a
self-annihilation
,
manifested
by
the
Patience
and
Charity
of
the
Saints
in
Exterior
actions
:
Beg
ye
the
increase
of
these
graces
for
those
that
want
them
.
It
was
very
scandalous
for
one
Priest
to
strike
another
;
but
we
know
,
that
Priests
put
our
Saviour
to
death
,
and
we
have
too
many
in
these
days
of
that
Function
,
who
hold
more
of
the
old
Law
than
the
new
,
which
consisteth
in
the
alliance
and
union
of
Charity
with
Jesus
Christ
.
Take
heed
of
humbling
your self
before
that
man
,
such
abasing
of
your self
in
this
case
,
will
both
prejudice
him
,
and
the
cause
of
God
.
Reprove
him
severely
and
roundly
.
Give
me
leave
,
Madam
,
to
declare
unto
you
my
thoughts
,
concerning
that
liberty
we
ought
to
use
,
in
communicating
freely
the
gifts
of
God
bestowed
on
us
,
to
such
persons
as
may
reap
fruit
from
them
;
not
stifling
within
our selves
what
we
receive
from
above
,
whereby
we
obstruct
a
second
fruit
which
God
expects
from
his
graces
:
Which
is
,
after
our
receiving
good
from
them
,
to
communicate
them
to
others
,
with
charity
and
discretion
:
Improving
them
,
like
good
seed
sown
in
good
ground
bringing
forth
abundance
of
fruit
.
I
wish
that
we
would
consider
our selves
,
set
in
this
world
,
as
a
Chrystal
,
which
placed
in
the
middle
of
the
Vniverse
.
would
give
free
passage
to
all
that
light
it
receives
from
above
:
And
that
by
good
example
,
by
a
high
estimate
set
of
vertue
,
by
discountenancing
of
vice
,
by
comforting
others
,
by
pious
convease
,
we
would
impart
those
talents
we
have
received
from
heaven
,
to
all
creatures
;
and
this
without
disguisement
,
or
the
least
claim
of
propriety
.
Giving
obedience
and
passage
to
them
,
as
the
Chrystal
to
light
.
Furthermore
,
that
all
those
honours
and
commendations
which
we
receive
from
below
,
should
freely
pass
through
us
again
up
to
God
,
without
making
any
stay
with
us
.
No
otherwise
than
the
Chrystal
transmits
the
beams
of
several
torches
set
under
it
,
purifying
,
and
darting
them
,
more
sparkling
towards
heaven
:
for
this
indeed
is
our
bounden
duty
,
to
render
unto
God
,
all
that
honor
&
praise
,
we
receive
from
men
,
who
alone
is
worthy
of
all
honor
and
glory
.
And
who
hath
therefore
bestowed
upon
us
such
things
as
are
praise-worthy
;
not
that
the
praise
thereof
should
rest
upon
us
,
but
pass
thorow
us
towards
him
,
that
he
may
be
blessed
and
praised
in
all
things
.
Moreover
it
is
observable
,
if
nothing
be
opposed
to
the
Chrystal
,
to
receive
that
light
which
passeth
thorow
it
,
it
appeareth
not
at
all
:
And
though
the
Sun
bestoweth
his
beams
from
above
,
and
the
torches
their
flames
from
below
,
yet
these
,
for
want
of
a
reflection
,
remain
onely
imperceptible
in
the
Chrystal
.
In
like
manner
,
though
we
receive
the
heavenly
light
,
and
abundance
of
graces
,
if
we
make
no
approaches
to
God
and
our
neighbour
,
by
rendring
to
the
one
what
is
his
due
,
and
to
the
other
what
is
Charitable
;
it
may
be
we
have
a
light
,
but
that
's
onely
in
our selves
,
and
hidden
under
a
bushel
:
Which
being
so
straitly
confin'd
,
cannot
produce
its
effect
of
communication
,
and
is
in
danger
in
a
short
time
to
be
choaked
and
extinct
.
Consider
also
,
that
when
the
Sun
shineth
upon
a
clear
Chrystal
,
there
is
not
any
corporeal
thing
more
capable
of
that
lustre
,
or
that
receives
its
beams
,
with
so
great
splendour
.
Moreover
,
betwixt
it
and
the
Sun
no
light
is
seen
,
but
after
it
hath
past
thorow
the
Chrystal
,
it
becomes
bright
and
glorious
,
and
also
burns
according
to
the
figure
to
which
it
is
disposed
:
To
shew
us
,
that
what
passeth
betwixt
God
and
us
,
is
a
work
onely
of
the
Closet
,
which
ought
not
to
appear
abroad
until
it
hath
passed
thorow
us
to
others
.
Let
us
then
suffer
our selves
to
be
penetrated
by
the
graces
of
God
,
that
after
their
beams
have
lightned
and
warmed
us
,
they
may
afford
the
like
to
all
about
us
:
Let
us
imitate
that
clear
Chrystal
which
composed
of
solid
matter
,
yet
gives
free
passageonely
to
the
light
;
let
us
,
like
it
,
be
impenetrable
to
all
,
but
what
proceeds
from
God
,
and
returns
to
him
.
Let
us
not
,
as
we
commonly
do
,
descend
to
the
appetites
of
sense
,
and
lust
inordinately
after
earthly
things
,
which
is
to
cast
dirt
upon
the
Chrystal
;
whereby
that
which
is
clear
in
it self
,
by
reason
of
that
filth
that
invirons
it
,
is
no
more
capable
of
light
,
than
is
the
dirt
upon
it
:
And
if
we
will
restore
it
to
its
former
transparency
and
penetrability
,
we
must
wash
it
well
:
I
mean
,
our
polluted
souls
,
in
the
clear
waters
of
repentance
.
Let
as
finally
,
●ffer
up
our selves
to
our
blessed
Saviour
,
that
we
be
not
defective
in
the
right
use
of
his
graces
which
he
bestows
upon
us
,
neither
for
our selves
,
nor
for
others
,
that
we
bury
not
his
talents
:
Imitating
likewise
herein
the
Chrystal
,
which
is
first
penetrated
by
light
onely
,
and
then
scattereth
it
abroad
:
Let
us
appear
without
a
Mask
before
the
face
of
all
the
world
,
speaking
aloud
,
both
by
the
mouth
of
our
actions
,
with
the
Spouse
in
the
and
by
our
example
and
diligence
,
encrease
the
number
of
those
souls
that
thus
love
,
opening
and
making
plain
the
way
of
love
:
For
ever
blessed
be
the
God
of
love
,
in
whom
I
am
,
&c.
To
some
we
must
lay
open
our
hearts
more
freely
and
exactly
,
to
others
more
reservedly
,
keeping
aloof
off
,
and
beating
about
the
bush
;
to
others
altogether
lockt
up
,
concealing
those
secrets
from
them
,
in
whom
we
see
no
disposition
at
all
to
make
good
use
of
them
.
I
cannot
perswade
my self
to
stir
in
this
business
,
because
it
would
seem
,
that
under
the
pretence
of
Alms
,
impunity
is
aimed
at
:
I
am
not
willing
to
foul
my
hands
with
the
price
of
blood
.
In
a
word
,
although
others
undertake
the
business
without
scuuple
,
and
I
see
very
considerable
Alms
that
would
come
of
it
;
yet
for
all
that
,
I
cannot
afford
my
assistance
.
The
Divine
Providence
will
never
forget
his
holy
poor
ones
.
Give
me
leave
,
Sir
,
to
deal
plainly
with
you
,
in
telling
you
,
that
amongst
those
many
cares
I
have
for
you
;
this
is
not
the
least
,
that
I
would
not
have
you
impose
too
much
upon
your self
;
and
for
want
of
moderation
,
to
render
your self
altogether
unserviceable
.
The
enemy
usually
takes
no
small
advantage
of
such
free
and
well
disposed
natures
.
You
are
not
herein
your
own
,
but
a
man
for
the
whole
world
;
and
,
with
St.
a
debter
to
all
men
;
preserve
yoer
self
therefore
,
not
so
much
,
I
mean
,
by
making
much
of
,
but
by
forbearing
to
destroy
your self
by
labours
and
travel
:
I
am
told
how
greatly
your
endeavours
are
blessed
;
give
me
leave
from
that
interest
my self
challengeth
therein
,
with
all
humility
and
respect
,
to
admonish
you
thus
much
.
I
have
been
this
night
bathed
all
over
in
tears
,
by
a
view
which
our
Lord
hath
given
me
.
that
whilst
he
was
at
prayer
,
he
understood
that
there
was
a
great
imployment
assigned
him
for
new
in
the
I
proceed
in
this
manner
,
because
my
duty
to
God
,
and
to
the
Countess
of
require
it
;
and
moreover
,
since
my
Saviour
doth
oblige
me
to
treat
with
her
,
I
must
do
no
more
than
what
is
necessary
,
and
so
retire
,
to
which
this
posture
is
most
convenient
.
If
we
sit
down
,
we
should
forget
our selves
,
and
talk
more
than
is
needful
,
and
perhaps
pass
on
to
things
unprofitable
:
Wherefore
we
both
ought
to
stand
upon
our
guard
.
I
being
a
lay
man
and
a
sinner
,
do
not
speak
to
her
but
with
great
confusion
,
though
I
know
it
to
be
the
will
of
God
,
and
am
certified
by
several
pious
and
judicious
men
,
that
it
is
my
duty
.
I
have
protested
in
the
presence
of
the
blessed
Sacrament
,
that
I
will
live
according
to
the
Maxims
and
Counsels
of
Jesus
Christ
;
and
to
that
end
:
There
be
three
kindes
of
elevations
and
groanings
of
the
Soul
after
God
,
about
which
she
ought
constantly
to
be
busied
,
to
enable
her
to
accomplish
the
Precepts
of
our
Saviour
;
that
is
,
to
pray
always
,
and
never
to
slacke
this
holy
Exercise
,
lest
she
fall
into
oblivion
of
God
,
and
after
that
into
sin
.
The
first
is
the
elevation
and
groaning
of
the
who
begin
at
the
way
.
The
second
is
of
the
who
have
proceeded
to
,
and
do
practise
the
And
the
third
is
of
the
who
are
arrived
at
the
The
first
are
exercised
in
the
renouncing
of
sin
,
and
the
vanities
of
the
world
,
in
bewatilng
their
former
life
,
and
seeking
God
,
sending
forth
from
the
depth
of
fear
and
revexence
,
their
groans
and
sighs
to
him
,
which
is
the
beginning
of
life
eternal
.
The
Believers
seek
after
the
knowledge
of
his
will
,
by
his
Word
,
which
is
his
Son
,
desiring
to
conform
their
lives
after
his
example
,
who
is
our
Way
,
our
Life
and
Truth
:
And
this
is
the
progress
of
this
life
.
The
Perfect
groan
in
the
presence
of
God
,
after
an
Union
with
him
,
in
imitation
of
our
Saviour
,
exercising
it
by
acts
of
love
,
and
so
fulfilling
the
first
and
great
Commandment
,
in
which
consisteth
the
perfection
of
our
life
here
below
.
There
are
some
Souls
in
the
first
estate
,
who
renouncing
sin
,
and
quitting
the
vanities
of
the
world
,
receive
great
sensible
consolations
from
God
,
and
taste
ravishing
delights
.
But
if
they
endeavour
not
to
pass
on
to
the
second
,
to
understand
and
practise
the
will
of
God
in
his
Son
,
the
Devil
will
soon
deceive
them
by
this
bait
,
causing
them
to
rest
in
the
complacency
of
these
gusts
:
So
that
not
making
progress
in
Christ
,
who
is
their
way
,
they
will
wander
into
by-paths
,
to
the
danger
of
a
precipice
:
Their
condition
being
a
kinde
of
imperfect
,
floating
self-denial
,
and
desire
to
be
for
God
,
to
do
his
will
,
and
love
him
with
a
false
Interior
peace
,
upon
which
they
rest
,
and
whence
afterwards
,
they
degenerate
into
a
very
dangerous
condition
,
because
they
are
not
truly
grounded
upon
Jesus
Christ
,
whom
God
hath
appointed
for
our
sole
Guide
.
But
if
after
they
are
thus
purged
from
the
gross
affections
of
the
world
,
they
be
not
likewise
purified
from
themselves
,
giving
up
all
to
Christ
Jesus
,
with
a
serious
resolution
to
imitate
him
,
and
enter
into
his
Sacrifice
of
Self-annihilation
:
Instead
of
receiving
the
Spirit
of
God
,
they
shall
confirm
themselves
in
their
own
;
and
forming
to
themselves
false
illuminations
,
shall
be
guided
by
their
own
sense
,
and
by
what
their
own
corrupt
nature
suggests
to
them
,
as
glittering
and
pleasing
,
with
great
danger
of
falling
headlong
into
the
errours
of
the
Enthusiasts
;
who
perswade
themselves
,
that
every
thing
that
occurs
to
their
phansie
,
comes
from
God
:
Out
of
an
opinion
,
that
they
neither
will
,
nor
seek
,
nor
love
any
thing
but
God
,
and
so
become
little
or
nothing
at
all
sensible
of
the
checks
of
their
own
Conscience
.
If
you
observe
those
that
begin
their
Spiritual
life
in
this
manner
,
you
will
finde
them
to
have
little
faith
or
dependance
on
Christ
Jesus
.
And
if
you
ask
them
what
they
desire
,
or
whetherto
they
tend
?
they
will
answer
in
general
,
To
whatsoever
God
will
have
.
It
will
be
necessary
to
set
these
right
,
and
if
they
be
not
too
far
gone
with
these
gusts
,
and
sensible
consolations
,
to
carry
them
to
desine
indeed
what
God
will
have
,
but
desire
it
according
to
the
model
of
our
Saviour
,
and
the
precepts
of
his
Gospel
(
which
he
hath
left
us
as
his
Will
and
Testament
,
and
to
be
our
Light
,
and
the
Rule
of
our
inlightnings
.
)
We
have
many
who
rest
in
this
first
step
,
being
yet
esteemed
and
admired
,
even
by
persons
who
pass
for
spiritual
,
and
of
on
by
their
Ghostly
Directors
,
calling
this
the
my
stical
way
.
In
which
notwithstnading
,
the
decaitful
spirit
of
Nature
and
the
Devil
,
play
their
game
,
under
the
mask
of
these
dark
illuminations
,
of
these
false
peaces
,
of
these
quaint
terms
,
high
words
,
and
mysterious
notions
,
of
these
volumes
of
spiritual
writings
(
the
fruits
whereof
are
for
the
most
part
in
the
paper
)
from
whence
it
is
seen
so
often
,
that
those
who
have
begun
well
,
and
with
much
purity
,
do
fall
afterwards
into
gross
faults
;
whilst
Property
and
Self-pleasing
steal
into
the
soul
in
the
room
of
Christ
Jesus
.
We
have
others
,
which
heed
no
other
thing
than
the
preaching
of
John
by
their
Austerities
and
Pennances
,
setting
up
there
rest
here
,
without
proceeding
on
to
Christ
Jesus
,
to
receive
his
Spirit
;
relying
upon
an
inward
satisfaction
and
confidence
in
their
mortifications
,
and
sticking
there
.
Others
,
so
stay
upon
Jesus
Christ
onely
,
as
if
he
had
no
Father
having
affectionate
devotions
to
his
Humanity
,
and
much
led
by
the
sensible
,
go
no
further
.
They
know
Jesus
Christ
but
not
Jesus
Christ
,
God
and
man
,
who
is
our
Life
,
Truth
,
and
Way
.
Others
build
all
their
hopes
upon
the
Blessed
Virgine
and
other
Saints
,
and
their
particular
Devotions
to
them
;
which
are
very
good
,
when
they
are
grounded
upon
repentance
for
their
sins
,
and
a
true
conversion
of
the
soul
:
But
these
grosly
deceive
themselves
,
by
hoping
of
succour
from
the
Blessed
Virgin
and
the
Saints
,
or
of
having
any
communion
in
their
merits
,
when
they
quit
not
their
own
vicious
courses
.
These
three
estates
,
thus
understood
and
distinguished
,
afford
great
light
in
the
conduct
of
souls
;
whereby
to
understand
their
beginning
,
progress
,
and
perfection
,
with
the
deviations
they
are
subject
unto
.
And
every
one
of
these
estates
,
hath
its
proper
work
,
its
sufferance
,
and
its
prayer
.
The
work
of
the
first
estate
of
beginners
and
Penitents
,
is
to
finde
out
all
that
inclineth
to
sin
,
that
obstructeth
our
salvation
,
or
withdraweth
us
from
God
,
to
avoid
it
.
Their
Cross
or
Sufferance
is
,
to
bewail
their
offences
,
to
mortifie
their
passions
,
and
subdue
their
body●n
any
thing
that
makes
it
rebel
against
Reason
and
the
Spirit
;
and
also
to
punish
the
irregular
motions
of
Concupiscence
.
Their
prayer
is
,
to
beg
grace
and
strength
,
for
their
performance
of
these
things
.
The
work
of
the
second
,
namely
,
of
Believers
,
is
,
to
study
Jesus
Christ
,
his
Life
and
Doctrine
:
Their
Cross
is
,
to
bear
the
troubles
that
befal
them
in
imitation
of
our
Saviour
;
to
suffer
contempt
and
persecutions
,
which
attend
all
such
as
follow
him
,
Their
prayer
is
,
to
beg
his
Life
,
his
Spirit
,
and
his
frame
of
Soul
,
to
act
interiorly
and
exteriorly
after
his
model
.
The
work
of
the
third
and
Perfect
one
,
is
,
to
do
each
thing
by
the
Spirit
of
Christ
,
through
their
union
with
God
:
Their
Cross
is
,
in
bearing
with
,
as
they
ought
,
ought
,
the
corruptions
,
darkness
and
stupidity
of
this
world
,
as
also
persecution
for
righteousness
,
which
thing
shall
never
be
wanting
.
Their
prayer
is
,
to
ask
continually
,
a
more
abundant
participation
of
the
Spirit
of
Christ
,
a
more
intimate
union
with
God
,
a
greater
dying
to
themselves
,
a
more
faithful
improving
of
his
grace
and
talents
received
,
with
perseverance
to
the
end
.
Moreover
,
in
the
first
estate
,
we
must
labour
hard
,
in
resisting
of
sin
,
in
vanquishing
our
passions
,
and
renouncing
vanities
;
which
young
beginners
cannot
do
,
without
many
repeated
acts
,
much
violence
to
themselves
.
But
those
to
whom
God
hath
given
an
entrance
into
the
two
other
estates
,
do
it
easily
,
with
a
simple
and
facile
guidance
of
their
spirit
,
not
diminishing
their
acts
of
humiliation
,
but
hindering
the
oppression
and
trouble
thereof
.
In
the
second
estate
,
is
requisite
on
our
parts
,
a
vigorous
correspondence
in
following
Iesus
Christ
,
not
acting
any
more
from
our selves
,
but
in
him
,
in
singleness
of
heart
;
and
,
enduring
with
patience
and
longanimity
,
the
purging
and
purifying
of
our
spirits
by
Iesus
Christ
.
In
which
work
,
we
must
be
content
,
to
suffer
many
secret
tempests
,
and
inward
tumults
,
arising
from
the
reluctancies
of
our
old
habits
,
and
our
spirit
stirred
up
by
the
motions
of
nature
,
full
of
many
images
and
impressions
.
And
finally
,
be
content
to
lose
our
very
souls
with
much
patience
,
that
we
may
receive
them
again
,
cloathed
with
Christ
Iesus
.
In
the
third
estate
,
is
contained
a
work
of
Passion
,
that
is
,
of
Prayer
;
where
the
bounty
of
God
doth
all
,
as
it
were
,
the
soul
tasting
a
certain
experimental
satiety
of
the
presence
and
truth
of
God
,
and
of
his
love
in
Iesus
Christ
,
in
which
she
reposeth
.
She
findes
herself
often
absorpt
in
the
joy
of
the
greatness
,
the
power
,
the
goodness
,
and
the
infinite
perfections
of
God
,
of
the
alliance
with
his
Son
;
his
love
,
his
manner
of
conversation
,
and
the
admirable
effects
,
which
the
participation
of
his
Spirit
produceth
,
joying
in
the
possession
of
these
good
things
,
with
a
tranquility
,
content
,
and
vigour
,
surpassing
all
sense
and
expression
.
A
good
progress
thorow
the
two
former
estates
,
makes
way
for
the
third
;
where
we
must
be
careful
,
considering
the
uncertainty
and
mutableness
of
our
natures
,
to
use
great
industry
,
to
be
sure
of
going
forward
,
and
of
repeating
also
what
we
have
done
,
the
better
to
ground
our selves
,
and
repair
our
losses
.
I
have
been
with
the
party
you
know
of
,
and
have
told
her
what
I
thought
convenient
to
her
condition
.
Our
Saviour
enlightned
me
to
discover
to
her
,
his
good
pleasure
concerning
her
,
how
that
this
sad
and
dark
condition
was
not
sent
,
to
bring
her
to
a
stand
and
trouble
at
it
,
but
to
facilitate
her
way
to
perfection
,
and
carry
her
without
amusement
,
to
our
Saviour
Christ
Lesus
,
who
is
our
Sanctification
.
I
acquainted
her
,
how
we
ought
to
lay
this
sure
foundation
,
that
our selves
are
nothing
,
but
infirmity
and
misery
it self
:
So
that
when
any
one
tells
us
thereof
,
he
tells
us
no
news
:
And
that
God
from
this
insufficiency
of
our selves
to
all
good
,
means
to
extract
that
excellent
vertue
of
Humility
and
Diffidence
of
our selves
,
obliging
us
thereby
to
go
to
his
Son
our
Saviour
,
to
finde
strength
in
him
,
and
remedy
for
all
our
miseries
.
I
was
much
enlarged
upon
each
thing
which
she
told
me
;
and
God
gave
her
so
great
a
plenitude
of
light
and
grace
,
that
she
spake
marvellous
things
touching
the
operation
of
the
Holy
Trinity
in
her
,
with
other
excellent
notions
,
manifesting
a
very
particular
assistance
of
his
Divine
Grace
.
In
this
estate
I
left
her
.
As
concerning
my self
,
I
have
not
much
to
say
,
onely
I
finde
within
my self
,
through
the
mercy
of
God
,
a
great
tranquility
in
his
presence
,
through
the
Spirit
of
Christ
Jesus
,
and
such
an
inward
experience
of
Eternal
Life
,
as
I
am
not
able
to
express
.
And
this
is
that
,
whither
I
am
most
bent
and
drawn
:
Yet
I
finde
my self
so
strangely
naked
and
barren
,
that
I
wonder
at
the
condition
I
am
in
,
and
by
which
I
discourse
:
For
in
my
addresses
to
this
party
,
I
begun
my
speech
,
not
knowing
how
to
pursue
it
;
and
after
the
second
sentence
,
I
had
not
the
least
foresight
of
what
should
be
the
third
,
and
so
of
the
rest
:
Not
but
that
I
seem
to
have
a
perfect
knowledge
of
the
things
I
speak
in
such
a
manner
as
I
am
capable
of
it
:
But
I
onely
utter
what
is
given
me
,
and
in
the
same
way
as
it
is
communicated
,
I
communicate
it
to
others
.
Which
done
,
there
seems
to
remain
nothing
in
me
,
but
the
foundation
from
whence
it
springs
.
de
Renty
de
Renty
He
hath
done
all
things
well
.
It
is
very
true
,
that
business
findes
me
out
from
all
parts
;
insomuch
,
that
I
am
often
inforced
to
read
,
write
,
and
do
business
all
at
a
time
.
A
little
assistance
would
do
well
,
though
I
have
many
sharers
;
however
,
let
not
that
trouble
you
,
for
I
dispatch
as
much
at
present
as
I
can
,
the
rest
in
due
time
,
without
encombring
my self
therewith
.
Our
Saviour
doth
gratiously
bestow
on
me
a
peace
of
minde
in
all
this
,
so
that
I
am
not
at
all
distracted
with
it
.
My
recollection
hinders
no
business
at
all
,
but
rather
furthers
it
.
For
without
it
,
I
should
have
a
solicitous
desire
of
doing
all
my self
;
whereas
I
act
now
in
a
most
serene
way
,
in
which
I
have
no
share
;
for
it
is
our
Lord
that
doth
all
.
Finding
my self
one
day
much
burthened
with
divers-business
,
I
had
a
desire
to
draw
off
my
minde
wholly
,
and
at
the
same
instant
I
found
it
.
Since
which
time
they
create
me
no
trouble
,
and
I
dispatch
them
more
readily
without
thinking
of
them
.
This
grace
hath
been
often
renewed
to
me
(
although
in
several
manners
)
which
I
acknowledge
to
be
very
great
because
it
preserves
me
disingaged
,
even
in
the
multiplicity
of
business
.
It
is
a
great
infirmity
in
our
humane
nature
,
that
she
needs
applause
in
matters
of
grace
:
Wherefore
I
look
at
it
as
a
great
favour
from
God
,
when
I
have
the
honour
of
executing
any
enterprize
,
solidly
undertaken
,
and
well
approved
of
and
acknowledged
,
to
proceed
from
the
Spirit
of
God
,
by
those
to
whom
he
hath
committed
in
his
Church
the
judgement
of
such
things
;
notwithstanding
the
accomplishment
of
it
meets
with
many
crosses
and
contradictions
.
We
may
take
up
good
and
holy
designs
,
and
God
doth
often
inspire
them
;
yet
when
he
is
pleased
to
permit
a
contrary
event
,
we
must
adore
his
secret
will
,
which
brings
with
it
,
more
of
mercy
in
the
crossing
of
them
,
than
if
they
had
succeded
to
our
comfort
.
We
should
always
be
jealous
over
our
own
spirit
,
that
it
fix
not
upon
any
thing
.
The
sweet
Jesus
hath
his
designs
,
which
he
conducts
by
such
means
,
as
we
would
not
at
all
make
choice
of
;
and
the
reason
is
,
because
he
would
thwart
our
wills
,
and
abate
our
dependancies
upon
earth
:
And
therefore
often
thwarts
he
our
just
undertakings
,
being
more
jeolous
of
the
Sacrifice
of
our
hearts
,
than
of
any
thing
else
,
how
specious
soever
.
Know
you
not
that
to
morrow
is
not
mine
.
I
see
five
or
six
things
,
which
of
necessity
must
be
done
;
but
I
cannot
tell
you
,
which
I
would
dispatch
the
first
,
nor
when
,
nor
how
,
for
through
the
mercy
of
God
I
am
indifferent
to
all
things
.
I
hope
to
be
at
about
the
end
of
where
I
shall
receive
your
orders
to
come
to
you
,
when
I
may
be
lest
troublesome
:
Where
I
shall
be
ready
for
what
my
Saviour
shall
appoint
by
you
.
I
forecast
nothing
,
but
onely
to
obey
and
follow
his
conduct
by
your
appointment
,
and
in
every
thing
the
best
I
can
:
I
finde
by
experience
,
that
when
I
think
to
do
most
in
any
place
,
there
I
do
nothing
at
all
.
This
hath
taught
me
to
go
divested
of
all
design
;
and
when
I
think
least
thereof
,
and
abandon
my self
to
God
,
then
he
doth
the
more
;
wherefore
I
will
leave
the
doing
to
him
,
and
to
you
in
him
.
Let
us
dispatch
the
will
of
God
,
it
would
be
a
great
comfort
to
be
present
at
the
Church
,
to
hear
the
praises
of
God
;
but
let
us
pass
on
,
since
this
is
more
in
concurrence
with
his
holy
will
.
Let
us
not
apply
the
days
business
,
but
to
the
day
.
Your
intentions
are
pious
,
but
you
must
resign
the
future
to
God
,
and
be
willing
for
the
present
,
to
love
and
follow
what
he
makes
appear
to
be
his
will
,
and
to
keep
your self
still
before
him
as
a
ready
Sacrifice
,
together
with
our
Lord
Jesus
Christ
.
I
will
tell
you
what
passed
yesterday
within
me
,
by
which
you
may
understand
my
present
condition
:
Hearing
the
Gospel
of
the
Assumption
of
our
Lady
,
which
speaketh
of
most
of
the
sent●ments
I
formerly
had
upon
that
subject
came
presently
into
my
minde
;
to
wit
,
that
prayer
and
converse
with
God
,
are
much
to
be
preferred
before
all
Exterior
exercises
,
though
never
so
holy
;
seeing
that
bufied
about
so
holy
and
excellent
a
service
,
was
reprehended
for
her
trouble
,
and
commended
for
her
recose
.
This
word
,
hath
besteaded
me
along
time
,
to
draw
me
off
from
outward
things
,
and
also
from
inward
,
though
good
,
if
not
absolutely
necessary
,
as
visiting
and
instructing
the
poor
,
or
reading
or
writing
something
of
devotion
,
and
the
like
:
And
I
understood
it
expedient
at
that
time
to
quit
them
,
the
better
to
betake
my self
to
Interaloperations
,
and
arrive
at
the
laying
down
of
our
own
will
and
vivacity
,
to
attend
wholly
to
the
Divine
appointment
,
following
it
in
prudent
simplicity
,
by
the
Spirit
of
Christ
,
which
enlivens
and
lives
in
those
that
hearken
to
it
with
respect
.
I
have
been
,
as
it
were
,
continually
imployed
in
Exteriour
works
;
as
conferring
with
all
sorts
of
people
,
taking
care
of
the
sick
that
found
me
out
,
removing
from
place
to
place
,
reconciling
differences
,
new
building
a
great
Church
,
which
was
to
be
pluck'd
down
and
enlarged
.
For
which
I
was
forced
to
draw
out
several
platforms
,
and
make
the
very
models
(
in
which
formerly
I
have
had
some
insight
)
by
reason
of
the
want
of
Architects
in
that
place
,
calling
to
minde
my
old
notions
,
and
busying
my self
wholly
in
it
.
Yesterday
,
after
my
mornings
work
,
hearing
the
same
Gospel
read
,
and
these
words
in
particular
,
a
certain
Interiour
light
came
upon
me
,
and
it
was
said
unto
me
,
giving
me
to
understand
,
and
that
in
a
very
evident
manner
,
that
the
things
we
are
employed
upon
according
to
the
Divine
order
,
whatsoever
they
be
,
do
not
create
us
any
such
trouble
,
and
I
discovered
clearly
(
at
least
as
I
thought
)
that
was
not
reproved
for
doing
a
good
work
,
but
for
doing
it
too
solicitously
.
Our
Saviour
intimating
to
her
by
these
words
,
that
her
business
was
done
in
trouble
and
inordinate
agitation
of
spirit
,
though
the
end
was
very
laudable
.
That
the
priucipal
business
consists
in
hearing
the
Eternal
Word
,
even
as
his
own
humanity
,
whether
in
working
or
preaching
,
or
any
other
imployment
,
received
its
motions
from
the
Divinity
.
said
he
.
In
like
manner
ought
we
to
take
our
directions
from
Jesus
Christ
,
who
is
the
Word
of
Eternal
Life
,
and
act
nothing
with
disturbance
,
but
all
in
peace
by
his
Spirit
.
I
received
hereby
a
great
support
,
in
the
performance
of
these
petty
Exterior
offices
,
to
which
my
duty
obliged
me
,
and
made
no
difficulty
at
all
,
to
yield
up
my self
,
to
this
holily-disordered
Divine
Order
.
In
which
I
perceived
,
that
it
was
Gods
will
I
should
perform
these
petty
things
,
which
could
not
be
done
without
me
.
For
these
three
moneths
I
have
not
,
it
may
be
,
spent
three
or
four
hours
at
my
prayers
upon
my
knees
together
,
out
of
the
Church
;
and
should
I
perform
them
at
all
,
no
otherwise
than
on
this
fashion
,
I
should
but
very
ill
discharge
my
●u●y
.
It
is
certain
,
that
I
have
discharged
it
ill
enough
yet
I
understand
that
God
is
pleased
in
the
midst
of
these
imployments
,
to
which
he
hath
appointed
me
,
to
make
me
sensible
of
his
presence
and
power
,
in
uniting
my
soul
to
himself
by
certain
intimate
ways
,
and
that
the
outward
work
may
be
performed
by
the
hand
,
whilst
the
soul
solaceth
herself
in
that
real
alliance
of
Sons
with
their
Father
,
by
the
Spirit
of
the
Son
,
who
admitteth
us
into
his
communion
,
together
with
that
of
the
blessed
Virgin
,
the
Angels
and
Saints
,
yea
,
and
of
the
whole
Heaven
,
if
you
will
.
Such
a
wonderful
expansion
of
soul
can
our
Lord
give
,
when
,
and
how
he
pleaseth
.
I
enjoyed
at
the
same
time
,
such
a
sensible
impression
of
God
,
yet
excelling
all
sense
(
as
being
acted
in
the
more
noble
part
of
the
Soul
the
Spirit
)
that
if
I
had
been
thrown
like
a
boul
,
I
could
never
have
lost
the
sight
of
my
God
.
All
things
are
here
transitory
,
for
our
Lord
turns
this
boul
in
a
strange
manner
,
when
it
pleaseth
him
.
And
these
d●verse
turnings
are
done
for
the
souls
advantage
,
whereby
she
is
fashioned
for
every
occasion
,
that
she
may
do
nothing
for
or
by
herself
,
but
all
for
God
,
and
according
to
him
.
Moreover
,
I
evidently
see
,
that
a
person
whom
God
employeth
in
these
low
affairs
,
if
he
follow
them
with
the
same
fidelity
,
as
if
they
were
greater
,
keeping
his
station
,
by
obed●ence
and
self-denial
,
is
as
acceptable
to
him
,
as
he
that
is
occupied
in
the
noblest
functions
:
The
work
it self
making
not
the
difference
,
but
the
faithful
execution
of
it
,
by
submitting
to
his
good
pleasure
.
Will
nothing
please
you
but
to
convert
a
thousand
worlds
,
and
bring
all
souls
to
God
?
you
shall
be
content
to
carry
stones
,
and
sometime
to
sit
still
and
do
nothing
.
The
S●crifice
of
Patience
is
both
well
pleasing
to
God
,
and
comfortable
to
our selves
.
And
I
believe
it
is
without
comparison
more
rare
,
to
finde
a
soul
faithful
in
patience
,
and
content
to
do
no
more
than
God
would
have
him
,
than
faithful
in
actions
which
appear
abroad
.
I
know
well
,
that
God
doth
all
in
all
,
but
this
Sacrifice
of
Patience
,
and
of
C●ssation
,
is
more
commendable
in
a
heart
,
who
hath
the
love
and
zeal
of
his
honour
,
and
in
pursuit
hereof
,
is
hurried
on
to
action
,
and
hath
need
of
greater
force
to
withhold
it
from
doing
,
than
to
incite
it
.
This
kinde
of
Cessation
seems
to
be
nothing
at
all
available
for
the
nourishment
of
such
zeal
;
and
this
hunger
and
thirst
after
righteousness
,
which
would
devour
the
four
quarters
of
the
world
,
is
reverberated
like
the
fire
pent
in
,
which
circles
and
works
about
,
until
it
finde
a
vent
by
this
consideration
,
that
God
is
all-sufficient
in
himself
,
and
hath
no
need
of
us
for
advancing
of
his
glory
:
that
we
receive
more
honour
from
our
imployments
than
he
service
,
being
so
impure
,
that
we
blemish
every
thing
we
meddle
with
,
and
rob
it
of
some
lustre
,
and
prove
often
not
onely
unprofitable
,
but
endamaging
servants
.
I
have
one
word
more
to
tell
you
,
that
you
may
direct
me
in
it
;
which
is
,
that
I
am
really
ashamed
and
confounded
in
my self
,
that
I
do
no
more
for
God
;
considering
his
dignity
,
h●s
love
,
his
gifts
and
communications
,
by
the
alliance
of
Jesus
Christ
and
his
Spirit
:
Which
indeed
,
together
with
the
sense
of
my
great
imbecility
for
any
thing
that
is
good
,
of
my
sins
and
miseries
,
would
work
my
extream
torment
,
did
I
not
bethink
my self
of
his
all-sufficiency
in
himself
,
and
that
he
doth
with
us
as
he
pleaseth
,
in
keeping
us
in
obedience
and
profound
annihilation
.
I
have
had
the
grace
divers
times
,
very
intimately
to
understand
that
ineffable
mysterie
,
hidden
with
God
from
all
ages
,
and
manifested
now
to
the
Saints
(
according
to
S.
which
is
the
alliance
he
hath
contracted
with
us
,
in
Jesus
Christ
.
This
knowledge
produceth
in
me
as
much
astonishment
as
love
.
And
(
to
tell
you
my
sense
of
it
)
a
man
possessed
with
these
verities
,
remains
no
more
a
man
,
but
becomes
annihilated
,
and
all
his
desire
is
to
be
lost
and
melted
,
on
purpose
to
change
his
nature
,
and
enter
into
this
Spirit
of
Jesus
,
to
act
no
less
in
him
than
by
him
.
I
have
conceived
such
great
things
of
our
Saviours
Humanity
,
united
to
the
Divinity
,
as
cannot
be
uttered
.
How
hath
this
alliance
of
the
Divinity
,
most
deeply
abased
the
sacred
Humanity
into
a
self-annihilation
,
and
a
sacrifice
of
love
,
upon
the
sight
of
the
greatness
of
God
?
What
an
honour
is
this
to
the
Humane
Nature
,
to
be
thus
predestinated
?
and
,
What
a
glory
to
us
to
be
chosen
and
called
to
an
entrance
into
his
favour
,
and
a
rising
to
God
,
and
the
everlasting
enjoyment
thereof
through
him
?
It
would
spend
me
this
whole
day
to
write
to
you
,
the
view
that
I
have
had
of
the
wisdom
and
bounty
of
God
,
touching
this
mysterie
of
Love
,
which
he
hath
opened
unto
us
in
his
Son
.
I
want
words
to
express
the
mercies
I
received
by
my
journey
to
hath
marked
me
out
,
in
the
holy
Infant
Jesus
,
such
a
divesting
of
my self
of
all
worldly
things
,
that
it
appears
to
me
my
rendezouz
,
where
I
must
strip
my self
naked
of
all
things
else
.
The
holy
Infant
,
sweet
Jesus
,
hath
taken
to
himself
our
good
Sister
whose
death
was
consonant
to
the
dispositions
of
her
life
,
and
miraculous
graces
.
I
have
received
from
her
,
since
her
death
,
great
comfort
:
That
grace
I
re●eived
,
according
to
my
present
estate
and
weakness
,
to
enter
into
the
Infancy
of
our
Saviour
,
hath
since
been
renewed
to
me
,
and
I
have
understood
it
more
solidly
.
I
had
yesterday
;
by
the
singular
bounty
of
God
a
view
of
his
Divine
Majestie
,
of
S.
and
Sister
of
the
B.
Sacrament
.
so
clearly
represented
to
me
in
my
spirit
,
that
I
cannot
suspect
the
truth
of
it
.
O
what
effects
were
produced
by
their
presence
,
and
what
love
by
these
sights
!
I
am
wholly
renewed
in
my
respects
;
to
that
great
Saint
my
Patron
,
and
to
that
glorious
servant
of
God
,
who
honoured
him
very
much
,
whilst
she
was
living
;
and
from
whom
,
without
doubt
,
since
her
death
,
she
hath
begg●d
to
be
my
Protector
.
It
is
m●st
certain
,
that
the
work
of
God
in
her
,
was
one
continued
prodigie
of
grace
,
and
a
master-piece
of
his
hand
.
I
must
needs
tell
you
,
that
upon
my
first
journey
which
I
made
to
you
,
above
a
year
ago●
,
I
brought
back
with
me
,
a
great
esteem
and
devotion
to
the
Infancy
of
our
Saviour
,
but
I
was
not
yet
well
settled
in
it
.
I
attempted
it
from
time
to
time
,
but
could
not
yet
make
it
my
principal
food
.
Since
which
the
holy
Infant
,
by
a
supernatural
grace
,
hath
manifested
and
opened
himself
to
me
;
and
now
I
finde
every
thing
in
him
,
and
am
remitted
thither
for
all
.
I
must
acquaint
you
,
that
the
holy
Infant
Jesus
,
will
grant
me
the
favour
to
apply
my self
p●rticularly
to
his
honour
,
to
give
my self
to
him
,
and
to
his
holy
disposit●ons
;
ordering
my
life
,
and
the
sacrifice
of
my self
,
by
the
conduct
of
his
Spirit
.
The
Divine
King
of
the
Cratch
,
the
holy
Infant
Jesus
,
doth
so
accumulate
his
favours
upon
me
,
that
I
beseech
you
to
thank
him
:
They
are
inexplicable
.
Jesus
,
Mary
You
have
laid
your
commands
upon
me
,
to
set
down
in
writing
,
wherein
consists
the
grace
of
the
Infancy
of
our
Saviour
,
so
far
as
I
understand
it
.
This
Adorable
Lord
,
hath
renewed
in
me
this
morning
two
Con●eptions
,
which
he
had
given
me
a
Moneth
since
,
three
days
one
after
another
,
by
which
I
shall
be
able
to
express
what
I
conceive
of
it
.
Being
at
my
prayers
,
in
the
Church
,
about
a
Moneth
ago
,
I
fell
into
some
inward
inquietude
about
my
Devotion
to
this
Infancy
,
by
reason
that
my
Spirit
was
possessed
with
this
thought
,
That
a
Christian
should
regard
our
Saviour
intirely
,
from
his
Incarnation
,
to
his
Glory
,
where
he
sits
at
the
right
hand
of
his
Father
,
a●d
from
whence
he
sends
us
his
Spirit
.
And
that
we
should
make
our
addresses
to
all
these
mysteries
,
according
to
our
necessities
;
and
therefore
to
tie
our selves
to
one
particular
,
were
to
send
up
maimed
Devotions
,
and
to
limit
the
extent
of
Verity
and
Grace
.
After
this
,
I
went
to
receive
the
B.
Sacrament
,
abandoning
my self
wholly
to
my
God
,
according
to
my
usual
custom
.
A
little
while
after
the
Communion
,
I
saw
(
by
an
enlightning
)
our
Saviour
entire
;
that
is
,
all
his
mysteries
,
from
his
Incarnation
,
to
his
state
of
Glory
,
where
he
resides
at
present
,
governing
us
.
And
in
particular
,
the
Greatness
and
Dignity
of
this
mysterie
of
his
Infancy
;
and
withal
,
I
was
instructed
,
that
this
mysterie
is
our
Port
,
and
our
Address
,
for
to
obtain
our
Consummation
in
glory
:
That
this
is
it
,
to
which
we
must
direct
our selves
,
and
here
stay
our
thoughts
,
and
that
it
would
be
temerity
,
to
proceed
to
other
mysteries
on
the
same
manner
.
I
saw
it
rashness
to
desire
and
demand
orosses
for
our selves
,
since
it
is
the
work
of
Gods
grace
to
conduct
us
to
them
,
and
uphold
us
under
them
:
I
saw
it
rashnes
;
to
desire
Mount
that
is
,
high
illuminations
.
Finally
,
that
we
ought
not
presently
to
address
our selves
to
those
other
mysteries
of
our
Saviour
,
but
onely
to
this
of
the
Infancy
,
which
brings
us
into
the
ignorance
,
the
separation
from
,
and
in
applacation
of
things
of
this
life
,
making
no
further
use
of
them
,
than
as
they
are
given
us
for
necessity
,
which
keeps
us
in
great
silence
,
and
produceth
a
Mortification
of
the
Exteriour
man
,
whilst
the
Interiour
is
busied
in
contemplating
the
most
holy
Soul
of
our
Saviour
,
continually
imploying
it self
in
looking
up
toward
his
Father
,
in
his
Love
,
in
zeal
of
his
Glory
,
in
the
Offering
of
himself
,
and
in
the
obedience
to
proceed
forward
,
in
all
innocence
,
and
purity
,
and
simplicity
,
to
all
his
other
estates
,
through
which
his
Father
had
appointed
him
to
pass
.
I
found
then
,
that
for
the
happy
conducting
of
our selves
through
all
conditions
,
whether
of
light
or
darkness
,
of
we
must
,
for
to
receive
and
improve
grace
,
begin
at
the
Infancy
,
which
teacheth
us
our
first
lesson
of
Abnegation
,
to
be
taught
of
God
,
of
silence
and
innocence
,
without
any
regard
or
pretensions
to
our selves
;
but
with
the
same
spirit
of
submission
and
obedience
,
that
this
blessed
Babe
Christ
Jesus
there
practised
and
taught
us
:
This
light
and
knowledge
hath
established
me
more
than
formerly
in
this
mysterie
,
finding
there
my
bottom
,
abiding
there
with
attention
and
reverence
,
to
do
what
shall
be
commanded
me
afterward
.
For
the
soul
doth
not
raise
it self
by
it self
to
any
thing
;
but
on
the
contrary
,
doth
empty
herself
,
resting
still
in
her
own
littleness
,
with
great
recognition
of
what
passeth
,
and
with
the
simplicity
of
a
pure
resigned
aspect
.
O
Father
,
how
guilty
shall
I
appear
before
God
,
in
answering
so
little
to
the
greatness
of
his
gifts
!
It
is
my
grief
,
and
a
great
one
,
as
he
well
knoweth
.
Some
three
days
after
,
these
words
of
S.
were
unexpectedly
suggested
unto
me
But
chiefly
was
I
affected
with
these
words
,
and
those
that
follow
And
light
was
given
me
to
understand
,
how
that
these
words
carry
with
them
,
the
proof
of
that
which
I
had
contemplated
three
days
before
,
of
the
right
way
and
proceeding
of
this
my
Saviour
,
who
in
his
Infancy
humbled
himself
,
even
to
the
form
of
a
servant
,
and
all
the
rest
of
his
life
,
to
death
,
being
obedient
to
the
Cross
,
following
the
decrees
of
his
Father
,
not
by
election
,
but
by
submission
and
patience
.
This
second
view
confirmed
me
further
,
and
after
another
manner
in
this
mysterie
.
The
Infancy
therefore
of
our
Saviour
,
is
an
estate
,
where
we
must
dye
to
all
things
;
and
where
the
soul
,
in
Faith
,
Silence
,
Reverence
,
Innocence
,
Purity
and
Simplicity
doth
attend
and
receive
the
orders
of
God
,
making
it
his
daily
work
in
Abnegation
;
neither
looking
before
nor
behinde
,
but
being
united
to
the
holy
Childe
Jesus
:
Who
with
an
absolute
Resignation
,
received
orders
from
his
Father
,
for
his
visitation
by
the
Shepherds
and
Wisemen
,
for
his
Circumcision
,
going
up
to
flying
into
his
return
back
,
his
journey
to
to
be
baptized
into
the
Wilderness
to
be
tempted
,
for
his
Preaching
;
and
finally
,
his
Death
upon
the
Cross
,
Resurrection
,
Ascexsion
,
and
Consummation
in
Glory
.
Thus
,
Father
,
ought
we
,
methinks
,
to
follow
Jesus
,
our
Model
,
in
these
steps
,
through
the
grace
of
this
Infancy
.
For
this
reason
,
ought
we
to
address
our selves
to
the
Infancy
,
rather
than
the
Cross
,
or
any
other
Mysterie
,
because
he
emptied
himself
(
as
saith
the
Apostle
)
of
his
own
good
pleasure
,
and
chose
the
Manger
,
but
not
the
Cross
,
to
which
he
was
conducted
by
his
obedience
.
To
teach
us
,
to
chuse
,
of
our selves
,
Annihilation
;
and
after
,
to
suffer
our selves
willingly
,
as
little
children
,
to
led
into
the
Desart
,
the
Cross
,
and
the
Crown
.
I
have
beheld
my
soul
upon
the
Bulwark
of
Innocence
,
and
upon
the
Foundation
of
Death
,
Annihilat
on
,
and
Nakedness
,
to
live
in
Divine
Purity
,
with
the
holy
Infant
Jesus
.
I
have
v●ewed
my
soul
upon
its
Scituation
of
Death
,
Annihilation
and
Nakedness
;
that
is
to
say
purged
and
stripped
out
of
its
self
,
and
of
every
creature
:
For
when
the
soul
is
suspended
,
as
in
a
desart
,
from
beholding
any
thing
at
all
,
and
without
any
prop
to
rest
upon
God
draweth
her
straightway
to
himself
,
by
the
cords
of
pure
love
which
he
letteth
down
from
heaven
(
as
saith
S.
and
this
cord
is
no
other
,
than
the
Infant
Jesus
;
in
union
of
whom
we
ought
to
render
unto
God
,
all
the
rights
of
a
perfect
Sacrifice
,
which
in
Purity
,
Innocence
,
and
Simplicity
,
is
sacrificed
and
consumed
for
his
glory
.
It
hath
often
been
declared
to
me
,
and
this
is
my
very
basis
(
as
far
as
my
infidelity
may
permit
me
to
say
it
)
that
I
ought
to
act
no
further
,
save
by
the
conduct
of
the
Infant
Jesus
,
having
still
before
me
his
sacred
actings
,
his
unspotted
love
to
his
Father
,
his
sacrificing
himself
for
his
Glory
,
and
the
destruction
of
sin
;
his
submission
to
all
his
Decrees
,
which
he
understood
distinctly
,
waited
upon
with
patience
,
and
executed
in
their
several
seasons
:
In
the
Manger
,
in
his
flight
into
in
his
thirty
years
Concealment
,
in
his
travels
till
his
death
;
acting
nothing
by
his
own
,
but
according
to
the
perfect
will
of
his
Father
.
Whereby
I
am
taught
my
duty
,
to
work
in
the
same
purity
of
spirit
〈◊〉
For
the
conservation
of
which
,
Innocence
and
Simplicity
are
communicated
unto
me
,
like
two
Bulwarks
to
uphold
me
therein
.
Innocence
is
one
Bulwark
of
this
Purity
;
or
if
you
please
,
a
bright
Chrystal
,
through
which
I
behold
all
things
without
offence
;
that
is
to
say
,
without
receiving
infection
from
them
,
so
that
the
vices
and
disorders
of
men
do
not
fix
or
make
any
impression
upon
me
.
This
Innocence
carries
me
forth
to
my
neighbour
with
exceeding
great
benignity
and
sweetness
,
and
is
an
incredible
relief
and
succour
to
me
in
all
imployments
,
by
reason
of
the
multitude
of
mischiefs
and
sins
I
daily
meet
with
;
it
being
my
Saviours
pleasure
I
should
fly
to
this
for
remedy
against
them
.
Innocence
therefore
applies
it self
to
what
is
before
me
in
all
my
actions
,
to
the
end
that
Purity
should
receive
no
trouble
in
its
operation
;
that
is
to
say
,
in
the
respect
it
hath
towards
God
.
Simplicity
is
the
other
Bulwark
and
Guard
of
Purity
,
and
hath
its
influence
chiefly
upon
what
is
past
and
done
,
separating
my
soul
from
all
duplicity
,
and
multiplicity
,
and
reflections
upon
what
hath
been
done
or
seen
.
Thus
is
my
soul
happily
inclosed
betwixt
two
Bulwarks
,
and
two
Walls
;
whereof
the
one
,
Innocence
,
preserveth
her
against
the
present
and
the
future
;
the
other
,
of
Simplicity
,
from
what
is
past
and
behinde
her
.
Happy
are
those
souls
,
that
are
called
to
this
Mysterie
,
and
to
be
acquainted
with
,
and
enjoy
God
,
made
man
,
in
the
Manger
:
From
which
,
no
doubt
,
they
receive
great
blessings
,
in
the
penetration
and
possession
of
the
Purity
,
Innocence
and
Simplicity
of
this
Divine
Babe
;
in
the
same
manner
as
men
finde
it
more
easie
,
to
obtain
favours
on
the
Birth-day
,
or
Coronation
of
a
great
Prince
,
than
at
other
times
.
Your
life
is
hid
with
God
,
through
Jesus
Christ
There
is
nothing
in
this
world
,
so
separate
from
the
world
,
as
God
;
and
the
greater
the
Saints
are
,
the
greater
is
their
retirement
into
him
:
This
our
Saviour
taught
us
,
whilst
he
lived
on
earth
,
being
in
all
his
visible
employments
united
to
God
,
and
retired
into
the
bosom
of
his
Father
.
I
carry
about
with
me
ordinarily
,
an
experimental
verity
,
and
a
plenitude
of
the
presence
of
the
Holy
Trinity
.
All
things
vanish
out
of
my
fancy
,
as
soon
as
they
appear
,
nothing
is
permanent
in
me
but
God
,
through
a
naked
faith
,
which
causing
me
to
resign
my self
up
to
my
Saviour
,
affordeth
me
strength
and
confidence
in
God
the
Trinity
;
in
that
the
operation
of
the
three
Divine
persons
is
manifested
to
me
in
a
distinct
manner
The
love
of
the
Father
,
which
reconcileth
us
by
his
Son
;
the
Father
and
the
Son
who
give
us
life
through
the
Holy
Spirit
;
the
H.
Spirit
which
causeth
us
to
live
in
in
Communion
with
Jesus
Christ
;
which
worketh
in
us
a
marvellous
alliance
with
the
Sacred
Trinity
,
and
produceth
often
in
our
hearts
by
faith
,
such
inward
feelings
,
as
cannot
be
expressed
:
How
that
the
proper
and
special
effect
of
Christian
grace
is
,
to
make
us
know
God
in
the
Trinity
,
uniting
us
to
the
Son
,
who
causeth
us
to
work
by
his
Spirit
.
And
to
say
the
truth
,
we
are
consecrated
by
our
Baptism
to
the
worship
of
the
B.
Trinity
:
Therein
we
are
consecrated
to
his
Glory
,
receive
its
Seal
,
and
put
on
its
Badge
and
Livery
;
to
manifest
to
us
,
and
to
all
the
world
,
that
we
are
perfectly
and
absolutely
its
own
.
The
Feast
of
the
blessed
Trinity
,
giveth
me
this
occasion
to
write
,
that
we
may
renew
our selves
in
the
honour
and
dependance
we
have
upon
this
incomparable
Mysterie
:
I
desire
to
joyn
hearts
with
you
,
to
adore
that
which
we
are
not
able
to
express
:
Let
us
melt
into
an
acknowledgement
thereof
,
and
fo●tifie
our selves
by
the
grace
of
Faith
,
through
Christ
,
to
be
perfected
in
this
adorable
Mysterie
.
Infinite
things
might
be
spoken
,
which
my
heart
resenteth
,
of
the
latitude
of
this
grace
,
but
I
cannot
utter
them
:
I
beseech
you
,
let
us
adore
God
,
let
us
adore
Jesus
Christ
,
let
us
adore
the
holy
Spirit
;
which
Spirit
discovereth
unto
us
the
operations
of
love
and
mercy
of
these
Divine
Persons
in
us
,
and
let
us
make
good
use
thereof
.
The
Divine
goodness
worketh
in
me
,
that
which
I
am
not
able
to
express
:
I
possess
even
the
B.
Trinity
,
and
finde
distinctly
in
my self
the
operations
of
the
three
Divine
Persons
.
O
how
good
a
thing
is
it
to
live
of
Faith
!
I
seem
to
understand
this
Vertue
every
day
better
and
better
:
Those
that
are
established
in
this
,
the
life
by
which
the
just
live
(
according
to
S.
are
at
length
compleated
to
Perfection
,
and
enjoy
here
the
first
fruits
of
glory
.
The
pure
and
vigorous
Faith
of
the
primitive
Christians
caused
them
to
act
without
those
conveniences
and
necessaries
which
we
stand
upon
(
which
indeed
argue
the
decay
and
weakness
of
Faith
)
such
heroick
actions
,
as
we
onely
now
admire
;
these
assuredly
lived
by
Faith
,
without
any
form
and
composition
of
their
own
proper
spirit
,
in
great
Simplicity
,
Efficacy
and
Verity
.
We
seldom
meet
with
persons
addicted
to
prayer
,
that
can
behave
themselves
prudently
under
Interior
derelictions
;
or
that
can
have
patience
to
wait
for
some
time
at
the
door
of
sensible
consolations
and
enlightnings
,
without
making
a
forcible
entry
;
that
do
not
chafe
themselves
,
and
cast
this
way
and
that
way
,
and
seek
by
their
own
means
to
procure
them
;
seeking
for
another
support
than
that
of
Faith
,
which
alone
should
suffice
any
spiritual
man
:
These
sensible
gusts
are
but
sent
as
supplements
of
the
littleness
,
and
cordials
for
the
faintings
of
faith
:
But
the
just
should
live
by
faith
,
and
upon
that
foundation
rest
himself
in
expectation
of
our
Saviour
with
patience
:
Our
inconveniences
arise
from
hence
,
that
we
are
a
people
of
little
faith
,
to
discern
things
by
its
light
,
although
we
often
pretend
to
know
more
than
really
we
do
.
Where
shall
we
meet
with
a
Faith
comparable
to
that
of
the
Centurion
?
Alas
,
what
a
shame
is
this
to
our
Spiritual
persons
,
who
talk
much
of
Faith
,
but
indeed
have
little
more
than
the
sound
,
scarce
any
thing
of
the
truth
and
effect
thereof
?
how
few
are
there
that
can
bear
the
afflictions
of
spirit
or
body
,
with
a
naked
Faith
,
and
such
a
simplicity
,
as
seeketh
remedy
onely
from
God
,
and
maketh
use
of
patience
,
when
comfort
doth
not
appear
so
soon
as
expected
:
We
all
covet
to
enjoy
Jesus
Christ
sensibly
,
and
that
he
would
come
to
our
houses
,
to
cure
our
anxieties
:
And
for
want
of
these
sensible
comforts
,
the
Spirit
runs
and
wanders
on
all
hands
,
seeking
repose
,
but
findes
it
not
,
because
indeed
it
is
not
to
be
found
in
her
action
,
but
onely
in
her
sacrifice
made
in
Faith
,
which
brings
down
the
Spirit
of
Christ
,
which
is
our
strength
and
life
,
in
the
midst
of
troubles
,
and
of
death
.
The
Centurien
was
ashamed
and
confounded
that
Christ
would
come
to
his
house
,
his
Faith
mounting
far
above
these
sensible
signs
:
Whereupon
he
is
honoured
with
the
name
of
a
true
believer
,
and
so
propounded
to
us
for
a
pattern
.
I
send
you
a
Paper
,
which
I
received
three
moneths
since
,
from
a
person
of
great
vertue
,
whom
you
know
;
which
she
had
kept
for
me
,
not
daring
to
trust
it
ith
any
others
:
That
which
confirmeth
me
in
the
opinion
I
had
of
her
solid
vertue
is
,
that
she
never
told
me
any
thing
,
to
which
I
did
not
finde
my self
predisposed
Interiourly
:
This
is
as
a
seal
to
confirm
my
former
resolutions
concerning
this
,
without
building
any
certainty
upon
the
thing
it self
:
for
we
should
be
emptied
of
all
reliance
upon
any
thing
,
and
of
all
reflections
,
following
in
simplicity
of
Faith
,
without
dispute
,
that
which
our
Saviour
doth
to
the
soul
for
the
time
present
,
be
it
concerning
this
or
that
.
Noli
timere
,
tantummodo
crede
;
Fear
not
,
onely
believe
:
The
diffidence
you
have
in
your self
,
makes
me
very
intent
upon
the
good
of
such
a
condition
,
and
upon
the
sure
foundation
thereof
,
which
the
Church
desires
we
should
ever
conserve
,
placing
at
the
beginning
of
every
hour
of
the
Divine
Office
,
this
Virsicle
,
Whereby
we
learn
,
that
the
soul
is
in
continual
danger
of
a
Precipice
,
if
not
sustained
by
that
infinite
mercy
,
which
he
is
daily
to
invoke
,
for
her
preservation
from
ruine
:
And
really
,
we
should
continually
fall
,
if
we
were
not
continually
supported
;
therefore
the
Church
hath
divided
her
Office
for
the
seaven
parts
of
the
day
,
in
that
the
number
of
seven
comprehends
all
time
:
the
world
being
created
under
this
number
,
to
teach
us
,
that
we
should
at
all
times
retain
this
Diffidence
of
our selves
,
and
Confidence
in
Gods
assistance
.
As
for
my
children
,
I
leave
them
in
the
hands
of
the
Holy
Infant
Jesus
,
without
determining
any
thing
concerning
them
,
not
knowing
what
will
befal
to
morrow
:
He
giveth
me
great
confidence
in
his
protection
,
which
renders
me
altogether
blinde
,
without
wishing
any
thing
,
but
being
ready
for
his
will
in
every
thing
.
My
soul
being
armed
with
Confidence
,
Faith
,
and
Love
,
fears
neither
the
Devil
,
nor
Hell
nor
all
the
stratagems
of
man
;
neither
think
I
at
all
,
on
Heaven
,
or
Earth
,
but
onely
how
to
fulfil
the
will
of
God
in
every
thing
.
In
our
aridities
and
privation
,
of
the
sense
and
feeling
of
grace
is
manifested
an
heroick
abnegation
of
our selves
to
the
will
of
God
;
when
under
Hope
,
believing
against
Hope
we
shew
our selves
to
be
true
sons
of
shall
not
dye
,
though
the
knife
be
at
his
throat
;
and
in
case
the
true
should
,
in
fine
,
be
crucified
,
it
is
but
to
make
us
conformable
to
the
Cross
,
and
cut
of
our
ashes
to
raise
us
to
a
true
and
better
life
.
I
have
a
very
clear
insight
into
the
great
want
I
have
of
my
Saviour
:
him
I
behold
in
his
riches
,
and
my self
in
my
deep
poverty
;
him
I
look
upon
invironed
i●
power
,
and
my self
in
weakness
;
whereby
my
spirit
being
filled
with
content
,
by
the
impression
of
these
words
,
doth
rest
upon
a
total
abandoning
of
its
self
into
his
bounty
.
These
words
have
dwelt
longe
upon
my
spirit
,
though
I
did
not
at
first
remember
whence
they
were
taken
,
or
what
they
meant
:
onely
this
,
that
I
must
wait
with
patience
for
the
commands
and
approach
of
my
Saviour
,
without
putting
my self
forward
by
my
own
inquest
or
endeavours
,
but
rest
with
faith
and
reverence
,
begging
his
grace
,
and
hope
in
him
:
But
a
few
days
ago
,
taking
up
the
New
Testament
,
in
opening
the
Book
,
I
did
light
upon
the
sixth
Chapter
to
the
where
the
Apostle
speaks
of
Faith
and
Patience
,
whereby
we
obtain
the
promises
and
to
prove
this
,
brings
in
the
example
of
This
passage
touched
me
to
the
very
heart
,
and
relieved
my
languishing
;
together
with
another
passage
of
S.
which
presented
it self
to
my
eye
at
the
same
time
,
Hereby
I
was
settled
in
peace
,
upon
the
solid
foundation
of
Hope
and
Abnegation
.
Think
you
this
was
without
a
special
providence
,
that
our
Saviour
suffered
his
Disciples
to
go
alone
into
that
ship
,
and
permitted
a
contrary
winde
to
arise
?
Who
knows
not
,
that
in
the
same
manner
he
fashions
the
souls
of
the
faithful
,
by
his
absences
,
and
by
their
tryals
,
that
he
may
afterwards
manifest
his
power
,
upon
the
seas
and
tempests
,
quickning
thereby
our
Faith
,
and
shewing
himself
to
be
the
Messias
and
true
Deliverer
of
the
world
:
But
,
observe
we
,
how
many
Christians
in
their
sufferings
,
are
affrighted
,
with
the
Apostles
,
seeing
our
Saviour
marching
on
the
waters
:
Every
thing
makes
them
afraid
the
winds
,
the
waves
,
yea
,
even
Christ
himself
(
that
is
)
the
anxiteies
of
their
spirit
,
their
own
disputings
,
and
also
those
good
coursels
that
others
give
them
for
their
establishment
upon
Christ
Jesus
,
before
God
:
All
this
appears
but
as
a
Ghost
to
amaze
them
,
unless
Christ
himself
graciously
appear
yet
more
unto
them
,
to
comfort
and
strengthen
them
.
Shall
we
always
want
confidence
,
thus
to
think
Christ
a
Phantasm
?
Shall
we
not
address
our selves
to
him
in
all
our
necessities
,
as
to
our
Lord
and
Deliverer
?
The
Jews
brought
all
their
sick
folks
to
him
,
and
he
cured
them
:
What
,
is
he
become
a
greater
Physician
of
the
body
,
than
of
the
soul
?
No
,
no
,
our
little
Faith
,
our
little
Love
,
our
little
Confidence
,
is
the
cause
of
our
languishings
,
and
unfruitful
anxieties
of
spirit
:
Let
us
go
strait
to
him
,
and
all
will
be
cured
.
Our
Glorious
Lord
hath
from
time
to
time
,
with
his
resplendent
beams
,
shone
upon
my
soul
quickning
her
therewith
;
which
have
appeared
in
such
several
manners
,
and
have
wrought
such
great
things
in
a
short
time
,
as
would
take
up
far
more
to
write
them
,
which
really
I
am
afraid
to
undertake
or
begin
.
They
all
concenter
in
this
one
point
,
the
love
of
God
through
Jesus
Christ
,
his
communication
of
himself
to
us
by
the
Incarnation
of
his
Eternal
Word
,
and
ours
to
him
through
the
same
Word
,
becoming
our
brother
,
conversing
with
us
,
and
erecting
,
as
it
were
,
a
mutual
society
,
that
we
may
be
all
one
in
him
,
and
experimentally
feel
what
the
love
of
God
is
toward
us
.
In
all
that
I
read
in
the
Scripture
,
I
neither
understand
nor
find
any
thing
else
but
this
Love
;
and
perceive
clearly
,
that
the
very
design
and
end
of
Christianity
is
nothing
but
it
,
And
this
is
acquired
by
Faith
in
Christ
Jesus
,
as
the
Apostle
saith
in
the
following
words
,
Which
uniteth
and
bindeth
us
to
him
;
whereby
we
sacrifice
unto
the
Divinity
,
our
souls
and
our
bodies
,
through
his
Spirit
,
which
conducteth
us
to
the
compleat
end
of
the
Law
,
to
deliver
us
up
to
God
,
and
bring
down
him
to
us
,
in
charity
,
and
a
gracious
inexplicable
union
,
to
whom
be
praise
for
ever
,
Amen
.
My
heart
was
this
mor●ing
enlightned
with
a
great
Charity
,
upon
these
words
,
Which
gave
me
to
understand
,
that
the
true
effect
of
the
knowledge
of
God
,
is
to
annihilate
our selves
before
him
:
for
this
knowledge
coming
to
discover
unto
us
,
that
infinite
Majestie
,
the
soul
abaseth
and
emptieth
it self
,
through
the
deep
sense
of
fear
and
reverence
,
according
to
the
measure
of
this
discovery
:
And
this
is
the
first
step
of
the
soul
in
this
estate
.
Next
he
love
of
God
manifested
to
us
in
the
giving
us
his
Son
,
begins
to
affect
us
with
love
:
And
as
the
former
view
of
his
greatness
contracted
us
in
fear
,
so
this
his
love
in
Christ
Jesus
enlargeth
and
elevateth
us
to
love
God
in
him
and
to
conceive
some
good
desires
according
as
his
spirit
breathes
in
us
:
And
this
is
the
second
step
.
The
third
is
,
to
serve
him
(
that
is
)
by
putting
this
love
into
practice
by
good
works
:
For
these
desires
are
but
blossoms
,
and
these
good
works
the
fruit
:
I
could
say
much
on
this
subject
,
if
I
could
express
my
own
feeling
of
it
:
For
here
we
finde
all
in
all
;
that
is
,
God
revealed
by
Jesus
Christ
,
loved
and
served
by
his
Spirit
.
This
Divine
Lord
sets
up
a
blessed
Society
,
and
a
Kingdom
in
our
souls
,
wherein
he
rules
and
reigns
there
by
love
unspeakable
and
eternal
.
I
give
thanks
to
our
Lord
,
for
that
he
hath
disposed
you
to
a
perfect
Abnegation
of
your self
:
This
is
done
,
to
lead
you
into
the
pure
estate
of
love
;
which
without
that
,
cannot
be
pure
;
in
that
our
love
to
God
consisteth
not
in
receiving
gifts
and
graces
from
him
,
but
in
renouncing
all
things
for
him
,
in
an
Oblivion
of
our
selvee
,
in
suffering
constantly
and
couragiously
for
him
.
I
must
now
hold
my
peace
,
yet
when
I
cease
to
speak
,
the
fire
within
,
that
consumes
me
,
will
not
let
me
rest
:
Let
us
burn
then
,
and
burn
wholly
,
and
in
every
part
,
for
God
:
since
we
have
no
being
but
by
him
,
why
then
do
we
not
live
to
him
?
I
speak
it
aloud
,
and
it
would
be
my
crown
of
glory
,
to
seal
it
with
my
blood
,
and
this
I
utter
to
you
with
great
freedom
.
I
know
not
what
your
intent
was
,
to
put
into
your
Letter
these
words
,
Onely
you
invite
thereby
,
to
return
the
same
to
you
,
and
to
all
creatures
.
If
perhaps
you
take
this
for
your
motto
,
and
use
it
to
express
how
full
your
heart
is
of
it
;
think
you
it
possible
I
should
be
silent
upon
such
an
invitation
,
and
not
express
my
sense
thereof
!
Likewise
,
be
it
known
to
you
therefore
,
that
he
is
And
if
you
doubt
of
it
,
I
shall
speak
it
a
hundred
times
over
.
I
shall
adde
no
more
,
for
any
thing
else
is
superfluous
to
him
that
is
truly
penetrated
with
I
leave
you
therefore
in
this
happy
state
of
Jubilation
,
and
conjure
you
to
beg
for
me
of
God
,
the
solid
sense
of
these
words
.
One
day
being
transported
with
an
earnest
desire
to
be
all
to
God
,
and
all
consumed
for
him
,
I
offered
up
to
him
all
I
could
,
yea
,
and
all
that
I
could
not
:
I
would
willingly
have
made
a
Deed
of
Gift
to
him
of
Heaven
and
Earth
,
if
they
had
been
mine
.
And
in
another
way
,
I
would
willingly
have
been
the
underling
of
all
mankinde
,
and
in
the
basest
estate
possible
;
yea
,
and
if
supported
by
his
grace
,
I
could
have
been
content
,
to
have
suffered
eternal
pains
with
the
damned
,
if
any
glory
might
have
accrew'd
to
him
thereby
.
In
this
disposition
of
a
calm
zeal
,
there
is
no
sort
of
Martyrdome
,
no
degree
of
greatness
or
littleness
,
of
honour
or
disgrace
,
that
passed
not
through
my
spirit
,
and
which
my
soul
would
not
readily
have
embraced
for
the
advancement
of
his
glory
:
Here
a
man
would
be
content
to
be
a
King
,
to
govern
all
;
or
the
meanest
Beggar
,
or
most
miserable
Wretch
,
to
suffer
all
for
him
;
and
this
without
reason
,
through
an
excess
of
reason
.
It
is
an
impossible
thing
to
understand
,
how
in
so
short
time
the
soul
should
wish
such
different
things
,
and
a
large
discourse
would
be
too
narrow
to
declare
one
circumstance
thereto
belonging
:
All
I
could
do
in
this
condition
,
was
to
give
up
my
liberty
to
God
,
writing
the
Deed
in
paper
,
and
signing
it
with
my
own
blood
.
I
must
tell
you
,
that
during
my
absence
from
the
Countess
of
my
heart
was
tenderly
sensible
of
her
pain
,
knowing
that
she
suffered
very
much
:
But
my
desire
submits
to
the
Order
of
God
,
and
when
that
is
signified
to
me
,
he
gives
me
grace
to
obey
.
Coming
to
I
received
the
news
of
her
death
;
when
I
resigned
my self
wholly
to
God
,
attending
his
good
pleasure
for
what
would
follow
.
I
have
been
held
these
three
weeks
with
a
seavour
,
together
with
a
defluxion
,
and
an
exceeding
great
weakness
;
and
my
frame
of
spirit
during
this
condition
,
hath
been
a
simple
prosecution
of
,
and
adherence
to
the
will
and
pleasure
of
God
:
I
discover
nothing
in
particular
worth
writing
to
you
,
saving
that
I
have
a
heart
ready
to
receive
any
afflictions
that
can
befall
me
.
I
desire
whatever
is
decreed
from
above
,
and
beg
it
with
all
my
heart
.
I
cannot
deny
,
but
my
nature
is
deeply
affected
with
the
sense
of
so
great
a
loss
,
yet
my
spirit
is
filled
with
so
wonderful
a
joy
,
to
see
my self
in
such
a
state
,
as
to
give
up
and
sacrifice
to
my
God
,
a
thing
so
near
and
dear
to
me
,
that
if
civility
did
not
forbid
it
,
I
would
make
appear
outwardly
,
and
give
some
publique
testimony
of
my
readiness
thereunto
.
My
present
condition
consists
in
an
adherence
of
my
will
to
whatsoever
God
is
pleasad
concerning
me
,
and
this
I
am
sensible
of
from
the
bottom
of
my
soul
:
I
have
of
late
undergone
very
great
aridities
of
spirit
(
except
some
few
intervals
)
where
all
is
said
open
,
and
my
soul
resigneth
herself
to
God
in
an
inexplicable
manner
,
from
which
she
remains
full
of
certainty
and
of
truths
,
which
will
not
easily
vanish
,
though
they
cannot
without
difficulty
be
unfolded
,
From
that
instant
,
God
hath
bestowed
upon
me
such
a
conformity
to
his
will
,
that
as
I
acknowledge
all
things
to
be
guided
by
his
hand
,
so
likewise
I
receive
every
thing
from
it
.
The
party
hath
,
since
that
time
,
felt
such
a
wonderful
great
conformity
to
the
will
of
God
,
that
he
can
will
nothing
,
but
what
God
willeth
;
neither
can
he
understand
how
any
man
should
will
any
thing
else
:
this
makes
every
thing
pass
smoothly
and
currently
.
It
behoveth
a
soul
to
give
up
it self
to
God
;
walking
on
in
simplicity
in
all
its
operations
;
applying
it self
to
every
thing
,
not
for
the
thing
it self
,
but
in
order
to
the
will
of
God
,
not
engaged
at
all
to
it
,
but
to
God
,
obeying
and
honouring
him
in
every
thing
.
I
comprehend
not
that
thing
you
call
Mortification
:
If
one
lives
in
this
estate
of
Conformity
;
for
such
finding
no
resistance
in
his
spirit
,
is
not
capable
of
it
:
Who
so
willeth
whatever
God
willeth
,
is
daily
content
,
let
what
will
happen
.
I
have
been
busied
all
this
last
moneth
in
studying
my
own
baseness
,
I
am
seized
with
great
confusion
,
accompanied
with
exceeding
Reverence
before
God
,
as
one
that
hath
his
eyes
cast
down
before
the
Throne
of
his
Majestie
,
not
daring
to
look
up
.
Let
us
behave
our selves
in
the
presence
of
God
,
as
the
men
of
the
world
do
before
their
Prince
;
who
not
withstanding
they
be
men
of
spirit
,
and
have
their
heads
full
of
weighty
business
,
yet
stand
bare
in
his
presence
,
and
with
modest
and
humble
behaviour
,
forbear
to
speak
,
not
listening
to
any
thing
but
what
he
speaks
,
forgetting
all
other
business
:
And
all
this
they
are
obliged
to
by
civil
respect
,
and
pay
this
duty
to
one
,
perhaps
,
inferiour
to
themselves
in
natural
parts
.
How
much
more
should
the
Holiness
,
the
Majestie
,
the
Infinite
Greatness
of
God
,
ravish
us
from
our selves
,
and
work
in
us
a
most
profound
Reverence
.
I
purpose
,
if
you
allow
of
it
,
to
put
my self
into
a
regular
course
,
to
give
you
an
account
of
my
state
the
day
of
every
moneth
:
And
then
coming
to
his
faults
he
saith
,
For
my
faults
,
I
give
you
here
a
few
,
which
I
can
remember
,
of
those
many
,
I
have
committed
.
Vpon
two
several
occasions
,
I
spake
two
words
passionately
to
my
servants
.
I
omitted
twice
to
recite
the
prayer
,
through
forgetfulness
I
am
as
blinde
(
or
rather
more
)
in
espying
my
faults
,
as
in
other
things
:
Onely
in
general
,
I
have
a
deep
sense
of
my
misery
;
and
I
can
say
,
that
I
am
not
ignorant
of
my
unworthyness
,
and
that
lamentable
corruption
which
sin
hath
wrought
in
me
;
the
sad
effects
whereof
,
have
been
these
this
moneth
,
Speaking
with
one
about
a
deed
of
Charity
;
which
was
,
to
dispose
of
some
Orphans
,
for
their
education
in
the
true
Religion
,
I
named
inconsiderately
two
Gentlemen
their
Kinsmen
,
who
had
refused
to
be
employed
therein
.
I
mentioned
the
fauls
of
a
certain
person
,
to
another
,
that
knew
of
them
before
,
upon
design
to
make
him
understand
,
that
he
was
in
a
better
condition
:
But
my
Conscience
presently
reproached
me
,
that
it
had
been
sufficient
to
have
spoken
of
the
good
conditions
of
this
party
,
without
mentioning
the
evil
of
the
other
:
In
which
I
confess
I
meddled
too
much
in
that
affair
.
In
sum
,
I
am
a
s●ragler
from
God
,
and
a
ground
over-run
with
thorns
.
My
fauls
are
as
one
great
heap
,
which
I
feel
in
my self
obstructing
the
light
from
God
,
I
am
strangely
remiss
and
ungrateful
:
I
assure
you
I
finde
much
in
my self
,
to
confound
and
humble
me
.
Having
been
employed
a
whole
day
in
taking
up
a
business
,
and
in
the
evening
seeing
one
come
intr
the
room
,
who
was
reputed
by
the
company
,
to
have
maintained
an
untruth
,
I
said
inconsiderately
,
and
for
want
of
care
,
Behold
the
man
that
maintained
that
falsity
.
I
am
sensible
of
my
fault
,
in
mentioning
a
trifle
,
not
without
some
vanity
that
I
had
been
the
means
of
placing
a
servant
in
such
a
great
family
:
I
had
a
motion
within
me
,
not
to
have
spoken
it
,
and
yet
it
escaped
from
me
;
of
which
I
am
exceeding
sensible
,
because
I
should
have
been
faithful
to
the
spirit
of
God
.
Also
I
took
place
at
the
table
of
a
Priest
,
I
made
great
difficulty
of
it
at
first
,
but
I
knew
not
how
I
●ielded
not
to
the
Priest
,
but
to
a
person
of
quality
present
,
that
pressed
me
to
it
.
Give
us
,
O
Lord
,
our
poor
Fishermen
,
I
often
repeated
;
I
meant
the
Apostles
.
But
this
word
ran
much
in
my
minde
,
not
being
able
to
use
any
other
;
and
my
spirit
wronght
much
upon
these
words
,
Fishermen
and
Sinners
.
I
look
upon
these
men
,
simple
indeed
in
their
Exteriour
,
but
great
Princes
in
their
Interiour
,
whose
life
and
outward
appearance
vile
,
in
the
eyes
of
men
,
and
estranged
from
the
pomp
of
the
world
;
converted
souls
,
by
their
Sanctity
,
by
their
Prayers
,
by
their
V●gilance
and
restless
Labours
:
And
herein
I
discover
a
great
mistake
ordinary
in
the
world
;
which
believes
,
that
outward
greatness
and
pomp
,
is
the
way
to
keep
up
ones
credit
,
and
render
him
more
capable
to
do
good
to
his
neigbours
:
But
we
are
foully
mistaken
,
for
it
is
grace
that
hath
power
upon
souls
,
and
an
holy
and
humble
life
,
that
gaineth
hearts
.
Being
this
day
present
at
Divine
Service
many
words
therein
put
me
in
minde
of
the
holiness
thereof
;
and
yet
I
could
not
without
much
grief
,
take
notice
of
some
chanting
it
hastily
,
without
devotion
or
spirit
,
and
others
hearing
it
accordingly
:
Good
God
,
what
pitty
is
this
!
where
is
our
faith
?
My
eyes
were
ready
to
run
over
with
tears
,
but
I
forced
my self
to
refrain
them
.
I
must
needs
let
you
know
,
the
tender
resentment
I
have
of
those
tempests
,
and
present
storms
that
you
endure
:
I
know
no
reason
,
why
men
should
alarum
you
thus
,
nor
that
you
have
done
any
thing
against
the
Gospel
,
which
is
the
onely
thing
they
should
condemn
you
for
:
I
believe
it
will
be
very
hard
for
them
,
to
gather
a
just
cause
of
reproach
from
your
design
.
For
my
own
part
,
I
do
not
wonder
at
these
crosses
,
its
sufficient
to
know
,
that
you
belong
to
Jesus
Christ
,
and
do
desire
to
follow
him
,
reckoning
contradiction
to
be
your
portion
in
these
days
of
your
flesh
.
Be
you
onely
firm
in
your
confidence
upon
our
Lord
,
suffering
no
storms
from
without
to
trouble
you
,
or
obscure
that
light
that
hath
guided
and
pressed
you
to
this
business
.
I
pray
God
deliver
you
from
the
reasonings
of
flesh
and
blood
,
which
often
multiply
upon
us
in
such
matters
;
assuring
you
,
that
if
you
give
not
car
to
them
,
God
will
manifest
himself
unto
you
(
that
is
)
he
will
comfort
and
fortifie
you
,
in
faith
,
and
in
experience
of
the
gifts
of
his
Holy
Spirit
.
Blessed
for
ever
be
the
Blessed
Infant
Jesus
,
for
the
happy
entrance
of
those
two
devout
souls
into
Religion
,
which
you
mention
:
I
shall
rejoyce
exceedingly
in
their
perseverance
,
the
best
argument
of
their
effectual
calling
.
If
the
other
party
you
know
of
,
had
a
little
more
confidence
and
courage
,
to
break
her
fetters
,
it
would
be
a
great
step
for
her
:
And
sur●ly
,
there
is
not
need
of
so
much
prudence
and
deliberation
,
to
give
up
our selves
to
him
,
who
to
the
Gentiles
is
foolishness
,
and
to
the
Jews
a
stumbling
block
.
This
world
is
a
strange
cheat
and
amusement
,
insinuating
into
,
and
infecting
every
thing
.
God
hath
no
need
of
our
good
parts
,
nor
of
our
rare
qualities
,
who
commonly
confounds
the
wisdom
of
the
wise
by
little
things
,
which
he
chuseth
.
Blessed
be
that
littleness
,
which
is
held
for
weakness
,
and
yet
overthroweth
all
the
Power
and
Prudence
of
flesh
.
O
how
happy
are
you
my
Sisters
!
I
thank
my
Saviour
with
all
Reverence
,
for
those
good
dispositions
to
your
Profession
,
signified
in
your
Letter
.
I
understand
,
and
am
sensible
of
abundant
grace
wrought
in
you
,
whereby
I
assure
my self
,
of
a
noble
pregress
I
am
to
expect
,
from
the
bounty
of
God
;
who
is
to
that
soul
,
that
gives
herself
to
him
,
You
have
made
a
leap
which
puts
you
in
a
new
world
:
Blessed
and
adored
be
God
,
who
in
the
fulness
of
time
,
out
of
his
wisdom
and
love
to
a
soul
,
sends
his
Son
unto
it
to
redeem
●t
from
the
Law
of
Servitude
,
and
translates
it
into
the
Adoption
of
his
Sons
.
This
hath
he
now
wrought
in
you
,
in
a
more
special
manner
,
and
the
excellentest
way
that
could
be
.
You
was
never
united
to
Jesus
Christ
,
as
you
are
now
,
by
your
holy
Profession
:
You
had
heretofore
something
to
give
,
that
was
never
before
engaged
,
and
he
something
to
receive
,
that
was
not
formerly
in
his
possession
:
But
now
all
is
given
,
and
all
is
received
,
and
the
mutual
donation
is
accomplished
:
No
more
Self
,
no
more
Life
,
no
more
Inheritance
,
but
in
Jesus
Christ
:
He
is
all
,
in
all
things
,
until
the
time
,
that
(
according
to
the
Apostle
)
he
delevering
us
up
all
,
and
wholly
to
his
Father
;
his
Fa●her
also
shall
be
i●
Jesus
,
and
in
all
his
members
,
all
in
all
,
for
ever
.
Amen
.
Nostre-Dame
de
Grace
Admirable
Mother
Our
Procession
goeth
this
day
into
the
Suburbs
,
and
since
our
Saviour
hath
favoured
us
with
this
great
mercy
,
to
be
of
this
little
flock
,
we
ought
to
follow
his
standard
;
and
I
take
it
for
a
signal
honour
,
to
follow
the
Cross
,
which
way
,
our
holy
Mother
,
the
Church
,
leads
us
;
there
being
nothing
in
her
,
but
what
is
glorious
,
since
she
acts
in
every
thing
,
by
the
Spirit
of
Religion
,
in
the
presence
of
God
;
whereby
she
unfolds
great
mysteries
,
to
those
that
are
humble
and
respective
.
We
should
take
notice
of
that
simplicity
,
in
which
the
Divine
Mysteries
were
conveyed
to
us
,
that
we
may
not
be
held
too
long
with
the
splendour
,
in
which
at
this
day
they
are
celebrated
:
These
thoughts
came
into
my
minde
,
in
hearing
the
Organs
and
Church
Musick
,
and
beholding
the
rich
Ornaments
used
in
the
Divine
Office
;
we
must
look
thorow
this
state
,
at
that
spirit
of
Simplicity
,
Purity
,
and
Humility
,
of
their
primitive
Institution
:
Not
but
that
these
are
holy
and
useful
;
but
that
we
should
pass
thorow
it
to
the
Simplicity
and
Poverty
of
the
Wilderness
,
and
the
Cross
.
I
finde
experimentally
,
a
real
union
both
in
light
and
faith
with
the
party
I
mentioned
,
which
is
more
than
palpable
,
giving
me
assurance
,
that
we
are
all
one
.
Upon
this
occasion
I
shall
acquaint
you
,
in
what
manner
my
minde
hath
been
busied
these
few
last
days
,
and
is
yet
full
of
it
;
and
to
the
end
my
relation
may
be
more
intelligible
,
I
shall
take
the
matter
somewhat
higher
.
The
operation
I
have
found
in
my self
for
these
two
or
three
years
,
hath
constantly
held
me
fixed
in
the
pursuit
of
our
Saviour
Christ
,
to
finde
in
him
Eternal-Life
before
God
the
Father
,
through
the
influence
of
his
Spirit
;
of
which
I
have
from
time
to
time
given
you
account
:
And
now
I
confess
to
you
,
that
though
for
that
time
I
also
honoured
from
the
bottom
of
my
heart
,
our
B.
Lady
,
the
Saints
and
Angels
,
and
have
been
desirous
to
express
it
upon
all
occasions
;
yet
so
it
was
,
that
their
presence
and
their
commerce
was
obscured
in
,
and
,
as
it
were
,
very
remote
from
my
soul
.
I
assure
you
,
that
those
thoughts
hath
frequently
run
in
my
minde
;
saying
thus
within
my self
,
I
so
much
honour
our
Lady
,
and
some
other
Saints
and
Angels
,
and
I
know
not
where
they
are
:
I
lifted
up
my
heart
easily
towards
them
,
but
there
was
no
presence
of
them
at
all
,
at
least
,
such
as
I
now
perceive
it
.
Some
moneths
ago
,
I
possessed
an
opening
,
and
a
light
in
my
soul
,
accompanied
with
powerful
effects
,
concerning
love
and
dear
union
with
God
,
making
me
to
conceive
inexplicable
things
of
God
,
the
Father
,
Son
,
and
Holy
Ghost
(
who
is
perfect
Charity
)
not
by
the
reasonings
and
discourses
of
the
understanding
,
but
by
a
single
view
,
most
by
one
touch
penetrating
the
heart
with
love
:
And
I
beheld
,
how
the
Son
of
God
our
Saviour
,
came
to
advance
us
by
his
Incarnation
,
into
this
love
,
uniting
himself
to
us
,
whereby
to
reduce
us
all
into
this
intimate
and
sweet
union
,
until
he
shall
have
compleated
us
all
in
himself
,
to
be
made
,
all
of
us
,
one
day
,
all
in
God
,
after
he
hath
delivered
up
his
Kingdom
to
his
Father
,
And
we
enter
into
this
blessed
union
,
with
the
Father
,
Son
,
and
Holy
Ghost
.
Some
ten
or
twelve
days
since
,
being
in
my
morning
prayers
,
on
my
knees
,
to
pray
unto
God
,
I
perceived
in
my self
,
that
I
could
find●
no
entrance
unto
him
,
onely
I
kept
my self
there
much
humbled
,
but
the
sight
of
the
Father
,
the
access
to
him
of
the
Son
(
with
whom
I
ordinarily
converse
,
with
as
much
confidence
,
as
if
he
were
yet
upon
earth
)
and
the
assistance
of
the
holy
Ghost
,
seemed
at
a
strange
distance
,
withheld
from
me
;
and
I
perceived
an
unworthiness
in
my self
,
so
great
,
so
real
,
and
so
penetrating
,
that
I
could
no
more
lift
up
the
eyes
of
my
soul
to
heaven
,
than
these
of
my
body
.
Than
was
i●
given
me
to
understand
,
that
I
had
really
that
unworthiness
which
I
felt
.
But
that
I
must
seek
my
entry
to
God
,
and
to
our
Saviour
,
in
the
Communion
of
Saints
:
Whereupon
I
was
on
an
instant
possessed
with
a
wonderful
presence
,
of
the
respect
and
love
,
and
union
of
the
B.
Virgin
,
the
Angels
and
Saints
,
which
I
am
not
able
to
express
,
nor
to
utter
the
greatness
and
solidity
of
this
grace
:
For
this
union
is
Life
Eternal
,
and
the
Ecclesiastical
Paradise
;
and
this
union
is
both
for
the
Saints
in
Heaven
,
and
those
on
earth
,
which
I
have
almost
always
in
full
view
and
presence
.
From
thenceforward
I
understood
,
that
we
were
not
made
by
God
,
to
be
alone
,
and
separate
from
others
,
but
to
be
united
unto
them
,
and
to
compose
with
them
one
divine
total
:
Even
as
a
beautiful
stone
,
fitted
for
the
head
of
a
column
,
is
altogether
unprofitable
,
till
it
be
settled
in
its
place
,
and
cemented
to
the
body
of
the
building
,
without
which
it
hath
neither
its
preservation
,
its
beauty
,
nor
its
end
.
This
meditation
left
me
in
the
love
,
and
in
the
true
and
experimental
connexion
of
the
communion
and
communication
of
Saints
;
yet
with
a
due
order
of
those
to
whom
I
am
more
united
,
which
is
my
Life
in
God
,
and
in
Jesus
Christ
our
Lord
.
I
have
been
very
poor
all
this
moneth
,
I
know
not
whether
I
was
ever
so
lumpish
,
both
in
spirit
and
body
,
as
I
was
upon
the
Festival
day
of
the
Blessed
Sacrament
.
I
was
present
at
Service
,
at
Procession
at
Mass
,
at
Communion
,
heard
the
Sermon
,
at
Vespers
,
and
Compline
;
but
like
a
very
beast
,
not
knowing
how
to
demean
my self
,
either
kneeling
,
or
standing
,
I
was
in
a
kinde
of
restless
condition
of
body
,
and
very
wandring
and
distracted
in
spirit
;
onely
I
knew
well
,
that
in
the
bottom
of
my
soul
.
I
had
a
desire
to
honour
God
through
his
Son
Christ
Jesus
.
After
Compline
,
I
found
my self
so
dull
and
heavy
,
that
seeing
my self
unable
to
remain
before
the
Blessed
Sacrament
,
for
I
fell
all
along
,
I
resolved
to
try
,
whether
upon
retiring
,
and
refreshing
my self
a
little
,
I
should
be
any
better
:
But
for
all
that
,
I
found
my self
more
tired
and
discomposed
in
body
and
minde
,
than
if
I
had
had
the
courage
to
have
lain
there
still
all
along
upon
the
ground
.
Hereupon
I
reflected
upon
what
I
had
formerly
read
,
in
a
Paper
you
sent
me
concerning
a
certain
vertuous
person
,
afflicted
with
the
like
stupefaction
:
Whereupon
I
rose
up
,
and
set
my self
under
the
Crucifix
,
before
the
Holy
Sacrament
,
determining
to
honour
my
Saviour
in
all
conditions
and
tempers
.
Being
thus
upon
my
knees
,
by
the
Divine
assistance
,
I
got
the
victory
over
my self
,
and
my
spirit
was
enlarged
:
Whereupon
I
received
from
the
Blessed
Sacrament
this
illumination
,
That
to
become
Bread
(
which
hath
relation
to
that
Mysterie
)
I
must
first
be
ground
,
like
the
corn
,
than
kne●ded
with
water
,
and
lastly
,
baked
in
the
even
.
And
that
this
was
the
right
way
to
be
incorporated
into
that
mystical
Bread
,
our
Lord
and
Saviour
;
and
at
the
same
instant
that
this
was
revealed
unto
me
,
I
felt
in
my self
,
a
vehement
desire
to
be
thus
dealt
with
,
which
hath
remained
in
me
ever
since
.
And
now
I
understand
,
that
to
enter
into
a
Spiritual
estate
,
we
must
,
like
the
corn
,
before
we
be
sent
to
the
mill
,
be
first
threshed
,
and
winnowed
from
our
earthly
impurities
,
and
that
the
grain
is
not
fit
for
use
,
till
it
be
pure
,
and
that
it
becomes
not
fruitful
,
till
it
first
dyeth
in
the
ground
.
The
meditation
upon
this
material
Bread
,
hath
taught
me
great
Mysteries
(
during
this
Octave
)
of
the
Heavenly
Bread
in
the
Sacrament
how
that
Jesus
Christ
,
being
bruised
and
broken
in
his
Passion
,
giveth
himself
to
us
for
food
,
to
the
end
that
we
might
set
forth
and
express
,
his
Death
,
his
Lnve
,
and
Vertues
in
our
life
.
And
in
this
condition
I
now
finde
my self
much
in
love
with
Jesus
Christ
,
desirous
to
be
wholly
to
him
,
and
to
render
unto
him
in
my
affliction
,
this
which
he
hath
given
me
,
and
my
goods
,
and
my
body
,
and
my
soul
,
and
my
time
,
and
my
eternity
.
I
have
a
great
thirst
upon
me
to
serve
him
,
and
other
longings
,
which
I
reserve
to
communicate
,
until
I
have
the
happiness
to
see
you
.
Citry
,
Blessed
for
ever
be
the
most
Holy
Sacrament
of
the
Altar
:
Since
Advent
,
I
began
a
work
,
which
I
have
designed
this
long
time
at
such
times
,
as
my
urgent
occasions
will
give
leave
,
which
commonly
is
after
supper
,
till
prayer
time
,
to
practice
some
handicraft
work
;
where
having
all
my
tools
,
I
make
Tabernacles
for
the
B.
Sacrament
;
and
if
I
finish
but
one
in
a
moneth
,
my
time
will
not
be
ill
spent
;
for
they
may
be
serviceabe
to
some
poor
Churches
that
want
them
.
de
Renty
Amice
,
ascende
superius
;
Friend
,
fit
up
higher
:
David
,
Domine
,
quis
similis
tibi
?
Quid
est
homo
quod
memor
es
ejus
;
Lord
,
who
is
like
unto
thee
?
What
is
man
that
thou
art
mindeful
of
him
?
This
Prayer
is
not
by
discourse
and
reasoning
,
but
by
a
loyal
love
,
tending
always
to
give
more
,
than
to
receive
.
The
obscurity
of
Faith
is
of
greater
evidence
to
the
soul
,
than
all
the
illuminations
she
can
procure●
;
which
faith
she
ought
to
use
with
Reverence
and
Thanksgiving
,
not
with
Complacency
or
Affectation
:
Here
needs
no
stretch
of
the
Spirit
,
this
Prayer
never
offends
the
brain
;
this
is
a
state
of
modest
deportment
,
in
which
the
soul
keeps
herself
in
the
presence
of
God
;
expecting
what
his
spirit
shall
please
to
infuse
into
us
,
which
we
receive
in
simplicity
,
and
in
considence
,
as
if
himself
spake
to
us
.
Mary
Magdalene
Mary
Magdalene
David
,
andiam
quid
loquatur
in
me
Dominus
Deus
,
will
hearken
what
the
Lord
saith
within
me
Samuel
,
Loquere
Domine
,
quia
audit
servus
tuus
;
Speak
Lord
,
for
thy
servaut
heareth
.
Orantes
,
nolite
,
multum
loqui
;
when
you
pray
,
use
not
many
words
Audi
Filia
;
Hearken
,
O
my
Daughter
.
That
it
was
the
great
imperfection
of
many
souls
,
not
to
attend
sufficiently
to
God
;
the
natural
faculties
being
too
busie
,
and
not
subjecting
themselves
to
him
,
upon
specious
pretences
,
thinking
to
do
wonders
;
whereby
indeed
they
hinder
him
from
working
in
the
soul
,
whilst
he
findes
it
in
a
state
of
agitation
and
inquietude
;
whereas
it
should
be
in
tranquillity
and
silence
,
to
receive
his
operations
.
Some
will
say
,
often
there
occurs
nothing
to
me
in
such
prayers
,
and
I
fear
to
spend
my
time
in
idleness
:
But
know
,
that
you
lose
no
time
at
all
,
when
by
losing
your self
,
you
are
sound
in
a
state
of
Reverence
and
Affiance
in
the
presence
of
God
,
to
make
your
course
towards
him
;
nor
can
he
dislike
such
a
behaviour
.
Another
will
say
,
but
I
have
had
many
distractions
,
and
finde
my self
afflicted
with
great
aridities
,
and
many
other
inconveniences
.
I
answer
,
persevere
still
,
notwithstanding
all
these
difficulties
,
in
your
view
,
of
Faith
and
Reverence
,
and
in
your
Affections
,
as
much
as
you
can
,
and
keep
your self
shut
up
in
the
cabinet
of
your
heart
:
Suffer
the
noise
of
all
these
tempests
without
,
without
heeding
them
;
after
the
example
of
who
in
the
midst
of
his
Ark
,
was
quiet
,
as
his
very
name
imports
,
whilst
winds
and
waves
beat
upon
him
on
every
side
.
Those
things
are
but
necessary
,
and
serve
to
purge
and
dispose
the
soul
for
the
operation
of
God
upon
it
;
even
as
green
wood
puffs
and
sweats
out
its
humidity
,
before
it
can
burn
:
So
,
let
these
distractions
,
and
all
sorts
of
imaginations
assault
us
,
as
it
pleaseth
God
,
but
let
them
not
trouble
or
hinder
us
from
this
holy
exercise
,
onely
let
us
,
diverting
our
minde
from
these
miseries
,
when
we
perceive
any
,
continue
peaceably
,
and
without
noise
,
this
our
Sacrifice
,
with
assurance
that
we
shall
not
wait
long
before
our
Lord
come
unto
us
.
And
himself
,
when
finding
himself
in
such
sterile
condition
,
would
cry
to
God
out
aloud
,
when
he
was
alone
,
I
am
yours
,
O
my
God
,
in
despite
of
all
these
distractions
and
aridities
:
I
am
yours
,
and
will
continue
so
without
reserve
;
you
have
created
me
,
and
I
will
love
you
for
ever
.
I
am
content
with
every
thing
that
proceeds
from
the
will
of
God
,
and
with
what
he
appoints
for
me
:
I
ask
nothing
else
,
I
will
never
trouble
my self
to
procure
consolation
,
or
to
be
freed
from
aridities
,
my
resolution
is
to
bless
God
at
all
times
.
I
am
now
and
then
an
hour
or
two
at
prayer
,
and
nothing
occurs
to
me
:
Sometime
I
am
troubled
with
distractions
,
aridities
,
and
lassitude
;
but
however
it
comes
to
pass
,
I
never
end
,
but
with
a
desire
to
begin
again
;
and
often
this
lassitude
of
body
is
relieved
,
and
vanisheth
by
an
inward
strength
,
which
is
given
me
,
and
which
disposeth
me
to
continue
my
Devotion
out
of
the
time
and
place
of
prayer
,
even
in
the
midst
of
converse
and
business
;
and
I
tell
you
sincerely
,
that
notwithstanding
I
perform
every
thing
so
ill
,
yet
I
finde
little
difference
of
times
for
prayer
,
being
recollected
continually
.
I
was
the
other
day
three
or
four
hours
in
the
Church
with
great
aridities
,
nothing
occurring
whereon
to
fix
my self
:
Behinde
me
I
over-heard
a
good
servant
of
God
saying
his
prayers
,
with
the
I
presently
offered
up
to
God
that
which
I
heard
him
say
;
whereupon
of
a
sudden
,
it
was
discovered
to
me
,
that
when
the
soul
is
alone
in
the
desart
,
where
she
hath
no
creature
to
rest
upon
,
God
casteth
down
from
heaven
his
line
of
love
,
to
draw
her
up
towards
him
;
and
something
to
that
effect
I
felt
in
my self
;
and
though
nothing
did
occur
to
me
,
yet
when
I
end
prayer
,
I
could
willingly
begin
it
afresh
.
he
entred
into
the
dark
cloud
,
in
which
God
was
,
Comedite
amici
,
&
bibite
,
&
inebriamini
charissimi
;
Eat
and
drink
,
my
friends
,
and
be
inebriated
,
you
that
are
dearest
to
me
:
I
have
not
had
this
long
time
any
use
,
neither
at
prayer
,
nor
almost
at
other
times
,
of
the
understanding
,
nor
of
memory
;
I
neither
see
,
nor
feel
any
thing
,
have
neither
gust
nor
disgust
of
any
thing
,
onely
finde
my
will
lively
,
and
ready
for
every
thing
,
that
shall
be
shewed
it
by
God
,
and
for
God
.
I
finde
for
some
time
,
that
my
prayer
is
no
more
regular
:
I
possess
the
Sacred
Trinity
with
a
plenitude
,
of
verity
,
and
clearness
,
and
this
with
such
an
attraction
so
pure
and
so
vigorous
in
the
superior
part
of
my
soul
,
that
my
outward
employment
create
me
no
diversion
at
all
.
Jesus
Christ
worketh
the
experience
of
his
Kingdom
in
my
heart
,
and
I
finde
him
there
my
Lord
and
Master
,
and
my self
wholly
his
:
I
discover
now
a
greater
enlarging
of
my
heart
,
but
so
simple
,
that
I
am
not
able
to
express
it
;
save
onely
thus
,
that
it
is
a
simple
,
but
most
real
sight
of
the
Trinity
accompanied
with
praising
,
blessing
,
and
offering
up
all
homage
thereto
:
All
which
is
done
so
silently
,
that
it
causeth
no
noise
below
,
neither
can
it
be
discerned
in
the
higher
part
of
my
soul
by
parcels
,
so
as
to
be
expressed
,
except
it
be
by
reflexion
:
Whether
I
utter
my self
well
to
you
,
or
no
,
I
know
not
.
Upon
one
word
I
shall
read
in
the
New
Testament
,
I
shall
sometimes
discover
notions
of
those
truths
,
in
so
full
and
piercing
a
manner
,
that
I
ever
feel
my
body
replenished
therewith
,
that
is
,
my
whole
nature
penetrated
.
When
I
read
the
Sacred
Scripture
,
I
fortifie
my self
to
enter
into
those
effects
they
work
,
which
is
a
plenitude
of
the
truth
of
God
,
wherewith
the
soul
is
solidly
and
experimentally
satisfied
.
Deposuit
potentes
de
sede
,
&c.
He
hath
put
down
the
mighty
from
their
seat
,
and
hath
exalted
the
humble
Now
our
Saviour
gave
me
to
understand
in
this
verse
,
that
he
divesteth
this
soul
of
her
own
proper
arrogant
spirit
,
rich
in
nothing
but
iniquity
,
that
he
humbles
,
and
empties
,
and
annihilates
her
,
and
so
advancing
her
at
length
to
a
wonderful
condition
,
where
I
saw
her
reduced
to
an
happy
and
rich
annihilation
,
emptied
of
herself
,
and
dispoiled
of
what
she
possessed
,
of
sense
and
man
;
divested
not
onely
of
the
old
man
,
but
of
the
gifts
of
God
that
are
in
her
,
to
be
presented
before
him
in
nakedness
,
and
simple
obedience
.
I
understood
,
that
in
this
estate
,
the
soul
being
affected
with
great
humility
and
affiance
;
likewise
,
God
did
in
her
,
that
which
he
pleased
,
and
that
she
was
throughly
enlightned
,
and
that
she
discovered
afar
off
the
least
things
,
as
we
usually
do
a
little
bush
in
the
midst
of
a
mown
field
.
Since
the
time
that
I
gave
up
my
liberty
to
God
,
signed
with
my
blood
,
as
I
told
you
:
I
was
given
to
understand
,
to
what
a
state
of
annihilation
the
soul
must
be
brought
,
to
render
it
capable
of
union
with
him
:
I
saw
my
soul
reduced
into
a
small
point
,
contracted
and
shrunk
up
to
nothing
:
And
at
the
same
time
,
I
beheld
my self
,
as
if
encompassed
with
whatsoever
the
world
loves
and
possesseth
,
and
,
as
it
were
,
a
hand
removing
all
this
far
from
me
,
throwing
it
into
the
occan
of
Annihilation
.
In
the
first
place
,
I
saw
removed
all
Exterior
things
,
Kingdoms
,
great
Offices
,
stately
Buildings
,
rich
Houshold-stuff
,
Gold
and
Silver
,
Recreations
,
Pleasures
;
all
which
are
great
encombrances
to
the
souls
passing
on
to
God
,
of
which
therefore
his
pleasure
is
,
that
she
be
stripped
,
that
she
may
arrive
at
the
point
of
nakedness
and
death
,
which
will
bring
her
into
possession
of
solid
riches
,
and
real
life
.
Secondly
,
all
Interior
things
,
which
are
more
delicate
and
precious
;
as
,
Acquired
Sciences
,
skill
and
sublime
Learning
,
operations
of
the
Memory
and
strength
of
Vnderstanding
,
humane
Reason
,
experience
of
Sense
;
of
which
the
soul
must
likewise
be
purged
,
and
dye
to
it●
own
proper
actions
.
And
I
perceived
,
that
we
must
come
like
little
Infants
,
simple
and
innocent
,
separated
,
not
onely
from
evil
,
but
even
from
our
ordinary
way
and
manner
of
doing
that
which
is
good
,
undertaking
what
the
Divine
Providence
presents
to
us
,
by
making
our
way
by
God
to
them
,
and
not
by
them
to
God
;
which
is
a
course
more
naked
,
unengaged
,
and
abstracted
;
which
sees
nothing
but
God
:
And
not
so
much
,
if
I
may
so
say
,
as
the
things
she
doth
,
of
which
nothing
stays
in
her
,
neither
choice
,
nor
joy
,
nor
sorrow
for
their
greatness
,
or
for
their
littleness
,
for
good
or
bad
success
,
but
onely
the
good
pleasure
and
order
of
God
,
which
ruleth
in
all
things
,
and
which
in
all
things
sufficiently
contenteth
the
soul
,
which
adheres
to
him
,
and
not
to
the
vicissitude
of
affairs
,
whereupon
she
is
constantly
even
,
equal
,
and
always
the
same
in
the
midst
of
all
changes
.
An
absolute
abnegation
,
will
be
necessary
to
all
things
,
to
follow
in
simplicity
,
without
reserve
,
or
reflection
,
what
our
Saviour
shall
work
in
us
,
or
appoint
for
us
;
let
it
be
this
or
that
:
This
way
was
shewed
me
,
in
which
I
ought
to
walk
towards
him
;
and
hence
it
is
that
all
things
to
me
,
ordinarily
,
are
without
any
gust
or
delight
.
I
apprehend
great
matters
concerning
the
verity
and
simplicity
of
the
annihilation
I
ought
to
have
;
and
I
had
,
for
the
twinkling
of
an
eye
,
the
sight
how
simple
this
should
be
,
that
the
soul
it self
cannot
take
notice
of
it
:
This
is
the
state
of
Death
and
Annihilation
,
without
regard
to
any
thing
,
save
our
being
wholly
to
God
,
by
Sequestration
,
Faith
,
and
Affiance
.
Assure
your self
,
there
is
no
security
in
any
estate
,
but
this
,
of
Dying
and
Annihilation
;
which
is
,
to
be
baptized
into
Christs
death
,
that
we
may
live
the
life
of
Mortification
;
not
that
other
ways
may
not
be
good
,
but
not
secure
;
especially
any
thing
we
do
of
our selves
:
Our
best
way
is
therefore
,
to
divest
our selves
of
all
,
that
the
Holy
Infant
Jesus
govern
all
.
I
acknowledge
before
God
his
great
mercy
to
me
,
through
his
Son
,
in
freeing
me
from
the
things
of
this
world
:
and
my
constant
thoughts
are
,
that
if
his
order
did
not
oblige
me
otherwise
in
that
condition
he
hath
set
me
,
to
give
away
and
quit
all
I
have
:
This
is
my
earnest
desire
,
after
which
I
long
exceedingly
;
not
out
of
presumption
of
my
own
strength
,
but
in
the
power
of
Jesus
Christ
,
in
imitation
of
his
life
.
All
that
can
be
imagined
in
this
lower
world
,
is
of
small
concernment
,
though
it
were
the
losing
of
all
our
goods
,
and
the
death
of
all
the
men
in
it
:
This
poor
Antchill
,
is
not
worthy
of
a
serious
thought
,
had
we
but
a
little
faith
,
and
a
little
love
,
how
happy
should
we
esteem
our selves
,
in
giving
away
all
,
to
attend
no
more
save
on
God
alone
;
and
to
say
,
First
,
That
she
had
great
reason
for
it
,
in
that
he
so
little
deserved
it
.
I
neither
attend
,
nor
return
any
answer
to
them
;
they
affect
me
no
more
than
a
stock
,
through
the
grace
of
God
,
I
am
insensible
of
praise
and
dispraise
;
the
one
,
nor
the
other
make
not
any
impression
upon
my
spirit
,
but
I
entertain
them
without
reflexion
.
The
love
of
our selves
is
so
afraid
to
be
stripped
out
of
any
thing
,
that
it
suffers
us
not
to
be
carried
forth
to
our
true
rest
,
as
long
as
it
can
subsist
and
uphold
it self
by
its
own
right
and
property
;
which
should
teach
us
,
to
use
all
diligence
for
the
annihilation
of
our
own
desires
,
even
of
those
that
seem
to
us
to
tend
onely
to
vertue
:
I
say
,
that
seem
to
us
,
whereas
indeed
if
God
gave
us
a
true
light
,
we
should
undoubtedly
see
,
that
the
course
which
tends
to
our
divesting
of
all
these
things
,
carries
us
on
secretly
,
but
most
really
,
to
the
true
possession
of
them
,
and
our
own
preservation
;
and
that
we
must
daily
descend
to
our
own
nothingness
,
in
which
alone
God
is
to
be
found
.
Thrice
happy
are
all
such
poor
in
spirit
.
I
am
better
satisfied
with
those
graces
in
which
sense
hath
no
part
;
than
with
those
that
have
more
of
the
sensible
;
of
which
indeed
,
I
am
somewhat
jealous
;
for
we
finde
amongst
spiritual
persons
,
great
store
of
counterfeit
riches
of
the
Spirit
;
those
,
I
mean
,
who
are
all
for
gusts
,
and
sensible
consolations
and
illuminations
,
in
this
state
of
exile
;
wherein
we
ought
to
live
rather
by
faith
,
than
feeling
,
and
which
is
much
to
be
●amented
;
We
meet
very
few
that
are
not
infected
with
this
●●ch
,
it
being
the
natural
condition
of
man
,
to
desire
to
see
,
and
to
that
end
to
affect
and
search
for
enlightnings
,
and
wanting
the
experimental
knowledge
of
that
which
comes
from
God
,
which
is
not
to
be
gotten
but
by
quitting
his
own
,
he
looks
after
that
which
he
findes
in
himself
,
mistaking
it
for
Divine
,
because
it
is
modeliz'd
to
his
own
gust
and
fancy
.
As
for
obscurities
,
aridities
,
and
other
troubles
of
spirit
,
they
are
to
be
born
with
upon
any
terms
;
and
we
must
give
up
our selves
as
forlorn
creatures
,
throwing
our selves
into
God
,
on
all
sides
of
us
,
as
a
fish
in
the
Ocean
,
which
is
its
proper
element
;
into
God
,
at
all
times
and
for
all
things
:
If
we
be
true
members
of
our
Saviour
Christ
Jesus
,
we
shall
see
nothing
but
submissions
and
abnegations
,
and
shall
sense
nothing
else
but
these
.
Those
things
whereof
they
have
given
me
notice
and
assurance
,
must
be
as
they
may
,
I
rest
nothing
upon
them
,
nor
confide
in
them
,
knnowing
it
to
be
my
duty
to
live
by
faith
.
I
have
received
the
paper
,
which
mentions
this
grace
and
favour
,
whereof
I
send
you
the
copy
,
having
no
other
reflection
thereupon
,
but
to
meet
it
with
the
greatest
latitude
of
heart
I
can
possible
,
to
bless
God
,
acknowledge
his
goodness
,
and
serve
him
for
it
.
I
have
burnt
the
original
,
with
several
other
papers
of
the
like
nature
.
If
you
judge
it
not
convenient
that
I
should
do
so
,
let
me
receive
your
commands
accordingly
for
the
future
.
I
could
wish
(
if
there
be
any
thing
left
for
me
to
wish
)
that
I
had
nothing
left
me
but
my
God
:
This
is
the
sure
replenishment
of
the
soul
,
and
rich
treasure
of
the
heart
.
I
cannot
,
without
much
trouble
,
bear
the
great
matter
you
make
of
my
converse
,
and
of
my
removes
:
Let
us
breath
after
God
,
and
make
good
our
alliance
with
Jesus
Christe
to
learn
in
,
and
from
him
,
a
profound
abnegation
of
our selves
.
Jesus
Christ
is
ever
the
same
,
and
his
grace
is
continually
advancing
,
and
as
long
as
I
am
to
him
,
so
long
shall
I
be
to
you
,
for
him
,
and
in
him
;
he
is
not
wont
to
part
souls
,
by
the
separation
of
bodies
;
since
his
custom
is
,
to
separate
onely
what
is
imperfect
,
as
being
that
which
very
often
brings
with
it
some
hinderances
to
the
perfect
life
of
the
spirit
,
which
is
never
so
compleat
,
as
when
it
is
alone
.
I
was
not
in
but
at
when
she
departed
,
I
was
sent
for
post
the
day
of
her
death
,
which
was
but
came
two
hours
too
late
.
Entring
the
Town
,
I
understood
the
news
from
them
,
that
spake
openly
of
it
in
the
streets
:
Presently
I
fixed
my self
to
the
will
of
God
,
whereupon
I
found
no
more
alteration
in
my
soul
,
than
if
she
had
been
alive
:
I
see
his
order
in
this
,
that
I
assisted
her
not
at
her
death
,
and
make
no
doubt
,
but
that
he
permitted
it
for
her
advantage
.
Touching
the
remove
of
your
Ghostly
Father
,
it
would
,
without
question
,
prove
a
great
loss
to
you
,
and
all
the
Countrey
from
whence
he
went
,
if
the
providence
of
God
herein
did
not
rather
sanctifie
and
establish
,
than
destroy
;
and
if
oftentimes
by
removing
these
petty
visible
and
sensible
supports
,
he
did
not
make
way
to
settle
us
more
firmly
in
our
progress
to
which
he
designs
us
;
which
is
,
to
dwell
and
to
hold
our selves
in
God
together
with
Christ
Jesus
;
where
we
finde
all
truth
,
and
all
power
,
and
who
is
so
neer
to
us
,
that
he
is
even
in
the
midst
of
●
;
and
proportionably
,
as
our
dependence
upon
creatures
faileth
,
through
his
providence
,
he
makes
it
appear
,
a●d
we
experimentally
finde
,
that
we
are
not
left
destitute
thereby
,
but
that
supply
is
made
,
either
by
his
Spirit
,
that
resideth
continually
in
us
,
for
our
relief
;
or
by
the
conduct
of
his
Ministers
,
which
the
fewer
they
are
,
the
more
is
that
grace
dilated
and
multiplied
,
which
we
receive
by
them
.
So
great
is
the
providence
of
our
Heavenly
Father
,
as
to
take
care
of
the
meanest
necessities
of
all
his
children
,
who
to
him
behave
themselves
as
children
.
Neither
indeed
ought
we
to
be
further
engaged
to
those
persons
who
assist
us
in
our
Spiritual
conduct
,
than
as
to
Gods
instruments
,
whose
help
,
it
is
his
will
we
should
make
use
of
,
but
no
longer
than
he
pleaseth
;
and
when
his
will
is
,
either
by
death
,
or
otherwise
,
to
take
them
from
us
,
we
ought
not
to
be
afflicted
,
nor
lose
our
courage
;
but
,
with
submission
and
gratitude
,
resign
all
to
him
,
which
will
be
a
good
means
to
move
him
to
provide
others
,
who
perhaps
with
more
advantage
to
us
,
may
understand
the
pulse
of
our
souls
.
It
is
some
while
ago
,
that
finding
my self
in
the
midst
of
a
world
of
people
,
my
spirit
was
enlightned
and
affected
,
neither
to
desire
to
know
any
body
,
nor
to
be
known
to
any
:
This
hath
wrought
in
me
a
wonderful
separation
from
every
thing
;
and
methinks
,
herein
consiste●h
one
of
the
chiefest
points
of
a
Spiritual
Life
,
which
requires
great
purity
of
spirit
,
wonderful
estrangement
and
distance
from
the
creature
,
and
which
placeth
the
soul
in
this
world
(
as
if
it
were
no
part
of
it
)
in
a
state
of
perfect
oblivion
and
ignorance
of
things
which
do
not
concern
her
,
that
is
no
longer
able
to
endure
,
but
onely
what
is
necessary
.
I
adore
so
affectionately
the
will
of
God
,
in
whatsoever
he
pleaseth
to
make
out
for
me
,
that
Hell
it self
should
be
my
Paradise
,
if
he
decreed
me
thither
.
Far
be
it
from
me
,
to
act
in
this
business
by
my
own
spirit
,
I
would
have
it
wholly
annihilated
,
that
it
might
know
no
other
language
but
and
continually
to
follow
in
all
the
footsteps
of
the
Divine
will
,
according
to
its
measure
and
manner
.
My
Saviour
hath
graciously
brought
me
into
such
a
state
of
indifferency
for
every
thing
,
that
I
could
be
very
well
cortent
all
my
life
,
to
be
fixed
to
my
bed
a
Paralytique
,
not
able
to
stir
,
without
making
any
reflection
upon
any
service
I
might
render
to
my
neighbour
,
or
that
I
could
render
him
no
more
;
all
things
,
according
to
the
will
of
God
,
being
equal
to
me
.
Of
late
I
have
been
busied
in
such
occasions
,
both
Exteriourly
and
Interiourly
,
as
were
sufficient
to
have
gravel'd
such
a
weak
,
mean
spirit
as
mine
,
had
it
not
been
absolutely
resigned
to
the
will
of
God
.
It
is
upon
him
alone
,
by
this
way
of
Abnegation
,
that
I
bottom
my self
,
adoring
with
you
,
and
by
your
instruction
,
the
decrees
of
his
Sacred
and
Divine
Will
,
who
holdeth
all
things
in
his
own
hands
to
keep
us
subyect
unto
him
by
his
justice
,
and
to
sanctifie
us
also
by
love
:
If
the
effects
thereof
upon
us
do
evidence
us
to
have
the
hearts
of
children
(
that
is
)
〈◊〉
Spirit
of
Christ
Jesus
,
to
sigh
after
our
heavenly
Father
,
and
cry
,
I
see
clearly
,
that
the
onely
way
to
a
Divine
Union
,
is
to
be
perfectly
divested
of
every
thing
that
is
not
God
,
and
dead
to
our selves
,
and
every
creature
:
O
that
I
well
understood
the
importance
of
this
nakedness
and
death
!
and
what
is
it
that
hinders
the
bonds
of
this
Celestial
love
and
union
with
his
Divine
Majestie
,
and
that
Soveraign
Beauty
,
but
a
certain
shew
of
,
and
light
adherence
to
some
creature
?
and
shall
we
suffer
that
a
thing
so
small
,
and
so
unworthy
,
should
possess
in
the
room
of
God
,
and
that
Holy
Spirit
,
which
is
an
all-consuming
fire
of
love
,
invirancing
us
on
all
sides
,
should
not
have
the
power
to
work
upon
us
the
same
effect
,
which
this
elementary
fire
worketh
upon
wood
?
Why
should
not
I
vicious
and
discontented
creature
,
in
the
midst
of
these
my
wretched
plenitudes
,
acquire
happiness
in
the
possession
of
God
,
which
I
may
do
by
his
grace
,
in
separating
my self
gently
from
the
creature
,
by
a
single
and
affectionate
application
to
the
Creator
.
When
S.
He
layeth
death
as
the
necessary
foundation
of
a
Christian
,
whereby
to
remove
from
him
all
affection
and
inclination
to
the
creature
:
As
we
see
,
that
a
dead
man
hath
no
more
any
motion
or
sense
of
any
thing
;
for
though
we
are
frequently
sensible
of
the
rebellious
motions
of
corrupted
nature
,
yet
they
onely
spring
to
be
choaked
and
stifled
in
their
birth
.
To
this
purpose
the
Apostle
sets
our
Saviour
for
our
pattern
;
of
whom
he
said
in
the
former
part
,
If
you
ask
how
long
,
and
to
what
degree
?
I
answer
,
even
from
the
instant
of
his
conception
,
to
his
death
:
Behold
,
this
is
our
Rule
,
our
Patron
,
and
our
general
Rendezvouz
from
all
sides
.
If
we
understood
truly
,
how
the
real
divesting
our selves
of
all
,
rendred
us
capable
of
union
with
God
,
we
would
incess●ntly
beg
this
grace
,
offering
great
violence
to
our selves
,
to
arrive
at
this
state
of
Death
and
Abnegation
,
to
which
every
Christian
must
endeavour
,
that
aims
at
union
with
God
,
and
ascend
to
perfection
.
I
received
some
years
since
,
great
illumination
upon
this
verity
,
giving
me
to
understand
,
that
the
treasure
hidden
in
the
field
,
mentioned
in
the
Gospel
,
is
no
other
but
this
estate
of
Death
and
Annihilation
,
taking
away
from
us
our selves
,
to
give
us
to
God
,
emptying
us
of
all
creatures
,
to
be
replenished
with
the
Creator
,
the
Fountain
of
all
good
.
Our
Saviour
tells
us
there
,
that
he
that
found
it
,
went
and
sold
all
to
buy
it
:
If
we
understood
the
true
value
of
this
precious
treasure
,
we
would
freely
part
with
our
liberty
,
with
all
we
are
,
and
all
we
have
,
to
purchase
it
.
Really
,
this
should
work
in
us
great
confusion
,
that
such
precious
things
,
and
such
forcible
motives
,
obliging
us
to
tend
to
this
Abnegation
,
we
arrive
at
it
so
slowly
,
and
most
men
so
seldom
.
O
how
few
truly
annihilated
persons
are
to
be
found
!
few
that
do
not
live
according
to
the
corrupted
life
of
the
old
man
,
producing
actions
accordingly
,
when
ever
occasions
of
honour
,
or
profit
,
or
pleasure
are
presented
:
Few
that
attain
to
lose
and
renounce
themselves
in
such
points
as
tend
to
their
perfection
:
Let
us
therefore
employ
all
our
forces
to
arrive
at
this
happy
estate
.
Write
,
blessed
are
they
that
dye
in
the
Lord
from
henceforward
,
for
they
rest
from
their
labours
.
de
Renty
de
Renty
I
desire
nothing
more
but
God
Promise
me
Sir
,
that
you
will
take
pains
therein
,
and
promote
them
with
all
pessible
diligence
:
O
Sir
,
it
is
a
service
well
pleasing
to
God
.
I
recommend
the
poor
to
you
,
will
not
you
have
a
great
care
of
them
?
you
will
perform
it
better
than
I
:
Fear
nothing
,
what
you
give
to
them
,
will
not
lessen
the
rest
.
They
come
hither
to
talk
their
Philosophy
,
of
which
I
have
no
need
.
A
Christian
should
talk
little
To
dye
is
not
to
be
lost
,
our
conversation
and
union
will
hereafter
be
more
near
and
intimate
.
O
Madam
,
there
is
no
comparison
betwixt
a
Saint
and
a
sinner
,
the
will
of
God
be
done
.
No
,
but
that
in
a
business
of
that
consequence
,
and
where
the
memory
and
judgement
were
so
subject
to
decay
,
it
were
not
safe
to
defer
,
for
fear
of
a
surprisal
;
and
that
it
were
very
fitting
to
do
that
,
which
he
had
so
often
advised
others
unto
,
in
the
same
condition
.
My
God
,
my
God
,
pardon
me
,
I
am
a
great
sinner
.
It
is
not
fitting
to
speak
in
the
presence
of
the
Word
Incarnate
,
which
I
have
received
,
nor
take
up
any
room
in
those
hearts
,
which
ought
not
to
be
filled
,
onely
with
God
.
That
his
spirit
was
then
applied
to
that
joy
,
which
a
creature
ought
to
have
,
to
see
it self
upon
the
point
of
being
re-united
to
his
first
Principle
,
and
to
its
last
end
.
Cupio
dissolvi
&
esse
cum
Christo
;
I
destre
to
be
dissoved
,
and
be
with
Christ
The
Spirit
and
the
Bride
say
,
Come
;
and
let
him
that
heareth
say
,
Come
;
and
,
he
that
thirsteth
,
let
him
come
:
Behold
,
I
come
quickly
,
Amen
.
Come
Lord
Jesus
:
O
bright
day
of
Eternity
!
how
this
Sun-shine
chears
me
,
helping
me
to
meditate
on
that
day
,
which
shall
never
have
night
-
Courage
,
courage
,
Eternity
is
at
hand
.
I
adore
you
,
I
adore
you
.
How
so
,
good
Sir
,
shall
I
presume
to
give
a
blessing
in
your
presence
?
I
should
be
happy
to
receive
one
from
you
.
I
pray
God
give
it
to
you
,
and
may
it
please
him
to
bless
you
,
and
to
preserve
you
,
by
his
grace
,
from
the
malignity
of
the
world
,
that
you
may
have
no
part
therein
;
And
above
all
,
my
children
,
that
you
may
live
in
the
fear
and
love
of
God
,
and
yield
due
obedience
to
your
Mother
.
Sir
,
I
have
one
word
to
say
to
you
before
I
dye
The
perfection
of
Christian
life
,
is
to
be
united
unto
God
,
in
the
faith
of
the
Church
:
We
ought
not
to
entangle
our selves
in
novelties
;
let
us
adore
his
conduct
over
〈◊〉
and
continue
faithful
to
him
unto
the
end
;
let
us
adhere
to
that
one
God
,
crucified
for
our
salvation
;
let
us
unite
all
our
actions
,
and
all
that
is
in
us
,
to
his
merits
,
hoping
that
if
we
continue
faithful
to
him
,
by
his
grace
,
we
shall
be
partakers
of
the
glory
of
his
Father
.
I
hope
we
shall
there
see
one
another
one
day
,
which
shall
never
have
end
.
Adieu
,
this
is
all
I
have
to
say
to
you
,
Pray
for
me
The
Holy
Infant
Jesus
,
where
is
he
?
de
Renty
Cum
simplicibus
sermocinat●o
ejus
Sparta
,
Agesila●s
in
Evang
Gregory
Nyssen
Ecce
quam
fulgentes
stellas
Ambrose
,
cap.
de
S.
Ioseph
caeteris
norma
Vivendi
est
in
e
us
v
t●
Legere
coep●t
unus
eorum
&
mirari
,
&
accendi
,
&
inter
legendum
,
med●tari
,
arr●pere
talem
vitam
,
&
relict
â
militiâ
saeculari
,
servire
tibi
;
legebat
&
mutabatur
intus
,
&
exuebatur
mundi
mens
ejus
:
One
of
them
b●gan
to
read
the
life
,
and
as
he
read
,
to
admire
,
and
his
heart
burning
within
him
,
conceived
a
resolution
to
imitate
it
,
to
throw
off
his
sword
,
and
the
Emperours
Service
,
to
become
a
servant
of
God
:
Thus
whilst
he
read
,
he
found
his
heart
changed
,
and
his
soul
to
disentagle
herself
from
the
affections
of
the
world
,
to
put
off
the
old
man
,
to
be
cloathed
with
the
new
.
was
a
man
subject
to
like
infirmities
:
l.
de
Joseph
.
c.
That
vertue
presented
herself
before
him
,
with
a
countenance
full
of
majestie
and
sweetness
,
and
inviting
him
with
a
pleasant
look
,
to
draw
near
,
opening
her
friendly
arms
to
embrace
him
,
which
were
filled
with
a
number
of
persons
,
whose
example
was
sufficient
to
encourage
and
fortifie
him
:
Here
were
young
men
and
maidens
,
men
and
women
of
all
ages
,
vigorous
old
people
,
and
ma●ds
grown
ancient
in
vertue
:
Then
Chastity
,
with
a
little
disda●nful
s●n●le
;
yet
such
a
one
as
was
proper
to
encourage
him
;
said
,
Tu●n
●n
p●●eris
quod
ist
&
istae
?
an
vero
isti
&
istae
in
s●m●t
●sis
possunt
,
ac
non
in
domino
Deo
suo
?
Canst
not
thou
do
what
th●s●
of
both
s●xes
have
performed
?
or
can
any
of
these
perform
this
of
then
selves
?
or
rather
by
the
Lord
their
God
?
testes
tuos
contra
me
,
&
multiplicas
●ram
tuam
adversum
me
;
Thou
producest
thy
witnesses
against
me
,
which
are
thy
Saints
,
because
I
neglected
to
imitate
their
vertues
,
and
encreasest
thine
anger
round
about
me