THe
work
which
I
am
at
this
time
called
unto
in
this
place
(
as
upon
a
publick
Theater
)
is
to
Die
,
and
receive
a
discharge
once
for
all
,
out
of
prison
,
to
doe
that
which
is
but
once
to
be
done
;
and
the
doing
or
not
doing
of
which
well
and
as
becomes
a
Christian
does
much
depend
upon
the
life
we
have
been
taught
of
God
to
lead
before
we
come
to
this
:
they
that
live
in
the
faith
,
do
also
die
in
it
;
Faith
is
so
farre
from
leaving
them
in
this
houre
,
that
the
work
of
it
breaks
forth
then
into
its
greatest
power
,
as
if
till
then
it
were
not
enough
at
freedome
to
doe
its
office
,
that
is
,
to
look
into
the
things
that
are
unseen
with
most
stedfastness
,
certainty
,
and
delight
,
which
is
the
great
sweetner
of
death
,
and
remover
of
its
sting
.
Give
me
leave
therefore
in
a
very
few
words
,
to
give
you
an
account
of
my
life
,
and
of
the
wonderfull
great
grace
and
mercy
of
God
in
bringing
me
home
to
himself
,
and
revealing
his
Sonne
in
me
,
that
by
the
knowledge
of
the
onely
true
God
,
and
Jesus
Christ
whom
he
hath
sent
,
I
might
even
whilst
here
in
the
body
be
made
pertaker
of
eternall
life
in
the
first
fruits
of
it
,
and
at
last
sit
down
with
Christ
in
glory
at
his
right
hand
.
Here
to
mention
some
remarkable
passages
and
changes
of
my
life
.
And
in
particular
,
how
unsought
by
my self
I
was
called
to
be
a
member
of
the
long
Parliament
;
what
little
advantage
I
had
by
it
,
and
by
what
steps
I
became
satisfied
with
the
Cause
I
was
engaged
in
,
and
d
d
pursue
the
same
:
what
the
Cause
was
did
first
shew
it self
in
the
first
Remonstrance
of
the
house
of
Commons
.
Secondly
,
in
the
Covenant
.
Thirdly
,
in
the
more
refined
pursuit
of
it
by
the
Commons
house
in
their
actings
single
,
with
what
result
they
were
growing
up
,
into
was
in
the
breast
of
the
House
and
unknown
;
or
what
the
three
proposals
mentioned
in
my
charge
would
have
been
at
last
,
I
shall
not
need
now
to
repeat
them
.
But
onely
from
all
parts
together
to
assert
that
this
Cause
which
was
owned
by
the
Parliament
,
was
the
Cause
of
God
,
and
for
the
promoting
of
the
kingdome
of
his
deare
Sonne
Jesus
Christ
,
wherein
is
comprehended
our
liberties
and
duties
both
as
men
and
as
Christians
.
And
since
it
pleased
God
who
separated
me
from
the
womb
to
the
knowledge
and
service
of
the
Gospel
of
his
Sonne
,
to
separate
me
also
to
this
hard
and
difficult
service
at
this
time
,
and
to
single
me
out
to
the
defence
and
justification
of
his
Cause
,
I
could
not
consent
by
any
words
or
actions
of
mine
,
that
the
innocent
blood
that
hath
been
shed
in
the
defence
of
it
throughout
the
whole
warre
(
the
guilt
and
morrall
evils
of
which
must
certainly
lye
somewhere
)
did
lye
at
my
door
or
at
theirs
that
have
been
the
faithfull
adhearents
to
this
cause
,
which
is
with
such
evidence
upon
my
heart
that
I
am
most
freely
and
chearfully
willing
to
put
the
greatest
Seal
to
it
I
am
capable
,
which
is
the
powring
out
of
my
very
blood
in
witness
to
it
,
which
is
all
I
shall
need
to
say
in
this
place
and
at
this
time
,
having
spoken
at
large
to
it
in
my
defence
at
my
Trials
and
had
intended
to
say
more
the
last
day
,
as
what
I
thought
was
reasonable
for
the
arrest
of
the
judgement
,
though
I
was
not
permitted
then
to
speake
it
.
Both
which
may
with
time
and
Gods
providence
come
to
light
.
And
I
must
still
assert
,
that
I
remain
wholly
unsatisfied
,
that
the
course
of
proceedings
against
me
at
my
tryall
were
according
to
Law
,
but
that
I
was
run
upon
and
destroyed
contrary
to
right
,
and
the
Liberties
of
Magna
Charta
under
the
form
of
Justice
:
which
I
leave
to
God
to
decide
who
is
the
Judge
of
the
whole
world
,
and
to
clear
my
innocency
.
Whilest
in
the
mean
time
I
beseech
him
to
forgive
them
,
and
all
that
have
had
a
hand
in
my
death
;
and
that
the
Lord
in
his
great
mercy
will
not
lay
it
unto
their
charge
.
And
I
doe
account
this
lot
of
mine
no
other
then
what
is
to
be
expected
by
those
that
are
not
of
the
world
,
but
whom
Christ
hath
chosen
out
of
it
;
for
the
servant
is
not
greater
then
his
Lord
,
and
if
they
have
done
this
to
the
green
tree
,
they
will
doe
it
much
more
to
the
dry
.
However
I
shall
not
altogether
excuse
my self
,
I
know
that
by
many
weaknesses
and
failings
.
I
have
given
occasion
enough
of
the
ill
usage
I
have
met
with
from
men
,
though
in
the
main
the
Lord
knows
the
sincerity
and
integrity
of
my
heart
,
whatever
aspersions
and
reproaches
I
have
or
do
lye
under
.
I
know
also
that
God
is
just
in
bringing
this
sentence
and
condemnation
upon
me
for
my
sins
,
there
is
a
body
of
sinne
and
death
in
me
deserves
this
sentence
.
And
there
is
a
similâ—Źtude
and
likeness
also
,
that
as
a
Christian
God
thinks
me
worthy
to
beare
with
my
Lord
and
head
in
many
circumstances
inference
to
these
dealings
I
have
met
with
,
in
the
good
I
have
been
endeavouring
for
many
years
to
be
doing
these
Nations
,
and
especially
now
at
the
last
in
being
numbred
amongst
transgressors
,
and
made
a
publick
sacrifice
through
the
wrath
and
contradictions
of
men
.
And
having
finished
my
course
,
and
fought
the
good
fight
of
faith
,
and
resisted
in
a
way
of
suffering
(
as
you
see
)
even
unto
blood
.
This
is
but
the
needfull
preparation
the
Lord
hath
been
working
in
me
to
the
receiving
the
Crown
of
immortality
which
he
hath
prepared
for
them
that
love
him
.
The
prospect
whereof
is
so
chearfull
that
through
the
joy
(
in
it
)
that
is
set
before
the
eyes
of
my
faith
,
I
can
through
mercy
endure
this
crosse
,
despise
this
shame
,
and
am
become
more
then
conquerour
through
Christ
that
hath
loved
me
.
For
my
Life
and
Estate
,
all
is
not
so
dear
to
me
as
my
service
to
God
,
to
his
Cause
,
to
the
Kingdome
of
Christ
,
and
the
future
wellfare
of
my
Countrey
;
and
I
am
taught
according
to
the
example
,
as
well
as
that
most
Christian
saying
of
a
Noble
Person
that
lately
dyed
after
this
publick
manner
in
Scotland
,
How
much
better
it
is
to
chuse
Affliction
and
the
Crosse
,
then
to
sinne
or
draw
back
from
the
service
of
the
Living
God
into
wayes
of
Apostacy
and
Perdition
.
That
Noble
Person
whose
Memory
I
Honour
,
was
with
my self
at
the
beginning
and
making
of
the
Solemne
League
and
Covenant
,
the
matter
of
which
and
the
holy
ends
therein
contained
,
I
fully
assent
unto
and
have
been
as
desirous
to
observe
;
but
the
Rigid
way
of
prosecuteing
it
,
and
oppressing
uniformity
that
hath
been
endeavoured
by
it
,
I
never
approved
.
This
were
sufficient
to
vindicate
me
from
the
false
Aspersions
and
Calumnies
which
have
been
laid
upon
me
of
Jesuitisme
and
Popery
,
and
almost
what
not
to
make
my
name
of
ill
Savour
with
good
men
,
which
dark
mists
do
now
dispell
of
themselves
,
or
at
least
ought
,
and
need
no
pains
of
mine
in
making
an
Apology
.
For
if
any
man
seek
a
proof
of
Christ
in
me
,
let
him
read
it
in
this
action
of
my
Death
,
which
will
not
cease
to
speak
when
I
am
gone
;
and
henceforth
let
no
man
trouble
me
,
for
I
bear
in
my
body
the
marks
of
the
Lord
Jesus
.
I
shall
not
desire
in
this
place
to
take
up
much
time
,
but
only
as
my
last
words
leave
with
you
:
That
as
the
present
storme
we
now
lie
under
,
and
the
dark
Clouds
that
yet
hang
over
the
Reformed
Churches
of
Christ
,
which
are
comming
thicker
and
thicker
for
a
season
,
were
not
un-fore-seen
by
me
for
many
years
passed
,
as
some
writings
of
mine
declare
.
So
the
coming
of
Christ
in
these
Clouds
in
order
to
a
speedy
and
sudden
revivall
of
his
Cause
,
and
spreading
his
Kingdome
over
the
face
of
the
whole
Earth
is
most
clear
to
the
eye
of
my
Faith
,
in
that
Faith
in
which
I
Dye
,
whereby
the
Kingdome
of
this
world
shall
become
the
Kingdome
of
our
Lord
and
of
his
Christ
,
Amen
.
Even
so
come
Lord
Jesus
.