The
Present
Court
of
Spain
:
OR
,
The
Modern
GALLANTRY
of
the
Spanish
Nobility
unfolded
.
In
several
HISTORIES
And
Seventy
Five
LETTERS
FROM
The
Enamour'd
TERESA
,
To
her
Beloved
The
Marquis
of
MANSERA
.
By
the
Ingenious
Lady
—
Author
of
The
Memoirs
and
Travels
into
Spain
.
Done
into
English
,
By
J.
P.
LONDON
,
Printed
for
H.
Rhodes
next
Bride-Lane
in
Fleet-street
;
And
J.
Harris
at
the
Harrow
in
the
Poultrey
.
1693.
Licensed
,
Octob
.
24th
.
1692.
TO
THE
READER
.
THE
Reader
would
take
it
unkindly
,
should
I
amuse
him
with
a
tedious
and
impertinent
Preface
.
It
is
incomparably
much
better
in
my
Opinion
,
to
tell
him
in
few
Words
,
to
the
end
he
may
be
sensible
before-hand
of
the
pleasure
he
will
have
in
reading
it
,
that
the
Piece
which
I
have
here
expos'd
to
publick
View
was
written
by
the
same
Lady
who
compos'd
the
Memoirs
,
and
the
Relation
of
the
Spanish
Travels
.
It
will
be
so
much
the
more
usefull
to
Foreigners
,
in
regard
no
Person
in
the
World
was
better
acquainted
then
she
who
made
it
,
with
the
Spirit
and
Genius
of
the
Spanish
Nation
.
And
't
is
no
small
thing
to
understand
well
how
to
paint
forth
to
the
Life
the
Characters
of
People
.
They
then
who
are
desirous
to
converse
with
those
of
that
Court
,
which
is
so
different
from
all
others
in
Europe
,
all
things
being
there
carry'd
with
no
less
Mystery
then
Pomp
and
Ostentation
,
by
the
Knowledge
of
these
short
Stories
,
will
have
a
most
easie
Insight
into
it
.
For
Examples
make
Impressions
much
more
quick
and
lively
,
then
all
that
a
Man
can
speak
in
long
Discourses
.
So
that
there
will
be
no
need
to
venture
Prolixity
upon
the
Merits
of
this
History
.
It
will
be
sufficient
for
me
to
assure
the
Reader
only
,
that
if
it
has
been
acceptable
to
those
Illustrious
Persons
who
have
with
pleasure
and
approbation
read
this
Piece
in
Manuscript
,
other
Persons
will
have
the
less
reason
to
scruple
the
adorning
their
Libraries
with
it
.
And
before
I
conclude
,
I
shall
add
this
further
,
which
cannot
be
displeasing
to
the
Publick
,
that
in
a
little
time
,
there
will
appear
some
other
Pieces
of
the
same
Author
,
which
will
at
least
be
no
less
Gratefull
then
this
,
or
those
other
which
she
has
already
set
forth
,
and
of
which
there
have
been
printed
already
several
Impressions
,
as
is
well
known
to
all
the
World
.
A
New
HISTORY
OF
THE
COURT
of
SPAIN
.
The
History
of
the
Marquis
of
LEMOS
;
and
of
DONA
ELEONORA
,
of
Monteleon
.
DOna
Eleonora
of
Monteleon
was
carry'd
so
young
to
the
Court
of
Spain
,
that
she
hardly
knew
she
had
any
other
place
of
Nativity
.
She
had
already
lost
her
Mother
,
and
her
Father
dy'd
in
a
very
short
time
after
.
For
these
Reasons
therefore
,
the
Duke
of
Hixar
her
Uncle
,
found
himself
engag'd
to
take
care
of
her
Education
.
She
had
also
a
Brother
elder
then
her self
,
who
began
betimes
to
exercise
akind
of
Paternal
Authority
over
her
,
with
so
much
rigour
that
she
stood
more
in
awe
of
him
,
then
of
all
the
rest
of
her
Relations
together
.
His
Name
was
Don
Alvare
de
Monteleon
;
and
as
for
the
young
Lady
,
she
was
made
choice
of
to
be
one
of
the
Queen
Mother's
Minions
,
and
to
that
purpose
immediately
sent
for
to
the
Court
,
where
her
Lodgings
were
provided
for
her
.
The
Marquis
of
Lemos
at
the
same
time
was
also
one
of
the
King's
Minions
.
These
are
Children
of
Honour
,
of
both
Sexes
,
placed
about
the
Persons
of
the
King
and
Queen
,
to
delight
'em
with
their
Company
,
and
to
do
'em
some
little
sorts
of
Service
proper
for
their
years
,
and
therefore
always
selected
out
of
the
Prime
Nobility
of
the
Kingdom
.
Eleonora
was
about
Fourteen
years
of
Age
;
the
Marquis
about
Eighteen
;
and
they
were
so
eminently
remarkable
above
others
,
as
well
for
Beauty
of
Body
,
as
the
Perfections
of
Mind
,
that
they
became
the
Wonders
of
the
Court
;
so
that
all
other
Persons
of
both
Sexes
were
enforc'd
to
yield
'em
the
Superiority
in
all
things
:
and
it
must
be
agreed
on
all
hands
,
that
Spain
never
yet
beheld
any
thing
so
perfect
From
the
first
moment
therefore
,
that
the
Marquis
saw
the
young
Eleonora
,
he
felt
something
of
a
Passion
for
her
,
which
he
had
never
felt
before
for
any
other
of
the
Children
of
Honour
that
were
his
Companions
;
and
the
Freedom
which
he
had
to
see
her
often
,
serv'd
only
to
render
him
still
the
more
enamour'd
.
In
her
Company
he
spent
all
his
time
which
he
could
spare
from
his
Duty
;
and
he
study'd
a
thousand
Gallantries
to
please
and
divert
her
.
When
the
Queen
went
abroad
,
he
so
sedulously
watch'd
his
Opportunities
,
that
he
never
fail'd
to
be
at
the
Boot
of
the
Train
Coach
wherein
she
rode
.
For
it
is
a
usual
thing
at
the
Court
,
for
the
young
Gentlemen
to
follow
on
foot
the
Ladies
of
the
Pallace
,
for
whom
they
have
a
particular
Kindness
;
to
the
end
,
that
by
that
means
they
may
have
the
Advantage
and
Satisfaction
of
discoursing
with
'
em
.
All
these
Sedulities
were
soon
observ'd
;
nor
were
the
Contentions
of
such
a
friendly
War
displeasing
to
Eleonora
:
Neither
was
she
the
last
,
who
was
sensible
of
what
she
had
inspir'd
into
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
;
and
therefore
suffering
her self
to
be
govern'd
by
that
Inclination
which
sway'd
her
to
have
a
more
particular
esteem
for
him
then
any
other
;
she
allow'd
that
Liberty
to
Tenderness
of
Affection
,
which
she
thought
should
have
gone
no
farther
then
grateful
Acknowledgments
.
One
day
that
the
King
was
at
Aranjues
,
and
that
the
Queen
was
gone
to
take
a
Walk
in
Buen
Rètiro
,
(
which
is
a
Pallace
Royal
so
very
near
to
Madrid
,
that
it
joyns
to
Alcala
)
the
King
wrote
a
Letter
to
her
,
and
order'd
the
Marquis
to
carry
it
;
and
withall
to
give
the
Queen
an
Account
of
some
Business
which
nearly
concern'd
her
:
wherein
the
Marquis
discharged
himself
of
his
Message
with
such
a
Grace
,
that
he
had
the
good
Fortune
to
be
look'd
upon
with
a
favourable
Eye
.
Thereupon
the
Queen
commanded
him
to
stay
till
the
end
of
the
Promenade
,
for
that
she
had
a
Present
which
she
intended
he
should
deliver
to
the
King
This
Opportunity
procur'd
him
the
Happiness
of
spending
some
part
of
the
day
in
Eleonora's
Company
;
of
which
he
took
his
Advantage
,
to
acquaint
her
with
the
Passion
he
had
for
her
,
which
alone
would
prove
the
Blessing
or
Misfortune
of
his
Life
.
Were
the
Sentiments
,
said
he
,
which
I
have
for
your
Person
,
Madam
,
less
submissive
,
could
my
Vows
and
Protestations
offend
ye
,
I
would
condemn
my self
to
an
eternal
silence
;
nor
should
my
Eyes
presume
to
take
the
Liberty
to
let
you
understand
my
Passion
;
but
I
adore
ye
with
so
profound
a
Respect
,
with
that
Fidelity
wherein
there
is
not
any
thing
of
common
,
that
I
dare
adventure
to
flatter
my self
,
that
you
will
find
nothing
to
merit
your
Displeasure
in
the
humble
Protestation
which
I
make
ye
.
Nevertheless
,
Madam
,
't
is
true
,
that
such
is
the
trouble
of
my
mind
,
so
violent
are
my
fears
,
that
I
am
less
afraid
of
Death
,
then
to
incur
your
Indignation
:
Vouchsafe
therefore
,
not
to
look
upon
that
,
as
an
effect
of
my
presumption
,
which
is
the
effect
of
your
Charms
.
Indeed
,
how
was
it
in
my
power
to
restrain
my self
;
for
are
not
you
,
Madam
,
the
most
amiable
Person
in
the
World
,
and
—
He
was
going
on
,
but
the
Lady
interrupting
him
,
Sir
,
said
she
,
you
cannot
but
well
know
,
that
I
am
not
so
much
the
Mistress
of
my
own
Heart
,
as
to
dispose
of
it
my self
:
Infant
of
Honour
to
the
Queen
,
the
Duke
of
Hixar's
Neece
,
and
Don
Alvares's
Sister
:
these
are
they
who
must
over-rule
my
Destiny
.
How
!
said
the
Marquis
,
with
a
vehemency
somewhat
more
then
usual
,
should
they
go
about
to
make
you
miserable
,
should
they
design
to
engage
you
with
a
Person
whom
you
could
not
love
,
Would
you
be
willingly
submissive
to
so
much
Rigour
?
I
never
yet
,
said
she
,
consulted
my
own
Thoughts
what
I
should
do
in
such
an
Extremity
;
tho'
I
am
persuaded
they
are
too
just
to
reduce
me
to
it
:
yet
in
short
,
should
they
be
so
severe
in
the
Exercise
of
their
Authority
,
I
should
not
have
the
Courage
to
withstand
their
Power
.
Ah!
Madam
,
continu'd
the
Marquis
,
with
a
pensive
Aspect
,
then
it
seems
there
would
be
no
distinction
made
of
me
in
the
Croud
.
Would
any
Husband
be
alike
in
your
Affection
,
so
you
receiv'd
him
from
the
Hands
of
the
Queen
,
or
those
of
your
nearest
Relations
?
How
importunate
Sir
,
you
are
,
reply'd
the
lovely
Eleonora
,
blushing
;
but
wherefore
is
it
that
you
urge
me
in
this
manner
to
explain
my self
any
farther
in
this
particular
?
Wherefore
is
it
?
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
throwing
himself
at
her
feet
;
alas
!
most
charming
Creature
,
the
whole
Repose
and
Happiness
of
my
life
depends
upon
it
.
If
that
happiness
,
reply'd
the
Lady
,
depended
upon
me
only
,
I
am
apt
to
think
you
never
would
have
any
Reason
to
upbraid
me
with
obstructing
it
.
The
Marquis
at
those
words
was
so
transported
with
Joy
,
that
he
wanted
utterance
to
express
the
Condition
of
his
Soul
.
Dona
Eleonora
was
naturally
very
timorous
;
an
extraordinary
Vertue
,
and
an
exact
Reserv'dness
restrain'd
her
within
such
narrow
Limits
,
that
she
was
afraid
of
having
said
too
much
;
but
yet
she
could
not
be
uncivil
to
a
Person
in
whom
she
found
so
many
noble
Qualities
;
and
if
she
must
have
been
forc'd
to
have
taken
up
a
Resolution
of
being
either
too
Indulgent
or
too
Rigorous
,
she
would
certainly
have
enclin'd
to
Indulgence
.
So
that
where
a
Lady
is
thus
anticipated
in
her
Thoughts
,
't
is
an
easie
thing
for
Wit
and
Merit
to
make
fair
Progresses
toward
the
winning
of
her
Heart
.
After
this
,
the
Queen
sent
back
the
young
Marquis
to
Aranjues
,
with
her
Dispatches
for
the
King
:
and
in
regard
the
King
was
frequently
accustom'd
to
write
to
the
Queen
his
Mother
;
as
also
,
for
that
the
Marquis
was
always
entrusted
to
carry
the
Letters
,
he
always
improv'd
those
Opportunities
,
which
bless'd
him
as
often
with
the
Sight
and
Company
of
his
beloved
Eleonora
,
to
his
best
advantage
.
It
was
not
long
before
both
Courts
return'd
to
Madrid
;
which
occasion'd
as
much
rejoycing
,
as
if
their
Majesties
had
taken
a
longer
Progress
:
in
the
streets
were
Bonfires
,
all
sorts
of
Fire-works
,
and
Masquerades
on
Horse-back
;
in
the
Pallace
they
danc'd
the
Canaries
and
the
Sarar
,
or
Sarad
,
which
is
a
Moresco
Dance
,
very
delightfull
to
the
Eye
,
wherein
the
young
Ladies
and
Noble-men
hold
Flambeaus
in
their
Hands
,
and
where
every
one
appear'd
at
that
time
in
disguise
,
by
the
King's
Order
.
Among
the
rest
,
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
had
made
him
a
Habit
which
had
something
of
more
then
usual
Curiosity
;
beside
that
he
had
added
to
it
something
of
his
own
Fancy
.
Now
while
the
Workmen
were
making
up
this
Habit
,
Don
Alvare
,
who
was
appointed
to
be
one
of
the
Maskers
,
not
knowing
what
sort
of
Disguise
to
contrive
for
himself
,
happened
to
have
a
sight
of
the
Marquis's
Habit
,
was
extremely
taken
with
the
Novelty
,
and
order'd
another
to
be
made
just
like
it
.
The
Children
of
Honour
to
the
Queen
were
all
clad
like
Shepherdesses
for
that
day
;
among
whom
,
there
was
no
need
of
any
long
Search
for
the
Marquis
to
find
out
Dona
Eleonora
;
her
Air
and
Carriage
distinguish'd
her
so
much
to
her
advantage
from
the
rest
of
her
Companions
,
and
besides
he
lov'd
her
with
such
a
tender
Affection
,
that
he
no
sooner
cast
his
Eyes
upon
that
lovely
Medly
,
but
he
soon
singl'd
out
his
own
adored
Shepherdess
.
Presently
approaching
near
her
,
't
is
in
vain
Madam
,
said
he
,
that
your
Habit
is
so
like
to
that
of
the
rest
of
your
Companions
,
and
that
you
put
on
a
Disguise
to
conceal
your self
among
many
;
your
Eyes
are
so
lively
and
so
sparkling
,
the
Air
of
your
Deportment
so
noble
,
that
any
Man
the
least
concern'd
to
take
notice
of
your
Graces
,
might
easily
distinguish
and
find
ye
in
a
greater
Croud
.
Judge
then
my
lovely
Shepherdess
,
by
those
Emotions
of
Mind
that
seiz'd
me
in
my
approach
to
your
Person
,
what
my
Heart
has
spoken
,
and
what
it
may
be
sensible
of
.
Alas
!
Sir
,
said
she
,
with
a
pensive
Air
,
I
am
but
too
well
convinc'd
of
the
Sentiments
of
value
and
esteem
which
you
have
for
me
;
they
begin
to
make
me
suffer
;
you
overcast
the
serene
days
of
my
Life
,
and
I
have
ill
News
to
tell
you
:
you
see
me
here
because
my
Duty
and
Complacency
require
it
,
but
had
it
became
me
to
have
dispenc'd
with
my
coming
hither
,
I
should
have
preferr'd
a
Retirement
all
alone
by
my self
in
my
Closet
,
where
I
might
have
abandon'd
my self
to
my
Grief
.
Such
a
Discourse
as
this
,
very
much
alarm'd
the
Marquis
;
but
as
she
was
going
on
,
the
King
beckon'd
him
to
attend
his
Commands
;
so
that
notwithstanding
the
Disturbance
of
his
Thoughts
,
occasion'd
by
Eleonora's
words
,
he
could
not
avoid
quitting
her
,
to
wait
upon
the
King
.
In
a
very
short
time
after
,
Don
Alvare
,
who
knew
his
Sister
,
though
she
knew
not
him
,
came
and
plac'd
himself
close
by
her
;
and
I
have
told
ye
already
,
that
his
Disguise
was
just
the
same
with
the
Marquis's
.
She
therefore
not
questioning
in
the
least
,
but
that
it
had
been
the
Marquis
,
who
had
made
a
quick
Return
from
the
King
,
through
his
impatience
to
know
what
she
had
more
to
say
to
him
:
Hear
then
,
said
she
,
beginning
where
she
ended
,
the
occasion
of
those
Sorrows
that
almost
overwhelm
me
;
for
though
it
be
not
in
your
power
to
rid
me
absolutely
of
'em
,
yet
I
find
it
will
become
an
Alleviation
of
my
Grief
to
let
you
share
it
with
me
.
The
Count
of
Araval
,
for
a
long
time
has
had
a
violent
Passion
to
be
my
Servant
,
but
after
he
had
made
use
of
all
the
ways
that
could
be
,
to
engage
me
to
some
Acknowledgment
,
seeing
I
refus'd
him
with
so
much
Obstinacy
,
a
Happiness
of
which
he
is
not
worthy
,
he
resolv'd
at
length
to
discover
his
mind
to
my
Brother
.
Him
,
he
easily
won
over
to
his
side
,
and
fasten'd
him
to
a
Compliance
,
by
the
Tye
of
his
own
Interests
:
he
has
promis'd
him
to
make
a
cross
Match
of
it
,
and
give
him
his
own
Sister
,
for
whom
my
Brother
has
had
a
Kindness
many
years
.
This
Proposal
put
him
into
an
Extasie
of
Joy
;
away
he
ran
to
the
Duke
of
Hixar
,
and
so
powerfully
laid
before
him
the
Advantages
that
both
Families
would
reap
by
the
Alliance
,
that
he
drew
a
Promise
from
the
Duke
,
that
he
would
mention
it
to
the
Queen
.
Afterwards
,
he
came
to
me
,
and
told
me
,
I
must
prepare
to
be
dispos'd
of
,
so
soon
as
their
Majesties
had
deliver'd
their
Approbation
of
what
would
be
propounded
to
them
.
Now
Sir
,
continued
she
,
be
you
the
Judge
of
my
Condition
.
While
she
was
thus
telling
her
Story
,
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
having
done
what
the
King
had
commanded
him
to
do
,
return'd
in
all
hast
to
his
Mistress
.
But
he
was
strangely
surpriz'd
to
find
her
in
such
a
serious
Discourse
with
a
Person
clad
in
a
Disguise
in
nothing
different
from
his
own
:
and
she
was
no
less
astonish'd
,
to
see
two
Disguises
so
much
alike
,
that
she
could
not
discern
which
of
the
two
was
her
Real
Lover
.
Neither
did
the
Marquis
know
Don
Alvare
,
but
the
latter
knew
the
Marquis
:
so
that
they
look'd
one
upon
another
with
an
Eye
of
Fury
,
and
complemented
each
other
with
sharp
and
cutting
Expressions
.
On
the
other
side
,
it
is
not
to
be
imagin'd
how
much
the
Lady
was
concern'd
;
she
had
unfolded
the
Secrets
of
her
mind
,
but
knew
not
to
whom
:
and
it
was
impossible
for
her
to
clear
the
Mistake
,
so
long
as
the
Ball
continu'd
.
The
Count
d'
Araval
,
who
had
also
plac'd
himself
next
to
her
,
never
quitting
her
so
much
as
one
moment
.
This
unseasonable
strugling
,
and
his
obstinate
persecution
of
the
amiable
Lady
,
reduc'd
her
under
those
Severities
of
ill
Success
,
as
brought
her
to
the
Brink
of
Despair
:
Nor
was
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
less
disturb'd
in
his
mind
;
he
brook'd
their
Conversation
together
with
a
more
then
ordinary
Impatience
,
and
beheld
the
Person
in
a
Disguise
so
like
his
own
,
with
Eyes
full
of
Choler
and
Vexation
;
nor
had
he
delay'd
the
Proofs
of
his
Dissatisfaction
,
but
for
the
Respect
which
was
due
to
the
Presence
of
the
King
,
and
his
Mistress
,
which
hindred
him
from
deciding
his
Quarrel
upon
the
Place
.
The
Ball
being
ended
,
Don
Alvare
de
Monteleon
,
who
was
really
enrag'd
upon
what
his
Sister
had
discover'd
to
him
,
sent
one
of
his
Friends
to
the
Marquis
,
to
let
him
know
,
that
the
Person
in
Disguise
,
with
whom
he
had
been
so
brisk
at
the
Ball
,
desir'd
to
see
him
with
his
Sword
by
his
side
:
That
he
needed
not
to
bring
along
with
him
any
more
then
two
Flambeaux
;
himself
intending
to
have
as
many
,
which
would
afford
them
light
sufficient
,
by
which
to
determin
their
Differences
.
The
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
being
too
brave
to
refuse
so
bold
a
Challenge
,
caus'd
two
of
his
Pages
to
follow
him
,
and
hastned
to
the
Prado
,
which
is
a
delightful
Walk
near
Buen
Retiro
,
and
was
the
Place
appointed
where
to
meet
;
and
tho'
he
knew
not
the
Person
,
against
whom
he
fought
,
yet
he
was
sensible
,
that
he
hated
him
so
sufficiently
,
as
to
kill
him
,
if
he
could
:
In
short
,
they
fought
with
so
much
Courage
,
as
could
be
expected
from
two
Men
of
matchless
Prowess
,
till
at
length
,
Don
Alvare
was
dangerously
Wounded
,
and
soon
reduc'd
to
beg
his
Life
.
But
in
what
a
condition
was
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
when
he
pull'd
off
his
Antagonist's
Vizor
?
He
was
ready
to
expire
for
Grief
,
when
he
perceiv'd
him
to
be
Eleonora's
Brother
.
Never
was
Man
so
sensibly
concern'd
;
and
therefore
,
void
of
all
Consolation
,
after
so
freakish
,
and
yet
so
unlucky
an
Accident
.
So
soon
therefore
,
as
he
had
sent
for
Succour
to
take
Care
of
Don
Alvare
,
he
betook
himself
to
a
House
of
one
of
his
Friends
,
to
whom
he
imparted
his
Misfortune
,
and
the
little
Probability
there
was
,
that
Don
Alvare
could
recover
.
In
the
mean
time
,
Eleonora
full
of
restless
and
troublesome
thoughts
that
hinder'd
her
Repose
,
got
up
,
and
desir'd
Dona
Laura
,
her
daily
Companion
and
best
Friend
,
to
be
so
kind
to
her
,
as
to
take
a
Walk
with
her
upon
a
Terras
that
looks
over
into
the
Great
Piazza
before
the
Palace
.
There
they
had
not
been
but
a
ve●y
little
while
,
when
they
beheld
several
Flambeaux
making
toward
'em
,
and
observ'd
withal
,
a
Person
in
a
Masquerade
Habit
,
carry'd
easily
and
gently
along
,
and
in
a
languishing
posture
.
Eleonora
,
who
had
as
much
time
as
was
needful
,
to
view
and
take
notice
of
the
Habit
,
made
no
Question
,
but
that
it
was
her
dear
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
and
immediately
,
being
no
longer
Mistress
of
her
Grief
,
Swoonded
away
in
Laura's
Arms
;
and
it
was
a
long
while
before
they
could
bring
her
to
Life
again
,
by
the
assistance
of
her
Women
,
and
several
powerful
Remedies
.
But
the
Lamentations
and
Moans
that
she
made
the
remaining
part
of
the
Night
,
would
not
permit
her
to
close
her
Eyes
one
single
moment
.
Scarcely
was
the
Day
broke
,
before
she
sent
to
know
whither
the
Marquis
were
in
his
Chamber
.
It
was
told
her
,
that
he
had
not
lain
in
the
Palace
,
and
that
his
Attendants
were
all
in
a
great
Consternation
.
Then
having
no
longer
any
Room
for
flattering
Thoughts
,
she
believ'd
the
suspitions
of
her
own
Eyes
.
But
when
she
heard
more
truly
,
that
it
was
her
Brother
whom
she
saw
in
that
Extremity
,
and
that
it
was
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
who
had
wounded
him
,
she
abandon'd
her self
entirely
to
her
Sorrows
;
and
upon
those
unwelcome
Tydings
,
almost
sinking
under
the
Accumulation
of
her
Troubles
:
My
Dearest
Laura
,
said
she
,
to
her
Companion
,
pouring
forth
a
deluge
of
Tears
,
I
could
have
lov'd
him
without
a
Crime
,
I
could
have
been
really
sorry
for
him
,
had
the
Misfortune
been
his
,
and
could
have
wish'd
with
all
my
Soul
,
the
recovery
of
his
Health
;
but
now
what
can
I
do
less
than
hate
him
?
He
is
the
Murtherer
of
my
Brother
;
he
has
shed
my
own
Bloud
;
and
it
is
I
that
find
my self
at
length
oblig'd
to
pursue
the
Revenge
of
it
.
These
sad
Reflections
threw
her
into
utter
despair
;
she
ran
to
her
Brother
;
he
refus'd
to
speak
with
her
;
but
order'd
the
Duke
of
Hixar
to
tell
her
his
Mind
in
severe
and
upbraiding
Language
.
The
Marquis
of
Lemos
durst
not
appear
;
he
had
to
doe
with
Persons
of
so
great
Authority
,
that
he
knew
not
what
course
to
take
;
however
,
the
Queen
being
inform'd
of
the
Danger
he
was
in
,
if
he
remained
in
Spain
,
sent
him
in
her
Name
a
Friendly
Admonition
to
retire
into
Flanders
,
and
was
graciously
also
pleased
to
grant
him
her
Letters
to
the
Governour
of
the
Low-Countries
.
Which
done
,
it
behov'd
him
to
depart
:
but
he
could
not
resolve
to
leave
Madrid
,
till
he
had
seen
his
charming
Enemy
,
and
bid
her
adieu
.
He
had
written
to
her
several
times
,
but
she
refus'd
to
receive
his
Letters
,
and
still
sent
'em
back
again
,
seal'd
as
they
were
;
yet
not
without
fixing
a
tender
Kiss
upon
'em
,
and
moistning
'em
with
her
Tears
.
Never
Virgin
lov'd
more
;
never
Virgin
with
a
more
noble
Violence
restrain'd
her
Love
,
to
hinder
it
from
appearing
,
and
making
too
great
a
Progress
in
her
Heart
.
On
the
other
side
,
the
Count
d'
Araval
,
the
more
to
encrease
her
Afflictions
,
now
openly
declar'd
his
Amours
,
and
pay'd
her
most
assiduous
Visits
.
One
Evening
,
being
in
her
Closet
,
quite
dejected
by
her
Misfortunes
,
and
making
sad
Reflections
upon
the
same
,
one
came
and
told
her
,
that
one
of
the
Duenna's
belonging
to
the
Lord
Constable's
Lady
,
desir'd
to
speak
with
her
.
These
Venerable
Matrons
and
Governesses
are
freely
admitted
every
where
,
and
are
always
wrapt
about
over
head
and
shoulders
,
in
a
large
black
Taffata
Mantle
.
So
soon
as
Eleonora
and
she
were
perfectly
alone
together
,
she
discover'd
her self
,
and
then
appear'd
to
be
the
lovely
Marquis
of
Lemos
:
nor
had
his
Disguise
detracted
any
thing
from
his
goodly
presence
;
only
he
was
sad
and
serious
,
while
Grief
and
Respect
shew'd
themselves
in
his
Eyes
,
as
well
as
Love
.
Immediately
he
threw
himself
at
her
Feet
,
and
notwithstanding
all
the
Resistance
which
she
made
,
took
hold
of
one
of
her
hands
,
and
pressing
it
close
to
his
Lips
,
much
more
apparently
by
that
Action
,
assur'd
her
of
his
tender
Affection
,
then
by
all
the
amorous
Expressions
he
could
have
utter'd
.
But
at
length
,
after
a
profound
Silence
for
some
time
,
he
thus
deliver'd
himself
.
Considering
the
Condition
to
which
I
am
reduc'd
,
there
is
no
Obligation
upon
me
to
be
sparing
of
a
miserable
Life
.
I
foresee
,
Madam
,
all
my
Misfortunes
,
but
am
of
none
so
deeply
sensible
as
of
my
being
constrain'd
to
absent
my self
from
your
Person
.
And
is
it
then
a
thing
possible
to
be
done
?
Can
I
think
,
and
not
dye
for
Grief
,
that
I
must
love
ye
;
that
I
must
never
see
ye
more
?
Can
you
observe
without
some
Pity
,
the
Despair
that
attends
this
cruel
Necessity
of
mine
to
separate
from
your
presence
?
Concluding
these
words
,
which
were
often
interrupted
with
profound
Sighs
,
he
amorously
kiss'd
the
fair
Eleonora's
hands
,
and
moisten'd
them
with
his
Tears
:
but
as
she
was
going
to
raise
him
up
,
and
return
him
an
Answer
,
the
Count
of
Araval
enter'd
her
Chamber
,
and
had
almost
surpriz'd
her
.
Not
that
it
is
the
Custom
to
take
that
Liberty
in
Spain
;
but
the
Count
was
so
enamour'd
,
and
his
Love
was
authoriz'd
to
that
degree
,
by
the
Relations
of
Dona
Eleonora
,
that
he
thought
it
no
undecency
.
However
,
the
Lady
quickly
recovering
her self
from
her
sudden
Fright
,
made
a
sign
to
the
Marquis
to
wrap
himself
up
in
his
Mantle
,
and
with
an
Aspect
more
than
usually
Compassionate
,
directing
her
Speech
to
the
Count
;
See
Sir
,
said
she
,
here
prostrate
at
my
feet
,
one
of
the
Duenna's
belonging
to
the
Lord
Constable's
Lady
;
she
comes
hither
to
conjure
me
,
that
I
would
use
my
Credit
with
your
Lordship
;
her
Son
was
an
Officer
in
the
Citadel
of
Oran
,
but
not
long
since
unfortunately
taken
by
the
Moors
;
now
in
regard
you
have
several
Prisoners
to
release
in
exchange
of
such
as
can
make
Friends
,
she
begs
of
you
to
speak
to
the
Queen
,
that
her
Majesty
would
vouchsafe
to
grant
her
that
Favour
.
The
Count
was
overjoy'd
to
find
an
Opportunity
to
oblige
the
only
Person
that
he
lov'd
in
the
World
:
he
promis'd
her
more
then
she
desir'd
,
and
away
he
flew
,
without
stop
or
stay
,
to
get
the
Business
done
,
wherein
his
Mistress
had
so
artfully
employ'd
him
.
All
this
while
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
had
much
ado
to
contain
himself
;
so
eager
was
he
to
have
had
a
Brush
with
his
Rival
.
For
he
had
understood
by
Dona
Laura
,
who
was
one
of
his
Friends
,
and
fast
to
his
Interests
,
all
that
had
past
at
the
Ball
between
Eleonora
and
her
Brother
;
and
she
had
likewise
inform'd
him
of
the
Count's
Pretensions
;
but
Prudence
and
good
Manners
over-rul'd
his
Passion
.
However
,
so
soon
as
the
Count
was
gone
,
he
re-approach'd
his
Mistress
;
and
falling
upon
his
Knees
,
Madam
,
said
he
,
with
an
awful
and
affectionate
Air
,
I
am
now
going
to
leave
ye
,
and
to
carry
my
Misfortunes
into
another
Country
;
you
will
no
more
behold
that
same
detested
Lover
,
whose
Letters
you
would
not
vouchsafe
to
open
;
but
what
is
my
Crime
?
Did
I
know
that
I
fought
with
Don
Alvare
?
Could
I
,
without
rendring
my self
unworthy
your
Esteem
,
refuse
the
Challenge
?
Alas
!
Madam
,
my
Miseries
are
too
weighty
already
;
never
heap
Affliction
upon
Affliction
;
I
am
persecuted
by
all
your
Family
;
hated
by
your
Brother
;
banish'd
by
the
Court
;
abandon'd
by
your self
;
can
I
survive
all
these
Calamities
?
Concluding
these
words
,
he
fix'd
his
Eyes
upon
Eleonora's
:
she
,
on
the
other
side
in
a
languishing
posture
held
down
her
own
all
full
of
Tears
,
and
altogether
heartless
,
I
cannot
hate
ye
,
Sir
,
said
she
,
whatever
Necessity
my
Duty
imposes
upon
me
;
nor
can
I
love
ye
any
longer
,
considering
the
Condition
to
which
you
have
reduc'd
my
Brother
;
we
are
yet
uncertain
whether
he
will
live
or
dye
;
but
this
you
may
believe
,
that
tho'
my
Honour
forbids
me
to
be
yours
,
my
Heart
will
never
suffer
me
to
be
another's
;
my
ardent
Vows
,
and
zealous
Prayers
shall
always
invoke
Heaven
in
your
favour
;
and
if
Heaven
restores
my
Brother
to
me
,
my
Inclination
shall
do
ye
Justice
.
So
saying
,
she
would
have
left
him
,
tho'
not
without
an
absolute
violence
upon
her
Will
;
but
he
stopt
her
,
took
her
by
the
hands
,
and
look'd
as
if
he
would
have
expir'd
for
Grief
at
her
Feet
:
which
,
though
it
did
not
a
little
move
and
mollifie
the
Heart
of
Eleonora
,
yet
upon
other
Considerations
more
prevalent
,
she
wrested
her self
out
of
his
hands
,
and
forbidding
him
to
follow
her
,
retir'd
into
her
Chamber
,
and
threw
her self
,
half
dead
,
upon
her
Couch
;
while
the
Marquis
,
wrapt
up
in
his
Mantle
departed
,
without
being
discover'd
,
and
went
to
his
Friend's
House
;
where
finding
there
was
no
other
Remedy
,
he
resolv'd
upon
his
Journey
for
Flanders
.
The
Letters
which
he
had
from
the
Queen
,
and
his
own
Merit
,
easily
acquir'd
him
the
Favour
and
Good
Will
of
the
Governour
of
the
Low-Countries
,
and
the
Esteem
of
all
the
Court
:
more
then
that
,
he
gave
signal
Proofs
of
his
extraordinary
Courage
upon
several
Occasions
,
and
at
all
times
he
shew'd
himself
no
Niggard
of
his
Life
,
which
the
Absence
of
his
beloved
Eleonora
render'd
irksome
to
him
.
In
the
mean
time
he
wrote
several
Letters
to
her
,
but
received
no
Answer
:
which
continu'd
Severity
of
Silence
afflicting
him
with
a
more
then
ordinary
Disquiet
of
Mind
,
he
directed
a
Letter
to
Dona
Laura
,
and
besought
her
to
give
it
his
Mistress
,
her self
:
who
being
well
acquainted
with
his
Passion
,
as
also
no
less
well
inform'd
of
the
kind
Sentiments
which
Dona
Eleonora
had
for
him
,
fail'd
not
to
carry
her
the
Letter
;
and
perceiving
her
in
a
quandary
whether
she
should
open
it
or
no
:
Is
it
possible
,
said
she
,
my
dear
Companion
,
you
can
delay
one
single
moment
,
the
pleasure
of
hearing
from
a
Person
that
adores
ye
,
and
whom
you
love
your self
so
tenderly
.
't
is
therefore
because
I
love
him
,
replyed
the
fair
Eleonora
,
fetching
a
deep
Sigh
,
that
you
see
me
so
irresolute
:
for
in
short
,
it
is
not
to
add
more
painfull
Sorrows
to
those
which
I
already
feel
,
to
be
made
still
more
sensible
of
the
Condition
to
which
he
is
reduc'd
.
Cou'd
I
promise
to
my self
,
to
afford
him
any
Consolation
(
Good
God!
said
she
,
with
a
kind
of
Vehemency
,
wou'd
I
but
knew
the
way
)
believe
me
,
Laura
,
you
should
have
nothing
wherewithal
to
reproach
me
.
But
't
is
a
difficult
thing
for
me
to
acquit
my self
of
all
my
Obligations
,
on
the
one
side
owing
to
my
Duty
,
on
the
other
,
due
to
my
Lover
.
You
know
after
what
manner
I
have
all
along
exprest
my
mind
;
I
have
still
to
you
disclos'd
my
most
secret
Thoughts
;
what
Woman
could
ever
be
more
tenderly
affectionate
,
and
more
miserable
then
my self
!
I
have
continually
to
combat
with
the
impatient
Importunities
of
the
Duke
of
Hixar
and
my
Brother
;
neither
of
'em
will
let
me
be
at
quiet
one
hour
in
the
day
.
The
Count
of
Araval
persecu●es
me
;
the
Queen-Mother
approves
his
Passion
for
me
,
and
I
alone
am
forc'd
to
stand
the
shock
of
all
these
different
Assaults
.
In
the
mean
time
,
the
Person
for
whose
sake
I
undergo
all
this
,
believes
me
faithless
;
nor
have
I
the
Liberty
to
justifie
my self
against
his
Accusations
:
he
loads
me
with
Reproaches
,
and
I
prefer
the
Misfortune
to
be
counted
Faithless
,
before
the
Mischief
I
should
inevitably
draw
upon
my
Brother
and
the
Count
,
by
informing
the
Marquis
of
their
Proceedings
.
Consider
Laura
,
continu'd
she
;
letting
fall
at
the
same
time
a
shower
of
Tears
,
consider
the
Condition
to
which
I
am
reduc'd
.
So
violent
my
Sufferings
are
,
that
Death
it self
would
terrifie
me
less
,
and
my
expiring
pangs
be
much
more
pleasing
to
me
.
I
condole
and
pity
your
hard
Fortune
,
Madam
,
with
a
real
Compassion
,
reply'd
Laura
,
tenderly
embracing
her
;
however
in
hopes
to
procure
our selves
a
little
Comfort
,
delay
no
longer
the
reading
what
his
Sorrows
have
endited
.
And
thus
at
length
she
over-rul'd
her
to
open
the
Letter
;
wherein
she
found
these
Words
.
HOW
happy
are
you
,
Madam
,
that
it
is
in
your
Power
to
Hate
the
Person
whom
it
is
your
chief
Desire
to
Hate
.
It
would
not
else
be
possible
that
your
Heart
should
be
so
readily
Obedient
to
your
Duty
,
did
not
your
indifference
for
me
furnish
it
with
all
the
pronest
Inclinations
you
could
wish
for
.
No
,
Madam
,
No
;
you
never
design'd
me
the
Happiness
with
which
you
flatter'd
me
,
though
my
Respect
and
Passion
deserv'd
more
Sincerity
.
But
,
alas
!
what
do
I
say
?
I
accuse
ye
of
the
pains
I
suffer
,
of
which
you
,
perhaps
,
are
not
the
occasion
,
but
with
no
less
vexation
to
your self
.
Pardon
,
Madam
,
the
violence
of
my
Grief
,
which
hitherto
has
made
me
eager
in
the
search
of
Death
,
which
yet
I
cannot
find
;
and
sure
it
cannot
be
,
because
that
you
are
my
Defence
against
it
.
Well
,
now
—
are
ye
satisfi'd
?
said
Eleonora
,
casting
a
mournful
look
upon
her
:
I
have
read
nothing
but
Reproaches
,
which
,
though
they
be
unjust
,
cannot
however
incense
me
against
this
illustrious
Unfortunate
.
I
am
satisfi'd
,
reply'd
Laura
,
with
what
you
have
done
;
and
I
no
less
approve
your
Sentiments
:
but
I
shall
not
be
so
well
pleas'd
with
your
Complaisance
,
unless
you
write
an
Answer
to
this
Letter
.
What
can
you
hazard
where
there
is
such
signal
Merit
,
a
Noble
Extraction
,
and
a
plentiful
Estate
?
The
Capricio's
of
your
Family
are
Idlely
grounded
;
and
had
he
less
of
Passion
and
Respect
for
your
Person
,
he
might
have
sought
out
proper
ways
to
have
done
himself
Justice
,
for
the
wrongs
that
have
been
offer'd
him
.
Eleonora
,
held
out
a
while
against
all
these
perswasions
,
but
with
such
a
feeble
Resistance
,
that
at
length
she
consented
to
send
these
few
Lines
to
the
Marquis
.
WHat
Injuries
have
I
done
ye
,
Sir
,
that
you
tell
me
of
seeking
so
earnestly
after
Death
,
and
that
you
hope
to
find
it
?
I
never
thought
that
without
my
permission
,
you
would
ever
go
about
to
be
the
disposer
of
a
Life
,
wherein
you
know
I
have
so
great
an
Interest
.
But
I
am
to
blame
;
you
know
it
not
;
you
listen
to
outward
Appearances
that
are
against
me
,
and
you
condemn
me
;
and
yet
I
merit
not
to
be
condemn'd
:
the
lovely
Laura
will
inform
you
better
.
Live
then
,
Sir
,
to
Love
me
,
and
I
will
Live
to
value
and
esteem
your
Love
.
Less
then
this
Letter
could
never
have
afforded
him
any
Consolation
in
that
excess
of
Melancholy
which
he
had
contracted
.
All
the
endeavours
of
his
Friends
in
Brussels
,
to
divert
him
,
were
in
vain
;
so
insensible
was
he
of
all
the
sports
and
pastimes
which
they
propounded
to
dissipate
his
pensive
humour
.
Nor
did
any
other
Pleasure
charm
him
,
but
in
seeking
out
the
means
that
might
restore
him
to
the
presence
of
his
beloved
Mistress
.
Now
while
he
lay
wasting
himself
with
Grief
,
Don
Alvare
de
Monteleon
,
who
was
by
this
time
perfectly
recover'd
of
his
wounds
,
study'd
nothing
so
much
as
to
satisfie
the
mortal
Aversion
which
he
had
against
the
Marquis
.
He
knew
well
that
Eleonora
had
no
kindness
in
the
least
for
the
Count
of
Araval
,
if
she
did
not
rather
despise
him
in
her
Heart
.
He
also
was
assur'd
,
that
if
the
Count
did
not
espouse
his
Sister
,
he
could
never
hope
that
e're
the
Count
of
Araval's
Sister
could
be
his
Bride
.
Such
thoughts
as
these
threw
him
into
so
violent
a
Despair
,
and
troubl'd
his
Reason
to
that
degree
,
that
he
resolv'd
to
take
a
journey
into
Flanders
,
and
find
out
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
with
a
Design
to
put
in
Execution
the
most
fatal
Dictates
of
his
Rage
and
Malice
against
him
;
not
questioning
but
that
he
was
the
only
Cause
of
Eleonora's
Aversion
to
the
Count
of
Araval
.
This
Design
he
imparted
to
no
Person
living
,
but
away
he
went
before
any
body
was
aware
of
it
;
and
so
private
was
his
Departure
,
that
't
was
impossible
to
give
the
Marquis
any
Notice
of
it
.
The
Court
was
at
Brussels
,
when
Don
Alvare
arriv'd
there
incognito
,
and
where
immediately
he
enquir'd
for
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
punctually
informing
himself
of
his
most
familiar
Acquaintance
,
and
what
manner
of
Life
he
lead
.
't
was
told
him
,
that
he
was
the
most
Melancholy
Person
in
the
World
;
that
he
had
been
in
Flanders
for
some
Years
;
that
he
walk'd
always
alone
and
musing
by
himself
;
that
he
visited
very
few
Ladies
;
nevertheless
,
that
his
Merit
was
such
as
won
him
the
Love
and
Esteem
of
all
People
,
though
he
made
that
Art
the
least
of
his
Study
.
Things
thus
distinctly
understood
,
Don
Alvare
remain'd
some
Days
after
this
,
uncertain
where
and
when
to
attack
him
:
but
understanding
by
accident
,
that
he
was
to
go
to
the
Canal
(
which
is
a
walk
adjoining
to
the
Gates
of
Brussels
,
little
frequented
in
the
Morning
,
)
thither
he
hasten'd
by
that
time
the
Sun
was
up
.
But
he
was
no
sooner
alighted
from
his
Horse
,
with
an
intention
to
take
a
turn
or
two
,
when
on
a
sudden
he
was
beset
by
four
Men
,
who
fell
upon
him
with
so
much
Fury
,
that
he
must
have
sunk
most
certainly
under
the
great
disadvantage
of
Multitude
,
had
not
the
generous
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
as
he
was
ready
to
fall
by
Reason
of
the
many
Wounds
he
had
receiv'd
,
arriv'd
in
time
.
The
Marquis
so
naturally
abhor'd
the
inequality
of
the
Match
,
that
he
flew
immediately
to
the
Succour
of
a
Gentleman
,
whom
he
saw
rather
overlay'd
by
Number
,
then
master'd
by
Valour
.
He
was
also
seconded
by
a
Friend
that
accompany'd
him
;
and
being
all
three
thus
join'd
together
,
they
so
vigorously
assaild
,
and
drave
the
Ruffian
,
before
'em
,
that
two
being
dangerously
wounded
,
the
other
two
betook
themselves
to
hasty
slight
.
Now
in
,
●egard
that
such
an
Encounter
as
this
could
never
happen
without
Noise
,
it
was
easily
heard
as
far
as
the
Church
that
stood
at
the
end
of
the
Walk
.
And
this
made
the
People
all
run
out
,
to
see
what
the
Matter
was
,
at
the
same
time
,
that
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
,
being
recover'd
from
those
Commotions
which
Anger
and
Passion
raise
in
heat
of
Combat
,
cast
his
Eyes
upon
Don
Alvare
.
There
needs
no
great
depth
of
Reason
to
judge
of
the
surprize
that
seiz'd
the
Marquis
,
to
meet
an
Accident
so
extraordinary
.
He
bless'd
his
Good
Fortune
;
he
neglected
nothing
wherein
he
might
be
Serviceable
to
a
Person
,
of
whom
he
had
so
much
Reason
to
be
tender
;
and
he
flatter'd
himself
that
this
Accident
might
work
his
Enemy
to
a
Reconciliation
.
In
the
midst
of
these
thoughts
,
his
Love
,
which
had
no
need
of
his
natural
Generosity
to
instruct
it
,
caus'd
h●m
to
act
with
a
more
then
ordinary
Zeal
:
he
caused
the
Count
to
be
carry'd
home
to
his
Lodgings
;
he
spent
whole
days
,
and
the
greatest
part
of
the
Nights
in
his
Chamber
;
nor
did
he
omit
to
cause
those
two
Ruffians
that
were
wounded
to
be
seiz'd
;
and
they
confes'd
in
the
Prison
,
That
the
Count
of
Araval
being
reduc'd
to
utter
Despair
,
by
reason
that
Dona
Eleonora
slighted
him
,
had
sent
'em
to
kill
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
;
that
they
knew
him
not
,
but
being
certainly
inform'd
that
he
was
to
walk
early
in
the
morning
by
the
side
of
the
Canal
,
they
tarry'd
for
him
in
that
place
:
that
seeing
Don
Alvare
appear
at
the
same
instant
,
they
made
no
doubt
but
that
he
had
been
the
Marquis
,
and
so
falling
upon
him
,
they
had
felt
the
effects
of
his
Deliverer's
united
Courage
.
And
indeed
they
were
so
desperately
wounded
,
that
Death
,
soon
after
ensuing
,
prevented
the
publick
punishment
of
their
Villany
.
In
the
mean
time
Don
Alvare
was
so
feelingly
touch'd
with
the
prevaling
Motions
of
Acknowledgment
for
the
Marquis
,
that
after
he
had
embrac'd
him
several
times
,
and
conjur'd
him
to
forget
what
had
past
between
'em
,
he
gave
him
his
word
to
make
use
of
all
his
Credit
with
the
Duke
of
Hixar
,
and
his
Sister
;
to
the
end
he
might
obtain
her
for
his
Wife
.
I
make
no
question
,
added
he
,
but
to
gain
her
Consent
;
she
knows
your
worth
,
Sir
,
and
she
has
always
done
it
Justice
;
and
as
soon
as
my
strength
will
permit
me
,
I
will
in
writing
give
her
an
Account
of
the
Obligations
you
have
lay'd
upon
me
;
I
will
inform
her
of
the
unworthy
Treacheries
of
the
Count
d'Araval
,
and
am
assur'd
she
will
never
deny
me
what
I
request
in
your
behalf
.
Upon
this
,
the
Marquis
embrac'd
him
with
those
transports
of
Joy
,
which
cannot
be
express'd
.
But
,
in
a
short
time
after
,
he
found
his
Joy
redoubl'd
,
perceiving
in
the
Hands
of
Don
Alvare
,
Letters
from
the
Duke
of
Hixar
,
and
Dona
Eleonora
;
the
Contents
of
which
were
,
That
the
Marquis
of
Lemos
might
leave
Flanders
,
when
he
pleas'd
,
with
an
absolute
assurance
to
enjoy
the
Price
of
his
Love
.
Don
Alvare
would
have
been
glad
,
that
his
weakness
would
have
suffer'd
him
to
accompany
the
Marquis
,
in
a
Journey
so
long
wish'd
for
,
and
so
pleasing
to
him
;
and
indeed
,
the
Marquis
offer'd
to
stay
for
him
;
but
he
utter'd
that
Complement
,
poor
Gentleman
!
with
such
an
Air
,
that
it
was
easie
to
discern
,
how
much
a
greater
kindness
Don
Alvare
would
do
him
,
not
to
retard
his
departure
;
and
he
,
on
the
other
side
,
was
so
far
from
desiring
him
to
tarry
,
that
he
hastned
him
away
,
as
much
as
lay
in
his
Power
.
And
in
regard
they
were
afraid
,
least
the
violent
Count
of
Araval
should
engage
himself
in
deeper
Crimes
,
to
cross
the
Marriage
of
the
Marquis
and
Eleonora
,
the
Duke
of
Hixar
resolv'd
to
send
her
away
privately
,
to
an
Estate
of
his
,
near
Lerma
;
and
as
for
himself
and
his
Friends
,
they
were
to
take
another
Road
,
while
the
Marquis
,
in
the
mean
time
,
had
perfect
Notice
of
the
Time
and
Place
design'd
for
the
accomplishment
of
his
Felicity
.
And
for
more
certainty
,
Dona
Eleonora
stay'd
at
Lerma
,
in
expectation
of
her
dearest
Marquis
,
and
to
conduct
him
to
the
Duke
of
Hixar's
Seat
.
Her
Wit
and
Heart
now
both
at
ease
,
and
satisfy'd
alike
,
furnish'd
her
with
a
thousand
pleasing
thoughts
;
nor
did
she
call
to
mind
the
long
absence
of
the
Marquis
,
for
any
other
Reason
,
but
that
she
might
the
more
sensibly
taste
the
Sweets
of
his
return
.
I
cannot
Repent
,
said
she
,
the
Tears
which
his
absence
has
cost
me
,
since
now
so
near
the
approaching
Moment
,
that
must
unite
our
Destinies
for
ever
.
And
with
such
grateful
Reflections
as
these
,
she
continu'd
entertaining
her
contented
mind
till
the
Marquis
arriv'd
.
Put
then
—
Here
it
behoves
us
to
make
a
stop
;
for
it
would
be
a
task
too
difficult
to
express
the
Joy
of
these
two
faithful
Lovers
.
If
the
Reader
ever
Lov'd
,
he
may
much
better
judge
,
then
I
can
write
.
The
Nuptials
were
Solemniz'd
with
that
Freedom
,
which
is
more
easie
to
be
met
with
in
the
Countrey
,
then
in
great
Cities
;
and
in
regard
the
loving
Couple
could
behold
no
Objects
more
Lovely
then
themselves
,
they
requested
the
Duke
of
Hixar
,
that
they
might
remain
for
some
Months
,
together
at
his
House
.
The
END
.
THE
HISTORY
OF
DONA
ORTANSA
,
of
Ventimiglia
.
SEveral
Spanish
Ladies
,
and
some
that
were
Strangers
,
being
gone
all
together
to
Aranjues
,
to
view
the
Beauties
of
that
Royal
Palace
,
after
they
had
spent
a
good
part
of
the
Night
,
in
walking
up
and
down
,
as
Don
Ferdinand
de
Paredes
took
Dona
Catherina
de
Palacios
by
the
Hand
,
to
lead
her
to
her
Coach
that
stood
at
the
end
of
the
Walk
;
and
that
Dona
Elvira
de
Pacheco
follow'd
her
,
led
by
Don
Estevan
de
Caravajal
,
the
latter
perceiv'd
something
drop
from
Don
Ferdinand's
Pocket
,
that
glitter'd
with
such
a
sparkling
brightness
,
as
rais'd
her
Curiosity
.
Don
Estevan
took
it
up
,
and
then
they
found
it
to
be
a
Box
of
Gold
,
set
with
Diamonds
:
upon
which
,
they
withdrew
to
a
place
,
where
the
Moon
shon
free
from
the
coverture
of
Trees
,
and
observ'd
that
it
enclos'd
a
small
Picture
in
Miniature
,
a
curious
and
jolly
piece
of
Workmanship
.
't
was
the
Portraiture
of
a
young
Lady
,
whose
Hair
was
black
,
all
the
Lineaments
of
her
Face
beautiful
and
regular
,
with
a
Physiognomy
gay
and
lively
,
that
was
extreamly
pleasing
.
Dona
Elvira
requested
Don
Estevan
,
that
she
might
have
the
delivering
of
it
back
again
;
to
which
purpose
she
seated
her self
in
the
Boot
,
where
Don
Ferdinand
de
Paredes
plac'd
himself
by
her
.
After
they
had
for
some
time
discours'd
of
General
Matters
,
Dona
Elvira
,
whispering
to
Don
Ferdinand
,
presented
him
the
Picture
:
I
have
now
,
said
she
,
discharg'd
my self
of
the
Obligations
you
have
lay'd
upon
me
:
I
make
no
question
but
this
Portraiture
belongs
to
you
;
it
is
too
fair
and
amiable
to
be
beheld
with
indifferency
:
I
restore
it
ye
back
again
,
continued
she
,
and
I
am
apt
to
believe
,
I
could
not
do
you
a
greater
Kindness
.
This
brought
the
Blood
into
Don
Ferdinand's
Cheeks
,
and
he
blush'd
,
as
if
she
had
lay'd
some
Crime
to
his
Charge
.
Outward
appearance
,
Madam
,
said
he
,
Appearances
are
against
me
:
But
I
conjure
ye
to
listen
to
me
.
Elvira
interrupted
him
,
by
falling
into
a
great
Fit
of
Laughter
;
which
being
over
,
she
told
him
,
That
his
Modesty
was
altogether
out
of
Season
;
that
it
did
not
become
him
to
be
troubl'd
,
because
she
understood
,
he
had
a
Passion
for
a
delicate
Woman
,
and
for
that
she
also
knew
,
the
Lady
had
a
Kndness
for
him
:
However
,
if
it
were
a
Secret
,
which
might
any
way
turn
to
his
Prejudice
,
she
would
be
sure
it
should
go
no
farther
.
But
all
these
aggravations
serving
only
to
perplex
him
so
much
the
more
:
Madam
,
said
he
,
were
I
enamour'd
of
this
fair
Lady
,
I
should
not
be
asham'd
to
acknowledge
it
;
nor
would
it
be
any
dishonour
to
be
Fetter'd
in
such
Chains
as
those
;
but
,
Madam
,
since
you
have
time
to
spare
,
vouchsafe
to
hear
me
for
some
few
Moments
,
and
I
will
rehearse
concisely
to
you
some
odd
Accidents
,
that
may
perhaps
,
deserve
your
Attention
.
And
having
obtain'd
the
Liberty
,
he
thus
began
:
The
Marquis
of
Condro
,
Nephew
to
the
Prince
of
that
Name
,
is
descended
from
one
of
the
most
Illustrious
Houses
of
Sicily
;
he
was
Young
and
Wealthy
,
goodly
of
Person
,
and
might
be
truly
said
to
be
Witty
withal
;
he
was
most
affectionately
in
Love
with
Dona
Ortansa
,
of
Ventimiglia
,
a
Lady
most
infinitely
amiable
,
and
whose
Name
,
Madam
,
doubtless
cannot
be
unknown
to
your self
.
Their
Age
,
their
Estates
,
their
Birth
,
had
so
suitably
match'd
'em
together
,
that
the
Marquis
flattering
himself
that
he
could
not
receive
a
Repulse
,
demanded
her
in
Marriage
,
and
obtain'd
his
Request
,
upon
Condition
of
a
Dispensation
,
which
was
necessary
,
in
regard
they
were
too
near
a
Kin
:
In
pursuance
of
which
,
an
Agent
was
forthwith
dispatch'd
to
Rome
,
whose
return
was
only
expected
.
In
the
mean
time
,
never
were
two
Persons
better
satisfy'd
with
their
happy
Fortune
then
the
Marquis
and
his
Mistriss
.
And
in
this
charming
Tranquility
,
they
liv'd
together
,
when
Don
Carlos
of
the
House
of
Altamira
,
arriv'd
at
Messina
.
He
was
a
Spaniard
,
impetuous
,
and
oversway'd
by
his
Passions
;
but
,
excepting
that
,
a
Person
of
much
Bravery
,
and
One
that
very
well
understood
the
World
.
He
saw
Dona
Ortansa
,
and
found
her
so
incomparably
beautiful
,
that
he
fell
most
desperately
in
love
with
her
;
and
his
Passion
made
that
progress
in
a
few
Days
,
which
in
other
colder
Lovers
would
have
requir'd
some
Years
to
have
gather'd
the
same
force
.
He
knew
this
lovely
Lady
was
promis'd
to
the
Marquis
of
Condro
;
that
it
was
a
Match
that
could
not
be
brok'n
off
;
and
that
their
Hearts
were
so
united
,
that
it
was
in
vain
to
pretend
to
any
thing
of
Courtship
,
as
a
Lover
.
These
Reflexions
cast
him
into
a
deep
despair
;
never
was
any
Person
more
in
Love
,
and
more
Afflicted
.
Nor
had
he
any
Adviser
what
course
to
take
in
these
Distractions
,
but
only
one
Friend
,
who
was
called
the
Cavaliero
de
Stillana
,
and
who
accompany'd
him
from
Madrid
.
Him
he
acquainted
with
the
Condition
of
his
Heart
;
from
him
he
kept
nothing
secret
,
and
he
was
the
only
Person
to
whom
he
apply'd
himself
for
the
Consolation
of
his
corroding
Pains
.
These
Two
happen'd
one
Evening
to
be
together
at
the
Palace
of
the
Viceroy's
Lady
;
where
the
Company
were
playing
at
several
Tables
.
But
the
young
Ladies
.
who
were
desirous
of
Pastimes
more
suitable
to
their
Age
,
retir'd
into
a
large
and
lightsom
Cabinet
,
hung
about
with
several
Instruments
which
they
had
skill
to
play
upon
;
and
while
they
were
beginning
to
make
a
little
Consort
among
themselves
,
the
Cavaliero
de
Stillano
whisper'd
Dona
Ortansa
in
the
Ear
,
that
Don
Carlos
sung
incomparably
well
.
Upon
which
she
begg'd
him
that
he
would
please
to
afford
the
Company
the
Satisfaction
of
hearing
him
.
Presently
he
took
a
Theorbo
in
his
Hand
,
to
accompany
his
Voice
;
and
fixing
his
Eyes
upon
those
of
the
fair
Person
that
had
charm'd
his
Soul
,
he
began
these
words
in
Spanish
,
Mi
muero
de
Amor
,
mi
muero
de
Amor
:
"
I
die
for
Love
,
I
die
for
Love
.
But
after
he
had
repeated
these
words
,
without
being
able
to
go
any
farther
,
he
felt
himself
on
a
sudden
,
in
such
a
languishing
Condition
,
that
letting
fall
his
Theorbo
on
the
one
side
out
of
his
Hands
,
he
sank
down
on
the
other
like
a
Man
quite
dead
.
All
the
young
Ladies
were
affrighted
to
behold
him
in
that
deplorable
Estate
But
the
Cavalier
de
Stillana
having
brought
him
somewhat
to
himself
,
persuaded
him
to
take
a
Turn
in
the
Garden
for
a
little
fresh
Air
.
To
which
purpose
they
walk'd
forward
to
a
little
Grove
of
Lawrel-Trees
,
which
was
embellish'd
with
several
Fountains
;
and
tho'
the
Season
was
very
sharp
and
cold
,
yet
it
did
not
appear
to
have
ravish'd
any
thing
from
the
Verdure
of
that
delightful
Retirement
.
So
that
when
they
found
themselves
at
free
liberty
to
speak
their
Minds
,
Don
Carlos
d'Altamira
,
addressing
himself
to
the
Knight
,
How
cruel
a
Friend
you
are
,
(
said
he
,
)
to
relieve
me
,
at
the
very
moment
that
I
was
about
to
expire
at
Ortansa's
Feet
,
and
to
put
an
end
to
my
Misfortunes
Alas
!
can
you
believe
me
able
to
make
a
long
Resistance
against
the
Violence
of
my
present
Condition
?
You
have
only
for
some
Days
delay'd
the
Conclusion
of
my
Life
.
I
love
,
my
dearest
Knight
,
with
a
Passion
so
extreme
,
that
it
is
not
in
my
power
to
express
it
.
I
am
near
the
fatal
moment
of
losing
all
manner
of
Hope
;
the
fatal
moment
of
seeing
my
Mistress
in
the
Arms
of
my
Rival
.
Oh
Heaven
!
Just
Heaven
,
(
cry'd
he
,
)
can
there
be
any
Sight
more
dreadful
!
What
will
become
of
me
!
What
Resolutions
shall
I
take
!
That
of
curing
your self
,
(
reply'd
the
Knight
,
)
is
the
most
rational
,
and
the
most
easie
.
However
,
I
advise
ye
to
it
;
and
the
more
readily
to
obtain
your
Cure
,
begin
with
my
Prescription
,
to
avoid
the
Object
that
enchants
ye
:
Absence
is
an
approved
Remedy
against
the
Dotages
of
Love
.
Oh!
how
unavailable
will
that
be
for
me
,
(
cry'd
Don
Carlos
,
interrupting
him
;
)
a
faint
and
feeble
Love
is
easily
indeed
extinguish'd
and
dissipated
by
Time
and
Absence
;
but
when
the
Strength
and
Vigour
of
Love
is
at
the
full
height
,
when
it
burns
with
all
its
flames
,
't
is
quite
another
thing
.
No
,
my
dear
Knight
,
No
,
't
is
impossible
for
me
to
quit
her
.
What
will
ye
then
do
?
(
said
he
.
)
I
will
do
(
reply'd
Don
Carlos
,
with
a
precipitate
vehemency
,
)
whatever
Love
and
Despair
can
inspire
into
a
Man
of
Courage
.
—
Here
he
was
interrupted
by
some
of
his
Friends
,
who
seeing
he
did
not
return
,
were
afraid
of
worse
Effects
of
his
Distemper
.
But
finding
how
he
was
,
it
was
not
long
before
they
withdrew
agen
,
after
some
general
Discourse
.
At
this
time
,
the
fair
Mariana
de
Suffo
was
come
to
spend
some
some
few
Days
at
Messina
.
She
is
one
of
the
most
amiable
and
most
delicate
Creatures
in
the
World
;
and
she
happen'd
to
be
in
the
Room
when
Don
Darlos
fell
ill
.
Something
also
she
felt
of
a
favourable
Inclination
for
him
;
nor
cou'd
she
resist
the
vehement
Desire
she
had
to
follow
him
into
the
Garden
,
believing
he
might
speak
some
things
to
the
Cavalier
de
Stillana
,
which
might
concern
her self
;
or
which
,
at
least
,
she
was
willing
might
concern
her
.
And
to
this
purpose
she
requested
Dona
Constantia
di
Vintimiglia
,
who
was
one
of
her
intimate
Friends
,
to
go
along
with
her
.
Both
thus
agreed
,
they
went
softly
stealing
along
without
discovery
,
by
reason
of
the
Trees
that
stood
thick
and
close
together
.
But
Good
God!
in
what
a
Condition
was
Constantia
in
,
when
she
heard
the
Moans
and
Lamentations
of
that
despairing
Lover
.
They
struck
her
with
such
a
quick
and
piercing
Grief
,
as
supasses
Imagination
.
Nor
was
Dona
Mariana
less
afflicted
;
so
that
after
she
had
stood
in
a
deep
silence
a
good
while
,
as
soon
as
Don
Carlos
was
gone
,
the
lovely
Fair
One's
tenderly
both
embrac'd
each
other
;
and
then
Dona
Constantia
said
,
What
Course
shall
I
resolve
to
take
,
my
dearest
Marina
,
(
said
she
to
her
Friend
;
)
If
I
discover
Don
Carlos's
Passion
to
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
have
I
not
reason
to
fear
the
fatal
Accidents
that
may
ensue
?
And
if
I
conceal
it
from
him
,
will
it
not
be
a
Breach
of
that
Sincerity
which
I
owe
him
?
Dona
Mariana
likewise
had
too
great
a
Respect
for
Don
Carlos
,
not
to
be
apprehensive
,
that
if
the
Marquis
should
come
to
have
the
least
ink'ling
of
Don
Carlos's
Affection
,
it
might
produce
bloody
Work
,
and
therefore
out
of
that
foresight
,
she
most
earnestly
requested
Dona
Constantia
not
to
let
any
Person
living
know
of
the
Discourse
which
they
had
over-heard
.
What
can
you
be
afraid
of
,
(
said
Mariana
to
her
;
)
you
are
forthwith
to
marry
the
Marquis
;
and
when
you
are
his
Wife
,
then
all
your
Lover's
Hopes
will
utterly
vanish
:
and
we
generally
find
't
is
Hope
that
feeds
and
nourishes
Love
.
Believe
me
,
(
continued
she
,
)
a
Maiden
Lady
,
that
has
her
Reason
about
her
,
never
ought
to
let
the
World
know
that
any
Person
has
a
Passion
for
her
;
and
that
which
you
have
inspir'd
into
Don
Carlos
,
would
soon
excite
unquiet
Jealousies
in
your
Husband
,
should
he
be
once
inform'd
of
it
.
Forbear
that
Discovery
,
and
you
will
find
,
that
Altamira's
Love
will
be
like
Lightning
,
that
extinguishes
at
the
same
instant
that
it
is
perceiv'd
.
Dona
Constantia
had
so
great
an
Inclination
to
believe
her
Friend
,
that
she
readily
took
her
Advice
.
And
with
this
Resolution
they
retir'd
,
both
extremely
pensive
;
and
after
many
sad
Reflexions
,
which
cost
Mariana
as
many
painful
Sighs
,
she
could
not
think
of
any
better
Remedy
to
cure
her
Pains
,
then
to
forget
the
Person
whom
she
had
fancy'd
already
too
amorously
for
her
repose
,
especially
not
finding
him
concern'd
in
the
least
for
her
.
So
that
the
dishonour
of
Loving
,
without
reciprocal
Returns
of
Affection
,
and
the
secret
Scorn
of
such
an
Ignominy
,
made
her
hasten
back
to
Palermo
sooner
then
she
thought
to
have
done
.
There
she
remain'd
with
the
young
Princess
of
Condro
,
who
,
for
the
most
part
,
was
wont
to
make
that
City
her
usual
Place
of
Residence
.
And
this
Pretence
seem'd
to
her
sufficiently
plausible
,
to
prevent
busie
Curiosity
from
prying
into
the
real
Causes
of
her
Departure
.
Away
she
went
therefore
,
without
seeing
Don
Carlos
.
And
indeed
there
was
need
enough
for
her
to
summon
up
all
her
Reason
,
to
perswade
her
to
abandon
a
Design
that
so
pleasingly
flatter'd
her
Inclinations
.
In
the
mean
time
,
Don
Carlos
durst
not
so
much
as
mention
his
Passion
to
Dona
Constantia
;
well
knowing
,
that
as
things
stood
,
such
an
open
Discovery
of
his
Mind
wou'd
have
been
but
ill
receiv'd
,
and
moreover
,
altogether
out
of
season
.
However
,
he
saw
her
every
Day
;
and
he
never
beheld
her
,
but
he
felt
a
redoubl'd
Augmentation
of
his
Love
;
which
at
length
became
so
violent
,
that
he
must
either
Die
,
or
seek
some
way
to
asswage
the
Fury
of
it
.
To
this
purpose
,
he
inform'd
himself
exactly
of
the
Time
that
the
Agent
was
expected
from
Rome
.
Nor
was
it
a
difficult
thing
for
him
to
be
rightly
instructed
of
that
,
in
regard
that
at
least
in
outward
appearance
he
was
look'd
upon
as
one
of
the
Marquis
of
Condro's
best
and
most
intimate
Friends
.
Being
therefore
satisfy'd
in
his
first
Enquiries
,
away
he
went
himself
to
wait
upon
the
Marquis
at
his
House
.
Whither
being
come
,
My
dear
Altamira
,
(
said
the
Marquis
,
)
you
have
testify'd
your self
so
obligingly
sollicitous
for
every
thing
that
concerns
my
Marriage
,
that
you
are
the
first
Person
whom
it
behoves
me
to
acquaint
that
the
Dispensation
is
come
,
and
that
within
three
Days
,
I
shall
be
the
most
happy
Person
in
the
World
.
This
dreadful
News
so
terribly
alarm'd
Don
Carlos
,
that
he
was
about
to
break
forth
into
a
Fury
:
but
at
last
,
concealing
the
trouble
of
his
Soul
with
all
the
force
and
might
of
his
Reason
,
he
embrac'd
the
Marquis
,
and
cunningly
Dissembl'd
those
Ma●ks
of
outward
Joy
,
which
were
far
remote
from
his
Heart
.
Now
as
he
well
foresaw
this
fatal
Blow
,
he
had
resolv'd
himself
to
have
recourse
to
the
most
violent
Remedies
;
and
to
bring
about
his
Designs
,
he
told
the
Marquis
,
That
being
so
much
his
Friend
as
he
was
,
he
was
resolv'd
for
his
sake
to
give
an
Entertainment
to
Dona
Constantia
,
and
all
the
rest
of
the
Ladies
:
to
which
end
,
he
had
provided
on
purpose
several
small
Calashes
very
trimm
and
gay
;
that
against
the
next
Evening
all
things
should
be
ready
for
the
Divertisement
which
he
devoted
to
his
Mistress
;
only
he
begg'd
the
Marquis
to
give
himself
the
trouble
of
inviting
the
Ladies
.
The
Marquis
of
Condro
thought
himself
most
highly
oblig'd
to
his
Friend
,
for
a
Testimony
so
particular
of
his
Joy
:
and
after
he
had
return'd
him
sincere
and
cordial
Thanks
,
away
he
went
to
acquaint
his
Mistress
with
Don
Carlos's
Design
.
I
find
(
said
she
)
you
are
not
so
precise
and
dainty
as
you
should
be
;
for
,
how
can
you
endure
that
any
other
Man
should
proffer
to
galaunt
your
Mistress
,
but
your self
?
I
must
be
free
to
tell
ye
,
that
I
cannot
but
think
my self
wounded
in
my
Reputation
by
it
;
and
therefore
to
revenge
my self
,
I
will
be
none
of
the
Company
.
'
Whatever
Injustice
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
)
you
do
me
,
I
cannot
blame
your
Prudence
in
a
point
so
nice
and
tender
:
but
I
beseech
you
consider
that
Altamira
is
one
of
my
choicest
Friends
,
and
that
you
will
do
me
a
real
Diskindness
,
if
you
refuse
to
appear
at
a
Banquet
,
which
he
makes
only
for
your
sake
.
Dona
Constantia
,
who
could
not
forget
the
Discourse
which
she
had
over-heard
in
the
Palace
Garden
,
still
continu'd
obstinate
not
to
goe
;
and
there
appear'd
in
this
Refusal
something
of
a
Humour
so
full
of
Discontent
,
that
the
Marquis
was
almost
at
his
Wit's
end
.
But
at
length
he
besought
her
with
so
much
Importunity
,
to
afford
her
this
single
Proof
of
her
Affection
,
that
she
was
no
longer
able
to
resist
his
Entreaties
.
Alas
!
how
weak
are
they
that
love
!
Affection
most
frequently
masters
Reason
:
so
that
all
the
Counsells
that
Reason
gives
,
prove
in
vain
and
fruitless
,
when
our
Inclinations
comply
not
with
it
.
The
next
day
the
Ladies
met
at
Dona
Constantia's
House
,
having
Pages
to
attend
'em
,
that
carry'd
Flambeaux
to
light
'em
when
they
were
in
the
Wood
:
where
were
to
be
seen
in
all
the
chief
Walks
,
Illuminations
very
well
order'd
.
Every
Lady
took
her
Calash
,
with
a
Noble-man
to
drive
it
;
and
Don
Carlos
,
who
had
caus'd
a
magnificent
one
to
be
made
for
Dona
Constantia
,
would
needs
be
her
Conductor
,
notwithstanding
all
her
Reluctancy
,
and
the
Excuses
which
she
made
to
the
contrary
.
There
is
nothing
so
gay
and
jolly
as
these
sort
of
Races
;
the
Horses
are
trapt
with
Housses
,
and
hung
with
silver
Bells
:
the
Calashes
are
painted
with
several
amorous
Devices
;
they
are
gilded
all
over
;
and
tho'
they
flye
along
with
a
prodigious
Swiftness
,
yet
they
are
easie
beyond
Imagination
.
It
was
now
within
some
hours
of
Night
,
and
dark
;
but
the
flaming
Light
of
an
infinite
Number
of
Flambeaux
made
another
truly
artificial
Day
.
Now
for
some
time
Don
Carlos
drove
as
the
rest
did
;
but
gaining
Ground
insensibly
,
all
of
a
sudden
he
lash'd
on
his
Horses
,
and
gallop'd
away
full
speed
,
with
such
an
extraordinary
swiftness
,
that
no
Body
durst
presume
to
follow
him
.
Every
body
expected
,
that
so
soon
as
the
Frollick
was
over
,
he
would
have
return'd
again
;
but
they
were
all
deciev'd
.
For
Don
Carlos
being
in
a
trice
got
out
of
sight
,
and
finding
the
Cavalier
de
Stillana
,
and
his
Servants
ready
at
the
place
appointed
,
notwithstanding
all
her
cries
,
her
tears
,
her
lamentations
and
prayers
,
he
pull'd
the
unfortunate
Constantia
out
of
the
Calash
,
and
in
despite
of
all
her
feeble
Resistance
,
put
her
into
a
Post-Litter
;
and
having
Horses
lay'd
upon
the
Road
,
he
flew
to
Palermo
with
a
more
then
ordinary
speed
.
There
he
embark'd
with
her
in
a
Vessel
before-hand
engag'd
for
his
purpose
;
and
after
a
long
and
dangerous
Voyage
,
arriv'd
at
Cadiz
,
which
was
the
nearest
Port
to
his
Estate
.
And
now
neither
the
Hatred
of
that
fair
Virgin
,
nor
her
Threatnings
,
nor
the
Reproaches
,
wherewith
she
loaded
him
,
signify'd
any
thing
,
to
stemm
his
farther
Resolutions
He
practis'd
all
the
ways
of
humility
and
submission
at
first
,
and
courted
her
with
all
the
marks
of
an
extream
and
violent
Passion
,
flattering
himself
by
that
means
to
find
the
way
to
her
Heart
.
But
finding
,
at
length
,
all
such
Caresses
ineffectual
,
he
desir'd
the
Cavalier
de
Stillana
to
let
her
know
,
that
she
was
no
longer
Mistress
of
her
own
Destiny
;
that
she
might
well
believe
,
a
Man
who
had
ventur'd
all
to
carry
her
away
by
Force
,
would
hazard
all
to
consummate
his
Felicity
;
and
therefore
,
that
the
best
and
safest
course
she
could
take
,
considering
the
Condition
she
was
in
,
wou'd
be
,
to
give
her
free
Consent
to
marry
him
.
Upon
this
serious
Admonition
,
notwithstanding
the
excess
of
Sorrow
which
that
lovely
Lady
suffer'd
for
being
thus
rudely
torn
from
her
dear
Marquis
of
Condro
,
she
found
her
Honour
too
deeply
concern'd
in
the
Accident
which
had
befall'n
her
,
to
make
any
longer
resistance
.
And
therefore
well
knowing
her self
to
be
in
the
Power
of
a
Person
Enamour'd
,
Young
and
Violent
,
the
terrible
Consequences
which
she
had
reason
to
fear
,
enforc'd
her
to
a
complyance
with
what
she
most
detested
in
the
World
.
Thus
marry'd
,
Don
Carlos
lov'd
her
more
entirely
after
she
became
his
Wife
,
then
when
she
was
his
Mistress
.
But
notwithstanding
all
the
Sweets
he
tasted
by
her
Side
,
he
was
constrain'd
to
quit
her
for
a
time
,
there
being
an
indispensable
Necessity
which
drew
him
to
Madrid
,
to
prepossess
the
King's
Ear
in
his
hehalf
,
and
at
the
same
time
,
to
acquaint
his
Friends
and
Relations
with
the
true
State
of
his
Business
.
But
now
to
return
to
the
enamour'd
Marquis
of
Condro
:
He
,
poor
Gentleman
!
after
he
had
long
waited
in
vain
for
the
coming
back
of
his
Mistress
,
and
spent
the
rest
of
the
Night
in
searching
after
her
,
full
of
anxious
Cares
,
and
restless
Fears
,
lest
some
unlucky
Accident
should
have
befall'n
her
,
next
Morning
was
inform'd
of
the
perfidiousness
of
a
Person
whom
he
had
always
look'd
upon
as
his
most
faithful
and
entire
Friend
.
Transported
with
Rage
,
he
curs'd
the
Treason
and
the
Traytor
;
he
sent
every
way
in
pursuit
of
him
,
and
rode
himself
from
place
to
place
to
overtake
the
Ravisher
:
His
Despair
and
his
Fury
were
not
easie
to
be
represented
;
and
at
length
he
resolv'd
for
Spain
,
to
demand
Justice
of
the
King
for
the
Rape
of
his
Constantia
.
The
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
also
Brother
to
the
fair
Lady
,
found
his
Honour
too
deeply
engag'd
in
this
Affair
,
to
refuse
accompanying
the
Marquis
to
Madrid
.
Therupon
they
departed
both
together
,
incens'd
alike
against
the
Marquis
of
Altamira
;
for
that
Title
he
assum'd
immediately
after
his
Marriage
.
The
Count
of
Ventimiglia
was
a
Gentleman
of
a
sweet
Temper
,
Witty
,
Vigorous
,
and
capable
to
entertain
a
strong
Passion
.
His
Hair
was
Flaxen
,
his
Head
rarely
well
proportion'd
,
and
all
his
Lineaments
regular
.
It
may
be
said
he
was
too
Fair
for
a
Man
,
if
too
Fair
may
be
thought
a
Defect
in
any
Person
:
He
Danc'd
and
Sung
as
became
a
Gentleman
;
he
was
also
Poetical
,
and
few
there
were
that
wrote
better
then
he
did
.
These
two
Sparks
quitted
their
disconsolate
Families
,
in
Prosecution
of
the
Person
who
had
occasion'd
their
Distresses
,
and
they
arriv'd
at
Madrid
the
Evening
of
a
Day
,
the
next
to
which
was
appointed
for
the
usual
Pastime
of
Coursing
the
Bull
.
This
Solemnity
brought
together
infinite
multitudes
of
People
into
the
Great
Piazza
;
at
what
time
the
Ladies
in
their
Balconies
richly
hung
with
Tapestry
,
made
the
most
beautiful
Show
,
and
might
be
truly
said
to
be
the
most
admir'd
and
gaz'd-on
Ornament
of
the
Festival
.
The
Marquis
of
Condro
could
not
be
perswaded
to
see
the
Sight
:
His
Vexations
would
not
permit
him
to
take
his
share
of
any
Publick
Pastime
.
But
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
whose
Thoughts
were
not
so
much
incumber'd
,
and
whose
Genius
was
more
free
and
sociable
,
made
one
of
the
number
,
and
met
with
the
convenience
of
a
Balcony
.
Where
presently
,
by
the
Magnificence
of
his
Habit
,
and
his
Comely
Presence
,
he
was
readily
conjectur'd
to
be
some
Stranger
of
Great
Quality
.
For
this
reason
he
drew
the
Eyes
of
many
Considerable
Persons
upon
him
;
but
more
particularly
of
a
Noble
Young
Lady
,
who
seem'd
so
charming
to
him
,
that
he
had
not
leisure
to
admire
any
other
but
Her
only
.
He
strove
in
vain
to
inform
himself
of
her
Name
;
for
the
Persons
of
whom
he
enquir'd
,
either
could
not
,
or
would
not
satisfie
his
Curiosity
.
Nor
could
he
have
an
Opportunity
to
have
her
watch'd
home
,
in
regard
he
had
none
of
his
Attendants
about
him
;
and
at
the
same
time
that
he
thought
to
have
follow'd
her
himself
,
and
was
got
clear
of
the
Throng
to
that
purpose
,
he
perceiv'd
a
Back-door
through
which
,
in
all
probability
,
she
had
escap'd
his
farther
pursuit
:
So
that
he
return'd
to
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
full
freighted
with
the
Object
that
had
enchanted
him
.
He
talk'd
of
nothing
but
this
unknown
Miracle
of
Beauty
:
but
for
several
Days
together
he
was
still
in
the
dark
,
not
knowing
which
way
in
the
World
to
gratifie
his
impatient
Anxiety
;
though
he
used
all
the
diligence
imaginable
,
in
the
Morning
going
to
the
Churches
,
in
the
Afternoon
visiting
the
frequented
Walks
,
and
haunting
the
most
celebrated
Comedies
,
to
try
whether
he
could
meet
with
her
.
However
,
all
these
restless
Perplexities
,
wherein
the
fair
Unknown
had
involv'd
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
did
no
way
hinder
him
from
assisting
the
Marquis
of
Condro
with
a
fervent
Zeal
in
his
Prosecution
of
the
Marquis
of
Altamira
.
They
had
both
the
Honour
to
kiss
the
King's
Hand
,
and
the
leisure
to
aggravate
whatever
might
incense
his
Indignation
against
the
Marquis
;
so
that
while
he
thought
himself
secure
,
by
means
of
the
private
Friends
which
he
had
made
at
Court
,
the
King
caus'd
him
to
be
seiz'd
and
kept
under
a
very
severe
Guard
.
He
also
appointed
Commissioners
to
draw
up
an
Information
against
him
,
in
order
to
his
Tryal
.
And
this
Affair
was
carry'd
on
with
so
much
hast
and
vigour
,
that
it
it
was
apparent
the
Marquis's
Life
was
in
great
danger
.
In
this
posture
of
the
Judicial
Proceedings
,
Word
was
brought
to
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
that
two
Ladies
,
who
would
not
tell
their
Names
,
desir'd
to
speak
with
him
in
private
.
With
that
,
he
left
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
in
whose
Chamber
at
that
present
he
was
,
and
retiring
to
his
own
Apartment
,
sent
for
'em
in
.
No
sooner
was
the
Room
clear'd
,
but
they
threw
themselves
at
his
Feet
,
and
discovering
their
Faces
,
which
before
were
wrapt
up
in
their
Veils
,
let
him
see
that
the
one
was
his
Sister
,
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
,
and
the
other
that
same
charming
Lady
that
had
so
long
disquieted
his
Thoughts
.
A
sight
so
unexpected
and
amusing
,
put
him
into
such
a
pleasing
Consternation
as
could
by
no
means
be
unwelcome
to
a
Person
so
prepossess'd
as
he
was
.
He
embrac'd
his
Sister
with
a
most
tender
Affection
,
after
he
had
rais'd
upon
her
feet
the
charming
Unknown
,
who
deliver'd
her self
to
him
in
these
words
.
The
Condition
of
the
unfortunate
Marquis
of
Altamira
,
is
reduc'd
to
that
Extremity
,
that
we
have
no
other
Hopes
but
in
your
Lordship's
Compassion
.
You
see
his
Wife
,
you
see
his
Sister
,
and
I
dare
presume
to
tell
yee
,
that
if
you
prosecute
your
Resentment
to
the
utmost
Rigour
,
the
Consequences
will
be
alike
Tragical
both
to
your self
and
us
.
For
tho'
the
new
Alliance
by
him
contracted
with
your
Family
was
sought
against
your
Will
,
and
brought
to
pass
by
violent
means
,
yet
has
it
still
the
Honour
to
be
a
Branch
of
yours
;
and
will
you
be
so
cruel
Sir
,
to
imbrue
your
hands
in
my
bloud
?
Concluding
those
Words
,
she
look'd
upon
him
with
such
a
moving
and
suppliant
Aspect
,
that
a
Person
less
enamour'd
then
he
,
would
have
yielded
without
farther
Contest
.
The
Marchioness
of
Altamira
also
,
seconding
her
Sister
in
her
Turn
,
conjur'd
him
to
grant
her
the
Life
of
her
Husband
.
She
told
him
withal
,
that
tho'
she
had
not
marry'd
him
by
choice
,
his
present
Relation
oblig'd
her
to
do
all
she
could
to
save
him
:
and
then
throwing
her self
a
second
time
at
his
Knees
,
she
tenderly
embrac'd
'em
,
withal
protesting
that
she
would
never
leave
him
till
he
had
made
her
some
favourable
promise
.
Never
did
any
Man
labour
under
a
greater
agitation
of
Mind
then
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
;
while
at
the
same
time
the
various
and
strugling
Sentiments
of
Honour
,
Love
,
and
Piety
,
divided
his
Heart
;
but
those
of
Love
at
length
prevail'd
.
What
possibility
to
resist
Emilia's
charming
Eyes
(
for
that
was
Altamira's
Sister's
Name
)
those
lovely
Eyes
,
said
he
,
commanded
on
the
one
side
like
superiour
Lords
and
Tyrants
,
while
on
the
other
side
her
Lips
besought
him
with
melting
Supplications
.
What
is
it
,
Madam
,
you
would
have
me
to
do
:
Madam
,
(
said
he
,
)
I
am
not
the
only
Person
concern'd
in
this
Affair
:
the
Marquis
of
Condro
is
come
on
purpose
;
our
Honour
,
and
the
Honour
of
our
Family
depend
upon
the
Prosecutions
we
are
making
:
is
it
possible
that
having
receiv'd
so
bloody
an
Affront
as
I
have
done
,
I
should
all
of
a
sudden
abjure
my
Honour
and
my
Indignation
.
I
beg
your
Pardon
,
Madam
;
command
me
nothing
that
may
redound
to
my
Ignominy
.
But
oh
!
—
how
feeble
was
he
when
he
maintain'd
this
petty
Combat
between
his
Inclination
and
his
Vertue
.
A
Mistress
with
all
the
Charms
of
Beauty
triumphs
with
ease
,
and
whatsoever
she
desires
,
she
is
certain
to
obtain
.
Emilia
soon
,
alas
!
dispers'd
the
turbulent
Scruples
that
so
powerfully
turmoil'd
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia's
Breast
;
she
call'd
to
mind
how
earnestly
he
gaz'd
upon
her
,
all
the
time
that
the
Bulls
were
cours'd
;
she
beheld
his
Eyes
full
of
Love
and
Respect
.
For
these
Reasons
she
flatter'd
her self
with
Success
;
and
in
a
word
,
the
Resolution
of
the
Count
surrender'd
to
the
Charms
of
young
Emilia
:
he
consented
for
her
sake
to
betray
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
and
to
abandon
his
own
proper
Interests
.
And
now
the
only
question
was
,
which
way
to
go
about
it
:
but
soon
ingenious
Love
instructed
him
,
and
put
it
into
his
head
to
tell
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
that
he
had
a
shrewd
Suspition
of
Altamira's
Guards
;
that
they
were
certainly
brib'd
,
and
therefore
there
was
an
absolute
necessity
to
have
'em
chang'd
;
and
that
Province
he
took
himself
:
so
that
in
a
short
time
the
Old
Guards
were
remov'd
,
and
such
others
made
choice
of
according
to
Emilia's
Direction
,
as
easily
conniv'd
at
her
Brother's
Escape
;
who
was
got
far
enough
out
of
the
way
,
before
the
Marquis
of
Condro
had
any
notice
of
it
:
but
so
soon
as
he
understood
it
,
he
was
in
a
dreadfull
Rage
;
he
run
to
tell
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
not
in
the
least
suspecting
him
to
be
the
Contriver
of
his
Vexation
.
He
was
almost
beside
himself
,
that
his
Enemy
had
escap'd
him
,
and
he
neglected
no
Sedulity
or
means
to
have
him
re-taken
.
He
was
in
such
disorder
after
the
flight
of
the
Marquis
of
Altamira
,
that
he
renounc'd
all
manner
of
Society
;
he
never
stirr'd
out
in
the
day-time
,
but
when
his
Occasions
were
such
as
could
not
be
dispenc'd
with
;
and
he
spent
the
greatest
part
of
the
night
in
La
Florida
,
which
is
a
pleasant
and
solitary
Garden
,
not
far
from
his
Lodging
,
to
which
he
had
a
Key
,
and
where
remote
and
retir'd
from
all
the
World
,
he
wholly
abandon'd
himself
to
his
just
Grief
.
In
the
mean
time
,
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
who
acted
by
concert
with
Emilia
,
went
every
day
privately
to
her
House
,
and
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
,
the
Count's
Sister
,
so
order'd
it
,
that
he
had
always
free
and
easie
Access
to
her
.
The
Obligations
which
he
had
lay'd
upon
that
young
Lady
were
so
essential
,
that
he
needed
no
other
Motives
to
engage
her
to
prefer
him
before
all
her
more
familiar
Acquaintance
at
the
Gourt
.
To
which
,
if
we
may
add
the
personal
Merit
of
the
Count
,
his
extream
Passion
for
her
,
and
the
kind
Offices
which
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
did
him
to
her
Brother
;
it
may
be
readily
apprehended
that
Emilia
could
not
easily
defend
her
Heart
against
his
amorous
Assaults
.
He
knew
his
Happiness
consisted
in
her
,
and
he
had
a
perfect
Relish
of
it
.
He
was
free
to
converse
with
the
Person
whom
he
lov'd
,
and
by
whom
he
knew
he
was
belov'd
again
:
she
favour'd
him
with
all
that
more
then
ordinary
Respect
,
with
all
those
charming
Glances
,
all
that
Confidence
,
which
were
requisite
to
nourish
and
support
a
strong
Passion
.
My
lovely
Emilia
,
(
would
he
sometimes
say
to
her
)
I
am
afraid
you
pay
to
your
Acknowledgement
,
what
I
would
have
only
owing
to
the
motions
of
your
Heart
.
Whatever
Reason
I
have
to
think
my self
the
most
happy
among
Men
,
by
reason
of
those
Favours
which
you
shew
me
;
yet
my
Passion
is
so
ingenious
,
that
it
causes
me
to
fear
,
your
Affection
is
not
the
only
Sourse
of
all
those
Kindnesses
which
are
the
Felicity
of
my
Life
.
I
permit
ye
to
be
nice
and
delicate
,
(
reply'd
Emilia
,
)
but
I
forbid
ye
to
mistrust
my
heart
.
No
,
Sir
,
I
felt
the
Effects
of
your
Merit
,
before
I
was
beholden
to
ye
for
my
Brother's
Life
;
and
thus
far
,
the
Obligations
which
you
have
lay'd
upon
me
,
have
not
been
the
Motives
that
induc'd
me
to
prefer
your
Person
to
my
k●nd
Opinion
.
For
if
I
may
presume
to
speak
it
without
blushing
,
my
Inclination
prevented
my
Recognizance
.
Such
soft
and
winning
Disputes
as
th●●e
,
and
their
frequent
Converse
together
,
enchanted
both
the
one
and
the
other
.
Nor
did
they
mistrust
any
unlucky
Turn
of
Fortune
;
as
if
they
thought
it
behov'd
her
to
respect
a
Flame
so
pure
,
and
burning
with
such
an
equal
Ardour
.
But
there
is
no
Felicity
so
fix'd
,
as
to
be
exempted
from
the
Crosses
of
ill
Fortune
.
Hear
now
how
it
happen'd
.
One
Evening
that
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
was
dispatching
certain
Letters
about
important
Business
,
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
solely
taken
up
with
his
Love
,
and
the
Wrongs
he
had
receiv'd
,
had
lock'd
himself
into
La
Florida
,
attended
only
by
a
Page
;
and
there
he
had
spent
the
greatest
part
of
the
Night
:
but
as
he
was
returning
home
,
with
a
slow
and
musing
pace
,
abandon'd
to
his
own
Melancholly
,
he
found
himself
near
his
own
Lodgings
,
and
was
thinking
to
goe
in
,
when
he
perceiv'd
a
large
and
stately
Palace
all
on
fire
.
With
that
he
hasten'd
to
the
place
,
and
by
the
profound
Silence
which
his
listning
Ear
observ'd
within
,
he
readily
conjectur'd
,
that
all
the
People
were
asleep
,
and
was
afraid
least
the
House
should
be
burnt
before
they
wak'd
.
Upon
this
,
a
true
Sence
of
Pity
and
Compassion
oblig'd
him
to
seek
which
way
he
might
get
in
.
To
this
intent
he
diligently
search'd
the
Garden
Walls
,
and
having
found
a
little
Door
(
as
it
is
the
Custom
of
Madrid
,
to
have
an
Out-let
always
from
the
Garden
into
the
street
)
he
forc'd
it
open
with
his
foot
:
and
entring
farther
,
he
perceiv'd
another
by
the
Light
of
the
Flames
,
which
was
the
upper
half
of
it
enlighten'd
with
a
Glass-Window
,
and
open'd
into
a
Terrass
,
enclos'd
with
a
marble
Ballister
.
This
Door
he
also
broke
open
with
some
difficulty
,
and
then
enter'd
into
a
magnificent
Apartment
,
which
the
Flames
began
to
surround
on
every
side
;
at
what
time
seeing
a
Bed
in
the
Room
,
he
drew
near
it
,
and
there
beheld
a
young
Lady
,
transcendently
beautifull
,
fast
asleep
.
He
had
not
time
to
observe
all
the
Charms
that
accompany'd
her
Beauty
as
she
lay
:
only
he
knew
her
at
length
to
be
Emilia
,
the
Marquis
of
Altamira's
Sister
,
the
Sister
of
his
Enemy
that
of
all
Men
in
the
World
he
hated
most
.
This
seem'd
to
him
,
as
if
that
Chance
had
held
a
Correspondence
with
his
Anger
,
and
furnish'd
him
with
an
Opportunity
to
revenge
himself
;
and
willing
to
take
his
advantage
of
the
Right
of
Reprizalls
,
he
snatch'd
her
hastily
up
in
his
Arms
,
and
carry'd
her
away
.
In
the
mean
time
,
the
noise
which
he
made
,
rais'd
several
of
Emilia's
Women
that
lay
in
the
Rooms
adjoyning
;
but
when
they
saw
the
dismal
Flames
about
their
Ears
,
they
minded
nothing
but
to
save
themselves
,
and
to
cry
out
for
Help
.
As
for
Emilia
,
the
Marquis
of
Condro
had
order'd
his
Page
to
throw
his
Cloak
about
her
,
and
slipping
out
of
the
Garden
at
the
same
Door
that
gave
him
entrance
,
he
took
his
Prey
along
with
him
,
and
all
in
a
hurry
convey'd
her
to
his
own
Lodgings
,
that
were
close
by
.
The
Fright
wherein
that
lovely
Lady
was
to
see
her
House
on
fire
;
her
Astonishment
to
find
her self
in
a
Man's
Arms
,
and
the
shame
of
being
almost
naked
,
took
from
her
,
for
a
time
,
the
use
of
her
Speech
;
she
durst
not
so
much
as
lift
up
her
Eyes
;
she
look'd
pale
,
and
trembl'd
every
Joint
of
her
:
but
at
length
striving
with
her self
,
I
make
no
question
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
to
the
Marquis
)
but
that
you
are
both
generous
and
ready
to
assist
the
Distressed
;
what
you
have
done
for
me
is
a
certain
Proof
of
it
;
I
am
beholden
to
you
for
my
Life
,
and
therefore
I
conjure
ye
that
I
may
be
your
Debtor
for
something
more
,
I
mean
my
Honour
and
Reputation
.
What
would
the
World
think
,
should
it
be
known
that
the
Marquis
of
Altamira's
Sister
was
alone
,
at
this
time
of
the
Night
,
in
the
Chamber
of
a
strange
Gentleman
?
All
the
Fire
which
now
consumes
my
House
,
would
not
suffice
to
purifie
me
from
the
Scandal
.
Concluding
those
words
,
she
cast
her
Eyes
upon
the
Marquis
,
having
,
by
this
,
recover'd
her self
from
her
Fears
,
and
the
disturbance
of
her
Senses
.
But
in
what
a
Condition
was
she
,
when
she
understood
him
to
be
the
mortal
Enemy
of
her
Family
!
She
thought
of
nothing
then
,
but
how
to
get
from
him
;
and
the
Marquis
made
it
his
business
to
oppose
her
with
so
much
Violence
,
that
the
Lady's
Out-cries
began
to
alarm
the
rest
of
the
House
.
She
made
most
bitter
Lamentations
,
and
when
nothing
else
would
do
,
she
cry'd
out
with
all
her
Strength
for
help
.
The
noise
which
they
made
both
together
,
was
so
loud
,
that
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
hearing
it
from
his
Apartment
,
and
fearing
least
some
Mischief
had
befall'n
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
ran
with
all
speed
to
his
Chamber
to
assist
him
,
if
occasion
were
.
But
in
what
a
surprising
astonishment
was
he
,
to
see
the
only
Person
that
he
lov'd
most
tenderly
in
the
World
,
with
her
Hair
about
her
Ears
,
her
Eyes
blubber'd
,
and
her
Countenance
chang'd
.
However
,
no
sooner
she
perceiv'd
him
,
but
wresting
her self
out
of
the
Marquis's
Arms
,
who
held
her
,
she
ran
to
the
Count
,
and
with
her
Hands
clasp'd
together
,
and
her
Eyes
lifted
up
to
Heaven
,
Oh
Sir
!
said
she
,
deliver
me
from
the
Fury
of
this
Tyger
.
Upon
those
words
,
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
fell
into
such
a
Rage
,
that
he
was
never
known
to
be
so
violently
transported
,
so
that
had
he
been
capable
of
a
base
or
cowardly
Action
,
he
had
immediately
torn
the
very
Heart
of
the
Marquis
from
his
Breast
.
But
he
rather
chose
by
affrontive
and
reproachful
Language
to
provoke
him
to
stand
upon
his
Guard
;
so
that
they
fought
before
Emilia's
Face
,
without
stirring
out
of
the
Room
.
You
may
easily
conjecture
what
a
dreadful
Spectacle
this
was
for
a
young
Virgin
to
behold
;
what
Affrights
,
what
Terrors
,
what
Disturbances
assail'd
her
Soul
!
she
disputed
with
her self
,
whether
to
lay
hold
of
the
opportunity
,
and
flye
for
it
or
no
;
but
her
Interest
which
had
ty'd
her
to
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
detain'd
her
by
him
,
to
assist
him
with
her
Prayers
.
But
he
was
so
well
warm'd
and
animated
by
Anger
and
his
Love
,
that
it
was
not
long
before
the
Marquis
of
Condro
lay
weltring
at
his
Feet
in
a
stream
of
Bloud
,
run
through
in
several
places
.
Immediately
the
Count
took
up
the
fair
Emilia
in
his
Arms
,
and
carry'd
her
safe
to
her
own
House
,
where
by
that
time
they
also
found
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
,
to
whom
he
recounted
the
Tragical
Accident
that
had
happen'd
.
Which
pierced
her
with
a
lively
sorrow
to
the
Heart
;
in
regard
that
still
she
had
a
tender
Kindness
for
the
Marquis
.
How
!
is
it
you
,
Brother
,
(
cry'd
she
,
with
a
mournful
Accent
,
)
is
it
you
that
have
giv'n
the
Marquis
his
Mortal
Wounds
?
I
began
,
and
you
have
compleated
his
Misfortunes
:
What
a
fatal
Mishap
it
was
for
him
to
have
ever
known
me
,
to
have
lov'd
me
,
and
never
to
have
chang'd
his
Affection
,
when
he
left
off
being
my
Husband
!
Wo
is
me
!
He
follow'd
me
to
Madrid
;
he
preserves
a
Fidelity
for
me
beyond
Example
;
and
my
own
Brother
now
is
the
Person
that
has
bereav'd
him
of
his
Life
.
Her
Tears
and
her
Sighs
would
not
permit
her
to
proceed
in
her
Lamentations
;
and
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
no
less
void
of
Consolation
,
to
behold
the
Marchioness
so
deeply
afflicted
,
and
to
have
contributed
himself
to
her
Sorrows
,
retir'd
quite
overwhelm'd
with
Grief
.
By
this
time
the
fire
was
quench'd
;
but
not
till
it
had
occasion'd
great
Disorders
,
and
burnt
down
the
one
half
of
that
same
spacious
Pile
.
And
now
't
was
impossible
for
the
Count
to
abide
any
longer
with
his
Mistress
,
considering
what
had
happen'd
;
so
that
he
was
forc'd
to
seek
for
shelter
in
the
Duke
of
Uceda's
House
,
who
was
his
intimate
and
bosome
Friend
;
a
truly
sincere
and
honest
Gentleman
,
and
Son-in-Law
to
the
Duke
of
Ossuna
.
He
gave
him
a
full
Account
of
all
that
had
fall'n
out
between
the
Marquis
of
Condro
and
himself
;
and
withal
desir'd
him
,
so
soon
as
he
could
do
it
without
being
taken
notice
of
,
to
go
and
learn
whether
he
were
alive
or
no
:
and
likewise
to
inform
himself
what
was
the
general
Discourse
of
the
Court
concerning
the
Quarrel
,
and
the
Consequences
of
it
.
He
observ'd
his
Directions
punctually
,
and
brought
him
back
Word
,
That
the
Marquis
was
dangerously
Ill
;
That
he
was
generally
believ'd
to
have
been
Assassinated
;
and
,
That
the
King
had
commanded
diligent
Enquiry
to
be
made
after
the
Murtherers
,
as
being
resolv'd
to
make
severe
Examples
of
those
who
had
committed
so
bloody
an
Act.
With
that
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
lifting
up
his
Eyes
to
Heaven
,
besought
the
Duke
to
protect
his
Innocence
.
Had
it
been
in
my
Nature
to
have
done
a
thing
so
unworthy
a
Man
of
Honour
,
I
would
have
freely
surrender'd
my self
into
the
Hands
of
Justice
,
to
expiate
my
Crime
;
but
in
regard
I
have
nothing
whereof
to
accuse
my self
,
I
cannot
think
I
have
deserv'd
to
be
treated
as
a
Criminal
.
He
gave
Notice
to
his
dearest
Emilia
,
and
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
,
how
Affairs
stood
;
and
never
considering
the
Danger
to
which
he
expos'd
himself
,
in
going
to
see
his
Mistress
,
away
he
slip't
to
her
House
,
in
the
Evening
,
disguiz'd
from
Head
to
Foot
in
the
most
alter'd
shape
that
he
could
think
of
.
Their
Meeting
was
full
of
Tenderness
,
yet
intermix'd
with
sad
Reflexions
.
Emilia
was
laid
down
upon
the
Bed
,
o'erwhelm'd
with
a
Thousand
different
Vexations
:
Where
,
as
she
lay
,
after
some
short
Discourse
of
the
Marquis
of
Condro's
Misfortune
,
Certainly
,
(
said
she
,
)
't
is
my
unhappy
Fate
to
be
the
most
miserable
Person
in
the
World
;
't
is
I
that
have
brought
you
into
this
Danger
,
while
a
generous
Action
,
which
would
otherwise
deserve
Applause
,
is
look'd
upon
as
an
enormous
Crime
that
merits
the
severity
of
Punishment
.
Oh
,
Sir
!
forbear
to
Love
me
,
if
you
desire
to
regain
your
former
Happiness
.
Surcease
to
Love
ye
,
Madam
!
(
reply'd
the
Count
,
with
a
brisk
and
passionate
Emotion
,
)
is
it
possible
that
you
should
give
me
such
Advice
!
What
have
I
done
,
to
draw
upon
me
such
cruel
Marks
of
your
Hatred
?
My
Hatred
!
(
cry'd
Emilia
,
interrupting
him
,
)
Do
you
not
perceive
it
rather
to
be
an
Effect
of
my
tender
Affection
,
that
I
am
willing
to
sacrifice
my
own
Repose
to
yours
?
and
,
that
if
you
should
cease
to
Love
me
,
I
should
cease
to
Live
?
—
Oh!
Charming
Emilia
,
(
again
reply'd
the
Count
,
)
ne'er
fear
my
sinking
under
the
weight
of
my
Misfortunes
;
so
long
as
you
assure
me
the
Continuance
of
your
Favours
,
I
shall
be
always
Contented
with
my
Destiny
.
The
greatest
part
of
several
Days
insensibly
slipp'd
away
in
such
amorous
Expostulations
and
Protestations
as
these
;
which
greatly
asswag'd
the
Count's
corroding
Anguish
and
Vexation
of
Mind
.
But
the
fair
Marchioness
of
Altamira
enjoy'd
no
such
delightful
Hours
,
for
she
lamented
,
without
ceasing
,
her
Own
and
the
Marquis
of
Condro's
Disasters
.
And
all
this
while
,
notwithstanding
all
the
strict
Pursuits
and
Searches
without
intermission
after
the
Count
,
he
was
so
truly
satisfy'd
with
the
Company
of
his
Mistress
,
that
his
Troubles
and
his
Dangers
little
concern'd
him
.
He
had
a
Great
Soul
,
and
an
Undaunted
Courage
,
insomuch
that
he
could
not
believe
any
Body
so
hardy
as
to
assail
him
.
But
the
Plot
was
so
laid
,
one
Evening
,
just
as
he
was
entring
into
Emilia's
House
,
that
he
had
certainly
been
taken
,
had
he
not
defended
himself
with
a
Courage
which
astonish'd
those
that
were
appointed
to
seize
him
.
The
Duke
of
Uceda
also
,
who
lov'd
him
dearly
,
had
the
good
hap
to
be
at
a
place
close
by
,
with
another
Gentleman
,
a
faithful
Friend
of
his
;
who
hearing
a
Noise
of
People
Fighting
,
arriv'd
to
the
Count's
Rescue
,
at
the
same
time
that
Emilia
,
who
had
beheld
the
Scuffle
out
at
a
Window
by
the
Light
of
the
Moon
,
had
sent
all
her
Servants
to
assist
him
:
so
that
he
was
quickly
dis-engag'd
from
the
greatest
Danger
that
ever
he
had
run
.
After
this
Encounter
,
all
his
Friends
told
him
,
That
it
was
absolutely
necessary
for
him
to
be
gone
,
and
to
leave
the
Success
of
his
Business
and
Justification
to
Time
and
Opportunity
:
That
if
the
Marquis
of
Condro
should
not
die
,
which
was
very
doubtful
,
he
would
certainly
be
so
generous
,
as
to
tell
the
real
Truth
of
the
whole
Story
;
and
that
it
would
be
more
easie
for
him
to
vindicate
himself
in
a
Place
of
Security
,
then
venture
the
King's
incens'd
Anger
under
the
Power
of
his
Enemies
.
The
fair
Marchioness
of
Altamira
likewise
wrote
to
him
several
times
,
conjuring
him
to
depart
.
She
would
before
have
follow'd
her
Husband
;
but
the
Condition
of
his
Affairs
would
not
permit
him
to
continue
long
in
a
place
,
and
therefore
he
desir'd
her
to
stay
at
Madrid
,
though
it
were
with
utmost
reluctancy
that
she
obey'd
;
but
at
last
she
yielded
,
and
liv'd
with
Emilia
.
However
,
at
length
o'ercome
with
Grief
,
by
reason
of
the
sad
Condition
to
which
the
Marquis
of
Condro
was
reduc'd
,
she
alledg'd
for
her
Excuse
,
That
a
Woman
of
her
youthful
Years
,
could
not
enjoy
the
World
with
any
Credit
,
while
her
Husband
was
overwhelm'd
with
Misfortunes
for
her
sake
,
and
so
she
retir'd
into
the
Nunnery
of
St.
Domingo
.
And
in
that
Solitude
it
was
,
that
without
ceasing
she
set
before
her
Eyes
all
his
Misfortunes
;
where
she
consider'd
,
that
she
was
design'd
to
have
marry'd
a
Man
whom
she
lov'd
beyond
her
own
Life
,
but
was
torn
from
his
Embraces
by
the
rude
Hand
of
boisterous
Fate
:
That
he
was
reduc'd
to
utmost
Extremity
by
a
Brother
whom
she
tenderly
lov'd
:
That
she
was
the
Wife
of
a
Person
whom
she
could
not
look
upon
but
as
her
Ravisher
:
That
she
saw
her
Fortune
ranvers'd
,
and
all
the
Tranquillity
of
her
Life
at
a
fatal
Conclusion
.
These
mournful
Reflexions
threw
her
into
such
a
violent
Despair
,
that
never
was
any
poor
Lady
so
worthy
of
Compassion
.
She
wrote
sometimes
to
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
to
ease
her
Pains
by
venting
her
innocent
Lamentations
,
and
to
press
him
to
secure
himself
in
some
place
of
safety
.
Nor
were
his
Friends
less
importunate
with
him
to
that
purpose
:
And
he
apprehended
the
force
of
their
Reasons
well
enough
.
But
,
in
short
,
this
would
oblige
him
to
quit
Emilia
;
this
would
constrain
him
to
a
Separation
from
her
,
and
there
was
no
Danger
that
appear'd
so
dreadful
to
him
as
that
.
The
Duke
of
Uceda
,
despairing
to
work
any
thing
upon
him
,
went
to
Emilia
with
all
the
Zeal
of
a
cordial
Friend
,
and
conjur'd
her
to
make
use
of
all
her
Power
to
oblige
the
Count
to
withdraw
:
he
told
her
she
was
more
engag'd
then
any
other
Person
,
to
be
concern'd
for
his
Preservation
,
considering
what
he
had
done
for
her
.
Emilia
promis'd
to
neglect
nothing
that
she
could
think
of
to
effect
it
;
and
in
short
,
when
she
saw
him
next
,
she
spoke
to
him
of
his
Departure
,
and
that
with
such
a
commanding
Vehemency
,
that
for
fear
of
Displeasing
her
,
he
consented
to
whatever
she
desir'd
.
How
much
afflicted
soever
,
(
said
she
to
him
)
you
may
be
to
leave
me
,
you
cannot
be
more
grievously
sensible
of
the
Separation
,
then
my self
.
I
am
to
accuse
my self
of
being
the
innocent
Cause
of
this
Confusion
of
our
Affairs
;
't
is
for
defending
my
Honour
that
you
are
now
to
be
a
Stragler
and
a
Fugitive
;
yet
might
it
be
permitted
me
to
bear
ye
Company
,
(
continu'd
she
,
with
showers
of
Tears
at
the
same
instant
trickling
from
her
Eyes
,
)
and
to
partake
the
Troubles
I
have
drawn
upon
ye
,
such
an
Appeasement
would
make
amends
for
all
;
but
what
I
owe
to
Decency
restrains
me
here
.
—
I
should
be
more
than
happy
,
(
reply'd
the
Count
,
pierc'd
to
the
Quick
with
an
excess
of
Grief
;
)
I
should
be
more
then
happy
,
Madam
,
could
I
be
bless'd
with
your
Society
:
But
I
must
leave
ye
;
you
your self
command
my
Absence
;
and
while
you
take
care
to
preserve
my
Life
,
condemn
me
to
a
sudden
Death
.
—
And
thus
the
Pangs
of
their
Affliction
wee
equally
the
same
in
Both
.
However
,
it
was
agreed
between
'em
,
that
the
Count
should
retire
to
Bourdeaux
,
to
the
end
they
might
with
more
convenience
correspond
together
;
and
at
parting
,
she
gave
him
her
Picture
,
as
an
Essential
Pledge
of
her
Affection
;
and
he
receiv'd
it
with
all
the
Transports
that
Love
could
inspire
into
a
Person
desperately
in
Love
.
He
observ'd
all
necessary
Cautions
for
his
Departure
;
and
that
cruel
minute
being
come
,
he
bid
adieu
to
his
dear
Emilia
:
He
said
but
little
to
her
;
his
Silence
was
the
Interpreter
of
his
Grief
:
and
on
the
other
side
,
he
receiv'd
from
her
all
the
Testimonies
that
a
vertuous
Virgin
could
give
,
of
the
most
sincere
and
passionate
Affection
in
the
World
.
Nor
did
he
forbear
to
write
to
her
till
he
arriv'd
at
Bourdeaux
,
but
was
very
diligent
to
let
her
hear
from
him
upon
the
Road
,
where-ever
he
met
with
a
Convenience
;
and
when
he
got
to
Bourdeaux
,
he
found
several
Letters
there
,
which
had
made
haste
before
him
.
Nor
will
it
be
amiss
to
shew
you
some
of
those
he
wrote
,
to
let
ye
see
the
extraordinary
Passion
he
had
for
that
most
amiable
Lady
.
WHen
every
day
I
kept
you
company
,
Madam
,
I
thought
I
could
sometimes
have
dispens'd
with
such
a
Fondness
.
But
alas
!
what
I
now
suffer
,
apparently
convinces
me
,
that
my
Reason
was
deluded
by
my
Love
.
I
search
for
ye
where-e'er
I
come
,
but
can
find
ye
no
where
but
in
my
Heart
.
Nevertheless
,
in
that
same
Heart
you
are
so
truly
ador'd
,
and
so
entirely
Absolute
,
that
there
is
nothing
which
I
can
desire
from
Your's
,
unless
it
be
a
mutual
Return
of
Tenderness
.
See
there
another
.
—
Said
Don
Ferdinand
.
HOW
!
Is
our
Common
Enemy
recover'd
,
and
past
danger
,
and
yet
no
talk
of
my
Return
?
I
can
no
longer
endure
your
Absence
,
and
therefore
have
resolv'd
once
more
to
re-enjoy
your
Company
.
For
is
it
Just
,
that
I
should
lose
my
Life
,
to
satisfie
the
Humour
of
the
World
?
I
value
not
Worth
or
Merit
,
but
to
serve
you
,
Madam
:
Nor
do
I
wish
for
Happy
Days
,
unless
you
may
be
the
Sharer
of
my
Felicities
.
I
will
trouble
you
no
more
then
with
only
this
,
(
added
the
Rehearser
of
the
Story
.
)
HOW
Tender
and
Affectionate
your
Letters
are
!
How
do
they
rejoyce
my
very
Soul
!
What
mournful
Sighs
they
cost
me
!
What
sad
Reflexions
attend
the
pleasure
of
receiving
them
!
They
serve
to
make
me
yet
more
deeply
sensible
of
your
remoteness
from
me
.
I
have
already
told
ye
,
Madam
,
of
my
Intentions
to
return
:
And
when
we
are
together
,
is
it
possible
that
Fortune
can
do
us
any
Mischief
?
In
the
mean
time
,
the
Marquis
of
Condro
was
perfectly
recover'd
,
and
still
continu'd
his
Prosecutions
against
the
Marquis
of
Altamira
,
with
the
same
Heat
and
Fury
as
at
first
.
He
had
also
learn'd
the
place
where
he
lay
conceal'd
;
at
what
time
he
likewise
understood
that
he
was
near
the
Period
of
his
Life
.
The
continual
Restlessness
that
turmoyl'd
his
Mind
,
and
the
Care
he
took
to
keep
out
of
the
way
,
or
rather
,
to
live
like
a
Vagabond
,
had
so
impair'd
his
Health
,
that
he
fell
dangerously
sick
;
of
which
he
sent
word
to
the
Marchioness
,
who
hasten'd
to
him
with
all
speed
.
But
when
she
came
,
she
found
him
drawing
on
;
and
all
the
Comfort
he
had
,
was
to
expire
in
her
Armes
.
However
,
in
the
mid'st
of
so
many
Misfortunes
,
that
generous
Lady
had
still
preserv'd
a
fortitude
of
Mind
,
and
a
vertuous
Integritiy
,
above
what
was
common
among
Women
.
After
she
had
perform'd
her
last
Duties
to
her
Husband
,
she
return'd
to
Madrid
;
and
then
it
was
that
the
Marquis
of
Condro
made
no
question
but
to
have
compleated
his
Felicity
.
With
this
Conceit
,
away
he
went
to
her
House
,
and
desir'd
admittance
to
speak
with
her
.
But
she
sent
him
word
,
That
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
had
a
quite
different
course
to
steer
,
then
Dona
di
Ventimiglia
;
That
she
was
the
Widow
of
a
Person
whom
he
had
persecuted
;
and
,
That
she
did
not
think
that
her
Reputation
would
permit
her
to
renew
any
Familiarity
with
him
.
He
receiv'd
his
Answer
like
a
Thunder-Clap
,
that
had
fell'd
him
almost
to
the
Earth
.
Nevertheless
,
he
listen'd
not
to
his
Resentment
,
which
secretly
incens'd
him
to
throw
off
that
Respect
which
he
ow'd
her
;
he
only
bid
the
Messenger
tell
her
,
That
her
Injustice
was
too
severe
;
but
that
he
made
no
doubt
,
but
after
she
had
seriously
reflected
upon
the
Motives
which
engag'd
him
in
her
Quarrel
,
she
would
repent
of
her
Cruelty
toward
him
.
But
notwithstanding
this
Denial
,
her
Grief
for
his
Affliction
had
already
taken
too
deep
a
Root
;
there
was
no
need
of
augmenting
it
by
the
Testimonies
of
Submission
that
were
more
near
her
Heart
.
The
Complaisance
which
she
had
for
her
Husband
,
and
all
those
Duties
which
she
perform'd
with
so
much
Conjugal
Exactness
,
proceeded
only
from
the
Friendship
she
had
for
him
:
She
had
always
look'd
upon
him
as
her
Ravisher
,
and
as
the
Man
that
with
a
barbarous
Violence
had
torn
her
from
the
only
Person
that
she
lov'd
in
the
World
.
So
that
when
she
refus'd
to
see
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
she
felt
the
Throws
of
an
extraordinary
Compunction
;
but
for
Decency's
sake
,
she
became
a
Victim
to
the
Publick
.
The
Persuasions
of
Dona
Emilia
,
were
very
importunate
to
prevail
with
her
to
see
him
again
.
And
indeed
she
had
a
particular
Interest
which
oblig'd
her
to
it
,
in
kindness
to
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
which
render'd
her
most
ingenious
to
furnish
the
fair
Widow
with
Reasons
sufficient
,
why
she
should
restore
her
Affection
to
the
Marquis
of
Condro
.
Besides
that
,
Love
never
loses
any
of
its
Privileges
;
so
that
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
might
well
think
the
Pretence
of
Reconciling
her
Brother
with
her
Lover
,
was
plausible
enough
to
re-admit
him
,
without
incurring
the
Censures
of
the
World
.
Immediately
therefore
she
sent
away
to
the
Duke
of
Useda
,
to
come
to
her
;
and
told
him
,
That
if
the
Marquis
of
Condro
would
condescend
to
a
Reconciliation
with
her
Brother
,
she
would
again
receive
him
into
favour
.
You
may
be
sure
there
needed
then
no
great
Persuasions
to
hasten
his
most
officious
Sedulities
to
engage
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
.
Immediately
he
wrote
him
a
most
melting
Letter
:
He
conjur'd
him
,
without
delay
,
to
hasten
to
Madrid
;
and
that
he
might
assure
him
that
both
their
Interests
were
now
the
same
,
he
gave
him
to
understand
,
that
he
had
been
inform'd
of
his
Passion
for
Emilia
;
and
that
he
would
leave
nothing
omitted
to
compleat
the
Felicity
to
which
he
aspir'd
.
He
also
sent
a
Gentleman
on
purpose
to
let
him
know
how
impatiently
he
was
expected
at
Madrid
.
At
that
time
,
I
had
been
about
Two
Days
at
Bourdeaux
,
where
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
had
given
me
a
full
Relation
of
his
Passion
for
Emilia
;
and
of
all
the
Particulars
I
have
hear
repeated
to
your
Ladyship
.
He
also
shew'd
me
her
Picture
and
her
Letters
;
and
appear'd
to
me
so
deeply
in
Love
,
that
I
never
saw
a
Man
so
sincerely
and
passionately
concern'd
.
You
may
judge
,
by
that
,
of
his
extraordinary
Joy
,
to
see
himself
of
a
sudden
so
near
the
Haven
of
his
amorous
Desires
,
and
just
returning
to
his
beloved
Mistress
.
It
was
the
Subject
of
all
his
Discourse
.
In
what
a
sad
Condition
are
you
,
(
said
he
to
me
,
)
that
you
have
no
Engagement
:
You
know
not
the
chiefest
Pleasures
which
the
Heart
enjoys
:
You
are
not
sensible
,
that
even
the
Pains
of
Love
surpass
all
other
Pleasures
that
proceed
not
from
the
same
Original
.
—
I
listen'd
to
him
with
Attention
,
and
was
charm'd
to
see
him
so
well
satisfy'd
,
and
his
Heart
so
jocondly
at
rest
.
At
the
same
time
also
,
he
receiv'd
a
large
Pacquet
of
Letters
from
Emilia
;
wherein
she
conjur'd
him
to
set
forward
with
all
speed
;
and
nothing
could
be
added
to
the
Marks
which
she
gave
him
of
her
Favour
,
and
tender
Affection
.
You
have
no
farther
need
of
me
,
(
said
I
to
him
;
)
your
Mistress's
Letters
are
a
sufficient
Supply
for
all
your
Wants
,
and
therefore
I
'll
go
and
prepare
all
things
ready
for
my
departure
;
be
sure
you
write
to
her
.
'
—
Be
sure
to
write
to
her
!
(
cry'd
he
:
)
In
truth
,
you
little
understand
my
fervent
Assiduity
;
we
'll
set
forward
both
together
;
and
never
question
but
I
shall
be
able
to
bear
ye
company
;
nay
,
I
intend
to
be
there
before
ye
;
for
Love
will
lend
me
his
Wings
.
—
Thus
we
embrac'd
each
other
,
and
I
return'd
betimes
next
Morning
.
But
woe
is
me
!
How
terribly
was
I
surpriz'd
next
Morning
!
How
dismally
afflicted
,
to
find
him
seiz'd
with
a
Pestilential
Fever
,
and
full
of
Purple
Spots
!
I
went
to
his
Bed-side
like
one
in
a
Trance
;
for
I
lov'd
him
with
a
particular
Affection
.
He
reach'd
me
his
Hand
;
and
looking
upon
me
,
with
his
Eyes
sunk
in
his
Head
,
a
certain
Symptom
of
his
Condition
;
Ah!
my
dear
Paredes
,
(
said
he
,
)
how
deceitful
are
the
Felicities
of
this
World
!
Yesterday
in
the
Evening
I
thought
my self
the
most
happy
among
Men
:
I
would
not
have
exchang'd
my
Fortune
for
a
Monarchy
.
Last
Night
I
thought
my self
within
a
Span
of
seeing
Emilia
;
and
from
that
happy
moment
,
to
have
enjoy'd
the
only
Blessing
of
my
Life
,
by
me
so
passionately
desir'd
:
But
now
I
find
my
Hopes
are
all
deceiv'd
,
and
I
shall
never
,
never
see
her
more
.
Behold
me
here
,
a
miserable
Creature
,
cover'd
o'er
with
Pestilential
Spots
:
I
must
die
in
a
very
short
time
;
I
must
die
Unmarry'd
to
Emilia
,
and
e'er
I
could
persuade
my
Sister
to
compleat
the
Happiness
of
her
constant
Lover
.
My
dear
Friend
,
(
continu'd
he
,
grasping
my
Hand
in
his
,
)
I
conjure
you
to
contribute
to
my
Consolation
:
Assure
Emilia
,
that
I
die
her
most
sincere
Adorer
,
and
that
she
has
been
all
along
the
only
Object
of
my
Vows
:
Her
Letters
and
her
Picture
lye
under
the
Bolster
;
and
I
must
beg
of
you
to
give
your self
the
trouble
of
restoring
'em
,
together
with
these
few
Jewels
;
which
I
conjure
her
to
accept
,
and
keep
in
remembrance
of
her
faithful
Servant
.
As
to
what
remains
,
I
cannot
think
you
will
forsake
me
in
this
Condition
;
the
Friendship
that
is
been
between
us
,
assures
me
the
contrary
,
and
I
give
you
full
power
to
order
all
things
,
after
I
am
dead
,
as
I
shall
see
convenient
.
—
I
was
unwilling
to
interrupt
him
till
then
,
because
he
found
some
sort
of
Consolation
in
what
he
said
to
me
;
and
in
regard
that
,
for
my
own
part
,
I
was
so
over-whelm'd
with
Sorrow
,
that
I
stood
in
need
of
some
Time
,
and
all
the
Succour
of
my
Reason
,
to
recollect
my self
;
and
because
I
was
unwilling
to
augment
his
Despair
,
by
an
Excess
of
hopeless
Grief
.
But
finding
,
at
length
,
that
these
mournful
Reflexions
weaken'd
him
,
I
bid
him
be
of
good
cheer
;
and
told
him
withall
,
That
,
in
my
Opinion
,
he
was
too
careful
;
That
his
Distemper
was
not
so
violent
as
he
imagin'd
,
and
that
his
Youth
might
overcome
it
.
I
assure
you
Sir
,
(
said
he
,
with
something
a
more
ready
utterance
,
)
I
am
afraid
of
nothing
:
I
know
what
the
Physitians
have
said
to
me
,
and
I
know
better
then
they
in
what
Condition
I
am
:
I
have
no
more
to
say
to
you
,
my
Business
is
now
,
to
think
of
more
Essential
Things
:
I
am
afraid
of
being
surpriz'd
;
for
when
we
are
so
near
our
Ends
,
every
Minute
is
precious
;
and
we
look
upon
Things
with
a
far
different
Eye
,
then
when
we
are
in
perfect
Health
.
—
Concluding
these
words
,
I
observ'd
that
he
faulter'd
in
his
Speech
,
and
that
his
Eyes
grew
dimmer
and
dimmer
.
These
mortal
Symptoms
made
me
advise
him
to
send
for
a
Confessor
;
but
he
had
thought
upon
that
before
,
and
told
me
he
expected
one
every
minute
.
But
not
to
detain
you
any
longer
,
Madam
,
in
the
most
unpleasant
Part
of
my
Rehearsal
,
the
poor
Count
of
Ventimiglia
dy'd
within
Six
Days
;
and
after
I
had
pay'd
him
those
last
Duties
to
which
our
Friendship
engag'd
me
,
I
came
away
.
I
thought
to
have
found
Dona
Emilia
at
Madrid
,
and
to
have
shar'd
with
her
in
her
Grief
:
But
I
heard
she
was
gone
to
Grenada
,
where
she
had
shut
her self
up
a
Nunnery
.
My
stay
by
the
way
,
was
the
reason
that
she
heard
the
fatal
News
without
any
Preparation
,
by
one
of
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia's
Gentlemen
,
who
sent
her
word
of
it
by
the
Post
.
She
was
ready
to
expire
for
Grief
;
nor
would
her
Sorrows
admit
of
any
allay
;
so
that
in
Four
and
twenty
Hours
after
she
left
Madrid
,
not
able
to
endure
the
Court
,
nor
the
World
it self
;
and
I
must
take
a
Journey
to
Grenada
,
on
purpose
to
restore
her
back
the
Picture
which
you
took
up
.
I
will
shew
you
,
Madam
,
when
you
please
to
command
me
,
all
that
most
amiable
Person's
Letters
;
and
when
you
shall
permit
me
to
make
ye
those
Assurances
which
concern
my self
,
be
sure
I
shall
not
tell
ye
that
I
love
Emilia
.
Alas
!
how
sorry
am
I
for
her
!
(
cry'd
Dona
Elvira
:
)
She
has
lost
the
Man
she
lov'd
;
no
more
shall
she
behold
the
Object
of
her
Affection
:
Eternal
Night
now
parts
'
em
.
Are
you
sensible
,
Don
Ferdinand
,
of
the
Horror
of
this
Separation
?
'
—
'
I
have
experienc'd
it
,
(
reply'd
he
,
)
after
so
cruel
a
manner
,
that
I
wonder
I
am
yet
alive
in
the
World
:
For
I
dare
presume
to
say
,
The
Spaniards
know
better
how
to
Love
,
then
any
other
Nation
in
the
Universe
.
—
Thus
,
for
a
while
,
they
stood
speechless
,
in
a
pensive
and
profound
Amusement
;
till
Dona
Elvira
first
of
all
brake
silence
,
and
desir'd
Don
Ferdinand
to
tell
her
what
became
of
the
Marchioness
of
Altamira
.
She
,
(
said
he
,
)
is
gone
to
Seville
,
as
it
is
conjectur'd
,
that
she
may
have
the
more
liberty
to
converse
with
the
Marquis
of
Condro
,
till
her
Year
of
Mourning
is
out
.
And
that
which
confirms
the
general
Surmize
,
is
this
,
That
he
follow'd
her
;
and
without
question
,
within
a
Year
,
he
will
be
happy
.
'
—
'
All
outward
Appearances
,
(
said
Dona
Elvira
,
)
seem
to
assure
it
,
and
his
Fidelity
deserves
it
;
but
the
Example
of
the
Count
of
Ventimiglia
,
shews
us
,
that
there
is
nothing
certain
in
this
World
.
'
—
'
You
are
too
long
upon
,
your
Moral
Reflexions
,
(
reply'd
Don
Ferdinand
,
)
which
are
altogether
unseasonable
,
during
the
most
lovely
Night
in
the
World
,
and
in
the
mid'st
of
our
Recreations
.
'
—
't
was
your self
,
(
said
she
,
)
that
put
me
in
the
Humour
:
Wherefore
did
you
tell
us
such
a
doleful
Story
?
—
'
And
wherefore
,
(
cry'd
he
,
with
a
smiling
Countenance
,
)
did
you
suspect
me
,
upon
the
score
of
Emilia's
Picture
?
'
—
Never
say
that
I
suspected
yee
,
(
reply'd
Elvira
,
interrupting
him
:
)
Nor
is
the
Expression
any
way
pertinent
;
for
as
I
had
nothing
of
Curiosity
,
you
were
at
your
own
disposal
to
have
said
nothing
of
it
.
What
you
add
,
is
much
more
disobliging
,
(
continu'd
he
;
)
you
very
ill
repay
me
for
my
good
Intentions
;
and
which
can
never
be
unpleasing
to
yee
,
if
you
would
but
look
upon
'em
with
an
Eye
of
Justice
.
However
,
't
was
no
more
then
what
I
always
thought
.
't
was
enough
that
I
was
born
a
Spaniard
,
for
me
to
expect
from
you
,
whatever
you
can
say
to
my
Prejudice
.
—
Upon
these
words
,
she
fell
into
such
a
violent
Fit
of
Laughter
,
that
she
rais'd
the
Curiosity
of
all
the
Ladies
that
were
present
.
They
demanded
the
reason
of
her
Mirth
:
Of
which
when
Dona
Elvira
had
inform'd
'em
,
the
Discourse
ran
generally
upon
that
Theme
.
The
End
of
the
Second
History
.
THE
HISTORY
Of
the
MARQUIS
of
MANSERA
,
And
DONA
TERESA
.
The
FIRST
PART
.
DOna
Eleonora
,
and
Dona
Teresa
,
who
for
several
Years
together
had
ty'd
themselves
in
a
League
of
Friendship
more
affectionate
and
more
sincere
then
is
usual
among
Ladies
,
went
in
the
Spring-time
to
take
a
walk
in
the
delightful
Gardens
of
the
Palace
of
Alhambra
.
At
what
time
the
last
of
the
Two
appear'd
so
melancholly
,
and
so
violently
oppress'd
,
that
her
Friend
for
some
time
not
daring
to
take
notice
of
it
,
at
length
could
not
forbear
to
demand
the
Reason
of
such
an
extraordinary
Disturbance
.
't
is
a
long
while
,
(
said
she
,
)
that
I
have
withstood
my
eager
desire
to
know
the
Cause
of
your
continual
Anguish
,
and
which
now
seems
to
me
much
greater
then
it
was
;
but
I
was
always
afraid
of
being
too
impertinent
;
and
I
had
still
observ'd
the
same
Reserv'dness
,
did
not
those
overwhelming
Sorrows
which
I
observe
in
your
Countenance
,
enforce
me
to
be
thus
inquisitive
,
that
,
if
possible
,
I
may
be
able
to
apply
some
Lenitive
to
ease
your
Pains
.
—
They
are
such
things
,
(
reply'd
Teresa
,
)
that
a
Woman
would
willingly
conceal
'em
from
her self
;
and
the
not
disclosing
'em
to
her
Friends
,
is
not
to
be
thought
a
Mark
of
Distrust
,
but
rather
that
it
is
a
difficult
Task
to
express
'
em
.
—
There
can
be
no
Reason
,
(
reply'd
Eleonora
,
)
to
be
so
cautious
of
a
Friend
whose
Tenderness
and
Discretion
have
been
equally
and
upon
all
occasions
experienc'd
;
and
for
my
part
,
I
should
think
it
a
Defect
of
Friendship
,
if
any
thing
lay
heavy
at
my
Heart
which
I
should
not
communicate
to
your
knowledge
.
'
—
'
Forbid
it
,
Heaven
,
(
cry'd
Teresa
;
)
it
behoves
me
not
to
justifie
my
Silence
at
the
expence
of
your
Esteem
:
You
importune
me
,
and
perhaps
my
Heart
is
not
at
all
offended
that
you
put
this
Constraint
upon
me
.
But
let
us
retire
to
some
private
Place
,
where
we
may
talk
by
our selves
,
without
being
over-heard
.
—
With
that
they
quitted
the
publick
Walk
,
and
betaking
themselves
to
a
kind
of
Labyrinth
,
sate
down
upon
the
Pedestal
of
a
Statue
,
in
the
mid'st
of
a
large
Round
,
that
was
cover'd
with
green
Turf
.
They
could
not
have
made
choice
of
a
Place
that
more
fully
call'd
to
Dona
Teresa's
Mind
the
remembrance
of
what
she
had
to
say
:
For
she
had
there
accompany'd
the
Person
more
than
once
,
who
was
to
be
the
Subject
of
her
Discourse
.
Immediately
she
gave
her
Friend
to
understand
,
by
the
Tears
that
trickl'd
from
her
Eyes
,
that
she
had
nothing
but
Misfortunes
to
entrust
her
with
:
and
for
some
time
she
sate
in
a
profound
study
;
but
at
length
giving
the
full
swinge
to
her
Sorrows
,
she
thus
began
.
I
was
born
with
a
Heart
the
most
sensible
and
most
tender
that
e'er
was
form'd
by
Love
.
The
severe
Education
that
was
carefully
bestow'd
upon
me
,
was
enough
to
have
enfeebl'd
so
dangerous
an
Inclination
;
and
no
question
but
my
Reason
and
Vertue
had
triumph'd
o'er
my
natural
Tenderness
,
had
my
Heart
had
time
to
listen
to
'
em
.
But
I
Lov'd
,
before
I
understood
that
I
was
to
combat
Love
;
and
that
same
mischievous
Passion
had
made
it self
Master
of
my
Soul
,
long
before
I
had
the
judgment
to
know
or
fear
it
.
You
have
seen
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
and
I
have
heard
you
say
,
you
found
him
to
be
the
Person
of
the
World
whom
you
could
most
affect
.
But
he
begins
to
be
quite
another
Man
from
what
he
was
,
when
Love
was
first
the
occasion
of
my
knowing
him
.
The
first
time
that
e'er
I
saw
him
,
he
had
all
the
Perfections
that
flourish
in
brisk
and
active
Youth
;
and
his
Actions
that
were
already
accompany'd
with
that
Politeness
of
which
you
were
a
Testimony
,
were
so
lively
and
frolicksome
,
as
only
became
the
Years
to
which
he
was
then
arriv'd
.
He
was
curiously
built
,
his
Person
was
noble
,
his
Aspect
beautiful
enough
for
a
Man
,
and
his
Head
compleatly
shap'd
.
In
short
,
the
Marquis
more
amiable
in
my
Eyes
,
then
I
can
well
depaint
him
,
struck
my
Heart
at
an
Age
that
People
are
not
usually
sensible
but
of
the
first
Amusements
of
Childhood
.
From
that
time
forth
,
methought
I
could
never
behold
nor
gaze
upon
him
sufficiently
;
and
his
Demeanour
and
his
Discourse
were
all
along
so
actually
present
in
my
Mind
,
that
I
talk'd
of
no
body
but
him
,
though
he
were
out
of
my
sight
;
and
in
regard
I
was
too
Young
,
and
too
shallow
of
understanding
,
to
distinguish
what
it
was
that
particularly
infus'd
into
me
such
an
Excess
of
Kindness
for
him
,
I
admir'd
both
his
Person
,
and
whatever
he
did
,
never
fearing
that
a
Sentiment
so
reasonable
should
prove
the
first
Motion
of
the
most
dangerous
of
all
the
Passions
.
That
Winter
that
the
Governor
of
Grenada
caus'd
the
Tamerlane
of
Pedro
Calderon
to
be
acted
,
there
was
likewise
a
great
Ball
at
his
House
;
and
in
regard
he
was
a
particular
Friend
of
my
Family
,
my
Mother
would
needs
have
me
appear
among
the
rest
,
notwithstanding
the
Spanish
Severity
which
she
professes
.
Thither
came
the
Marquis
also
,
with
a
Troop
of
other
young
Sparks
.
But
Heavens
!
how
easie
was
it
to
distinguish
him
from
all
his
Companions
!
He
never
appear'd
,
to
my
sight
,
so
full
of
Charms
as
then
.
So
soon
as
I
beheld
him
,
I
felt
those
Emotions
which
before
I
never
understood
;
and
I
was
sensible
of
one
Pleasure
in
Dancing
with
him
,
that
was
altogether
a
Stranger
to
my
Heart
before
;
and
it
made
such
an
Impression
upon
me
,
that
my
Love
which
lay
till
then
disguis'd
under
other
Sentiments
,
now
violently
flam'd
out
with
an
Ardency
and
Tenderness
as
great
as
ever
heighten'd
Woman's
Love
.
Hardly
was
the
Ball
at
an
end
,
but
I
sought
to
shut
my self
up
in
my
Chamber
,
there
to
ponder
by
my self
,
while
the
Assembly
were
in
the
heat
of
their
Pastime
,
upon
the
Disorders
which
had
happen'd
in
my
Breast
.
But
then
,
when
it
was
too
late
,
I
understood
that
I
had
too
great
an
Affection
for
the
Marquis
,
not
being
able
at
the
same
time
to
flatter
my self
that
he
had
any
Kindness
for
me
.
And
indeed
he
shew'd
nothing
of
any
eager
Passion
for
me
.
Not
one
of
his
Actions
could
persuade
me
,
that
I
was
capable
to
infuse
into
his
Breast
that
Tenderness
for
me
,
which
I
already
had
for
him
.
Methought
also
he
look'd
upon
me
only
as
a
Child
.
I
was
so
,
't
is
true
;
but
my
Heart
was
full
of
Sentiments
,
that
I
am
apt
to
believe
,
no
Person
ever
understood
before
me
in
their
Infancy
.
I
was
asham'd
of
my
Weakness
,
when
I
came
to
be
sensible
of
it
;
and
from
that
time
forward
,
I
look'd
upon
my
Love
with
that
despite
and
scorn
,
which
made
me
suffer
all
the
Pains
and
Torments
of
an
unfortunate
Passion
.
Love
,
after
this
fatal
Day
,
was
not
long
before
it
became
a
serious
Affair
in
my
Heart
.
I
was
soon
sensible
not
only
of
the
Despair
,
but
of
the
Shame
of
Loving
alone
.
My
continual
Thoughts
and
Cares
reduc'd
me
to
a
languishing
Condition
;
nor
was
I
perceiv'd
any
longer
to
have
that
eager
longing
for
that
which
had
till
then
so
much
amus'd
me
.
The
desire
which
I
had
to
win
the
Marquis's
Love
,
produc'd
in
me
a
singular
Effect
,
considering
my
Years
.
It
came
into
my
Head
,
to
acquire
Merit
,
by
applying
my self
to
Study
;
so
that
I
betook
my self
to
the
Love
of
Books
and
Sciences
:
I
employ'd
my self
in
nothing
else
but
Reading
:
In
that
I
spent
the
Days
and
Nights
;
and
I
improv'd
my self
with
such
a
Promptness
as
soon
inform'd
me
that
Love
was
the
Principle
which
caus'd
me
to
act
.
Scarcely
did
I
think
my
Understanding
better
cultivated
then
was
usual
for
Persons
of
my
Age
,
when
I
flatter'd
my self
that
the
Marquis
perceiv'd
it
;
and
the
particular
Notice
,
which
as
it
seem'd
to
me
,
he
took
of
my
Actions
,
coax'd
my
Vanity
and
my
Passion
to
that
degree
,
that
I
abandon'd
my self
to
the
Pleasure
of
being
in
his
Company
,
and
discoursing
with
him
,
with
such
violent
Transports
,
that
I
had
like
to
have
display'd
the
vehement
Ardour
that
burn'd
within
me
.
However
,
I
had
done
nothing
hitherto
that
could
give
him
any
Suspicion
:
But
when
a
Woman
has
no
longer
the
Command
of
her
Heart
,
it
is
a
difficult
thing
to
be
much
longer
the
Mistress
of
her
Actions
.
One
Morning
,
as
I
was
standing
at
my
Chamber-Window
,
I
saw
the
Marquis
crossing
the
Piazza
of
Elvira
,
and
going
to
Mass
in
great
haste
.
I
stop't
him
,
on
purpose
to
ask
him
whether
he
carry'd
his
Prayer-Book
along
with
him
.
To
which
he
reply'd
,
That
his
Heart
was
all
the
Prayer-Book
he
made
use
of
;
and
that
he
deem'd
it
more
respectful
to
enclose
his
Vows
and
Wishes
within
himself
,
then
to
unfold
himself
in
dull
and
clownish
Words
.
This
quick
and
courtly
Retort
struck
me
immediately
to
the
Heart
:
Nor
did
I
know
whether
it
behov'd
me
to
understand
his
meaning
;
and
therefore
,
not
to
perplex
my self
for
an
Answer
,
I
presently
threw
him
Pastor
Fido
which
I
had
by
chance
in
my
Hand
,
and
told
him
,
as
I
retir'd
from
the
Window
,
That
since
he
lov'd
Meditation
better
then
Prayer
,
that
Book
would
afford
his
Contemplation
work
enough
.
But
hardly
had
I
play'd
this
Prank
,
when
I
was
afraid
lest
I
had
done
more
then
if
I
had
made
him
a
Reply
.
I
was
afraid
lest
a
Person
accustom'd
to
the
Company
and
Favours
of
Ladies
,
had
apprehended
more
then
I
was
willing
to
tell
him
.
I
was
sensible
of
the
Consequences
;
and
the
shame
of
being
Expos'd
,
to
discover
my
Weakness
,
caus'd
me
for
the
future
to
act
with
more
Reserv'dness
.
So
that
although
at
the
same
moment
he
had
penetrated
something
of
the
Truth
,
his
Suspicions
would
have
come
to
nothing
.
But
soon
after
I
understood
,
that
I
was
not
yet
so
happy
as
to
have
the
honour
to
be
so
much
as
Suspected
by
the
Person
that
caus'd
such
violent
Commotions
within
me
;
and
I
came
to
the
knowledge
of
this
by
an
Information
so
cruel
,
that
the
remembrance
of
it
makes
me
tremble
still
to
think
of
it
.
A
certain
Person
who
had
a
Dependence
upon
our
Family
,
desir'd
my
Mother
that
she
would
give
me
leave
to
be
Godmother
to
one
of
his
Children
,
in
Partnership
with
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
.
I
had
not
been
in
his
Company
of
a
long
time
,
and
therefore
desir'd
to
see
him
with
an
unparallell'd
Impatience
.
But
good
God!
how
dearly
did
my
passionate
Ardour
sell
me
that
slight
Pleasure
!
I
was
never
so
taken
with
the
Accomplishments
of
his
Person
and
his
Wit
;
and
it
seem'd
as
if
my
Love
that
Day
had
render'd
him
more
amiable
,
to
make
me
the
more
sensible
of
the
Grief
that
had
invaded
my
Heart
.
Upon
my
returning
from
this
same
fatal
Ceremony
,
my
Mother
in
the
Evening
,
recounting
to
my
Father
the
several
Circumstances
of
the
Christ'ning
,
fell
a
blaming
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
who
was
look'd
upon
as
a
polite
Courtier
,
for
making
the
Company
tarry
so
long
.
To
which
my
Father
,
in
his
excuse
,
reply'd
,
That
a
Man
who
had
his
Thoughts
taken
up
with
a
violent
Passion
,
had
enough
to
do
to
observe
a
regular
Exactness
in
other
things
:
And
at
the
same
time
,
he
acquainted
my
Mother
,
that
the
Marquis
had
been
for
several
Years
most
desperately
in
Love
with
one
of
his
near
Relations
,
who
was
lately
shut
up
in
a
Monastery
,
to
prevent
their
farther
Familiarity
:
That
she
was
one
of
the
most
lovely
Persons
in
the
World
,
and
the
most
worthy
to
enflame
the
Heart
of
a
Noble
and
Vertuous
Gentleman
;
and
that
the
Marquis
devoted
a●
his
time
to
Her
,
that
he
could
spare
from
looking
after
his
Affairs
.
Certainly
it
is
impossible
to
die
for
Grief
,
my
dearest
Eleonora
,
because
I
did
not
presently
expire
so
soon
as
I
heard
this
killing
News
.
Till
then
I
was
ignorant
whether
Mansera's
Heart
were
capable
of
being
mov'd
,
and
I
found
it
was
by
the
certain
Information
that
he
lov'd
a
Rival
,
who
till
then
was
utterly
unknown
to
me
.
I
understood
it
,
at
a
time
when
it
was
not
in
my
power
to
vanquish
the
Passion
which
he
had
infus'd
into
me
;
and
I
lost
all
my
hopes
for
ever
,
of
being
belov'd
,
yet
not
able
to
overcome
my
own
Desires
.
Never
did
Jealousie
more
furiously
turmoil
the
Heart
of
any
Woman
,
as
at
that
very
moment
it
tormented
mine
.
It
caus'd
such
a
violent
Commotion
within
me
that
in
a
few
days
after
,
I
fell
sick
of
a
dangerous
and
tedious
Distemper
;
and
would
to
God
it
had
laid
me
in
my
Grave
;
and
all
the
while
it
continu'd
,
I
was
haunted
with
the
ho●rors
of
my
Jealousie
.
Sometimes
I
took
up
a
Resolution
to
discover
my
Passion
to
the
Marquis
,
and
to
die
before
his
Eyes
,
so
soon
as
I
had
let
him
understand
the
Ardour
of
my
Sentiments
,
Sometimes
I
applauded
the
Power
I
had
over
my self
,
to
forbear
speaking
to
him
:
and
it
was
a
secret
Pleasure
to
me
,
that
by
my
Death
I
should
deprive
him
of
the
knowledge
of
my
weakness
.
But
my
youthful
vigour
prevail'd
over
my
desire
to
die
:
for
I
recover'd
;
though
I
could
find
no
other
Remedy
for
my
Misfortunes
,
then
to
endeavour
by
all
imaginable
ways
to
expell
the
Marquis
from
my
Heart
.
Scarcely
was
I
recover'd
,
but
Fortune
seem'd
willing
to
favour
me
with
an
Opportunity
.
My
Mother
was
engag'd
to
take
a
long
Journey
;
and
I
obtain'd
the
favour
to
be
put
into
a
Nunnery
,
during
her
Absence
.
Nor
had
I
long
been
there
,
before
I
flatter'd
my self
that
I
should
find
the
succour
which
I
stood
in
need
of
.
And
indeed
,
my
Assurance
that
I
should
not
be
troubl'd
with
the
Marquis
of
Mansera's
Company
in
that
place
,
and
my
remoteness
from
any
thing
that
could
recall
him
to
my
remembrance
,
afforded
some
Relaxation
to
the
Violence
of
my
Passion
,
of
which
my
Reason
now
believ'd
her self
become
the
Mistress
.
I
saw
how
impossible
it
was
for
me
to
think
of
living
with
him
;
and
the
Thought
of
living
with
another
,
was
so
dreadful
to
me
,
that
Solitude
,
and
the
Objects
which
I
there
beheld
,
so
different
from
the
pompous
Gayety
of
the
World
,
having
confirm'd
me
in
my
Designs
,
I
determin'd
to
be
a
Nun
,
and
to
conceal
for
ever
from
Mansera
the
knowledge
of
my
Love
,
and
Course
of
Life
.
All
which
I
signifi'd
in
writing
to
my
Brother
,
who
was
much
concern'd
and
surpriz'd
at
my
Resolution
.
He
oppos'd
it
by
all
the
ways
he
could
imagine
,
but
in
vain
:
so
that
he
was
enforc'd
to
send
for
my
Mother
back
again
,
to
take
me
,
whether
I
would
or
no
,
out
of
the
Nunnery
where
I
had
determin'd
to
end
my
Days
.
However
,
I
thought
my
Passion
so
well
cur'd
,
and
the
Marquis
obliterated
in
my
Heart
,
that
I
was
really
persuaded
,
when
I
left
the
Nunnery
,
that
I
should
return
thither
again
,
so
soon
as
I
had
tender'd
my
Mother
those
Marks
of
my
Obedience
which
my
Duty
would
not
permit
me
to
refuse
her
.
But
I
had
hardly
travell'd
above
Two
or
Three
Leagues
,
when
passing
through
a
place
where
by
chance
I
heard
the
Marquis
was
,
together
with
the
Governour
of
Grenada
,
I
felt
such
a
violent
Agitation
of
my
Spirits
,
and
the
present
Idea
of
his
Person
,
and
of
all
that
I
admir'd
in
him
,
return'd
so
swiftly
,
that
I
began
to
find
it
would
be
more
easie
for
me
to
renounce
the
World
then
my
Love
.
So
soon
as
my
Mother
had
me
in
her
power
,
she
declar'd
,
that
she
would
not
admit
me
,
so
young
as
I
was
,
to
take
so
difficult
a
Resolution
,
which
would
lock
me
up
from
the
World
as
long
as
I
liv'd
.
It
was
in
vain
for
me
to
oppose
her
Reasons
and
Commands
:
It
behov'd
me
to
obey
;
and
I
secretly
perceiv'd
that
the
hope
of
seeing
the
Marquis
,
which
already
flatter'd
me
,
had
weaken'd
my
Resolution
;
and
that
was
the
true
Reason
which
render'd
me
so
pliable
to
the
good-pleasure
of
my
Parents
.
How
does
Absence
(
my
dearest
Eleonora
,
)
re-enliven
the
delight
of
meeting
those
again
for
whom
we
have
a
real
Fondness
.
Within
a
few
Days
after
,
they
carry'd
me
to
Alhamar
;
and
there
I
once
more
saw
the
Marquis
,
who
had
a
n●ar
Relation
marry'd
to
the
Marquis
of
Compo●
j●r
,
who
vaunted
his
Descent
from
the
last
King
of
Grenada
.
And
then
,
methought
,
I
discover'd
those
new
Charms
in
his
Person
that
I
had
not
seen
before
.
In
vain
my
Reason
represented
to
my
Heart
that
he
was
in
Love
with
another
;
for
in
a
short
time
I
lov'd
him
with
a
greater
Passion
then
I
had
done
before
my
Retirement
and
my
Resolutions
.
In
a
short
while
after
,
I
enter'd
into
a
strict
Friendship
with
a
Relation
to
our
Family
,
who
had
liv'd
all
her
Life
time
in
the
Queen-Mother's
Court
,
and
where
she
remain'd
all
along
till
she
was
banish'd
to
Toledo
.
Now
in
regard
she
had
an
infinite
deal
of
Wealth
,
and
was
a
Woman
of
great
Wit
,
and
had
in
her
Person
those
particular
Graces
which
render'd
her
Beauty
more
alluring
in
her
,
then
in
any
Woman
that
ever
I
knew
,
I
imagin'd
that
't
was
impossible
for
her
to
live
so
long
at
Court
,
and
not
understand
what
Love
was
;
and
I
persuaded
my self
,
that
if
I
could
gain
her
Affection
so
far
,
as
to
dare
discover
my
Heart
to
her
,
I
should
find
all
the
Assistance
I
could
expect
from
an
understanding
and
sensible
Friendship
.
Nor
was
I
deceiv'd
;
and
the
Marchioness
of
Puebla
was
pleas'd
to
be
of
my
Opinion
;
and
in
regard
she
understood
far
better
the
Misfortunes
into
which
I
had
plung
,
'
d
my self
,
she
bewail'd
my
being
enslav
d
so
early
to
the
Violence
of
a
Passion
which
is
generally
attended
with
cruel
Consequences
.
At
the
same
time
that
I
discover'd
my
Weaknesses
to
her
,
I
also
imparted
to
her
my
Design
to
shut
my self
up
in
a
Nunnery
.
What
should
I
do
in
this
World
,
(
said
I
to
her
)
where
there
is
but
one
only
Man
that
I
can
set
my
Heart
upon
,
and
to
whom
there
is
no
hopes
that
I
should
e'er
be
Wedded
?
Do's
it
behove
me
to
let
him
discover
the
foolish
Passion
with
which
he
has
entangl'd
my
Heart
?
How
do
I
know
,
but
bad
Examples
,
and
my
long
Pains
will
one
day
enforce
me
to
make
him
a
full
Confession
of
my
Folly
?
What
a
shame
would
it
be
for
a
Person
of
my
understanding
to
be
the
first
Discloser
of
my
Love
,
and
to
make
it
known
too
,
when
she
is
assur'd
,
that
the
Discovery
of
it
can
never
affect
the
Person
to
whom
she
discloses
it
?
Woe
is
me
!
I
cannot
but
think
of
such
an
unworthy
Condescention
without
trembling
;
nor
do
I
see
any
other
way
,
but
by
retiring
into
a
Nunnery
to
secure
me
from
the
fear
of
it
.
For
while
I
have
any
hopes
to
see
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
I
must
love
him
;
and
therefore
it
behoves
me
to
guard
my self
from
committing
the
most
scandalous
Extravagancies
that
Love
can
prompt
me
to
.
I
am
glad
to
see
so
much
Love
,
and
so
much
Bashfulness
together
(
said
the
Marchioness
)
but
Teresa
,
your
want
of
Experience
makes
ye
look
upon
your
Condition
to
be
far
different
from
what
it
seems
to
me
.
You
believe
there
is
nothing
can
equal
your
pains
,
because
you
are
not
acquainted
with
any
other
.
This
is
a
great
Misfortune
indeed
;
but
the
Marquis's
Ignorance
of
it
,
exempts
ye
from
a
great
many
others
,
a
thousand
times
more
dishonourable
.
Your
Actions
are
innocent
,
you
have
nothing
whereof
to
accuse
your self
;
nor
do
you
fear
the
dreadfull
Vexation
to
be
sacrific'd
to
a
Rival
that
would
be
always
publishing
your
Follies
to
enhance
the
Reputation
of
her
own
Charms
.
Your
Condition
is
intermix'd
with
many
Allays
;
in
short
you
love
;
but
yet
you
never
had
any
cause
to
complain
of
the
Person
whom
you
love
.
I
could
tell
ye
of
young
Ladies
much
more
unhappy
:
you
are
but
a
Novice
,
dear
Teresa
,
(
continu'd
she
,
)
in
the
course
of
violent
Passions
,
when
you
are
so
much
afraid
of
the
future
.
Do
you
believe
you
shall
love
the
Marquis
eternally
?
how
strangely
you
are
mistaken
:
the
most
fervent
and
tender
Love
insensibly
decays
;
the
World
is
full
of
inconstant
and
unfaithfull
Lovers
,
that
had
sworn
,
like
you
,
the
Continuance
of
their
Love
as
long
as
they
liv'd
.
I
understand
,
(
said
I
,
)
that
all
our
Passions
last
not
all
our
Life-time
;
but
I
believe
there
are
some
that
never
have
an
end
,
but
with
the
Conclusion
of
our
Days
.
Alas
!
what
is
there
that
can
ruine
mine
,
seeing
I
have
so
long
lov'd
Mansera
insensible
of
my
pains
;
and
woe
is
me
,
enamour'd
of
another
?
Time
,
my
dear
Teresa
,
(
reply'd
the
Marchioness
,
)
Time
which
has
a
sovereign
Power
over
all
things
that
appear
less
subject
to
annihilation
.
Oh!
how
would
you
wish
for
,
then
,
that
Liberty
which
a
Nunnery
would
have
quite
depriv'd
ye
of
,
and
how
would
you
deplore
the
Condition
of
a
Nun
without
Devotion
,
continually
tormented
with
a
thousand
yearning
Desires
of
returning
to
the
World
,
and
a
thousand
Longings
so
much
the
more
vehement
,
by
how
much
the
more
it
is
out
of
their
power
to
content
'
em
.
Have
a
care
what
Resolutions
you
take
,
how
you
go
beyond
your
strength
,
so
young
and
tender
as
you
are
;
or
if
your
Heart
enforces
ye
to
throw
your self
into
Retirement
,
make
choice
of
only
such
Recesses
that
never
deprive
ye
of
the
Liberty
to
make
advantage
of
Opportunities
.
These
Discourses
and
Exhortations
of
the
Marchioness
,
at
all
times
that
we
could
have
the
freedom
to
talk
together
,
assuaged
the
violence
of
a
Passion
that
I
could
not
mangle
from
my
Soul
,
and
put
me
quite
out
of
Conceit
with
a
Nunnery
.
But
hardly
did
I
begin
to
profit
by
the
Succour
which
I
reap'd
from
the
Counsells
of
an
experienc'd
and
cordial
Friend
,
but
she
return'd
into
the
Country
,
where
she
spent
a
good
part
of
her
days
,
and
in
regard
the
time
that
I
had
convers'd
with
her
,
was
too
short
to
confirm
me
in
those
Sentiments
which
she
infus'd
into
me
,
her
Remoteness
from
me
was
the
unhappy
Reason
that
my
Heart
and
Inclinations
soon
relaps'd
into
the
same
Troubles
that
had
pester'd
me
before
.
The
impossibility
of
vanquishing
a
Passion
that
was
born
before
my
Reason
,
the
Love
which
the
Marquis
had
for
another
,
and
the
Charms
with
which
they
told
me
that
same
fortunate
Rival
triumph'd
over
me
,
made
me
resume
my
Resolution
,
for
ever
to
bury
my
Shame
and
Love
in
the
Bottom
of
a
Cloyster
;
therefore
I
again
declar'd
to
my
Parents
my
earnest
desire
to
be
a
Nun
;
that
what
I
had
observ'd
in
the
World
,
since
they
had
brought
me
back
again
,
had
only
serv'd
to
confirm
the
Reasons
which
I
had
to
quit
it
,
and
that
nothing
but
Retirement
would
agree
with
my
melancholly
Thoughts
.
But
my
Reasons
,
my
Tears
,
my
Entreaties
not
prevailing
to
obtain
their
Consent
,
I
resolv'd
to
steal
away
privately
from
my
Father
and
Mother
,
and
to
throw
my self
into
the
Nunnery
which
I
had
left
.
But
notwithstanding
all
the
caution
I
had
taken
for
the
Execution
of
my
Design
,
I
was
stopt
upon
the
Road
by
my
Father
,
who
not
finding
me
at
home
upon
his
Return
to
the
Town
,
immediately
guest
at
the
real
Truth
of
my
Absence
;
so
that
he
made
all
the
hast
imaginable
after
me
,
and
having
overtaken
me
,
about
four
Leagues
from
Grenada
,
he
took
me
away
,
and
carry'd
me
home
by
force
.
Thus
you
see
me
a
second
time
disappointed
,
whether
I
would
or
no
,
of
my
Design
to
become
a
Nun
,
notwithstanding
all
the
Reasons
that
urg'd
me
to
it
;
and
I
return'd
into
the
World
,
to
be
again
enslav'd
to
the
most
cruel
Destiny
,
and
to
the
most
dreadfull
Disasters
that
ever
yet
you
heard
of
.
My
Design
of
putting
my self
into
a
Nunnery
,
made
my
Father
jealous
least
at
length
I
should
escape
him
;
and
in
regard
he
lov'd
me
too
well
to
lose
me
for
ever
,
he
thought
of
nothing
so
much
as
of
providing
me
a
Husband
out
of
hand
.
So
soon
therefore
as
he
had
found
out
a
Match
for
me
,
as
much
to
the
good-liking
of
my
Familiy
,
as
the
very
Thoughts
of
him
were
uneasie
to
my self
,
he
made
up
the
Business
,
according
to
the
Custom
,
without
speaking
a
Syllable
of
it
to
me
,
and
then
presently
came
and
told
me
,
there
wanted
nothing
toward
the
consummation
of
that
dreadfull
Contract
with
Don
Gaspar
de
Benavides
,
but
a
Consent
of
mine
;
which
he
foresaw
not
how
dear
it
would
cost
me
.
The
Proposal
which
he
made
me
,
surpriz'd
me
in
such
a
manner
,
and
cut
me
so
to
the
Heart
,
that
I
had
not
the
power
to
return
him
an
Answer
:
so
that
my
Silence
and
my
Tears
discover'd
a
Repugnance
,
the
Cause
of
which
he
could
not
dive
into
;
and
my
Mother
and
he
,
both
press'd
me
to
know
the
Reason
,
but
in
vain
.
I
left
'em
so
overwhelm'd
with
Despair
as
put
'em
into
a
kind
of
Dismay
,
and
went
to
my
Chamber
,
there
to
abandon
my self
to
the
most
violent
Agonies
of
Discontent
,
that
ever
I
felt
in
all
my
Life
.
How
!
(
said
I
,
)
shall
I
prove
so
treacherous
as
to
consent
to
an
Engagement
that
must
separate
me
from
him
I
love
,
and
fix
a
Criminal
Guilt
upon
my
most
innocent
Affection
?
No
,
no
;
nothing
can
constrain
me
to
surcease
my
Love
,
and
I
will
have
it
in
my
Power
to
love
the
Marquis
all
the
remainder
of
my
Life
,
in
contempt
of
all
Reproaches
that
the
Censures
of
severest
Honour
can
lay
to
my
Charge
.
In
the
midst
of
such
a
frightfull
and
threatning
Danger
,
the
only
Remedy
that
I
could
think
of
,
was
to
put
in
Execution
,
in
despight
of
all
the
World
,
my
Design
of
betaking
my self
to
a
Nunnery
.
But
besides
the
Opposition
of
a
Father
,
whom
my
first
Refusals
had
already
put
into
a
Rage
,
all
that
the
Marchioness
of
Puebla
had
formerly
said
to
me
,
to
dissuade
me
,
return'd
to
my
Remembrance
;
and
methought
also
that
Vertue
it self
forbad
me
to
embrace
a
Course
of
Life
so
opposite
to
those
Sentiments
,
of
which
I
knew
too
well
it
was
impossible
for
me
to
be
cur'd
.
On
the
other
side
,
how
to
engage
with
a
person
whom
the
natural
Inclination
which
I
had
for
the
Marquis
would
embitter
me
to
hate
with
a
mortal
Detestation
,
when
he
should
possess
the
place
which
my
Desires
so
long
agoe
had
destin'd
to
the
Person
I
ador'd
,
I
could
not
think
of
which
way
,
without
suffering
worse
than
Death
.
Which
side
soever
I
cast
my
thoughts
,
nothing
appear'd
before
me
but
the
choice
of
many
Miseries
.
My
heart
and
mind
both
equally
turmoil'd
,
were
in
a
perpetual
struggle
with
my
mortal
pains
.
I
prolong'd
this
cruel
Uncertainty
what
to
do
,
as
long
as
possibly
I
could
:
but
at
length
my
Father
and
Mother
commanded
my
Obedience
,
after
many
fruitless
Caresses
and
soft
Persuasions
,
employing
Menaces
,
and
the
Authority
of
Parents
;
so
that
I
was
forc'd
to
stifle
my
Reluctancy
,
and
sign
the
Order
for
my
Death
.
However
I
greatly
improv'd
the
Merit
of
the
Proof
of
my
Obedience
,
on
purpose
to
gain
time
,
alledging
my
Youth
,
and
withal
protesting
resolutely
that
I
would
not
be
marry'd
till
after
the
expiration
of
two
years
;
which
was
readily
granted
me
.
For
I
was
in
hopes
by
that
time
,
that
Heaven
would
have
pity
on
me
,
so
that
the
Marriage
might
be
broken
off
,
and
the
Marquis
become
my
Husband
.
So
soon
as
I
was
affianc'd
,
I
began
to
languish
and
pine
away
,
to
that
degree
,
that
Love
might
easily
have
been
conjectur'd
to
have
been
the
cause
of
it
,
had
they
observ'd
me
fond
of
any
particular
Person
.
But
because
I
seldom
or
never
saw
the
Person
whom
my
Heart
ador'd
,
and
for
that
I
look'd
upon
all
other
Men
with
an
Indifferency
that
amounted
even
to
contempt
,
no
body
could
dive
into
the
Reason
that
render'd
my
Mind
and
Actions
so
different
from
the
Vivacity
of
my
early
Youth
.
But
what
I
well
foresaw
,
that
fail'd
not
to
befall
me
;
for
that
same
bare
Dislike
of
him
who
was
design'd
me
,
from
the
first
moment
that
I
saw
him
,
chang'd
in
a
few
days
into
a
most
intollerable
Hatred
.
The
Idea
of
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
so
different
from
his
to
whom
they
were
about
to
sacrifice
me
,
infus'd
into
me
such
a
Detestation
of
all
his
Applications
,
that
had
he
been
a
Person
never
so
little
delicate
,
he
would
have
repented
of
his
ever
having
had
me
in
his
Thoughts
.
But
my
Vertue
,
which
never
forsook
me
,
notwithstanding
the
Vehemence
of
my
Affection
,
made
me
resolve
,
in
despite
of
my self
,
to
fix
a
Kindness
upon
the
Person
that
was
prepar'd
to
be
my
Husband
;
and
summoning
up
all
the
remainder
of
my
Reason
,
I
took
a
Resolution
to
employ
my self
so
diligently
in
the
Family
,
and
to
avoid
whatever
could
re-enliven
my
Inclinations
in
favour
of
the
Marquis
,
that
by
that
means
I
might
insensibly
cure
my
Heart
.
I
banish'd
my self
from
all
Society
where
I
was
assur'd
of
meeting
him
,
and
as
if
Fortune
had
been
desirous
to
second
my
Design
,
the
Marquis
came
several
times
to
the
City
,
without
visiting
my
Father
;
whether
the
Care
of
his
Estate
or
his
Love
took
up
his
Thoughts
more
seriously
then
before
,
I
am
not
certain
.
But
you
shall
see
,
(
my
dear
Eleonora
,
)
how
far
still
my
Misfortunes
persecuted
me
.
While
I
kept
my self
thus
close
immur'd
within
Doors
,
to
purchase
Repose
at
the
Expence
of
all
that
could
flatter
my
Heart
,
I
was
so
unhappy
,
that
all
those
whose
Company
it
was
not
possible
for
me
to
avoid
,
were
infinitely
taken
with
me
;
and
as
if
the
Love
which
I
conceal'd
at
the
bottom
of
my
Heart
,
had
infected
all
that
came
near
me
,
I
had
in
a
short
time
as
many
Lovers
as
near
Relations
;
nay
,
an
Old
Acquaintance
of
my
Father's
,
at
past
Sixty
Years
of
Age
,
would
needs
be
doating
,
with
one
Leg
in
the
Grave
.
How
!
said
I
to
my self
,
is
it
not
enough
that
I
am
enforc'd
to
endure
the
sight
of
a
declar'd
Lover
,
whom
I
hate
,
because
I
love
the
Marquis
,
but
that
I
must
be
haunted
by
these
Encroachers
,
that
,
like
so
many
Enemies
,
would
ravish
from
him
the
Felicity
that
never
is
like
to
be
any
other
body
's
but
his
own
.
Sometimes
I
was
asham'd
that
all
those
Rivals
were
so
unworthy
of
him
.
Methought
that
his
Vanity
and
mine
were
not
satisfy'd
with
such
an
easie
Victory
.
Sometimes
I
wish'd
,
that
whatever
was
most
amiable
in
the
World
,
would
fall
in
Love
with
me
,
to
make
a
Sacrifice
to
Mansera
,
which
might
at
least
put
his
own
Love
in
a
ferment
,
if
it
could
not
move
his
Heart
.
But
as
much
importun'd
as
I
was
by
those
impertinent
Flames
which
I
kindl'd
my self
,
I
must
confess
that
I
could
not
forbear
priding
my self
with
some
sort
of
Pleasure
,
that
it
was
in
my
power
to
inspire
Love
.
I
had
a
kind
of
envious
Joy
,
that
I
was
able
to
disperse
my
feeble
Charms
upon
Objects
that
I
could
not
Love
,
in
hopes
that
those
Allurements
being
seconded
by
the
most
violent
Passion
in
the
World
,
would
find
,
perhaps
one
day
,
the
means
to
work
the
same
Effect
upon
the
Marquis's
Heart
.
That
tender
Affection
which
I
meditated
for
the
Marquis
,
notwithstanding
the
Care
which
I
had
taken
to
banish
him
from
my
remembrance
,
readily
caus'd
me
to
fall
into
Discourses
of
Tenderness
;
which
presently
they
all
,
like
Fools
,
applied
to
themselves
;
and
thus
,
without
engaging
my
own
Heart
in
any
danger
,
I
learn'd
to
please
the
Marquis
,
at
the
Expence
of
those
,
who
,
I
was
sure
,
would
never
please
Mee
.
But
alas
!
who
would
have
told
me
then
that
all
these
Fancies
of
mine
were
but
as
so
many
Tyrants
and
Spies
which
my
Destiny
had
prepar'd
for
me
,
to
ranverse
,
one
day
,
the
Familiarity
which
it
behov'd
me
to
have
with
the
Marquis
.
I
had
spent
some
Months
without
seeing
him
either
at
my
Father's
House
,
or
in
any
other
place
;
when
upon
his
return
from
a
Journey
to
Madrid
,
he
came
to
pay
a
Visit
to
my
Father
;
who
being
intent
upon
a
Business
which
he
could
not
leave
,
desir'd
him
to
walk
up
into
my
Chamber
,
where
by
chance
I
was
all
alone
.
The
Confusion
and
Surprize
that
I
was
in
,
to
see
the
Marquis
enter
my
Apartment
,
might
certainly
have
been
sufficient
to
have
discover'd
some
part
of
what
turmoyl'd
my
Heart
,
had
he
not
been
so
taken
up
with
his
own
Amours
,
that
he
took
no
notice
of
any
body
else
.
I
Complimented
him
without
ceasing
,
and
without
any
coherence
.
I
talk'd
to
him
of
his
Journey
;
and
ask'd
him
twenty
rambling
Questions
,
without
considering
what
I
said
.
This
prov'd
so
tiresome
to
the
Marquis
,
that
he
was
no
less
chaf'd
with
my
Impertinencies
,
then
I
was
embarrass'd
and
perplex'd
at
his
Presence
:
so
that
all
Discourse
hetween
us
ceasing
,
he
drew
out
of
his
Pocket
,
in
a
musing
Posture
,
a
little
Box
set
round
with
Diamonds
,
which
he
play'd
with
in
his
Hand
a
good
while
,
never
speaking
a
word
,
and
for
some
time
not
taken
notice
of
by
my self
.
But
at
last
it
came
into
my
Mind
that
some
body
had
told
me
,
that
he
carry'd
,
at
the
bottom
of
a
little
Forsett
,
the
Picture
of
that
amiable
Rival
of
whom
you
have
heard
me
talk
so
often
;
and
the
remembrance
of
that
,
enflam'd
as
well
my
Jealousie
as
my
Curiosity
,
to
get
a
sight
,
of
it
.
To
which
purpose
I
requested
the
Marquis
to
let
me
see
the
Devices
that
were
engrav'd
upon
the
Box
.
But
alas
!
they
all
agreed
in
those
short
Sentences
that
only
serv'd
to
fester
my
secret
Wounds
;
and
Love
,
that
never
fail'd
of
any
Opportunity
to
make
me
sensible
of
his
most
painful
Torments
,
immediately
taught
me
the
way
to
open
the
Plate
that
cover'd
the
bottom
of
the
Box
.
Mansera
,
who
never
mistrusted
my
knowing
that
Secret
,
would
fain
have
snatch'd
the
Box
out
of
my
Hands
;
but
he
could
not
do
it
so
quickly
,
as
to
hinder
me
from
the
sight
of
the
most
amiable
Portraiture
that
ever
Eyes
beheld
.
But
then
it
was
,
that
in
a
lucky
minute
,
my
Father
,
who
enter'd
the
Chamber
at
the
same
time
,
fell
into
serious
Discourse
with
the
Marquis
;
and
in
regard
their
Business
would
not
admit
of
my
Society
,
gave
me
a
fair
opportunity
to
conceal
from
their
Observance
the
strange
Agitation
and
Disturbance
of
my
Mind
.
The
Beauty
of
my
Rival's
Portra●ture
Thunder-struck
me
in
such
a
manner
,
that
I
could
not
be
at
rest
,
till
I
had
satisfy'd
my self
whether
she
were
really
so
fair
as
the
Picture
made
her
appear
to
be
;
and
I
soon
contriv'd
a
way
to
be
carry'd
to
the
Nunnery
,
that
conceal'd
so
much
Perfection
from
the
Eyes
of
the
World
.
But
Good
God!
how
strangely
was
I
surpriz'd
,
when
I
beheld
her
a
thousand
times
more
Charming
then
her
Portraiture
.
All
the
blooming
Glories
,
all
the
Embelishments
that
brightly
flourish
in
the
Flower
of
early
Youth
,
and
all
the
Charms
of
all
the
Graces
,
were
muster'd
together
in
her
Countenance
and
her
Person
.
The
White
of
her
Complexion
so
lively
and
so
dazling
,
that
nothing
could
equal
the
Lustre
of
it
.
Her
Forehead
spacious
:
Her
Eyes
the
most
lovely
Blue
in
the
World
,
full
,
well-shap'd
,
and
well
enchas'd
,
but
more
quick
and
sparkling
then
is
usual
for
Blue
Eyes
to
be
:
Her
Eye-brows
large
and
thick
,
and
which
Nature
,
on
purpose
to
augment
the
lustre
of
her
Whiteness
,
had
made
more
darkly
Brown
then
her
Hair
was
Flaxen-bright
.
The
Proportion
of
her
Nose
exact
,
her
Mouth
little
,
her
Lips
Vermillion
;
her
Teeth
outvy'd
the
polish'd
Ivory
,
and
in
their
Rows
stood
close
and
even
:
when
she
spoke
,
the
Tone
of
her
Voice
was
Musick
to
the
Ear
,
while
the
whole
circuit
of
her
Cheeks
empal'd
Perfections
not
to
be
express'd
:
Her
Neck
drew
Admiration
:
Her
Stature
small
,
but
extremely
delicate
:
Her
Conversation
and
her
Disposition
brisk
and
lively
;
and
such
an
Elegant
,
such
an
Alluring
,
such
a
Majestick
Air
accompany'd
her
Gestures
and
Deportment
,
that
many
more
proper
Women
,
and
more
regular
Beauties
,
attracted
not
so
much
as
did
those
Graces
that
render'd
her
so
universally
delightful
.
In
short
,
she'ad
this
peculiar
Grace
,
Something
to
have
,
I
know
not
what
to
call
it
:
And
yet
a
Wonder
't
was
Did
Miracles
surpass
.
The
Heart
Love
cannot
quell
,
her
Charms
enthrall
it
:
For
his
Allurements
she
wears
all
about
her
,
Her
Smiles
no
Pen
or
Pencil
can
depaint
;
An
Air
too
,
which
all
other
Women
want
;
Which
you
may
see
,
ne'er
know
what
't
is
without
her
.
However
,
my
Vexation
to
find
the
Marquis's
Mistress
so
surprizing
fair
,
could
not
restrain
me
from
extolling
her
Beauty
.
She
,
on
the
other
hand
,
reply'd
to
my
Encomiums
with
an
extraordinary
Politeness
;
and
withal
,
That
since
she
had
been
so
happy
by
my
finding
the
way
to
her
Nunnery
,
I
would
do
her
the
Honour
not
to
forget
it
:
That
she
was
already
sensible
my
Company
would
be
extremely
delightful
to
her
;
and
that
I
had
no
reason
to
be
frighted
at
the
solitude
of
the
Grate
,
for
that
sometimes
I
should
meet
with
such
good
Society
in
that
same
lovely
Retirement
,
as
would
give
me
no
cause
to
repent
my
visiting
a
Recluse
.
But
alas
!
she
was
far
from
understanding
how
truly
she
spoke
,
and
that
I
knew
better
then
she
,
that
I
could
find
in
her
Room
of
Entertainment
,
every
Day
,
the
only
Person
that
could
please
me
.
But
I
departed
with
that
Confusion
and
Despite
,
which
made
me
resolve
never
to
return
thither
again
,
as
long
as
I
liv'd
.
I
must
acknowledge
,
That
all
that
wonderful
Perfection
of
Beauty
and
Allurement
which
I
met
with
in
that
amiable
Person
,
struck
me
with
a
more
sensible
Grief
,
then
all
that
I
had
undergone
before
.
I
found
something
in
the
Comparison
between
her
Person
and
mine
,
that
so
strangely
humbl'd
me
,
that
I
was
above
a
Month
before
I
would
see
my
Face
in
the
Looking-glass
.
What
Hope
,
said
I
to
my self
,
remains
for
me
,
after
the
Sight
that
I
have
seen
?
The
Marquis
loves
,
with
a
superlative
Affection
,
the
most
Charming
Person
in
the
World
,
and
will
he
ever
cease
to
Love
her
?
Or
,
grant
that
Time
,
by
some
strange
Accidents
that
cannot
be
fore-seen
,
should
dis-unite
Two
Lovers
so
worthy
of
each
other
;
is
it
probable
it
should
be
Me
that
the
Marquis
will
Love
,
when
nothing
else
will
serve
him
but
such
transcending
Objects
?
No
,
No
,
—
it
behoves
me
for
ever
to
cure
my self
;
and
I
meet
,
in
my
Curiosity
,
those
Remedies
which
my
Reason
never
could
supply
me
with
.
The
Charms
of
my
Rival
will
triumph
over
the
most
obstinate
Passion
that
ever
was
;
and
I
my self
would
strike
a
Dagger
through
my
Heart
,
should
it
be
still
so
weak
to
love
Mansera
.
The
Resolution
which
I
then
took
to
vanquish
my
unfortunate
Fondness
,
was
now
more
vehement
and
more
sincere
then
ever
it
had
been
.
I
began
more
carefully
then
ever
to
avoid
whatever
might
put
me
in
Remembrance
of
the
Marquis
.
Instead
of
shutting
my self
up
,
as
formerly
,
in
my
Family
Retirement
,
I
only
sought
the
dissipation
of
my
Sorrows
with
the
Amusements
and
Diversions
of
Company
;
and
I
resolv'd
to
cast
a
favourable
Eye
of
Impartiality
to
consider
the
Merit
of
Don
Gaspar
,
in
hopes
of
a
Remedy
to
cure
my
Heart
of
that
foolish
Love
which
I
had
so
long
vainly
cherish'd
.
But
how
difficult
a
thing
it
is
to
extirpate
a
real
Passion
!
All
that
I
could
do
was
so
far
from
abating
my
Indignation
,
that
it
rather
augmented
my
Contempt
.
All
that
I
could
see
worthy
of
my
Love
in
Gaspar
de
Benavid●z
,
so
little
avail'd
to
chase
Mansera
from
my
Heart
,
that
it
only
serv'd
to
fix
him
deeper
in
my
Memory
:
there
was
nothing
that
appear'd
most
charming
to
the
Eyes
of
others
,
that
sufficiently
resembl'd
him
,
so
as
to
claim
a
pre-eminence
above
him
;
and
all
the
Merit
which
Don
Gaspar
had
,
seeming
no
other
then
the
Reflexion
of
Mansera's
,
serv'd
only
to
render
me
more
sensible
of
his
Worth
In
short
,
I
found
that
pleasure
and
variety
of
lovely
Objects
were
more
dangerously
contributory
to
soster
a
violent
Passion
,
then
the
Reflexions
of
Retirement
.
Nevertheless
I
ceas'd
not
to
mortifie
my
own
,
in
some
measure
;
multiplicity
of
Conversation
,
and
the
Hurry
of
Company
,
those
Enemies
to
serious
Meditation
,
would
not
permit
me
the
leisure
to
think
of
the
Marquis
:
and
it
seem'd
to
me
,
that
my
Tenderness
for
him
was
extreamly
abated
,
and
that
I
might
flatter
my self
in
a
short
time
to
regain
that
Tranquillity
which
I
had
so
long
thirsted
after
,
tho'
in
vain
,
for
Ten
years
together
.
But
Love
,
who
from
my
Infancy
had
look'd
upon
me
as
a
Victim
devoted
to
all
his
Torments
,
had
no
intention
that
I
should
so
soon
escape
him
.
For
no
sooner
did
I
begin
to
applaud
the
Success
of
the
Care
which
I
had
taken
to
cure
my self
,
but
I
receiv'd
Tydings
which
in
a
moment
quite
ranvers'd
the
whole
Progress
,
which
to
my
thinking
I
had
made
.
't
was
here
,
and
in
this
very
place
,
that
a
Lady
came
to
my
Mother
,
with
whom
I
then
was
,
and
told
us
,
that
the
lovely
Person
whom
the
Marquis
ador'd
,
was
fallen
so
dangerously
ill
,
that
't
was
thought
she
could
not
possibly
recover
.
There
needed
no
more
for
me
,
to
recall
to
my
Heart
all
that
Kindness
which
I
was
well
in
hopes
had
been
expell'd
;
and
the
Disturbance
which
this
Intelligence
gave
me
,
appear'd
so
visible
in
my
Countenance
,
that
Dona
Pepa
who
was
walking
with
my
Mother
,
perceiv'd
it
,
and
took
me
away
from
the
Company
,
least
others
should
take
notice
of
it
.
But
in
regard
she
was
a
Stranger
altogether
to
the
Reason
,
nor
could
dive
into
it
,
she
persuaded
her self
that
,
either
the
Lady
who
accoasted
us
was
my
Rival
,
or
at
least
,
that
she
was
the
Confident
of
the
Person
whom
I
lov'd
,
and
that
the
sight
of
her
had
occasion'd
that
Commotion
of
my
Thoughts
;
and
therefore
she
us'd
all
her
utmost
Endeavours
,
to
be
more
clearly
satisfy'd
:
but
I
answer'd
her
only
with
my
Tears
.
So
soon
as
I
came
to
be
alone
,
I
found
that
Love
is
never
so
violent
as
when
it
is
upheld
by
some
glimmerings
of
Hope
.
Wherefore
,
(
said
I
to
my self
,
)
if
my
Rival
dye
,
should
I
despair
to
marry
a
Person
whose
Heart
is
accustom'd
to
Love
?
the
Consideration
of
my
Constancy
,
and
of
the
vehemency
of
the
Flames
that
he
has
kindl'd
in
my
Breast
,
would
they
not
move
a
Soul
,
the
most
remote
from
Loving
?
Is
it
possible
for
me
to
put
him
out
of
Conceit
with
Love
,
I
that
have
been
more
in
Love
then
all
the
Persons
in
the
World
together
?
and
my
excess
of
Tenderness
,
and
the
Wit
with
which
I
am
flatter'd
to
be
Mistress
of
,
may
they
not
be
sufficient
to
supply
the
Defects
of
Beauty
?
But
then
(
reply'd
I
to
my self
)
if
I
love
the
Marquis
,
is
it
fair
for
me
to
think
of
building
my
Felicity
upon
a
Loss
which
is
like
to
cost
him
so
many
Tears
,
if
it
rather
do's
not
cost
him
his
Life
?
Can
he
ever
forget
the
Person
he
has
doated
on
for
so
many
years
;
and
if
he
call
to
mind
the
multiplicity
of
her
Charms
,
can
he
enure
himself
to
a
meaner
and
less
alluring
Amour
?
No
,
—
no
,
—
Unfortunate
Teresa
!
No
,
—
wish
that
thy
Rival
may
live
;
't
will
be
a
greater
Torment
to
thee
,
and
a
greater
Shame
to
be
contemn'd
and
slighted
after
her
Decease
.
I
spent
the
whole
six
Months
,
during
which
time
that
most
amiable
Lady
lay
ill
,
under
the
most
terrible
Agitation
of
a
vehement
Passion
;
and
suffer'd
so
many
different
pains
,
that
I
admire
I
was
not
as
dead
as
she
.
And
Dona
Pepa
,
whom
mutual
Friendship
had
engag'd
to
visit
me
every
day
,
could
conjecture
nothing
by
the
change
of
my
Humour
;
my
Sadness
being
a
Riddle
not
to
be
unfolded
by
all
her
Art.
Well
,
—
at
length
I
understood
this
most
amiable
Person
was
departed
this
Life
.
I
likewise
discover'd
that
the
Marquis
had
been
marry'd
to
her
several
years
,
and
that
the
respect
which
he
had
for
his
Father
obliging
him
to
keep
the
Marriage
private
,
as
being
without
his
Consent
,
that
prudent
Lady
,
the
more
easily
to
conceal
the
knowledge
of
it
from
the
House
of
Mansera
,
had
for
seven
years
preferr'd
the
Solitude
of
a
Nunnery
,
where
she
continu'd
till
her
Death
,
before
all
the
Delights
and
Pleasures
that
her
Birth
and
Beauty
had
by
a
free
and
sociable
Enjoyment
of
the
World
,
entitl'd
her
to
.
For
my
part
I
was
overwhelm'd
with
such
a
Load
of
Sorrow
,
hearing
how
despairingly
the
Marquis
was
dejected
at
her
Death
,
that
I
was
enforc'd
to
shut
my self
up
in
my
Chamber
for
several
days
together
,
under
pretence
of
being
not
well
;
only
Dona
Pepa
was
the
sole
Person
that
I
call'd
to
my
Aid
.
She
,
one
day
found
me
bath'd
all
over
in
my
Tears
,
and
so
terribly
cast
down
with
bitter
Anguish
,
that
she
conjur'd
me
with
more
Tenderness
then
ever
,
to
discover
the
Cause
of
such
a
profound
and
piercing
Grief
;
so
that
at
length
,
being
prest
to
seek
for
that
assistance
from
the
Counsels
of
a
Friend
,
which
I
could
not
hope
for
from
my
own
Reason
,
I
surrender'd
to
her
Importunities
,
and
lay'd
open
the
terrible
Condition
of
my
Heart
.
't
is
no
longer
,
(
said
I
)
convenient
for
me
to
dissemble
with
such
a
Friend
as
you
are
,
and
therefore
,
Pepa
,
give
Attention
to
that
which
you
will
hardly
believe
:
This
amiable
Person
,
who
has
now
been
dead
two
days
,
and
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
whose
Excess
of
Sorrow
all
the
World
compassionates
,
are
the
Persons
for
whom
I
am
the
most
concern'd
in
the
World
.
The
one
was
my
Rival
,
the
other
is
the
only
Person
that
ever
touch'd
my
Heart
.
I
began
to
love
him
as
soon
as
I
began
to
know
my self
.
In
vain
my
Reason
,
my
Vertue
,
Process
of
Time
,
and
his
Passion
for
another
,
us'd
all
their
utmost
Endeavours
to
cure
me
;
I
always
lov'd
him
,
and
love
him
still
,
with
a
flame
not
to
be
paralell'd
;
and
the
Death
of
his
Lady
reviving
that
Hope
which
her
Beauty
and
the
Marquis's
Love
had
quite
extinguish'd
in
me
,
I
am
now
no
longer
Mistress
of
my
Thoughts
.
I
throw
my self
therefore
into
your
Arms
,
my
dearest
Pepa
;
have
pity
upon
an
unfortunate
Virgin
,
that
will
be
liable
to
commit
a
thousand
Extravagancies
,
if
your
Counsells
cannot
call
back
the
Reason
she
has
lost
.
There
is
a
Necessity
the
Marquis
should
know
that
I
have
ador'd
him
ever
since
I
was
born
;
and
I
know
not
what
should
hinder
me
,
considering
my
present
Transports
,
from
going
my self
this
very
moment
,
to
declare
it
to
him
.
But
who
has
told
me
that
no
other
will
prevent
me
,
or
that
a
Heart
so
full
of
Tenderness
and
Fidelity
as
his
at
present
is
known
to
be
,
will
not
be
coveted
by
a
Thousand
Women
that
are
more
alluring
then
my self
?
No
,
no
,
—
I
'll
lose
no
more
time
,
and
tho'
I
were
to
dye
,
I
am
resolv'd
that
he
shall
know
I
love
him
.
Dona
Pepa
,
seeing
the
Trouble
I
was
in
,
knew
well
,
't
was
to
no
purpose
to
seek
the
Extirpation
of
so
violent
a
Passion
;
only
she
sought
in
some
measure
to
appease
the
Fury
of
it
;
and
to
that
purpose
feigning
to
be
of
my
Opinion
,
she
conjur'd
me
not
to
be
over-hasty
,
but
to
leave
to
her
the
Care
of
my
Destiny
,
which
would
be
much
more
safe
in
her
hands
,
then
in
mine
.
The
next
morning
she
return'd
to
me
again
,
and
finding
me
a
little
more
calm
then
the
Evening
before
,
she
thought
she
might
recover
my
Reason
,
or
put
a
stop
at
least
,
to
the
Resolution
I
had
taken
,
of
making
an
open
Acknowledgement
of
my
Love
to
the
Marquis
.
To
which
purpose
she
employ'd
all
the
Reasons
that
a
nimble-witted
and
judicious
Friend
could
make
use
of
,
which
she
also
accompany'd
both
with
Prayers
and
Tears
;
but
in
regard
she
saw
there
was
no
Cure
for
my
Folly
,
she
thought
her self
engag'd
by
her
Friendship
to
moderate
at
least
the
Extravagancies
which
the
Blindness
of
my
Passion
was
going
to
commit
;
and
to
that
end
,
she
drew
me
into
a
serious
Examination
and
Consideration
of
all
the
Resolutions
which
my
troubl'd
Fancy
had
suggested
;
and
in
the
midst
of
so
many
Extremities
into
which
I
resolv'd
to
precipitate
my self
,
she
persuaded
me
to
choose
the
least
Dangerous
and
least
Terrible
.
All
that
Night
I
spent
in
writing
a
Letter
to
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
in
a
Counterfeit
Hand
,
by
which
I
let
him
know
,
that
there
was
a
Lady
,
and
a
young
Virgin
,
who
had
been
in
Love
with
him
for
Ten
years
together
,
with
a
Constancy
hitherto
unparalell'd
,
and
who
by
the
Care
which
still
she
took
to
disguise
her self
in
writing
to
him
,
sought
to
reap
no
other
Advantage
of
the
terrible
Adventure
she
had
undertaken
,
then
to
let
him
understand
,
That
how
unfortunate
soever
he
were
in
the
Loss
he
had
sustain'd
,
there
was
in
the
World
a
Lady
no
less
miserable
then
himself
.
This
Letter
being
deliver'd
to
the
Marquis
upon
the
first
Concussions
of
his
Grief
,
he
was
so
incens'd
,
that
he
threatned
the
Person
that
carry'd
it
,
to
have
him
thrown
out
at
Window
,
if
he
presum'd
to
bring
him
any
more
of
the
same
Nature
.
The
ill
Success
of
this
first
Attempt
was
so
far
from
offending
me
,
that
it
enhaunc'd
the
Esteem
which
I
had
for
him
:
For
I
did
not
desire
,
that
in
the
midst
of
that
Despair
wherein
it
behov'd
him
to
be
,
he
should
give
any
better
Reception
to
a
Love-Letter
from
Heav'n
knew
whom
.
Two
days
after
,
I
ventur'd
a
Second
Letter
,
the
particular
Contents
of
which
,
one
would
have
thought
should
have
at
least
awakn'd
Mansera's
Curiosity
.
For
I
spake
so
much
in
praise
of
the
Lady
he
had
lost
,
that
he
could
not
choose
but
be
affected
with
the
reading
it
;
and
the
Brother
of
that
lovely
Person
,
to
whom
he
had
related
the
Story
of
my
first
Letter
,
being
with
him
at
the
same
time
that
he
received
the
second
,
gave
it
him
to
read
,
and
desir'd
him
to
return
such
an
Answer
as
might
free
him
,
for
the
future
,
from
any
more
such
impertinent
and
unseasonable
Extravagancies
.
This
he
did
with
a
Witness
:
for
the
Answer
which
he
sent
me
was
so
harsh
and
full
of
contemptuous
Language
,
as
if
it
had
been
study'd
to
quell
my
courage
for
ever
writing
again
;
for
I
shed
more
Tears
in
reading
it
,
then
the
Marquis
had
let
fall
since
his
Lady
first
fell
sick
.
Moreover
the
Mortification
to
be
rejected
with
so
much
slight
and
scorn
,
presented
it self
before
my
Eyes
in
all
the
Horror
of
it
,
and
sometimes
I
resolv'd
to
abandon
utterly
the
mean
and
unbecoming
Project
which
I
had
set
on
foot
.
But
Love
in
a
few
days
got
the
Mastery
of
my
Indignation
,
and
of
all
that
little
Reason
that
was
return'd
to
me
.
I
wrote
a
third
Letter
to
the
Marquis
,
conjuring
him
by
the
Charms
and
by
the
Remembrance
of
her
whom
he
had
so
infinitely
ador'd
,
to
have
Pity
upon
a
Passion
no
way
to
be
avoided
,
and
considering
the
modest
Desires
to
which
it
aspir'd
,
could
no
way
be
offensive
to
him
:
I
only
besought
him
to
take
a
Turn
one
Morning
in
the
Garden
of
Alhambra
,
and
there
he
should
meet
the
Person
unknown
,
that
so
passionately
loved
him
.
But
the
Proposal
of
an
Assignation
put
him
into
such
a
Fume
,
that
he
tore
the
Letter
into
bitts
,
and
forbid
his
Servants
,
in
the
presence
of
the
Messenger
,
to
suffer
him
any
more
to
come
within
his
Doors
.
The
Relation
of
the
ill
Reception
which
my
Third
Letter
met
with
,
made
me
believe
,
that
so
long
as
I
conceal'd
my self
under
the
Name
of
an
unknown
Person
,
I
should
never
be
otherwise
then
slighted
and
affronted
by
him
;
and
that
on
the
other
side
,
if
I
dealt
fairly
above
Board
,
he
could
not
choose
at
least
but
have
some
Respect
for
me
,
when
he
understood
my
Name
,
and
that
after
such
a
foolish
beginning
,
there
was
no
other
way
for
me
,
but
fully
to
discover
my self
.
Therefore
overcome
by
this
corroding
Resolution
,
I
wrote
to
the
Marquis
in
my
own
Hand
,
and
in
regard
he
was
no
more
acquainted
with
it
,
th●n
with
my
former
Writing
,
I
sign'd
with
my
own
Name
a
Letter
which
I
believe
that
never
any
young
Lady
before
me
had
the
Misfortune
to
subscribe
.
And
in
regard
the
Civilities
and
Testimonies
of
Friendship
which
he
had
received
from
my
Family
since
the
Loss
he
had
sustain'd
,
were
such
that
in
gratitude
he
could
not
but
wait
upon
my
Mother
,
the
time
being
over
that
Decency
forbid
him
to
pay
Visits
:
and
I
begg'd
the
favour
of
him
,
to
vouchsafe
me
that
Mark
of
his
Compassion
upon
a
Person
,
whom
perhaps
he
would
not
find
altogether
unworthy
of
it
,
when
the
Purity
and
Sincerity
of
her
Affection
should
be
known
.
He
confess'd
to
me
afterwards
,
so
far
from
being
the
Person
that
I
acted
,
that
he
could
not
believe
the
Letter
came
from
me
;
persuading
himself
that
it
was
some
Female
Enemy
of
mine
,
who
had
made
use
of
my
Name
,
to
try
whether
she
could
expose
me
to
a
Piece
of
Indiscretion
that
would
have
undone
me
past
Recovery
.
The
Visit
which
he
made
me
so
soon
as
he
could
stir
abroad
,
had
like
to
have
confirm'd
him
in
this
Mistake
:
for
I
had
appointed
him
the
Hour
;
and
my
Father
himself
brought
him
into
my
Chamber
,
after
he
had
receiv'd
his
first
Complements
.
But
he
found
me
abed
,
and
two
Waiting-Women
sitting
by
me
at
work
;
and
he
could
not
believe
that
a
young
Lady
,
that
was
to
discourse
him
about
such
an
important
Secret
,
should
be
so
carefull
to
keep
two
Women
by
her
.
So
that
after
he
had
return'd
me
my
Complement
,
and
made
me
an
Answer
to
some
Questions
which
I
ask'd
him
in
reference
to
the
Loss
that
had
reduc'd
him
to
that
mournful
Condition
wherein
he
was
,
he
rose
up
to
take
his
leave
,
as
being
fully
persuaded
,
that
I
could
not
be
the
Person
who
had
appointed
him
the
Meeting
.
But
then
the
Confusion
and
Perplexity
I
was
in
,
cannot
neither
be
express'd
,
nor
imagin'd
.
I
had
like
,
several
times
,
to
have
begun
a
most
dreadful
Discourse
,
but
every
time
I
found
that
Words
fail'd
me
.
At
length
,
seeing
him
ready
to
depart
,
I
ask'd
him
,
with
a
trembling
utterance
,
whether
he
had
nothing
to
say
to
me
?
He
answer'd
me
with
more
confusion
and
trouble
in
his
Countenance
,
That
the
Habit
which
he
wore
,
and
the
Tears
that
ran
down
his
Cheeks
,
spoke
all
that
he
had
to
think
of
;
and
that
he
had
nothing
else
to
talk
of
,
but
his
Grief
.
Oh
Sir
!
(
said
I
)
will
you
still
use
me
thus
unmercifully
?
is
it
possible
that
my
Condition
cannot
move
your
Pity
?
what
Necessity
was
there
,
that
I
should
so
afflict
my self
?
and
that
I
have
wish'd
a
thousand
times
,
that
the
loss
of
my
Life
could
have
restor'd
to
your
Embraces
,
the
Person
you
have
lost
,
that
you
should
be
so
cruel
,
as
not
to
afford
me
one
kind
Word
,
to
alleviate
those
dreadful
Pains
that
I
have
suffer'd
for
your
sake
these
Ten
years
together
.
I
will
assure
ye
at
the
same
time
,
that
you
may
safely
speak
your
Mind
before
my
Women
;
and
tho'
they
might
be
able
to
understand
us
,
the
prudent
Conduct
I
have
hitherto
observ'd
,
would
not
permit
'em
to
believe
that
all
which
you
should
say
,
had
any
Relation
to
my self
.
With
that
he
re-approach'd
my
Bed
,
in
a
Confusion
that
equall'd
mine
;
and
after
he
had
wip'd
from
his
Eyes
the
Tears
which
my
Discourse
drew
in
more
abundant
showres
,
Is
it
possible
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
that
you
can
say
,
you
understand
what
Love
is
,
and
that
you
should
exact
from
me
the
Patience
to
hear
it
discours'd
of
?
No
,
Madam
,
no
,
nothing
can
extirpate
from
my
Heart
the
real
Grief
that
overwhelms
me
;
even
Time
it self
will
lose
the
Power
it
has
over
common
Afflictions
.
I
cannot
but
from
the
bottom
of
my
Heart
lament
your
Misfortune
,
to
be
enslav'd
to
so
cruel
a
Destiny
.
However
I
can
promise
ye
to
keep
inviolably
secret
what
you
have
written
to
me
,
and
to
avoid
all
Places
where
I
may
think
to
meet
ye
;
for
my
Grief
is
to
dear
bought
,
and
may
perhaps
be
in
some
danger
,
by
conversing
with
a
Person
,
who
,
with
your
Wit
,
shall
go
about
to
asswage
it
.
Having
said
these
Words
,
he
hastily
brush'd
from
me
,
not
giving
me
leisure
to
reply
.
Neither
do
I
believe
,
I
could
have
had
the
Strength
to
do
it
,
tho'
time
had
been
allow'd
me
.
The
Confusion
wherein
I
was
at
that
instant
,
is
not
to
be
imagin'd
.
To
what
Disgrace
(
said
I
to
my self
,
reproaching
my
own
Folly
)
art
thou
reduc'd
,
unfortunate
Teresa
!
Ah!
could'st
thou
have
the
Confidence
to
tell
a
Man
thou
lovd'st
him
,
and
yet
survive
the
Grief
to
hear
him
say
,
that
he
could
never
return
Love
for
Love
?
Woe
is
me
,
there
is
nothing
but
Death
that
can
obliterate
the
Ignominy
to
which
thou
hast
debas'd
thy self
.
But
,
(
said
I
,
immediately
after
)
could
I
expect
other
from
the
Marquis
,
considering
his
Condition
?
Would
he
be
worthy
of
my
Heart
,
should
he
forget
his
Sorrows
already
,
to
abandon
himself
to
the
Transports
of
a
new
Passion
?
Did
it
not
behove
me
to
look
for
all
that
has
befallen
me
?
It
did
—
and
all
that
he
has
done
,
to
cut
off
my
Hopes
,
but
renders
him
more
bright
in
my
Esteem
,
and
more
strongly
engages
my
Adoration
of
him
.
Since
then
he
cannot
grant
me
my
Desires
,
what
is
it
I
would
have
?
Alas
!
I
only
desire
to
intermix
my
Tears
with
his
,
and
in
his
Company
to
seek
that
Consolation
which
unfortunate
Lovers
find
in
talking
of
their
Miseries
;
and
happy
should
I
be
,
if
in
the
midst
of
that
which
overwhelms
his
Soul
,
of
all
the
Sighs
it
fetches
from
his
Breast
,
he
could
but
breathe
one
tender
blast
of
Compassion
for
my
Affliction
.
After
this
baneful
Interview
,
I
forbore
for
some
time
,
to
tyre
the
Marquis
with
my
Letters
,
and
contented
my self
to
meet
him
sometimes
,
in
certain
By-Walks
,
where
he
retir'd
conceal
his
Grief
from
the
Eyes
of
the
World
.
There
,
that
I
might
not
force
him
to
avoid
me
,
I
only
entertain'd
him
with
Discourses
of
the
Merit
and
Beauty
of
the
Lady
he
had
lost
,
and
to
the
end
I
might
accustom
him
to
talk
of
Tenderness
with
me
,
I
feign'd
to
take
Delight
in
hearing
him
talk
of
all
that
he
had
suffer'd
for
her
sake
.
I
applauded
his
Grief
,
and
instead
of
going
about
to
Comfort
him
,
I
told
him
,
He
had
all
the
Reason
in
the
World
to
be
the
most
afflicted
of
Men
.
But
,
in
regard
,
it
was
a
difficult
thing
to
abstain
from
intermixing
in
our
Discourses
something
that
savour'd
of
those
Sentiments
of
Kindness
for
him
,
which
I
had
openly
profest
,
for
fear
of
engaging
himself
too
far
in
my
Company
,
and
the
Surprizes
of
my
Discourse
,
he
retired
for
Three
Months
to
a
certain
Country
Solitude
,
where
,
all
at
leisure
,
and
remote
from
all
converse
with
Men
,
he
surrender'd
himself
up
to
the
Excesses
of
his
Grief
,
with
more
impatience
then
when
he
first
pour'd
forth
his
mournful
Lamentations
for
his
departed
Mistress
.
However
,
I
could
not
all
that
time
refrain
from
giving
him
some
Marks
of
my
Remembrance
;
but
the
Care
which
he
had
taken
to
conceal
the
Place
of
his
Retirement
,
depriv'd
me
of
the
means
of
sending
to
him
.
But
what
Contrivances
are
there
that
can
escape
the
subtle
Contrivances
of
Love
?
I
bethought
my self
one
Day
,
of
going
in
Disguise
to
visit
a
little
Daughter
of
his
,
the
only
Child
which
he
had
by
his
Wife
.
I
carry'd
several
Toys
and
Jewels
along
with
me
,
and
after
I
had
made
two
or
three
Visits
to
the
Child
,
feigning
to
have
something
of
Importance
to
impart
to
the
Father
,
I
oblig'd
the
Governess
to
let
me
know
the
Place
where
he
was
gone
to
discharge
his
Sorrows
.
Presently
I
wrote
him
Letters
full
of
Complements
only
,
wherein
I
always
flatter'd
his
Grief
,
that
he
might
not
grow
weary
of
my
Intercourse
.
These
Letters
,
and
what
the
Governess
wrote
to
him
,
of
the
Visits
of
an
unknown
Lady
,
whom
he
readily
conjectur'd
to
be
my self
,
drew
civil
Answers
from
him
,
and
engag'd
him
to
come
and
return
me
Thanks
at
his
Return
.
In
a
short
time
after
his
Arrival
,
I
became
more
Couragious
.
I
boldly
talk'd
to
him
of
my
Affection
,
and
wrote
him
the
fondest
and
most
tender
Letters
imaginable
.
He
answer'd
smoothly
and
free
from
any
Froppishness
,
but
with
a
kind
of
coldness
,
and
some
strokes
of
Ralliery
,
which
I
many
times
found
more
gauling
,
then
his
down-right
Anger
.
All
this
while
,
this
sort
of
Intercourse
,
and
the
Visits
which
I
oblig'd
the
Marquis
to
pay
me
,
from
time
to
time
,
had
infus'd
into
me
a
sort
of
Vivacity
,
that
had
not
,
for
a
long
while
,
been
observ'd
to
be
in
me
,
by
the
Spies
that
were
put
upon
me
in
the
Family
.
My
Father
,
also
more
quicksighted
then
any
body
else
,
soon
unravell'd
the
Reason
,
from
the
time
that
my
Behaviour
had
created
a
Suspicion
within
him
,
that
I
had
something
in
my
Head
which
displeas'd
him
;
so
that
the
violent
Care
which
he
had
of
every
thing
that
concern'd
me
,
blinded
him
to
such
a
heighth
,
that
,
without
considering
the
Consequences
of
what
he
was
going
to
doe
,
he
forbid
me
,
upon
my
Life
,
to
speak
to
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
and
went
himself
to
desire
him
to
forbear
his
House
.
My
Refusal
to
Obey
my
Father
,
enrag'd
his
Choler
to
the
highest
Extremity
.
He
took
my
Waiting-Women
from
me
,
and
set
others
,
more
like
Guardians
then
Servants
,
upon
me
.
He
order'd
a
Watch
upon
me
in
his
House
,
and
having
intercepted
a
Letter
which
I
wrote
to
the
Marquis
,
he
shew'd
it
to
the
Person
to
whom
I
was
betroth'd
;
no
Consideration
of
the
Misfortunes
which
he
was
preparing
for
his
Daughter
all
the
rest
of
her
Days
being
able
to
stop
his
Fury
.
Now
,
in
regard
I
had
given
private
notice
to
the
Marquis
of
all
that
I
suffer'd
for
his
sake
,
and
had
assur'd
him
,
that
all
the
most
cruel
Torments
that
Jealousie
could
invent
,
were
so
far
from
abating
that
Passion
which
he
had
infus'd
into
me
,
that
I
would
bless
my
Pains
,
if
they
could
but
force
from
his
Breast
one
Sigh
,
in
pity
of
my
Sufferings
,
He
was
most
infinitely
concern'd
for
the
Hardships
I
endur'd
,
and
of
which
he
could
not
question
but
that
himself
was
the
Cause
.
He
then
began
to
write
to
me
,
as
Lenitives
to
assuage
my
Pains
,
more
tender
Letters
,
then
,
as
yet
,
he
had
ever
done
;
and
,
at
length
,
vanquish'd
by
my
Importunities
,
and
by
the
train
of
Misfortunes
,
easily
foreseen
,
which
Jealousie
render'd
every
Day
then
other
more
terrible
,
he
consented
to
Marry
me
privately
.
All
that
I
did
to
bring
this
to
pass
,
would
be
a
Story
too
tedious
to
tell
yee
:
For
all
that
were
about
me
were
my
Guards
;
yet
all
the
while
I
wrote
to
him
Day
and
Night
,
and
sometimes
I
made
a
shift
to
get
into
his
Company
.
And
thus
you
see
what
my
Father
and
Mother
got
by
tormenting
me
.
But
,
good
God!
how
had
they
been
reveng'd
,
had
they
understood
the
secret
Afflictions
of
my
Soul
!
The
Knowledge
,
and
the
Compassion
of
my
Sufferings
,
were
the
only
Motives
that
caus'd
the
Marquis
to
act
:
Love
had
no
share
in
what
he
did
for
me
;
and
I
had
the
troublesome
Misfortune
for
a
Year
together
,
to
find
that
the
most
lively
Marks
of
a
violent
Passion
can
never
gain
a
Heart
which
has
not
a
natural
Inclination
to
Surrender
.
But
,
at
length
,
my
Perseverance
,
and
my
Importunities
,
were
Crown'd
with
Success
.
By
degrees
I
wrought
so
effectually
with
the
Marquis
,
that
I
made
him
forget
the
Excess
of
his
former
Grief
.
His
Heart
,
accustom'd
to
Love
,
grew
Familiar
with
another
Object
;
and
I
had
Reason
to
believe
,
that
my
Tenderness
had
absolutely
triumph'd
over
his
cold
Indifferencies
.
I
also
thought
I
might
Flatter
my self
,
that
he
lov'd
me
,
as
well
as
I
lov'd
him
;
and
all
the
Business
that
employ'd
us
both
,
was
only
to
engage
my
Father
to
recall
the
Promise
he
had
given
to
Don
Gaspar
de
Benavidez
.
The
End
of
the
First
PART
.
THE
HISTORY
Of
the
MARQUIS
of
MANSERA
And
DONA
TERESA
.
The
Second
and
Last
PART
.
BY
this
time
,
Night
had
constrain'd
the
Fair
Teresa
and
her
Friend
to
part
Company
,
and
to
refer
till
another
Time
,
the
Continuation
of
the
Story
;
but
the
Place
where
they
had
sate
so
long
together
,
had
imprinted
such
an
impatient
Curiosity
in
Dona
Eleonora
,
that
she
wrote
to
Dona
Teresa
,
to
meet
her
at
the
same
place
,
where
they
had
so
delightfully
entertain'd
each
other
,
so
soon
as
the
heat
of
the
Day
would
permit
.
To
which
Dona
Teresa
,
readily
consenting
,
they
met
both
together
betimes
;
and
after
a
turn
or
two
in
the
Walk
,
retir'd
,
and
seated
themselves
upon
the
same
Bank
of
Turf
,
where
they
sate
the
Evening
before
;
at
what
time
,
Dona
Teresa
re-assum'd
the
Recital
of
her
Adventures
,
in
the
following
manner
.
I
concluded
my
Recital
Yesterday
,
with
telling
yee
,
that
the
sad
and
deplorable
Condition
,
wherein
I
had
liv'd
for
Ten
Years
together
,
began
to
change
extreamly
for
the
better
;
and
that
the
Marquis
of
Mansera
,
grown
sensible
of
Acknowledgment
,
suffer'd
himself
,
at
length
,
to
be
touch'd
with
a
more
lively
and
tender
Compassion
.
I
met
with
those
Returns
from
his
Heart
,
that
left
nothing
more
for
me
to
desire
,
and
sometimes
sadden'd
me
with
a
real
Distrust
that
my
Felicity
would
not
long
endure
.
Is
it
possible
,
(
said
I
)
that
Love
,
in
pity
of
my
Woes
,
should
wound
with
the
same
Shaft
the
Person
for
whose
sake
I
have
so
long
been
harras'd
by
such
bitter
Sufferings
?
Can
it
be
,
that
I
shall
ever
see
my
Destiny
and
his
united
together
?
and
that
my
Passion
,
authoriz'd
by
my
Duty
,
will
never
give
me
cause
to
be
asham'd
of
the
Excess
of
it
?
He
will
become
my
Husband
,
and
I
,
without
controul
,
shall
be
allow'd
to
love
him
.
O
Heavens
!
Grant
then
that
this
Felicity
may
no
longer
be
delay'd
;
accomplish
our
Vows
,
and
make
my
Father
pliant
to
my
earnest
Supplications
.
These
were
the
Reflections
that
busied
my
Thoughts
,
and
thus
it
was
that
I
reason'd
with
Dona
Pepa
:
For
in
regard
I
had
entrusted
her
with
my
Secret
,
I
never
talk'd
of
the
Marquis
with
any
other
Person
.
She
procur'd
me
the
Pleasure
of
seeing
him
frequently
in
the
Walks
,
and
sometimes
of
speaking
to
him
through
a
Lattice-Window
,
that
look'd
into
the
Garden
,
where
she
gave
him
certain
notice
when
to
meet
.
Now
,
in
regard
he
has
a
Wit
endu'd
with
a
wonderful
quickness
of
Penetration
,
and
a
Heart
withal
so
tender
,
that
render'd
him
,
both
together
,
the
most
lovely
and
most
delicate
of
Men
,
one
Minute's
Conversation
with
him
,
afforded
me
so
many
Charms
,
that
I
found
wherewithal
to
employ
my self
whole
Days
and
Months
together
.
And
this
was
the
Posture
of
our
Affairs
,
when
my
Father
remov'd
to
one
of
his
Country
Houses
:
But
alas
!
would
ye
believe
it
;
a
Secret
presaging
Apprehension
whisper'd
to
my
Heart
some
part
of
my
ensuing
Misfortunes
.
I
could
not
spare
above
a
quarter
of
an
hour
to
take
my
leave
of
the
Marquis
;
my
Father's
Severity
would
permit
me
no
more
;
and
had
it
not
been
for
my
faithful
Pepa
,
I
had
not
seen
him
at
all
.
I
remember
that
I
found
him
that
day
still
more
tender
and
more
obliging
then
ever
yet
I
had
known
him
to
be
.
My
Departure
and
my
Absence
afflicted
him
to
Extremity
,
tho'
it
was
to
be
but
for
Six
Weeks
.
Think
you
,
(
said
he
)
that
I
can
possibly
remain
so
long
without
your
Company
,
my
dear
Teresa
;
I
will
find
ye
out
,
in
despite
of
those
that
oppose
our
mutual
Felicity
:
for
whatsoever
Vexation
and
Trouble
they
put
me
to
,
't
will
be
far
less
disturbance
then
your
Remoteness
from
me
.
Good
God!
(
cry'd
I
,
)
have
I
attain'd
at
length
to
make
you
sensible
,
that
the
want
of
my
Company
will
abate
something
of
your
Happiness
?
Now
't
is
your
Turn
to
feel
those
Motions
of
Tenderness
which
I
felt
all
alone
by
my self
;
and
you
find
your self
in
the
same
Condition
I
have
so
long
time
desir'd
,
to
partake
both
of
my
Hopes
and
my
Afflictions
.
But
how
much
inferiour
are
my
Pains
to
the
sweets
which
now
I
tast
,
since
I
am
certain
of
the
Possession
of
your
Heart
.
But
how
much
more
superior
to
my
Pleasures
are
my
Pains
,
(
cry'd
he
)
since
I
became
your
Lover
!
so
far
as
yet
remote
from
a
Blessing
that
can
only
assure
the
Happiness
of
my
Life
.
Yes
,
—
dear
Teresa
,
you
are
All
in
All
to
me
.
There
is
an
absolute
Necessity
of
dis-engaging
your self
from
Benavidez
;
his
Wit
,
his
Disposition
,
and
in
a
word
,
whatever
is
not
your
own
Faithfull
Marquis
is
no
way
worthy
of
ye
.
How
deliciously
did
these
Expressions
,
my
dear
Eleonora
,
diffuse
themselves
to
the
Bottom
of
my
Heart
!
I
there
engrav'd
'em
all
;
and
many
times
I
bath'd
his
Hands
with
my
Tears
,
tho'
he
could
hardly
reach
'em
to
me
through
the
narrow
Lattice
:
nor
was
he
wanting
to
lay
his
amorous
Lips
to
mine
;
and
notwithstanding
the
dreadfull
Torture
wherein
I
was
oblig'd
to
see
him
,
I
would
not
have
chang'd
my
Condition
with
the
greatest
of
Queens
.
Well
—
away
we
went
into
the
Country
,
and
Benavidez
,
went
with
us
;
my
Father
would
not
leave
him
behind
:
for
he
look'd
upon
him
as
a
Person
whose
Wealth
would
fulfill
his
Desires
,
and
satisfie
his
Covetous
Humour
.
He
never
minded
whether
I
lov'd
or
hated
him
;
as
being
persuaded
that
the
sovereign
Felicity
of
Man
,
consisted
in
the
Blessings
of
Fortune
.
A
miserable
Mistake
of
People
far
advanc'd
in
Years
,
whose
Age
has
quite
extinguish'd
the
Fire
of
Youth
!
They
know
no
other
Deity
but
Fortune
,
and
only
Sacrifice
to
her
.
How
unhappy
was
I
,
to
be
the
Interested
Object
of
these
Reflexions
!
but
how
much
more
to
hear
that
the
Marquis
was
enforc'd
to
go
to
Court
,
without
being
able
to
give
me
notice
of
his
departure
.
Now
,
in
regard
I
knew
not
at
first
of
his
going
,
I
Flatter'd
my self
continually
,
that
he
would
contrive
some
way
to
come
in
Disguise
to
my
Father's
House
:
and
,
with
these
Hopes
,
I
got
up
every
Morning
,
before
Sun-rising
,
and
waking
Dona
Pepa
,
I
went
with
her
to
hear
the
Birds
sing
,
in
a
great
High-way
that
lead
to
my
Father's
Castle
,
upon
the
Road
to
Grenada
:
There
,
with
a
Heart
full
of
Love
,
and
the
Idea
of
the
Marquis's
Affection
,
I
took
an
extream
Delight
,
to
Fancy
to
my self
how
joyful
I
should
be
to
see
him
appear
.
But
,
alas
!
how
my
Expectations
were
deceiv'd
when
I
understood
he
was
gone
to
Madrid
!
of
which
I
had
notice
by
a
Letter
from
him
,
the
most
affectionate
,
and
most
obliging
that
ever
he
wrote
me
.
For
my
dear
Eleonora
,
as
he
speaks
with
an
Admirable
Grace
,
so
he
writes
with
an
Eloquence
that
far
surpasses
his
Elocution
.
His
fatal
Departure
left
me
almost
void
of
all
Consolation
;
and
this
fell
out
just
at
the
very
time
,
when
the
Two
Years
that
I
had
resolv'd
to
stay
,
before
I
would
Marry
Don
Gaspar
,
were
very
near
expir'd
.
Good
God!
what
will
become
of
me
,
thought
I
!
abandon'd
to
the
absolute
Power
of
a
Father
,
and
to
the
Importunities
of
a
Person
that
would
not
be
repuls'd
by
my
Disdains
,
nor
his
knowledge
of
my
Affection
for
his
Rival
.
In
these
,
and
such
like
Doleful
Reflexions
,
all
my
thoughts
were
plundg'd
;
and
I
sought
for
Solitude
and
lonely
Retirement
,
where
I
might
,
without
Disturbance
,
and
unseen
,
bewail
the
terrible
Distresses
that
overwhelm'd
me
.
One
Day
,
that
I
was
got
into
the
thickest
part
of
a
Wood
,
that
hinders
the
prospect
of
one
side
of
my
Father's
House
,
I
stop'd
by
the
Bank
of
a
purling
Rivolet
;
and
laying
my self
down
upon
the
Grass
,
drew
out
of
my
Bosome
,
some
of
the
Marquiss's
Letters
,
which
I
carried
along
with
me
,
to
afford
me
the
Consolation
of
reading
'em
over
again
.
But
at
the
very
instant
that
I
thought
my self
most
secure
,
and
under
that
Protection
,
had
abandon'd
my self
to
the
Transports
of
my
Grief
and
Affection
,
my
Father
,
who
was
got
close
to
me
without
being
perceiv'd
,
seeing
me
all
bath'd
in
Tears
,
with
my
Eyes
fix'd
upon
the
Letters
,
violently
snatch'd
'em
out
of
my
Hands
;
and
the
first
Letter
that
Chance
presented
to
him
discover'd
all
the
Contrivances
,
between
the
Marquis
and
my self
,
to
disappoint
my
Marriage
with
Benavidez
.
I
shall
not
stand
to
tell
yee
how
my
Father
revil'd
me
;
nor
trouble
yee
with
his
Outragious
Threats
,
or
with
my
own
Despair
.
They
are
things
that
better
may
be
imagin'd
then
express'd
.
't
is
sufficient
to
tell
yee
that
from
that
Fatal
Moment
,
he
took
a
Resolution
,
not
to
leave
me
so
much
as
one
Day
together
,
at
my
own
disposal
.
He
hall'd
me
back
to
the
House
,
as
if
I
had
been
an
Offender
.
I
threw
my self
a
thousand
times
at
his
Feet
,
and
conjur'd
my
Mother
,
by
all
that
was
most
dear
to
her
,
to
have
Compassion
upon
me
.
Love
and
Grief
both
equally
envigour'd
my
Words
and
Actions
:
But
nothing
could
move
'em
.
I
was
an
unfortunate
Victim
which
they
were
resolv'd
to
Sacrifice
,
and
which
they
Sacrific'd
indeed
.
I
have
said
enough
,
to
let
yee
know
the
vast
Dominion
which
the
Marquis
had
over
my
Soul
;
and
being
assur'd
of
that
,
you
must
certainly
agree
with
me
,
that
the
inevitable
necessity
of
avoiding
the
Marquis
for
ever
,
and
surceasing
to
love
him
,
could
not
choose
but
be
more
terrible
to
me
then
Death
it self
.
Oh
Barbarous
Death
!
how
often
did
I
call
in
vain
upon
thee
for
Succour
,
when
I
saw
my self
upon
the
brink
of
being
Married
to
Don
Gaspar
,
notwithstanding
my
Hatred
of
him
,
and
that
I
must
be
forc'd
to
pay
him
a
sort
of
Affection
,
by
the
Constraint
of
that
Necessity
which
my
Duty
impos'd
upon
me
.
But
Death
,
no
less
deaf
to
my
Prayers
,
then
my
Father
inexorable
to
my
Tears
,
both
equally
refus'd
to
grant
me
what
I
su'd
for
,
with
so
much
earnestness
.
He
dragg'd
me
to
his
Chapel
in
the
Castle
,
where
I
was
stay'd
for
to
accomplish
the
Fatal
Ceremony
.
But
presently
I
swoonded
away
in
my
Mother's
Arms
;
and
would
to
God
my
Nuptial
Pomp
might
have
prov'd
my
Funeral
Obsequies
.
Good
God!
what
a
most
dismal
Terror
was
it
to
me
,
when
being
come
to
my
self
,
I
consider'd
,
that
the
Condition
,
wherein
the
violence
of
my
Misfortune
had
fix'd
me
,
oblig'd
me
to
tear
from
my
Heart
the
Person
whom
I
lov'd
more
tenderly
then
my
own
Life
?
Tear
him
from
my
Heart
!
Alas
!
was
it
in
my
Power
do
yee
think
to
do
it
!
How
was
it
possible
that
a
Tenderness
so
deeply
rooted
,
and
with
which
I
was
familiar
before
I
knew
my self
,
could
be
so
soon
eradicated
!
So
dear
an
Idea
,
could
I
so
soon
deface
it
from
my
Memory
!
Thus
I
became
the
Martyr
of
an
Innocent
Passion
,
and
I
fell
into
a
deep
Melancholly
,
which
,
all
of
a
sudden
,
depriv'd
me
of
that
little
Consolation
with
which
I
had
flatter'd
both
my
Mind
and
Person
;
and
being
resolv'd
to
apply
my self
wholly
to
my
Duty
,
I
thought
of
nothing
but
spinning
out
such
a
sad
and
sorrowful
Life
,
as
with
the
soonest
might
bring
me
to
the
Grave
.
In
the
mean
time
,
I
most
passionately
long'd
to
receive
Letters
from
the
Marquis
,
and
to
be
inform'd
after
what
manner
he
had
entertain'd
the
Surprizing
News
.
I
was
about
,
several
times
,
to
have
wrote
to
him
,
in
justification
of
that
Levity
which
he
had
some
seeming
Reason
to
accuse
me
of
.
But
then
,
I
as
suddenly
recollected
my self
,
and
blam'd
my
fond
Desire
,
to
keep
any
farther
Correspondence
with
a
Person
whose
Temptations
were
so
dangerous
.
Forbear
(
said
I
)
forbear
Teresa
,
to
cherish
an
Idea
so
dear
to
thy
remembrance
:
Banish
from
thy
Heart
the
Person
whom
thou
can'st
no
longer
Love
without
committing
a
Crime
:
't
is
not
for
thee
,
to
see
him
any
more
:
't
is
not
for
thee
to
listen
to
him
any
longer
;
he
believes
thee
Guilty
and
Faithless
;
Unconstant
and
Untrue
to
thy
Promise
;
and
he
is
going
now
to
hate
thee
;
at
least
,
't
is
what
becomes
thee
most
to
wish
for
.
Woe
is
me
,
dear
Eleonora
,
to
what
Extremity
was
I
reduc'd
!
to
wish
the
Hatred
of
a
Man
that
I
ador'd
!
I
never
re-call
to
my
Remembrance
these
tormenting
Griefs
,
but
it
brings
me
to
Death's
door
;
and
I
cannot
apprehend
how
my
Father
and
my
Husband
could
keep
me
alive
,
considering
the
Condition
,
to
which
my
sadness
had
reduc'd
me
.
Nor
was
it
only
with
Moans
and
Lamentations
that
I
thought
to
ease
my
Pains
:
I
shut
'em
all
up
close
within
my self
,
and
the
Silence
which
I
impos'd
upon
my
Lips
,
was
very
much
contributory
to
augment
'
em
.
Well
,
—
at
length
my
Father's
Business
re-call'd
him
to
Grenada
,
and
Don
Gaspar
,
more
jealous
then
amorous
,
carry'd
me
to
a
Castle
of
Cartagena
,
on
the
one
side
wash'd
by
the
Sea
,
and
on
the
other
environ'd
by
a
long
Range
of
Woods
and
Rocks
.
Do
but
think
now
to
what
a
Desart
I
was
confin'd
,
with
a
Husband
whom
I
hated
worse
then
Death
.
The
Marquis
,
on
the
other
side
,
was
in
a
Condition
not
much
more
happy
then
my
own
.
He
had
been
inform'd
of
my
being
Marry'd
to
Don
Gaspar
,
after
an
abrupt
and
rustick
manner
,
without
any
preparation
in
the
World
.
For
one
of
his
Friends
,
going
from
Grenada
to
Madrid
,
and
meeting
him
in
Florida
Garden
,
where
the
Troubles
of
his
Mind
oblig'd
him
oft
to
walk
and
meditate
alone
by
himself
,
told
him
,
without
any
Preambles
,
that
there
had
been
great
Doings
at
Grenada
,
since
he
left
it
,
that
I
was
Marry'd
to
Benavidez
,
and
that
my
Father
had
made
a
very
Sumptuous
Wedding
of
it
,
Feasting
all
Comers
and
Goers
for
several
Days
together
.
These
unwelcome
Tydings
,
so
unlook'd-for
,
strook
the
Marquis
with
such
a
strong
Surprize
,
and
cut
him
so
deeply
to
the
Heart
,
that
he
stood
as
if
he
had
been
transform'd
into
a
Statue
;
and
in
that
miserable
Condition
they
carry'd
him
back
to
his
own
House
However
,
among
all
the
real
Obligations
which
he
laid
upon
me
,
I
must
not
silence
this
,
that
in
the
very
first
Motions
of
his
Passion
,
at
what
time
Reason
is
but
seldom
consulted
,
he
was
so
generous
,
as
to
do
my
Sentiments
of
Kindness
and
Affection
Justice
.
He
understood
how
all
along
I
had
been
forc'd
with
naked
Daggers
to
submit
to
a
Choice
so
unworthy
the
Caresses
of
my
Love
;
and
when
he
bemoan'd
his
own
hard
Fate
,
he
much
more
lamented
mine
.
When
these
dreadful
Tydings
first
were
brought
him
,
the
Marquis
was
just
upon
accepting
a
considerable
Employment
,
for
which
Reason
his
Relations
had
sent
for
him
to
Court
.
But
,
in
regard
he
never
desir'd
it
,
but
only
that
I
might
share
the
Advantages
of
it
,
so
soon
as
he
had
lost
all
Hopes
of
uniting
his
Destiny
and
mine
together
,
he
quitted
the
Court
,
and
took
Post
for
Grenada
,
like
a
Man
in
Despair
.
He
did
not
know
but
that
they
had
brought
me
back
to
the
City
after
the
Wedding
was
over
;
and
therefore
,
away
he
ran
to
Dona
Pepa
,
to
be
inform'd
what
was
become
of
me
,
and
to
desire
her
to
give
me
Notice
of
his
Return
.
But
entring
into
her
Apartment
,
he
felt
himself
siez'd
with
that
Extremity
of
Grief
,
as
being
beset
with
all
the
Idea's
which
the
Place
had
Reason
to
re-call
into
his
Memory
,
he
mistook
her
Chamber
,
and
passing
into
a
Room
,
the
Door
of
which
stood
open
,
the
first
Object
that
strook
his
Eye
was
a
square
Gilt
Frame
,
that
contain'd
both
mine
and
Don
Gaspar's
Picture
;
and
the
sight
of
that
quite
overturn'd
his
Constancy
.
For
he
could
not
brook
such
a
Consent
of
mine
,
to
be
painted
with
my
Husband
:
He
thought
there
was
too
much
of
Tenderness
in
such
a
Complaisance
;
and
he
began
to
fear
that
my
Inclination
,
submissive
to
my
Duty
,
had
made
me
yield
to
those
Complacencies
with
less
Reluctancy
then
I
ought
to
have
done
.
This
stroke
of
Jealousie
,
of
which
the
Instigations
were
till
then
unknown
to
him
,
cut
him
so
to
the
Quick
,
that
he
stood
like
one
half
Dead
;
when
Dona
Pepa
coming
to
him
,
Ah!
Madam
,
(
cry'd
he
)
come
you
to
be
a
Witness
of
my
Shame
as
well
as
Grief
?
I
had
thought
the
Marriage
of
your
Friend
had
swell'd
my
Despair
as
high
as
it
could
go
;
but
what
I
here
behold
has
triumph'd
over
all
my
Reason
.
Who
could
have
told
me
that
I
should
be
more
Unfortunate
still
,
by
coming
to
your
Lodgings
?
Yet
that
which
I
meet
with
here
,
surpasses
all
the
Afflictions
I
have
hitherto
endur'd
;
Dona
Teresa
loves
her
Husband
;
she
has
condescended
to
be
painted
in
the
same
Picture
with
him
.
Just
Heav'n
!
Is
it
possible
that
a
Person
whom
I
adore
,
should
love
any
other
?
Alas
!
I
bemoan'd
her
,
when
she
her self
was
Guilty
:
For
,
what
infernal
Horrors
,
incens'd
Heav'ns
,
have
ye
reserv'd
me
!
But
ye
have
not
reserv'd
me
to
endure
it
long
;
for
I
will
pierce
the
Heart
of
my
unworthy
Rival
,
who
thus
has
ravish'd
from
me
her
I
love
,
and
I
will
stab
my
own
Heart
with
the
same
Dagger
at
her
Feet
,
whom
I
had
so
much
Weakness
,
so
much
want
of
Honour
to
Adore
.
Dona
Pepa
was
so
far
from
going
about
to
clear
his
mistake
,
or
help
him
out
of
that
Condition
,
wherein
she
saw
him
,
by
giving
him
to
understand
the
doleful
Plight
of
my
sad
Heart
,
that
she
thought
it
rather
became
her
to
make
the
best
Advantage
she
could
of
the
Marquis's
Transportment
,
in
order
to
cure
him
of
a
Passion
,
which
could
not
choose
but
be
attended
with
more
dangerous
Consequences
.
She
had
seen
me
so
Obstinate
in
my
Resolutions
,
never
to
see
the
Marquis
more
,
that
she
thought
it
would
be
a
great
piece
of
Service
done
us
both
,
to
separate
for
ever
both
our
Minds
and
Hearts
.
She
had
the
Cruelty
to
behold
,
without
Disturbance
,
the
Trouble
and
Despair
of
the
too
Credulous
Marquis
,
and
she
was
very
Careful
to
forbear
mentioning
him
,
in
the
Letters
which
she
wrote
me
.
On
the
other
side
,
the
Marquis
,
wholly
taken
up
with
the
Transports
of
his
Jealousie
,
minded
only
to
make
me
sensible
of
the
Violence
of
it
.
He
was
desirous
to
see
what
Answer
I
would
make
to
his
Reproaches
,
and
the
most
lively
Marks
of
his
Tenderness
.
He
wrote
me
Letters
every
Day
,
which
he
gave
to
Dona
Pepa
,
to
be
sent
to
me
,
and
which
Dona
Pepa
never
fent
,
for
fear
of
adding
new
Strength
to
the
Sentiments
of
my
Heart
,
which
she
knew
too
impetuous
already
.
This
Silence
of
mine
,
compleated
the
full
Measure
of
his
Grief
,
and
confirm'd
him
in
his
Jealousies
;
while
I
,
for
my
part
,
could
not
forbear
,
in
all
the
Letters
which
I
wrote
to
Dona
Pepa
,
to
enquire
what
was
become
of
our
Common
Friend
.
She
wrote
me
word
,
that
he
was
return'd
to
Grenada
about
some
Business
,
but
so
intoxicated
with
the
Court
,
and
with
such
an
eagerness
to
be
gone
again
,
that
she
made
no
question
,
but
that
he
was
Fetter'd
in
the
Charms
of
some
young
Beauty
at
Madrid
,
and
that
his
former
Sorrows
for
the
Marriage
,
were
so
quickly
over
,
that
he
seem'd
to
have
utterly
forgot
the
Unfortunate
Teresa
.
In
what
a
Condition
was
I
,
my
dearest
Eleonora
,
to
hear
these
dismal
Tydings
!
I
never
was
so
deeply
sensible
before
,
how
well
I
lov'd
the
Marquis
,
as
at
that
very
instant
,
when
I
thought
I
had
lost
his
Heart
for
ever
.
This
dreadful
Grief
,
being
join'd
with
those
that
already
overwhelm'd
me
,
made
such
an
Impression
upon
my
Health
,
that
I
fell
dangerously
sick
;
and
,
in
regard
the
Place
,
where
Don
Gaspar
kept
me
close
mu'd
up
,
lies
a
great
way
from
Grenada
,
and
quite
remote
from
all
Intercourse
,
I
was
ready
to
die
for
want
of
the
Marquis's
not
having
any
knowledge
my
Distemper
.
Pierc'd
therefore
to
the
Quick
,
that
he
could
receive
no
Answer
to
the
Letters
,
and
now
,
no
longer
questioning
my
Forgetfulness
and
Indifferency
for
him
,
he
thought
of
nothing
more
then
of
removing
from
a
place
,
where
every
thing
recall'd
me
to
his
Memory
.
With
that
,
he
return'd
to
Court
,
where
the
War
,
with
which
the
King
of
France
threaten'd
the
Low-Countries
,
put
all
Spain
into
a
Consternation
,
and
that
the
Rapidness
of
his
First
Victories
seem'd
to
have
no
other
Bounds
then
the
Conquest
of
all
Europe
.
All
the
young
Courtiers
at
Madrid
,
were
all
upon
the
spur
for
Flanders
or
Catalonia
.
Among
the
rest
,
the
Marquis
was
over-joy'd
to
find
an
Opportunity
to
go
,
in
search
of
an
Honourable
Death
;
or
else
,
at
least
,
perswading
himself
,
that
he
should
more
easily
put
me
out
of
his
Mind
,
in
the
Hurry
of
those
Employments
,
which
his
Courage
and
his
Ambition
would
afford
him
in
the
War
.
So
that
so
soon
as
he
arriv'd
at
Madrid
,
he
su'd
for
a
Commission
to
serve
in
Flanders
.
He
was
just
ready
to
depart
,
when
Don
Gaspar
arriv'd
at
Madrid
,
to
complain
of
a
piece
of
Injustice
,
which
the
Parliament
of
Grenada
had
done
him
,
about
a
Ship
richly
laden
,
that
was
cast
away
upon
the
Coast
of
Cartagena
,
and
of
which
,
Don
Gaspar
pretended
,
that
a
great
part
of
the
Goods
belong'd
to
him
.
The
Necessity
that
Don
Gaspar
was
in
,
by
Reason
of
this
Affair
,
to
make
some
stay
at
Madrid
,
awaken'd
once
more
the
Marquis's
Love
,
and
fed
him
with
some
Hopes
of
making
his
Advantage
of
my
Husband's
Absence
,
to
find
me
out
in
the
mid'st
of
my
Desart
.
This
Design
he
had
lay'd
,
the
very
first
Days
of
his
Despair
;
for
he
could
not
altogether
habituate
himself
to
the
utter
Loss
of
my
Heart
.
Sometimes
also
,
he
would
justifie
me
in
his
own
Thoughts
,
and
condemn
the
Accusations
of
his
Jealousie
.
And
tho'
he
could
not
perceive
the
least
Glimpse
that
he
could
ever
be
Happy
,
yet
he
could
not
forbear
Flattering
himself
,
or
at
least
,
to
wish
himself
still
my
Favourite
.
And
,
the
more
he
ponder'd
upon
this
Design
,
the
more
eager
were
his
Desires
to
undertake
it
.
He
conjectur'd
right
,
that
there
was
no
consulting
me
,
which
way
to
bring
it
to
pass
,
and
that
,
however
one
of
his
Letters
might
find
me
dispos'd
,
I
would
always
prefer
my
Duty
before
all
the
Desires
of
my
Heart
.
Therefore
,
to
find
out
which
way
to
put
his
Contrivance
in
Execution
,
he
held
it
necessary
to
inform
himself
,
what
course
of
Life
I
led
in
my
Retirement
,
and
what
Orders
Don
Gaspar
had
left
behind
him
,
for
my
Security
,
being
all
alone
.
And
,
that
he
might
be
fully
instructed
of
all
these
Things
,
he
employ'd
an
unknown
Person
,
to
get
in
with
one
of
the
Servants
that
attended
my
Husband
in
his
Chamber
:
By
whom
that
Person
understood
,
how
my
Husband
,
that
he
might
be
at
rest
in
his
Mind
,
during
the
time
of
his
Absence
,
had
left
me
under
the
Guard
of
his
Brother
,
who
was
more
vigilant
then
Argus
,
and
more
difficult
of
Access
,
if
it
were
possible
,
then
my
Husband
;
that
I
lead
a
sad
and
languishing
Life
;
that
I
spent
the
Days
in
Reading
,
but
more
frequently
in
Weeping
;
and
that
the
latter
ill
use
of
my
Eyes
,
had
render'd
my
Sight
so
weak
,
that
I
was
many
times
forc'd
to
make
others
read
to
me
,
but
that
none
of
my
Domestick
Servants
could
please
my
Curiosity
,
and
that
Don
Gaspar
had
promis'd
to
seek
out
for
a
Maid
at
Madrid
,
that
was
capable
to
serve
me
in
that
particular
.
What
the
Marquis
heard
of
my
weeping
,
and
of
the
continual
sadness
wherein
I
spent
my
Life
,
re-kindl'd
all
his
former
Flames
,
as
now
,
no
longer
doubting
,
but
that
I
was
Innocent
.
Upon
,
which
,
his
eagerness
to
see
me
,
became
far
more
Violent
;
and
revolving
in
his
Mind
all
that
the
Valet
de
Chambre
had
said
,
he
lay'd
such
a
Contrivance
,
that
the
Execution
of
it
had
been
altogether
impossible
for
any
other
then
a
Person
really
enamour'd
.
He
had
observ'd
,
in
one
of
his
Friend's
Houses
;
a
young
Maid
,
whose
brisk
and
lively
Air
betoken'd
a
Capacity
to
acquit
her self
of
a
nice
and
delicate
Secret
entrusted
to
her
Charge
.
He
gave
her
perfect
Instructions
what
to
do
,
to
Fool
Don
Gaspar
into
an
entire
Confidence
of
her
,
and
Order'd
her
to
be
carry'd
to
him
,
by
a
Venerable
Duenna
,
and
a
Friar
,
whose
Habit
alone
suffices
at
Madrid
to
command
Respect
.
This
Maid
told
Don
Gaspar
,
that
she
understood
he
had
a
Purpose
to
send
his
Lady
a
Person
that
could
read
to
her
,
and
that
if
he
pleas'd
to
make
choice
of
her
,
she
made
no
question
but
to
give
me
Content
;
that
she
was
willing
to
quit
Madrid
,
by
Reason
of
the
Hurry
and
Tumult
that
attended
a
City
Life
;
that
the
Country
and
Retirement
was
more
Delightful
to
her
,
then
all
the
Vanities
of
the
Town
;
and
,
that
having
the
Happiness
to
be
born
to
a
small
Competency
,
she
desir'd
no
Wages
.
Immediately
Don
Gaspar
lays
an
Embargo
upon
her
,
fully
satisfy'd
with
what
the
Good
Friar
and
Reverend
Matron
spoke
in
her
Commendation
.
And
,
for
fear
she
should
alter
her
Mind
,
he
told
her
,
she
should
be
gone
with
all
speed
;
promising
her
withal
,
that
his
Letters
should
be
ready
the
next
Day
:
At
the
same
time
,
he
also
gave
her
a
private
Admonition
,
that
being
plac'd
by
himself
,
so
near
me
,
he
expected
she
should
serve
him
as
a
Spy
,
and
that
she
should
send
him
an
exact
Account
of
all
that
I
did
from
Morning
till
Night
.
It
would
be
a
difficult
Task
to
express
the
flattering
Hopes
,
that
such
lucky
and
prosperous
Beginnings
as
these
,
had
reviv'd
in
the
Marquis's
Soul
.
He
made
all
the
hast
he
could
to
dispatch
whatever
remain'd
for
him
to
do
,
in
order
to
the
pursuance
of
his
Journey
into
Flanders
.
He
took
his
Leave
of
the
King
and
all
the
Court
;
and
that
Don
Gaspar
might
not
have
the
least
Suspicion
,
that
he
so
much
as
Dream'd
of
going
to
Cartagena
,
he
undertook
to
carry
Pacquets
of
great
Importance
,
which
must
have
else
been
sent
by
an
Express
.
When
he
was
got
Ten
Leagues
from
Madrid
,
he
sent
away
his
'
Squire
,
with
the
King's
Orders
,
into
Flanders
;
and
he
with
Don
Gaspar's
Letter
for
my self
,
and
and
Don
Bertrand
,
(
for
that
was
my
Brother-in-Law's
Name
)
he
got
with
that
speed
to
Cartagena
,
as
if
he
had
flown
with
the
Wings
of
Love
.
He
had
no
body
with
him
but
a
Valet
de
Chambre
,
of
whose
Fidelity
he
was
assur'd
,
and
who
carry'd
along
with
him
,
every
Thing
that
was
necessary
for
his
Disguise
;
and
,
in
regard
he
had
a
lovely
Head
of
flaxen
Hair
,
with
a
Youthful
,
and
delicate
Complection
,
't
was
no
difficult
Thing
for
him
to
pass
for
what
he
seem'd
to
be
.
't
is
true
,
he
was
somewhat
too
tall
for
a
Woman
,
but
he
shrunk
himself
up
so
Artificially
in
his
long
Mantle
,
and
with
so
much
Ingenuity
,
that
I
my self
was
deceiv'd
the
first
time
I
saw
him
.
In
this
Equipage
he
arriv'd
at
our
House
,
causing
himself
to
be
led
by
his
Valet
de
Chambre
,
who
was
said
to
be
one
of
his
Uncles
.
Presently
they
ask'd
for
Don
Bertrand
,
and
the
Marquis
,
wrap'd
up
in
his
Mantle
,
and
only
discovering
one
of
his
Eyes
deliver'd
him
Don
Gaspar's
Letters
.
When
he
had
read
'em
,
he
entred
my
Chamber
,
and
told
me
that
there
was
a
Maid
come
,
that
my
Husband
had
sent
to
read
to
me
.
I
would
have
joyfully
receiv'd
her
from
any
other
Hand
but
his
:
But
when
I
came
to
consider
that
she
was
a
Person
wholly
at
his
Devotion
,
and
by
him
appointed
to
be
always
near
me
,
to
inform
him
the
more
exactly
of
my
most
private
Thoughts
,
I
had
so
great
an
Aversion
for
the
Maid
,
that
I
told
Don
Bertrand
,
that
there
was
no
Necessity
that
I
should
see
her
;
that
't
was
sufficient
that
Don
Gaspar
,
had
agreed
with
her
,
and
that
I
would
call
for
her
when
I
had
occasion
for
her
.
This
Message
most
terribly
afflicted
the
Marquis
;
besides
,
that
he
had
a
Chamber
appointed
for
him
,
far
remote
from
mine
,
and
he
stay'd
Two
Days
without
seeing
me
.
He
was
in
some
Hopes
he
should
meet
me
in
some
private
Walk
;
but
his
Misfortune
and
mine
,
would
needs
so
order
it
,
that
I
stirr'd
not
out
in
all
those
Two
Days
.
I
leave
you
to
judge
what
terrible
Convulsions
of
Fear
and
Anguish
tormented
the
poor
Marquis
all
this
while
,
as
well
for
the
Loss
of
so
many
precious
Minutes
,
as
out
of
a
dread
,
least
this
Delay
should
prove
the
Disappointment
of
his
whole
Design
,
should
some
odd
Accident
bring
Don
Gaspar
,
unexpected
,
home
.
But
,
at
length
,
Don
Bertrand
press'd
me
so
earnestly
to
send
for
Constance
into
my
Chamber
,
(
for
that
was
the
Name
by
which
the
Marquis
went
)
that
I
consented
.
Upon
which
,
my
Brother
went
to
fetch
her
himself
;
but
when
Constance
enter'd
my
Chamber
,
and
after
she
had
made
her
Curches
and
her
Reverences
,
was
about
to
have
deliver'd
her self
in
a
formal
Address
,
she
fell
a
Trembling
,
and
stood
in
such
a
Consternation
,
that
I
was
amaz'd
:
But
I
took
little
notice
of
it
,
as
attributing
such
Disorders
as
those
,
to
Natural
Bashfulness
,
or
a
Timorous
Constitution
.
However
,
after
I
had
ask'd
her
some
few
Questions
,
I
bid
her
take
a
Tome
of
the
Wars
of
Grenada
,
and
sate
me
down
upon
a
Couch
,
with
a
piece
of
Net-work
in
my
Hand
,
to
employ
my
Fingers
while
she
read
.
Don
Bertrand
also
,
plac'd
himself
between
us
;
and
,
in
regard
I
could
not
look
upon
Constance
,
without
casting
my
Eyes
upon
him
,
I
held
'em
down
,
to
spare
my self
that
Vexation
.
Constance
began
to
Read
with
so
Delightful
a
Tone
,
that
I
was
charm'd
with
it
,
and
,
of
a
sudden
,
I
perceiv'd
the
Reason
why
it
charm'd
me
was
,
because
the
Maid's
Voice
,
was
so
extreamly
like
the
Marquis
of
Mansera's
,
that
I
thought
verily
I
heard
him
speak
:
Every
word
that
she
pronounc'd
,
deliver'd
a
pleasing
Message
to
my
Heart
.
All
the
while
I
heard
her
,
I
felt
a
gentle
Emotion
of
which
I
could
not
divine
the
Reason
.
As
for
Don
Bertrand
,
he
was
not
long
before
he
fell
fast
asleep
,
and
the
Marquis
was
no
sooner
assur'd
of
it
,
but
being
desirous
to
make
his
Advantage
of
the
First
Minutes
that
Fortune
offer'd
him
,
he
surceas'd
his
reading
,
and
went
on
in
the
following
manner
.
The
COMPLAINT
of
the
Shepherd
Acanthus
.
THE
young
Acanthus
had
made
an
absolute
Renunciation
of
all
the
Pleasures
of
the
World
;
he
had
laid
aside
all
his
Ambition
;
he
was
insensible
of
the
Society
of
his
Friends
,
more-especially
after
that
being
prevented
by
the
Favours
of
the
lovely
Amarillis
,
he
had
reason
to
flatter
himself
,
that
he
was
tenderly
belov'd
by
her
.
Acknowledgment
insinuated
Love
into
his
Soul
;
and
the
more
that
little
Deity
had
been
troubl'd
to
make
himself
the
Master
of
it
,
the
greater
Value
he
set
upon
his
Victory
,
and
the
faster
he
knit
the
Knots
that
ty'd
the
Shepherd
to
his
Shepherddess
.
But
how
was
this
pure
and
faithful
Passion
cruelly
cross'd
by
that
worldly
Interest
that
over-rul'd
the
Father
of
Amarillis
;
he
would
needs
marry
her
to
a
certain
Plough-jogger
in
their
Country
,
because
he
was
very
rich
.
The
poor
Shepherdess
trembling
and
forlorn
,
apply'd
her self
to
her
Shepherd
,
for
a
a
Supply
of
Courage
to
withstand
the
severe
Commands
of
her
Father
;
and
the
amorous
Shepherd
,
who
left
all
for
her
sake
,
conjur'd
her
to
follow
his
Example
.
'
'
Amarillis
,
(
said
he
,
grasping
her
hand
in
his
,
many
times
bedewing
'em
with
his
Tears
,
)
Live
only
for
my
sake
,
as
I
live
only
for
yours
:
Love
as
much
as
it
is
possible
to
Love
;
and
Love
will
preserve
you
from
all
the
Perils
which
you
have
any
reason
to
be
afraid
of
.
They
that
love
,
have
a
Stock
of
Constancy
and
Resolution
that
never
fails
'em
;
so
that
if
you
can
consent
to
marry
another
,
it
must
be
your
Heart
only
that
I
must
accuse
.
Woe
is
me
!
what
Promises
did
she
not
make
to
her
Lover
.
'
You
shall
first
see
,
(
said
she
)
our
Lambs
keep
Correspondence
with
the
Wolves
,
our
Rivolets
flow
back
toward
their
Fountains
,
and
the
green
Meadows
remove
to
the
Tops
of
our
Hills
,
before
thou
see'st
me
ty'd
to
any
other
but
thy self
,
my
dear
Acanthus
.
Set
thy
Heart
at
rest
;
since
certainly
there
needs
no
more
then
only
Love
,
to
prevent
the
Sacrifice
to
which
I
am
design'd
;
and
of
that
assuredly
I
have
enough
to
preserve
me
all
my
Life
.
Now
who
but
would
have
given
Credit
to
Promises
so
often
repeated
!
In
the
mean
time
,
the
Shepherd
was
under
a
severe
Necessity
to
leave
his
Amarillis
.
He
went
into
a
Countrey
remote
from
his
own
;
he
was
absent
near
a
Month
;
but
oh
!
how
fatal
did
that
Month
prove
to
him
!
accursed
Month
,
that
ought'st
to
be
obliterated
out
of
the
number
of
Months
;
the
dismal
Month
wherein
Acanthus
lost
his
youthfull
Amarillis
;
wherein
,
I
say
,
that
Shepherdess
consented
to
marry
another
,
and
brake
her
Promise
to
the
most
Affectionate
of
Lovers
.
As
he
read
those
Words
,
and
cast
his
Eyes
from
time
to
time
upon
me
,
he
observ'd
how
the
Tears
ran
from
my
Eyes
in
Rivolets
;
for
alas
!
I
knew
him
but
too
well
:
and
yet
I
durst
not
look
upon
him
.
I
lamented
my
own
Misfortune
and
his
Afflictions
:
I
was
afraid
of
his
Life
in
so
dangerous
a
Place
.
I
admir'd
the
Force
of
his
Love
,
and
the
more
daring
I
found
him
,
the
more
my
Gratitude
mov'd
me
,
and
the
greater
was
my
delight
to
see
him
.
My
Reason
and
my
Vertue
were
equally
alarum'd
;
nothing
can
express
the
Agitations
of
my
Soul
,
nor
the
Confusion
of
my
Thoughts
,
and
the
Marquis
began
to
perceive
the
Uproar
in
my
Breast
,
and
I
was
no
less
sensible
that
he
had
discovered
it
,
when
our
Looks
became
so
tender
and
so
languishingly
Talkative
,
that
he
could
no
longer
resist
that
vehement
Ardour
which
enflam'd
his
Breast
.
His
Voice
grew
saint
,
and
like
a
Person
in
a
pleasant
Extasie
,
was
about
to
have
thrown
himself
at
my
feet
,
in
the
dangerous
Presence
of
Don
Bertrand
,
at
what
time
he
wak'd
,
and
seeing
the
Book
wherein
Constance
read
was
fallen
down
,
he
ask'd
her
why
she
did
not
read
on
?
To
which
she
reply'd
,
as
much
discompos'd
as
you
could
imagine
her
to
be
,
that
I
fell
asleep
,
and
that
she
was
afraid
to
disturb
me
with
her
reading
.
All
this
while
I
was
ruminating
what
to
say
to
the
Marquis
in
my
own
Justification
,
and
how
to
clear
my self
from
those
Reproaches
which
he
threw
upon
me
,
under
the
Name
of
Acanthus
:
and
because
I
knew
that
whatever
I
should
say
of
a
Shepherd
,
or
whatever
I
read
of
the
Wars
of
Grenada
,
Don
Bertrand
had
not
Sence
enough
to
understand
it
,
I
took
the
Book
out
of
the
Marquis's
Hands
,
and
addressing
my self
to
my
Brother-in-Law
,
I
am
apt
to
flatter
my self
,
(
said
I
,
)
that
I
read
very
well
;
now
you
shall
be
Judge
,
who
reads
best
,
Constance
or
I.
The
Shepherdess
Amarillis's
ANSWER
to
the
young
Acanthus
.
FOrbear
Unjust
Shepherd
,
forbear
accusing
Amarillis
;
she
is
Unfortunate
,
but
not
Guilty
;
she
loves
thee
too
well
,
for
thee
to
Complain
of
her
Affection
.
Alas
!
didst
thou
but
know
what
Violence
has
been
made
use
of
to
Sacrifice
her
,
thou
would'st
bestow
more
Tears
upon
her
Misfortune
,
then
thou
hast
cast
Reproaches
upon
her
pretended
Inconstancy
.
Know'st
thou
,
dear
Acanthus
,
know'st
thou
the
inviolable
Rigour
of
that
Destiny
,
that
has
bound
us
in
an
Eternal
Obligation
to
a
Person
more
Odious
to
us
,
then
the
Grave
it self
?
Canst
thou
conceive
the
deplorable
Estate
of
a
Heart
,
when
all
inflam'd
with
a
violent
Passion
,
which
it
thought
no
Crime
,
and
to
which
it
wholly
had
abandon'd
it self
,
it
must
be
of
a
sudden
torn
from
the
Object
which
it
Loves
,
and
deliver'd
to
another
which
it
mortally
Hates
?
What
gloomy
Days
,
what
melancholly
Nights
for
that
unhappy
Shepherdess
!
It
seems
to
her
as
if
all
her
Lambs
were
become
Wolves
;
the
Nightingal's
amorous
Note
is
a
trouble
to
her
;
the
Sun
displays
his
Beams
not
for
a
Blessing
upon
her
,
as
upon
other
Mortals
;
she
dares
not
approach
the
Chrystal
Fountains
,
for
fear
of
pudling
the
Waters
with
her
Tears
:
The
full-blown
Flowers
no
sooner
touch
her
Bosome
,
but
their
Orient
Colours
wither
;
scorch'd
up
with
the
Flames
that
consume
it
.
She
calls
Acanthus
in
the
dreary
Woods
,
and
among
the
Rocks
,
when
Eccho
,
the
inconstant
Eccho
,
in
vain
repeats
that
too
delightful
Name
to
the
distressed
Shepherdess's
Memory
.
She
wasts
her
Days
in
frightful
Solitude
,
and
seeing
thus
her
Languishing
Life
consume
away
,
she
Devotes
it
to
her
Duty
,
and
looks
upon
her self
as
a
Victim
that
is
going
to
Dye
in
the
Arms
of
Vertue
,
and
—
Breathing
out
those
last
Words
,
my
Heart
began
to
swell
to
that
Degree
,
that
my
Utterance
fail'd
me
;
I
let
the
Book
fall
,
and
feigning
to
be
troubl'd
with
Vapours
,
I
sank
down
upon
the
Couch
,
and
immediately
after
return'd
to
my
Closet
half
dead
.
There
I
threw
my self
upon
the
Bed
,
and
gave
my
Tears
their
free
Course
,
which
before
I
was
constrain'd
to
hold
in
.
What
shall
I
do
!
(
cry'd
I
,
all
in
Lamentation
,
)
what
shall
I
doe
!
Ought
I
to
endure
so
near
me
a
Person
that
loves
me
to
that
degree
,
as
to
out-brave
all
Dangers
that
both
accompany
and
attend
an
Enterprize
so
bold
and
daring
as
this
?
And
granting
also
,
that
no
Person
in
the
World
should
know
it
,
woe
is
me
!
is
it
not
too
too
much
that
I
know
it
?
I
that
prefer
my
Duty
above
my
Repose
;
I
that
have
endeavour'd
from
time
to
time
to
banish
this
Lover
from
my
Heart
;
I
that
have
stood
more
nicely
upon
Delicacy
and
Scruple
then
I
was
oblig'd
to
do
?
Ought
I
to
renounce
my
Honour
,
to
listen
to
the
most
dangerous
of
all
the
Passions
?
Shall
I
resolve
to
speak
to
him
,
after
his
Rashness
has
engag'd
him
in
such
a
Piece
of
Imprudence
as
this
?
Ought
I
not
rather
to
make
him
sensible
of
my
Resentment
,
to
avoid
him
,
to
bid
him
be
gone
,
and
terrifie
him
with
my
Anger
,
if
he
refuses
to
obey
me
?
My
Heart
successfully
struggl'd
with
such
a
cruel
Resolution
;
and
never
as
it
seem'd
to
me
,
did
any
Person
meet
with
juster
Reasons
,
or
more
prevalent
,
in
favour
of
the
Marquis
,
then
Love
at
that
time
furnish'd
me
withal
.
But
,
at
length
the
Fear
that
I
was
in
of
his
Life
,
considering
the
Consequences
of
this
Adventure
,
and
the
dread
of
seeing
him
assassinated
before
my
Eyes
,
over-whelm'd
my
inclinations
.
I
rose
with
an
intention
,
to
write
him
an
Order
to
depart
;
at
what
time
my
Tears
almost
oblitterated
the
Characters
which
I
writ
;
I
made
a
stop
at
every
Word
,
and
fetch'd
such
doleful
Sighs
,
as
would
have
melted
my
most
cruel
Enemies
into
Compassion
.
All
this
while
,
Don
Bertrand
was
retir'd
to
his
Apartment
,
and
had
left
Constance
in
the
Anti-Chamber
,
where
he
was
no
less
turmoil'd
with
a
Thousand
tumultuous
Thoughts
,
then
I
tormented
and
perplex'd
,
as
you
have
heard
.
But
Love
at
last
,
surmounting
his
Fear
of
displeasing
me
,
he
approach'd
my
Cabinet
,
and
opening
the
Door
with
a
trembling
Hand
,
he
had
thrown
himself
already
at
my
Feet
,
before
I
perceiv'd
him
;
and
,
I
was
so
beside
my self
,
in
such
a
deep
amaze
,
that
I
beheld
him
,
without
being
able
to
utter
one
Word
.
I
come
(
said
he
)
ingrateful
Teresa
,
I
come
to
die
at
your
Feet
,
and
to
upbraid
ye
before
I
die
,
with
your
Inconstancy
and
my
Unhappiness
.
You
have
broken
your
Word
,
you
have
forsaken
a
Person
who
adores
yee
.
Cruel
Woman
!
was
it
to
have
the
Pleasure
of
making
a
more
glorious
Sacrifice
to
another
,
that
you
so
wrought
your self
into
my
tenderest
Affection
.
Ah
—
Sir
,
you
are
too
severe
(
cry'd
I
,
interrupting
him
)
how
terribly
do
your
Suspitions
injure
me
!
Could
ye
believe
me
subject
to
change
,
that
had
,
for
so
long
time
,
sincerely
lov'd
ye
?
Was
it
possible
,
that
I
could
,
all
of
a
sudden
,
derogate
from
those
Sentiments
of
Kindness
,
which
took
root
within
me
,
before
I
knew
my self
?
Well
—
since
I
must
tell
it
yee
,
know
the
whole
force
of
our
common
Misfortune
;
know
that
I
am
still
as
much
yours
,
as
I
was
then
,
when
you
were
most
satisfy'd
with
the
reality
of
my
Heart
.
't
is
not
I
that
have
forsaken
yee
;
no
—
Sir
,
I
would
have
sooner
renounc'd
my
Life
.
But
't
was
my
Father
Sacrific'd
me
;
't
was
he
himself
that
stabb'd
the
Dagger
in
my
Breast
,
and
,
at
the
same
time
that
I
lay
almost
Breathless
in
my
Mother's
Arms
,
gave
my
Hand
into
Don
Gaspar's
.
You
have
lost
the
Hope
,
't
is
true
,
of
being
my
Husband
,
and
I
have
lost
the
joy
and
sweetness
of
my
Life
.
The
only
Desires
that
were
most
grateful
to
my
Heart
,
are
now
forbid
me
.
Good
God!
how
different
are
our
Conditions
!
You
can
still
hunt
after
me
,
still
love
me
,
and
still
dare
to
tell
me
so
;
you
can
bemoan
your self
,
and
sigh
;
but
this
in
me
,
is
all
a
kind
of
Petty-Treason
.
My
Tears
are
become
Criminal
;
your
presence
can
no
longer
be
a
Blessing
to
me
:
I
must
avoid
and
flye
the
sight
of
ye
;
and
it
behoves
me
to
give
to
another
,
a
Heart
that
pays
no
Homage
,
but
only
to
your self
;
a
Heart
so
faithful
to
yee
,
that
I
always
find
it
revolted
from
its
Duty
,
and
still
preserving
so
lively
,
and
so
charming
an
Idea
of
your
Vertues
,
that
it
infuses
into
me
a
most
terrible
Aversion
for
Don
Gaspar
:
't
is
you
that
reign
most
powerfully
in
my
Soul
:
My
Honour
suffers
for
it
,
and
these
are
here
the
last
Sighs
,
that
I
must
allow
to
my
Misfortunes
.
While
thus
I
surrender'd
my self
up
to
all
the
Transports
of
my
Tenderness
,
the
Marquis
prostrate
at
my
Knees
,
with
his
Eyes
wishfully
fix'd
upon
mine
,
pour'd
forth
a
showre
of
Tears
into
my
Hands
,
and
discovering
to
me
in
his
Looks
,
all
that
the
most
passionate
and
submissive
Love
could
inspire
into
him
,
Ah
Madam
,
(
cry'd
he
)
is
it
true
that
your
Heart
has
been
so
Faithful
to
me
,
as
you
would
persuade
me
,
and
that
yet
you
should
be
enjoy'd
by
any
other
but
my self
?
And
will
you
not
permit
me
to
revenge
my self
upon
the
Treacherous
Ravisher
of
a
Blessing
,
which
your
Desires
appointed
for
me
?
Whatever
it
may
cost
me
to
Unite
us
,
can
you
think
any
Thing
impossible
on
that
Condition
?
Permit
me
to
purchase
yee
with
the
Price
of
Danger
,
and
then
you
'll
be
my
own
.
Benavidez
thinks
me
departed
for
Flanders
,
but
I
can
soon
return
to
Madrid
,
there
to
meet
him
,
and
attack
him
;
and
you
may
be
certain
,
that
my
Arm
,
assisted
by
your
Vows
,
will
prove
Victorious
:
And
indeed
,
I
had
long
since
chastiz'd
his
bold
Pretentions
,
but
that
I
waited
for
your
Permission
.
I
had
enough
to
do
to
employ
all
the
Power
I
had
over
the
Marquis
,
to
divert
him
from
so
terrible
a
Design
.
For
I
was
forc'd
to
lay
before
him
the
Concerns
of
my
Honour
,
and
the
inevitable
Consequences
of
my
Father's
furious
Prosecutions
,
before
I
could
persuade
him
to
obey
me
.
How
Charmingly
(
my
dearest
Eleonora
)
we
pass
away
the
time
,
when
we
spend
it
with
those
we
Love
,
and
after
a
long
Separation
,
and
a
thousand
Torments
suffer'd
,
we
meet
again
with
the
same
mutual
Tenderness
and
Fidelity
!
My
Soul
was
Ravish'd
with
a
thousand
Sweetnesses
upon
the
sight
of
the
Marquis
,
and
his
Looks
were
very
near
as
Weeping-ripe
and
Languishing
as
mine
,
when
of
a
sudden
,
a
slight
glimpse
of
Reason
reduc'd
me
to
my
Duty
.
How
is
it
possible
(
said
I
)
for
me
to
abide
so
long
in
your
Company
,
or
indeed
,
to
suffer
ye
so
long
in
my
Presence
?
For
the
sake
of
our
Affection
,
Sir
,
no
longer
alarum
my
Vertue
;
be
gone
forsake
a
Person
too
Unfortunate
to
enjoy
without
Disturbance
the
Pleasure
of
your
Society
.
'
Depart
!
Madam
,
(
cry'd
the
Marquis
,
interrupting
her
)
is
it
possible
for
me
to
leave
yee
so
soon
,
and
after
I
have
ventur'd
thus
far
too
?
Never
envy
me
the
sad
Consolation
of
Weeping
at
your
Feet
;
let
my
Sorrows
have
their
free
Course
.
In
that
,
let
us
be
equal
Sharers
;
this
is
all
that
I
desire
,
and
a
very
small
Request
too
,
for
a
Man
that
Adores
yee
,
and
whom
you
have
render'd
so
unhappy
.
I
should
tyre
your
Patience
(
my
dear
Eleonora
)
should
I
repeat
the
Importunities
he
us'd
to
persuade
me
to
let
him
stay
with
me
Seven
or
Eight
Days
.
He
lay'd
before
me
the
jealousie
which
such
a
hasty
Departure
might
create
,
as
well
in
my
Brother's
,
as
my
Husband's
Head
;
and
I
,
on
the
other
side
,
consider'd
all
the
Consequences
:
At
what
time
,
I
readily
saw
,
it
was
to
hazard
my
own
Ruine
,
if
I
did
not
send
away
the
Person
with
whom
I
lov'd
to
converse
above
all
Men
in
the
World
,
and
whose
Presence
I
had
purchas'd
at
the
Expence
of
my
Life
.
But
at
last
,
finding
my
Ruine
lay
at
Stake
,
whether
I
kept
him
or
let
him
go
,
I
rather
chose
to
prefer
my
Duty
before
my
Satisfaction
,
and
to
be
ruin'd
Innocent
,
then
to
suffer
Guilty
.
But
notwithstanding
that
this
Resolution
extreamly
griev'd
the
Marquis
,
he
could
not
forbear
to
admire
it
,
and
the
Effect
which
it
wrought
in
his
Heart
,
visibly
shew'd
me
,
that
Vertue
had
Allurements
no
less
powerful
then
those
of
Beauty
;
and
that
the
surest
way
to
be
passionately
belov'd
,
is
to
be
truly
valuable
.
But
we
found
a
great
deal
of
Difficulty
in
framing
the
Pretence
for
our
Separation
.
I
also
agreed
,
that
't
was
Convenient
to
let
the
Marquis
stay
some
few
Days
with
me
,
but
upon
Condition
,
that
he
should
not
seek
for
any
more
favourable
Opportunities
to
Discourse
me
alone
;
and
that
he
should
feign
to
have
receiv'd
a
Letter
from
Madrid
,
which
oblig'd
him
to
return
with
all
speed
.
When
the
Marquis
had
promis'd
the
performance
of
all
that
I
desir'd
from
him
,
I
left
him
,
believing
it
would
be
the
last
time
in
my
Life
,
that
I
should
ever
see
him
;
and
we
parted
with
such
a
tender
and
mournful
Adieu
,
that
every
time
I
think
of
it
,
't
is
a
wonder
to
me
how
I
surviv'd
it
.
't
was
late
,
and
I
went
to
Bed
,
so
soon
as
Constance
was
gone
out
of
my
Closet
;
but
all
that
Night
,
such
were
the
continual
Agitations
of
my
Thoughts
and
Reason
,
such
the
Combats
between
my
Honour
and
Affection
,
as
are
beyond
your
Imagination
.
My
Heart
and
my
Reason
,
my
Love
and
my
Duty
,
put
me
upon
a
most
cruel
Rack
;
and
I
arose
as
soon
as
Day-light
appear'd
,
still
more
uncertain
what
it
became
me
to
do
,
then
I
was
at
the
beginning
of
the
Night
.
Hardly
had
Aurora
given
way
to
the
Sun's
more
resplendent
Rays
,
but
I
went
forth
in
search
of
Solitude
among
the
Woods
,
to
give
my
restless
Sorrows
vent
,
and
after
I
had
try'd
a
Thousand
turnings
and
windings
,
at
length
I
flung
my self
into
a
Labyrinth
,
in
the
middle
of
which
,
there
was
a
small
Island
,
environ'd
with
a
deep
Canal
,
which
,
when
't
is
thought
convenient
,
renders
that
Island
inaccessible
,
by
drawing
up
the
Bridge
that
leads
into
it
:
That
Bridge
,
so
soon
as
I
was
on
the
other
side
,
I
drew
up
,
the
better
to
secure
my
Lamentations
from
being
interrupted
.
But
I
was
strangely
surpriz'd
,
when
going
to
sit
me
down
under
an
Arbour
of
Woodbine
and
Jessamine
Flowers
,
so
thick
,
as
made
it
impenetrable
to
the
Sun
,
I
found
lying
upon
a
Bank
of
Turf
,
the
Marquis
,
led
accidentally
,
by
his
dozing
Meditations
,
to
the
same
Place
.
I
was
about
to
have
avoided
him
,
so
soon
as
I
saw
him
;
but
he
fell
at
my
Knees
,
held
me
by
the
Gown
,
and
with
his
Eyes
bath'd
in
Tears
,
Ah
,
Madam
!
(
said
he
)
is
it
not
enough
,
in
the
height
of
your
Indignation
,
to
have
banish'd
me
your
Presence
?
will
you
likewise
envy
me
a
Happiness
that
Fortune
presents
me
?
And
will
you
disdain
to
cast
one
Look
upon
the
most
Affectionate
,
and
most
Submissive
of
all
your
Lovers
?
'
And
do's
it
become
me
,
(
answer'd
I
)
to
condescend
to
an
Accident
,
that
brings
yee
where
I
am
alone
,
in
a
Place
so
far
remote
from
People
?
Do
not
you
consider
how
much
I
prize
my
Honour
,
and
how
much
I
am
become
a
Slave
to
my
Duty
?
Upon
those
Words
,
I
cast
my
Eyes
upon
him
;
and
finding
my self
begin
to
melt
,
I
order'd
him
to
rise
and
be
gone
.
Upon
which
he
redoubl'd
his
Prayers
and
his
Importunities
to
stay
some
few
Minutes
with
me
:
And
,
I
must
confess
,
I
had
something
of
a
Secret
Apprehension
within
me
,
that
the
Reason
why
I
did
not
repeat
my
Orders
for
him
to
depart
,
was
only
because
I
was
assur'd
he
would
not
Obey
me
:
And
his
Reluctancy
to
submit
,
bewitched
me
with
new
Spells
;
besides
,
that
his
Maiden
Habit
,
which
deluded
my
Eyes
,
without
deceiving
my
Heart
,
render'd
me
less
fearful
to
look
upon
him
,
and
more
bold
to
stay
with
him
in
a
lonely
Place
.
You
cannot
imagine
how
exceedingly
this
Disguise
became
him
:
I
never
had
so
many
Minutes
of
Content
together
,
in
my
Life
.
But
after
my
Tears
and
Sighs
,
which
only
real
Lovers
know
the
Price
of
,
I
return'd
to
my
Duty
,
and
made
use
of
all
my
Authority
over
him
,
to
counterfeit
the
same
Day
,
a
Letter
from
Madrid
,
by
which
he
understood
,
that
his
Mother
lay
a
Dying
,
and
long'd
to
see
him
before
she
Expir'd
,
and
,
that
he
should
shew
the
Letter
to
my
Brother
.
And
here
you
shall
see
how
whimsically
,
and
yet
how
dangerously
Fortune
sported
with
our
Miseries
.
Don
Bertrand
,
who
had
never
been
in
Love
,
and
yet
was
surpriz'd
with
Constantia's
Beauty
,
from
the
first
time
that
he
had
seen
her
,
not
knowing
what
Course
to
take
to
discover
his
Passion
,
was
desirous
either
to
extinguish
his
Love
,
or
else
to
see
it
well
settl'd
in
his
Heart
,
that
he
might
not
discover
a
piece
of
Folly
,
that
might
redound
to
his
Shame
.
But
his
Prudence
was
at
a
Plunge
upon
reading
the
Letter
which
Dona
Constantia
and
I
had
contriv'd
.
He
could
not
think
,
without
being
strook
with
a
more
then
ordinary
Grief
,
that
he
was
going
to
lose
a
Person
that
began
,
already
,
to
be
dearer
to
him
,
then
all
the
young
Lasses
he
had
ever
seen
.
Why
how
now
,
fair
Constantia
,
(
said
he
)
did
you
come
hither
only
to
leave
behind
yee
an
eternal
Sorrow
for
your
Departure
.
What
will
Dona
Teresa
do
,
whose
Reluctancy
,
to
entertain
yee
when
once
I
found
the
way
to
overcome
,
was
so
well
pleas'd
,
that
she
could
not
be
without
your
Service
?
Where
will
she
find
such
another
Person
,
so
witty
,
so
amiable
;
and
that
understands
so
well
to
perform
those
Duties
,
for
which
my
Brother
sent
yee
to
wait
upon
her
?
He
'll
believe
't
was
the
bad
Entertainment
which
we
gave
yee
,
that
made
yee
leave
us
so
of
a
suddain
?
Besides
,
he
seems
so
taken
with
ye
,
by
the
Letters
that
you
brought
me
from
him
,
that
I
am
certain
,
't
will
be
a
great
Satisfaction
to
him
,
to
meet
yee
here
again
at
his
Return
.
What
benefit
can
you
expect
by
your
Journey
?
For
either
your
Mother
is
already
dead
,
or
else
the
danger
that
threatned
her
,
is
by
this
time
past
.
Stay
here
therefore
,
fair
Constantia
,
and
that
your
Heart
may
be
at
rest
,
I
'll
send
a
Messenger
away
Post
,
on
purpose
to
Madrid
,
to
wait
upon
my
Brother
,
and
bring
yee
News
of
your
Mother
.
He
accompany'd
his
Words
with
such
a
passionate
Air
,
and
beheld
her
all
the
while
,
with
such
a
sparkling
Fire
in
his
Eyes
,
that
it
might
have
been
easie
for
the
Marquis
to
have
unravell'd
the
Reason
,
why
he
oppos'd
his
Departure
,
could
such
an
Extravagant
Amour
have
enter'd
his
Thoughts
.
He
rose
the
next
Morning
by
break
of
Day
,
thinking
to
find
me
out
in
the
Wood
where
we
saw
each
other
the
Night
before
,
and
to
give
me
an
Account
of
the
Opposition
which
my
Brother-in-Law
made
to
his
Departure
.
But
he
was
strangely
surpriz'd
,
when
opening
his
Chamber
Door
,
he
perceiv'd
Don
Bertrand
,
who
delivering
him
a
Letter
,
I
told
yee
Yesterday
,
(
said
he
)
that
we
should
,
it
may
be
,
hear
News
from
Madrid
;
and
here
is
some
directed
to
your self
:
Read
the
Contents
,
and
then
tell
me
,
whether
I
have
no
Reason
to
be
desirous
to
detain
yee
.
The
Terror
and
Surprize
,
wherewith
these
Words
o'erwhelm'd
the
Marquis
,
were
like
so
many
Daggers
sticking
in
his
Heart
:
He
stood
in
an
amaze
,
how
it
was
possible
that
the
Place
of
his
Retirement
should
be
discover'd
at
Madrid
;
and
all
the
dreadful
Mischiefs
that
were
likely
to
attend
his
fatal
Discovery
,
presented
themselves
in
a
full
croud
before
his
Eyes
.
He
open'd
the
Letter
,
rather
like
a
Man
without
Motion
,
then
a
living
Creature
.
But
he
was
as
much
at
ease
as
before
surpriz'd
,
when
he
found
it
to
be
a
Protestation
of
his
Love
which
Don
Bertrand
had
Endited
;
and
I
wish
I
could
have
kept
it
to
have
made
yee
Laugh
.
But
do
you
imagine
what
a
Man
that
had
liv'd
Forty
Years
without
the
taste
of
Love
,
a
dull
Soul
,
and
one
that
had
never
any
Knowledge
of
the
World
could
write
,
the
first
time
that
ever
he
felt
himself
enamour'd
.
I
remember
he
concluded
with
Three
Verses
of
a
French
Poet
,
which
Constantia
had
read
to
me
the
Evening
before
,
and
which
t
were
more
proper
for
his
turn
,
then
he
thought
for
.
Consider
that
to
you
I
speak
a
Language
New
;
Reject
not
then
the
Vows
,
Tho'
ill
exprest
they
be
,
Which
Bertrand
ne'er
had
made
,
had
it
not
been
for
thee
.
There
was
so
much
of
Ridiculousness
in
this
Adventure
,
that
the
Marquis
could
not
forbear
to
burst
out
into
a
Laughter
.
He
never
expected
that
his
Female
Habit
would
have
got
him
a
Sweetheart
.
However
these
Amours
of
Don
Bertrand
flatter'd
him
with
several
charming
Idea's
,
in
hopes
of
staying
longer
with
me
;
and
he
made
hast
to
the
Wood
to
tell
me
the
Story
.
I
have
receiv'd
a
Letter
,
(
said
he
,
accoasting
me
)
which
I
never
dream'd
of
in
the
least
.
'
Good
God!
from
whom
?
(
cry'd
I
,
in
a
terrible
Fright
,
)
Who
knows
that
you
are
here
?
'
Don
Bertrand
knows
it
,
(
said
he
,
with
a
Smile
)
see
there
what
he
has
written
.
With
that
,
I
could
not
chuse
but
laugh
my self
at
such
a
conceited
Piece
of
Extravagance
.
But
presently
after
reflecting
upon
the
unlucky
Consequences
it
might
produce
,
Alas
,
(
said
I
,
)
dear
Marquis
,
what
Misfortune
is
like
to
ours
!
'
Don
Bertrand
enamour'd
of
Dona
Constantia
,
will
,
it
may
be
,
obstruct
your
Departure
;
he
will
disturb
those
few
remaining
Minutes
left
us
to
enjoy
each
other
;
and
this
last
Unhappiness
is
a
fresh
Motive
for
me
to
press
your
leaving
me
:
Be
gone
with
speed
,
and
above
all
things
flye
my
Brother's
Company
.
Love
has
rendered
him
now
quick-sighted
,
and
by
often
conversing
with
ye
,
he
may
chance
to
detect
what
neither
of
us
would
have
him
know
.
All
this
while
Don
Bertrand
was
in
a
heavy
toss
about
the
Success
of
his
Poetry
;
and
it
was
easie
for
him
to
see
,
that
Constantia
was
very
shye
of
being
alone
with
him
.
He
had
observ'd
that
she
always
follow'd
me
,
when
I
went
to
walk
in
the
Wood
,
with
a
Book
in
her
hand
,
and
he
was
still
at
her
heels
,
for
two
whole
days
together
.
But
Constantia
still
shunning
him
with
more
care
then
he
pursu'd
her
with
Diligence
,
he
resolv'd
to
make
use
of
a
Stratagem
to
engage
her
in
such
a
manner
,
that
she
should
not
be
able
to
defend
her self
from
conversing
with
him
face
to
face
.
He
borrow'd
one
of
my
Women's
Gowns
,
under
pretence
that
a
Lady
in
the
Neighbourhood
had
a
desire
to
see
it
:
and
in
regard
he
is
but
a
little
Man
,
and
for
that
our
Mantles
easily
cover
the
Defects
of
Stature
,
he
disguis'd
himself
the
next
morning
,
and
as
soon
as
day
appear'd
went
and
sate
himself
down
by
a
Fountain
,
to
which
I
resorted
more
then
to
any
other
place
;
not
doubting
but
that
Dona
Constantia
being
deluded
by
his
Habit
,
would
come
to
him
,
and
then
he
should
have
an
Opportunity
to
unfold
his
Mind
,
and
discourse
her
about
his
Love
.
To
which
purpose
he
had
contriv'd
a
Trick
to
keep
me
musing
in
my
Chamber
much
longer
then
I
was
accustom'd
to
stay
.
Nor
had
he
sate
long
by
the
Fountain
,
before
Constantia
appear'd
with
a
Book
in
her
hand
;
but
Good
God!
how
dear
had
that
same
unlucky
Disguise
like
to
have
cost
us
!
for
the
Marquis
wondring
that
I
did
not
turn
about
when
I
heard
him
approach
,
Lord
!
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
will
the
sight
of
me
always
incense
your
Indignation
?
will
the
Zeal
with
which
I
serve
ye
,
never
vanquish
.
—
and
there
,
interrupting
himself
,
he
fell
at
my
Knees
,
and
with
some
Sighs
that
seem'd
to
beg
my
Pity
and
an
Eye
of
Favour
from
me
,
he
was
just
about
to
take
Don
Bertrand
by
the
hand
and
kiss
it
,
with
the
same
Tenderness
and
Transports
wherewith
he
wont
to
fix
his
Lips
upon
mine
;
and
all
our
Secrecies
had
like
to
have
been
surrender'd
up
to
the
Fury
of
two
Persons
implacably
jealous
,
when
by
a
Chance
to
which
I
owe
my
Life
,
I
happen'd
to
be
walking
toward
the
Fountain
,
and
talk'd
so
loud
,
admiring
at
the
Masquerade
which
surpriz'd
my
Eyes
,
that
Don
Bertrand
,
all
in
Confusion
and
Astonishment
betook
himself
to
flight
,
and
in
his
hast
discover'd
to
us
the
most
extravagant
Figure
that
ever
Mantle
cover'd
.
The
Novelty
of
the
Adventure
,
and
the
Part
which
Don
Bertrand
came
to
act
,
set
me
a
laughing
till
the
Tears
ran
down
my
Cheeks
;
while
the
Marquis
full
of
Terror
,
and
consideration
of
the
Danger
which
he
had
escap'd
,
stood
like
a
Statue
.
He
gave
me
an
account
of
the
perillous
Mistake
he
had
like
to
have
committed
;
and
after
he
had
assur'd
me
that
he
was
not
so
much
afraid
for
himself
as
for
me
,
and
how
little
he
valu'd
the
venturing
his
Life
to
purchase
the
Pleasure
of
my
Company
for
never
so
few
Minutes
,
he
would
fain
have
persuaded
me
,
that
we
might
make
an
Advantage
of
Don
Bertrand's
Passion
for
him
,
and
that
if
I
would
permit
him
to
manage
it
,
he
might
safely
remain
for
some
time
with
me
.
But
what
Authority
is
there
,
that
Duty
and
Honour
has
not
over
the
Mind
of
a
vertuous
Woman
?
The
more
easie
I
found
it
to
keep
the
Marquis
with
me
,
the
more
obstinate
was
I
to
have
him
gone
.
Cruel
Duty
!
that
hast
for
ever
separated
me
from
all
that
I
lov'd
in
this
World
!
At
length
,
we
agreed
upon
the
way
to
conceal
Constantia's
Departure
from
the
Vigilancy
and
Love
of
Don
Bertrand
;
and
the
surest
Expedient
was
to
take
the
Advantage
of
his
first
Distractions
,
and
to
get
away
before
he
had
leisure
to
recollect
himself
.
To
this
purpose
I
made
the
Marquis
promise
me
that
he
would
be
gone
before
day
;
and
it
was
in
vain
for
him
to
oppose
his
Love
against
that
rigorous
Command
:
pitiless
I
beheld
his
Sobs
and
Tears
.
All
that
he
could
obtain
of
me
was
,
that
I
would
take
a
Walk
at
night
,
by
Moon
light
in
the
same
Wood
where
we
had
already
met
so
many
times
,
and
that
he
might
come
thither
and
take
his
last
Leave
of
me
.
Permit
me
,
Madam
,
here
a
mournfull
Brevity
.
Never
was
there
in
the
World
so
tender
and
so
sensible
a
Parting
between
two
Friends
:
never
two
Hearts
so
perfectly
united
,
ever
felt
with
so
much
Anguish
,
the
severe
Necessity
of
a
Separation
.
I
flatter'd
my self
that
I
could
suppress
my
Despair
,
and
hide
it
at
the
Bottom
of
my
Heart
.
The
Marquis
also
promis'd
himself
the
same
Advantage
;
and
his
fear
to
augment
my
Sorrow
by
discovering
his
,
made
him
strive
with
all
the
Force
his
Courage
could
afford
him
.
But
how
little
are
we
the
Masters
of
our
Words
and
Looks
at
such
critical
Minutes
as
these
,
when
Lovers
may
be
said
to
labour
under
the
Pangs
of
Separation
.
I
suffer'd
him
to
be
a
Witness
of
the
wofull
Condition
to
which
he
had
reduc'd
my
Heart
;
and
he
disclos'd
to
me
the
terrible
Despair
with
which
my
Love
had
overwhelm'd
his
Soul
.
And
thus
we
bid
each
other
our
last
Adieu's
,
by
the
side
of
a
Rivolet
,
at
the
Bottom
of
a
Wood
.
From
that
time
forward
,
there
was
not
a
day
past
over
my
head
,
wherein
I
was
not
like
to
sink
under
the
weight
of
so
many
oppressive
Disasters
.
—
But
here
her
Sobs
and
Sighs
depriving
her
the
Freedom
of
her
Speech
,
and
altogether
unable
to
continue
her
Story
,
There
—
take
'em
—
(
said
she
,
to
the
fair
Eleonora
)
there
are
the
Letters
which
I
wrote
to
the
Marquis
,
at
the
time
I
was
a
Virgin
,
and
when
the
hopes
of
being
join'd
together
in
Wedlock
,
authoriz'd
my
Affection
for
him
.
I
had
thought
(
continu'd
she
)
to
have
read
'em
to
ye
my self
;
but
alas
!
my
Grief
will
not
permit
me
.
—
I
have
told
ye
enough
,
to
let
ye
see
how
miserable
I
am
,
and
that
all
my
Hope
is
in
the
end
of
my
unfortunate
Days
.
Dona
TERESA's
LETTERS
To
the
Marquis
of
MANSERA
.
LETTER
I.
I
Gave
Thanks
to
Fortune
,
for
having
depriv'd
me
of
my
Health
,
the
very
day
that
you
departed
.
For
indeed
what
use
could
I
have
made
of
it
?
since
without
you
,
there
is
no
more
Felicity
for
me
in
this
World
,
and
that
I
know
no
other
then
the
happiness
of
your
Company
.
Nevertheless
,
I
enjoy
it
not
,
but
am
constrain'd
to
live
far
sever'd
from
my
chiefest
Blessing
,
at
a
time
that
your
Presence
is
so
requisite
for
the
Consolation
of
my
past
Misfortunes
.
I
only
change
one
Misery
for
another
;
and
I
must
suffer
all
the
Pains
of
Love
,
that
ne'er
so
much
as
tasted
of
the
Sweets
.
LETTER
II
.
PErmit
me
to
begin
my
Letter
,
where
you
concluded
yours
,
and
as
a
Proof
that
you
look'd
not
on
me
with
an
Eye
of
Indifferency
,
to
require
yee
to
make
a
Truce
with
your
Sorrows
.
As
Just
as
they
may
be
,
they
never
can
be
Just
while
they
endure
so
long
.
't
is
the
fear
of
reinforcing
them
with
new
Supplies
,
that
has
hinder'd
me
from
letting
you
know
,
how
deeply
sensible
I
am
of
your
Misfortunes
.
I
can
Experimentally
imagine
the
Torments
,
to
which
a
Heart
is
expos'd
that
loses
what
it
Loves
.
This
Reflexion
has
produc'd
in
me
,
the
same
Effect
which
you
desire
,
and
was
your
business
,
only
to
discover
the
Honour
you
enjoy
,
to
have
infus'd
a
Passion
of
so
odd
a
Nature
,
that
she
who
has
Harbour'd
it
,
forgets
her
own
Interests
,
and
bewails
her
Rival
.
Nay
,
the
most
visible
Testimonies
of
the
force
of
Love
,
are
the
Sentiments
which
I
have
for
Dona
Elvira
.
My
Friend
can
assure
yee
,
that
she
saw
me
really
Afflicted
,
for
not
understanding
her
Distemper
soon
enough
,
to
have
made
her
take
a
Medicine
,
which
I
reckon
so
infallible
,
that
if
you
are
ever
sick
,
I
will
endeavour
,
you
shall
take
no
other
.
I
sent
yee
word
in
my
first
Letter
,
that
I
could
have
wish'd
my
Death
could
have
restor'd
her
to
Life
.
I
told
yee
then
no
more
then
what
is
true
;
and
you
will
say
so
too
,
when
I
assure
yee
,
that
if
you
could
not
,
for
the
future
,
be
happy
without
her
,
and
that
it
depended
upon
me
,
to
bring
her
to
this
Light
again
,
I
would
Sacrifice
,
not
only
a
Life
unfortunate
and
supported
with
feeble
Hopes
,
as
formerly
,
but
a
real
Happiness
,
and
my
Rights
,
almost
establish'd
,
over
your
heart
.
See
,
Sir
,
how
tenderly
you
are
belov'd
,
and
by
whom
it
is
,
that
you
deserve
to
be
so
.
LETTER
III
.
THo'
you
upbraid
me
to
have
been
Lazy
,
yet
I
rose
too
early
to
receive
a
Letter
,
such
as
yours
.
Never
fear
,
least
I
should
follow
your
Examples
or
that
I
do
not
think
I
have
a
Right
,
to
trouble
yee
incessantly
with
my
Sufferings
,
as
you
,
without
necessity
,
o'erwhelm
me
with
yours
.
You
are
much
more
afflicted
since
you
knew
me
,
then
when
I
was
a
Stranger
to
yee
.
't
is
a
great
Misfortune
indeed
,
to
be
belov'd
extreamly
by
a
Person
in
whom
there
is
not
any
thing
appears
Attractive
.
But
,
believe
me
,
Sir
,
't
is
a
more
cruel
Torment
,
not
to
be
able
neither
to
surcease
a
Passionate
Love
,
nor
quit
an
irksome
Life
,
and
yet
to
have
so
many
Reasons
to
desire
both
the
one
and
the
other
.
I
have
not
shewn
your
Letter
to
my
Friend
;
for
I
am
more
Vainglorious
,
then
she
is
Discreet
.
LETTER
IV
.
SInce
I
receiv'd
your
Last
,
what
would
I
give
,
that
the
Letter
which
I
wrote
the
Day
before
Yesterday
,
were
not
come
to
your
Hands
.
How
afraid
am
I
,
least
it
may
have
displeas'd
yee
,
and
that
you
will
not
Forgive
me
for
writing
it
.
There
is
nothing
that
I
would
not
do
to
obtain
your
Pardon
.
However
,
grant
it
me
,
I
conjure
yee
,
by
her
you
have
so
tenderly
ador'd
.
How
much
to
blame
was
I
for
writing
it
!
Despite
and
Pride
but
ill
become
the
Unfortunate
.
But
what
do
I
say
?
I
am
not
so
—
th'
obliging
Expressions
in
your
Letter
,
begin
to
change
my
Fortune
.
I
never
yet
push'd
forward
my
Pretentions
so
far
,
as
e'er
to
think
of
winning
your
Affection
.
I
know
too
well
my self
,
Love
is
no
voluntary
Act.
I
never
aspir'd
to
more
then
only
a
tender
Friendship
,
and
I
shall
deem
my self
most
infinitely
Happy
,
when
I
have
Reason
to
believe
I
have
attain'd
it
.
How
sensible
am
I
of
the
slightest
Expressions
of
Kindness
that
drop
from
your
Lips
!
and
what
a
Proof
of
a
real
Passion
is
that
sensibility
of
little
Things
.
Never
did
Woman
Love
,
as
I
Love
you
:
My
Sentiments
have
a
certain
Delicacy
unknown
to
any
other
but
my self
;
and
my
Heart
loves
more
in
one
Day
,
then
others
do
in
a●l
their
Lives
.
But
notwithstanding
all
this
,
I
Love
without
any
Hope
.
Certain
it
is
,
I
ne'er
expect
to
be
belov'd
by
you
;
and
I
deal
thus
severely
by
my self
,
that
you
may
not
appear
to
be
Unjust
.
LETTER
V.
I
Am
much
better
then
I
was
;
and
there
is
nothing
wanting
to
compleat
my
Cure
,
but
your
Presence
.
How
formidable
it
ought
to
be
to
me
,
and
yet
how
little
do
I
fear
it
!
Methinks
I
could
have
dispatch'd
the
whole
Affairs
of
a
Kingdom
,
in
the
time
you
have
been
gone
.
And
is
it
possible
you
should
have
any
other
business
now
,
then
by
main
force
to
wrest
your self
from
your
grasping
Discontents
?
for
the
Solitudes
you
haunt
,
infallibly
augment
'
em
.
Oh!
how
feelingly
did
that
Despair
,
wherein
you
appear'd
to
be
in
your
last
Letter
,
pierce
my
Heart
!
and
how
Sorry
am
I
,
that
't
is
not
in
my
Power
,
to
afford
yee
so
much
Comfort
,
as
might
persuade
yee
to
survive
the
only
Object
of
your
Love
and
Admiration
.
LETTER
VI
.
WIll
you
never
return
?
and
must
I
suffer
all
the
Racks
of
Love
,
before
I
taste
one
Morsel
of
the
Pleasures
of
it
?
Never
was
any
Adventure
more
cruel
,
or
more
extraordinary
then
mine
.
When
first
these
Eyes
beheld
yee
,
't
was
long
enough
to
infuse
a
violent
Passion
into
my
Heart
;
but
never
yet
I
saw
yee
long
enough
to
asswage
the
Pains
that
are
inseparable
from
it
.
LETTER
VII
.
I
Have
nothing
to
say
to
yee
concerning
that
same
Jealousie
,
which
you
seem
to
have
,
that
my
Wit
has
a
greater
share
in
what
I
write
to
yee
then
my
Heart
.
't
is
for
your
Merit
,
and
the
Sentiments
you
have
inspir'd
into
more
lovely
Persons
then
my self
,
to
be
answerable
for
the
Sincerity
of
mine
.
LETTER
VIII
.
YOu
give
me
too
many
Encomiums
;
tho'
I
cannot
bestow
too
many
upon
your
Heart
,
for
having
so
well
understood
what
was
contain'd
in
my
Letter
,
that
so
well
corresponded
with
it
.
How
greatly
soever
I
am
taken
with
your
Wit
,
it
is
not
that
which
pleases
me
;
't
is
your
Heart
that
I
would
move
;
't
is
that
alone
which
causes
my
Desires
,
and
it
is
mine
alone
that
dictates
what
I
write
.
I
would
never
Pardon
my self
,
for
believing
I
had
any
Wit
,
unless
it
were
to
shew
the
Abundance
of
my
Affection
.
Nor
have
you
testify'd
,
as
yet
,
so
much
for
me
,
as
now
I
find
in
the
Letter
which
I
receiv'd
this
Day
.
How
it
glads
my
Soul
,
to
see
ye
,
at
length
,
so
sensible
of
my
Sentiments
,
and
that
I
have
some
Hopes
to
expect
that
the
excess
of
my
Friendship
will
have
that
Power
over
yee
,
as
to
make
yee
forget
a
Person
much
more
amiable
then
my self
.
Is
it
true
that
I
inspire
yee
with
all
that
briskness
and
vivacity
of
Humour
,
that
appears
in
your
Letter
?
Am
I
become
so
happy
at
length
,
to
be
the
Cause
that
your
Inclination
surmounts
your
Acknowledgment
?
And
shall
I
then
behold
in
your
Eyes
,
those
charm●ng
,
and
those
lively
Marks
of
a
restless
Passion
,
that
enforce
Devotion
?
But
,
what
will
you
not
more
conspicuously
discern
in
mine
?
I
'm
sometimes
thinking
,
whether
't
were
not
better
for
me
to
conceal
'em
from
ye
.
No
,
—
no
,
—
I
ought
no
longer
to
be
thrifty
of
my
Favours
,
for
the
Marquis
loves
me
;
and
't
is
but
Just
,
you
should
enjoy
,
without
abatement
,
all
the
Sweetnesses
that
such
a
mutual
Tenderness
deserves
.
Oh!
how
Happy
would
you
be
,
if
once
your
Felicity
could
rely
upon
Love
!
But
wherefore
should
it
not
depend
upon
it
,
since
your
Heart
has
been
accustom'd
to
it
?
And
strange
it
were
,
that
I
should
force
yee
to
an
ill
conceit
of
Friendship
,
I
that
have
so
violent
a
Passion
for
yee
.
No
,
—
no
,
—
it
is
impossible
but
you
must
know
how
much
I
merit
the
whole
of
your
Esteem
,
since
my
Fidelity
and
Constancy
have
giv'n
me
those
Prerogatives
over
your
Heart
,
which
you
can
never
violate
.
LETTER
IX
.
YOu
complain
,
that
my
Letters
are
too
short
;
and
,
I
believ'd
it
proper
to
study
Excuses
for
making
'em
so
long
.
You
cannot
throw
upon
me
a
reproach
more
acceptable
to
me
,
and
more
dangerous
to
your self
.
For
should
I
once
imagine
my self
oblig'd
to
devote
my self
wholly
to
the
Pleasure
of
Writing
to
yee
,
I
should
enforce
yee
soon
to
recant
the
Imputation
you
have
laid
upon
me
.
LETTER
X.
I
Have
an
infinite
Honour
for
the
Dead
;
but
I
must
acknowledge
the
time
is
now
past
,
when
I
thought
'em
worthy
of
Envy
.
I
could
also
wish
,
that
I
had
no
more
to
do
with
'em
,
and
that
your
Heart
would
admit
a
new
Lodger
.
But
,
alas
!
this
is
a
ridiculous
Pretension
;
for
all
the
Kindness
that
you
have
for
me
,
is
only
a
bare
Remembrance
.
And
,
after
all
,
it
would
but
ill
become
me
,
to
be
so
uneasie
,
that
have
so
few
Attractives
to
recommend
me
.
LETTER
XI
.
't
is
too
much
to
Hope
from
my
Affection
for
yee
,
that
any
slight
Submissions
can
oblitterate
your
Infidelity
,
and
the
little
Respect
which
you
have
shewn
me
.
Too
well
I
Love
yee
,
ever
to
surcease
that
Love
.
I
have
already
told
yee
so
,
and
I
am
willing
to
tell
ye
so
agen
.
But
for
you
to
expect
I
should
devote
my self
so
entirely
to
my
Inclination
for
yee
,
as
to
a
Passion
,
that
my
Reason
,
and
my
Judgment
ought
to
approve
,
is
a
Mistake
,
with
which
I
would
not
have
yee
Flatter
your self
.
Your
Faults
,
in
reference
to
me
,
are
not
to
be
expiated
by
a
bare
Repentance
;
and
,
there
is
very
little
probability
,
that
any
Person
values
much
the
displeasing
of
his
Mistress
,
who
imposes
a
Rival
upon
her
.
I
knew
not
why
the
Letter
which
I
wrote
yee
should
be
so
offensive
;
or
,
wherefore
you
should
think
your
Honour
so
much
injur'd
by
it
.
Are
you
the
first
that
have
learn'd
to
reconcile
Infidelity
with
Merit
?
In
the
common
Course
of
Love
,
't
is
true
,
a
Man
that
has
no
other
bad
Qualities
but
that
of
Loving
in
more
then
one
Place
,
is
ne'er
a
whit
the
less
to
be
Esteem'd
in
the
Eye
of
the
World
;
only
,
he
is
more
unworthy
the
fix'd
Devotion
of
her
that
is
deceiv'd
,
especially
when
her
Love
is
so
Sincere
as
mine
.
I
observe
in
your
Letter
sent
me
this
Day
,
and
have
taken
notice
of
it
in
others
,
that
you
are
but
ill
inform'd
of
the
Condition
,
to
which
my
Parents
have
reduc'd
me
.
When
my
Behaviour
,
or
their
Jealousies
persuade
'em
,
that
they
have
Reason
to
be
offended
with
me
,
you
,
questionless
mistake
the
Account
I
send
you
of
it
,
as
if
I
sought
,
by
Aggravations
,
to
enhance
the
Merit
of
my
Sufferings
.
You
are
but
ill
acquainted
with
me
:
No
,
no
,
't
is
none
of
my
Character
,
to
dazle
Pity
with
long
Stories
of
the
Pains
and
Torments
,
with
which
the
Sentiments
of
my
Heart
afflict
me
.
Quite
the
contrary
,
I
have
always
endeavour'd
to
conceal
the
greatest
part
of
my
Misfortunes
from
yee
;
nor
would
I
say
so
much
,
at
present
,
of
my
Sufferings
,
did
I
believe
,
that
a
recital
of
my
Woes
would
discompose
your
Quiet
.
But
I
have
too
much
Reason
now
,
to
let
yee
know
,
that
in
the
World
there
is
not
a
more
miserable
Person
,
and
that
I
am
within
two
Fingers
breadth
of
being
confin'd
to
a
Cloyster
all
the
rest
of
my
Life
.
They
talk
of
nothing
here
but
of
immuring
me
,
and
causing
you
to
be
assassinated
.
Be
you
the
Judge
,
by
this
,
of
my
Misfortunes
,
and
learn
,
at
length
,
to
be
Sorry
for
me
.
LETTER
XII
.
MY
Heart
is
my
Witness
,
that
I
am
more
deeply
sensible
of
your
Sorrows
then
my
own
;
and
,
that
your
Yesterday's
Letter
has
made
a
more
cruel
Impression
upon
me
,
then
all
I
have
endur'd
this
Twelve-month
.
But
is
it
possible
that
you
should
give
your self
over
to
such
a
furious
Metancholly
?
Is
it
for
a
Young
Spark
,
so
tenderly
belov'd
,
to
know
the
meaning
of
Despair
?
Oh
,
Sir
,
believe
my
Words
;
there
's
no
Misfortune
brings
a
Person
sooner
to
Despair
,
then
really
to
Love
,
and
not
be
really
belov'd
agen
.
All
other
Miseries
have
their
proper
Remedies
.
Would
you
Poyson
the
Sweets
of
that
Liberty
which
I
begin
to
enjoy
,
with
killing
Griefs
?
Are
the
Crosses
of
Fortune
still
so
potent
,
as
to
master
your
Resolution
?
Are
they
to
be
compar'd
in
Value
,
with
a
Life
so
precious
as
yours
?
Nevertheless
if
yet
you
take
so
much
delight
in
Plaints
and
Lamentations
,
Moan
on
Sir
;
talk
,
without
ceasing
,
to
me
,
of
your
Misfortuness
,
and
never
mind
the
augmentation
of
my
Sorrows
,
by
the
rehearsal
of
your
Troubles
;
study
your
own
Content
in
your
Converse
.
't
is
true
,
I
reck'n
you
to
be
the
only
Comfort
of
my
Life
;
but
with
a
free
Consent
,
I
yield
,
that
you
should
still
neglect
my
Satisfaction
for
your
own
.
LETTER
XIII
.
THe
mourn●ul
Tone
which
you
reproach
me
with
in
your
Letters
,
and
thereby
render
ridiculous
the
Delicacy
of
my
Sentiments
,
so
deeply
wounds
my
Heart
,
that
I
would
stick
a
Dagger
in
it
,
did
I
but
think
my self
once
justly
provok'd
,
to
complain
of
your
Injustice
and
Perfidiousness
.
I
am
willing
my
Heart
should
understand
a
little
Pride
:
For
I
find
your
Cruelty
proceeds
only
from
my
Weakness
.
You
know
it
to
be
such
as
exposes
me
to
all
the
Acts
of
doting
Fondness
for
your
sake
.
Alas
!
I
know
it
but
too
well
my self
;
but
what
does
all
that
Knowledge
avail
me
?
It
augments
my
Misfortune
,
without
abating
my
Affection
;
and
I
find
too
too
apparently
,
that
I
must
be
still
a
Prey
to
a
most
violent
Passion
,
and
the
most
unjust
Lover
in
the
World
.
Yes
—
as
ingrateful
as
you
are
,
you
are
still
more
precious
to
me
then
my
Life
;
assure
my
Rival
of
it
.
For
that
Assurance
,
will
enhance
your
Merit
in
her
Esteem
,
and
magnifie
her
Triumphs
over
me
.
And
certainly
,
she
will
never
be
at
so
much
Liberty
,
to
make
this
serious
Reflexion
,
that
a
Man
,
who
fails
in
what
he
owes
to
Sentiments
like
mine
,
will
hardly
prove
constant
to
her
Charms
,
and
that
it
may
be
her
Destiny
one
Day
,
to
undergoe
the
same
hard
Fate
as
mine
:
Nor
can
she
be
prepar'd
for
it
too
soon
.
Adieu
,
Sir
;
I
never
dream
of
your
returning
more
to
me
;
or
that
you
should
believe
the
losing
me
deserv'd
a
single
Tear
;
and
I
should
be
a
Fool
,
if
I
expected
from
ye
the
least
Favour
that
might
promote
my
Satisfaction
.
LETTER
XIV
.
SInce
the
last
time
we
saw
each
other
,
you
have
been
always
present
in
my
Thoughts
both
day
and
night
.
Methinks
I
see
ye
,
and
talk
to
ye
,
and
I
lock
my self
up
in
my
Closet
all
day
long
,
avoiding
all
manner
of
Company
,
that
I
may
have
leisure
to
muse
only
upon
you
How
much
Reason
have
I
to
fear
,
that
you
more
pleasantly
consume
in
Company
,
and
divertisement
those
Hours
which
I
wast
in
dozing
only
on
Mansera's
Love
.
I
am
afraid
,
least
this
Letter
should
not
find
ye
within
:
I
am
afraid
least
you
should
throw
it
by
,
and
only
read
it
at
your
leisure
,
perhaps
some
Hours
after
you
receiv'd
it
.
In
short
,
I
fear
a
Thousand
Things
;
whereas
,
I
only
ought
to
fear
my
being
too
Prolix
,
and
shewing
too
much
Tenderness
to
a
Person
that
sent
me
,
but
this
Morning
,
such
a
cold
Epistle
.
LETTER
XV
.
I
Hear
,
for
some
Days
past
,
that
you
are
wholly
taken
up
with
your
Affairs
,
and
that
our
Conversation
is
no
more
a
part
of
your
Concerns
.
Cruel
Unkindness
!
ought
you
not
rather
to
think
,
that
you
commit
a
Crime
in
giving
me
Reason
to
dread
your
Passion
being
at
an
end
,
which
has
cost
me
so
many
showres
of
Tears
?
Why
must
I
still
be
in
doubt
of
being
belov'd
?
Ought
you
not
to
have
convinc'd
me
that
I
am
so
,
in
such
a
manner
,
that
I
might
not
always
live
in
tiresome
Uncertainty
?
But
that
which
I
require
of
you
,
compleats
the
Character
of
a
tender
and
passionate
Lover
,
and
I
can
never
think
that
you
were
either
one
or
t'other
,
in
reference
to
my self
.
How
blind
was
I
,
to
flatter
my self
,
that
e'er
your
Love
would
long
subsist
,
in
despite
of
Absence
,
and
those
Torments
,
with
which
Jealousie
intoxicates
us
!
Was
I
not
sufficiently
acquainted
with
your
Heart
,
to
know
,
that
it
requir'd
a
smooth
un-interrupted
Courtship
,
once
to
fix
it
!
Ah!
you
are
but
a
faithless
Lover
,
and
I
too
much
a
Fool
to
flatter
my self
one
Minute
,
that
e'er
you
lov'd
me
with
a
true
delicacy
of
Affection
.
Your
manner
of
Dealing
with
Dona
Elvira
,
ought
not
that
to
have
been
a
Warning
to
me
.
You
Courted
her
,
you
pay'd
her
Visits
every
Day
;
but
still
you
would
have
other
Business
while
she
liv'd
.
And
,
yet
I
could
persuade
my self
,
that
you
would
leave
off
all
Concerns
besides
,
and
sacrifice
'em
to
a
Lady
that
you
never
saw
,
and
for
whom
you
never
had
a
kindness
.
Certainly
,
I
had
lost
my
Senses
.
But
wherefore
do
those
cruel
Senses
return
again
?
or
,
Are
they
not
sufficiently
Powerful
to
stifle
my
Affection
?
I
have
omitted
nothing
for
several
Days
together
,
that
might
harden
my
Heart
against
yee
.
I
repeat
without
ceasing
to
my self
,
both
what
I
have
Suffer'd
for
yee
,
and
the
Usage
I
have
receiv'd
at
your
Hands
.
I
revolv'd
in
my
Mind
,
that
natural
,
tho'
unfortunate
Inclination
of
mine
,
that
has
embitter'd
all
my
Life
;
the
shameful
Condescention
of
my
Weakness
,
to
be
the
first
discloser
of
my
Love
;
the
Frights
,
the
Fears
,
the
restless
Desires
and
Impatience
that
our
appointed
Meetings
have
cost
us
,
and
all
the
Contrivances
that
I
have
laid
to
deceive
my
Parents
.
And
after
all
,
is
this
the
Recompence
,
and
all
the
Recompence
,
that
I
am
to
expect
?
You
have
no
Kindness
for
me
,
and
you
no
longer
conceal
it
from
me
:
And
't
is
ten
to
one
,
but
that
your
Fidelity
might
be
as
Treacherous
four
Months
agoe
,
but
you
thought
it
civil
to
observe
something
of
Decorum
toward
me
,
and
would
not
let
me
know
at
once
my
whole
Misfortune
.
But
now
you
seek
to
make
me
truly
sensible
of
all
together
.
You
can
refrain
three
Days
together
,
without
writing
to
me
;
and
the
Letters
,
which
you
do
write
,
are
only
Copies
of
my
own
.
In
short
,
I
have
discover'd
all
your
perfidie
.
Think
not
to
escape
me
,
as
much
absent
as
you
are
:
I
can
find
yee
out
,
when
you
believe
your self
safest
in
your
most
conceal'd
Retirements
of
Equivocation
and
study'd
Evasions
.
And
of
this
,
I
could
convince
yee
,
would
I
give
my self
the
Trouble
to
put
yee
to
Confusion
.
But
woe
is
me
!
you
are
not
worthy
of
a
clear
Convincement
;
the
only
way
to
deal
by
you
,
according
to
your
Merits
,
is
to
forget
Mansera
quite
;
and
,
instead
of
former
Tenderness
,
to
treat
yee
with
a
Scorn
,
so
Contumelious
,
as
might
justly
make
yee
question
,
whether
I
had
ever
any
Kindness
for
yee
.
't
is
a
Happiness
which
I
aspire
too
,
that
I
may
live
to
hear
your
Name
repeated
without
the
least
Commotion
,
and
to
attain
to
that
Felicity
,
I
shall
not
have
recourse
to
Anger
and
Fury
.
For
always
the
most
violent
Rages
terminate
in
Reconciliation
:
But
,
they
that
are
desirous
of
a
perfect
Cure
,
must
,
of
necessity
,
distrust
whatever
has
an
Air
of
Sensibility
,
if
once
they
would
surcease
to
Love
a
Person
,
stain'd
with
soul
Ingratitude
.
There
is
no
way
,
but
to
forget
him
absolutely
:
For
,
so
long
as
he
hovers
in
our
Remembrance
,
we
must
love
him
;
and
the
Causes
of
the
Complaints
we
have
against
him
,
make
a
far
less
Impression
then
his
Merits
.
I
refrain
from
remembring
yours
,
as
much
as
in
me
lies
.
I
seek
Employment
altogether
inconsistent
with
my
former
Blindness
.
But
I
must
acknowledge
,
to
my
shame
,
that
I
have
not
found
it
out
as
yet
,
and
that
I
still
am
lavish
of
the
Poyson
that
destroys
me
.
LETTER
XVI
.
THe
Transports
of
the
Person
whom
you
know
,
are
much
beyond
Imagination
:
Her
Fury
is
more
then
too
too
Violent
to
mine
all
her
Vertue
.
For
Heaven's
Sake
,
have
a
care
of
supplying
her
by
your
Discourses
,
with
new
Causes
of
Complaint
.
Is
it
so
hard
a
Matter
for
yee
to
forbear
talking
of
a
Lady
,
for
whom
you
have
so
little
Respect
?
I
could
wish
that
my
Distemper
,
which
encreases
every
Day
might
turn
aside
such
terrible
Misfortunes
,
by
putting
a
Conclusion
to
my
Life
.
I
am
the
Victim
that
must
appease
all
these
Disorders
,
and
,
I
desire
my
Death
may
cause
my
Life
to
be
forgotten
.
Farewell
,
Sir
,
you
may
either
return
agen
,
or
break
with
me
for
good
and
all
,
which
you
think
fit
to
do
.
For
my
part
,
I
must
clearly
acknowledge
to
yee
,
that
I
am
no
longer
sensible
of
inward
compulsion
;
and
't
is
enough
for
my
Satisfaction
,
that
I
already
love
yee
less
,
then
I
have
done
.
LETTER
XVII
.
HOw
difficult
a
thing
it
is
to
make
use
of
Prudence
,
when
our
Love
becomes
too
violent
a
Passion
!
and
that
it
costs
my
Affection
for
yee
so
dear
,
to
follow
what
my
Reason
dictates
to
me
.
But
fain
would
I
,
that
my
Reason
should
know
,
't
is
only
Subservient
to
my
Interest
.
It
may
,
perhaps
,
one
Day
afford
me
the
certain
Means
,
to
abandon
my self
entirely
to
my
Friendship
.
We
are
always
most
sensible
of
Pleasures
,
preceded
by
an
over
Imperious
constraint
.
't
is
requisite
,
that
a
tedious
Impatience
should
prepare
the
Pleasures
,
we
receive
by
the
long
wish'd-for
sight
of
what
we
Love
.
They
never
are
extreamly
Delightful
,
but
after
they
have
caus'd
a
world
of
Sighs
.
This
Reflexion
is
more
necessary
for
you
then
me
,
who
love
yee
with
a
Flame
too
Extraordinary
,
to
seek
for
any
Succour
,
which
common
Passions
have
need
of
,
to
support
themselves
.
But
't
is
my
Hope
,
that
my
Torments
,
and
my
Discretion
together
,
will
not
prove
unserviceable
in
augmenting
yours
.
't
is
this
Opinion
that
infuses
Courage
into
me
,
and
,
I
suffer
all
Things
,
in
expectation
you
will
love
me
with
a
more
tender
Affection
.
Good
God!
what
a
Happiness
shall
I
enjoy
,
in
intermixing
with
the
Pleasure
of
your
Company
,
the
recital
of
all
the
Pains
that
I
have
suffer'd
for
your
Sake
.
LETTER
VIII
.
I
Wonder
how
I
have
the
Srrength
to
write
to
yee
,
considering
the
Condition
to
which
I
am
reduc'd
.
The
Pleasure
which
I
had
to
enjoy
your
Company
Yesterday
,
render'd
me
so
impatient
of
our
Meeting
this
Day
,
which
I
so
certainly
promis'd
my self
,
that
the
Accident
,
which
disappointed
my
Design
,
has
almost
broke
my
Heart
.
How
cruel
and
severe
ought
you
to
deem
it
,
if
it
be
true
,
that
you
have
so
much
Devotion
for
me
,
as
you
express
in
your
Letter
.
But
if
I
love
yee
,
behoves
it
me
to
wish
the
same
Sincerity
from
you
?
No
,
no
,
't
is
the
greatest
of
Misfortunes
to
burn
with
a
violent
Flame
;
nevertheless
,
I
find
,
that
to
the
hazard
of
my
Life
,
I
shall
be
always
your
Adorer
.
But
what
apparent
grounds
have
I
to
fear
,
least
you
,
at
length
,
should
be
tyr'd
out
with
a
Familiarity
so
disastrous
,
and
quite
abandon
me
to
that
same
dismal
Infelicity
to
Love
,
and
fix
my
Love
upon
a
faithless
Person
:
No
,
no
,
you
have
not
an
Affection
for
me
proof
against
that
strict
Restraint
which
I
lie
under
;
you
'll
soon
surcease
to
Love
me
;
and
perhaps
,
not
scruple
to
tell
me
so
.
But
withal
consider
,
that
my
Life
depends
on
your
Indifferency
for
me
.
LETTER
XIX
.
I
Knew
not
you
were
Guilty
of
more
then
two
Crimes
,
in
reference
to
my self
;
but
,
in
your
Yesterday's
Letter
,
I
discover
a
Third
.
Is
it
possible
a
Man
should
have
a
tender
Kindness
for
a
Person
,
and
write
to
her
,
as
you
have
writ
to
me
?
Re-call
to
mind
the
Marks
of
Esteem
and
Distinction
,
which
I
bestow'd
upon
yee
but
within
these
few
Days
.
Ah!
is
it
fair
,
that
I
must
be
the
Person
to
whet
up
your
Memory
.
This
same
Despite
,
by
which
you
do
your self
an
Injury
,
is
still
no
more
then
a
new
proof
of
my
singular
Affection
.
Could
I
ever
be
so
touch'd
to
the
Quick
,
with
my
Suspitions
of
your
Infidelity
,
but
that
I
have
a
Passion
for
yee
?
or
,
Could
I
Love
yee
with
an
Adherency
,
that
nothing
can
unhinge
,
but
that
I
have
a
vast
Esteem
for
your
Person
?
If
Dona
Inez
were
a
faithful
Mistriss
,
for
her
to
know
of
an
Affair
with
another
,
might
be
a
Reason
sufficient
,
to
think
her
no
Concern
of
yours
:
But
,
her
past
Conduct
shews
us
,
that
she
is
one
who
stands
not
much
upon
Delicacy
.
The
Duke
of
—
who
fell
in
Love
with
her
long
since
,
is
properly
the
Husband
of
that
Adventure
,
and
you
are
the
Galaunt
;
altho'
you
never
told
me
of
it
,
and
with
no
less
Obstinacy
,
you
would
fain
conceal
it
from
me
,
when
I
know
it
already
.
In
short
,
you
have
no
mind
to
Sacrifice
her
Love
to
my
Content
:
For
,
there
's
no
question
to
be
made
,
but
I
am
She
,
that
is
already
Sacrific'd
to
Her
.
Good
God!
With
what
frightful
Terrors
,
does
the
Thought
of
this
disturb
my
Quiet
?
Yet
,
why
should
they
disturb
me
,
if
I
did
not
Love
yee
?
There
is
not
any
sort
of
Grief
,
of
which
I
am
not
sensible
for
your
sake
:
Nevertheless
,
my
Heart
is
prone
to
Pardon
yee
;
only
it
requires
some
Satisfaction
for
my
free
Indulgence
;
it
fain
would
have
you
shew
your self
worthy
of
the
Pardon
which
it
grants
yee
,
for
fear
of
being
upbraided
with
it
,
as
an
Act
of
Weakness
.
LETTER
XX
.
WHat
News
is
this
I
hear
!
I
am
told
,
you
are
returning
to
Grenada
,
and
I
am
going
out
of
Town
to
Morrow
,
for
three
Months
together
.
Why
cannot
you
as
well
spend
all
the
Autumn
at
your
Country
Seat
?
I
might
enjoy
,
at
least
,
some
sort
of
Quiet
then
,
in
my
Retirement
.
But
what
Repose
for
me
,
while
you
are
at
Grenada
!
Your
Residence
in
this
City
,
is
of
too
dangerous
a
Consequence
,
for
an
absent
Mistriss
.
Dare
I
presume
those
amiable
Charms
,
to
make
me
Hope
you
can
preserve
your
Heart
for
me
,
amidst
a
croud
of
Beauties
that
will
strive
to
rob
me
of
it
?
Yet
,
if
you
have
a
true
Idea
of
mine
,
that
resembles
it
,
can
you
forget
me
,
and
prefer
before
me
,
Women
that
only
Love
,
because
they
have
an
Opportunity
,
and
make
Love's
Pleasures
the
sole
end
of
all
their
Amorous
Passions
?
No
certainly
;
for
I
believe
your
Delicacy
such
,
as
will
not
easily
be
reconcil'd
to
a
common
Inclination
:
And
,
I
am
apt
to
flatter
my self
,
that
I
have
enur'd
yee
to
those
Sentiments
tha●
will
,
for
some
time
,
settle
your
Dislike
of
those
of
other
Ladies
.
Do
but
frequently
call
to
mind
,
so
long
as
I
continue
absent
,
the
last
endearing
Colloquies
we
had
together
,
and
let
that
Recollection
inspire
yee
with
such
Desires
,
as
may
secure
yee
from
the
benumming
Faculty
of
Absence
.
How
Happy
shall
I
be
,
if
at
your
Return
,
you
tell
me
,
that
you
Love
me
still
,
and
,
that
no
other
Object
has
expell'd
me
from
your
Memory
.
LETTER
XXI
.
I
Know
not
how
it
comes
to
pass
,
that
you
have
not
receiv'd
my
Letters
any
time
these
two
Months
.
This
Miscarriage
disorders
me
strangely
,
and
that
same
Jealousie
that
has
undertaken
my
Ruine
,
makes
me
afraid
of
every
thing
.
But
my
Disquiets
now
must
all
give
Place
to
that
excess
of
Joy
repay'd
me
in
exchange
,
by
the
Receipt
of
your
Letter
this
Morning
,
and
the
care
you
took
to
send
it
by
a
Messenger
,
on
purpose
,
to
the
other
end
of
the
World
.
The
Surprize
and
Joy
that
siez'd
me
of
a
sudden
,
were
so
violent
,
that
they
have
awaken'd
all
my
Mother's
Suspicions
;
and
she
has
been
grumbling
and
growling
ever
since
at
me
,
without
knowing
any
Reason
for
it
.
However
,
the
Assurances
which
you
give
me
of
your
Affection
,
have
alter'd
very
much
the
Condition
of
my
Heart
.
Before
,
I
was
deeply
plung'd
in
a
mournful
Uncertainty
of
your
Tenderness
and
Fidelity
.
But
what
you
tell
me
,
concerning
both
the
one
and
the
other
,
is
it
sincere
?
and
,
will
kind
Heaven
reserve
me
the
transcendent
Pleasure
,
to
see
my self
the
Object
of
your
most
passionate
Love
?
At
length
,
do
yee
begin
to
understand
the
Price
of
my
Heart
?
and
,
may
I
confide
in
the
Protestations
you
have
made
me
?
And
now
,
what
must
I
do
,
not
to
believe
yee
?
All
your
Expressions
are
most
tenderly
obliging
,
and
,
I
desire
the
Truth
of
what
you
would
persuade
me
,
with
too
much
Ardour
,
any
longer
to
gain-say
your
Vows
.
I
do
oppose
,
't
is
true
,
a
small
remainder
of
my
Reason
,
to
an
Opinion
so
charming
,
but
my
Heart
is
Prepossess'd
,
and
will
no
longer
listen
to
any
thing
,
that
may
convince
me
of
an
Error
.
Prudence
enfeebles
Love
,
and
therefore
,
when
we
Love
,
we
are
to
hearken
only
to
his
Flatteries
.
LETTER
XXII
.
I
Have
been
every
Day
,
during
this
Journey
,
constrain'd
to
hear
that
Passion
scorn'd
and
vilify'd
,
which
I
prize
and
cherish
more
tenderly
then
my
Life
.
What
did
not
my
Mother
peale
in
my
Ears
,
that
Day
that
we
lay
at
Nuestra
Dona
de
Rosaris
?
And
one
would
think
,
the
Heavens
had
seem'd
to
favour
her
,
as
having
the
same
Design
to
terrifie
me
.
For
it
Thunder'd
and
Lighten'd
most
dradfully
;
and
I
Rain'd
Tears
all
Night
.
For
I
could
not
but
be
infinitely
griev'd
to
think
,
that
I
should
have
a
Heart
that
harbour'd
a
Passion
so
offensive
to
my
Mother's
Pity
,
and
which
provok'd
so
highly
her
Displeasure
.
But
,
neither
all
those
serious
Reflexions
,
Sir
,
nor
the
Returns
of
recollected
Understanding
,
can
lessen
in
the
least
,
the
Power
which
you
have
oe'r
my
Heart
:
But
quite
the
contrary
,
they
rather
serve
to
be
more
certain
Testimonies
,
that
nothing
can
dissolve
it
.
LETTER
XXIII
.
IF
the
Marchioness
made
ye
a
faithfull
recital
of
our
Interview
,
she
must
have
told
ye
without
doubt
,
that
I
talk'd
to
her
of
nothing
but
your self
;
and
that
I
carry'd
the
Discourse
so
far
,
that
I
would
not
allow
her
a
Minutes
leisure
to
mention
her
own
Concerns
.
She
complain'd
of
it
to
me
in
several
Letters
;
but
the
Excess
of
my
Tenderness
may
well
prevail
for
my
Excuse
;
nor
am
I
in
such
a
Condition
,
that
she
to
whom
I
still
unfold
my
Heart
should
require
Punctilio's
of
Decency
from
me
:
I
am
sufficiently
oe'rwhelm'd
with
those
that
enforce
me
to
obey
my
Parents
.
LETTER
XXIV
.
YOU
are
the
most
lovely
Spark
that
ever
was
.
What
Diligence
you
shew
,
and
what
a
Delicacy
in
things
of
small
Consequence
!
But
have
I
not
reason
to
fear
that
your
Vivacity
is
no
other
then
a
Briskness
of
Humour
,
which
your
Converse
with
Ladies
,
and
your
continual
Attendance
at
Court
infuse
into
ye
?
I
declare
to
ye
,
that
I
would
have
your
Heart
alone
concern'd
in
every
thing
you
do
for
me
;
as
't
is
my
Heart
alone
that
Lessons
me
in
every
thing
I
do
for
you
.
But
I
would
fain
banish
all
these
Fears
,
and
wholly
abandon
my self
to
the
Pleasure
of
being
belov'd
and
loving
you
:
for
certainly
you
deserve
to
be
more
belov'd
then
any
Person
in
the
World
.
I
have
so
perfect
an
Idea
of
your
Merits
,
that
all
that
I
do
,
and
all
that
I
am
sensible
of
for
ye
,
seems
not
sufficient
to
supply
the
vast
Extent
of
it
:
And
yet
I
am
assur'd
,
that
few
young
Ladies
love
as
I
do
.
't
is
now
three
hours
after
Midnight
,
yet
not
a
wink
of
sleep
,
for
thinking
how
to
find
a
a
way
to
write
to
ye
;
and
first
't
was
necessary
that
my
Mother
should
be
fast
in
her
Bed
.
Then
up
I
got
,
and
tore
out
the
white
Leaves
at
the
Beginning
of
a
Book
;
for
they
have
taken
all
my
Paper
from
me
;
and
here
with
a
Pleasure
more
then
ordinary
,
I
present
ye
with
the
Minutes
which
I
robb'd
from
my
Repose
.
Alas
!
I
know
not
what
the
Nights
are
good
for
,
but
by
the
Liberty
they
give
me
to
write
,
and
think
of
you
.
When
all
the
World
beside
is
asleep
,
my
Love
and
my
Misfortunes
keep
me
waking
.
I
think
of
the
short
Moments
I
have
spent
in
your
Company
;
of
the
Obstacles
that
hinder
me
from
enjoying
the
same
Felicities
,
and
the
Horror
of
living
in
that
Restraint
and
Captivity
to
which
I
am
confin'd
.
I
am
watch'd
so
narrowly
,
and
with
so
much
Severity
,
that
all
the
sprightly
Ingenuity
of
my
Friendship
cannot
find
out
a
way
to
have
one
moment's
Discourse
together
,
before
your
Departure
,
unless
our
Journey
to
Sevil
hold
good
.
I
hope
it
,
and
wait
for
it
with
such
an
extraordinary
Impatience
,
that
I
believe
it
will
quite
mope
me
.
My
Thoughts
are
so
taken
up
with
it
,
that
it
deprives
me
of
my
Sleep
,
and
that
little
while
I
close
my
Eyes
,
I
talk
so
loud
in
my
Slumbers
of
the
Pleasures
I
expect
to
enjoy
in
your
Society
,
that
my
Mother
last
Night
over-heard
something
of
it
,
and
had
she
demanded
from
me
an
exact
Account
of
my
raving
Gibberidge
,
I
had
been
a
lost
Woman
;
and
still
I
shall
look
upon
my self
to
morrow
as
forlorn
and
undone
,
if
I
do
not
finish
my
Letter
.
Good
Night
Sir
,
I
forgot
to
speak
to
ye
of
the
Countess
of
Vilassor
.
You
will
do
me
a
Kindness
,
for
Reasons
I
will
tell
ye
,
to
shew
her
most
sedulous
Civilities
,
and
which
may
seem
to
carry
an
Air
of
Courtship
.
However
have
a
care
of
performing
my
Orders
too
exactly
.
If
you
have
any
rellish
for
me
,
't
is
easie
to
have
a
liking
for
her
;
for
like
me
she
has
Wit
,
but
she
is
none
of
the
handsomest
.
Once
more
good
night
Sir
.
LETTER
XXV
.
HOW
charmingly
delightfull
,
and
how
proper
a
Consolation
of
our
greatest
Misfortunes
is
the
hope
of
enjoying
the
Society
of
the
Person
whom
we
love
!
I
forget
all
the
Vexations
with
which
your
Indifferency
afflicted
me
,
and
I
look
upon
the
Fantastick
Morosity
of
my
Parents
as
nothing
,
compar'd
with
the
Felicity
of
seeing
you
this
Evening
at
my
Window
.
I
am
preparing
to
obtain
your
Pardon
;
and
I
have
such
an
Assurance
in
the
Method
I
shall
take
to
beg
it
,
that
you
will
not
refuse
it
me
.
But
I
know
not
whether
it
will
be
so
easie
for
you
to
pacifie
my
just
Resentment
of
that
Injurious
Jealousie
which
you
discover'd
to
me
in
your
last
.
Is
it
possible
you
should
have
so
bad
an
Opinion
of
me
,
to
believe
me
fickle
and
inconstant
?
Or
have
you
so
ill
a
Conceit
of
your self
,
to
think
that
any
Person
can
be
unfaithfull
to
ye
?
Oh!
Sir
,
you
are
not
acquainted
either
with
your
own
Merit
,
or
with
the
manner
of
my
being
taken
with
it
.
Let
Don
Gaspar
,
let
all
the
World
believe
me
Amiable
,
I
never
will
Love
any
other
Man
but
your self
;
for
only
you
appear
to
be
worthy
of
me
.
But
Sir
,
let
us
bury
all
those
People
that
are
but
a
Trouble
to
us
in
an
Oblivion
,
from
whence
you
ne'er
will
go
about
to
re-call
'em
,
and
let
us
only
talk
of
our selves
.
Methinks
I
have
too
easily
suffer'd
my self
to
be
persuaded
,
that
you
are
not
to
blame
.
For
,
ought
not
I
to
be
cautious
of
believing
that
you
love
me
?
Did
I
desire
it
with
less
fervency
,
I
should
not
be
so
ready
to
believe
it
But
our
Wits
are
tyr'd
with
always
mak●ng
opposition
to
our
Hearts
;
and
still
our
clearest
Understandings
become
at
length
the
Slaves
of
our
Desires
.
Tho'
,
as
for
mine
,
they
are
confin'd
to
please
you
only
,
and
to
be
belov'd
by
you
eternally
.
LETTER
XXVI
.
IT
seems
to
me
,
as
if
you
Repented
of
the
Marks
of
your
Affection
,
which
you
bestow
upon
me
.
I
receive
not
any
this
Day
,
which
some
Actions
of
yours
do
not
destroy
the
next
.
What
was
the
Reason
that
you
came
not
to
the
Governess's
House
,
where
I
staid
from
Three
till
Five
a
Clock
?
Questionless
,
your
impatience
to
see
me
,
must
be
very
moderate
,
when
you
ne'er
Visit
me
,
but
when
you
find
your self
constrain'd
.
But
ought
you
not
to
have
the
most
eager
Inclinations
for
a
Person
that
Loves
yee
with
such
a
tender
Affection
,
and
who
looks
upon
your
Absence
,
at
so
near
a
Distance
,
as
an
insupportable
Affliction
?
And
you
do
all
you
can
to
make
it
yet
more
Dreadful
,
by
depriving
me
of
the
Comfort
I
might
find
,
were
it
only
in
seeing
your
Face
,
before
my
Departure
.
My
Eyes
would
have
told
yee
a
Thousand
Things
,
that
ought
to
be
Delightful
,
tho'
I
perceive
they
're
no
way
acceptable
to
yee
.
I
have
not
seen
yee
any
where
this
Day
,
tho'
,
since
the
Morning
,
I
have
not
been
but
in
such
places
where
I
might
have
met
yee
.
I
was
at
Dona
Pepa's
Lodgings
,
where
in
vain
I
flatter'd
my self
to
have
found
yee
.
Good
God!
how
little
care
you
take
of
any
Thing
that
tends
to
make
me
Happy
.
LETTER
XXVII
.
I
Was
Yesterday
so
sooth'd
with
inward
Joy
,
and
yet
withal
so
unaccountably
cast
down
,
that
I
never
stirr'd
out
of
my
Chamber
so
much
as
to
Dine
.
But
,
as
for
you
,
Sir
,
are
you
still
among
the
Number
of
the
Living
?
or
,
are
People
wont
to
dye
upon
their
manifesting
those
Sentiments
of
Kindness
,
of
which
you
made
me
Yesterday
so
Sensible
?
How
Glorious
a
Thing
it
is
,
to
have
the
Power
of
inspiring
such
a
Passion
!
How
happy
am
I
to
be
belov'd
with
a
reciprocal
Fervency
!
Never
fear
the
change
of
my
Affection
:
You
are
too
dear
to
me
;
and
't
is
impossible
that
you
should
ever
cease
to
be
belov'd
,
that
are
so
Amiable
.
Absence
may
cause
yee
to
suffer
for
a
while
;
however
,
it
never
ought
to
make
you
question
my
Fidelity
in
the
least
.
I
Love
yee
,
Sir
;
nor
is
it
in
my
Power
to
surcease
my
Love
.
For
I
am
so
far
from
Combating
my
Tenderness
,
that
I
abandon
my self
entirely
to
it
.
I
am
apt
to
think
,
it
is
impossible
to
be
Happy
without
Loving
,
and
I
know
no
Person
worthy
to
be
belov'd
,
but
your self
.
Be
therefore
immoveably
persuaded
,
that
nothing
shall
deprive
you
of
my
Heart
.
Depart
with
this
Assurance
,
and
return
full
fraught
with
an
Impatience
,
and
a
Desire
no
less
ardent
to
re-visit
a
most
faithful
Mistress
.
But
,
good
God!
how
long
must
I
remain
Disconsolate
,
before
I
shall
receive
any
more
Testimonies
of
your
Tenderness
and
Acknowledgment
!
How
many
tedious
Hours
will
weary
my
Impatience
,
before
I
reap
the
Comfort
of
such
endearing
Sweetnesses
.
In
vain
do
I
afflict
my
Brains
for
your
Departure
:
but
still
your
Absence
appears
dreadful
to
me
;
nor
can
I
so
much
as
endure
the
Thought
of
it
.
LETTER
XXVIII
.
ARE
not
the
Pains
that
I
undergoe
,
in
this
Disconsolate
Condition
,
enough
to
oe'rwhelm
a
Miserable
Creature
,
but
that
you
,
Sir
,
must
also
augment
the
burthen
of
my
Grief
,
by
suspecting
me
of
Change
,
when
my
Constancy
has
cost
me
all
the
Tranquility
of
my
Life
?
You
are
but
ill
acquainted
with
the
posture
of
my
Affairs
;
and
I
know
,
that
you
believe
me
to
be
easily
Frighten'd
,
and
that
the
Mischief
is
not
so
great
as
I
say
it
is
.
But
there
is
your
Mistake
:
For
I
am
a
Thousand
Times
more
Miserable
,
then
in
your
Observation
I
appear
to
be
;
and
my
Concerns
are
in
a
desperate
Estate
.
I
have
never
sought
to
move
your
Pity
,
or
to
excite
yee
to
pay
those
Sighs
to
the
Knowledge
of
my
Misfortunes
,
which
my
Sincerity
deserves
.
I
have
rather
conceal'd
the
greatest
part
of
my
Sorrows
,
and
my
Captivity
,
for
fear
of
exposing
my self
,
to
the
Disgrace
of
seeing
your
Inclination
quite
extinguish'd
by
the
Destruction
of
our
Hopes
.
For
I
had
still
some
small
Remainders
of
assurance
,
enough
to
flatter
my self
with
a
change
of
my
Fortune
,
and
I
thought
my
Ingenuity
and
Care
might
acquire
me
,
at
length
sufficient
Liberty
to
enjoy
your
Society
.
But
the
Accident
that
is
befallen
me
,
has
for
ever
depriv'd
me
of
it
.
My
Mother
is
not
a
Woman
of
a
Humour
to
be
reconcil'd
to
those
Sentiments
which
I
have
for
yee
.
They
are
not
unknown
to
her
,
and
she
will
use
her
utmost
endeavours
to
bereave
me
of
the
Means
to
follow
my
natural
Propensity
.
She
will
not
suffer
me
to
budge
out
of
her
sight
,
and
the
least
Reluctancy
in
me
would
prove
the
ruine
of
all
my
Designs
.
In
short
,
I
am
a
Victim
devoted
to
Disaster
,
and
the
Flames
of
Love
;
yet
still
the
more
I
am
Persecuted
,
the
more
I
Love
yee
.
But
wherefore
do
you
shew
yourself
so
Sedulously
?
You
know
full
well
,
that
my
Tranquility
is
no
way
to
be
obtain'd
but
by
enfeebling
my
Affection
;
and
yet
you
will
be
still
appearing
to
re-inforce
it
with
your
Presence
.
Is
it
because
you
would
augment
my
Grief
with
fresh
Supplies
?
How
do
you
think
I
can
be
able
to
abide
the
Presence
of
a
Spark
,
for
whom
't
is
known
I
have
a
Love
,
and
yet
they
would
have
me
for
ever
to
abjure
him
.
Woe
is
me
!
how
sad
is
my
Condition
!
I
suffer
all
that
possibly
can
be
suffer'd
,
if
I
do
not
see
yee
;
and
yet
,
I
cannot
see
yee
without
strange
Affrights
and
Discomposures
.
Pityless
Heavens
!
will
you
not
take
,
at
length
,
Compassion
upon
a
Creature
ready
to
sink
under
the
burthen
of
your
Indignation
?
LETTER
XXIX
.
COnsider
seriously
what
I
undergoe
,
and
what
I
hazard
in
writing
to
yee
,
and
then
accuse
me
of
Levity
if
you
can
.
Lately
I
went
to
walk
in
the
Garden
belonging
to
the
Society
.
Heavens
!
In
what
Hopes
and
what
Fears
was
I
of
meeting
you
there
!
and
I
shall
feel
the
same
emotions
to
Morrow
,
at
another
publick
Place
,
where
I
must
be
.
LETTER
XXX
.
I
Must
acknowledge
,
that
while
you
were
sedulously
employ'd
in
studying
Contrivances
which
way
to
get
to
me
and
let
me
hear
from
yee
,
I
was
no
less
diligently
employ'd
in
finding
out
which
way
to
forget
a
Lover
,
whose
Remissness
made
me
think
you
had
no
value
for
my
Sufferings
.
But
,
I
find
yee
now
both
faithful
and
sincerely
Tender
.
Heaven
,
that
reserves
a
longer
Train
of
Misfortunes
for
me
,
notwithstanding
the
many
Reasons
I
have
to
abandon
all
manner
of
Friendship
,
will
not
permit
me
to
cease
loving
you
.
How
tedious
soever
the
Persecutions
are
which
my
Affection
draws
,
upon
me
,
and
how
sensible
soever
I
may
be
of
my
Pains
,
I
make
no
more
Complaints
.
't
is
so
delightful
for
a
Woman
to
believe
her self
belov'd
,
that
this
Opinion
is
enough
to
allay
the
most
vigorous
,
Torments
,
and
it
would
prove
my
Death
to
be
convinc'd
of
it
.
Your
Letters
speak
nothing
else
but
Sadness
and
Despair
;
and
that
will
cause
me
to
lose
my
Reason
.
You
augment
the
Grief
that
springs
from
my
Misfortunes
by
a
thousand
Reflexions
upon
your
hard
Fate
,
that
compleat
the
Accumulation
of
your
killing
Sorrows
.
But
remember
,
Sir
,
what
I
have
often
told
yee
,
that
Fortune
and
a
Mistress
,
are
alike
oblig'd
by
Constancy
,
and
suffer
their
extreamest
Rigours
to
be
vanquish'd
by
Perseverance
.
Besides
,
't
is
such
a
Satisfaction
to
be
belov'd
,
as
I
love
you
,
that
tho'
you
never
see
me
,
and
that
your
Correspondence
be
so
narrowly
watch'd
,
you
ought
to
deem
your self
the
most
happy
of
Men
,
because
you
are
the
best
belov'd
of
Men
.
Consider
seriously
,
what
an
Honour
it
is
,
to
inspire
an
Esteem
so
tender
as
mine
for
you
;
and
,
to
be
the
only
Object
of
the
Thoughts
of
a
discerning
Lady
,
and
whom
the
World
has
always
flatter'd
to
be
Lovely
.
Oh
Sir
,
do
but
consider
well
,
after
what
an
extraordinary
manner
I
Love
yee
,
and
you
will
no
longer
believe
your self
Unfortunate
.
You
will
then
think
no
more
of
Dying
.
Your
whole
Desire
will
be
then
to
live
,
and
vanquish
,
by
your
Dexterity
and
Perseverance
,
whatever
opposes
our
Marriage
.
But
tho'
we
could
not
hope
for
a
Success
so
favourable
;
yet
it
would
still
behove
ye
to
preserve
your
Life
,
as
a
most
precious
Treasure
;
since
upon
that
,
depends
the
Happiness
of
a
Person
that
ought
to
be
so
dear
in
your
Esteem
.
Give
over
these
Disconsolate
Idea's
;
for
if
either
of
us
two
has
reason
to
think
of
dying
,
't
is
my self
,
without
all
question
.
I
am
the
unfortunate
Creature
that
disturbs
your
Quiet
,
and
cannot
justifie
her
Innocence
,
notwithstanding
the
Innocence
of
her
Intentions
;
so
dreadfull
are
th'
Effects
which
they
produce
.
Here
has
been
nothing
but
Alarum
and
Jealousie
for
these
Two
days
last
past
.
LETTER
XXXI
.
YOU
made
choice
of
an
inconvenient
Post
;
the
Window
where
you
stood
is
too
remote
;
and
you
had
no
desire
to
see
me
at
my
own
,
for
fear
of
some
unlucky
Disappointment
.
But
as
for
that
which
I
have
mention'd
in
my
Letter
,
and
which
is
so
near
,
that
we
can
really
and
distinctly
see
each
other
,
you
will
have
a
perfect
Account
of
it
,
and
receive
full
Instructions
from
Don
Basil
,
to
the
end
you
may
prepare
your self
for
our
Meeting
on
Monday
,
which
I
as
much
,
if
not
more
impatiently
long
for
then
you
.
And
tho'
the
Pretence
you
make
use
of
,
for
meeting
sooner
then
the
hour
prefix'd
seems
plausible
enough
,
yet
I
am
utterly
against
it
,
for
fear
it
should
proceed
from
a
desire
of
affording
me
those
hours
only
of
the
day
that
I
am
most
at
leisure
to
spare
.
But
I
look
upon
Visits
as
nothing
;
I
know
how
well
enough
to
dis-engage
my self
from
those
Impertinents
;
and
therefore
do
you
rely
on
my
Affection
.
But
to
discover
that
,
and
prove
the
Delicacy
of
yours
,
Necessity
will
have
it
,
that
you
must
come
to
see
me
through
a
Garret-Window
,
at
the
same
time
that
you
might
see
and
talk
to
the
briskest
and
most
jolly
Women
in
Grenada
.
In
short
it
behoves
me
to
flatter
my self
,
that
you
will
quit
all
Company
for
my
sake
,
and
that
it
is
a
pleasure
to
me
,
to
make
me
sensible
of
it
.
For
once
,
renounce
the
Court
,
the
Harps
and
Guittars
,
for
an
ill-favour'd
Window
,
through
which
perhaps
you
will
see
no
great
Matter
.
But
if
you
willingly
obey
me
,
I
shall
esteem
my self
so
highly
oblig'd
,
that
I
shall
freely
grant
ye
a
plenanary
Permission
to
carry
me
away
thro'
one
of
our
Lattices
.
You
see
,
Sir
,
by
the
severity
of
those
Laws
which
I
impose
upon
ye
,
you
see
how
dangerous
a
thing
it
is
to
persuade
a
young
Virgin
that
you
have
a
Passionate
Kindness
for
her
.
When
I
thought
my self
either
not
at
all
,
or
but
very
little
belov'd
,
I
was
mild
and
fearfull
,
and
pretended
to
nothing
:
now
I
am
grown
Imperious
,
and
require
Exactness
and
Sedulity
;
I
examine
every
thing
with
Rigour
,
and
am
no
longer
easie
to
forgive
.
And
thus
you
see
the
Alteration
which
the
Change
of
your
Fidelity
has
produc'd
.
However
if
you
love
me
so
well
as
you
say
you
do
,
the
Performance
of
whatever
I
exact
from
you
,
ought
to
appear
easie
.
LETTER
XXXII
.
RAther
should
I
now
weep
Tears
of
Blood
.
I
always
thought
I
never
could
be
more
unfortunate
then
I
was
.
Nevertheless
all
that
I
have
hitherto
endur'd
is
nothing
in
comparison
of
what
I
suffer
.
I
am
betray'd
,
void
of
all
Hopes
,
and
lost
beyond
Recovery
.
The
faithless
Dona
Clara
has
shew'd
her self
at
length
in
her
true
Colours
;
and
I
am
the
Victim
that
she
offers
up
to
obtain
the
Favours
of
my
Hood-wink'd
Parents
.
But
it
behoves
me
to
give
ye
a
perfect
Account
of
my
Disasters
.
Saturday
night
I
received
your
Letter
so
late
,
that
I
was
forc'd
to
read
it
in
my
Bed
.
I
read
it
over
and
over
again
several
times
,
and
whether
it
were
that
Sleep
surpriz'd
me
,
or
meerly
out
of
Carelessness
,
I
left
some
part
of
it
upon
the
Boulster
.
Immediately
after
I
wak'd
,
Dona
Clara
came
into
the
Room
,
at
what
time
my
Sister
prest
Mistriss
Clara
very
earnestly
to
sit
down
upon
the
Bed-side
;
which
she
did
for
some
few
Minutes
,
and
then
left
us
.
But
upon
my
Return
from
Mass
,
I
perceiv'd
the
Loss
I
had
sustain'd
,
and
order'd
my
Women
to
look
for
it
,
and
to
leave
no
part
of
my
Apartment
unsearch'd
;
but
they
could
find
nothing
that
I
wanted
.
However
not
suspecting
Dona
Clara
,
nor
being
able
to
accuse
my
Sister
,
who
were
only
in
my
Chamber
,
I
thought
that
some
of
my
Servants
might
have
burnt
your
Letter
.
This
gave
me
some
Quiet
for
a
time
,
and
I
went
to
hear
the
Sermon
,
where
you
saw
me
with
the
perfidious
Clara
.
My
Mother
also
never
seem'd
to
put
more
Confidence
in
me
.
We
were
two
hours
together
,
after
we
return'd
from
the
Sermon
;
but
I
left
Clara
in
the
Chamber
,
where
she
stay'd
along
while
.
In
the
mean
time
,
I
had
a
longing
Desire
to
know
what
my
Mother
thought
of
my
going
to
the
Sermon
,
and
therefore
sent
for
Dona
Clara
into
my
Closet
;
whither
she
came
,
but
in
a
great
Discomposure
,
and
told
me
that
my
Mother
had
not
said
a
word
to
her
,
and
refus'd
to
enter
into
any
Discourse
with
her
.
Upon
which
I
was
not
a
little
dejected
,
and
threw
my self
upon
the
Bed
,
as
being
fully
persuaded
that
my
Mother
had
my
Letter
.
I
waited
for
day
,
with
as
much
fear
as
Impatience
,
having
past
away
the
Night
as
you
may
well
imagine
.
At
last
,
as
soon
as
my
Chamber
was
open
,
my
Mother
came
to
me
,
and
after
she
had
ordered
all
the
People
to
withdraw
,
she
told
me
that
my
Father
and
she
having
had
some
Discourse
about
my
going
to
the
Sermon
,
were
both
persuaded
that
it
was
an
Assignation
,
and
that
you
and
I
kept
a
Correspondence
together
.
Upon
that
,
she
ask'd
me
for
my
Keys
,
which
I
delivered
to
her
without
any
more
to
do
;
for
I
knew
very
well
she
would
find
nothing
in
my
Cabinet
.
However
she
look'd
in
it
,
and
made
me
believe
,
that
she
found
that
unhappily-lost
Letter
in
it
,
which
I
am
sure
was
never
there
.
Thus
I
have
told
ye
the
whole
Story
of
an
unfortunate
Mischance
.
I
need
not
tell
ye
how
my
Parents
storm'd
and
took
on
;
you
may
readily
imagine
it
,
as
also
my
disconsolate
Condition
.
I
no
longer
know
my self
.
My
Grief
is
intermix'd
with
an
Indignation
that
tempts
me
to
violent
Resolutions
.
My
hatred
to
Clara
is
incens'd
even
to
Fury
,
and
I
shall
make
her
know
it
before
the
end
of
the
Day
.
She
shall
not
go
away
with
the
fawning
Belief
,
that
she
has
assassinated
me
,
yet
that
I
know
not
who
it
was
that
gave
the
Mortal
Blow
.
She
shall
understand
,
that
I
look
upon
her
as
my
most
Mortal
Enemy
;
and
I
will
justifie
what
I
affirm
by
all
the
shrewd
Turns
that
I
can
do
her
.
She
deserves
not
to
have
any
Mercy
shew'd
her
.
How
little
I
believ'd
ye
Sir
!
and
,
how
well
were
you
acquainted
with
the
Physnomy
of
this
Treacherous
Baggage
!
But
for
my
Credulity
,
doubtless
I
had
escap'd
great
part
of
my
Disasters
;
for
there
is
no
question
now
to
be
made
,
but
that
she
has
done
me
a
Thousand
more
ill
Offices
,
by
incensing
my
Father
and
Mother
against
me
.
Do
you
not
wonder
at
my
Misfortune
?
I
cannot
understand
it
,
nor
can
I
conceive
how
it
is
possible
,
that
the
Perfidious
should
Triumph
over
Hearts
that
are
Sincere
.
You
better
know
then
any
body
,
the
Integrity
of
mine
.
Oh
Sir
,
how
would
yee
have
been
convinc'd
of
it
,
had
you
been
a
Witness
of
the
Confusion
I
was
in
,
to
see
the
Secret
discover'd
,
which
I
always
deny'd
.
This
seems
to
me
to
be
the
greater
Shame
,
tho'
it
be
also
an
extream
Disgrace
to
Love
a
Person
,
which
,
by
no
means
,
they
would
not
have
me
Love
.
Yet
,
if
a
fault
so
heinous
may
be
justify'd
by
the
Impossibility
of
being
able
to
correct
it
,
mine
may
be
excusable
.
I
had
a
Kindness
for
ye
ever
since
I
was
born
,
without
having
the
Power
to
surcease
my
Love
,
tho'
I
have
try'd
all
ways
to
damp
my
Passion
.
The
Pains
I
have
endur'd
for
so
long
time
together
,
with
so
much
Patience
,
sufficiently
demonstrate
that
I
Love
yee
with
an
Inclination
that
nothing
can
subdue
.
Alas
I
am
but
too
too
sensible
of
the
Power
of
it
,
at
this
very
moment
that
I
write
to
yee
.
Yes
,
Sir
,
the
more
they
plague
me
,
the
more
they
engage
me
to
be
Faithful
to
yee
.
The
Severity
of
my
Parents
,
and
my
own
disastrous
Disappointments
,
do
they
render
yee
the
less
Lovely
?
No
—
doubtless
—
and
I
promise
also
an
eternal
Fidelity
,
and
to
preserve
in
my
Heart
,
such
Lively
and
tender
Sentiments
,
that
hardly
will
be
equall'd
by
those
of
the
most
zealous
Lovers
.
Good
Gods
!
how
am
I
quite
pierc'd
through
with
Grief
!
but
how
extream
soever
that
may
be
,
I
feel
another
yet
more
tediously
intollerable
.
I
wish'd
to
Dye
,
you
know
it
well
,
when
once
I
thought
yee
Faithless
,
but
now
I
can
no
longer
,
with
Indifferency
,
look
upon
a
Life
that
is
dear
to
you
,
how
Unfortunate
soever
it
may
be
otherwise
.
I
will
Live
to
Love
yee
as
much
as
Man
could
e'er
deserve
to
be
belov'd
,
and
because
I
will
not
yield
the
Victory
to
my
Enemies
.
I
know
what
Measures
my
Parents
will
take
;
but
I
am
resolv'd
to
suffer
all
Couragiously
;
and
,
't
is
the
Character
of
my
Tenderness
,
that
it
is
able
to
justifie
me
.
My
Sentiments
are
too
Noble
and
too
Chast
,
for
me
to
be
afraid
of
acknowledging
'
em
.
LETTER
XXXIII
.
THat
part
of
your
Letter
which
was
intercepted
,
speaks
nothing
of
the
Person
whom
you
know
;
so
that
she
has
weather'd
the
Storm
by
a
kind
of
Miracle
.
Say
nothing
more
of
it
in
your
Letters
;
and
write
'em
after
a
manner
so
Tender
and
Respectful
,
that
if
they
should
be
Surpriz'd
,
it
may
be
only
known
,
that
you
have
a
Kindness
for
me
,
but
that
my
Mother
was
mistaken
when
she
thought
that
I
Lov'd
you
.
Adieu
Sir
,
and
rely
upon
me
as
long
as
yee
live
:
And
seeing
what
they
have
discover'd
of
our
Correspondence
does
not
oblige
me
any
longer
to
conceal
my
Sentiments
,
I
will
Love
with
so
much
Fidelity
,
and
so
much
Delicacy
,
that
all
Lovers
shall
Envy
what
my
Inclination
and
your
Merit
have
acquir'd
yee
.
I
know
not
whither
this
,
and
yesterday's
Letter
will
come
safe
to
your
Hands
:
there
is
little
probability
of
it
.
However
,
I
know
not
how
to
write
less
endearingly
:
For
I
had
rather
discover
,
then
conceal
the
Motions
of
my
Heart
from
him
that
gave
them
Life
and
Being
.
LETTER
XXXIV
.
NEver
complain
of
me
;
my
Heart
performs
the
Duty
that
belongs
to
it
;
and
I
am
still
but
too
too
near
the
same
Sentiments
which
formerly
I
had
.
Spare
me
a
little
Patience
,
that
I
may
be
able
sedately
to
take
such
certain
Measures
,
as
may
procure
us
some
Liberty
.
I
have
learnt
,
by
my
own
Experience
,
that
't
is
convenient
sometimes
to
lose
a
present
Happiness
to
secure
a
future
Felicity
.
Permit
me
the
Steerage
of
our
little
Bark
,
and
I
hope
to
bring
it
safe
into
Harbour
.
Do
you
mind
only
what
depends
upon
your
Care
,
that
is
to
say
,
to
prove
by
all
imaginable
good
Management
,
and
an
extraordinary
Discretion
,
tha●
you
have
a
real
Kindness
for
me
.
I
must
acknowledge
,
that
I
could
never
reconcile
my self
to
any
Tenderness
not
equal
to
that
which
I
am
capable
of
;
and
that
I
always
abhorr'd
a
Mediocrity
in
every
Thing
.
After
I
have
shewn
yee
that
I
will
not
endure
in
you
any
of
those
petty
Defects
,
which
Self-love
hides
from
our Selves
,
I
expect
that
you
should
have
the
same
Care
of
me
.
I
know
it
will
cost
Me
much
more
Trouble
then
You
;
but
I
am
more
certain
of
adhering
to
your
Counsel
,
then
I
am
assur'd
that
you
will
follow
mine
.
LETTER
XXXV
.
I
Cannot
confide
in
your
Heart
:
I
do
not
think
it
harbours
any
Inclinations
for
me
;
and
,
I
employ
good
part
of
my
time
,
to
tell
my self
,
that
I
am
no
more
amiable
in
your
Eyes
then
I
was
when
I
found
by
Experience
,
that
all
the
Esteem
and
Friendship
in
the
World
would
not
suffice
to
gain
your
Love
.
Your
Perseverance
appears
to
me
an
Effect
of
Vanity
.
My
Constancy
might
affect
your
Self-love
,
and
it
may
be
,
the
Design
of
your
Kindness
is
,
to
engage
me
to
your self
,
and
still
to
see
me
fix'd
in
the
Sentiments
which
you
infus'd
into
me
formerly
,
and
then
to
leave
me
Wedded
only
to
Eternal
Repentance
.
LETTER
XXXVI
.
YOu
were
not
more
taken
up
with
the
Thoughts
of
me
,
then
I
with
pondering
upon
you
:
I
love
yee
with
a
Tenderness
that
Affrights
me
.
I
cannot
apprehend
what
will
become
of
me
,
during
your
Absence
.
I
understand
,
with
extraordinary
Gladness
,
that
your
Health
stands
firm
.
Preserve
it
with
a
Care
becoming
the
Interest
which
I
pretend
to
in
it
.
With
the
help
of
that
,
we
'll
overcome
our
most
formidable
Enemies
,
and
the
Pains
and
Griefs
,
that
now
Triumph
almost
over
our
Patience
,
shall
only
serve
one
Day
,
to
render
the
Pleasures
we
shall
then
enjoy
more
Lively
and
more
Valuable
.
Hope
is
a
real
Good
;
and
he
that
possesses
it
,
has
no
Reason
,
altogether
,
to
Complain
.
Let
us
abandon
our
Souls
to
all
the
Sweetnesses
of
it
:
Let
us
Dream
of
it
from
this
very
Day
,
till
you
return
again
;
for
,
by
that
means
,
I
would
fain
annihilate
the
time
that
I
am
to
linger
on
without
your
Company
.
Can
she
be
said
to
live
,
that
lives
absented
from
the
Person
that
she
Loves
?
LETTER
XXXVII
.
AT
length
,
I
am
in
a
Place
whither
you
ought
to
have
come
,
and
which
I
never
thought
to
have
seen
before
yee
.
But
Fortune
has
so
order'd
it
,
that
you
are
far
remote
,
and
I
am
here
.
You
conjecture
rightly
,
Sir
,
that
it
is
not
without
thinking
upon
yee
,
and
that
my
Affection
follow'd
me
hither
.
Your
Absence
has
not
at
all
diminish'd
it
,
rather
the
Solitude
and
Beauties
of
the
Country
augment
it
.
Methinks
,
that
in
this
lovely
Residence
,
every
thing
talks
of
Love
,
and
that
a
Noble
Passion
becomes
it
.
Mine
makes
me
seek
out
lonely
Walks
,
and
gloomy
Retirements
.
My
chief
Delight
is
frequently
to
muse
by
the
side
of
a
Fountain
,
where
the
Chrystal
Water
makes
a
pleasing
Murmur
.
There
it
is
,
that
I
recall
most
Affectionately
to
mind
the
happy
Minutes
we
have
past
together
:
I
remember
with
delight
,
your
very
Words
;
your
very
Reproaches
themselves
are
dear
to
me
.
I
look
upon
'em
as
the
Effects
of
a
choice
Esteem
,
and
I
hear
'em
with
the
same
Complaisance
that
I
have
for
yee
.
Methinks
my
Fortune
is
chang'd
,
and
I
begin
to
be
more
Happy
.
Can
I
doubt
it
,
seeing
I
shall
enjoy
your
Company
,
and
that
it
will
be
permitted
me
at
my
Return
,
to
require
from
you
an
Account
of
the
time
that
you
have
spent
far
distant
from
me
,
and
give
the
same
Account
my self
,
how
I
have
pass'd
those
Hours
that
I
have
liv'd
an
Exile
from
your
Company
;
if
we
may
be
said
to
pass
our
time
;
since
,
to
be
parted
from
the
Thing
we
Love
,
is
not
to
Live
.
And
truly
,
methinks
we
preserve
our
Sensibility
,
only
to
feel
the
Pains
of
Absence
.
Remember
that
Pleasures
are
not
lawful
for
those
that
are
absent
from
what
they
Love
.
You
have
more
need
of
this
Lesson
then
I
;
as
well
for
the
difference
between
our
manner
of
loving
,
as
for
the
difference
between
the
Places
where
we
reside
.
However
,
I
give
yee
leave
to
Admire
the
Princess
of
—
Believe
her
also
the
most
lovely
Person
in
the
World
;
I
agree
to
it
;
but
Love
me
only
,
and
think
me
more
Faithful
.
I
am
not
jealous
of
the
Advantages
that
she
has
over
me
;
or
,
if
I
wish'd
the
like
,
it
should
be
only
that
I
might
be
still
more
worthy
of
your self
.
For
,
in
regard
that
you
both
understand
the
value
of
a
faithful
and
tender
Heart
,
there
is
nothing
more
necessary
for
me
,
that
I
may
have
wherewithal
to
awake
your
Esteem
.
LETTER
XXXVIII
.
OH
!
what
a
Desire
have
I
to
recant
the
loud
Encomiums
I
have
given
to
violent
Passions
!
How
painful
do
I
find
'em
at
this
present
!
Nothing
can
equal
my
restless
Vexation
at
the
long
silence
of
your
Friend
.
How
cruel
is
he
to
expose
me
to
such
a
tedious
Grief
.
I
am
afraid
,
least
you
should
be
fallen
Sick
,
and
that
being
unwilling
that
the
unwelcome
News
should
reach
my
Ears
,
you
rather
choose
to
forbear
writing
altogether
.
I
am
likewise
afraid
least
my
Letters
should
not
be
come
to
your
Hands
,
by
which
unlucky
Accident
I
may
be
expos'd
to
new
Misfortunes
.
Must
I
be
still
in
Fears
,
after
all
those
Terrors
I
have
undergone
?
And
,
at
a
time
when
I
thought
my self
exempt
from
danger
,
must
I
be
the
sport
of
more
impending
Tempests
?
How
strangely
for
your
sake
am
I
disturb'd
!
Under
a
thousand
Shapes
you
every
Night
affright
me
,
till
I
am
all
congeal'd
with
Fear
.
I
think
upon
yee
all
Day
long
;
but
all
my
Thinking
brings
me
not
a
syllable
of
Tydings
from
yee
.
Nor
can
I
imagine
any
secure
and
speedy
means
,
to
obtain
what
I
so
ardently
desire
.
We
are
at
the
two
opposite
Ends
of
the
World
;
and
I
am
apt
to
believe
,
that
my
Confident
and
your
Friend
,
are
at
the
other
.
For
I
hear
not
a
Tittle
from
either
;
and
yet
I
have
wrote
to
'em
how
terribly
it
perplexes
me
.
What
would
I
give
to
know
,
what
you
are
now
a doing
?
LETTER
XXXIX
.
IF
there
be
any
Charms
in
Mystery
,
no
doubt
,
they
were
intended
for
a
Person
that
Loves
with
as
much
Delicacy
as
I
do
.
And
,
who
of
all
the
Pleasures
of
Tenderness
,
knows
only
those
which
the
sight
of
the
Person
belov'd
infuses
into
her
.
You
have
no
Reason
to
question
,
but
that
your
Company
is
extreamly
dear
to
me
.
But
,
Sir
,
if
I
delight
in
your
Presence
,
I
cannot
see
yee
,
without
making
doleful
Reflexions
,
nor
without
thinking
upon
those
insurmountable
Obstructions
that
separate
us
for
ever
.
At
that
time
it
is
,
when
every
thing
that
contributed
to
my
Content
,
serves
only
to
renew
my
Pain
,
and
that
the
Charms
of
a
young
Gentleman
,
whom
I
Esteem
,
cause
me
the
more
Sensibly
to
feel
the
Smart
of
being
separated
from
him
.
How
dearly
does
Reason
make
me
pay
for
those
few
Favours
that
support
my
Constancy
.
I
never
see
yee
,
but
my
Wounds
become
more
Sensitive
and
more
Grievous
.
Your
Presence
indeed
suspends
my
Disquiet
,
and
while
I
see
yee
,
I
am
too
much
taken
with
the
Pleasure
of
your
Company
to
think
of
any
thing
else
.
But
when
you
dis-appear
from
my
Sight
,
a
Thousand
mournful
Reflexions
assail
me
,
and
by
the
Tortures
they
inflict
upon
me
,
glut
the
Revenge
of
those
that
oppose
our
Nuptials
.
How
lovely
were
you
Yesterday
!
or
,
to
speak
more
truly
,
how
lovely
are
you
always
!
Never
did
Woman-kind
e'er
Love
so
tenderly
,
as
I
Love
you
.
You
deceive
your self
when
you
believe
the
pleasing
Opinion
of
being
belov'd
by
you
,
has
added
any
thing
to
my
Affection
;
for
I
have
always
lov'd
yee
with
the
same
Violence
of
Inclination
.
And
,
the
only
Difference
that
your
Love
has
created
in
me
is
this
,
that
I
no
longer
withstand
the
Sentiments
that
I
have
for
yee
.
I
find
'em
so
Just
,
that
nothing
can
unloose
my
Heart
from
an
Object
that
I
think
worthy
of
it
.
But
tho'
I
judge
so
favourably
of
my
Heart
,
I
make
not
the
same
judgment
of
my
Person
.
The
Portraiture
of
Dona
Elvira
,
appear'd
so
lovely
to
me
Yesterday
,
that
I
dare
not
pretend
that
any
Person
,
accustom'd
to
so
many
Charms
,
should
have
any
Curiosity
for
me
.
I
must
acknowledge
,
that
you
have
sustain'd
an
infinite
Loss
,
and
that
you
cannot
lament
too
much
a
Woman
so
worthy
of
your
Tenderest
Endearments
.
I
am
so
sensible
of
her
unhappy
Fate
,
and
I
Love
yee
with
such
an
extraordinary
Niceness
,
that
I
should
be
ready
to
surrender
my
own
Life
,
if
my
Death
could
restore
her
to
the
World
again
.
Preserve
a
tender
Remembrance
of
her
;
I
shall
never
be
against
it
.
And
,
If
I
were
at
Liberty
to
act
according
to
my
own
Sentiments
,
you
should
see
me
pay
so
much
Devotion
to
what
remains
of
her
behind
,
and
be
so
indulgently
careful
of
it
,
as
should
sufficiently
demonstrate
the
Generosity
and
Goodness
of
my
Heart
.
It
is
divided
between
Hope
and
Fear
;
nor
can
I
believe
but
that
our
Fortune
will
change
:
For
my
part
,
I
will
not
despair
of
it
.
LETTER
XL
.
THere
is
not
one
single
Thought
I
think
that
I
can
any
longer
conceal
from
yee
;
and
,
I
must
confess
,
I
begin
to
believe
that
you
Love
me
.
Perhaps
I
may
delude
my self
;
but
if
it
be
so
,
you
must
be
a
notable
Deceiver
.
You
write
and
tell
it
me
in
such
a
manner
,
as
to
persuade
the
most
Incredulous
:
And
,
it
is
to
me
,
the
most
delightful
of
all
Pleasures
,
to
believe
my self
assur'd
,
past
any
farther
doubt
,
that
you
are
really
o'ercome
by
the
Esteem
that
I
have
for
yee
.
't
is
such
a
one
as
merits
to
infuse
another
equal
to
it
;
it
is
even
and
constant
.
Be
then
secure
,
that
if
my
Friendship
be
a
Happiness
that
you
prize
,
't
is
a
Blessing
that
you
can
never
loose
.
And
,
if
it
were
true
,
that
't
were
as
Essential
to
your
Happiness
,
as
it
is
certain
that
mine
depends
upon
my
being
belov'd
by
you
,
assuredly
,
you
will
be
the
most
happy
Person
in
the
World
.
But
,
why
should
I
not
Flatter
my self
,
that
my
Heart
is
necessary
to
your
Felicity
?
Is
there
not
a
very
great
Probability
,
that
a
Man
,
accustom'd
to
be
tenderly
belov'd
,
should
understand
the
full
value
of
a
faithful
Heart
?
My
Friendship
might
equally
suffice
both
the
Tenderness
and
the
Vanity
of
your
Soul
.
You
are
are
All
in
All
to
me
:
For
your
Sake
I
abandon
the
World
,
and
the
Delights
of
it
;
and
still
,
methinks
,
I
never
do
enough
,
to
prove
my
Esteem
to
be
such
as
really
it
is
.
Woe
is
me
?
how
little
a
Woman
is
satisfy'd
with
her self
when
she
really
Loves
,
and
when
her
Sentiments
and
Idea's
are
above
her
Actions
!
There
is
not
a
Word
I
speak
to
yee
,
that
contents
me
.
My
Letters
,
which
you
have
sufficiently
applauded
,
to
convince
me
that
they
deserve
to
be
approv'd
,
to
me
seem
altogether
unworthy
of
your
Approbation
.
I
never
express
effectually
enough
to
my
own
Liking
,
how
much
my
Tenderness
for
you
,
is
superior
to
all
the
Sentiments
of
other
Women
;
neither
do
I
say
any
thing
that
fully
satisfies
my
Curiosity
.
But
,
alas
!
will
Fortune
never
cease
to
thwart
us
?
I
dare
not
hope
it
.
That
fickle
Deity
must
cease
to
be
,
before
she
can
forbear
to
persecute
us
both
alike
.
However
,
let
us
not
despond
:
She
cannot
always
prove
so
rigorously
False
:
It
is
impossible
,
but
that
she
must
become
more
Favourable
to
us
one
Day
.
I
know
not
what
Effects
the
Devotions
of
my
Confident
,
for
so
many
Days
together
,
will
produce
:
But
we
must
let
'em
all
be
over
first
,
before
we
can
resolve
that
Question
.
I
thought
it
cunningly
done
,
not
to
give
her
Money
the
Evening
before
a
Confession
,
which
might
entice
her
against
us
,
the
more
easily
,
when
she
had
the
Money
beforehand
,
in
her
Pocket
:
I
keep
it
to
pervert
the
Fidelity
which
she
has
promis'd
her
Director
.
LETTER
XLI
.
CErtainly
,
it
is
not
prudence
in
me
,
to
discover
so
much
Tenderness
to
yee
.
But
I
could
not
conceal
it
from
yee
;
however
,
make
me
some
Acknowledgment
for
it
.
I
shall
not
prescribe
yee
what
to
do
,
but
leave
it
to
your self
.
't
is
when
you
have
this
Liberty
that
you
supply
me
with
Arms
to
Combat
the
violence
of
my
Inclination
for
yee
.
If
I
would
cure
my self
,
I
need
no
more
then
allow
yee
your
Freedom
,
and
you
,
I
'm
certain
of
it
,
will
furnish
me
with
Remedies
.
LETTER
XLII
.
I
Leave
nothing
omitted
to
alter
the
present
Disposition
of
my
Heart
,
in
reference
to
your self
.
I
have
read
your
this
Day's
Letter
several
times
,
at
a
time
that
mollify'd
my
Humour
,
and
put
me
into
a
favourable
Sedateness
of
Mind
:
I
read
it
under
a
Power
of
Honey-suckles
.
I
was
desirous
to
make
use
of
it
against
my
own
Sentiments
,
and
to
give
it
Strength
to
Triumph
over
my
Despite
and
my
Suspitions
.
But
it
could
not
get
the
Victory
,
't
was
more
then
it
was
able
to
perform
.
This
Letter
is
stuff'd
with
a
Thousand
Follies
that
have
an
Aire
of
Tenderness
.
Nevertheless
,
I
I
cannot
give
'em
Credit
,
to
the
Prejudice
of
my
daily
Experence
,
that
you
Love
me
not
so
much
as
you
believe
your self
belov'd
.
I
cannot
comply
with
Sentiments
of
this
Nature
,
and
I
must
acknowledge
,
that
I
shall
never
be
reconcil'd
to
'
em
.
The
Custom
of
the
World
has
taught
me
the
value
of
a
faithful
Heart
,
and
has
infus'd
a
Haughtiness
into
me
,
which
persuades
me
that
I
am
worthy
the
Affection
of
an
honest
Man
.
I
know
not
whither
I
am
deceiv'd
or
no
;
but
in
every
Respect
,
I
find
there
are
People
that
partake
of
my
Error
.
For
your
part
,
it
seems
as
if
you
only
came
into
the
World
to
mortifie
my
Self-love
.
It
has
been
my
shame
to
Love
you
first
of
all
,
to
tell
ye
so
,
and
't
is
no
less
my
Disgrace
,
that
I
am
not
so
well
belov'd
as
I
ought
to
be
.
You
cannot
imagine
how
much
I
am
humbl'd
by
what
my
Tenderness
has
caus'd
me
to
do
for
your
sake
.
My
perseverance
,
within
this
little
while
,
seems
inexcusable
;
I
treat
my self
with
a
Severity
that
ruins
me
;
my
Company
is
become
almost
as
formidable
as
my
Mothers
;
I
am
altogether
afraid
of
Solitude
,
and
I
go
as
seldom
as
I
can
to
the
Island
of
Love
.
As
for
this
place
,
I
have
no
Reason
to
fear
my
having
Freedom
enough
here
to
muse
:
I
watch
my self
so
narrowly
,
and
am
so
taken
up
with
the
Care
of
pleasing
others
,
that
I
have
hardly
time
to
sleep
.
This
befell
me
by
a
Luckey
Chance
,
that
re-call'd
my
Mother
to
Grenada
,
at
the
same
time
that
my
Father
,
being
indispos'd
,
was
forc'd
to
keep
his
Chamber
;
so
that
I
had
the
Liberty
to
walk
alone
and
read
your
Letter
.
I
receiv'd
it
here
;
and
,
indeed
,
your
Confidents
are
not
a
little
Guilty
of
your
want
of
Vivacity
.
For
,
they
keep
your
Letters
sometimes
two
Days
together
,
after
the
Arrival
of
the
Post
.
I
forgot
to
give
yee
Notice
of
it
;
and
it
behoves
me
to
wish
you
would
forget
to
Reform
;
and
the
rather
,
that
I
may
be
abandon'd
to
my
Despite
.
For
it
is
a
kind
of
Happiness
to
have
a
just
and
real
Cause
to
Complain
of
a
Man
,
with
whom
a
Woman
is
dissatisfy'd
;
and
,
on
the
other
side
,
't
is
an
insupportable
Torment
,
to
want
Resolution
to
abandon
an
Ungrateful
Person
.
I
have
,
for
some
time
suffer'd
Miseries
,
so
much
the
more
grievous
,
by
how
much
the
more
I
endeavour'd
to
conceal
'em
,
out
of
a
meer
motive
of
Caution
,
and
Respect
for
you
.
I
have
not
made
yee
acquainted
with
'em
hitherto
,
restrain'd
by
an
Effect
of
Self-love
,
but
I
do
not
hide
'em
from
Dona
Pepa
.
I
have
appear'd
to
her
,
somewhat
more
cool
then
usual
in
your
Concern
,
tho'
I
never
told
her
the
Reason
.
For
these
Fifteen
Days
past
,
that
I
forbore
to
write
to
yee
,
I
began
above
Ten
Letters
without
any
Aggravations
.
The
Desire
of
concealing
my
Sentiments
,
and
the
Difficulty
of
doing
it
,
render'd
the
Letter
so
difficult
,
that
in
all
this
time
I
could
finish
no
more
then
this
.
And
the
Stile
of
this
too
,
appears
to
me
to
be
so
odd
and
extravagant
,
that
I
expect
it
should
be
the
Occasion
of
another
Quarrel
between
us
.
LETTER
XLIII
.
I
Know
that
my
Friend
Loves
yee
;
that
she
has
also
a
Tenderness
for
me
,
and
a
quick
Understanding
.
I
have
been
to
Visit
her
,
and
contrary
to
the
Resolution
I
had
taken
to
conceal
my
Sentiments
from
her
,
I
have
enfolded
'em
to
her
,
and
conjur'd
her
to
Compassionate
my
Sufferings
.
I
stay'd
all
the
Afternoon
with
her
,
and
I
expected
to
have
been
severely
chid
,
but
she
has
infus'd
a
Courage
into
me
,
to
support
all
my
Misfortunes
,
by
telling
me
you
Love
me
.
I
can
never
be
miserable
so
long
as
I
am
belov'd
by
you
,
and
convinc'd
of
the
Truth
of
it
.
That
which
I
endure
,
when
I
think
I
have
Reason
to
doubt
of
your
Heart
,
gives
me
a
sufficient
Knowledge
of
it
:
But
I
am
now
a
little
more
at
Ease
.
If
you
enjoy
not
all
my
former
Tenderness
,
at
least
I
am
willing
to
restore
it
yee
again
.
I
combat
the
Remainder
of
my
Despite
with
the
Remembrance
of
the
many
Oaths
you
have
sworn
,
the
many
Vows
and
Protestations
you
have
made
me
.
And
I
shall
be
as
much
oblig'd
to
it
as
you
,
if
it
compleats
the
atoning
of
of
my
Anger
.
For
,
in
truth
,
I
ne'er
was
born
to
maunder
at
yee
:
For
I
oppose
my
Stars
when
I
do
it
.
But
have
a
care
,
that
I
may
not
think
my self
oblig'd
to
that
Extremity
.
If
you
Love
me
so
sincerely
,
as
my
Friend
would
persuade
me
,
make
it
appear
,
that
I
may
also
be
convinc'd
of
it
.
Above
all
things
,
remember
that
I
am
to
see
yee
again
within
a
Month
at
farthest
,
that
you
have
given
me
your
Word
,
and
that
to
fail
of
it
,
in
reference
to
me
,
would
be
a
Crime
unpardonable
.
While
my
Mind
was
disturb'd
,
I
was
Fifteen
Days
enditing
one
Letter
;
for
I
had
nothing
to
say
to
yee
.
Since
I
saw
my
Friend
,
I
have
so
great
a
Number
of
Things
to
write
to
yee
,
that
a
large
Folio
will
hardly
contain
'
em
.
Good
Night
,
Sir
;
we
must
be
playing
the
Fool
,
when
we
are
in
Love
.
LETTER
XLIV
.
HOw
scurvily
do
I
thank
my self
for
changing
so
quickly
from
Anger
to
Forgiveness
.
You
have
done
nothing
to
appease
me
;
you
have
not
so
much
as
receiv'd
my
Letters
;
and
yet
I
Love
yee
more
Tenderly
then
I
have
done
any
time
this
Six
Months
.
You
have
a
Faction
in
my
Heart
that
always
Triumphs
,
and
which
wins
the
Victory
,
without
ever
striking
a
stroke
.
However
,
I
am
not
troubl'd
that
my
extream
Feebleness
gives
yee
this
Advantage
,
provided
you
make
not
an
ill
Use
of
it
.
Lord
!
I
am
so
Melancholly
to
Day
,
that
I
can
set
my self
to
nothing
.
LETTER
XLV
.
IF
you
had
a
Thousand
Things
to
write
to
me
since
Thursday
,
what
a
world
would
I
have
said
to
yee
more
,
could
I
but
have
had
the
Pleasure
of
conversing
freely
with
yee
at
the
Marchioness's
,
as
well
as
seeing
yee
!
What
was
it
,
that
Love
did
not
make
me
sensible
of
,
during
those
few
Minutes
that
we
were
together
at
Mokelin
.
Oh!
the
Pleasures
that
I
tasted
are
too
great
to
be
exprest
.
They
are
only
to
be
reach'd
by
the
Imagination
that
far
surpasses
all
the
most
beautiful
Representations
of
Eloquence
.
Let
us
only
talk
of
those
which
we
were
blest
withal
on
Thursday
.
What
a
Chearfulness
enliven'd
my
Heart
,
what
a
Sparkling
in
my
Eyes
!
How
active
were
my
looks
and
glances
to
furnish
the
Ladies
,
that
made
me
their
discourse
,
with
critical
Observations
!
But
how
far
was
I
from
thinking
on
such
trivial
Things
!
't
was
much
I
did
not
altogether
forget
the
Company
,
and
that
I
did
not
break
out
into
a
too
open
and
extravagant
Display
of
my
Affection
for
yee
;
which
made
me
strive
,
as
much
as
in
me
lay
,
to
keep
within
the
Bounds
of
Prudence
.
But
I
must
confess
,
that
all
my
Endeavours
would
have
but
very
little
avail'd
had
not
your
Reserv'dness
,
and
continual
minding
other
Things
,
preserv'd
me
from
the
Danger
.
Never
speak
any
more
against
my
Briskness
,
since
it
agrees
with
a
violent
Kindness
.
Among
a
Thousand
Follies
that
I
utter'd
,
't
was
perceiv'd
,
that
I
had
a
world
of
Conceits
that
I
never
utter'd
.
But
as
for
your
part
,
you
mind
nothing
but
your
present
Pastime
,
and
never
think
of
me
at
all
.
You
slipp'd
from
me
more
then
once
,
while
I
was
talking
to
yee
,
when
you
might
well
be
assur'd
,
that
I
spake
nothing
but
what
contain'd
some
secret
Application
to
your self
.
Ah!
let
me
tell
yee
,
I
am
not
satisfy'd
with
your
Behaviour
.
You
are
neither
sufficiently
Nice
,
nor
sufficiently
Modest
.
Were
it
to
be
suspected
that
you
are
in
Love
with
me
,
what
is
the
meaning
of
the
Song
you
sung
?
I
conjure
yee
to
be
more
mindful
of
what
concerns
our
Love
,
if
you
have
any
value
for
it
.
Manage
the
Secret
with
all
the
care
imaginable
.
Our
Correspondence
will
continue
so
long
as
it
is
kept
conceal'd
.
But
so
soon
as
it
shall
be
nois'd
abroad
in
the
World
,
you
will
lose
me
,
and
lose
me
past
Recovery
.
But
woe
is
me
!
why
do
I
make
these
Complaints
?
Your
Passion
for
me
will
be
always
unknown
;
if
only
your
Sedulities
and
eager
Pursuits
of
my
Affection
can
discover
it
;
for
they
are
very
Moderate
.
You
never
minded
what
I
said
,
that
I
intended
to
be
at
Dona
Juana's
on
Friday
;
where
I
was
,
and
waited
,
God
knows
,
in
vain
for
you
.
Once
more
I
am
not
satisfy'd
with
your
Behaviour
.
I
return'd
from
the
Promenade
;
whither
I
went
with
that
Emotion
that
put
our
Spirits
in
a
kind
of
tingling
Rapture
,
when
we
think
to
meet
the
Person
that
we
Love
;
but
you
ne'er
appear'd
.
Oh!
how
little
do
you
know
me
,
if
you
thought
me
too
much
engag'd
to
observe
your
too
much
dis-respective
Conduct
.
If
I
never
requir'd
any
thing
at
your
Hands
,
the
Reason
is
,
because
you
never
were
my
Lover
,
tho'
I
were
your
Mistriss
.
But
now
,
that
you
would
fain
persuade
me
that
you
Love
me
,
and
that
I
may
believe
it
without
Vanity
,
I
expect
from
yee
all
that
a
young
Virgin
is
priviledg'd
to
exact
from
a
Person
by
whom
she
is
so
dearly
belov'd
.
I
would
have
yee
most
earnestly
diligent
to
find
me
out
and
see
me
,
and
to
suffer
the
prudence
of
your
Conduct
,
and
the
management
of
my
Parents
Jealousie
,
to
be
indebted
only
to
my
Will
.
I
cannot
write
any
longer
,
without
usurping
too
much
upon
my
Sleep
;
and
I
am
willing
to
reserve
my self
against
to
morrow
,
in
Hopes
to
see
you
.
LETTER
XLVI
.
I
Always
thought
it
in
our
Power
to
surcease
loving
a
Friend
,
when
once
suspected
of
being
guilty
of
Change
.
But
had
it
not
been
for
the
President
with
which
you
furnish
me
,
I
could
ne'er
have
thought
it
possible
we
could
forsake
a
Person
that
suffers
only
for
the
love
of
us
.
The
more
grievous
our
Misfortunes
are
,
the
more
we
are
ingag'd
in
acknowledgment
to
those
that
endure
'em
:
but
't
is
the
most
cruel
effect
of
my
Misfortune
to
lose
your
Heart
by
the
same
ways
that
ought
to
secure
it
to
me
.
Good
Gods
!
is
it
possible
that
I
should
suffer
so
many
Torments
for
a
Lover
so
unjust
.
How
sad
and
disconsolate
is
my
Fate
!
I
have
lost
all
to
preserve
your
Heart
,
but
I
must
lose
it
,
because
it
becomes
ingratefull
.
How
severely
have
I
been
dealt
with
by
my
Parents
!
I
spar'd
the
full
Relation
of
it
,
for
fear
of
afflicting
that
Tenderness
which
I
thought
you
had
for
me
.
But
since
I
find
I
am
not
in
your
Thoughts
,
(
for
I
no
longer
doubt
it
now
)
I
will
set
forth
,
if
I
am
able
,
the
Horrour
which
a
Woman
of
Gayety
imagines
to
her self
,
from
an
Assembly
of
her
nearest
Relations
,
met
on
purpose
,
as
she
is
assur'd
,
to
cloyster
her
up
in
Confinement
.
I
saw
that
Brother
whom
I
so
much
despis'd
,
in
the
same
Trouble
wherein
I
was
,
and
tasting
at
leisure
the
Pleasure
of
Revenge
.
My
Father
pushes
on
his
Transports
to
the
utmost
Extremity
,
and
my
Mother
forsakes
me
;
they
have
tak'n
from
me
my
Women
,
for
whom
I
had
the
greatest
Kindness
,
and
all
manner
of
Liberty
.
Are
these
to
be
accounted
slight
Misfortunes
?
Inhumane
Cruelty
!
and
when
a
Friend
suffers
so
many
Miseries
without
murmuring
,
or
loving
e'er
a
whit
the
less
the
Person
upon
whom
she
has
reason
to
look
as
the
only
cause
of
her
Unhappiness
,
do's
she
deserve
to
be
forgot
,
or
that
the
Person
whom
she
loves
,
should
so
studiously
seek
out
which
way
to
stifle
the
slender
remainder
of
Acknowledgment
which
he
had
for
her
?
You
will
prove
but
too
successfull
in
your
Attempt
.
You
have
already
gone
a
great
way
in
laying
your
Design
.
They
that
continually
struggle
with
an
unfortunate
Passion
,
may
easily
overcome
it
.
But
go
on
,
and
perfect
your
Work
;
and
forget
me
so
absolutely
,
that
there
may
remain
no
Idea
of
me
in
your
Thoughts
.
How
amiable
soever
they
may
be
that
please
ye
,
I
am
persuaded
you
cannot
but
without
trouble
of
Spirit
call
to
mind
in
their
Company
those
few
Moments
trifl'd
away
in
the
Alhambra
,
and
at
Zacarin
,
which
in
the
midst
of
a
Thousand
Fears
had
those
Charms
that
are
not
discern'd
in
a
Conversation
free
and
undisturb'd
.
The
dolefull
Meetings
at
the
Fortress
,
and
in
the
Palace
;
those
Meetings
,
I
say
,
which
notwithstanding
the
Melancholly
that
attended
'em
,
had
yet
their
extraordinary
Allays
of
pleasing
Content
,
cannot
return
to
your
Memory
without
upbraiding
your
Inconstancy
.
However
,
never
think
,
that
it
is
because
I
would
deliver
ye
from
the
Repentance
that
accompanies
an
Error
which
is
apparent
to
me
,
that
I
would
have
ye
forget
me
;
't
is
that
I
my self
may
avoid
the
most
grievous
of
Adversities
,
which
is
to
be
the
Subject
of
scornfull
Discourse
,
and
a
Sacrifice
to
please
a
new
Mistress
.
If
my
Prayers
are
heard
,
you
will
forget
my
very
Name
,
and
you
will
abandon
me
for
ever
to
all
the
Severity
of
my
Fate
.
Suffer
me
to
spend
the
Remainder
of
my
Life
in
a
profound
Solitude
,
where
I
may
have
only
the
Consolation
to
consider
that
you
know
full
well
,
that
't
is
for
your
sake
that
I
renounce
the
rest
of
the
World
;
that
you
are
the
only
Person
my
Soul
passionately
affects
;
and
that
all
the
World
is
lost
to
me
when
you
are
lost
.
For
in
the
mind
you
are
to
blot
me
out
of
your
Remembrance
,
you
will
never
so
much
as
enquire
after
me
.
You
will
be
afraid
to
be
inform'd
of
my
Actions
,
and
my
very
Name
will
be
troublesome
to
your
Ears
.
You
write
me
word
,
that
if
I
lov'd
ye
still
,
I
would
find
a
way
to
meet
ye
,
notwithstanding
my
Confinement
.
But
if
you
had
a
real
Kindness
for
me
,
would
not
your
ingenious
Affection
have
taught
ye
some
Contrivance
to
have
appear'd
where
I
might
have
seen
ye
?
Oh!
I
am
constrain'd
to
tell
ye
more
then
I
would
say
.
How
difficult
a
thing
is
it
for
a
Woman
to
disguise
her
Heart
from
him
she
loves
!
and
how
passionately
do
I
love
you
,
notwithstanding
your
Ingratitude
.
LETTER
XLVII
.
AT
length
I
have
heard
from
ye
;
but
Good
God!
what
sorrowful
Tydings
do
I
hear
!
You
are
very
ill
;
and
I
am
so
very
far
remote
from
yee
,
that
there
may
a
thousand
fatal
Accidents
befal
ye
,
and
I
never
the
wiser
,
nor
you
be
able
to
observe
the
violence
of
my
Pain
.
It
surpasses
all
Expression
,
Sir
;
this
last
Adventure
triumphs
over
all
my
Patience
;
I
am
not
Proof
against
so
sensible
a
Misfortune
.
All
the
Calamities
I
have
undergone
are
inconsiderable
to
this
,
that
is
to
say
,
to
know
that
the
Person
whom
I
love
so
tenderly
is
in
imminent
Danger
.
Yes
,
you
are
worse
then
Dona
Pepa
writes
me
word
.
She
was
willing
to
spare
me
:
But
she
has
said
enough
to
put
me
into
the
most
cruel
Frights
that
ever
terrify'd
a
Female
Breast
.
Fits
once
in
Four
and
twenty
hours
are
Mischiefs
difficult
to
be
withstood
.
Alas
!
how
much
Reason
have
I
to
be
afraid
!
But
,
Sir
,
consider
in
the
midst
of
your
Affliction
,
how
deeply
I
am
concern'd
;
and
let
your
Assurance
that
I
partake
of
your
Grievance
,
and
that
I
love
yee
,
serve
to
render
your
Life
more
precious
,
and
make
ye
more
careful
to
preserve
it
.
LETTER
XLVIII
.
I
Am
over-joy'd
that
you
believe
me
worth
the
Visiting
,
and
that
the
more
you
see
me
,
the
more
I
inspire
yee
with
that
Desire
;
and
I
dare
say
,
it
would
be
still
more
fervent
,
could
we
but
have
the
Happiness
more
frequently
to
see
each
other
.
You
are
not
acquainted
,
either
with
my
Disposition
,
or
my
Conditions
.
't
is
true
,
that
I
owe
yee
whatever
either
the
one
and
the
other
has
of
Merit
.
I
am
sensible
of
it
every
Day
,
both
by
my
own
Judgment
,
and
by
the
Esteem
of
my
Friends
.
I
hope
so
well
to
imitate
whatever
is
Extraordinary
in
your
Letters
,
and
in
your
Conversation
,
that
I
shall
one
Day
approve
my self
worthy
to
please
yee
,
and
perhaps
I
may
become
an
Honour
to
your
peculiar
Love
.
LETTER
XLIX
.
TO
shew
yee
,
that
my
Courage
is
not
a
meer
Rhodomontade
,
if
you
please
I
will
see
ye
to
morrow
.
But
you
must
contrive
a
way
to
slip
into
honest
Pepa's
,
so
as
to
deceive
the
Vigilancy
of
my
Jealous
Argus's
.
You
must
also
manage
your self
with
infinite
Prudence
for
a
good
while
,
and
omit
nothing
to
disabuse
'em
,
or
,
to
speak
more
properly
,
to
delude
'em
as
much
as
possibly
you
can
.
It
behoves
us
to
obtain
our
Happiness
at
any
Price
.
What
a
Felicity
will
it
be
to
see
our selves
at
Liberty
,
after
so
many
Frights
and
Fears
!
If
I
may
believe
your
Looks
Yesterday
,
you
are
no
less
impatient
to
see
what
will
become
of
us
,
link'd
,
as
we
are
,
in
an
eternal
Bond
of
Amity
.
I
was
infinitely
satisfy'd
with
your
Behaviour
,
and
your
Discretion
,
in
getting
away
,
so
speedily
,
from
your
Friend
.
They
must
have
cost
yee
very
dear
;
for
I
am
sensible
,
I
should
have
had
a
world
of
trouble
to
quit
the
former
.
I
make
no
question
but
the
sight
of
Don
Gaspar
rais'd
a
kind
of
Commotion
in
your
Breast
.
My
Trouble
was
extream
;
and
I
was
afraid
of
what
might
have
befallen
me
,
by
Reason
of
such
an
unlucky
Accident
.
But
that
same
Sentiment
of
mine
,
soon
gave
way
to
another
more
noble
.
I
look'd
upon
him
as
your
Rival
and
your
Enemy
:
And
under
both
these
Characters
,
he
appear'd
to
be
the
most
odious
of
all
Mankind
.
I
know
not
which
is
most
predominant
in
me
,
the
Extremity
of
my
Hatred
of
Him
,
or
of
my
Tenderness
for
You
.
But
my
Mother
has
sent
for
me
,
and
without
question
't
is
to
resume
the
Discourse
,
which
was
interrupted
this
Morning
.
I
am
going
to
her
,
with
a
Design
to
do
Wonders
.
A
Continuation
of
the
same
Letter
.
I
am
return'd
from
a
deal
of
Chat
,
like
a
World
of
other
Stories
of
which
I
have
inform'd
yee
.
't
is
known
that
I
have
seen
ye
,
and
in
regard
't
is
also
known
that
Don
Gaspar
was
there
,
't
is
he
without
doubt
that
blabb'd
it
.
I
defended
my self
resolutely
,
and
without
any
thing
of
Bitterness
.
I
gave
'em
such
good
Reasons
,
that
they
were
almost
asham'd
that
they
had
carry'd
their
Suspicions
and
their
Transports
so
high
.
They
would
have
laid
an
Injunction
upon
me
never
to
stir
out
.
I
besought
'em
not
to
use
me
so
severely
.
I
told
'em
it
was
now
high
time
for
me
to
appear
in
the
World
,
observing
a
regular
and
even
Conduct
;
that
they
should
always
find
mine
to
be
such
;
and
that
it
was
not
to
be
imagin'd
,
that
because
I
had
a
desire
to
marry
according
to
my
own
Inclination
,
I
should
be
a
Prisoner
all
the
days
of
my
Life
:
That
it
was
a
sufficient
Expiation
of
that
weakness
in
me
,
that
I
restrain'd
my self
the
same
Liberty
,
and
the
same
Pleasures
that
other
Virgins
of
my
Age
were
not
afraid
or
scrupulous
to
take
:
That
I
thought
it
a
great
Point
of
Self-denial
,
that
I
never
went
to
Comedies
,
nor
to
the
Spring-Gardens
of
Albarkin
,
and
so
rarely
to
the
Palace
and
the
Governante's
,
that
I
might
hardly
be
said
to
go
at
all
.
Thus
I
argu'd
without
any
Heat
;
for
I
had
fix'd
my
Resolution
before
.
And
I
am
resolv'd
,
to
carry
my self
so
dextrously
,
that
they
may
have
nothing
to
lay
fresh
to
my
Charge
,
and
so
as
to
prepossess
the
World
to
my
Advantages
.
As
to
what
remains
,
I
Love
yee
,
Sir
,
and
shall
love
yee
eternally
with
that
Fidelity
,
that
nothing
shall
separate
me
from
yee
.
These
new
Persecutions
which
they
cause
me
to
suffer
,
seem
to
add
new
Strength
to
my
Esteem
.
Great
Passions
are
attended
with
a
nobleness
and
magnanimity
,
that
makes
'em
look
upon
all
Difficulties
and
Obstacles
,
as
Opportunities
to
acquire
Honour
,
and
redouble
the
Esteem
of
those
that
are
belov'd
.
Thus
Sir
,
I
have
given
yee
an
Account
,
with
what
Sentiments
I
waited
upon
my
Father
,
very
little
concern'd
with
what
my
Relations
either
thought
or
said
.
They
have
worn
out
my
Affection
for
them
,
and
I
am
sensible
of
no
Love
but
for
your self
.
LETTER
L.
NOtwithstanding
your
Injustice
and
the
Wrongs
you
have
done
me
,
I
cannot
refuse
my self
the
Consolation
of
telling
you
what
I
think
.
Tenderness
and
Despite
predominate
by
turns
in
my
Heart
,
and
vex
it
with
such
violent
Agitations
,
that
I
can
no
longer
withstand
'
em
.
't
is
as
much
as
my
Life
is
worth
,
if
they
last
Four
and
twenty
Hours
.
I
am
overwhelm'd
,
nor
is
it
possible
my
Body
should
any
longer
resist
the
Convulsions
of
my
Mind
.
I
wish
to
God
this
Night
may
conduct
me
to
the
Shades
of
Death
;
or
,
at
least
,
that
I
may
be
able
to
endure
my
Torments
,
without
complaining
and
without
discovering
them
to
you
.
't
is
the
Accomplishment
of
my
Misfortunes
,
to
know
the
little
Power
I
have
over
my
Heart
.
But
consider
,
ungrateful
Man
,
that
't
is
of
you
I
speak
,
to
the
end
I
may
never
speak
of
yee
more
as
long
as
I
live
;
that
this
is
to
be
the
last
Letter
you
will
receive
from
me
,
and
that
I
am
going
to
bury
in
eternal
Silence
my
Tenderness
and
my
Grief
.
LETTER
LI
.
Written
by
break
of
Day
.
THe
Hour
of
the
Day
sufficiently
demonstrates
,
that
they
who
are
in
Love
,
never
sleep
in
quietness
.
I
could
no
longer
rest
in
my
Bed
;
I
left
it
,
to
stand
and
muse
at
my
Window
,
and
so
many
beautiful
Objects
,
as
I
there
beheld
,
augmented
my
Melancholy
and
my
Tenderness
:
And
I
could
not
refrain
from
writing
to
yee
,
at
a
time
,
when
of
all
things
that
breathe
,
the
Birds
and
Lovers
are
the
only
Creatures
that
never
taste
the
Sweets
of
Sleep
;
both
the
one
and
the
other
are
awaken'd
by
Love
.
But
with
what
a
vast
Difference
do
we
partake
the
Pains
of
it
!
All
that
can
torment
a
Heart
,
are
felt
by
mine
.
I
cannot
refrain
from
Loving
yee
,
unless
I
cease
to
Live
;
yet
I
consume
my
Days
without
your
Company
.
What
a
Torture
is
this
!
Nothing
could
equal
the
Disturbances
which
your
Sickness
has
caus'd
within
me
:
nothing
could
depaint
it
forth
,
no
more
then
the
excess
of
my
Joy
to
hear
of
your
Recovery
.
But
there
is
a
necessity
of
seeing
you
,
to
compleat
that
Joy
;
and
to
hear
you
tell
me
,
you
were
more
sensible
of
my
Absence
,
then
of
your
Distemper
,
that
so
I
may
be
able
to
forget
what
your
Sickness
has
caus'd
me
to
endure
.
My
Vexations
have
been
so
much
the
more
sharp
and
terrible
,
by
Reason
I
am
enforc'd
to
restrain
and
confine
'em
within
my
own
Brest
.
I
am
here
constrain'd
to
be
Complaisant
,
and
sometimes
in
a
merry
Humour
.
But
while
I
seek
to
divertise
others
,
and
that
they
Flatter
me
with
being
acceptable
Company
,
I
torment
my self
beyond
Expression
,
and
wholly
possess'd
by
my
Sorrows
,
I
abhor
all
the
Delights
,
with
which
the
rest
of
the
Society
are
pleas'd
.
Sometimes
,
assail'd
by
my
Misfortunes
,
I
endeavour'd
to
repell
'
em
.
And
more
then
once
I
have
essay'd
I
must
Confess
,
by
means
of
the
present
Objects
,
to
wear
out
the
Impression
which
you
have
printed
on
my
Mind
.
The
small
Hope
of
ever
being
Happy
in
that
Friendship
I
have
for
yee
,
and
the
terrible
Misfortunes
,
to
which
I
am
every
Day
expos'd
by
the
severity
and
vigilance
of
my
Parents
,
have
tempted
me
to
put
yee
quite
out
of
my
Thoughts
.
But
all
these
Reflexions
prove
Fruitless
;
and
the
most
violent
Diversions
,
leave
an
empty
space
in
my
Heart
,
which
only
you
can
supply
.
I
find
none
but
you
that
Merits
my
Esteem
and
Tenderness
.
You
so
entirely
possess
me
,
that
I
can
hardly
taste
the
Sweets
of
Friendship
;
in
regard
,
you
appear
to
me
,
to
be
the
only
Person
worthy
to
be
my
Friend
as
well
as
Husband
.
As
for
the
Friendship
of
Women
,
you
well
know
what
an
Opinion
I
have
of
it
;
and
having
so
much
Reason
to
suspect
the
Failing
of
my
Female
Friend
,
as
I
took
her
to
be
,
I
shall
never
engage
in
a
strict
Tye
of
Friendship
with
any
other
.
What
would
I
give
to
be
here
,
while
the
Court
resides
in
this
Country
!
I
spent
the
whole
Day
Yesterday
,
where
it
is
to
remain
.
I
saw
all
the
Places
which
you
will
see
,
and
envy
their
Happiness
.
I
would
purchase
that
Place
where
I
might
be
seen
by
you
,
at
the
price
of
all
that
is
most
dear
to
me
in
the
World
.
But
the
Morning
advances
apace
,
and
the
heat
of
the
Sun
drives
me
from
my
Window
,
where
I
am
writing
these
Lines
.
However
,
before
I
go
to
Bed
again
,
I
will
give
you
a
Prospect
of
my
Chamber
.
It
looks
out
upon
a
large
Garden
surrounded
with
Terras'd
Walks
,
having
on
the
right
Hand
,
a
Grove
of
Orange-Trees
,
and
on
the
other
,
a
gloomy
Thicket
,
extreamly
Delightful
for
the
shady
Covert
of
the
spreading
Boughs
.
The
Genil
runs
at
the
bottom
of
the
Terras
,
clearer
then
in
any
other
part
.
A
stately
House
seated
on
the
other
side
of
the
River
,
serves
for
a
piece
of
Perspective
to
this
.
On
the
one
side
,
you
behold
a
spacious
City
,
on
the
other
a
Royal
Palace
,
and
in
several
Parts
such
pleasant
Hillocks
,
that
the
Elysian
Fields
could
never
be
more
Charming
.
A
Thousand
Boats
and
small
Vessels
,
obedient
to
the
Stream
,
amuse
the
Eyes
,
and
at
the
very
instant
of
my
writing
,
the
early
Sun-Beams
afford
still
new
Charms
to
so
many
admirable
Objects
.
At
this
very
moment
I
behold
one
of
the
most
beautiful
Pittances
of
the
Universe
.
But
,
alas
!
I
do
not
see
you
there
:
And
then
,
what
Pleasure
can
all
these
Varieties
afford
me
?
Rather
they
call
back
my
wandering
Sorrows
,
while
the
Prospect
of
so
many
Places
,
so
proper
for
such
tender
Conversations
as
ours
,
makes
me
more
sensible
of
the
hard
Fate
that
separates
us
.
But
I
must
not
Complain
so
soon
,
considering
what
I
have
so
lately
avoided
.
The
Thoughts
of
having
escap'd
an
eternal
Separation
,
asswages
my
Pains
;
for
mine
is
almost
at
an
end
I
am
returning
to
Grenada
.
Adieu
,
Sir
;
for
I
once
more
find
yee
Tender
and
Faithful
.
LETTER
LII
.
You
're
an
ungrateful
Man
:
I
never
Lov'd
yee
so
Tenderly
as
now
I
do
;
and
if
my
Affection
be
less
for
you
,
't
is
because
you
have
no
more
Kindness
for
me
.
What
a
Pleasure
't
is
to
me
,
to
hear
you
make
the
same
Complaints
which
I
did
formerly
!
How
sweet
is
this
Revenge
to
my
Heart
!
Ah!
how
extream
soever
your
Tenderness
may
be
for
me
,
yet
will
you
still
be
behind-hand
with
me
;
since
the
Friendship
I
have
for
yee
,
prevails
above
that
Haughtiness
and
Disdain
which
is
more
natural
to
Women
then
to
Men
.
Nevertheless
,
you
are
still
as
Proud
as
ever
;
and
notwithstanding
the
Violence
of
a
Passion
,
which
you
would
make
me
believe
to
be
extream
,
yet
nothing
escapes
yee
,
that
may
create
a
Suspition
in
your
Friend
,
that
you
are
less
belov'd
.
Is
he
so
Happy
as
to
Love
such
a
Maiden
as
I
,
with
so
much
Delicacy
,
as
never
to
be
satisfy'd
with
the
Sentiments
of
her
Heart
?
Wherefore
is
it
,
since
you
are
not
so
fully
pleas'd
with
mine
,
that
you
never
disclose
your
Dissatisfaction
to
my
Friend
?
Your
Tranquility
of
Mind
offends
me
:
I
have
display'd
to
her
how
hainously
I
take
your
Absence
,
and
your
Obstinacy
,
to
tarry
with
the
King
,
till
the
very
last
moment
of
his
Return
.
Do
you
think
I
can
be
Contented
with
the
small
Power
that
I
have
?
As
for
your
part
,
you
have
Reason
to
believe
,
that
I
will
ever
require
yee
to
renounce
your
Duty
.
You
well
know
how
many
Pleasures
I
have
Sacrific'd
to
the
Performance
of
it
,
without
Complaining
.
But
,
in
truth
,
we
have
not
always
the
same
Reason
about
us
.
There
are
certain
Minutes
when
Friendship
is
too
predominant
over
Sence
and
Judgment
.
I
would
fain
,
that
your
abandoning
your self
to
my
Desires
,
might
prove
an
Argument
to
inflame
your
Duty
,
and
press
yee
to
be
more
earnest
to
give
your
Attendance
at
Court
.
LETTER
LIII
.
WE
shall
see
whether
you
will
be
as
good
as
your
Word
;
and
whither
you
will
not
depart
from
hence
,
without
my
leave
.
I
assure
yee
,
I
will
grant
it
sooner
then
you
imagine
.
My
Relations
put
me
to
a
great
Strait
,
and
require
from
me
that
Care
,
that
I
shall
never
be
able
to
take
,
when
I
know
you
are
at
Grenada
.
And
thus
you
see
me
in
the
most
ticklish
Minutes
of
my
Life
.
But
I
look
upon
the
Restraint
,
that
it
will
cost
me
,
without
Trouble
,
as
being
the
only
means
that
will
facilitate
the
way
to
our
Nuptials
.
I
was
Yesterday
,
all
the
Afternoon
,
with
Dona
Pepa
,
and
she
encourages
me
wonderfully
,
and
promises
me
,
in
a
little
time
,
the
Happiness
of
your
Company
,
without
such
a
deal
of
Caution
.
To
bring
it
to
pass
,
there
is
nothing
which
I
will
not
undertake
on
my
part
:
And
,
in
regard
I
can
never
succeed
,
but
by
carrying
my self
with
all
Severity
and
Exactness
,
I
will
be
sure
to
do
all
that
can
be
done
:
For
in
short
,
Sir
,
't
is
time
that
our
Sufferings
were
at
an
end
,
and
that
our
Pains
,
should
at
length
,
be
Recompenc'd
by
a
merited
Retaliation
of
Delights
.
My
Friend
has
assur'd
me
,
that
I
might
see
you
at
her
House
,
provided
it
be
with
great
precaution
on
both
sides
;
we
cannot
enjoy
a
greater
Consolation
,
and
less
Dangerous
:
And
,
't
is
my
Opinion
,
that
we
should
accept
of
this
Offer
for
Monday
,
and
that
you
give
her
a
Visit
upon
Sunday
,
to
desire
of
her
,
as
a
Favour
,
what
she
has
already
granted
me
.
You
will
find
this
Letter
very
full
of
Business
;
and
there
is
good
Reason
for
it
;
in
regard
it
is
impossible
to
have
Business
of
so
great
Importance
,
and
not
to
consult
about
it
.
LETTER
LIV
.
I
Am
Troubl'd
above
measure
,
to
think
what
will
become
of
that
same
terrible
Indignation
,
which
you
have
conceiv'd
against
me
.
However
,
I
rely
upon
your
second
Thoughts
.
Doubtless
,
you
will
find
,
when
you
come
to
consider
seriously
,
that
my
Behaviour
has
not
been
so
much
blame-worthy
,
as
it
seem'd
to
ye
at
first
.
I
hope
you
will
write
to
me
,
and
that
you
will
not
chide
me
any
more
.
Nevertheless
,
I
am
also
no
less
afraid
,
least
your
Anger
should
continue
,
and
that
the
Approbation
of
it
,
by
your
Friend
and
mine
,
has
confirm'd
you
in
it
.
But
certainly
,
't
would
be
my self
,
that
would
have
much
more
Reason
to
let
loose
my
Passion
,
should
yee
long
cherish
your
Disgust
,
and
not
send
to
me
any
more
as
you
threaten
me
.
But
your
Sentiments
are
endu'd
with
too
nice
a●
Affection
for
me
to
forsake
ye
;
because
that
for
some
time
,
I
have
pr●ferr'd
my
Duty
before
the
Pleasure
〈◇〉
your
Company
,
which
is
the
only
Pleasure
of
my
Life
.
Believe
me
,
I
understand
it
much
better
then
you
do
.
Nor
is
the
Necessity
of
my
Duty
so
opposite
as
you
imagine
to
the
Interest
of
our
Love
:
And
my
being
Sacrific'd
at
this
time
,
will
repay
us
,
with
double
Use
,
the
Pleasures
which
it
now
deprives
us
of
.
You
threaten
me
,
that
I
shall
be
always
a
Prisoner
;
but
you
deceive
your self
:
And
I
repeat
once
more
,
what
I
have
already
signify'd
in
my
Last
,
I
must
confine
my self
a
while
,
to
please
my
Mother
,
and
after
that
,
I
shall
be
out
of
her
Managment
.
And
I
am
so
convinc'd
of
this
,
that
nothing
can
alter
my
Resolution
,
not
to
hazard
any
thing
till
that
time
,
when
you
shall
see
me
both
combat
and
vanquish
my
own
Desires
,
and
resist
Love
for
Love's
Sake
.
It
has
been
our
Impatience
that
has
reduc'd
us
to
the
Necessity
of
so
long
a
Remedy
.
My
Father's
Jealousies
had
never
time
to
wast
themselves
:
And
,
had
we
not
been
unhappy
,
we
should
ne'er
have
been
able
to
have
made
our
Misfortunes
beneficial
to
us
for
the
Future
.
't
is
time
to
amend
our
Errors
,
and
to
put
our Selves
in
a
Condition
to
unite
our
Destinies
for
ever
.
LETTER
LV
.
YOU
intended
well
,
no
doubt
,
but
the
Counsel
which
you
gave
me
,
to
restrain
my
Grief
,
has
not
succeeded
.
All
my
Endeavours
to
conceal
it
,
have
only
serv'd
to
render
it
more
Violent
.
It
made
so
strong
an
Impression
in
my
Heart
,
that
for
Eight
and
forty
Hours
,
no
body
hardly
knew
it
,
and
all
that
I
admitted
into
my
Chamber
were
surpriz'd
to
see
me
.
My
Parents
are
more
incens'd
against
me
then
ever
:
They
are
persuaded
I
am
in
Love
,
and
that
you
are
the
Object
of
my
Passion
;
and
the
ill
Success
of
their
Persecutions
has
so
exasperated
their
Minds
,
that
I
have
Reason
to
be
afraid
of
their
more
violent
Transports
.
But
I
have
so
well
dis-entangl'd
my self
from
their
Disgust
of
my
Devotion
for
you
,
that
they
cannot
forbear
to
Respect
the
Constancy
of
my
Sentiments
;
and
,
for
a
while
,
both
my
Father
and
Mother
treated
me
with
much
more
kindness
and
moderation
,
then
they
had
done
in
a
long
time
before
.
And
thus
,
that
which
was
my
Crime
,
becomes
my
Consolation
;
since
,
while
I
understand
,
that
't
is
my
Tenderness
for
you
,
which
occasions
all
the
Misfortunes
of
my
Life
,
I
also
find
,
that
so
noble
a
Friendship
,
enforces
them
themselves
that
Persecute
me
,
to
have
a
Value
for
me
.
How
strongly
does
this
Experience
confirm
me
in
the
Opinion
I
always
had
,
ever
since
I
had
a
Kindness
for
yee
,
that
nothing
more
excuses
a
Virgin's
Love
,
then
Loving
to
excess
;
and
,
that
then
her
Love
appears
to
be
excessive
,
even
in
the
Judgment
of
the
most
Austere
,
when
she
is
not
observ'd
by
any
Action
of
hers
,
to
derogate
from
a
real
Esteem
.
Mine
,
for
you
,
believe
me
,
Sir
,
is
arriv'd
to
the
highest
Degree
:
Nor
is
it
possible
to
Love
a
Man
more
tenderly
then
I
Love
you
;
nor
to
be
more
unfortunate
then
I
am
.
And
now
assure
your self
,
that
I
shall
never
Pardon
your
shewing
your self
to
me
,
the
last
time
that
you
are
like
to
see
me
,
more
Airy
,
and
more
Lovely
then
ever
I
saw
yee
before
.
If
the
Idea
of
your
Person
,
which
you
have
imprinted
in
me
,
be
such
as
may
justly
incline
me
to
a
Dislike
of
all
other
Men
,
it
is
no
less
capable
,
more
deeply
to
engage
me
to
have
a
greater
Affection
for
you
.
And
it
behoves
you
,
for
my
Welfare
,
to
wish
,
that
I
had
never
Lov'd
yee
at
all
.
LETTER
LVI
.
WE
have
no
Reason
to
be
afraid
of
remote
Misfortunes
:
they
must
be
near
at
hand
,
to
be
felt
in
their
full
Extent
;
and
whatever
I
have
suffer'd
for
these
Fifteen
Days
together
,
all
is
nothing
to
a
surprizing
Apprehension
which
has
siez'd
me
,
not
above
two
hours
agoe
,
that
I
must
never
see
you
more
,
perhaps
as
long
as
I
live
.
The
Business
is
concluded
;
my
Parents
have
taken
their
Resolutions
;
and
I
am
ruin'd
past
Recovery
,
should
I
discover
the
least
Motion
tending
to
a
Correspondence
with
you
.
My
Father
is
inform'd
of
every
thing
,
and
is
resolv'd
upon
the
utmost
Extremities
.
This
is
no
pannick
Fear
;
for
one
of
his
Friends
disclos'd
it
to
me
yesterday
.
My
Father
has
carry'd
things
too
high
,
to
go
back
from
his
Determinations
:
and
I
have
no
other
Course
to
take
then
to
plunge
my self
in
Solitude
and
Lamentation
.
The
very
moment
of
so
cruel
a
separation
is
no
time
to
express
my
thoughts
at
large
:
we
should
but
augment
an
unfortunate
Tenderness
,
which
it
behoves
us
rather
to
wish
extinguish'd
.
Not
but
that
I
my self
would
have
it
to
be
eternal
.
I
have
lov'd
ye
in
such
a
manner
as
to
love
ye
as
long
as
I
live
.
My
Tenderness
and
my
Esteem
have
always
been
so
extraordinary
,
and
I
have
seen
ye
so
seldom
,
that
I
am
assur'd
I
should
love
ye
,
tho'
I
never
saw
ye
.
Never
shall
Indifferency
take
place
in
those
Sentiments
which
I
have
for
ye
.
But
as
for
you
Sir
,
whose
more
sedate
Affection
has
more
need
of
my
Company
and
my
Letters
,
to
cherish
and
keep
it
alive
,
may
I
flatter
my self
,
that
you
will
not
forget
me
,
but
that
preserving
the
Remembrance
of
my
Person
,
and
of
the
Marks
of
Esteem
and
Distinction
which
I
have
always
paid
ye
,
you
will
be
always
ready
to
keep
your
Word
,
if
ever
I
happen
to
be
at
Liberty
to
act
according
to
my
Inclination
?
For
never
think
that
I
have
lost
all
my
Hopes
of
seeing
you
again
one
day
.
If
these
fair
Hopes
did
not
support
me
,
doubtless
I
should
dye
,
and
sink
for
ever
under
the
Burthen
of
my
Sufferings
.
But
still
I
flatter
my self
,
that
Time
and
Fortune
will
recover
me
from
a
Condition
so
unhappy
and
miserable
;
and
enable
me
to
give
you
new
Testimonies
of
my
Tenderness
.
LETTER
LVII
.
YOU
have
been
taken
for
a
Thief
;
and
you
have
been
taken
for
what
you
were
:
for
no
Man
in
the
World
knows
better
how
to
steal
a
Heart
then
you
.
The
Clamours
that
have
separated
Us
,
and
wherein
we
never
thought
you
were
concern'd
,
were
all
occasion'd
by
your self
;
and
the
Porter
believing
that
Thieves
were
got
into
my
Mother's
Closet
,
rais'd
all
the
Servants
,
and
made
such
a
noise
,
that
the
like
was
never
heard
.
However
,
you
may
be
sure
that
I
was
none
of
those
that
was
the
least
forward
,
or
least
daring
,
in
regard
I
knew
how
small
the
Danger
was
that
seem'd
so
formidable
to
a
Band
of
Armed
Footmen
.
They
thought
themselves
for
two
hours
together
in
the
greatest
Jeopardy
that
ever
they
were
in
,
i'
their
Lives
.
't
is
true
,
their
fear
was
little
in
comparison
of
my
Sister's
,
who
is
not
yet
recover'd
from
a
terrible
Fit
of
an
Ague
which
she
has
had
.
But
there
could
not
have
happen'd
an
Accident
more
pernicious
to
our
Correspondence
.
And
this
shews
us
,
that
there
is
nothing
certain
,
since
honest
Ignez
begins
to
stagger
in
her
Design
to
Contribute
to
our
Meeting
.
This
Morning
she
gave
me
a
notable
Curtain-Lecture
,
and
I
had
like
to
have
burst
out
into
a
great
Fit
of
Laughter
.
For
there
was
something
so
pleasant
in
the
Accident
,
and
in
what
was
discours'd
upon
it
,
that
my
just
Fears
of
what
might
be
the
future
Consequences
,
were
not
able
to
stifle
my
first
Motions
of
Joy
.
And
I
can
still
hardly
forbear
Laughing
,
to
think
that
my
Mother
was
up
a
great
part
of
the
Night
,
fully
persuaded
,
that
had
it
not
been
for
the
Respect
of
the
Watch-men
to
the
House
,
she
had
been
Robb'd
by
a
great
number
of
Thieves
.
For
they
that
saw
least
,
saw
Four
;
and
others
saw
Ten
.
If
nothing
has
put
yee
out
of
Humour
,
this
Adventure
is
worth
Laughing
at
.
Am
I
not
deceiv'd
,
Sir
,
when
I
persuade
my self
,
that
your
Grief
to
quit
me
,
wholly
took
up
your
Thoughts
,
in
the
Confusion
that
attended
the
Miscarriage
of
this
Adventure
?
For
my
part
,
I
think
upon
nothing
else
,
but
the
Danger
to
which
you
expose
your self
for
my
Sake
,
and
the
Resolution
I
have
taken
never
to
see
you
again
,
till
I
have
recover'd
so
much
Liberty
,
that
I
may
see
you
with
Freedom
and
Safety
.
I
have
too
great
a
Value
for
yee
,
to
act
like
a
Virgin
that
minds
her
own
Satisfaction
,
more
then
the
Person
she
Loves
;
and
I
am
absolutely
determin'd
,
that
you
shall
run
no
more
Hazards
.
How
unfortunate
are
We
!
All
the
Consolation
we
had
,
was
only
a
Gra●e
to
talk
through
;
and
that
,
by
Reason
of
this
Night's
unlucky
Accident
,
now
ceases
to
be
Faithful
to
us
.
LETTER
LVIII
.
YOU
see
,
by
what
I
wrote
you
Yesterday
,
how
far
I
am
from
breaking
off
our
Correspondence
,
and
forsaking
your
Society
.
This
ought
to
render
yee
more
sensible
of
my
Reproaches
,
and
make
yee
acknowledge
,
that
your
Behaviour
merits
Reprehension
;
since
you
cannot
suspect
me
of
seeking
to
pick
a
High-German
Quarrel
with
yee
.
LETTER
LIX
.
IS
it
not
a
shameful
Thing
for
me
to
confess
,
that
you
have
a
great
Command
over
me
?
One
Minute
of
your
Company
,
Sir
,
has
dissipated
all
my
Fears
and
Suspitions
.
I
see
very
well
that
the
greatest
Injury
you
can
receive
,
in
reference
to
me
,
is
to
be
long
without
a
sight
of
me
.
I
dare
not
believe
my
Presence
has
the
same
Effect
upon
you
,
as
your
Company
has
upon
me
;
more
especially
,
when
I
appear'd
in
such
a
careless
Dress
,
that
I
was
doubtful
whether
I
should
shew
my self
,
or
no
,
in
that
Condition
:
But
,
at
length
,
my
eager
Desire
to
see
you
,
vanquish'd
all
other
Considerations
.
Nevertheless
,
do
not
think
I
will
Pardon
the
Letter
which
I
receiv'd
soon
after
?
or
,
that
I
will
allow
you
the
Liberty
to
tax
me
of
Coldness
.
Have
you
the
Confidence
to
dispute
with
me
,
who
best
knows
how
to
Love
?
And
tho'
the
Marks
of
your
Esteem
were
as
Superlative
as
those
which
I
have
pay'd
to
you
,
must
not
I
be
thought
to
Love
infinitely
much
more
,
in
Loving
an
Ingrateful
Man
,
then
you
,
tho'
never
so
forward
and
respectful
to
so
faithful
a
Mistress
?
Once
more
you
are
too
daring
to
dispute
with
me
the
Laurel-Wreath
,
which
I
have
purchas'd
by
many
Sufferings
.
't
is
no
less
easie
for
me
to
justifie
my self
,
upon
the
second
Reproach
,
which
you
cast
upon
me
,
for
Loving
some
body
else
,
besides
your self
.
I
am
persuaded
,
that
an
Esteem
so
solid
as
that
which
I
have
for
you
,
infuses
into
the
Heart
an
inclination
of
Tenderness
,
which
is
not
to
be
found
in
those
,
whose
Hearts
are
unconcern'd
;
and
that
it
easily
disperses
it self
upon
Objects
,
which
the
same
Tenderness
forbids
us
not
to
Love
.
Are
the
Motions
of
Nature
opposite
to
those
of
Friendship
?
or
,
because
I
Love
you
,
does
it
follow
that
I
must
have
no
Affection
for
my
Relations
?
LETTER
LX
.
HOW
Importunate
you
are
!
Hold
a
little
—
't
is
Day
,
—
and
I
have
not
so
much
as
clos'd
my
Eyes
.
Is
it
not
sufficient
,
that
your
Company
awakens
those
Motions
in
me
,
that
till
now
,
I
never
was
acquainted
with
?
Must
I
be
expos'd
to
'em
also
in
your
Absence
?
But
you
are
not
absent
;
you
are
present
in
my
Heart
,
and
in
my
Thoughts
;
and
if
I
may
believe
my
own
Tenderness
,
you
are
present
in
every
part
of
my
Body
.
Let
me
be
but
quiet
for
one
Hour
.
I
have
hitherto
known
nothing
but
Grief
;
spare
me
the
Pleasure
of
believing
my self
to
be
belov'd
.
But
can
I
have
any
Delight
,
when
my
Happiness
costs
me
all
the
Innocence
of
my
Life
?
Yet
,
I
never
,
in
a
mood
of
Repentance
,
upbraided
my self
for
Loving
you
.
The
inclination
of
my
Heart
is
so
little
govern'd
by
the
Will
,
that
't
is
impossible
we
should
give
an
Account
of
our
Affections
.
But
,
could
I
not
forbear
your
Company
,
and
telling
yee
how
wondrously
I
love
yee
?
Yes
—
my
Duty
bid
me
shun
yee
—
Alas
!
How
is
it
possible
to
fly
the
Person
that
we
Love
?
Acknowledge
to
me
then
,
that
there
is
no
greater
Vertue
in
the
World
,
then
to
Love
Passionately
and
Constantly
.
For
,
in
short
,
I
always
thought
my self
to
be
Vertuous
:
Do
you
persuade
me
likewise
,
that
I
am
so
,
and
that
I
should
deceive
my self
,
if
I
thought
my
Vertue
in
the
least
impair'd
by
my
Propensity
to
Tenderness
.
LETTER
LXI
.
I
Have
need
of
all
the
Pleasure
which
I
take
in
renewing
the
Assurances
of
my
Tenderness
,
to
comfort
me
for
the
trouble
and
vexation
which
the
Courtship
of
your
Rival
cost
me
.
Good
God!
What
an
odious
Creature
is
he
!
How
equally
distastful
are
his
Complements
,
and
his
Rudeness
!
How
many
cruel
,
how
many
disdainful
Virgins
would
there
be
,
if
all
Men
were
like
him
?
For
my
part
,
should
be
Canoniz'd
before
my
Death
.
am
very
glad
,
that
maugre
all
outward
Appearances
,
you
are
sensible
how
far
remote
,
I
am
from
forgetting
yee
;
that
so
in
●ny
turn
I
may
be
able
to
flatter
my self
with
the
same
Opinion
.
I
must
confess
〈◇〉
did
not
foresee
this
unlucky
Accident
,
●n
the
Assistance
of
a
Person
that
makes
●t
her
principal
Business
to
serve
us
;
and
,
that
I
bestow'd
the
most
outragious
Terms
●maginable
upon
the
Motives
of
your
Silence
.
For
Four
and
twenty
Hours
together
,
I
thought
you
had
forgot
me
;
●nd
that
,
with
an
Oblivion
so
profound
,
that
I
thought
Reproaches
in
vain
for
●ou
,
and
too
mean
for
my self
.
Which
was
the
Reason
you
heard
not
from
me
all
Yesterday
.
LETTER
LXII
.
I
Am
persuaded
,
that
one
Minutes
Discourse
with
you
would
ruin
all
my
suspitions
.
For
,
in
regard
I
am
so
whol●y
taken
up
with
the
Pleasure
of
your
Company
,
I
shall
neither
have
time
nor
●emember
to
●●●isfie
my
Curiosity
,
whether
I
do
not
flatter
my self
too
unwarily
,
then
I
believe
you
have
a
peculiar
Kindness
for
me
.
I
know
already
,
that
notwithstanding
all
the
Reasons
,
which
one
of
my
Friends
alledg'd
to
convince
me
of
the
contrary
,
you
will
be
too
hard
for
Truth
.
Nay
,
I
must
have
no
Tenderness
at
all
,
to
hold
out
against
those
Assurances
which
you
give
me
of
your
Fidelity
.
Good
God!
what
would
become
of
me
,
should
I
effectually
believe
my self
Indifferent
to
the
only
Man
in
the
World
whom
I
Love
.
I
believe
then
,
that
you
Love
me
,
or
rather
I
am
willing
to
think
so
.
I
banish
from
my
Thoughts
whatever
is
erroneous
to
that
pleasing
Mistake
:
If
I
am
deceiv'd
,
I
am
willingly
deluded
.
But
,
if
it
be
possible
,
let
it
be
your
Business
,
that
I
may
not
be
in
an
Error
.
And
,
if
all
your
Endeavours
to
Love
,
prove
unsuccessful
,
conceal
it
from
me
.
In
that
Case
,
I
would
not
be
too
quick-sighted
into
your
Heart
.
I
should
be
willing
to
be
blindfolded
like
Love
himself
.
Perhaps
he
would
then
be
more
favourable
to
me
.
LETTER
LXIII
.
I
Love
ye
with
that
Sincerity
which
nothing
can
equal
but
your
Merit
,
and
I
am
so
highly
pleas'd
with
the
Choice
which
my
Heart
has
made
,
that
I
am
every
day
then
other
,
more
and
more
confirm'd
in
my
Affection
.
But
know
withall
,
that
the
Heat
of
your
Passion
puts
me
to
a
kind
of
Non-plus
;
your
Expressions
are
so
brisk
and
airy
,
that
I
look
upon
my
own
as
faint
and
void
of
Fancy
.
I
wish
they
had
the
same
Advantage
over
yours
,
as
my
Tenderness
has
over
your
Kindness
for
me
.
I
cannot
think
of
words
that
are
significant
enough
to
express
my
Sentiments
.
I
have
been
apt
to
think
that
there
is
no
Love
in
the
World
,
but
what
is
between
you
and
me
:
but
our
Jealousies
have
quickly
cur'd
me
of
that
Mistake
.
What
Torments
do's
a
violent
Passion
cause
?
and
how
necessary
is
it
,
that
the
Sweets
which
it
affords
us
,
should
be
extream
,
to
make
amends
for
the
Disturbances
it
gives
us
!
LETTER
LXIV
.
I
Am
just
got
Home
;
and
I
write
to
ye
at
the
very
same
Instant
.
What
could
I
do
more
,
considering
the
Constraint
to
which
a
watchfull
Jealousie
has
reduc'd
me
?
Alas
!
Sir
,
if
more
were
in
my
power
,
you
would
tell
me
all
your
Thoughts
in
reference
to
your
last
Adventure
,
and
I
would
give
you
a
full
Account
of
all
my
restless
Disturbances
,
and
of
the
Effects
of
my
Tenderness
:
it
never
was
so
quick
and
lively
.
The
Excess
of
my
Mother's
Fury
is
redoubl'd
,
but
notwithstanding
all
her
Vigilance
,
we
must
see
each
other
.
This
is
not
the
first
time
that
Love
has
found
the
way
to
deceive
a
wakefull
Argus
.
I
have
spent
above
four
and
twenty
hours
where
you
have
spent
some
part
of
your
Time
.
I
have
review'd
those
Places
that
were
the
Witnesses
of
the
first
Misfortunes
of
my
Passion
:
I
enquir'd
of
Them
,
what
was
become
of
ye
;
and
methought
they
answer'd
me
,
You
were
no
longer
ingratefull
,
nor
insensible
of
my
Love
;
and
that
they
had
been
sometimes
Testimonies
of
your
Sighs
.
Judge
you
by
that
,
to
what
a
strange
Degree
they
flatter'd
me
.
Confirm
me
in
that
pleasing
Opinion
,
I
conjure
ye
,
and
assure
me
that
they
were
as
sincere
as
they
were
discreet
.
I
have
read
your
Letter
,
and
laugh'd
heartily
at
your
dextrous
and
witty
Stratagem
by
which
you
clouded
the
Vigilance
of
our
Overseers
.
How
well
do
they
deserve
to
be
cheated
.
You
have
infus'd
into
me
an
extraordinary
Curiosity
,
to
understand
the
Adventure
that
has
befallen
ye
.
Whatever
Oblations
you
offer
to
me
,
I
deserve
'em
all
,
for
my
Devotion
to
you
:
nor
is
there
any
thing
which
I
should
think
too
much
to
do
for
ye
,
were
I
as
Amiable
,
as
I
am
Faithfull
.
LETTER
LXV
.
YOur
long
Silence
is
not
to
be
excus'd
:
whether
unfaithfull
or
constant
,
I
ought
to
hear
from
ye
.
But
I
shall
forbear
any
more
Reflexions
;
to
the
end
,
that
by
forgetting
it
,
I
may
be
able
to
avoid
the
sharp
Rebukes
of
a
just
Resentment
.
I
am
willing
to
pardon
this
Fault
,
induc'd
thereto
by
the
same
Indulgence
I
have
had
for
a
great
many
others
.
I
have
us'd
ye
perchance
,
too
much
to
Pardons
,
and
you
look
upon
'em
as
Helps
at
Need
that
you
can
never
fail
of
.
But
do
not
believe
,
but
that
my
Patience
in
suffering
the
Wrongs
you
do
me
,
and
my
Docility
have
certain
Limits
.
I
am
altogether
incapable
of
engaging
my
Heart
a
second
time
;
you
may
depend
upon
it
;
yet
am
I
not
so
ty'd
to
one
particular
Person
,
but
that
I
can
renounce
my
vehement
Affection
for
you
,
when
I
find
ye
unworthy
of
it
.
My
Converse
in
the
World
has
acquainted
me
so
much
with
the
Levity
and
Inconstancy
of
Women
,
that
methinks
they
who
are
not
such
as
they
are
,
may
well
be
proud
,
and
put
a
value
upon
themselves
.
A
faithfull
Heart
is
worth
the
Trouble
of
a
little
Observance
.
LETTER
LXVI
.
YOU
have
afforded
me
a
World
of
Pleasure
in
giving
me
a
full
Account
how
you
have
spent
your
time
,
till
we
saw
each
other
last
;
and
I
am
glad
that
I
have
made
ye
a
Piece
of
a
Philosopher
.
A
Man
that
would
be
happy
must
study
Philosophy
.
But
have
a
care
of
going
too
far
:
there
is
a
Merit
in
Error
;
and
it
is
requisite
a
Man
should
be
a
Fool
in
many
things
,
to
live
with
any
kind
of
Felicity
.
The
only
Philosophy
to
be
desir'd
is
that
which
encreases
Pleasure
by
intermixing
with
it
the
Alloy
of
Reason
.
But
above
all
things
avoid
the
Rock
of
too
much
Knowledge
.
't
is
enough
to
know
,
that
all
we
see
must
have
an
end
;
that
we
our selves
have
our
Periods
set
us
,
and
to
fortifie
our selves
against
these
Thoughts
.
However
we
are
not
to
make
our selves
insensible
of
present
Objects
,
out
of
an
idle
Opinion
that
what
is
subject
to
perish
,
is
not
worthy
our
Affection
.
It
behoves
us
to
enjoy
the
Present
,
and
leave
it
to
Time
to
make
the
Separaration
:
that
is
the
Work
of
Death
,
and
not
of
our
Will
.
The
Wise-man
is
oblig'd
to
submit
with
Patience
to
it
,
and
not
to
prevent
it
.
This
is
my
Philosophy
.
But
to
satisfie
your
Curiosity
,
that
fain
would
be
inform'd
how
I
employ
my
Time
,
I
shall
give
ye
an
Account
in
part
,
notwithstanding
the
Extremity
of
my
Head-ach
,
and
the
late
hour
of
the
Night
.
In
making
my
Reflexions
,
I
have
found
that
True
Wisdom
consists
in
conforming
our selves
to
our
present
Condition
;
that
Prudence
which
teaches
us
to
avoid
Trouble
,
is
the
soundest
part
of
Wisdom
.
And
for
that
Reason
I
have
fix'd
it
in
my
head
to
make
my
Life
at
Home
as
easie
as
it
is
possible
,
and
to
omit
nothing
that
may
procure
me
Quiet
in
my
Family
.
And
to
effect
this
,
has
been
my
principal
Business
,
next
to
that
which
my
Tenderness
for
you
imposes
upon
me
.
I
have
made
it
a
Law
to
my self
,
not
to
contend
with
those
People
,
with
whom
I
am
to
live
,
about
things
which
they
are
obstinately
bent
upon
.
And
to
the
end
that
such
a
continual
Compliance
may
not
be
uneasie
,
I
have
bethought
my self
that
there
is
hardly
any
thing
worth
the
Trouble
which
we
suffer
by
opposing
what
is
requir'd
from
us
.
There
is
nothing
in
the
World
that
I
know
,
which
has
not
Two
Faces
;
and
therefore
it
seems
to
me
unjust
,
that
we
should
desire
that
all
the
World
beside
should
have
the
same
Prospect
of
things
that
we
have
.
Who
can
assure
himself
that
he
is
in
the
Right
?
and
therefore
in
regard
of
this
Uncertainty
,
is
it
not
unjust
to
look
upon
all
those
that
hold
not
the
same
Opinions
with
us
,
as
I
lind
and
Obstinate
?
We
must
not
think
that
Maxims
were
made
but
only
for
considerable
Things
:
however
it
behoves
us
to
put
'em
in
practice
every
day
,
upon
slight
and
trivial
Occasions
:
they
are
of
excellent
use
to
inspire
the
Mind
with
Justice
,
and
settle
the
Heart
in
Quiet
.
When
we
make
a
right
Benefit
of
'em
,
we
do
not
always
look
upon
the
difference
of
Sentiments
as
an
Effect
of
that
Opposition
and
Aversion
which
People
have
to
us
,
but
only
as
the
Effect
of
a
Difference
which
Nature
has
put
between
several
Minds
,
and
then
we
look
upon
it
without
Bitterness
or
Exasperation
.
I
support
that
Patience
which
I
stand
in
need
of
,
to
endure
what
I
am
enforc'd
to
suffer
,
by
reflecting
upon
what
I
owe
to
those
that
confine
me
under
this
Restraint
.
I
contemplate
the
plausible
side
of
their
Actions
.
I
excuse
the
Torments
which
they
put
me
to
,
by
attributing
'em
to
the
Desire
they
have
to
perfect
me
in
Vertue
,
and
I
most
ardently
wish
for
that
Perfection
.
I
endeavour
every
day
to
forget
what
I
have
suffer'd
all
day
long
.
I
would
not
harbour
in
my
Heart
neither
Hatred
,
nor
Desire
of
Revenge
.
I
give
my self
wholly
up
to
Love
,
which
I
look
upon
to
be
the
Touchstone
of
Wisdom
.
A
Body
must
have
a
great
deal
to
preserve
it
in
Company
with
a
Passion
that
seeks
the
Destruction
of
it
.
But
for
my
part
,
I
am
apt
to
believe
a
Woman
may
love
,
and
yet
be
a
Philosopher
.
There
is
a
sort
of
Love
which
Philosophy
cannot
condemn
,
because
there
is
something
in
it
of
Divinity
;
the
Object
of
which
is
the
Union
of
Souls
,
which
is
above
the
Pleasures
of
Sense
,
and
sustains
it self
without
'em
,
by
the
Help
of
an
unshak'n
Constancy
.
I
am
convinc'd
that
it
is
a
shamefull
thing
to
change
,
that
it
behoves
us
to
love
the
same
Things
,
so
long
as
they
observe
inviolable
Fidelity
;
and
that
Vertue
consists
in
an
extraordinary
Care
never
to
offend
the
Laws
of
Decency
,
and
not
in
being
cautious
to
subdue
the
Sentiments
which
Nature
inspires
into
us
,
and
which
are
conformable
to
right
Reason
.
With
these
same
Philosophical
Contemplations
,
which
I
take
out
of
my
Seneca
and
Plutarch
,
I
join
the
Recreation
of
my
Needle
,
and
in
a
piece
of
Tent-stitch
,
intermix
a
Thousand
Cyphers
that
discourse
of
our
Love
;
and
I
never
stir
abroad
,
but
when
I
go
to
Church
,
and
sometimes
to
the
Governess
.
My
long
Melancholy
,
has
made
me
so
subject
to
the
Head-ach
,
that
I
am
seldom
without
it
,
in
a
most
terrible
manner
,
Three
Days
together
;
and
the
Motion
of
the
Litter
,
together
with
my
want
of
Sleep
,
has
encreas'd
the
violence
of
the
Pain
.
Nor
can
I
meet
with
any
other
Remedy
to
give
me
Ease
,
but
by
thinking
upon
that
which
pains
me
a
Thousand
times
more
sensibly
,
the
want
of
your
Society
.
That
renders
me
insensible
of
all
other
Tortures
whatever
.
And
thus
,
Sir
,
I
have
given
you
an
Account
,
in
part
,
of
my
Employments
in
your
Absence
.
I
would
also
addict
my self
to
the
study
of
the
Latin
Tongue
.
But
my
Mother
has
too
great
a
Veneration
for
old
Adagies
,
to
foregoe
the
Proverb
,
which
says
,
That
a
Woman
that
speaks
Latin
,
seldom
comes
to
Good
.
But
if
ever
I
come
to
be
at
my
own
Liberty
I
will
learn
it
,
and
neglect
nothing
to
render
my self
amiable
in
your
Eyes
.
Good
Night
,
Sir
,
I
strive
in
vain
,
to
contend
with
my
Headach
;
I
can
hold
out
no
longer
,
Day
begins
to
break
,
and
I
have
never
so
much
as
thought
of
going
to
Bed
.
The
Headach
and
Love
,
are
the
best
Larum
.
Watches
that
I
know
in
the
World
.
My
Confident
is
tyr'd
with
the
Feebleness
of
my
Love
,
and
the
Infirmities
of
my
Body
.
She
believes
her self
with
the
Fellow
that
attended
upon
Don
Japhet
:
To
be
within
that
Northern
Clime
confin'd
,
Where
he
that
sleeps
,
is
Curst
by
all
Mankind
.
LETTER
LXVII
.
IF
you
look'd
upon
Revenge
to
be
sweet
,
you
might
enjoy
the
Pleasures
of
it
:
For
never
was
a
Man
,
who
had
the
free
Grant
of
a
Maid
,
with
whom
he
was
in
Love
,
so
ill
treated
as
is
Don
Gaspar
.
He
would
seem
to
affect
a
kind
of
Coldness
for
me
,
within
these
few
Days
.
And
,
that
which
has
been
put
into
our
Head
,
in
reference
to
our
Correspondence
,
has
very
much
alarum'd
him
.
But
I
well
know
what
an
Ascendant
I
have
over
him
;
so
that
as
soon
as
a
little
Reserv'dness
and
Care
,
on
my
part
,
have
waken'd
his
Suspitions
,
he
will
return
to
me
submissive
and
eager
in
his
Courtship
;
and
I
shall
make
use
of
the
same
Ascendant
,
to
let
him
understand
his
unworthy
Behaviour
toward
me
,
and
how
deeply
I
resent
it
.
I
burn
already
with
Impatience
to
see
my self
in
a
Condition
to
make
him
sensible
of
my
Indignation
.
How
dearly
will
I
make
him
Pay
for
the
Miseries
which
my
Relations
make
me
suffer
!
They
are
so
insupportable
,
that
they
cannot
fail
to
infuse
into
me
a
Desire
to
turn
the
Blows
upon
them
,
that
are
so
cruel
to
me
.
My
Heart
is
at
this
very
present
,
full
of
an
unfortunate
Tenderness
,
and
an
implacable
Hatred
:
And
I
will
satisfie
both
the
one
and
the
other
,
at
the
expence
of
my
Life
.
LETTER
LXVIII
.
IF
there
need
no
more
,
then
to
be
belov'd
of
me
,
ungrateful
Man
,
to
render
yee
Happy
,
my
Weakness
assures
yee
an
eternal
Felicity
.
The
knowledge
of
your
unworthy
Proceedings
is
not
able
to
expell
yee
from
my
Heart
.
But
what
would
yee
have
of
me
?
Your
acknowledgment
of
what
you
said
to
Dona
Juana
,
has
no
Relation
to
your
greater
Offence
.
You
have
committed
several
others
,
in
reference
to
my self
,
which
you
feign
to
have
forgot
,
or
which
you
committed
so
naturally
,
that
you
had
no
room
for
'em
in
your
Memory
.
When
you
have
a
mind
to
be
better
inform'd
,
you
will
find
out
a
way
to
speak
with
me
.
For
my
part
,
I
am
so
narrowly
watch'd
,
that
I
can
make
but
little
use
of
my
Invention
.
Besides
,
it
is
your
Business
and
not
mine
;
and
I
know
there
is
nothing
impossible
with
Love
.
You
are
but
ill
inform'd
of
the
Condition
to
which
I
am
reduc'd
,
since
you
think
me
at
Liberty
to
go
to
a
Play
.
My
Father
and
Mother
,
tho'
they
have
no
Cause
to
find
fault
with
any
one
of
my
Actions
,
are
so
bitterly
incens'd
against
me
,
that
their
Anger
Transports
'em
to
the
last
Extremity
:
I
undergo
Afflictions
infinitely
Cruel
:
But
,
at
length
,
it
behoves
me
to
understand
what
I
have
to
do
.
If
it
be
my
unhappy
Fate
,
to
be
undone
by
those
that
should
study
my
Repose
,
't
would
be
in
vain
to
resist
.
I
have
no
other
Course
to
take
,
but
what
my
Despair
shall
advise
me
to
:
I
have
too
long
struggl'd
with
it
:
I
find
I
am
born
to
eternal
Misfortunes
,
and
all
the
Reason
,
and
good
Conduct
in
the
World
,
will
never
purchase
my
Tranquility
.
This
is
my
Condition
;
't
is
very
Terrible
;
but
,
what
Matter
is
it
to
me
?
since
I
can
no
longer
hope
to
see
yee
no
more
.
When
a
Woman
truly
loves
,
the
Person
that
she
Loves
,
is
All
in
All
to
her
;
and
all
the
World
beside
,
she
looks
upon
as
Nothing
You
render
me
altogether
Indifferent
:
The
most
Solitary
,
the
most
Melancholy
Life
,
is
that
which
best
sutes
with
the
Condition
of
my
Soul
.
What
has
she
to
do
with
Joy
and
Pleasure
,
that
is
not
permitted
to
share
'em
in
your
Society
?
However
,
sometimes
bestow
a
Thought
or
two
upon
the
deplorable
Condition
,
into
which
my
past
,
and
present
Esteem
for
you
has
thrown
me
.
But
you
'll
forget
,
perhaps
,
that
such
a
one
was
ever
in
the
World
;
and
I
am
out
of
hopes
of
ever
seeing
my
Misfortunes
at
an
end
.
They
will
receive
no
augmentation
from
your
daily
Visiting
Dona
Juana
.
't
is
a
good
Thought
that
is
come
into
your
Mind
,
and
a
proper
Consolation
of
your
little
Grief
for
being
debarr'd
for
ever
from
me
.
In
a
small
time
you
will
be
Happy
,
and
publickly
known
to
be
her
Lover
.
I
am
apt
to
believe
,
that
this
Artifice
,
or
rather
this
same
Truth
,
might
not
be
unprofitable
for
me
,
if
you
so
pleas'd
your self
.
For
I
am
forbid
,
for
the
future
,
to
have
any
thing
more
to
do
with
that
Lady
,
and
your
Sedulities
for
her
,
would
be
the
only
Reason
for
me
to
alter
my
Conduct
,
which
could
not
but
work
a
good
Effect
to
my
Advantage
.
But
if
you
intend
to
pursue
that
Conquest
,
you
must
do
it
so
openly
,
that
the
noise
of
your
Victory
may
reach
my
Parent's
Ears
.
Good
Night
,
Sir
;
I
am
loath
to
let
you
see
the
Fear
I
am
in
,
least
,
while
you
Counterfeit
Affection
,
you
should
intangle
your self
in
Earnest
;
or
,
least
you
should
Sacrifice
my
Letters
to
her
Derision
.
My
Fear
for
the
one
,
does
you
too
great
an
Honour
;
my
dread
of
the
other
,
is
a
Mortification
to
my self
.
Adieu
.
LETTER
LXIX
.
HOW
strangely
did
your
Company
affect
me
all
the
time
the
Comedy
lasted
!
What
an
intermixture
of
Delight
and
Grief
!
How
Charming
it
is
,
to
see
the
Person
that
we
Love
!
How
Cruel
is
the
Thought
of
quitting
him
for
ever
!
Can
you
seriously
believe
me
able
to
support
your
far
distant
Absence
from
me
,
with
any
Patience
?
Oh!
Sir
,
if
you
can
think
me
capable
of
such
an
Indifferency
,
you
have
but
an
ill
Opinion
of
your
own
Merit
,
and
my
Sentiments
.
LETTER
LXX
.
THE
Counsel
which
you
give
me
,
and
the
Care
you
take
for
my
Security
,
is
a
perfect
Demonstration
of
a
real
Tenderness
.
I
begin
,
at
length
,
to
flatter
my self
,
that
you
have
an
Affection
for
me
.
But
the
more
generous
you
are
in
my
behalf
,
the
more
you
deserve
that
I
should
hazard
my self
for
you
;
and
I
should
be
unworthy
of
such
a
Friend
,
should
I
refuse
to
expose
my self
for
his
sake
.
Forbear
then
,
Sir
,
to
advise
me
not
to
write
to
yee
:
Be
convinc'd
,
Sir
,
that
nothing
can
hinder
me
from
paying
you
that
proof
of
my
particular
Value
.
I
shall
not
,
by
any
means
,
neglect
the
Dictates
of
Prudence
,
but
I
cannot
entertain
so
much
,
as
might
protect
me
from
such
Hazards
and
Chances
,
which
may
discover
and
expose
me
to
the
formidable
Transports
of
my
Parents
,
should
I
resolve
to
abandon
my
Love
of
you
.
Since
nothing
can
chace
you
from
my
Heart
,
nothing
can
hinder
me
from
giving
assurances
of
my
Fidelity
;
nor
shall
you
ever
find
your
Teresa
Guilty
of
such
a
base
unworthy
Action
,
as
to
renounce
,
for
fear
,
a
Gentleman
,
of
whom
she
made
a
willing
Choice
,
and
Valu'd
as
the
only
Man
,
that
merited
to
be
her
Husband
.
If
I
made
some
Attempts
to
have
remov'd
yee
from
my
Heart
,
it
was
because
I
was
induc'd
to
it
by
Sentiments
more
Noble
.
Nevertheless
,
I
must
acknowledge
,
that
I
could
never
brook
the
Character
of
Disobedient
,
did
I
not
flatter
my self
,
that
the
Care
which
I
shall
take
of
my
Behaviour
,
will
secure
me
from
any
such
Reproach
.
I
begin
to
take
a
little
of
that
Boldness
to
my self
,
which
you
have
preach'd
so
often
to
me
,
and
not
to
be
so
easily
Frighted
.
Experience
teaches
me
,
every
Day
,
that
there
are
few
things
which
we
have
reason
to
despair
of
,
because
there
are
few
things
which
your
Dexterity
and
Ingenuity
are
not
able
to
alter
the
Design
of
,
and
disappoint
the
Byass
of
the
Project
.
And
thus
,
Sir
,
notwithstanding
both
our
Conditions
,
I
am
in
hope
,
and
assume
that
Courage
,
which
a
certain
happy
Omen
has
infus'd
into
me
,
that
I
shall
see
you
again
as
formerly
,
as
't
were
a
Member
of
our
Family
.
Good
God!
how
great
a
Felicity
would
that
be
for
me
!
LETTER
LXXI
.
WHatever
Idea
you
may
have
of
my
Person
,
it
cannot
make
that
Impression
upon
you
as
the
Idea
of
yours
imprints
in
me
.
You
are
more
lovely
in
my
Eyes
then
any
thing
that
ever
I
beheld
,
and
I
have
so
true
a
Relish
,
that
I
dare
believe
without
Prejudice
,
that
what
appears
to
me
to
be
so
,
is
really
such
.
But
this
is
not
my
Judgment
alone
,
the
whole
Court
is
of
my
Opinion
.
Your
most
bitter
Enemies
also
will
do
that
Justice
to
your
Person
,
at
the
same
time
that
they
cry
down
your
Heart
.
However
I
know
your
Heart
;
and
I
know
nothing
there
,
but
what
may
well
become
a
Person
of
Sincerity
.
Thus
you
appear
to
me
accomplish'd
,
and
I
adore
ye
as
a
Piece
of
Perfection
;
that
is
to
say
,
I
have
an
infinite
Esteem
for
ye
,
and
whatever
Torments
I
suffer'd
and
still
undergo
,
I
do
not
think
'em
all
too
much
for
your
sake
.
These
are
such
Sentiments
that
you
can
never
have
but
with
great
Difficulty
,
because
there
is
a
great
Difference
between
our
Persons
and
our
Humours
.
LETTER
LXXII
.
I
Am
apt
to
believe
that
I
have
not
sufficiently
exprest
in
the
Letter
,
which
I
sent
you
this
Morning
,
the
whole
of
what
yours
made
me
sensible
.
No
,
Sir
,
I
have
not
told
ye
often
enough
,
how
extreamly
overjoy'd
I
am
to
see
you
again
,
and
once
more
to
see
you
sensible
of
my
Tenderness
.
How
great
a
Satisfaction
,
how
true
a
Delight
the
Thought
of
this
excites
in
my
Soul
!
How
advantageous
to
my
Heart
will
that
Combat
of
Friendship
be
,
of
which
you
give
me
a
Hint
!
I
am
already
sure
of
the
Victory
;
but
will
you
not
envy
me
my
Lawrels
?
I
wish
to
Heaven
you
would
dispute
'em
with
me
,
and
that
you
might
be
a
Victor
in
your
Turn
.
How
greatly
should
I
be
pleased
with
the
Defeat
!
then
would
it
be
that
the
Fortune
of
the
vanquish'd
would
become
the
Envy
of
the
Conquerour
.
You
will
not
expose
me
to
this
shame
;
and
tho'
it
should
be
my
Lot
,
you
will
be
still
my
Inferiour
in
every
thing
.
For
my
part
,
I
am
resolv'd
not
to
yield
your
Heart
the
Pre-eminence
of
Grief
:
I
will
dispute
the
Sovereign
Power
over
it
.
Wherefore
should
not
the
Fidelity
of
mine
be
equal
to
the
Sincerity
of
yours
?
Why
should
not
my
Friendship
,
that
is
so
nice
and
full
of
Spirit
,
supply
the
Love
and
Charms
of
the
Lady
you
have
lost
?
Yes
,
yes
,
I
flatter
my self
,
that
my
Sentiments
may
render
me
amiable
,
and
that
you
will
find
in
my
manner
of
loving
ye
,
for
Ten
years
together
,
a
Beauty
that
will
charm
ye
,
and
a
Remedy
that
will
close
up
for
ever
that
Wound
which
Grief
lays
open
now
and
then
.
Your
Cure
is
only
in
the
Hands
of
Love
;
't
is
he
that
must
apply
the
Medicine
which
he
thinks
most
proper
.
But
what
better
Remedy
can
he
make
use
of
,
then
to
bestow
another
Wife
upon
ye
?
I
flatter
my self
,
that
then
you
will
think
only
upon
me
,
and
that
Grief
no
longer
then
,
will
have
any
Power
over
ye
.
Surrender
up
your
Heart
to
all
the
Tenderness
of
which
it
may
be
capable
in
my
behalf
.
What
is
it
that
you
fear
?
Are
you
afraid
of
loving
me
more
then
I
deserve
?
LETTER
LXXIII
.
YOU
flye
me
perhaps
as
Sylvio
fled
Dorinda
,
and
I
shun
you
,
as
Amarillis
hunn'd
Myrtillo
.
These
two
manners
of
●voiding
each
other
are
quite
different
.
Hatred
was
the
Cause
of
the
One
,
and
Love
of
the
Other
.
But
,
Sir
,
let
us
not
fancy
new
Pains
to
torment
our selves
:
Let
us
make
use
of
our
Courage
to
support
our selves
under
those
which
we
cannot
avoid
:
Let
us
alleviate
'em
with
the
Hope
of
being
one
day
happy
,
and
let
us
love
eternally
.
I
love
you
entirely
;
I
swear
it
by
your self
and
me
;
by
all
the
Oaths
that
you
have
sworn
to
marry
me
;
by
Love
it self
;
and
by
those
Minutes
of
Delight
that
have
been
intermix'd
with
so
many
tedious
Hours
of
Care
and
Sorrow
;
by
all
your
Transports
,
and
by
my
own
Tenderness
,
of
which
the
most
Charming
Evenings
have
been
Witnesses
.
I
swear
it
by
that
Grove
consecrated
to
Venus
,
where
I
receiv'd
your
hand
,
and
gave
you
mine
.
Can
the
most
violent
Despite
deface
it
from
your
Memory
?
No
,
Sir
,
you
can
ne'er
forget
it
;
nor
can
you
remember
a
Person
that
so
well
knows
how
to
love
,
but
you
must
love
agen
.
Let
us
bind
our selves
in
Bonds
more
strong
,
and
yet
more
noble
then
those
that
bind
the
Hearts
of
others
.
Let
it
be
a
pleasure
to
yee
,
to
have
a
Friend
that
merits
equally
your
Esteem
and
Love
;
and
know
by
my
way
of
Proceeding
how
much
you
may
rely
upon
my
Sentiments
.
I
ought
to
be
justify'd
in
your
good
Opinion
;
clear
me
also
in
the
good
Opinion
of
your
Friend
,
whose
Esteem
I
look
upon
as
a
real
Happiness
.
Conceal
not
from
him
either
my
Reasons
or
my
Inclinations
.
I
am
sure
,
he
will
be
sorry
for
having
condemn'd
me
so
hastily
,
and
that
he
will
believe
me
worthy
of
your
Heart
.
LETTER
LXXIV
.
I
Have
been
reading
Two
Epistles
of
Seneca
.
The
Eighth
and
Fifth
has
afforded
me
some
Consolation
.
I
was
asham'd
that
I
could
not
suffer
my
Miseries
without
weeping
:
but
he
tells
me
,
That
Vertue
cannot
hinder
certain
Motions
within
us
,
which
intimate
to
us
,
That
we
must
dye
;
that
it
is
not
Fear
that
causes
a
Wise
Man
in
the
midst
of
his
Sufferings
to
knit
his
Brows
,
but
a
natural
Inclination
which
Reason
cannot
correct
.
Send
me
word
,
whether
the
Gentleman
that
is
with
ye
be
a
Philosopher
;
whether
he
has
a
tender
Heart
;
and
whether
you
still
talk
of
me
as
you
were
wont
to
do
.
I
remember
once
you
wrote
me
word
that
he
took
me
for
a
kind
of
a
Sybil
:
assure
him
that
within
these
Two
Months
I
shall
be
Eighteen
years
of
Age
.
I
am
incomparably
much
better
then
you
have
seen
me
.
When
you
were
here
,
I
was
so
turmoil'd
,
that
I
liv'd
without
Eating
or
Sleeping
.
Adieu
,
Sir
,
—
I
am
going
to
try
whether
I
can
leave
off
Sleeping
;
Sleep
was
never
ordain'd
for
the
Unfortunate
.
I
have
sought
in
vain
for
some
Repose
in
my
Bed
;
but
I
can
hope
for
no
Consolation
unless
it
be
in
communicating
my
Sufferings
to
your Self
.
I
find
indeed
that
I
talk
of
'em
with
more
Pleasure
and
Confidence
then
it
behoves
me
to
have
in
ye
.
Methinks
my
Anger
forsakes
me
in
spight
of
all
that
I
can
do
.
But
believe
me
Sir
,
't
is
to
the
excessive
Severity
of
my
Parents
that
you
are
beholding
for
this
Return
of
my
Tenderness
.
Nothing
more
supports
me
under
my
Misfortunes
,
then
the
Consolation
of
imparting
'em
to
your
Knowledge
;
they
are
above
all
Expression
;
and
the
Reflexion
that
lessens
others
,
makes
mine
appear
more
dreadful
.
I
cannot
apprehend
how
People
can
be
so
cruel
,
to
Persecute
an
unfortunate
Creature
to
that
Degree
as
I
am
harras'd
.
My
Mother
told
me
,
that
I
had
no
other
Course
to
take
,
but
to
yield
an
absolute
Obedience
to
my
Father's
Will
.
And
now
,
that
I
can
no
longer
Flatter
my self
,
it
behoves
me
to
conceal
nothing
from
yee
.
And
I
would
fain
find
out
the
way
,
by
making
you
acquainted
with
my
Misfortunes
,
to
raise
,
in
you
,
the
same
Compassion
which
you
demand
of
me
,
and
which
I
would
be
ready
to
grant
if
you
deserv'd
it
.
But
you
are
rather
to
be
Envy'd
:
You
force
your self
to
be
belov'd
,
with
a
Friendship
the
most
Sincere
that
ever
Virgin
harbour'd
in
her
Breast
,
when
Sentiments
so
rarely
known
,
and
so
fit
to
flatter
your
Vanity
,
cost
yee
not
so
much
as
a
Sigh
.
You
find
by
my
Expressions
,
that
I
am
not
over-forward
in
giving
Credit
to
yours
:
And
this
same
Mark
of
distrust
I
let
you
see
,
perhaps
,
to
the
end
you
may
convince
me
better
.
Good
God!
How
many
things
do
I
acquaint
you
with
,
which
I
thought
never
to
have
spoke
of
while
I
liv'd
!
They
that
are
in
Love
,
ought
to
be
careful
of
making
rash
Vows
.
There
is
no
greater
Misfortune
that
could
have
befallen
me
,
then
to
be
the
Object
of
their
Scorn
whom
I
my self
find
so
Contemptible
.
And
if
there
be
any
Consolation
for
the
Necessity
of
leaving
you
for
ever
,
I
shall
find
it
in
the
Revenge
which
I
shall
take
upon
'em
,
by
constraining
'em
to
value
and
Respect
the
Constancy
and
Purity
of
those
Sentiments
which
they
would
enforce
me
to
stifle
.
But
as
for
you
,
Sir
,
what
Sentiments
shall
I
infuse
into
your
Breast
?
Alas
!
I
always
look'd
upon
it
as
my
greatest
Happiness
,
that
you
believ'd
me
much
more
worthy
of
Respect
then
any
other
.
So
that
whatever
befall
me
,
and
whatever
Persecutions
I
endure
,
I
shall
not
think
my self
altogether
Miserable
,
if
you
will
but
afford
me
the
sole
Possession
of
your
Esteem
.
LETTER
LXXV
.
WEre
it
in
my
Power
to
complain
of
all
my
Sufferings
,
and
make
you
bear
a
sensible
and
cordial
Part
in
my
Misfortunes
,
they
would
not
be
so
terrible
as
they
are
.
But
;
alas
!
I
have
too
justly
merited
the
Mortifications
I
have
suffer'd
.
My
Tenderness
has
caus'd
me
to
commit
Offences
inexcusable
,
and
the
greatest
of
all
,
was
the
choice
of
a
Lover
,
who
never
Lov'd
me
in
good
Earnest
.
But
I
am
cur'd
,
at
length
,
of
my
Blindness
.
I
know
that
you
never
Lov'd
me
:
And
I
know
it
so
well
,
that
't
would
be
a
Folly
in
me
to
doubt
of
it
.
The
Proof
which
I
have
of
it
I
never
gather'd
from
Don
Gaspar's
Malice
,
which
I
understand
in
the
full
Extent
of
it
.
I
make
no
question
but
he
made
use
of
the
Converse
which
I
had
with
him
,
to
thick'n
the
Tempest
,
which
,
at
length
,
brake
out
in
Thunder
.
However
,
he
was
not
the
only
Person
that
contributed
to
the
Storm
.
The
People
,
who
are
an
Obstacle
to
your
good
Fortune
,
have
made
your
Passion
the
Subject
of
their
Chat
,
and
by
testifying
their
Knowledge
of
it
to
be
true
,
have
put
my
Parents
in
a
terrible
Rage
;
and
they
fall
foul
upon
me
,
which
has
reduc'd
me
under
that
Restraint
,
that
I
am
forbid
,
under
pain
of
a
publick
Affront
,
to
stir
abroad
to
any
Place
whatever
.
So
that
it
would
be
in
vain
for
you
to
seek
after
me
.
All
Pleasures
are
debarr'd
me
:
But
,
alas
!
they
take
but
little
from
me
;
the
Condition
of
my
Heart
is
such
,
as
will
not
permit
me
to
tast
of
any
.
I
'm
more
miserable
then
ever
I
was
.
Formerly
,
it
was
some
Relief
to
me
in
my
Afflictions
,
that
I
believ'd
yee
not
indifferent
,
but
a
zealous
Lover
.
Heaven
has
depriv'd
me
of
that
Comfort
also
:
And
my
Pains
and
Sufferings
are
no
longer
supportable
;
because
that
he
,
whom
I
love
,
appears
unworthy
to
be
belov'd
.
This
unjust
Lover
,
who
has
been
more
dear
to
me
,
then
my
Life
,
and
for
whom
had
I
had
'em
,
I
would
have
sacrific'd
a
Thousand
Lives
,
was
never
sensible
of
the
most
tender
Passion
in
the
World
;
only
his
Vanity
has
shar'd
in
a
Correspondency
which
his
Heart
despis'd
.
Nor
can
I
question
these
dreadful
Truths
,
whatever
Inclination
I
may
have
to
delude
my self
.
Could
I
speak
with
yee
,
you
would
acknowledge
your
Faults
:
But
,
in
regard
they
are
daily
and
hourly
committed
,
and
of
a
nature
never
to
be
Pardon'd
,
to
what
purpose
would
it
be
to
tell
yee
of
'
em
?
and
therefore
,
it
behoves
me
to
flye
your
Presence
,
as
I
would
do
a
dismal
Precipice
.
My
Weakness
,
in
Reference
to
your self
,
is
known
,
and
my
Reason
renders
odious
the
Inclination
of
my
Heart
't
was
only
against
that
,
that
I
have
all
along
been
striving
;
and
Thanks
to
your
Indifference
,
I
have
now
quite
done
with
strugling
against
that
too
.
However
,
you
accuse
me
of
breaking
my
Word
.
But
you
that
are
so
ill
an
Observer
of
your
own
Promises
,
are
not
you
afraid
of
those
Stings
of
Conscience
,
that
attend
upon
evil
Actions
?
Can
you
think
upon
all
that
I
have
suffer'd
for
yee
,
and
not
dye
,
at
the
same
time
struck
with
the
Infamy
of
your
Ingratitude
?
And
,
those
ill
Returns
of
my
Sincerity
and
Friendship
,
will
they
not
cause
yee
to
appear
,
in
your
own
Eyes
,
the
most
unworthy
of
all
Mankind
?
I
am
naturally
too
little
addicted
to
Revenge
,
and
too
much
dispos'd
to
treat
you
favourably
,
to
wish
you
a
Revenge
proportionable
to
the
Pains
which
you
have
made
me
undergo
.
But
,
as
for
Repentance
,
I
wish
yee
as
much
as
you
have
need
of
,
that
is
,
as
much
as
can
be
wish'd
.
't
is
the
sole
Desire
I
have
,
to
trouble
your
Repose
,
which
obliges
me
to
prolong
a
Life
,
that
you
have
made
me
hate
,
and
which
can
never
be
other
then
unfortunate
.
But
I
am
too
tedious
in
bewailing
my
Misfortunes
,
to
a
Person
altogether
insensible
of
'
em
.
Men
little
mind
the
Mischiefs
that
they
create
on
purpose
;
and
therefore
,
the
best
way
for
me
,
is
an
eternal
Silence
.
If
you
have
any
Goodness
yet
remaining
for
me
,
you
will
not
stir
a
Foot
to
make
me
break
it
.
Forget
me
therefore
,
if
you
can
;
you
have
my
free
Consent
.
I
cannot
say
,
whether
I
can
do
as
much
,
as
to
your self
;
nor
do
you
deserve
to
know
the
Sentiments
of
my
Heart
.
The
End
of
the
LETTERS
.
THE
HISTORY
Of
the
Marquis
de
LEYNA
.
AMong
the
great
Number
of
Persons
of
Quality
,
that
reside
at
Madrid
,
Dona
Constantia
,
Daughter
of
the
Marquis
de
Villaflor
,
was
one
of
those
that
drew
upon
her
most
,
the
Envy
of
the
Ladies
,
and
the
Admiration
of
the
Gentlemen
.
Her
Beauty
which
was
without
Defect
,
and
the
delicacy
of
her
Wit
,
charm'd
all
alike
that
beheld
her
.
She
was
in
the
Sixteenth
Year
of
her
Age
,
and
liv'd
in
her
Father's
House
,
under
the
Care
of
one
of
her
Kinswomen
,
who
was
a
young
Widow
,
so
Lovely
,
that
if
she
had
not
been
Eclips'd
by
Dona
Constantia
,
who
was
one
of
the
most
beautiful
Creatures
in
the
World
,
Dona
Elvira
,
(
for
that
was
her
Name
)
had
●hose
Temptations
,
that
few
Hearts
could
●ve
escap'd
.
Many
Persons
had
listed
●hemselves
in
Dona
Constantia's
Service
;
●veral
had
demanded
her
in
Marriage
,
●nd
her
Father
would
have
been
willing
●o
have
given
his
Consent
,
but
that
she
●ad
all
along
testify'd
her
Indifferency
for
●ny
such
Engagement
.
Her
general
Ex●use
was
,
that
she
was
too
young
;
and
●metimes
she
made
her
Relations
believe
,
●at
she
would
betake
her self
to
a
Reli●ious
Life
.
But
the
Truth
was
,
that
no
●ody
as
yet
had
touch'd
her
Heart
.
One
Day
,
that
she
went
to
take
a
walk
●
the
Caza
del
Campo
,
which
is
one
of
the
●ing's
Houses
of
Pleasure
,
hard
by
Ma●rid
;
the
Walls
of
which
,
are
wash'd
by
●he
River
Mansanarez
,
there
they
met
●on
Ferdinand
,
Dona
Constantia's
Brother
,
●ogether
with
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
,
of
●he
Illustrious
House
of
Lacerda
,
and
Ne●hew
to
the
Duke
of
Medina
Celi
.
Now
,
●n
regard
he
only
knew
them
by
Report
,
●e
durst
not
presume
to
have
ventur'd
●nto
their
Company
,
had
not
Don
Ferdi●and
offer'd
to
present
him
to
the
Ladies
,
●ne
of
which
was
his
Sister
,
and
the
other
●is
Kinswoman
.
The
Marquis
was
over●oy'd
at
so
fortunate
an
Accident
,
and
thank'd
his
Friend
a
thousand
times
for
the
Kindness
of
his
Proffer
,
and
so
both
together
they
accoasted
the
Ladies
.
When
he
drew
near
enough
to
have
a
perfect
View
of
'em
,
he
manifested
a
sudden
Surprize
,
and
a
kind
of
petty
Agony
,
which
he
could
not
master
.
The
two
beautiful
Kinswomen
took
notice
of
it
,
with
some
delight
;
but
they
could
not
tell
which
of
the
two
had
produc'd
the
Effect
,
which
both
were
willing
to
attribute
particularly
to
themselves
.
The
Converse
was
general
;
but
the
Marquis's
Eyes
ne'er
left
informing
Constantia
that
she
it
was
who
had
won
the
Victory
,
and
when
they
parted
,
she
felt
in
her self
something
of
a
disturbance
that
she
had
never
been
acquainted
with
before
.
The
next
day
the
Marquis
desir'd
Don
Ferdinand
to
present
him
to
his
Sister
.
But
he
excus'd
it
,
by
telling
him
that
she
never
receiv'd
Visits
of
her
own
Head
;
and
that
all
he
could
do
was
to
carry
him
to
Dona
Elvira's
where
he
should
see
her
.
He
approv'd
the
Expedient
,
and
they
went
to
her
House
betimes
,
before
any
other
Visitants
came
to
her
.
She
receiv'd
the
Marquis
with
an
extraordinary
Civility
;
and
because
that
Dona
Constantia
was
not
in
her
Cousin's
Chamber
,
her
Brother
went
to
find
her
out
;
during
which
time
the
Marquis
remain'd
alone
with
Elvira
.
Now
there
is
a
Necessity
in
Spain
to
be
the
best
Husband
you
can
of
your
Time
,
when
you
are
in
the
Company
of
Ladies
.
A
Man
that
do's
not
do
●his
,
would
be
look'd
upon
as
a
Person
that
wanted
both
Wit
and
Breeding
.
In
pursuance
therefore
of
this
Custom
,
the
Marquis
began
to
talk
to
Elvira
of
the
Passion
which
she
had
inspir'd
into
him
.
At
first
she
listen'd
but
coldly
to
him
,
nor
had
she
as
yet
alter'd
the
Air
of
her
Countenance
,
when
her
lovely
Kinswoman
enter'd
the
Chamber
,
together
with
her
Brother
.
She
curs'd
the
hour
in
her
Heart
a
thousand
times
;
but
it
was
convenient
that
she
should
conceal
her
Vexation
:
and
Don
Ferdinand
who
was
willing
to
give
his
Friend
an
Opportunity
to
discourse
his
Sister
,
told
Dona
Elvira
,
That
he
had
a
short
word
or
two
to
say
to
her
,
about
a
Business
that
concern'd
him
.
Thereupon
she
'
rose
up
,
and
retiring
presently
to
the
Window
,
What
is
the
Matter
,
Don
Ferdinand
,
(
said
she
)
you
know
,
that
there
is
no
Concern
of
yours
which
I
doe
not
as
deeply
lay
to
Heart
as
your self
.
'
That
is
the
Reason
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
which
engages
me
to
desire
your
Opinion
upon
an
Employment
which
is
propos'd
to
me
.
He
gave
her
an
Account
of
all
the
Advantages
of
it
,
and
enlarg'd
his
Discourse
as
much
as
he
could
,
to
keep
her
from
returning
to
her
Seat
.
However
,
she
was
not
altogether
so
attentive
to
his
Discourse
,
but
that
she
often
cast
her
Eyes
upon
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
,
and
perceiving
that
he
spoke
to
Dona
Constantia
with
a
serious
and
Timorous
Air
,
she
gave
a
shrewd
Conjecture
how
things
went
.
She
began
already
to
lay
it
secretly
to
Heart
,
and
fearing
there
was
something
of
too
much
Tenderness
in
that
Converse
,
she
had
no
longer
Patience
to
heark'n
to
Don
Ferdinand
;
so
that
she
gave
him
her
Advice
in
two
Words
,
and
return'd
to
her
Kinswoman
.
The
Marquis
was
really
troubled
at
it
;
so
that
if
any
thing
could
make
him
amends
,
it
was
the
Hopes
he
had
to
recover
an
Opportunity
more
favourable
,
and
that
afterwards
the
young
Lady
would
list'n
more
kindly
to
him
.
The
next
day
,
and
the
days
following
,
he
sent
'em
Baskets
of
Flowers
;
but
he
durst
not
do
any
thing
more
particularly
for
Dona
Constantia
,
till
he
had
obtain'd
Permission
from
her
,
which
he
desir'd
by
a
Billet
in
these
words
.
I
Must
acknowledge
,
Madam
,
to
ye
,
that
't
is
a
strange
trouble
to
me
,
to
divide
those
Sedulities
,
which
are
only
intended
for
your self
;
and
of
this
it
is
that
my
Heart
makes
these
Complaints
to
you
.
How
happy
should
I
be
,
if
your
Heart
would
take
notice
of
'
em
!
at
least
that
it
would
consent
to
a
full
persuasion
●f
my
Respect
and
the
Excess
of
my
Passion
.
He
put
this
Billet
into
one
of
the
Baskets
under
the
Flowers
,
without
any
Subscription
;
but
the
Person
that
was
entrusted
to
carry
the
Baskets
,
mistook
,
and
gave
that
to
Elvira
,
which
was
design'd
for
Dona
Constantia
.
They
were
Both
together
,
at
what
time
Elvira
,
culling
out
the
Flowers
,
found
the
Billet
,
and
open'd
it
in
great
hast
.
But
while
she
was
ravish'd
with
delight
in
reading
it
,
Dona
Constantia
underwent
a
secret
Vexation
of
which
she
could
not
be
the
Mistress
.
Elvira
,
who
perceiv'd
it
,
cast
a
malicious
Look
upon
her
,
full
of
Vanity
and
Joy
,
which
compleated
Constantia's
Disorder
,
and
put
her
quite
out
of
Humour
.
However
being
asham'd
to
shew
it
,
she
would
not
stay
any
longer
in
her
Kinswomans
Chamber
:
but
she
was
hardly
got
upon
the
Stairs
when
she
met
the
Marquis
coming
up
.
This
Encounter
augmented
both
her
Confusion
,
and
her
Discontent
:
she
knew
not
whether
she
should
go
forwa●d
,
or
return
,
while
her
Lover
over-joy'd
with
the
hopes
of
speaking
to
her
,
by
her self
,
made
the
more
hast
to
overtake
her
:
but
he
was
no
sooner
got
up
to
her
,
but
she
flew
from
him
with
a
disdainfull
Look
;
which
both
afflicted
and
surpriz'd
the
Marquis
at
the
same
time
.
He
could
not
apprehend
what
it
was
that
procur'd
him
a
Reception
so
far
remote
from
that
with
which
he
flatter'd
his
Expectation
;
for
which
he
could
only
excuse
the
Liberty
which
he
had
taken
to
write
to
her
.
And
he
would
most
certainly
have
followed
her
,
for
the
Satisfaction
of
his
Curiosity
,
but
that
the
fear
of
displeasing
her
stopt
him
:
however
in
hopes
that
she
might
come
to
Dona
Elvira
,
he
went
to
her
Chamber
.
There
he
found
Elvira
alone
,
and
at
first
she
spoke
to
him
of
indifferent
Things
;
and
he
was
so
afflicted
at
Dona
Constantia's
Proceeding
,
that
all
his
Answers
were
nothing
to
the
Purpose
.
Elvira
thought
that
his
Disturbance
was
a
point
that
concern'd
her
,
and
that
she
might
the
better
inform
her self
,
Either
I
am
deceiv'd
,
(
said
she
to
him
)
or
you
are
disturb'd
at
the
Fate
of
your
Billet
.
Perhaps
I
have
more
Indulgence
then
I
ought
to
have
in
that
particular
:
In
short
,
I
am
willing
to
let
yee
understand
,
that
the
Lady
who
receiv'd
it
,
was
not
at
all
displeas'd
.
The
Marquis
not
doubting
,
but
that
she
spoke
of
Constantia
,
Ah
Madam
,
(
cry'd
he
,
with
an
extraordinary
Joy
)
how
much
am
I
beholding
to
yee
,
for
telling
me
such
happy
Tydings
!
For
,
indeed
,
I
long'd
to
know
how
that
Paper
was
receiv'd
.
She
had
not
time
to
return
him
an
Answer
,
in
regard
that
several
Ladies
coming
into
the
Room
,
brake
off
their
Discourse
;
so
that
the
Marquis
withdrew
,
no
less
satisfy'd
,
then
full
of
Fear
.
Elvira's
words
gave
him
some
assurance
;
but
the
unkind
Reception
of
his
Mistress
,
put
him
in
a
terrible
Fright
.
However
,
because
People
are
generally
willing
to
flatter
themselves
with
what
they
Fancy
most
,
he
willingly
believ'd
,
that
't
was
as
he
would
have
it
,
and
rested
all
that
Night
,
like
one
that
had
enjoy'd
his
Wishes
.
The
next
Morning
,
he
fail'd
not
to
send
the
Ladies
their
Basket
of
Flowers
;
and
the
Messenger
that
carry'd
'em
,
presented
Elvira
a
Basket
that
was
very
neat
and
jolly
indeed
,
but
to
Dona
Constantia
,
another
that
was
wonderful
for
Variety
and
Contrivance
.
But
this
preeminence
of
Beauty
in
the
latter
Basket
,
astonish'd
Elvira
.
I
am
sure
,
(
said
she
)
that
the
Page
has
mistak'n
,
and
that
he
has
giv'n
you
that
,
which
was
intended
for
me
.
'
'
With
all
my
Heart
,
(
reply'd
Constantia
)
take
it
.
'
'
But
,
first
(
said
Dona
Elvira
)
see
whether
there
be
never
a
Billet
,
that
may
clear
this
Mystery
to
us
.
'
'
I
have
found
one
,
(
cry'd
Dona
Constantia
)
and
I
am
resolv'd
to
have
the
Satisfaction
of
Reading
it
first
of
all
.
With
that
she
open'd
it
,
and
read
these
Words
to
her self
.
THo'
Dona
Elvira
,
has
assur'd
me
,
Madam
,
that
you
receiv'd
my
Billet
with
some
kind
of
Favour
,
yet
I
'm
afraid
she
did
but
Flatter
my
Disquiet
.
Your
Coldness
,
when
I
met
you
Yesterday
,
and
your
Cruelty
,
not
to
come
into
the
Chamber
,
intimates
to
me
an
Indifference
which
I
cannot
reconcile
to
what
she
told
me
.
Dona
Constantia
was
surpriz'd
at
this
Billet
;
she
rightly
conjectur'd
,
that
the
first
was
intended
for
her
:
But
not
being
able
to
unfold
the
Riddle
,
It
is
now
(
said
she
,
smiling
)
in
my
power
,
to
revenge
my self
for
your
Yesterday's
foul
Play
,
in
not
imparting
to
me
what
was
written
to
your self
,
and
without
considering
whether
this
be
directed
to
you
or
me
,
See
Cousin
,
(
continu'd
she
)
how
little
I
value
it
;
and
with
that
she
tore
it
into
bits
.
What
you
have
done
,
(
said
Elvira
)
plainly
shews
,
that
't
was
for
me
;
but
whatever
Resolution
I
had
tak'n
not
to
write
to
the
Marquis
,
you
have
urg'd
me
to
break
it
.
I
will
give
him
notice
to
be
more
cautious
when
he
sends
any
thing
to
me
;
and
if
you
think
by
your
rash
Incivilities
,
to
disappoint
his
Kindness
for
me
,
you
are
very
much
deceiv'd
;
for
he
assures
yee
,
you
serve
him
better
then
he
could
serve
himself
.
'
I
am
very
glad
,
(
said
Dona
Constantia
)
to
be
serviceable
to
People
that
are
indifferent
to
me
;
which
helps
to
convince
me
,
that
if
I
had
any
Design
,
in
Favour
of
my
Friends
,
I
could
easily
be
induc'd
to
assist
'
em
.
'
Let
us
dally
no
longer
,
(
said
Elvira
)
I
will
write
to
him
immediately
,
and
I
will
let
you
see
my
Billet
.
With
that
,
away
she
went
into
her
Closet
,
and
while
she
was
writing
on
her
part
,
Dona
Constantia
,
after
a
little
musing
,
wrote
these
Verses
to
the
Marquis
,
to
thank
him
for
his
Present
.
These
Flowers
that
are
so
fresh
and
gay
,
And
your
brisk
Love
as
fresh
as
they
,
Into
my
Heart
did
soon
inspire
A
Thousand
Pleasures
no
less
new
.
But
should
my
Heart
once
listen
to
Desire
,
I
dread
the
Pains
that
would
my
Heart
subdue
,
If
you
should
be
unfaithful
in
your
Love
,
Or
should
it
of
no
longer
durance
prove
Then
th●se
fair
Flowers
,
tho'
newly
blown
,
Yet
wither'd
and
decay'd
as
soon
.
Dona
Constan●●a
had
already
finish'd
her
Pillet
,
when
her
Cousin
brought
her
what
she
had
written
.
Certainly
,
(
said
the
beautiful
Virgin
)
you
take
me
to
be
Naturally
ve●y
Patient
,
to
think
I
would
stay
here
,
till
you
brought
me
my
Process
to
read
:
and
so
taking
the
Paper
,
she
found
therein
these
words
.
YOU
are
Happy
that
your
Billet
Yesterday
fell
into
my
Hands
,
but
that
you
sent
to
day
has
not
obtain'd
so
favourable
an
Entertainment
.
Dona
Constantia
si●z'd
it
with
as
much
Confidence
,
as
if
it
had
been
directed
to
her
.
Another
time
,
leave
not
to
Chance
,
the
Power
of
deciding
the
Difference
.
The
Possessions
of
the
Heart
will
never
admit
of
being
shar'd
.
You
see
,
(
said
Elvira
)
that
I
am
in
Earnest
,
and
that
I
will
neither
have
yee
for
my
Rival
,
nor
my
Confident
.
'
'To
repay
your
Sincerity
,
(
reply'd
Dona
Constantia
,
I
will
make
up
your
Billet
:
and
after
she
had
folded
it
,
she
dextrously
slipp'd
the
Verses
she
had
made
in
the
room
of
it
;
at
what
time
Elvira
wrote
the
Subscription
with
her
own
Hand
,
and
deliver'd
her
Rival's
Verses
to
the
Marquis's
Page
,
believing
them
to
have
been
her
own
Billet
.
Soon
after
,
Dona
Constantia
retir'd
to
her
own
Apartment
,
where
she
found
the
Princess
of
Monteleon
,
who
was
come
to
carry
her
to
a
Play
.
The
whole
Court
was
there
that
Day
,
and
among
the
rest
,
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
;
and
by
good
Fortune
,
sate
next
to
the
Box
,
where
his
Mistress
had
plac'd
her self
.
There
he
had
an
opportunity
to
thank
her
for
the
Favour
she
had
shewn
him
;
and
he
enhaunc'd
the
Value
of
it
,
that
he
might
put
the
greater
Price
upon
his
Acknowledgment
.
Withal
,
he
assur'd
her
,
that
he
deem'd
himself
the
most
happy
among
Men
,
to
see
that
she
had
receiv'd
the
Declaration
of
his
Passion
without
any
Reluctancy
.
He
had
a
particular
Talent
to
persuade
a
Belief
of
what
he
said
,
which
other
People
had
not
,
who
spoke
the
same
Thing
.
He
had
a
great
deal
of
Wit
,
Sweetness
and
Complacency
,
and
a
high
Reputation
,
grounded
upon
true
and
solid
Worth
.
Dona
Constantia
inform'd
him
of
all
that
had
pass'd
between
them
two
:
She
also
gave
him
the
Billet
,
in
the
room
of
which
she
had
so
neatly
convey'd
her
own
Verses
,
and
she
feign'd
to
be
in
some
Measure
ignorant
,
what
Sentiments
he
had
for
the
fair
Widow
,
to
give
him
time
to
tell
her
,
upon
that
point
,
all
that
could
assure
a
lovely
Person
,
whose
Charms
are
always
Security
for
a
Lover's
Fidelity
.
Thus
the
Marquis
,
when
the
Play
was
done
,
departed
much
more
enamour'd
then
he
was
before
,
and
much
more
smitten
with
the
Wit
and
Beauty
of
his
Mistress
.
As
for
Elvira
,
she
had
refus'd
to
go
to
the
Play
,
in
regard
she
was
in
hopes
that
the
Marquis
would
come
and
spend
the
rest
of
the
Day
with
her
.
But
it
is
impossible
to
be
more
sullenly
vex'd
then
she
was
,
after
she
saw
her self
deceiv'd
,
and
Dona
Constantia
found
her
in
such
a
scurvy
Humour
,
that
she
was
going
to
retire
to
her
Chamber
,
when
of
a
sudden
,
she
heard
a
most
delightful
Symphony
,
under
the
Windows
of
the
Gallery
,
which
parted
Elvira's
Apartment
from
Constantia's
.
Thereupon
,
the
two
Ladies
went
into
a
Balcony
,
and
softly
drawing
the
Lattice-Window
,
they
saw
two
Persons
particularly
,
whom
they
knew
to
be
the
Marquis
,
and
Don
Ferdinand
.
Surely
,
you
will
not
dispute
the
Property
of
the
Serenade
with
me
,
as
you
have
done
that
of
the
Billet
,
'
(
said
Elvira
to
Constantia
)
'
Who
I
!
Cousin
,
(
reply'd
Constantia
)
I
will
never
contend
with
yee
in
any
thing
;
I
must
have
lost
my
Reason
,
if
I
did
.
Elvira
had
no
time
to
Answer
,
in
regard
that
several
Transcendent
Voices
began
to
sing
the
following
Words
in
Parts
.
Since
I
the
fair
Lisetta
lov'd
,
And
she
my
Passion
disapprov'd
,
I
suffer
cruel
Torments
Day
and
Night
;
Nor
can
my
restless
Mind
In
softest
Pleasures
or
in
calm
Delight
,
The
least
asswagement
for
my
Sorrows
find
.
Ah!
woe
is
me
!
how
does
my
Heart
lament
The
loss
of
those
blest
Hours
of
sweet
Content
Those
happy
Days
,
when
free
from
Amorous
Pains
,
Upon
a
sloping
Hillock
lay'd
,
My
Oaten
Pipe
reviv'd
the
Neighb'ring
Plains
,
And
was
the
only
Mistress
that
I
had
?
Thy
youthful
Years
,
Lisetta
,
then
improve
,
Which
Virgins
without
Pleasure
wast
That
flie
the
Pleasures
of
Inchanting
Love
,
And
they
that
lose
the
Summer
of
their
Age
,
Which
Nature
for
the
Sports
of
Love
ordain'd
,
Lose
that
,
which
when
the
Season
once
is
past
,
Can
never
—
never
be
re-gain'd
.
Unwilling
rashly
to
engage
,
Some
may
adventure
for
a
while
to
stay
;
But
late
or
early
all
must
time
obey
;
And
every
Shepherdess
Must
choose
a
Loving
Shepherd
to
caress
.
These
different
Periods
were
sung
by
different
Voices
,
which
at
length
join'd
all
together
in
the
following
Chorus
.
Shepherds
that
in
your
Loves
with
Crosses
meet
,
Be
Faithful
,
Constant
and
Discreet
;
For
often
they
who
long
have
stay'd
The
Critical
Conjuncture
,
win
the
Field
;
And
then
th'
Inexorable
Maid
Will
tamely
in
the
Lucky
moment
yield
.
Sincerely
,
(
said
Elvira
)
the
Marquis
is
very
much
to
be
belov'd
,
and
very
courtly
.
'
'
You
have
your
Reasons
,
(
said
Dona
Constantia
)
to
find
him
so
.
But
for
my
part
,
I
intend
to
make
it
my
study
,
that
he
may
find
a
Thousand
Faults
in
me
.
'
'
You
'll
do
very
well
,
Cousin
,
(
said
Elvira
,
embracing
her
)
to
follow
that
Exercise
;
for
I
must
confess
,
I
should
extreamly
pity
your
Condition
,
if
you
should
go
about
to
fix
your
Thoughts
upon
him
.
And
the
Reason
is
plain
,
because
that
from
the
first
time
that
we
saw
him
,
I
knew
by
his
Looks
,
what
he
began
to
feel
for
my
sake
:
If
I
refrain'd
from
pleasing
him
,
't
was
because
I
fear'd
,
that
you
were
too
much
in
Love
with
him
.
'
'
Ah!
Cousin
,
what
a
malitious
Charity
you
have
,
(
said
Dona
Constantia
,
smiling
)
would
you
be
so
willing
,
to
tell
me
things
that
redounded
to
my
Shame
?
But
there
she
stopp'd
—
to
hear
a
charming
Voice
that
sung
the
following
words
.
The
Vernal
Face
of
all
things
smiles
,
The
Meadows
and
the
Groves
renew
,
And
happy
Lovers
,
to
each
other
true
,
T'improve
the
Season
bend
their
amorous
Toyls
.
But
Hearts
by
fell
Misfortune
cow'd
,
And
Souls
that
languish
for
the
coy
&
proud
,
Midst
all
these
sweet
Delights
,
to
Them
All
Seasons
are
the
same
.
The
Musick
lasted
for
some
time
;
nor
did
the
Ladies
retire
till
the
Marquis
and
Don
Ferdinand
,
who
saluted
'em
by
their
Names
,
withdrew
.
The
next
day
the
Marquis
came
to
Dona
Elvira's
,
and
understanding
she
was
alone
,
he
enter'd
her
Apartment
,
not
without
some
Trouble
:
for
his
Sincerity
no
way
suited
with
the
Mistake
of
that
young
Widow
.
He
would
have
undeceiv'd
her
with
all
his
Heart
.
But
he
was
apprehensive
,
that
by
provoking
her
,
he
should
deprive
himself
of
the
means
of
seeing
Constantia
;
and
that
Reflexion
engag'd
him
much
farther
then
he
was
willing
to
goe
.
She
receiv'd
him
with
so
much
Kindness
,
that
he
was
at
his
Wits
end
to
see
it
.
Do
not
you
believe
(
said
she
,
)
very
obligingly
,
that
I
am
one
of
those
Ladies
,
that
feign
to
be
ignorant
of
what
is
done
for
'em
,
on
purpose
to
exempt
themselves
from
taking
notice
of
it
.
I
am
naturally
so
gratefull
,
that
I
would
willingly
suffer
Blame
,
did
I
not
understand
how
to
acknowledge
the
meanest
Services
that
are
paid
me
.
I
am
taken
Sir
,
with
your
Sedulities
:
I
would
fain
assure
ye
of
it
,
because
I
am
persuaded
you
will
not
misconster
this
Confession
.
I
listen'd
to
your
Serenades
with
an
extream
Delight
;
I
admir'd
the
Magnificence
of
your
Presents
,
and
I
have
found
ye
in
every
thing
full
of
Invention
,
and
a
compleat
Courtier
.
Madam
,
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
)
I
am
so
out
of
Countenance
at
the
Praises
which
you
bestow
upon
me
,
and
I
am
sensible
that
I
so
little
deserve
'em
,
that
they
rather
augment
my
Confusion
then
cherish
my
Vain-glory
.
He
was
going
on
with
his
Complement
,
when
Don
Ferdinand
enter'd
the
Room
,
together
with
Dona
Constantia
.
There
was
now
no
longer
any
room
for
private
Discourse
;
and
Elvira
reserv'd
to
her self
the
pleasure
of
making
Signs
to
the
Marquis
.
He
on
the
other
side
,
altho'
he
were
overjoy'd
to
see
Constantia
,
yet
was
his
Trouble
no
less
great
,
to
see
that
there
was
so
much
Company
,
that
he
could
not
find
a
Minute's
Time
to
entertain
his
Mistress
with
his
Passion
.
He
whisper'd
to
Don
Ferdinand
,
and
conjur'd
him
to
procure
him
an
Opportunity
to
see
his
Sister
in
her
own
Apartment
.
If
you
love
her
so
well
as
to
make
her
your
Wife
,
(
said
he
)
I
will
omit
nothing
that
may
contribute
to
your
Satisfaction
;
but
if
your
Intention
be
only
to
talk
to
her
of
your
Love
without
any
other
Design
,
you
must
excuse
me
for
not
complying
with
your
Desires
.
'
You
would
have
a
very
bad
Opinion
of
my
Sentiments
,
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
)
if
you
believ'd
that
I
had
any
other
Thoughts
then
those
of
marrying
her
.
However
since
that
I
have
given
you
my
promise
,
permit
me
to
obtain
the
same
from
her
,
and
that
we
may
take
those
Measures
together
,
which
may
be
most
proper
to
gain
the
Duke
of
Medina
Celi's
Condescention
to
what
I
so
passionately
desire
.
Upon
that
Don
Ferdinand
embrac'd
him
,
and
promis'd
him
he
would
bring
him
that
Evening
to
his
Sister
.
Dona
Constantia
was
in
a
strange
Labyrinth
,
when
she
heard
the
Proposal
,
her
Joy
and
Fear
being
equally
the
same
.
For
she
had
an
extream
Kindness
for
the
Marquis
,
but
her
Reputation
was
a
thousand
times
more
dear
to
her
.
She
was
afraid
of
a
Breach
of
Decency
and
Maiden
Decorum
,
in
the
ticklish
point
of
Love
and
Courtship
.
So
that
at
first
she
refus'd
her
Brother
what
he
desir'd
;
neither
would
she
consent
,
till
after
a
long
&
obstinate
Importunity
.
So
that
after
she
had
been
but
a
very
little
while
retir'd
to
her
Chamber
;
thither
they
went
,
without
making
the
least
Noise
.
It
is
impossible
to
express
th'
inamour'd
Marquis's
Joy
;
he
flung
himself
at
Constantia's
Feet
,
and
taking
her
in
despight
of
all
Resistance
,
by
the
hands
,
which
he
kiss'd
with
an
amorous
Impatience
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
I
am
above
measure
happy
in
that
you
have
vouchsaf'd
to
give
me
a
private
Admission
.
But
alas
!
I
only
taste
the
Pleasure
but
imperfectly
,
so
long
as
you
refuse
to
share
it
with
me
.
Tell
me
,
Madam
,
do's
not
the
excess
of
my
Passion
nothing
move
ye
?
and
can
you
with
Indifferency
behold
at
your
Feet
a
Man
that
adores
ye
?
who
comes
to
swear
an
Eternal
Fidelity
to
ye
,
and
to
know
of
you
whether
you
are
willing
to
correspond
with
those
Sentiments
,
of
which
you
never
will
have
any
cause
to
be
asham'd
?
'
Sir
,
(
said
Dona
Constantia
,
after
she
had
desir'd
him
to
rise
)
it
would
be
a
Vanity
to
tell
ye
that
I
am
indifferent
for
such
a
Passion
as
yours
:
and
therefore
I
must
needs
acknowledge
my self
to
be
affected
with
it
.
I
also
accept
your
hand
,
and
give
you
mine
before
my
Brother
:
may
it
please
Heaven
to
prosper
our
Designs
where
Tenderness
and
Esteem
have
an
equal
Share
.
The
Amorous
Marquis
transported
with
delight
,
return'd
her
a
thousand
Thanks
,
and
after
they
had
discours'd
together
a
very
little
while
,
the
fear
of
being
surpriz'd
,
enforc'd
'em
to
part
.
This
first
Enterview
was
attended
by
several
others
,
to
the
infinite
Joy
and
Satisfaction
of
those
two
Lovers
.
But
't
was
impossible
that
so
many
sweet
Contents
should
long
endure
.
The
Marquis
of
Villaster
,
Dona
Constantia's
Father
,
had
an
elder
Brother
,
call'd
Don
Sancho
,
jealous
,
violent
,
ill-humour'd
,
and
in
word
,
a
Person
that
had
nothing
to
recommend
him
,
but
his
Wealth
and
his
Birth
;
and
,
in
regard
that
his
Ancestors
had
made
such
a
Settlement
of
their
Estate
,
that
it
always
descended
from
the
Eldest
to
the
Eldest
;
by
which
means
it
could
never
fall
to
the
younger
Branch
for
want
of
Issue
,
he
bethought
himself
of
Marrying
Dona
Constantia
,
to
the
end
,
the
Children
he
should
have
by
her
,
might
make
his
Brother
amends
for
the
wrong
which
Nature
had
done
him
.
He
had
no
sooner
meditated
this
Design
,
but
he
imparted
his
Mind
to
the
Marquis
of
Villaflor
,
who
accepted
the
Proposal
with
extraordinary
Joy
,
and
promis'd
him
his
Daughter
,
without
consulting
her
,
whether
her
Sentiments
were
agreeable
to
his
or
no
.
Presently
he
sent
for
Don
Ferdinand
,
and
gave
him
in
charge
,
to
tell
his
Sister
what
he
had
done
,
and
how
he
intended
to
dispose
of
her
,
and
to
let
her
understand
,
that
altho'
Don
Sancho
were
somewhat
stricken
in
Years
,
yet
that
he
was
troubl'd
with
none
of
those
Infirmities
of
old
Age
,
that
render
People
disagreeable
to
Youth
.
Don
Ferdinand
was
in
a
kind
of
Astonishment
to
hear
this
unexpected
News
,
and
which
broke
all
the
Measures
between
Constantia
and
her
Lover
.
He
lay'd
before
his
Father
all
the
Reasons
he
could
imagine
,
to
divert
him
from
so
fatal
a
Resolution
.
But
he
found
him
inexorable
;
and
,
in
regard
the
Marquis
was
absolute
in
his
Family
,
there
was
no
avoiding
it
,
but
he
must
be
the
immediate
Messenger
of
it
to
his
Sister
.
Nor
was
it
without
an
extraordinary
Trouble
that
he
told
her
the
mournful
Tydings
.
She
receiv'd
it
with
●
lumpish
,
pensive
Silence
,
by
which
her
Brother
might
easily
judge
of
the
Excess
of
her
Grief
;
and
after
she
had
remain'd
for
some
time
,
without
being
able
to
speak
,
she
abandon'd
her self
wholly
to
the
Anguish
of
her
Sorrows
.
But
Don
Ferdinand
,
interrupting
her
,
conjur'd
her
to
take
some
speedy
course
.
I
know
not
what
course
in
the
World
to
tak●
,
(
said
she
with
Tears
in
her
Eyes
)
other
then
to
●eg
of
you
to
find
out
the
Marquis
,
and
let
him
understand
the
Condition
I
am
in
,
and
my
Father's
Design
.
Away
went
her
Brother
,
and
in
a
short
time
,
it
was
told
him
,
that
the
Marquis
was
gone
with
Don
Pedro
de
Leyna
,
his
eldest
Brother
,
to
Burgos
,
there
to
wait
upon
the
Duke
of
Medina
Celi
,
and
propose
to
him
his
Marriage
with
Dona
Constantia
,
and
that
he
made
a
full
Account
,
to
have
return'd
before
she
should
have
known
of
his
going
;
but
that
since
,
he
had
sent
word
,
that
the
Duke
had
engag'd
him
to
stay
much
longer
then
he
expected
.
This
last
piece
of
unfortunate
Intelligence
,
put
the
lovely
Lady
to
her
Wits
end
,
and
while
she
was
musing
what
to
do
,
a
Messenger
came
to
tell
her
,
that
her
Father
had
sent
for
her
.
Presently
,
she
went
to
his
Chamber
with
all
the
Anxiety
of
Mind
,
that
a
Person
devoted
to
her
Duty
,
and
,
at
the
same
time
,
prepossess'd
with
the
Merit
of
a
Lover
dearer
to
her
then
her
Life
,
could
be
sensible
of
.
There
she
found
Don
Sancho
present
,
at
what
time
the
Marquis
of
Villaflor
,
directing
his
Speech
to
his
Daughter
,
Thank
your
Uncle
(
said
he
)
for
the
Honour
he
do's
yee
,
in
making
choice
of
you
for
his
Wife
.
He
has
demanded
,
and
I
have
promis'd
yee
:
And
I
make
no
question
but
you
will
be
ready
to
comply
for
your
Advantage
:
I
suppose
Don
Ferdinand
has
acquainted
yee
with
the
Business
already
.
'
'
Sir
,
(
said
Dona
Constantia
)
I
would
rather
choose
to
dye
,
then
displease
yee
;
but
I
can
now
no
longer
conceal
from
your
Knowledge
,
that
I
have
solemnly
vow'd
a
Religious
Life
,
and
I
hope
you
will
not
oppose
a
Resolution
,
in
order
to
my
Eternal
Salvation
.
'
'
You
have
been
too
Indiscreet
,
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
in
a
fume
)
to
engage
your self
in
Vows
,
without
my
leave
;
neither
will
I
consent
to
it
;
and
therefore
Daughter
,
I
desire
yee
frankly
,
and
without
any
hesitation
,
to
yield
me
your
Obedience
.
'
'
No
,
no
,
Niece
,
(
said
Don
Sancho
)
never
be
troubl'd
for
your
Vow
,
I
will
willingly
take
all
your
Scruples
upon
my
Conscience
;
and
I
promise
,
ye
you
shall
live
so
happily
under
that
Condition
,
which
I
propose
to
yee
,
that
you
will
never
Dream
of
a
Nunnery
.
But
she
made
no
other
Answer
then
with
her
Tears
,
and
presently
withdrew
.
So
soon
as
she
was
return'd
to
her
Apartment
,
she
told
Don
Ferdinand
,
that
since
there
was
no
Hope
to
bend
her
Father's
Obstinacy
,
but
that
he
was
resolv'd
upon
the
Marriage
,
there
was
no
striving
against
that
Stream
,
and
therefore
she
conjur'd
him
to
carry
her
to
the
Nunnery
of
St.
Domingo
,
where
she
believ'd
they
would
receive
her
.
He
had
a
great
struggle
with
himself
to
adventure
an
Undertaking
so
opposite
to
his
Father's
Intentions
;
but
the
Importunate
Prayers
of
his
Sister
,
and
the
Tenderness
he
had
for
her
would
not
permit
him
to
deny
her
.
The
Nuns
,
who
were
not
ignorant
why
she
sought
for
Sanctuary
among
'em
,
and
who
were
also
acquainted
with
the
violent
Humours
of
Don
Sancho
,
and
the
Marquis
of
Villaflor
,
would
certainly
have
sent
her
back
again
,
if
the
Constable
Colonna's
Lady
,
who
was
then
in
the
Convent
had
not
,
with
much
ado
,
persuaded
'em
to
open
their
Gates
and
admit
her
in
.
That
Lady
had
a
particular
Friendship
for
Dona
Constantia
:
But
she
had
not
the
good
Luck
to
be
long
happy
with
her
.
For
within
a
very
few
Days
,
the
Marquis
of
Villaflor
had
notice
whither
his
Daughter
was
retir'd
;
and
no
sooner
had
he
discover'd
it
,
but
he
went
,
together
with
Don
Sancho
,
and
threaten'd
no
less
then
to
fire
the
Nunnery
.
There
needed
no
more
to
fright
the
Poor
Nuns
,
so
that
notwithstanding
all
that
the
Constable's
Lady
could
do
,
to
encourge
'em
against
all
the
Vanity
of
such
Menaces
,
they
return'd
the
Disconsolate
Fair
One
to
her
Father
.
She
Swoonded
away
,
at
her
coming
out
of
the
Convent
;
but
her
Father
carry'd
her
home
in
that
miserable
Condition
:
Where
,
for
some
few
Days
they
let
her
alone
,
till
she
had
a
little
recover'd
her self
from
the
ill
plight
of
Body
and
loss
of
Spirits
,
occasion'd
by
the
Consternations
and
Troubles
of
a
dejected
Mind
.
But
at
length
,
Her
Father
constrain'd
her
,
by
the
utmost
Rigour
of
unnatural
Violences
,
to
marry
Don
Sancho
.
In
the
mean
while
,
the
Marquis
receiv'd
Advice
,
at
Burgos
,
of
the
Misfortune
that
threaten'd
his
Amours
.
Upon
which
,
he
departed
thence
without
delay
,
and
flew
to
Madrid
,
with
all
the
speed
imaginable
.
But
what
he
was
afraid
of
more
then
Death
was
already
befallen
him
;
the
ill
Fate
I
mean
,
to
see
his
Mistress
in
Possession
of
another
.
The
News
of
which
awak'd
in
him
all
the
Sentiments
of
Grief
and
Rage
,
that
could
exasperate
a
Person
desperately
in
Love
.
He
was
inform'd
of
all
that
she
had
done
,
to
prevent
her
Marriage
;
and
the
Reasons
which
he
had
to
to
extol
her
Fidelity
,
did
but
serve
to
augment
his
Despair
.
At
length
,
he
fell
dangerously
Sick
:
And
upon
that
occasion
it
was
,
that
Dona
Constantia
stood
in
need
of
all
her
Vertue
.
She
had
seen
her
Father
dye
suddenly
;
and
her
Lover's
Melancholy
had
taken
so
deep
a
root
in
his
Heart
,
that
his
Life
was
also
in
a
manner
despair'd
of
.
Don
Ferdinand
went
every
Day
to
visit
the
Marquis
,
and
to
asswage
his
Pains
,
by
telling
him
a
thousand
Things
,
the
most
obliging
in
the
World
,
of
his
Sister's
Kindness
for
him
.
But
when
he
saw
him
in
a
fair
way
of
Recovery
,
he
confess'd
that
his
Sister
carefully
avoided
all
Opportunities
of
speaking
with
him
,
and
that
she
had
often
desir'd
he
might
be
acquainted
that
there
was
a
Necessity
for
him
to
banish
from
his
Remembrance
,
and
his
Heart
,
a
Person
who
had
been
so
dear
to
him
,
since
now
she
could
not
Love
him
without
a
Crime
.
But
while
Don
Ferdinand
was
thus
discoursing
to
him
,
and
giving
him
the
best
Advice
he
could
think
of
,
the
enamour'd
Marquis
sate
revolving
in
his
Mind
most
dismal
Projects
against
the
Ravisher
of
his
Felicity
.
Which
Don
Ferdinand
perceiving
,
gave
his
Sister
notice
of
it
;
and
she
being
exceeding
alarum'd
at
it
,
to
prevent
the
Effects
of
his
Fury
,
wrote
the
following
Lines
to
the
Marquis
.
SO
long
as
it
was
in
my
power
to
listen
to
my
own
Sentiments
in
your
Favour
,
you
know
I
never
fail'd
to
cherish
'em
with
all
the
care
imaginable
,
and
that
I
freely
consented
to
your
generous
Design
of
uniting
our
Destinies
together
.
I
was
never
born
to
so
great
a
Happiness
,
and
I
assure
ye
,
there
is
nothing
that
you
can
think
in
aggravation
of
my
Sorrows
but
what
is
much
inferiour
to
what
I
endure
.
If
therefore
it
be
true
that
they
do
any
way
affect
ye
,
never
seek
by
violent
means
to
deliver
me
from
a
Person
for
whom
I
am
now
bound
to
have
a
respect
.
This
is
the
last
Proof
which
I
desire
of
your
Submission
and
your
Friendship
.
Be
so
kind
,
Sir
,
as
not
to
refuse
it
,
if
you
are
still
the
same
you
were
for
Dona
Constantia
.
Don
Ferdinand
carry'd
this
Billet
to
the
Marquis
:
he
receiv'd
it
with
extraordinary
Transports
of
Affection
,
and
he
conjur'd
his
Friend
to
spare
him
some
Minutes
to
see
his
Sister
.
I
know
,
(
said
he
)
she
will
be
at
Dona
Elvira's
this
Evening
;
at
all
other
times
I
would
avoid
going
thither
:
for
I
must
confess
that
the
Remembrance
of
her
has
plagu'd
me
ever
since
my
Sickness
;
but
since
I
am
no
longer
permitted
to
visit
Dona
Constantia
as
formerly
,
I
shall
account
my self
happy
only
to
talk
with
her
in
her
Kinswoman's
Company
.
In
short
,
he
was
so
afraid
of
losing
the
Opportunity
,
that
he
got
thither
sooner
then
he
ought
to
have
done
.
Dona
Elvira
receiv'd
him
so
kindly
,
and
shew'd
him
so
many
Civilities
,
that
he
knew
not
what
to
think
or
say
to
her
.
You
have
been
punish'd
(
said
she
with
a
smiling
Countenance
)
for
going
to
Burgos
without
my
Leave
;
for
then
I
could
have
inform'd
you
of
the
Match
that
was
making
between
Dona
Constantia
and
Don
Sancho
;
you
would
have
had
the
pleasure
of
being
at
the
Wedding
,
and
I
should
have
had
the
pleasure
of
spending
a
whole
day
in
your
Company
.
The
Marquis
,
upon
these
words
,
which
recall'd
to
his
Memory
all
his
past
Misfortunes
,
was
ready
to
dye
through
the
Constraint
which
he
put
upon
himself
to
conceal
his
Grief
;
and
the
Effects
of
it
appear'd
in
his
Face
.
Which
Elvira
taking
notice
of
,
and
withal
appearing
concern'd
at
it
,
the
Marquis
told
her
,
That
he
was
not
altogether
so
well
recover'd
from
his
Sickness
,
but
that
he
was
troubl'd
sometimes
with
fainting
Fits
;
and
after
that
,
all
he
spoke
to
her
while
he
stay'd
,
he
utter'd
with
a
languishing
and
melancholly
Air
,
of
which
she
thought
her self
to
be
the
cause
.
Never
fear
Sir
,
(
reply'd
Elvira
)
my
being
so
highly
offended
,
as
not
to
deem
ye
worthy
pardon
.
Methinks
too
,
that
you
carry
your
Repentance
too
far
,
and
I
am
troubl'd
at
it
.
But
Dona
Constantia
was
not
long
before
she
came
;
for
tho'
she
were
marry'd
she
had
not
yet
remov'd
her
Lodging
,
and
as
for
her
Husband
he
lay
in
the
Marquis
of
Villaflor's
Apartment
.
She
appear'd
to
the
Marquis
so
lovely
,
so
pensive
,
so
careless
in
her
Mourning
Habit
,
and
so
neat
in
her
Carelessness
,
that
he
was
charm'd
with
the
sight
of
her
;
and
no
doubt
the
Trouble
and
Perplexity
which
this
Enterview
had
waken'd
in
these
Two
Lovers
,
had
not
escap'd
Elvira's
piercing
Eye
,
but
that
Don
Ferdinand
put
a
stop
to
her
Observation
.
She
had
had
her
Picture
newly
drawn
,
and
Don
Ferdinand
very
pleasantly
diverted
her
,
by
observing
to
her
,
that
she
had
seve●al
Beauties
which
the
Limner
had
neglected
to
express
.
This
bewitching
Flattery
pleas'd
her
extreamly
:
so
that
the
Marquis
made
the
best
of
his
time
,
and
accoasting
Dona
Constantia
.
Ah!
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
is
it
possible
that
I
should
lose
ye
;
and
that
my
Grief
should
not
have
laid
me
in
my
Gra●e
;
in
short
,
do
not
believe
me
altogether
insensible
of
my
Misfortune
?
'
No
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
)
I
do
not
in
the
least
believe
ye
insensible
:
what
I
suffer
my self
,
enables
me
to
do
you
Justice
;
but
't
is
no
longer
now
allow'd
me
to
seek
my
Consolation
.
'
How
happy
are
you
,
(
continu'd
she
)
that
't
is
in
your
power
to
afflict
your self
without
a
Crime
!
'
What
Crime
then
,
Madam
,
(
said
the
Marquis
)
do
you
think
it
to
be
,
to
bewail
a
Person
that
is
acquainted
with
nothing
but
Despair
,
and
knows
not
where
to
find
one
drop
of
Consolation
to
mitigate
the
Anguish
of
his
Sorrows
,
for
having
lost
so
rich
a
Treasure
as
your self
.
My
Duty
will
not
let
me
,
(
reply'd
Constantia
,
concealing
some
Tears
that
fell
from
her
Eyes
,
in
spight
of
all
that
she
could
do
)
my
Duty
,
I
say
,
forbids
me
to
love
ye
,
and
the
same
Duty
commands
me
to
fly
your
Company
.
How
!
can
you
hate
me
!
(
cry'd
the
Marquis
sighing
)
Unjust
Woman
!
is
Don
Sancho
become
the
Master
of
your
Heart
,
and
has
he
banish'd
me
from
thence
?
Oh
Sir
,
insult
not
over
me
any
more
,
(
reply'd
Constantia
interrupting
him
.
)
It
behov'd
Don
Sancho
to
have
done
all
that
you
have
said
,
and
it
became
me
to
assist
him
:
but
I
had
not
the
Strength
;
as
the
Afflictions
wherewith
you
see
me
overwhelm'd
,
may
well
inform
ye
.
They
had
continu'd
their
Expostulations
,
but
that
Elvira
briskly
quitted
Don
Ferdinand
,
and
return'd
to
the
Marquis
;
and
it
happen'd
very
luckily
for
the
two
Lovers
;
for
Don
Sancho
,
who
presently
enter'd
the
Room
,
would
not
have
been
well
pleas'd
to
have
seen
his
Wife
in
private
discoursing
with
the
Marquis
.
He
brought
Letters
which
he
had
receiv'd
from
Mexico
,
that
gave
him
a
large
Account
of
Goods
that
he
had
in
the
Indies
.
Dona
Elvira
also
was
concern'd
in
the
Letters
;
and
that
was
the
Reason
she
was
forc'd
to
hear
'em
read
over
,
which
requir'd
some
time
;
so
that
the
Marquis
,
not
having
an
opportunity
to
speak
to
his
Mistress
in
private
,
took
a
Pocket
Looking-Glass
that
lay
upon
the
Table
,
and
making
a
shew
as
if
he
were
playing
with
it
,
with
the
point
of
a
Diamond
wrote
upon
it
the
following
Verses
.
Remember
,
fair
Constantia
,
when
your
Face
You
see
by
true
Reflexion
from
this
Glass
,
That
all
those
Beauties
which
you
there
display
,
Vanish
from
thence
,
when
once
you
turn
away
.
But
,
Madam
,
be
you
near
or
far
remote
,
My
Heart
retains
'em
,
ne'er
to
be
forgot
.
Dona
Constantia
,
was
too
intent
upon
what
the
Marquis
was
doing
not
to
perceive
that
he
had
writ
something
upon
the
Glass
,
and
therefore
feigning
to
rectifie
something
that
was
amiss
in
her
Head-Attire
,
she
took
it
out
of
his
Hands
,
and
read
what
he
had
there
written
.
Elvira
also
desir'd
it
,
to
set
her
Locks
right
,
which
put
Constantia
to
a
nonplus
.
However
,
not
thinking
it
convenient
,
to
shew
any
thing
of
Reluctancy
,
she
presented
it
to
her
:
but
as
Elvira
was
going
to
take
it
,
Constantia
,
as
if
it
had
been
by
Mischance
,
let
it
fall
,
and
brake
it
to
pieces
;
and
seeming
to
be
extreamly
troubl'd
for
the
Accident
,
pick'd
up
the
bits
,
and
threw
'em
out
at
Window
:
I
am
resolv'd
,
(
said
she
)
this
shall
give
you
no
farther
trouble
,
and
from
this
very
Evening
,
I
shall
endeavour
to
repair
my
Fault
.
The
enamour'd
Marquis
lost
no
Opportunity
of
seeing
her
.
On
the
other
side
,
Dona
Elvira
persever'd
in
her
belief
,
that
he
Lov'd
her
,
because
he
often
came
to
visit
her
.
One
Day
that
he
was
passing
through
the
Gallery
,
which
was
right
against
Constantia's
Chamber
,
he
saw
Juana
,
one
of
her
Women
,
for
whom
she
had
the
greatest
Kindness
,
come
forth
;
he
stopp'd
her
,
to
ask
her
how
her
Mistress
did
.
She
is
like
to
be
at
quiet
for
some
Days
,
(
said
she
)
Don
Sancho
is
going
to
the
Escurial
,
and
he
has
already
given
〈◇〉
to
two
Duena's
,
not
to
let
her
stir
out
of
their
sight
.
'
'
How
!
my
poor
Juana
,
(
cry'd
the
Marquis
)
must
I
not
see
her
?
'
Not
so
often
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
)
as
if
he
were
at
home
:
For
you
know
what
a
terrible
Beast
a
Duena
is
.
'
They
are
not
so
difficult
to
be
tam'd
as
thou
thinkest
for
,
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
with
a
smile
.
)
But
,
I
'll
not
be
beholding
to
'em
:
Here
,
take
this
Jewel
which
I
freely
give
thee
,
and
procure
me
a
moment's
time
to
talk
with
thy
Mistress
.
Juana
at
first
,
was
somewhat
squeamish
,
but
the
Marquis
knew
so
well
how
to
manage
her
,
that
she
promis'd
him
,
that
the
next
Day
in
the
Evening
,
when
her
Mistress
was
alone
,
she
would
open
the
back-door
,
unknown
to
her
Mistress
,
and
let
him
in
.
The
Marquis
,
at
the
same
time
,
was
afraid
to
offend
her
,
nor
would
he
have
consented
to
the
Maid's
Proposal
,
but
that
he
Flatter'd
himself
,
as
all
Lovers
do
,
that
a
Mistress
is
never
so
much
incens'd
,
by
seeing
the
Person
whom
she
Loves
at
her
Feet
▪
but
that
she
is
ready
to
Pardon
the
Transports
of
a
desperate
Lover
.
So
that
he
made
his
Fears
submit
to
his
Desires
,
and
promis'd
Juana
not
to
fail
.
The
pleasing
Idea
which
he
had
form'd
to
himself
of
this
Meeting
caus'd
him
to
look
with
〈◇〉
●hearful
Air
▪
which
he
had
not
done
for
a
good
while
.
Elvira
,
with
whom
he
had
been
that
Day
and
the
next
,
perceiving
it
,
was
the
more
charm'd
with
him
for
it
,
and
lov'd
him
still
more
and
more
.
And
now
the
appointed
Evening
being
come
,
Juana
waited
for
him
,
and
by
a
back
pair
of
Stairs
,
having
convey'd
him
into
the
Gallery
,
Here
I
leave
yee
,
(
said
she
)
the
Door
is
open
,
and
you
have
nothing
to
do
,
but
not
to
make
any
noise
when
ye
enter
.
But
the
Darkness
of
the
Place
,
his
Joy
,
and
the
Trouble
he
was
in
,
caus'd
him
to
commit
a
gross
Mistake
.
For
the
Gallery
lead
into
Elvira's
Apartment
,
as
well
as
Constantia's
,
and
he
went
into
Elvira's
Chamber
instead
of
his
Mistresses
.
Now
Elvira
was
already
got
to
Bed
,
and
the
small
Wax
Candle
,
that
burnt
at
a
good
distance
off
,
gave
such
a
dim
light
,
that
the
Marquis
,
whose
Thoughts
were
already
taken
up
with
other
things
,
was
not
in
a
Condition
to
distinguish
one
Chamber
from
the
other
.
Nor
was
Elvira
yet
gone
to
Sleep
,
when
she
heard
her
Door
open
,
which
she
never
minded
,
believing
it
had
been
one
of
her
Maids
;
but
drawing
the
Curtain
,
and
seeing
the
Marquis
approach
,
her
Surprize
was
no
less
then
the
hurly-burly
of
her
Thoughts
:
However
,
she
conjectur'd
it
to
be
an
Effect
of
his
Passion
.
But
tho'
she
took
a
great
Delight
in
Flattering
her self
,
yet
she
look'd
upon
him
now
as
somewhat
too
Rude
,
and
was
going
to
tell
him
a
piece
of
her
Mind
,
when
he
threw
himself
upon
his
Knees
,
by
her
Bed-side
,
and
in
a
most
submissive
,
yet
passionate
manner
,
which
discover'd
the
Trouble
of
his
Soul
,
Most
Divine
Creature
,
(
said
he
)
never
accuse
me
before
you
hear
me
.
I
confess
it
is
a
great
piece
of
Rudeness
to
come
into
your
Chamber
at
an
unseasonable
Hour
;
I
know
't
is
the
way
to
expose
yee
to
many
Inconveniences
.
But
I
have
been
as
cautious
as
it
was
possible
for
me
to
be
,
to
the
end
,
that
no
body
should
take
notice
of
it
.
Fear
nothing
therefore
,
either
from
my
Rashness
,
or
the
excess
of
my
Love
.
I
am
only
come
to
aggravate
the
force
of
it
before
yee
,
and
to
dye
at
your
Feet
.
No
,
Madam
,
(
continu'd
he
)
never
did
Lover
burn
with
a
Flame
so
pure
and
so
violent
:
Bear
with
me
for
some
few
Minutes
,
without
being
affrighted
;
and
do
not
interrupt
with
your
Reproaches
the
Pleasure
which
I
taste
,
by
being
in
your
Presence
.
'
Ah!
Marquis
,
(
reply'd
Elvira
)
is
it
possible
that
you
should
be
so
Respectful
as
you
promise
,
and
should
an
Adventure
,
so
extraordinary
as
this
,
once
come
to
be
known
,
would
busie
Tongues
refrain
from
taxing
me
with
keeping
Correspondence
with
yee
?
I
do
not
disown
but
that
I
have
a
particular
Inclination
to
do
your
Merit
Justice
.
But
tho'
this
Inclination
be
much
stronger
then
I
apprehend
it
to
be
my self
,
there
is
yet
a
Reason
much
more
powerful
to
be
offended
at
the
Liberty
you
have
taken
.
She
spoke
these
Words
with
such
a
Commotion
of
Mind
,
and
with
a
Voice
so
low
,
that
the
Marquis
could
not
yet
perceive
his
Mistake
.
Listen
to
that
Inclination
,
(
said
he
)
if
it
be
in
my
favour
.
Alas
!
is
there
no
Mark
of
Compassion
owing
to
the
only
Man
in
the
World
,
whom
you
have
made
most
Miserable
?
Concluding
those
Words
,
he
took
Elvira
by
the
Hand
,
and
kiss'd
it
with
those
Transports
,
that
are
not
to
be
express'd
.
Nor
was
she
insensible
of
it
;
insomuch
,
that
a
soothing
Languishment
,
that
had
almost
master'd
all
her
Sernes
,
hinder'd
her
from
being
so
Rigorous
as
she
would
have
been
.
The
ena●mour'd
Marquis
perceiv'd
it
,
and
neglected
nothing
to
improve
his
Advantages
.
But
finding
that
she
made
too
strong
a
Resistance
,
How
!
Madam
(
said
he
)
would
you
hinder
me
from
demonstrating
the
Excess
of
my
Passion
,
at
the
only
moment
that
ever
I
could
be
Master
of
,
since
your
Marriage
?
Have
not
you
plighted
your
Troth
to
me
,
before
ever
you
were
engag'd
to
Don
Sancho
?
The
stab
of
a
Dagger
would
have
been
less
cruel
to
Elvira
,
then
these
Words
;
which
so
surpriz'd
her
,
and
strook
her
with
such
an
inward
Grief
,
that
she
swoonded
away
in
the
Marquis's
Arms.
This
Accident
affrighten'd
him
beyond
Imagination
:
He
ran
to
fetch
the
Light
,
to
see
whether
it
were
in
his
Power
to
relieve
the
expiring
Beauty
.
But
in
what
a
Condition
was
he
,
when
he
saw
her
Face
,
and
found
his
Mistake
.
He
was
almost
at
Death's
Door
himself
;
nor
did
he
know
what
Resolution
to
take
:
He
was
about
to
have
left
her
in
the
Condition
she
was
in
.
But
then
considering
what
a
piece
of
Cruelty
it
would
be
toward
a
Woman
that
had
so
passionate
a
Kindness
for
him
,
and
that
if
he
did
not
call
for
Assistance
,
she
might
lie
a
long
time
in
her
Fit
,
he
was
at
a
loss
again
;
for
,
whom
should
he
call
?
If
any
of
her
Servants
,
that
were
the
way
to
Ruine
her
.
Well
—
at
length
,
he
resolv'd
to
have
recourse
to
Dona
Constantia
,
and
the
rather
,
because
he
had
an
extraordinary
desire
to
see
her
.
To
which
purpose
,
he
stole
through
the
Gallery
,
into
her
Chamber
,
and
as
he
drew
the
Curtains
,
tho'
it
were
very
softly
,
she
wak'd
of
a
suddain
,
and
began
to
cry
out
,
seeing
him
so
near
her
at
Midnight
.
Be
not
disturb'd
,
Madam
(
said
he
)
and
permit
me
to
stay
but
a
few
Minutes
in
your
Chamber
.
Good
God
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
)
What
d'
yee
mean
to
expose
me
thus
?
Is
it
possible
that
you
should
have
any
kindness
for
me
,
yet
go
about
to
ruine
my
Reputation
?
No
,
no
,
I
cannot
permit
your
Company
any
longer
,
in
a
place
where
you
run
the
hazard
as
well
of
your
own
,
as
my
Life
,
if
you
are
discover'd
.
Be
gone
immediately
,
I
conjure
yee
,
Sir
:
The
Request
it self
is
so
much
a
Trouble
to
me
,
that
I
have
enough
to
do
to
make
it
;
and
therefore
give
me
no
farther
disturbance
,
to
speak
any
more
.
'
Madam
(
said
the
Marquis
)
I
cannot
leave
yee
,
till
I
have
inform'd
yee
of
the
cruel
Accident
that
has
befallen
me
.
I
thought
my self
in
your
Chamber
,
when
I
was
in
Elvira's
.
I
mistook
her
a
long
time
for
your self
,
and
have
been
declaring
my
Passion
to
her
,
and
she
has
hearken'd
to
me
.
But
,
at
length
she
understood
,
by
the
continuance
of
my
Discourse
,
that
all
my
Vows
and
Protestations
were
address'd
to
you
,
Madam
,
and
I
tremble
to
tell
yee
the
Effect
which
the
Knowledge
of
this
produc'd
.
She
swoonded
away
,
and
lies
still
in
a
Fit
;
so
that
of
Necessity
,
you
must
be
so
kind
as
to
go
and
help
her
.
With
that
,
Dona
Constantia
beginning
to
grow
jealous
,
O
Sir
,
(
said
she
)
't
is
not
me
that
you
seek
for
here
,
nor
should
I
have
known
that
you
had
been
in
the
House
,
had
not
Elvira
stood
in
need
of
my
Assistance
.
No
,
no
,
I
would
not
have
you
to
think
me
good
Natur'd
enough
to
go
and
relieve
her
in
that
Condition
,
to
which
the
Pleasure
of
your
Company
has
reduc'd
her
.
Let
it
satisfie
yee
,
that
I
will
say
nothing
of
it
to
any
body
,
and
so
I
beg
the
Favour
of
yee
to
depart
immediately
.
How
unkindly
do
you
add
to
the
heap
of
my
Afflictions
!
(
cry'd
the
Marquis
,
in
a
doleful
tone
)
Can
you
think
me
capable
of
such
a
piece
of
Infidelity
;
me
,
that
love
yee
even
to
Adoration
;
who
have
given
yee
an
ingenious
and
true
Account
of
what
has
pass'd
,
and
who
would
sacrifice
all
the
Women
in
the
World
to
your
Esteem
?
These
words
were
accompany'd
with
such
an
Aire
,
so
tender
and
so
moving
,
that
Dona
Constantia
,
could
not
forbear
to
believe
what
he
said
.
Well
—
(
said
she
)
I
will
believe
yee
,
notwithstanding
all
the
Circumstances
that
make
against
yee
.
But
do
not
abuse
my
Indulgence
,
be
gone
.
As
for
Elvira
,
take
my
Advice
,
and
let
her
alone
as
she
is
:
And
when
you
see
her
,
shew
her
the
same
Marks
of
your
Esteem
and
Kindness
,
as
you
were
wont
to
do
.
't
is
my
Opinion
also
,
that
if
it
were
possible
to
deceive
her
,
when
she
comes
to
talk
of
this
Accident
,
and
to
make
her
believe
she
was
in
a
Dream
,
it
would
extreamly
conduce
to
bring
us
out
of
this
Perplexity
.
The
Marquis
approv'd
her
prudent
Counsel
,
and
went
away
.
Dona
Elvira
by
degrees
recover'd
her
troubl'd
Sences
,
and
after
that
,
abandon'd
her self
to
all
that
Despite
and
Repentance
,
which
usually
attends
an
Accident
like
that
which
had
befall'n
her
.
She
upbraided
her self
with
her
Favours
for
an
ingrateful
Lover
;
she
set
before
her
Eyes
the
Triumphs
of
her
Rival
,
when
she
should
be
inform'd
of
her
Misfortune
,
●nd
meditated
Revenge
proportionable
to
●er
Anger
.
Nor
was
Constantia
less
affli●ted
;
she
was
sufficiently
apprehensive
of
Elvira's
Fury
,
and
she
blam'd
her self
in
her
Heart
,
that
she
had
so
soon
dismiss'd
her
Lover
.
The
Marquis
also
lay
under
as
great
Disturbances
.
His
Imagination
was
ingenious
to
furnish
him
with
Reasons
to
be
afraid
,
as
well
for
his
Mistress
as
his
Passion
,
and
he
waited
the
proper
Hour
to
see
Dona
Elvira
with
an
extraordinary
Impatience
.
She
had
given
Order
,
he
should
be
admitted
when
he
came
:
And
he
found
her
in
her
Closet
,
upon
her
Couch
,
with
her
Eyes
bath'd
in
Tears
,
and
in
a
profound
Study
.
He
had
already
thrown
himself
at
her
Feet
,
before
she
perceiv'd
him
.
But
so
soon
as
she
saw
him
,
she
gave
a
great
shriek
,
and
rose
up
in
a
pelting
chafe
,
with
a
Resolution
to
have
flung
out
of
the
Room
,
but
he
prevented
her
,
and
stopping
her
with
a
most
awful
Aire
,
What
have
I
done
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
that
you
should
be
thus
frighted
at
my
appearance
?
I
cannot
conceive
what
Misfortune
it
should
be
,
that
causes
you
to
cast
such
Looks
upon
me
.
Has
any
body
been
here
that
has
done
me
any
unfriendly
Office
.
Was
there
ever
any
Impudence
like
to
yours
?
(
cry'd
Elvira
,
in
a
terrible
heat
)
How
durst
you
come
hither
to
insult
over
me
,
and
after
all
that
you
have
done
,
come
now
and
ask
me
whether
I
have
any
cause
to
complain
.
Who
,
I
!
(
reply'd
the
Marquis
,
with
an
Aire
of
astonishment
;
)
Have
I
,
Madam
,
ever
giv'n
you
any
cause
of
complaint
?
or
,
Did
I
ever
do
any
thing
that
has
displeas'd
yee
?
'
Ah!
certainly
you
must
think
me
to
be
very
easie
of
belief
,
if
you
believe
me
to
be
cully'd
by
your
Counter-feigned
Surprisal
.
No
,
Sir
,
I
have
no
such
treacherous
Memory
,
as
to
forget
last
Night's
Accident
:
It
was
not
for
my
Honour
indeed
;
but
I
hope
to
have
a
quick
Revenge
for
the
Mortification
I
have
suffer'd
.
I
understand
yee
,
Madam
,
(
said
the
Marquis
,
with
a
discontented
Aspect
,
)
my
Assiduities
displease
yee
.
What
Trick
have
you
found
out
,
(
said
she
)
to
shift
off
confessing
,
that
you
were
not
in
my
Chamber
;
that
mistaking
me
for
Constantia
,
you
did
not
fill
my
Ears
with
the
dinn
of
your
Passion
;
and
lastly
,
that
you
did
not
leave
me
in
a
Swoon
?
'
All
the
Prodigies
in
the
World
,
(
cry'd
the
Marquis
)
would
less
surprize
me
,
then
the
Story
that
you
tell
me
.
Do
you
think
,
Madam
,
that
I
am
so
rudely
indiscreet
,
to
come
into
your
Apartment
at
such
a
time
of
the
Night
,
without
your
permission
?
How
should
I
come
to
talk
of
Dona
Constantia
,
who
have
no
particular
Kindness
for
her
?
And
if
you
doubt
of
what
I
affirm
,
Don
Ferdinand
will
confirm
the
Truth
of
it
,
who
was
in
my
Company
all
the
Night
.
These
confident
Assertions
of
the
Marquis
put
Elvira
into
a
strange
Astonishment
,
so
that
after
a
Thousand
Reflexions
of
her
own
making
,
and
a
Thousand
Oaths
the
Marquis
swore
,
they
both
concluded
that
she
had
been
in
a
Dream
;
and
upon
that
,
she
begg'd
him
as
many
excuses
,
for
flying
out
so
severely
against
him
.
But
the
Marquis's
Joy
had
not
been
perfect
,
had
not
Constantia
had
her
share
of
it
.
Thereupon
,
he
wrote
to
her
the
next
Day
,
and
gave
Juana
the
Billet
to
deliver
to
her
Mistress
.
It
was
in
these
Words
.
I
Have
over-persuaded
Elvira
;
and
never
was
any
thing
so
Pleasant
as
her
Credulity
.
I
can
hardly
pardon
my self
the
Oaths
which
I
swore
;
I
protested
to
her
,
that
I
Lov'd
no
living
Soul
but
her self
:
Whereas
you
know
,
Madam
,
that
you
are
the
only
Person
that
I
Love
.
Is
it
not
possible
for
▪
me
to
give
you
an
Account
of
our
Contest
,
and
to
enjoy
your
Company
a
little
longer
then
I
did
the
last
Night
?
Juana
ran
to
her
Mistress's
Chamber
,
to
have
giv'n
her
this
Billet
:
But
there
she
found
the
two
Duena's
,
who
,
according
to
their
Orders
,
were
not
to
let
her
stir
out
of
their
sight
,
and
she
was
careful
of
making
them
privy
to
a
Secret
,
which
they
would
be
sure
to
reveal
;
so
that
she
presently
withdrew
.
But
as
she
pass'd
hastily
through
the
Gallery
,
as
ill
Luck
would
have
it
,
she
dropp'd
the
Billet
,
and
did
not
perceive
it
,
till
some
time
after
.
In
the
mean
while
,
Dona
Elvira
,
who
was
walking
in
the
Gallery
,
at
the
same
time
,
saw
her
let
it
fall
,
and
said
nothing
,
but
took
it
up
.
Immediately
,
no
less
Impatient
then
big
with
Curiosity
,
she
retir'd
to
her
Closet
;
and
it
is
easie
to
imagine
the
Sentiments
of
Grief
and
Indignation
upon
the
reading
of
a
Billet
that
made
her
the
ridiculous
Subject
of
the
Enditer's
Mirth
.
She
was
incens'd
beyond
all
atonement
,
to
find
that
she
should
have
such
a
violent
Passion
for
a
Man
that
scorn'd
her
,
and
a
Rival
that
was
so
well
inform'd
of
her
Weakness
.
She
could
not
forbear
admiring
,
that
she
should
,
with
so
much
easiness
,
believe
the
Marquis
,
and
how
he
could
come
to
persuade
her
,
that
all
she
had
seen
was
no
more
then
a
Dream
.
She
wept
,
she
wail'd
,
she
took
a
Thousand
various
Resolutions
,
sometimes
to
be
reveng'd
,
sometimes
to
be
as
indifferent
as
he
was
cold
.
But
,
at
length
her
Love
prevailing
,
she
agreed
to
Pardon
his
Ingratitude
,
if
she
could
but
make
him
Love
her
.
To
compass
this
Design
,
upon
which
all
her
Tranquility
depended
,
she
thought
there
was
not
any
thing
which
she
might
put
in
practice
;
and
therefore
.
feigning
not
to
to
have
seen
the
Billet
,
she
wrote
another
to
the
Marquis
,
wherein
she
sent
for
him
to
come
to
her
.
IF
you
intend
to
be
punctual
to
the
meeting
,
which
is
appointed
,
fail
not
to
come
this
Evening
to
my
Apartiment
:
I
shall
not
fail
to
be
alone
,
to
the
end
I
may
have
more
time
to
discourse
yee
.
This
Proposal
of
a
private
Meeting
Face
to
Face
,
very
much
gravell'd
him
.
For
it
is
a
difficult
thing
,
to
act
any
long
time
the
Part
of
a
Man
in
Love
,
and
who
,
in
that
Respect
,
desires
nothing
of
a
Woman
by
whom
he
is
belov'd
.
Let
a
Man
have
never
so
little
to
do
with
a
Mistriss
that
is
quick-sighted
,
she
quickly
penetrates
into
that
which
he
most
willingly
would
hide
from
her
,
But
,
tho'
he
had
no
mind
to
meet
,
yet
he
durst
not
fail
.
Away
therefore
he
went
in
the
Evening
,
and
found
her
in
a
magnificent
Closet
,
all
hung
with
Lights
,
and
where
there
was
nothing
omitted
to
make
it
sumptuous
and
delightful
.
She
her self
was
laid
down
upon
a
Couch
,
in
a
careless
Morning
habit
,
of
Rose-colour
Silk
,
intermix'd
with
Silver
,
such
as
they
usually
wear
in
Spain
,
her
Hair
negligently
dishevell'd
about
her
Shoulders
,
and
some
Jewels
here
and
there
dispers'd
without
any
Affectation
,
compleated
the
lustre
of
her
Dress
;
nor
had
she
ever
manag'd
her
Charms
to
more
advantage
.
't
is
so
difficult
a
thing
(
said
she
)
for
me
,
that
am
troubl'd
with
Company
,
to
find
a
convenient
time
to
enjoy
yours
,
that
I
resolv'd
to
make
choice
of
this
,
and
withal
,
to
order
my
Servants
to
say
,
I
am
not
within
.
You
see
,
Sir
,
care
has
been
taken
to
spare
you
that
time
and
leisure
,
which
perhaps
you
never
desir'd
.
'
I
have
desir'd
it
,
and
most
earnestly
too
,
(
said
the
Marquis
,
falling
upon
his
Knees
,
by
the
side
of
the
Couch
)
but
being
aw'd
by
my
Respect
,
I
durst
not
tell
you
so
;
nor
should
I
ever
have
presum'd
to
hope
the
Favour
which
you
afford
me
now
,
but
that
it
is
your
pleasure
that
my
Happiness
should
be
a
piece
of
your
Workmanship
.
'
I
question
,
(
said
she
)
whether
it
be
so
much
your
Desire
as
mine
,
and
I
fear
't
will
be
my
Reproach
one
Day
,
to
have
made
an
ungrateful
Person
of
yee
.
'
Your
suspitions
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
do
me
infinite
wrong
;
and
I
am
hitherto
utterly
ignorant
,
which
way
I
have
deserv'd
'
em
.
Ah!
(
cry'd
she
,
no
longer
being
Mistriss
of
her
Resentment
,
)
perfidious
Man
!
I
will
instruct
yee
then
,
for
your
better
Edification
;
or
rather
,
this
Billet
will
inform
yee
,
which
Yesterday
you
wrote
to
your
Mistress
.
Will
yee
now
disown
this
too
,
and
make
me
believe
I
'm
still
in
a
Dream
?
Any
other
Person
but
my self
,
(
continu'd
she
)
would
have
made
use
of
it
to
your
ruine
.
But
I
have
suspended
my
Revenge
:
I
was
willing
to
see
whether
you
are
capable
of
Repentance
;
for
I
am
still
weak
enough
to
pardon
yee
.
Yes
—
if
you
intend
to
preserve
Dona
Constantia
from
the
fury
of
her
Husband
,
't
will
be
your
best
way
to
pledge
me
your
Faith
;
for
,
in
short
,
the
repose
of
my
Life
depends
upon
it
.
The
Marquis
,
at
these
words
,
all
in
Trouble
and
Confusion
,
could
not
choose
but
discover
in
his
Looks
,
the
disorder
of
his
Soul
.
I
must
confess
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
I
Love
Constantia
,
and
I
could
have
wish'd
,
that
the
same
inclination
which
devoted
me
to
her
,
had
made
me
your
suppliant
.
The
Union
of
your
Fortune
to
mine
,
would
have
been
too
great
a
Happiness
for
me
.
But
,
Madam
,
I
am
not
the
Master
of
my
own
Destiny
,
and
you
ought
to
pity
me
.
For
,
in
short
,
I
am
not
belov'd
by
her
,
for
whom
I
had
a
Kindness
;
I
know
your
Merit
,
and
the
price
of
your
Favours
:
Consider
then
the
Extremity
of
my
Misfortune
,
not
to
be
able
,
neither
to
avoid
a
great
Mischief
,
nor
to
embrace
a
great
Happiness
.
How
Unfortunate
am
I
!
(
cry'd
she
,
at
the
same
time
letting
fall
a
showre
of
Tears
;
)
Have
I
been
all
along
so
kind
to
make
these
Condescentions
so
unworthy
of
my self
,
and
is
there
nothing
that
remains
for
me
,
but
the
Reward
of
ruinous
Despair
,
to
be
refus'd
?
Ah
miserable
Creature
!
never
survive
thy
Shame
,
but
by
a
speedy
Death
,
repair
the
Folly
of
thy
Life
.
Concluding
those
words
,
she
drew
a
Dagger
from
under
the
Cushions
,
where
she
had
hid
it
,
and
stabb'd
it
into
her
Bosome
.
Immediately
down
she
tumbl'd
,
weltring
in
Blood
,
and
fetching
from
her
Breast
most
doleful
Sighs
,
she
left
the
Marquis
fully
persuaded
that
she
was
going
to
give
up
the
Ghost
.
You
may
easily
imagine
his
Astonishment
;
who
seeing
her
grow
pale
and
motionless
,
began
to
be
afraid
that
she
was
quite
dead
.
In
this
Extremity
,
he
thought
it
his
best
way
to
get
out
of
such
a
fatal
Place
;
and
meeting
Juana
in
the
Gallery
,
he
told
her
what
a
fatal
Accident
had
happen'd
.
She
was
as
much
troubl'd
as
He
,
and
carry'd
him
immediately
into
her
Mistriss's
Closet
,
where
she
help'd
him
to
hide
himself
.
In
the
mean
time
,
Elvira
,
who
had
counterfeited
a
swooning
Fit
,
and
only
feign'd
to
kill
her self
,
calling
to
one
of
her
Women
,
to
whom
she
had
imparted
her
Design
,
Help
,
Eugenia
,
help
,
(
said
she
)
for
I
am
wounded
and
past
all
Consolation
,
to
find
the
Marquis
so
indifferent
.
My
Business
is
done
,
dear
Maid
;
since
he
has
stood
his
last
Tryal
,
I
must
never
hope
to
move
his
Heart
.
The
Traytor
minded
nothing
,
but
to
get
away
;
and
here
has
left
me
dying
for
his
sake
.
I
have
no
more
to
think
of
but
my
Revenge
;
and
that
same
cruel
and
remorseless
Passion
shall
cure
me
of
that
Affectionate
Passion
which
I
had
for
him
.
And
so
saying
,
she
caus'd
her
wound
to
be
bound
up
,
and
went
to
Bed
.
While
things
were
thus
manag'd
in
Dona
Elvira's
Apartment
,
Constantia
was
not
at
home
,
in
regard
her
Husband
had
sent
for
her
to
meet
him
upon
the
Road
.
But
at
their
Return
,
they
found
none
of
their
own
Servants
,
either
at
the
Gates
or
Doors
,
only
the
House
full
of
all
sorts
of
People
,
as
well
Officers
of
Justice
,
as
Elvira's
Friends
,
who
flock'd
thither
upon
the
Account
of
the
Accident
.
At
which
they
were
strangely
surpriz'd
,
and
went
to
her
Chamber
;
where
,
so
soon
as
she
saw
'em
,
she
renewed
her
Lamentations
,
and
made
'em
a
Repetition
of
what
she
had
already
told
all
the
World
,
that
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
finding
her
alone
,
and
willing
to
make
the
best
of
his
Opportunity
,
for
madness
that
she
refus'd
his
Courtship
,
had
stabb'd
her
with
his
Dagger
.
In
pursuance
of
which
,
she
caus'd
most
heinous
Informations
to
be
drawn
up
against
him
;
and
the
Fact
was
believ'd
to
be
a
real
Truth
.
The
Duke
of
Medina
Celi
,
being
inform'd
of
it
,
was
at
his
Wits
end
,
and
all
People
talk'd
of
no
less
then
of
putting
the
Marquis
to
Death
,
so
soon
as
he
could
be
taken
.
As
for
Dona
Constantia
,
it
is
not
to
be
express'd
how
extreamly
she
was
troubl'd
and
afflicted
when
she
understood
the
Business
,
and
Elvira
,
observ'd
her
too
narrowly
,
not
to
understand
her
Sentiments
;
and
tho'
she
strove
to
conceal
'em
with
all
the
Care
imaginable
,
yet
they
could
not
choose
but
appear
in
her
Countenance
.
It
was
an
extraordinary
Grief
to
her
,
to
think
of
accusing
the
Marquis
,
nor
could
she
believe
him
innocent
,
when
she
call'd
to
mind
with
what
disturbance
he
came
to
her
Chamber
the
same
Night
that
he
had
been
with
Elvira
.
She
therefore
feign'd
her self
to
be
tyr'd
with
her
Journey
,
that
she
might
have
a
Pretence
to
quit
Elvira
,
only
she
desir'd
Don
Sancho
to
stay
there
some
time
;
and
no
sooner
was
she
retir'd
to
her
Closet
,
o'erwhelm'd
with
Grief
and
Discontent
,
but
Juana
came
to
her
,
and
inform'd
her
that
she
had
hid
the
Marquis
.
Upon
which
,
she
made
a
sudden
stop
,
uncertain
what
she
had
to
do
.
But
he
immediately
appear'd
and
threw
himself
at
her
Feet
.
Oh!
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
can
you
scruple
to
see
a
Man
,
who
,
in
the
excess
of
his
Misfortune
,
has
no
other
Consolation
but
what
you
afford
him
.
'
Speak
more
Sincerely
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
,
interrupting
him
)
and
tell
your
Story
to
the
charming
Elvira
.
The
wicked
injury
that
you
have
done
her
sufficiently
betrays
the
violence
of
your
Passion
.
'
Ah!
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
how
are
you
going
to
be
sway'd
by
Prejudice
and
Mistake
!
Hear
me
,
for
Heaven's
Sake
,
and
I
will
quickly
let
you
see
your
Error
.
And
then
he
gave
her
a
full
Relation
of
every
particular
Circumstance
of
the
Accident
,
with
that
ingenious
Sincerity
,
that
she
could
not
choose
but
give
Credit
to
him
.
I
am
infinitely
Sorry
,
(
said
she
)
and
I
bewail
my
own
Condition
;
for
we
have
a
cruel
Enemy
to
deal
with
.
She
will
look
upon
me
as
the
cause
of
your
Contempt
,
and
she
will
leave
nothing
omitted
to
gratifie
her
Hatred
;
tho'
were
I
the
only
Person
upon
whom
her
Resentment
were
to
fall
,
methinks
I
should
be
so
much
the
less
miserable
Her
Grief
and
her
Tears
would
not
permit
her
to
proceed
:
And
while
the
Marquis
was
endeavouring
to
alleviate
her
Sadness
,
Elvira
,
transported
with
her
unjust
Rage
,
seeing
Don
Sancho
by
her
,
Sir
,
(
said
she
)
never
think
that
Love
has
any
share
in
the
Tragedy
that
has
been
acted
between
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
and
my self
;
he
has
always
look'd
upon
me
with
an
indifferent
Eye
,
and
it
is
not
consonant
to
Sence
,
that
a
Man
should
stab
a
Mistress
for
not
complying
immediately
with
his
Desires
.
That
was
never
the
Motive
;
No
—
no
—
but
your
Concerns
are
the
cause
of
this
unhappy
Accident
that
has
befall'n
me
.
You
will
find
by
that
Billet
which
he
wrote
to
Dona
Constantia
,
and
which
fell
into
my
Hands
by
chance
,
that
he
holds
a
Correspondence
with
her
;
and
as
my
Lover
,
I
tax'd
him
with
it
.
I
would
have
had
him
renounc'd
it
,
and
upon
his
refusal
,
I
threatn'd
him
severely
to
inform
you
of
it
,
when
in
a
rage
,
and
to
rid
himself
of
his
fears
and
jealousies
,
he
drew
his
Dagger
and
gave
me
this
wound
.
This
pernicious
Story
wrought
in
Don
Sanche
the
full
Effect
which
Elvira
promis'd
to
her self
.
He
gave
her
a
thousand
Thanks
,
and
offer'd
her
his
Estate
and
his
Life
,
in
vindication
of
the
wrong
she
had
sustain'd
,
and
finding
himself
transported
with
his
Jealousie
,
never
meditating
any
more
upon
the
Consequences
of
his
Revenge
,
he
flew
to
his
Wife's
Apartment
.
Juana
perceiving
him
coming
,
gave
immediate
notice
to
the
Marquis
,
who
presently
slipp'd
behind
the
Hangings
.
Don
Sancho
enter'd
her
Chamber
with
a
furious
Aspect
,
and
found
Constantia
lying
upon
the
Couch
,
so
languishing
,
and
withal
so
beautiful
,
as
would
have
mov'd
the
most
obdurate
to
Compassion
and
Tenderness
.
But
far
from
that
,
the
Devil
,
which
had
possess'd
him
,
had
put
it
into
his
Head
,
that
her
profound
Melancholy
was
only
an
effect
of
her
Grief
for
what
was
likely
to
befall
the
Marquis
:
and
carry'd
away
with
those
Thoughts
,
This
is
no
time
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
to
muse
upon
your
Paramour
;
and
so
saying
,
drew
his
Dagger
;
which
Constantia
seeing
,
as
much
affrighted
and
dismay'd
as
she
was
,
had
only
so
much
time
and
strength
to
throw
herself
at
his
Feet
,
and
beg
her
Life
;
and
this
same
short
delay
was
that
which
sav'd
her
.
For
notwithstanding
all
her
Tears
,
his
Hand
was
up
to
give
the
fatal
stroak
,
when
the
Marquis
rush'd
out
from
the
place
where
he
lay
hid
,
and
calling
him
to
stand
upon
his
Guard
,
generously
gave
him
time
to
draw
his
Sword
.
But
the
Match
was
not
equal
:
For
the
Marquis's
Love
and
Anger
,
both
together
,
had
re-inforc'd
his
natural
strength
and
courage
to
that
degree
,
that
he
was
able
to
have
vanquish'd
ten
such
Enemies
;
so
that
with
one
Mortal
thrust
,
he
lay'd
the
Jealous
Husband
dead
at
his
Feet
.
Dona
Constantia
,
scar'd
with
her
own
danger
,
and
the
death
of
her
Husband
,
would
have
call'd
out
for
help
:
but
the
Marquis
embracing
her
Knees
,
Make
no
noise
,
Madam
,
(
said
he
)
for
if
you
do
,
we
are
utterly
ruin'd
:
You
will
be
accus'd
as
well
as
I
;
but
permit
me
to
secure
you
in
a
Place
of
safety
.
Or
,
if
you
resolve
to
stay
,
to
your
own
destruction
,
I
am
resolv'd
to
run
the
same
hazard
,
and
be
ruin'd
with
yee
.
Her
dismay
,
and
her
irresolution
at
first
,
were
such
,
as
were
not
easie
to
be
exprest
;
but
at
length
,
her
Reputation
,
which
was
always
more
dear
to
her
,
then
her
Life
,
oblig'd
her
to
determine
.
Flie
Sir
,
said
she
)
and
leave
a
miserable
Woman
,
whom
the
Laws
of
Decency
will
not
permit
to
accompany
your
flight
:
nor
is
it
for
me
to
be
any
ways
assisting
toward
your
escape
,
without
a
Crime
,
since
you
are
the
Murderer
of
my
Husband
.
But
I
consent
to
your
escape
,
and
beg
ye
to
provide
for
your self
,
and
to
be
more
careful
of
your
preservation
,
then
I
would
be
of
my
own
.
For
my
part
,
I
intend
to
wait
the
issue
of
this
unlucky
business
in
a
Cloyster
,
and
there
I
will
preserve
you
in
my
Remembrance
,
which
is
all
I
can
do
for
yee
.
Concluding
those
words
,
notwithstanding
all
the
tears
and
entreaties
of
the
Marquis
,
she
left
the
Room
,
attended
only
by
Juana
,
both
wrapp'd
up
in
long
Mantles
;
nor
would
the
Marquis
forsake
her
,
but
still
follow'd
her
at
a
distance
.
She
had
been
so
provident
as
to
take
along
with
her
some
Jewels
and
Money
;
but
,
in
regard
the
Night
was
now
far
spent
,
she
went
no
farther
then
Juana's
Mother's
House
,
in
expectation
of
Day
,
that
she
might
shut
her self
up
in
the
Nunnery
of
St.
Domingo
.
There
this
afflicted
Lady
thought
to
have
found
an
assured
Sanctuary
and
perhaps
her
Expectations
would
have
been
answer'd
,
but
for
the
violent
Prosecutions
of
Dona
Elvira
.
She
accus'd
her
to
have
assassinated
her
Husband
with
the
assistance
of
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
:
She
justify'd
also
,
that
he
went
from
her
very
late
in
the
Night
,
and
all
the
Circumstances
which
she
produc'd
contributed
to
the
ruine
of
those
two
Lovers
.
She
discover'd
where
her
Rival
had
conceal'd
her self
;
she
gave
present
information
of
it
to
the
Court
,
and
she
obtain'd
an
Order
from
the
King
to
the
Abbess
,
to
keep
Constantia
as
a
Person
that
would
be
call'd
to
a
very
severe
Account
.
She
was
also
depriv'd
the
Liberty
of
stirring
out
of
her
Chamber
,
and
while
they
were
busily
contriving
to
frame
the
Process
against
her
and
the
Marquis
,
Letters
were
intercepted
which
he
had
written
to
her
full
of
Passion
,
and
Menaces
against
their
Common
Enemies
;
and
they
were
brought
in
as
Evidence
against
'
em
.
All
this
while
,
the
Marquis
was
reduc'd
to
such
a
Condition
of
Despair
and
Fury
,
as
would
have
transported
him
to
the
last
Extremities
of
Violence
,
so
eager
was
he
to
ruine
himself
,
in
hopes
to
save
his
Mistress
.
All
his
Friends
labour'd
to
appease
his
Fury
,
and
kept
him
private
whither
he
would
or
no
.
But
at
length
,
the
Duke
of
Medina
Celi
told
him
,
that
it
was
in
vain
to
delay
any
longer
,
that
his
business
went
worse
and
worse
,
and
that
there
was
an
absolute
Necessity
for
him
to
retire
into
Flanders
.
This
was
to
him
another
Thunder-clap
;
he
saw
his
Mistress
in
Danger
,
and
yet
they
would
enforce
him
to
forsake
her
in
the
midst
of
her
Necessity
:
So
that
he
refus'd
to
consent
to
their
Advice
,
while
he
thought
it
a
greater
Misfortune
to
escape
alone
,
then
to
perish
with
the
Person
that
he
lov'd
.
He
therefore
made
it
his
whole
business
to
get
his
Mistress
out
of
the
Place
of
her
Confinement
.
He
had
sought
in
vain
to
corrupt
her
Guards
,
for
they
were
too
vigilant
,
and
too
faithful
to
Elvira
.
But
,
at
length
he
bethought
himself
of
a
particular
Expedient
.
There
are
in
Madrid
a
great
number
of
blind
People
that
strowle
about
the
Streets
,
with
their
Tabors
and
Pipes
,
much
like
those
which
the
Biscayners
make
use
of
:
They
also
sing
long
Songs
,
containing
sometimes
,
the
Amours
of
the
Moors
,
that
made
themselves
Masters
of
Grenada
,
and
sometimes
other
Stories
.
The
Marquis
therefore
compos'd
several
Stanza's
,
wherein
he
set
forth
Constantia's
and
his
own
Misfortunes
,
under
the
Names
of
the
enamour'd
Zegris
,
and
the
unfortunate
Galiana
.
He
also
gave
Constantia
notice
to
be
ready
to
make
her
Escape
,
and
that
she
should
meet
with
Assistants
at
the
Garden
Door
.
This
done
,
he
gave
the
blind
People
their
Lesson
,
and
they
being
thoroughly
instructed
,
went
to
the
Convent
.
Now
the
Nuns
are
generally
extreamly
taken
with
this
sort
of
Musick
,
and
therefore
as
soon
as
they
heard
'em
,
they
caus'd
'em
to
be
let
into
the
great
Speaking-Room
,
whether
all
the
Society
flock'd
together
.
The
Marquis
knew
that
Constantia's
Chamber
was
near
to
that
Room
;
and
the
Nuns
that
were
appointed
to
Guard
her
,
never
considering
the
Charge
with
which
they
were
entrusted
,
run
after
the
rest
of
their
Companions
.
Nevertheless
,
Constantia
never
minded
to
take
advantage
of
the
opportunity
,
till
the
Beggars
having
sung
out
several
of
their
Ballads
,
began
that
which
the
Marquis
had
given
'
em
.
But
then
,
not
doubting
but
that
the
Ballad
concern'd
her
,
by
the
resemblance
of
the
Story
with
her
Misfortunes
,
she
resolv'd
to
satisfie
her
Curiosity
.
With
that
,
she
went
immediately
,
together
with
Juana
,
into
the
Garden
,
and
made
directly
to
a
Door
,
that
open'd
into
the
Fields
;
and
before
she
came
near
it
,
she
heard
some
body
bouncing
against
it
,
to
break
it
open
.
In
short
,
the
door
was
soon
forc'd
off
the
Hinges
;
and
then
appear'd
the
Marquis
of
Leyna
,
with
a
great
Number
of
his
Friends
.
It
is
impossible
to
express
the
Joy
of
those
two
Lovers
at
their
Meeting
.
Don
Ferdinand
also
,
who
was
one
of
the
Party
,
put
Constantia
and
Juana
into
a
Coach
and
Six
Horses
,
and
the
Road
being
laid
with
fresh
Coach
and
Horses
,
they
quickly
got
out
of
reach
,
and
travelling
through
France
,
arriv'd
safe
at
Brussels
,
where
Dona
Constantia
put
her self
into
a
Nunnery
,
that
she
might
not
break
the
Laws
of
Decency
,
of
which
she
was
a
punctual
Observer
.
Dona
Elvira
,
mad
that
her
Rival
,
and
the
Marquis
had
thus
escap'd
her
Fury
,
labour'd
all
she
could
to
obtain
Orders
to
continue
her
Prosecution
in
Flanders
.
But
those
were
deny'd
her
;
and
then
it
was
,
that
she
could
no
longer
withstand
the
Excess
of
her
Vexation
And
now
the
Objects
of
her
Revenge
being
out
of
her
reach
,
she
had
time
to
reflect
upon
the
En●
mity
of
her
Crime
She
consider'd
,
that
●he
Persons
whom
she
persecuted
,
had
never
deserv'd
her
Resentment
.
Rage
and
Repentance
turmoil'd
her
to
that
Degree
,
that
she
could
not
any
longer
resist
their
force
,
and
the
wound
which
she
had
given
her self
,
beginning
to
fester
,
by
reason
of
her
wilfully
refusing
to
apply
necessary
Remedies
,
in
a
few
Days
she
found
that
her
Life
was
in
great
Danger
;
and
being
at
length
given
over
by
the
Physicians
,
she
began
then
to
think
of
discovering
the
Truth
,
which
she
had
so
obstinately
prosecuted
;
and
made
use
of
her
remaining
Strength
,
to
write
to
the
Duke
of
Medina
Celi
.
To
that
purpose
,
when
she
had
finish'd
her
Relation
,
she
gave
the
Pacquet
to
her
Confident
Eugenia
,
with
express
Order
,
not
to
deliver
it
till
after
her
Death
.
After
that
,
she
seem'd
to
be
more
at
rest
,
and
with
an
extraordinary
Resolution
,
lay'd
aside
,
for
the
short
remainder
of
her
Days
,
all
farther
thoughts
of
worldly
Affairs
.
Thus
dy'd
Elvira
.
As
soon
as
her
Friends
had
pay'd
their
last
Duties
to
her
deceased
Body
,
Eugenia
deliver'd
her
Mistresses
Pacquet
to
the
Duke
;
who
opening
it
,
found
therein
a
Letter
from
Dona
Elvira
,
of
which
these
were
the
Words
.
IF
the
shame
of
acknowledging
that
I
have
Lov'd
an
ungrateful
Man
,
and
that
I
have
committed
a
piece
of
Treachery
,
unworthy
a
Person
of
my
Birth
,
may
suffice
to
merit
the
pardon
of
my
Folly
and
Wickedness
;
If
the
just
Anguish
which
my
approaching
Death
inflicts
upon
me
,
may
procure
me
that
Compassion
,
which
I
dare
not
promise
to
my self
,
you
will
no
longer
,
Sir
,
be
incens'd
against
a
Woman
,
whose
Crime
and
Misfortune
were
Love
and
Jealousie
.
The
Marquis
of
Leyna
is
innocent
.
't
was
I
that
gave
my self
the
wound
.
I
thought
to
move
him
by
all
the
outward
Appearances
of
a
deep
Despair
.
To
that
purpose
I
had
prepar'd
a
little
Bladder
of
Blood
,
under
my
Bosome
,
ready
for
the
stroak
of
a
Dagger
,
but
the
Trouble
I
was
in
,
caus'd
me
to
stab
it
farther
then
I
intended
,
and
by
that
means
,
I
inflicted
upon
my self
the
Punishment
that
I
deserv'd
.
't
is
also
true
,
that
I
infus'd
into
Don
Sancho
the
cruel
Resolution
to
have
sacrific'd
Constantia
to
his
Jealousie
.
I
omitted
nothing
to
inflame
his
Rage
,
and
render
her
Guilty
;
so
that
if
the
Marquis
had
not
sav'd
her
Life
,
he
had
infallibly
murder'd
her
.
Inform
the
King
of
this
my
Confession
,
made
at
such
a
time
,
as
clears
it
from
all
Suspition
.
I
bequeath
,
Sir
,
by
my
Will
,
all
my
Estate
to
Dona
Constantia
,
and
I
wish
,
that
together
with
it
,
she
may
enjoy
the
Person
who
was
born
to
compleat
the
Felicity
of
her
Life
.
Tho'
the
Duke
were
over-joy'd
to
read
a
Deposition
so
beneficial
for
his
Nephew
,
however
,
he
could
not
choose
but
bewail
the
hard
Fate
of
Dona
Elvira
.
He
besought
the
King
that
this
Letter
might
be
read
in
Council
:
To
which
his
Majesty
freely
consented
,
and
likewise
granted
the
Marquis
his
Pardon
.
Which
was
the
more
easily
obtain'd
,
because
there
were
no
other
Prosecutions
against
him
,
and
for
that
,
all
People
were
convinc'd
of
his
Innocency
.
Thereupon
,
the
Duke
sent
him
the
happy
Tydings
,
and
Dona
Constantia
return'd
to
Madrid
,
at
the
same
time
that
the
Marquis
arriv'd
there
.
Every
body
desir'd
her
no
longer
to
delay
the
Felicity
of
her
Lover
.
But
she
thought
it
became
her
to
pay
a
little
respect
to
the
Rules
of
Decency
,
which
would
not
permit
her
so
soon
to
marry
the
Person
who
had
slain
her
Husband
.
However
,
she
gave
the
Marquis
leave
to
trust
to
her
Assurances
,
and
then
retir'd
to
a
Nunnery
with
the
Constable
Colonna's
Lady
,
who
had
always
been
her
constant
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