A
BRIEF
NARRATION
of
the
sickness
and
death
of
Master
Benjamin
Rhodes
,
and
his
wife
Mistresse
Anne
Rhodes
;
the
former
whereof
sickned
on
the
twenty
fourth
day
of
July
,
and
died
on
the
third
of
Aug.
1657.
about
eleven
of
the
clock
in
the
morning
.
The
later
,
diligently
attending
her
Husband
,
whilest
her
strength
continued
,
was
at
last
forced
to
yield
to
the
violence
of
her
own
distemper
.
She
sickned
on
the
twenty
eighth
day
of
July
,
and
departed
this
life
on
the
fourth
of
Aug.
a
little
after
midnight
,
about
two
of
the
clock
.
They
were
both
buried
in
the
same
grave
,
at
Malden
Church
in
Bedfordshire
,
in
the
North
Isle
,
at
the
very
entrance
into
the
lately
erected
Chappel
for
the
Sepulchre
of
the
Right
Honourable
Diana
Countess
of
Oxford
and
Elgin
,
on
the
fourth
of
August
,
1657.
at
the
evening
.
HAd
I
no
farther
knowledge
of
these
two
persons
,
but
onely
the
bare
Narration
of
their
Alliance
,
Affinities
,
Conjunction
in
the
same
yoke
of
Wedlock
together
,
and
service
to
the
same
Honourable
Lady
now
with
God
,
and
to
the
same
Right
Honourable
Lord
,
the
Earl
of
Elgin
,
(
now
blessed
be
God
yet
surviving
)
of
their
sickning
so
neer
together
,
dying
so
little
distance
of
time
one
from
another
,
burial
at
the
same
time
,
and
in
the
same
place
,
and
grave
,
and
neer
the
same
noble
Mistresse
they
both
served
;
it
could
not
choose
but
much
affect
me
,
as
I
doubt
not
but
that
it
will
many
persons
that
shall
hear
of
it
,
though
they
knew
neither
our
brother
nor
sister
here
departed
.
But
when
I
remember
my
own
relation
to
the
same
Family
,
our
mutual
love
,
commerce
,
and
respects
in
our
daily
conversation
,
our
frequent
Addresses
to
the
Throne
of
Grace
,
the
losse
that
their
Noble
Master
,
and
his
whole
Family
with
him
sustains
,
upon
the
withdrawing
of
that
influence
which
they
had
in
the
management
of
the
general
concernments
of
all
persons
related
to
their
Right
Honourable
Lord
;
the
calamity
of
the
affliction
would
quite
over-whelm
me
,
and
others
,
I
believe
,
with
me
,
did
not
the
consideration
of
Gods
Providence
,
and
their
happinesse
step
in
,
and
put
a
check
upon
the
exorbitancy
of
our
passions
.
But
when
I
reflect
upon
these
two
,
I
find
my
sorrow
lessening
,
my
tears
drying
,
and
the
high
tempest
of
my
grief
abating
into
a
gentle
calm
.
And
truly
(
Beloved
)
if
good
old
Eli
supported
himself
with
one
of
these
pillars
,
I
mean
the
Providence
of
God
,
how
much
more
ought
we
to
rest
satisfied
,
and
contented
with
both
?
I
mean
such
a
dispensation
of
Divine
Providence
,
that
hath
involved
and
wrapt
up
in
it
so
great
benefit
and
advantage
to
those
in
whose
sicknesse
and
death
it
hath
been
chiefly
concerned
.
Part
of
that
Message
which
Eli
heard
from
Samuel
,
1
Sam
.
3.14
.
was
,
I
have
sworn
,
that
the
iniquity
of
the
house
of
Eli
shall
not
be
purged
with
sacrifice
,
nor
offering
for
ever
;
and
yet
the
devout
servant
of
God
,
considering
whose
errand
Samuel
delivered
,
saith
with
all
patience
,
and
submission
unto
the
will
of
God
,
V.
18.
It
is
the
Lord
,
let
him
doe
what
seemeth
him
good
.
But
Gods
dealing
with
these
his
servants
here
before
us
was
such
,
that
though
his
chastisement
was
sharp
,
yet
it
was
mixed
with
love
,
and
sent
onely
to
fit
and
prepare
them
for
better
comforts
,
than
any
can
be
reaped
here
below
;
it
was
dispensed
unto
them
,
that
they
might
be
partakers
of
his
holinesse
,
Heb
.
12.10
.
and
consequently
the
better
fitted
for
that
everlasting
and
eternal
happinesse
which
they
now
enjoy
.
For
my
part
,
I
blesse
the
goodness
of
God
,
which
hath
made
me
partaker
of
so
good
patterns
,
how
to
leave
this
wretched
and
miserable
world
,
and
to
go
to
God
;
though
I
knew
in
some
measure
what
was
my
duty
,
and
might
possibly
(
through
Gods
assistance
)
have
been
able
to
have
instructed
others
,
yet
to
see
holy
rules
practised
,
and
divine
propositions
exemplified
,
and
such
truths
as
are
generally
,
notional
onely
,
and
swimming
in
the
brain
,
acted
to
the
life
in
the
agonies
of
death
;
O!
this
must
needs
work
upon
us
,
if
we
be
not
more
stupid
than
the
brute
beast
,
&
obdurate
than
the
Adamant
it self
.
And
truly
beloved
,
I
speak
to
as
many
as
were
eye-witnesses
of
the
sharp
visitation
of
these
our
departed
friends
,
and
ear-witnesses
of
the
divine
ejaculations
,
and
seraphical
speeches
that
flowed
from
their
lips
;
how
sweet
a
meditation
is
it
unto
you
to
remember
,
how
Gods
strength
appeared
in
their
weakness
;
how
fervently
with
words
,
and
sighs
,
and
hands
,
&
eyes
lifted
up
to
Heaven
,
did
they
demonstrate
that
the
violent
heat
of
their
distempered
bodies
was
like
unto
that
fire
,
2
Chron
.
7.1
.
that
upon
the
Prayer
of
Solomon
descended
from
Heaven
,
whereby
the
bodies
and
souls
of
these
devout
persons
were
consumed
,
as
whole
burnt-offerings
and
sacrifices
unto
that
gracious
God
of
theirs
unto
whom
they
are
gone
?
Indeed
their
carriage
in
the
time
of
their
sicknesse
,
was
very
unlike
,
and
different
one
from
the
other
;
for
whereas
he
was
nothing
startled
in
his
assurance
of
the
fruition
of
Christ
,
crying
out
,
every
moment
almost
,
I
goe
to
my
Christ
,
I
goe
to
my
God
,
ever
mounted
upon
the
wing
of
an
humble
confidence
in
Christs
merits
,
not
his
own
:
She
was
grievously
assaulted
with
the
terrour
of
her
sins
,
brought
down
to
the
gates
of
despair
almost
,
so
that
I
had
much
adoe
,
by
the
best
cordials
that
I
could
administer
unto
her
out
of
the
Gospel
of
Peace
,
to
sustain
her
from
fainting
:
and
yet
I
have
very
good
reason
to
judge
,
as
I
shall
shew
anon
,
that
the
Lord
did
hearken
to
the
voice
of
her
weeping
;
her
deep
humiliation
,
her
earnest
invocation
,
her
strong
crying
upon
God
for
his
mercy
,
her
earnest
request
,
that
her
sins
might
be
made
known
unto
her
,
her
justification
of
God
in
all
his
dealings
with
her
,
her
resolution
,
if
God
should
further
continue
her
in
the
land
of
the
living
here
,
to
walk
more
strictly
than
formerly
she
had
done
,
and
to
conclude
,
her
full
resignation
of
her self
into
the
hands
of
God
,
to
doe
with
her
as
he
pleased
,
are
very
strong
evidences
to
me
,
that
God
,
though
he
chastened
her
sore
,
Ps.
118.18
.
yet
he
gave
her
not
over
unto
death
,
I
mean
the
second
death
;
but
made
that
hot
furnace
,
whereinto
he
cast
her
,
a
refining
fire
unto
her
faith
,
1
Pet
.
1.7
.
the
trial
whereof
being
much
more
precious
than
of
gold
that
perisheth
,
will
be
found
(
I
hope
)
unto
praise
,
and
honour
,
and
glory
,
at
the
appearing
of
Jesus
Christ
.
My
warning
hath
been
but
little
,
and
my
disposition
of
body
less
,
since
they
dyed
,
to
speak
any
thing
meet
for
their
worthy
memory
,
or
your
ears
.
You
must
pardon
me
therefore
,
if
I
give
you
but
some
small
reliques
of
that
spiritual
Feast
,
wherewith
their
holy
discourses
abundantly
entertained
all
us
that
were
present
with
them
.
First
then
of
him
,
that
sickned
first
,
and
first
was
translated
hence
.
If
we
consider
him
in
his
youth
,
we
shall
find
,
even
then
,
God
dealing
graciously
with
him
.
At
what
time
he
waited
upon
the
Earl
of
Oxford
,
in
the
Low-Countries
,
he
told
me
,
that
he
was
forward
and
active
to
shew
himself
valiant
in
the
handling
of
arms
,
but
being
once
engaged
in
a
Fight
,
in
the
heat
of
the
Skirmish
he
was
suddenly
struck
with
the
consideration
of
that
execution
that
his
bullets
might
make
,
and
his
Musket
was
ready
to
fall
out
of
his
hands
,
when
he
remembred
that
he
might
be
the
authour
of
his
brothers
death
,
in
a
cause
,
wherein
he
was
not
so
well
skilled
,
as
to
receive
such
satisfaction
that
might
void
all
scruples
unto
his
conscience
.
Upon
that
he
grew
cold
(
not
quitting
the
virtue
of
Fortitude
,
but
correcting
the
errour
of
its
mis-application
as
he
judged
)
in
that
service
,
as
reverencing
the
image
of
God
in
man
at
a
higher
rate
than
to
think
it
might
be
destroyed
for
a
pecuniary
Stipend
.
Killing
of
men
is
the
worst
of
Trades
,
grow
the
Masters
of
that
art
never
so
rich
,
and
great
thereby
:
And
therefore
not
long
before
his
death
,
he
looked
upon
such
as
have
by
that
employment
advanced
themselves
,
as
miserable
wretches
,
rather
to
be
pitied
for
their
guilt
,
and
misery
,
than
envyed
for
their
vast
temporal
advantages
.
His
soul
was
far
from
their
secret
,
that
in
their
anger
,
or
for
their
gain
could
shed
bloud
,
yet
his
charity
was
so
large
,
that
he
could
both
pray
himself
for
them
,
and
commend
them
to
the
devotion
of
such
as
stood
about
him
.
Betaking
himself
therefore
to
a
more
civil
course
of
life
,
he
waited
upon
the
Countesse
of
Oxford
,
and
by
that
means
became
servant
to
that
person
of
Honour
in
whose
Family
he
dyed
.
That
we
may
digest
our
Discourse
touching
our
Brother
here
departed
,
into
some
method
:
Let
us
view
him
standing
in
a
five-fold
relation
;
First
,
to
his
Lord
,
as
a
servant
.
Secondly
,
to
his
wife
,
as
an
husband
.
Thirdly
,
to
his
children
,
as
a
parent
.
Fourthly
,
to
his
fellow-servants
,
as
a
friend
.
Fifthly
,
to
the
Church
wherein
he
was
bred
,
as
a
dutiful
Son
.
First
,
look
upon
him
as
a
servant
.
I
reckon
four
qualifications
requisite
to
perfect
a
servant
:
1.
Skill
in
the
employment
which
he
undertakes
.
2.
Fidelity
,
in
not
purloining
his
Masters
goods
.
3.
Diligence
,
that
he
discharge
his
trust
with
his
utmost
endeavour
.
4.
Obsequiousnesse
,
that
what
he
doth
may
be
performed
with
love
,
and
tender
regard
to
the
person
of
his
Master
,
as
the
Apostle
Saint
Paul
admonisheth
,
Let
as
many
servants
as
are
under
the
yoke
,
1
Tim
.
5.1
.
count
their
own
Masters
{αβγδ}
,
worthy
of
all
honour
.
All
these
met
and
concentred
together
in
this
servant
.
First
,
for
his
skill
in
the
businesse
imposed
upon
him
,
it
was
extraordinary
;
he
understood
what
was
decent
,
and
becoming
the
persons
of
all
sorts
of
men
,
and
therefore
gave
them
such
reception
in
his
Noble
Masters
Family
,
as
became
his
Honour
,
and
their
Quality
.
Nothing
expedient
was
wanting
,
and
yet
vain
superfluities
cut
off
;
for
he
well
knew
,
that
excesse
doth
not
commend
an
entertainment
,
but
dishonour
the
entertainer
,
and
hurt
the
guest
:
Colligite
fragmenta
,
Gather
the
fragments
,
was
his
command
,
at
whose
will
the
land
was
ready
to
present
the
Cattel
upon
a
thousand
hills
:
the
sea
to
expose
her
shoals
of
Fishes
,
and
the
air
to
send
more
numerous
Fowl
then
ever
encompassed
the
Camps
of
the
Israelites
,
Num
.
11.20
.
when
they
were
feasted
with
Quails
,
till
they
came
out
at
their
very
nostrils
.
Moreover
,
he
was
not
unfurnished
with
other
accessory
accomplishments
,
which
though
not
necessary
for
,
yet
were
great
ornaments
to
his
place
and
calling
.
A
competent
knowledge
he
had
in
the
Latine
,
and
French
Tongues
,
and
was
very
well
skilled
in
Musick
,
which
he
used
as
holy
David
did
his
,
to
lift
up
his
heart
to
his
God
,
and
to
advance
his
Meditations
to
a
kind
of
ecstatical
admiration
of
the
wisdome
,
and
bounty
,
and
goodnesse
,
and
mercy
of
his
gracious
Redeemer
.
Secondly
,
In
the
next
place
let
us
consider
his
Fidelity
,
how
uprightly
and
honestly
he
managed
all
affairs
that
concerned
him
.
He
knew
well
,
who
layes
this
injunction
upon
servants
,
that
they
should
not
purloin
,
but
shew
all
good
fidelity
,
Tit
.
2.10
.
that
they
may
adorn
the
doctrine
of
God
our
Saviour
in
all
things
.
The
Masters
goods
,
as
Saint
Bernard
speaks
,
ought
not
to
go
through
,
but
by
the
servant
,
ne
aliquid
haereat
in
digitis
,
lest
any
thing
stick
to
his
fingers
which
may
defile
them
.
How
free
his
heart
,
and
his
hands
were
from
any
pollution
of
this
kind
,
his
chearfull
profession
a
little
before
he
dyed
,
may
sufficiently
demonstrate
:
For
he
spake
openly
to
my
Lord
before
many
that
stood
by
,
that
it
was
not
●●s
design
to
carve
himself
an
estate
out
〈◇〉
his
Lordships
Income
.
True
indeed
,
Scripture
and
Reason
●equire
,
that
such
servants
,
that
●pend
their
strength
and
time
in
their
Masters
service
,
should
have
encouragements
,
besides
what
will
barely
serve
their
necessities
,
in
a
liberal
manner
.
Saint
Paul
layes
this
command
upon
servants
,
that
they
should
not
serve
with
eye-service
as
men-pleasers
,
but
in
singlenesse
of
heart
,
fearing
God
;
and
yet
the
same
Apostle
also
exhorts
Masters
to
give
unto
their
servants
not
only
that
which
is
just
,
{αβγδ}
,
Col.
4.1
.
but
also
that
which
is
equal
,
{αβγδ}
,
somewhat
that
may
be
an
assistance
unto
them
to
live
chearfully
,
when
they
change
their
condition
:
For
Masters
ought
not
to
take
that
advantage
of
their
servants
necessities
,
as
to
wear
them
out
with
no
regard
to
those
exigencies
which
age
and
infirmity
may
expose
them
unto
.
This
was
cautioned
in
the
old
Law
,
Lev
.
25.46
.
over
your
brethren
the
children
of
Israel
,
ye
shall
not
rule
one
over
another
with
rigour
:
And
God
more
particularly
describes
the
manner
,
how
the
servant
that
was
an
Hebrew
(
which
proportion
holds
amongst
us
,
when
Christians
serve
Christians
)
was
to
be
dismissed
after
seven
years
service
;
Deut
.
15
,
13
,
14.
When
thou
sendest
him
out
free
from
thee
,
thou
shalt
not
let
him
goe
empty
away
;
thou
shalt
furnish
him
liberally
out
of
thy
flock
,
and
out
of
thy
floor
,
and
out
of
thy
winepresse
,
of
that
wherewith
the
Lord
thy
God
hath
blessed
thee
,
thou
shalt
give
unto
him
.
But
if
Masters
forget
their
duty
,
servants
must
not
forget
theirs
;
but
remember
,
that
they
have
a
Master
in
Heaven
,
from
whom
they
shall
receive
the
reward
of
an
inheritance
,
eternal
in
the
Heavens
,
let
men
deal
as
hardly
with
them
as
they
please
.
But
in
our
present
case
,
the
honour
of
the
Master
on
the
one
hand
,
and
the
truth
and
fidelity
of
the
servant
on
the
other
,
had
made
a
sufficient
provision
against
all
complaints
,
either
of
hardship
on
the
one
side
,
or
sinister
and
private
ends
on
the
other
:
If
the
servant
was
Jacob
,
the
Master
was
no
Laban
,
to
change
his
wages
seven
times
,
except
by
augmentation
of
them
;
and
therefore
I
look
upon
his
protestation
rather
as
a
comfortable
record
of
his
own
integrity
,
than
a
purgation
of
any
suspicion
from
my
Lord
.
Thirdly
,
therefore
let
us
consider
his
diligence
,
which
may
well
be
added
to
his
fidelity
as
a
part
of
it
;
for
he
that
is
idle
,
is
a
kind
of
robber
.
Our
deceased
Friend
followed
Jacobs
example
,
who
told
Laban
that
in
the
discharge
of
his
service
,
the
sleep
departed
from
his
eyes
:
Gen.
31.40
.
What
he
contrived
with
care
,
that
he
executed
with
diligence
;
walking
,
and
riding
from
place
to
place
,
that
he
might
suffer
no
damage
to
arise
to
my
Lords
affairs
,
from
the
neglect
of
such
persons
that
were
intrusted
with
them
.
Fourthly
,
that
which
crowns
all
the
endeavours
of
a
servant
,
is
chearfulnesse
or
obsequiousnesse
;
and
therefore
the
Apostle
speaking
of
the
duty
of
servants
,
would
not
onely
have
it
to
be
discharged
,
Col.
3.23
.
{αβγδ}
,
but
{αβγδ}
,
with
alacrity
,
as
well
as
simplicity
of
heart
.
With
what
readinesse
and
willingnesse
of
mind
he
attended
upon
his
Lords
commands
,
appeared
from
the
meeknesse
of
spirit
which
he
always
brought
into
his
presence
.
For
the
testimony
of
this
,
I
had
rather
appeal
to
my
Lords
own
profession
,
than
his
modesty
.
For
my
Lord
told
him
,
that
whereas
he
had
served
him
about
twenty
eight
years
,
he
never
heard
a
word
proceed
from
him
that
was
obnoxious
to
an
ill
construction
:
At
which
he
presently
replied
,
I
must
crave
your
Lordships
pardon
,
for
I
think
I
have
sometimes
offended
in
this
behalf
;
but
I
had
always
a
right
heart
to
your
Lordship
.
So
much
for
his
first
relation
.
Secondly
,
consider
him
as
an
Husband
,
and
there
you
may
find
him
loving
,
tender
,
able
,
and
apt
to
teach
and
instruct
his
wife
,
free
from
bitternesse
and
passion
.
I
might
be
more
large
in
every
one
of
these
particulars
,
but
my
leisure
will
not
permit
me
to
say
all
that
might
be
spoken
;
and
such
things
as
are
well
known
of
him
already
may
well
be
spared
,
seeing
we
have
so
plentiful
an
argument
of
discourse
afforded
unto
us
from
his
death-bed
.
That
I
may
therefore
bring
you
thither
the
sooner
;
Thirdly
,
I
propound
his
discreet
and
grave
deportment
to
his
children
as
a
Parent
;
he
loved
them
,
but
not
fondly
;
inclining
to
send
one
of
them
shortly
into
France
,
and
having
sent
both
of
them
(
for
he
had
two
sons
onely
surviving
)
unto
Westminster
,
one
of
the
famousest
Schools
of
England
,
for
their
more
pious
,
and
liberal
education
:
When
they
were
there
,
he
shifted
not
all
his
own
burden
upon
their
Master
,
though
known
to
be
vigilant
,
as
well
for
the
pious
as
learned
education
of
such
as
are
intrusted
with
him
,
but
by
frequent
Letters
instructed
the
eldest
especially
;
a
testimony
whereof
we
reserve
to
the
end
of
our
Discourse
.
Fourthly
,
look
upon
him
as
a
fellow-servant
to
others
in
the
Family
;
and
so
you
shall
find
him
just
,
courteous
,
affable
,
and
therefore
beloved
generally
of
all
whilest
he
lived
,
and
bewailed
universally
being
now
dead
of
all
.
I
can
but
glean
here
and
there
an
ear
in
this
plentiful
Harvest
.
One
Passage
I
cannot
omit
,
being
an
earnest
request
to
my
Lord
the
day
before
his
death
,
for
a
servant
in
the
Family
,
that
having
fallen
under
my
Lords
displeasure
,
had
received
his
discharge
,
and
was
not
long
after
to
quit
his
employment
.
When
my
Lord
asked
him
whether
he
had
ought
to
offer
to
his
consideration
,
he
replyed
,
Nothing
now
,
but
onely
that
your
Lordship
would
be
pleased
to
take
such
an
one
(
naming
the
person
)
into
your
Lordships
favour
,
and
forgive
his
offence
.
A
seasonable
charity
for
a
dying
,
though
a
necessary
duty
,
as
opportunity
shall
require
,
for
a
living
Christian
,
not
onely
to
give
pardon
unto
such
as
offend
our selves
,
but
also
to
become
a
Mediator
for
such
as
offend
others
:
For
the
greatest
comfort
of
a
dying
Saint
is
the
pardon
of
his
sins
;
and
whosoever
hath
tasted
of
the
largenesse
of
Gods
bounty
,
in
remitting
his
own
talents
,
would
not
willingly
have
any
of
his
brethren
charged
with
pence
,
either
by
himself
,
or
others
.
Fifthly
,
consider
him
as
a
Christian
,
and
so
led
as
it
were
out
into
a
more
publick
concernment
.
And
here
you
may
find
him
,
I
say
not
commendable
,
but
admirable
,
both
in
life
and
death
.
First
,
for
his
life
,
he
was
constant
to
his
Principles
,
not
a
reed
shaken
with
the
wind
,
sometimes
of
one
opinion
,
and
sometimes
of
another
,
but
fixed
upon
the
basis
of
the
holy
Scriptures
,
as
interpreted
in
the
Articles
of
the
Church
of
England
:
in
the
Communion
of
which
holy
Church
,
as
he
had
received
his
Baptisme
,
so
he
professed
to
lay
down
his
life
,
intreating
a
neighbour
that
was
in
his
chamber
to
signifie
so
much
unto
his
acquaintance
at
Ampthill
.
And
this
,
Beloved
,
is
a
matter
of
great
moment
,
to
keep
the
union
of
the
Church
in
these
times
of
Division
and
Schisme
.
For
what
is
a
man
without
charity
?
And
what
charity
hath
he
that
violates
unity
?
that
for
a
small
matter
,
not
of
Doctrine
neither
,
but
of
Order
and
Discipline
,
brings
disturbance
and
disorder
into
the
fold
of
Christs
sheep
.
The
Church
of
England
doth
not
impose
indifferent
things
,
as
binding
the
conscience
,
with
the
same
obligation
,
that
truths
necessary
to
salvation
,
and
pertaining
to
the
Faith
doe
;
but
gives
other
Churches
the
liberty
that
she
taketh
her self
,
to
vary
in
matters
of
that
nature
,
according
to
the
exigency
of
divers
seasons
;
and
therefore
the
sin
of
those
that
depart
from
her
communion
is
the
greater
.
This
rashnesse
our
peaceable
Brother
abhorred
and
detested
(
and
indeed
what
can
excuse
it
,
when
it
proceeds
so
far
(
as
in
many
it
hath
done
)
as
to
cast
out
,
as
Antichristian
,
the
Apostolical
Government
of
the
Church
?
)
wishing
,
that
it
might
be
taken
notice
of
,
I
doubt
not
but
in
charity
for
the
confirmation
of
others
.
But
yet
indifferent
things
be
always
look
't
upon
as
such
,
and
therefore
though
he
was
far
from
contention
about
them
,
yet
his
heart
mounted
most
actively
up
to
grander
matters
,
that
he
might
always
have
a
conscience
void
of
offence
toward
God
,
and
toward
man
.
He
had
surely
a
perpetual
bent
in
his
mind
toward
Heavenly
things
;
for
he
hath
said
to
me
,
that
he
thought
it
meet
,
that
if
a
man
should
goe
into
a
Church
where
the
holy
Sacrament
was
celebrated
,
and
not
know
of
it
before
,
yet
that
he
should
be
ready
to
receive
it
.
He
looked
indeed
upon
that
Ordinance
,
as
worthy
high
preparation
,
but
withal
he
judged
it
expedient
that
every
one
should
be
habitually
prepared
.
And
indeed
I
judge
him
so
to
have
been
,
because
when
he
could
have
the
opportunity
,
he
with
his
wife
received
every
moneth
.
Surely
he
was
,
Ps.
109.4
.
as
the
Psalmist
speaks
,
a
man
that
gave
himself
unto
Prayer
;
or
as
the
Hebrew
Text
reads
the
place
,
even
Prayer
it self
:
yet
not
in
the
errour
of
the
Euchites
,
that
excluded
other
duties
by
misunderstanding
that
Text
,
Pray
continually
;
but
by
the
frequent
addresses
of
his
soul
to
the
Throne
of
Grace
,
and
the
perpetual
dis-engagement
of
his
heart
from
such
sins
as
might
indispose
him
to
the
discharge
of
that
holy
duty
.
He
exhorted
therefore
such
as
stood
about
him
to
the
diligent
performance
of
this
devout
work
,
saying
,
O
pray
,
pray
;
but
withal
remember
that
businesse
must
not
be
neglected
.
And
therefore
if
he
should
want
a
better
opportunity
,
he
would
,
he
said
,
say
his
prayers
as
he
stood
behind
his
Master
.
How
careful
he
was
to
be
present
at
the
Domestick
Chappel
,
and
to
have
others
,
both
attending
to
,
and
reverent
in
the
worship
of
God
,
the
whole
Family
can
sufficiently
testifie
.
Amongst
whom
,
in
the
absence
of
those
to
whom
the
duty
did
more
properly
belong
,
he
did
often
,
and
(
as
I
have
heard
)
with
much
gravity
and
zeal
perform
that
holy
exercise
.
That
rule
in
dubiis
pars
tutior
,
take
in
doubtful
matters
the
safer
side
,
he
observed
in
usury
,
abstaining
,
though
he
professed
that
he
could
scarce
satisfie
the
arguments
that
were
brought
for
the
defence
of
it
.
But
when
he
perceived
that
God
by
his
last
sicknesse
gave
him
an
effectual
call
out
of
this
life
,
his
zeal
and
devotion
were
not
onely
burning
in
heat
,
but
flaming
out
into
an
evident
and
conspicuous
fire
,
that
both
enlightened
and
warmed
all
that
stood
about
him
.
The
conflict
and
contestation
that
the
four
distempered
humours
made
within
his
body
,
seemed
to
be
like
the
four
wheels
of
the
fiery
chariot
of
Elijah
,
whereby
he
mounted
with
speed
unto
Heaven
.
That
he
might
cast
away
every
block
out
of
his
way
,
he
settled
his
estate
temporal
,
by
making
his
Will
:
wherein
he
forgot
not
the
poor
of
Saint
Johns's
,
this
Parish
of
Malden
,
and
the
two
other
neighbour-Parishes
of
Ampthil
and
Houghton
,
bequeathing
five
pound
a
piece
to
the
poor
of
the
two
first
Parishes
,
and
two
pound
ten
shillings
to
each
of
the
other
:
which
was
a
very
good
proportion
,
considering
his
estate
,
which
was
far
inferiour
to
what
was
thought
it
had
been
,
and
what
it
might
have
been
had
he
been
intent
upon
the
world
:
But
he
professed
that
he
never
loved
it
;
He
well
knew
what
Saint
John
writeth
,
1
Ep.
2.15
That
if
any
man
love
the
world
,
the
love
of
the
Father
is
not
him
.
When
his
Will
was
offered
to
him
to
be
sealed
on
the
Sunday
,
not
long
after
that
he
had
received
the
holy
Sacrament
,
a
pious
scruple
entred
into
his
thoughts
,
of
not
sealing
it
on
that
day
,
which
ought
not
,
he
thought
,
to
be
profaned
by
any
secular
or
worldly
action
that
respected
the
affairs
of
our
goods
or
estates
.
But
when
I
told
him
that
it
was
a
work
of
charity
,
and
of
such
a
nature
as
was
consistent
with
the
keeping
of
the
Commandment
,
he
willingly
yielded
,
and
set
to
the
writing
his
trembling
hand
.
Next
to
his
goods
,
he
propounded
the
place
of
his
burial
to
be
in
the
North
Isle
of
this
Church
of
Malden
,
at
the
entrance
into
this
new
erected
Sepulchre
for
the
right
Honourable
and
religious
Lady
,
the
Countesse
of
Oxford
and
Elgin
his
Mistresse
,
where
he
said
,
that
both
himself
and
his
wife
if
she
dyed
(
presaging
her
sicknesse
also
to
be
mortal
)
might
conveniently
be
laid
together
,
that
such
as
should
come
to
view
her
Monument
,
might
tread
upon
her
servants
in
their
passage
to
it
:
but
he
added
,
that
if
there
should
be
any
difficulty
in
fitting
the
place
for
them
,
he
was
not
scrupulous
;
and
requested
to
be
interred
in
the
open
Church-yard
,
on
the
North-side
(
to
crosse
the
received
superstition
,
as
he
thought
,
of
the
constant
choice
of
the
South-side
)
near
the
new
Chappel
.
The
next
care
he
took
was
to
give
satisfaction
to
any
that
had
ought
to
proffer
unto
him
:
And
herein
he
was
able
to
make
good
Samuels
challenge
,
who
asked
the
people
,
whom
he
had
defrauded
?
1
Sam
.
12.3
.
For
there
was
none
that
had
any
thing
to
impute
unto
him
of
injustice
or
wrong
.
He
was
in
some
trouble
that
he
had
not
his
Accompts
in
a
more
ready
preparation
for
such
a
surprise
;
thinking
it
a
kind
of
imprudence
to
leave
any
thing
in
disorder
.
But
when
he
had
spoken
of
things
most
concernable
,
and
added
,
that
if
his
wife
did
survive
him
,
he
had
such
marks
in
his
Books
and
Papers
,
that
would
give
easie
directions
to
a
settlement
of
his
Accompts
,
though
not
perfected
;
he
let
down
these
thoughts
as
Elijah
did
his
Mantle
,
when
he
was
ascending
into
Heaven
,
and
mounted
aloft
,
making
this
good
use
of
the
heat
and
violence
of
his
distemper
,
even
to
vent
and
discharge
his
pious
Meditations
with
the
more
eager
intention
,
audible
voice
,
and
fervent
zeal
.
Indeed
my
Lords
respects
to
him
were
very
noble
in
this
behalf
:
For
he
was
pleased
to
advise
him
by
no
means
to
disorder
his
thoughts
about
any
businesse
of
his
,
but
to
mind
and
attend
the
best
expediencies
of
his
own
health
.
His
disease
did
dispose
him
to
that
activity
which
did
portend
it
to
be
too
high
for
the
Physicians
correction
;
but
yet
God
was
pleased
so
to
moderate
the
strength
of
it
,
that
he
continued
almost
to
the
last
gasp
,
in
the
sobriety
of
his
mind
;
giving
not
onely
a
good
example
,
but
holy
advise
to
as
many
as
came
near
him
.
Somewhat
he
spake
in
friendly
respects
to
me
,
and
much
to
his
fellow-servants
;
he
admonished
them
to
fear
God
in
the
first
place
,
and
then
to
discharge
their
duty
to
their
temporal
Lord
:
but
first
,
said
he
,
fear
God
;
he
knew
that
to
be
the
beginning
of
wisdome
,
and
he
that
fails
there
,
must
stumble
at
the
very
entrance
upon
his
duty
.
When
we
saw
him
so
nimble
,
and
indefatigable
in
his
Discourse
,
we
exhorted
him
to
forbear
and
spare
his
spirits
;
he
replyed
presently
,
I
doe
not
like
your
advice
:
Can
a
man
spend
his
spirits
better
than
in
the
praises
of
God
?
He
found
the
pangs
of
death
upon
him
,
and
therefore
he
resolved
to
spend
that
little
strength
and
time
that
he
had
left
,
to
the
best
advantage
.
When
I
was
praying
by
him
and
for
him
,
he
interrupted
me
with
an
earnest
request
,
that
if
I
was
about
to
use
any
expressions
that
might
intreat
his
farther
continuance
in
this
life
,
I
would
forbear
them
;
so
strong
were
his
desires
to
be
dissolved
,
and
to
be
with
Christ
.
O
ye
that
cleave
and
cling
to
the
painted
vanities
of
a
wicked
world
,
and
clasp
your
embraces
about
that
which
must
needs
one
day
fail
you
;
learn
from
this
holy
soul
where
to
fix
your
hearts
and
affections
,
even
upon
Christ
,
and
God
,
and
Heaven
:
Did
you
but
see
what
he
saw
,
sure
you
would
love
as
he
loved
,
not
the
world
,
nor
the
pleasures
of
the
world
(
for
these
alas
are
neither
solid
,
nor
permanent
)
but
those
better
things
that
are
pure
for
their
nature
,
and
constant
for
their
duration
,
and
fully
satisfactory
in
their
fruition
and
obtainment
.
Sure
our
devout
brother
saw
,
with
Moses
,
Heb
.
11.27
.
him
by
faith
that
is
invisible
,
and
therefore
his
soul
was
restlesse
until
he
came
to
the
full
enjoyment
of
him
.
When
we
desired
him
to
take
any
thing
for
his
bodily
refreshment
,
he
said
,
it
was
to
pamper
the
flesh
,
wherein
he
thought
he
received
too
much
ease
;
and
therefore
he
desired
that
God
would
in
that
respect
lay
his
hand
more
heavy
upon
him
.
I
told
him
that
God
best
knew
how
to
deal
with
him
,
that
if
he
pleased
to
refresh
him
,
he
ought
to
accept
of
it
;
that
the
strongest
of
us
,
if
God
should
correct
us
in
his
fury
,
would
be
consumed
and
brought
to
nothing
;
that
our
temporal
sufferings
could
not
expiate
Gods
wrath
,
or
satisfie
for
our
sins
:
At
which
expression
he
suddenly
closed
with
me
,
and
cried
,
No
,
no
,
Christ
hath
done
all
that
,
I
trust
in
his
merits
.
And
indeed
it
was
very
remarkable
,
that
though
he
was
always
confident
,
yet
he
was
ever
humble
also
,
acknowledging
himself
the
chief
of
sinners
,
declaring
that
his
boldnesse
sprang
not
from
his
own
works
,
but
Christs
Passion
.
He
was
much
delighted
with
a
passage
in
Anselm's
Meditations
,
wherein
he
aggravates
his
sin
beyond
the
Apostacy
of
the
Devil
himself
:
He
rehearsed
it
by
parts
,
in
Latine
,
and
desired
me
to
English
it
after
him
,
for
the
benefit
of
the
standers
by
.
I
had
almost
forgot
the
particular
expressions
,
but
endeavouring
to
recover
them
amongst
his
Papers
,
at
last
I
found
the
sentence
at
large
,
with
many
more
Collections
out
of
severall
Authours
,
both
Sacred
and
Morall
,
the
names
of
the
Authours
being
written
in
the
Margin
.
I
will
first
transcribe
it
from
his
own
Note-Book
,
and
then
English
it
from
his
Pen
,
as
I
did
from
his
Tongue
.
Diabolus
nullâ
praecedentis
vindictâ
superbiens
peccavit
;
ego
visâ
ejus
poenâ
non
continens
,
ad
peccatum
properavi
:
Ille
in
innocentiâ
constitutus
,
ego
verò
restitutus
:
Ille
perstitit
in
malitiâ
,
Deo
reprobante
;
ego
verò
,
Deo
revocante
:
Ille
obduratur
ad
punientem
;
ego
verò
ad
blandientem
:
&
sic
uterque
contra
Deum
:
Ille
contra
non
requirentem
se
;
●go
vero
contra
morientem
pro
me
:
ecce
,
cujus
imaginem
horrebam
,
in
multis
me
aspicio
horribiliorem
.
The
Devil
growing
proud
,
without
the
observation
of
the
punishment
of
another
,
offended
:
I
beholding
his
doom
,
refrained
not
,
but
hasted
unto
sin
:
he
created
in
innocency
,
I
restored
to
it
:
he
persisted
in
malice
,
God
rejecting
him
;
but
I
,
God
recalling
me
:
He
is
hardned
against
an
avenger
,
I
against
an
allurer
;
and
so
both
against
God
;
but
he
against
God
not
seeking
him
,
I
against
him
,
dying
for
me
:
Behold
,
I
am
in
many
particulars
more
abominable
than
him
whose
image
I
abominate
.
The
committing
of
this
passage
so
perfectly
to
his
memory
,
that
he
could
rehearse
it
in
the
midst
of
his
disease
,
argues
that
he
liked
the
sense
,
and
was
willing
to
look
upon
sin
under
the
highest
aggravations
that
could
be
put
upon
it
.
When
he
was
almost
spent
with
speaking
,
he
desired
that
occasions
of
devotion
should
be
administred
unto
him
.
Whereupon
observing
him
now
drawing
near
to
his
end
,
I
suggested
unto
him
divers
seasonable
expressions
,
which
with
great
alacrity
he
repeated
after
me
;
as
,
I
desire
to
be
dissolved
and
to
be
with
Christ
:
Lord
Jesu
receive
my
spirit
,
&c.
He
thought
he
should
have
dyed
on
Sunday
,
and
began
to
please
himself
with
the
opportunity
of
his
change
,
that
he
was
like
to
goe
from
a
temporal
to
an
eternal
Sabbath
,
conclude
one
and
begin
another
rest
.
He
always
,
he
said
,
delighted
to
praise
God
in
Musical
Metres
,
but
professed
that
his
best
songs
here
had
their
imperfections
;
now
upon
his
dissolution
,
his
hymns
should
be
perfect
:
And
as
I
remember
,
this
he
propounded
as
the
chiefest
of
his
felicities
(
I
mean
of
privative
ones
)
that
he
should
want
sin
.
Thus
calling
and
crying
upon
God
,
confident
in
Christs
merits
,
and
disclaiming
his
own
,
confessing
himself
to
be
the
chief
of
sinners
,
and
lifting
up
his
hands
(
for
that
was
his
sign
,
that
when
he
could
speak
no
more
,
yet
his
heart
was
the
same
)
when
his
voice
failed
him
,
he
breathed
out
his
pious
soul
into
the
hands
of
his
Redeemer
.
When
his
voice
failed
him
,
his
God
sustained
him
,
according
to
that
holy
and
comfortable
expression
of
the
Psalmist
,
My
flesh
and
my
heart
faileth
(
me
,
)
Ps.
73.26
.
but
God
is
the
strength
of
my
heart
,
and
my
portion
for
ever
.
He
departed
this
life
about
eleven
of
the
clock
on
Munday
the
third
of
August
,
1657.
To
his
God
,
after
whom
he
panted
so
earnestly
,
he
is
now
gone
;
with
him
we
leave
him
,
singing
those
blessed
Hallelujahs
unto
which
he
aspired
.
Shall
I
say
our
sorrow
is
not
yet
finished
?
Truly
if
we
respect
our selves
,
deprived
of
so
pious
friends
,
I
may
:
But
if
we
look
upon
her
condition
,
we
have
farther
cause
of
rejoycing
.
Many
things
that
I
spake
of
him
,
in
their
proportion
may
be
said
of
her
also
.
She
was
a
woman
of
excellent
parts
,
serviceable
to
all
the
occasions
of
my
Lords
Family
in
a
high
degree
,
drawing
with
her
husband
in
the
same
yoke
,
as
of
Wedlock
,
so
of
businesse
.
I
shall
say
nothing
of
her
skill
in
the
French
Tongue
,
or
faculty
in
English
Poetry
,
though
she
exercised
it
in
Translating
the
holy
Psalms
,
and
other
portions
of
holy
Scripture
;
much
lesse
of
her
Family
,
though
very
good
,
for
she
was
descended
from
the
Glovers
of
Hertfordshire
,
and
at
a
distance
Niece
to
that
pious
Glover
in
Queen
Maries
dayes
,
who
ennobled
his
lineage
not
by
receiving
the
bloud
of
others
,
but
by
losing
his
own
for
the
testimony
of
the
truth
:
I
say
,
of
these
I
shall
speak
nothing
,
because
they
concern
her
not
,
as
to
her
spiritual
condition
,
and
therefore
I
look
upon
them
as
lesse
pertinent
to
this
occasion
.
Moreover
,
I
intend
not
here
to
write
her
life
,
which
was
better
known
unto
many
here
present
than
to
my self
;
but
some
more
remarkable
passages
of
her
sicknesse
,
and
such
behaviour
of
hers
under
that
sharp
visitation
,
that
may
tend
to
the
spiritual
advantage
of
those
that
hear
it
.
When
she
was
newly
assaulted
with
her
disease
,
she
quickly
perceived
,
that
except
some
remedy
were
found